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me when angelfish isn't here
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#megumi fushiguro#jjk art#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#pulled another allnighter fr Angst's sake cries i havent slept.......but i couldnt help myself i was out all DAY i hadnt drawn all DAY#do u know what that does to a mf i felt all antsy and Wrong#so i cracked an energy drink i think i may have a problem honestly but hey at least u get ur daily dose of megumi angst#remember how i said i considered including gojo in the yuuji/tsumiki/megu squared train piece#well this is me making up fr Not including him there#i ws right his and megumi's relationship deserves its own homage smile :)#anyway @ anon who wanted a gojo/megumi hug.....ik it's not exactly a hug but you can forgive me im sure <3#dare i say it's better than hugs jeremy.....#honestly fr all my gripes w gojo i Did get kind of emo abt this?? but i feel like. the majority of my emotions r on megumi's behalf#also might have been the mukashi mukashi no kyou no boku on repeat that'll also do it#seriously debated putting translated lyrics as the caption but it feels like a copout doing 2 lyric-captions in a row#also i do have some shame. miku lyrics r a bit.#anyway art notes uhhhhh finally got gojo's hair to not look Yuuji#who knew the trick was to make it longer smh maybe sleep deprivation n 10 hours of staring at a screen Does make simple problems hard#oh file name 'proud of you' btw
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Got up at 6am... got a text i don't have to go in until 10:30...
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Navalny has died. My computer died. It's not even 10:00 yet.
It's also my sister's birthday.
#im not being flippant its just like#what do i do w myself#go looking at videos#cant write ....#navalnys death is a bigger issue#so if i dont get writing done...#i do need computer but have no money#sad he died on sisters bday
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the fact that i’ve got work piling up and a project to get done, and i’m just sat here
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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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FoM (fields of memes (pt1))
#aka i fuck around w rendering n coloring all day long :P#or just expel the ideas that have haunted me for a week#ive got a lot more of em help#fields of mistria#fom march#fom hayden#fom valen#fom holt#fom dell#my art#guys the fixation sure do be hyper or whatever#i need to like. slow down a little before i run myself into the ground 😭#dragging my ass away from my desk to watch jjba is what ive been trying#anyways do you like my shoe hcs for holt n dell :3c
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WE ARE SO BACK WE ARE SO BACK
#literally shaking#idk you live every day thinking that they’ll make a sequel#but then it happens and like#i dunno I didn’t think ITD ACTUALLT HAPPEN!!?#WHAT DO I DO WITH MYSELF NOW????#my art#rwrb#firstprince#red white and royal blue#alex claremont diaz#Henry fox#prince Henry#AHHHH#IM LITERLALT SHAKING#this paired w John Watson reading fanfiction bro#it’s been a DAY
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teacher getou au...... wauh
#jujutsu kaisen#geto suguru#gojo satoru#itadori yuuji#kugisaki nobara#fushiguro megumi#teacher getou au#satosugu#fanart#very funny how gojo leaves both yuuji and yuuta on their first mission hssdjshjdd#i know hes technically watching but. these kids do not know anything abt jujutsu at that point and theyre also KIDS. worst teacher HKSDKSD#anyway. been trying to look for fics but haven’t been able to find one i wanna read so i was like ok I’ll do it myself#however i am not a good writer so. DRAWINGS OF RANDOM LITTLE SCENES WILL HAVE TO DO#i want a plot focused fic w a side of shipping…. blease if anyone out there has any recs#as in like. the shipping written in a way that’s relevant to the plot#i want to see the rammies explored. yknowyknow#what happened differently in the aftermath of rikos death to make getou want to be a teacher instead#how is jjk0 different without him as the main antagonist and who does kenjaku take as a host#how does shibuya play out#how are both he and gojo different as characters#having grown up into adulthood together#getou as gojo’s moral compass etc#YKNOWYKNOW#i am aware that to explore all of that would be a monster of a fic which is probably why it does not exist (to my knowledge) but#IF THERES ANY FICS OUT THERE THAT EXPLORE EVEN SOME OF IT. PLEASE SEND THEM MY WAY#EVEN A FUN LITTLE CASEFIC WHERE THEY GO ON A QUICK MISSION OR SMTH#AS LONG AS THERES PLOT#another theoretical fic i would like to read is canonverse post-shibuya but like with a plot that makes sense#jjk my favourite mediocre shounen battle manga. could be so much better. has anyone attempted this#that one post thats like im not a hater im a dismayer. thats me
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springtrap says the EVIL sex word because hes so so SCARY and evil and PURPLE AAAAA!!!!!! AAAAAA!!! SEX!!!!!!! MOUMMY!! HEEELP!!!!
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#springtrap#purple guy#william afton#springtrap fnaf#you all should listen ta the hit album 'sex in minecraft' by joel varg#a classic if i do say so myself#GRANDMA HAS DIED BUT I STIIIIIIIILLLL HAVE SEX IN MINECRAAAAAAAAAAAFT#what is up w/him and grandma first the ghostbusters album now this#glitchtrap#vanny fnaf#this has been stuck in my head for forever#this is what insanity looks like :\#oh well already knew thattun#i wasnt supposed ta draw this taday. it was supposed ta be. something else.#weeeeeereeeerrrrghgh#bye#suggestive#i guess#spacie scribbles
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POV: Even with advantage and buffs, your local folk hero just rolled 1 in Intimidation
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#larian studios#wyll ravengard#wulbren bongle#shadowheart#astarion#comics#fanart#poor wyll so polite even when intimidating#and against WULBREN OF ALL PEOPLE#'but where is barcus??' still stuck on the windmill because i forgot to rescue him whoops#im a failure of a folk hero#i kinda thought of having wulbren kickin his leg or a piece of steel watch hitting him but those would be other tests#plus im kinda on an art slump so im taking easy w myself dfghjk#like i said on twitter - i should NOT be allowed to inspo reroll after this fail - but i hit reroll too fast sdfghjklkjhgf#4th member of the team was lae'zel and i didn't know what to do with her#so i rather imagine she was offscream callin raphael to take her soul for the hammer bc she cant take this embarrassment
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i have so much band!au content in the pipeline my brain is Rotting but enjoy these two for now
jjk band!au
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#yuuji#ryoumen sukuna#sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk band!au#every time i dress sukuna i stray further from gods light. what is that. what did i do why did i do that.#the pants...the mullet mohawk..the tanktop that might as well be Off...am i cooking or committing a cardinal sin who can say#i realized that i probably couldnt give him rings bc the priss wouldnt want to scuff his guitar#which goes directly against my religion that says that any modern au sukuna has to b iced up#that being said the bracelets r probably pushing it but he needed /something/ so he can deal.#but oh my god the guitars like dont get me wrong im thrilled w how they turned out but god i wished for death#looks around accusingly whose idea was this >:c (me it was mine)#anyway i am feeding myself on this au this will not be the last u see of it :)#HARD pivot from emo yoi content oops
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Why, as a man, are you blond
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#nanami kento#jjk nanami#nanami#this was meant to be a black and white doodle to try out inking w a different brush/re finding me style but then#i was like ‘i should doodle a bg’ and then ‘hm i should add some local colours#and then i found myself rendering for hours -_-#i dont even know why i decided to do a bg. I WAS GONNA BLUR IT ANYWAY#WHATS MY ISSUE
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Down, down, down by the river...
Link to Sixfanarts
Closeups under the cut
#my art#karlach#baldurs gate 3#bg3#digital art#digital painting#tiefling#I just think she deserves to hop some stones#I also don't actually play this game so forgive me for literally everything#im alive!!!!!!!#I had a ton of shit to deal with this year and only today got back to art again :)#dnd#what else do i tag this... hm.#also I discovered some new brushes yesterday. as you can tell w the leaves in the bg#proud of myself#for the portfolio
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[ID: a digital redraw of the scene where chuuya shoots dazai in the shoulder. on the top of the drawing is chuuya holding a guy to dazai's head in the red and grey hallways of the prison. on the bottom of the drawing is dazai's pained face. the gunshot is shown stylistically as hectic lines behind his bloody shoulder. over the image is half a quote from goncharov that reads 'if we really were in love you wouldn't have missed.' the signature says dandelion-roots. end ID]
This quote from Goncharov (1973) in relation to soukoku has been haunting me from before I even got to that scene in the anime (the full thing is: Katya- Of course we're in love, that's why I tried to shoot you/ Goncharov- If we really were in love you wouldn't have missed). Violence as a tool for communicating emotions, especially love and hatred, especially love and hatred makes me go feral- how could I not think of the iconic quote that says that katya's miss was a sign of a lack of love/a fake love when chuuya didn't miss? Just... losing it over here.
#bsd#bsd s5#bungou stray dogs#soukoku#soukoku fanart#bungou stray dogs season 5#bsd spoilers#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#not to tell on myself but i just realized that i. used the wrong screenshot as ref JKDSKDJKDJ i have too many saved. its fine. u get it#just saying it in case anyone was confused#goncharov#also just to be clear if someone didnt understand the caption- i used the quote to be the opposite of what was happening#not to describe what was happening in the scene or to imply that chuuya later not killing dazai was him 'missing'#i get VERY specific imagery in my mind and i disregard everything else#and i do it in the way that would be incredibly confusing to most ppl at first glance. such is the world#im not wordy rn i cant fully describe my feral state after finishing bsd earlier today or this thing. hope u enjoy it anyway!#it was rly fun to do a screenshot redraw the bsd animation crew is so freaking talented and i got to see which colours they used where#i changed them bcs they wouldnt been too desaturated but lots of blues in the bg! colour theory babyyy#and got to play around w csp! fun fun been so long since ive done digital art
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