#what's up with the nikolai brainrot right now?

[daz4i]

whore. (<- barely containing lust)

[poetryandfluffycats]

Starstruck

A/N: yay! more kidnapper Nikolai! I'm thinking about making this into an actual chaptered fic with lore and shit instead of just random drabbles, but that's way in the future. for now, enjoy this brainrot.

Pairing: Kidnapper!Nikolai Gogol x fem!reader

Content: Nikolai sets up a wonderful date for the two of you down in the basement! And you realize that you may be developing some... unwanted feelings towards the jester.

Warnings: kidnapper au, stockholm syndrome, first person writing, mainly fluff<3

Words: 755

Oneshot under cut!

I walked in from the bathroom to a scene of nothing but pure beauty. A blue hue reflected off the usually boring walls of the basement, courtesy of the projector Nikolai had wheeled into the room. The device was portraying something of a time lapse of the night sky, stars twinkling and spinning in their constellations. Blankets were spread out all across the floor, all of them having some sort of spacey print. Stars, the sun and moon, the solar system, comets, you name it, it was there.

Sat in the middle of the blankets with his back rested against the bed frame was Nikolai. He didn't look like Nikolai, though. No face paint, no crazy eyes or smile, no jester outfit. Just a normal man in his-you guessed it-space themed pyjamas, a stranger to the clown I had grown to know.

"You mentioned wanting to see the stars again" He stated simply, patting the empty space beside him. His tone was so foreign to me, sounding almost like an apology. "I figured, if I cannot bring you to the stars, I will bring the stars to you"

I was quick to join him, sliding my head into the crook of his shoulder and inhaling. He smelt different without all that makeup on, more like natural manly musky scent and less like a chemical sweatshop mixed with undertones of blood. "You remembered..." I mumbled, reaching a hand behind his back to play with the end of his braid. "Thank you"

"Of course! Anything for my love, my little space queen! Oh, and I have another little surprise for you, but that's for later! First, stargazing"

Nikolai rambled on, wrapping an arm around my waist and pulling me in close. Our legs tangled together in a messy heap, his bare feet brushing against mine. I made a note of how cold they felt.

I hummed in agreement, turning my attention back to the projection against the wall. I had always wondered about what was out there, beyond our universe. If there was life somewhere else, a whole world we didn't know about. Maybe it would be better than this one, well fuck, anything would be better than what I was currently going through. I'd choose living in space over Nikolais basement any day, anyone would.

To be free, Nikolai talked about that alot. About how this was freedom down here. Being free of any laws the government forced onto society, being free of judgement and hate. It was just me and him here, this was being free.

And there was something about the way his mismatched eyes stared into mine when he said it that made me want to believe him. That this was where I was meant to be. Moments like these only furthered that idea in my brain, and it was the worst feeling ever.

A shooting star flew across the screen, a flash of light in the night sky. It lit up Nikolais face like fairy-lights, and if I didn't know any better, I would have said he looked angelic. His white hair glowed blue in the light of the room, eyes sparkling, lips parted, and cheekbones sharp as knifes.

"Make a wish, Kolya" My body felt like it was moving on its own accord as I brought my hand up to cup his jaw, tracing my nail over his bottom lip. "It'll come true, you know"

Maybe this was what Stockholm Syndrome felt like, maybe that's why I felt so starstruck staring at this cold-blooded killer.

"My wish..." Nikolai trailed off, leaning into my touch and closing his eyes, a faint but genuine smile playing on his lips. "... does not matter. I have everything I need in my life right now. What is your wish, my dove?"

I pondered the question for a second. My real wish was to fly amongst the stars, but that was stupid. He'd just laugh if I told him that, and that would ruin this new found peace I liked so much. So, I lied. Told him something he would want to hear instead.

"I want you to show me that surprise you said about, that's my wish"

"Aha! Of course, come here"

His lips were on mine in a heartbeat, soft and slow, unlike every other time he had stolen a kiss from me. There was a strawberry taste on his lips, chapstick? Had he applied that just for this? Cute, so damn cute.

Shit, I was falling for the enemy.

[happyhauntt]

gold rush modern au hcs

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─── summary: the anya / nikolai brainrot is real and i want to start writing for their modern au so until i do, here are some fun headcanons bc i literally cannot stop thinking about them.

─── pairing: nikolai lantsov & anya kamenev (original character.)

anya lets her guard down when she's drunk and early on in their situationship it's the only time nikolai gets to take care of her.

like she calls him to come and get her from a frat party genya took her to and she's so cuddly he's honestly concerned she's been drugged and/or cloned

like 'who are you and what have you done with the girl who bullies me like her life depends on it???'

he's so soft for it when he realises she's just drunk and he tucks her up in her bed with painkillers and a trash can within reach and he sits on the couch until dawn to make sure she's okay and then slips out before she wakes up.

everyone: 'for someone who hates nikolai you sure are obsessed with him'. anya: 'no i'm not???' everyone: 'sure you aren't babe'.

they are the definition of 'fell first, fell harder' !!!

nikolai was out here pining for anya for years, and she just wakes up one day and gets slammed like a fucking freight train with the realisation. oh fuck. i'm in love with nikolai. somehow. how the fuck did that happen. WHY the fuck did that happen. my life is over.

this is right after nikolai is injured at winter fête during an assassination attempt against his father and her whole world just screeches to a halt.

genya and david are just in the corner and david's handing genya a wad of cash and they're laughing while anya has her little meltdown it's adorable.

entering into a friends-with-benefits situation when anya is engaged to vasily (it's an uno-reverse plot of their original story where nikolai is engaged to alina bc PARALLELS and also i can't let them be happy in any universe without first making them suffer) is a Bad Idea but these two are nothing if not self-destructive.

anya may be in love with him but she doesn't have the emotional capacity to Deal with that yet so she's just gonna fuck him.

being friends-with-benefits is all well and good until nikolai gets so fucking jealous of anyone who even looks at anya. she finds this hilarious (until someone's looking at nikolai and then she's throwing hands.)

anya is very insecure about her disability, especially because of her status and expectations, and nikolai makes it his duty to show her how much he adores every inch of her, every day.

anya is engaged to vasily and she and nikolai fully get caught by zoya sneaking out of the engagement party to go makeout in the bathroom. these two are gonna give her premature grey hairs honestly-

anya admits to nikolai that she misses being able to dance. nikolai helps her dance around her apartment by supporting her weight and they're giggling and suddenly they're slow dancing and it's so fuckin adorable.

it's hard to believe anya was so mean to him for literal years.

nsfw beneath the cut!

anya learning she's actually a sub is so fucking funny

like she is so submissive during sex but absolutely not at first. she has a dire need for control in her life and definitely runs their sex life/tops for the first few months.

it's really significant the first time she realises she trusts nikolai and surrenders that control to him, because what she really wants is someone to take care of her, someone to trust completely.

she's so bossy at first and then sex becomes this thing where she just melts and nikolai literally thinks he'll die the first time she allows him that control because it's like seeing anya for the first time, and he's so in love with her already even if it's just sex but in that moment he swears he fell in love with her again. knowing he had her trust like that was,,, everything.

teasing eachother like it's an olympic sport?? more likely than you think.

like she used to hate him (lol not really) and now it's her personal fucking mission to rile him up at any given opportunity. public events?? in the library?? at her own fucking engagement party?? you got it.

nikolai fucking anya in her wedding dress??? yes.

because she is a masochist and doesn't know when to stop hurting herself (or nikolai honestly) she's like 'hey it arrived from it's final fitting, can i show it to you?' and he wants to say no so badly.

she's marrying his asshole brother, there is no world where he wants to see this dress, see her in it, picture her wearing it for someone other than him.

but her eyes are so wide, so vulnerable, and he realises she needs this. needs him to be the first person to see her wearing it. needs him to understand.

so she comes out, and he's honestly,,, floored. and angry. and so, so turned on. his eyes grow dark and hungry and before they know it he's hiking the dress up to her waist and fucking her against the doorframe.

and it's so possessive and full of remember you're my good girl, not his and when you're saying your vows, you gonna think of this? think of me fucking you in this dress? you're so beautiful, my darling, he doesn't deserve you. look at me. you're gonna walk down the aisle and all i'll be able to picture is your face as you come for me.

it's so hot and the room smells like sex and nikolai takes a picture of her in the dress afterwards, draped on the bed, face flushed and eyes shining and happy. and he'll pretend it's their wedding night.

[chuuyasheaven]

could you write that massage hc with aku?

Ofc! I’m gonna add Fyodor bcs sm1 asked for him and Nikolai but idk how to write him..

“ Bsd men massaging you but it escalated..? ”

Summary; You massage them, but y’all get horny <3 part two! So enjoy!! (Also using blue now, so whenever you have an brainrot or thirst and you request it, Tell me which color I should use!!!)

Warning; Akutagawa being clueless, Fyodor kinda manipulating the situation, Aku’s is kinda long oops, Ig YOU’RE massaging Aku, Sex???, Reader is gender neutral (afab, uses she/they)!

Akutagawa 🖤:

Being in the port mafia can be really stressful sometimes. And Akutagawa being Akutagawa, he doesn’t ask for any comfort from his partner.

But it’s obvious as soon he gets home, he seemed so..tense? So ofc you approach him, asking if he needed anything.

At first, he doesn’t say anything but after getting a little softer, he stated;

“Well, I suppose a massage would be very nice..” so he sat down on the couch, and you behind him.

You started of soft and started getting closer to his ‘tense’ spot. A sigh turned into a grunt, leaving you by surprise. Seeing the opportunity to whisper something.

“So that’s the spot, to get you start moaning, hm? Let’s see-”, But it didn’t last long bcs you got a phone call.

While you were on the phone, Aku thought to himself how mean you could be. How could you promise to take care of him and then leave him just for something on the phone? Ouch.

He would’ve ignored his desire, if it wasn’t so painfully hard. So hard, that he started to ‘rile you up’ by placing his hand on your thigh. So you notice and ignore it, continuing to talk on the phone. Seeing this, he started to place it further into your thigh. Until it hit your clothed cunt. This made your breath hitch.

Akutagawa likes the reaction. His fingertips brush against your cunt. Almost letting a moan slip, you excuse yourself nicely and hang up.

Akutagawa pinning you down on the couch, he’s still fingering you through your panties. But why are you still just whimpering? He wanted more volume.

“ Oh? Why are you just whimpering? I thought you hung up. Well, anyways, i assume we should pick up where we left off, hm? ”

Fyodor 💜:

Now, come on.

We all know how this would end, now, do we?

Fyodor would notice you more tense than usually. Which didn’t surprise you at all.

But he wouldn’t have helped, even pretend to notice it..what was he trying to do?

“What’s wrong, dove? You seem more stressed lately, would you like me to massage you?” He asked, in a mishivious (Russian) way.

Your naïve self, thinking nothing of it but a nice offer, accept it.

He literally hid his smirk.

You walked towards his direction and sat down on his lap.

As time goes on, Fyodor keeps on ignoring that spot that slightly has been paining you.

You were abt to speak up until he hit it. Finally feeling relaxed, Fyodor keeps on massaging it.

The more he did, the more you started to like it. He was kinda rough at first, then he became more gentle about it.

He began moving down until he got your bra. (you were shirtless btw.)

Fyodor unclapsed it and played with your nipples. While you were growing more desperate, he felt it on his thigh.

You felt his finger go down further on you, he was so close, so close to your panties.

Fyodor noticed, he saw how desperate you were. You finally achieved the state he was looking for.

His finger brushed over your clothed cunt, then:

He stopped. He just stopped.

You whined at the loss of his long, skilled and cold fingers.

“ Look at you, dove. So desperate. Well, sadly I'm not in the mood right now, so i guess you have to walk around in your wet panties for a while. ”

[chuu-huahua]

@downbadforpixels has once again sent me brainrots instead of writing them out themselves (smh) but they're so cute so i'll like. forgive them ig. anyways, BSD HIGHSCHOOL AU (wrote them all in one post cuz there were so many) (they're all prom centric by the way)

dazai and chuuya are they type that would wordlessly go from best friends/frenemies/whatever-the-fuck-they-are to lovers, so during prom they just ask each other what they plan to wear, and match their outfits. they enter the room side by side, dazai already teasing chuuya about wearing heeled shoes to "attempt to match him in height, not that it's working anyways :D" and chuuya nearly kicks him into the punch bowl. i think they would actually have a lot of people asking them to go to prom together, but they were all turned down because they both knew they were going together

atsushi and akutagawa are they type that would be very obviously crushing on each other, but would only get together right before prom. atsushi originally asked lucy to go to prom with him, but she just stared at him and said "aren't you going with your boyfriend? you're not cheating on him now, are you?" and atsushi is just like "🤨🤨 boyfriend? what do you mean boyfriend??" and lucy just facepalms and tells him to "hurry up and confess to the guy you always scream at everyday, dammit". and when they DO confess, it's somehow in front of the entire school, so when atsushi asks akutagawa to be his prom date, they whole school is just so silent and then it explodes with cheers and screams of "OH MY GOD THEY'RE FINALLY TOGETHER I WAS WONDERING HOW LONG IT WOULD TAKE THEM"

kouyou and yosano are the ones who earn the titles of prom queens (they had to make a second prom queen title because they both had the same number of votes). they had plenty of people coming to ask to be their prom dates, of course, but they were all turned down with a simple "sorry, i'm already going with yosano/kouyou". and when they turn up at prom they're both so so pretty?? all eyes are on them, but they only have eyes for each other fr. they danced together too AHHHH ME AND WHO WHEN :(

fyodor and nikolai, on the other hand, were pretty obvious with their relationship long before prom was even scheduled. nikolai would decorate fyodor's locker with roses and hearts every year during valentines, and fyodor would open his locker to love letters falling out due to the sheer numbers (75% of those were from nikolai). of course, the feelings are reciprocated; fyodor gifts nikolai with lavish gifts during their day to day meetings, ranging from souvenirs from overseas holidays to expensive foods. no one tried to ask either of them to be their prom dates, so they definitely turned up to prom together :D

ranpo and poe, are the ones who seemed to have resorted to traditional courting methods. poe would gift ranpo candies and chocolates on a daily basis, as well as request for him to read all his manuscripts. ranpo agrees, claiming that he's "never had someone match him so closely in intellect before!" they both go to prom together and hang around at the food table for so long they had to be ushered away (i'm sorry guys idk how to write ranpoe)

ok but prom with bsd characters is amazing. thanks tille :D

[bones-for-sure]

Firebird's Affect on Mal

Mal with bird-like traits/animalistic behaviour.

OKAY, so Mal is the Firebird, right? And I know that the Firebird was never actually a bird, but, and hear me out here. WHAT IF, Mal had bird-like tendencies or even just more animalistic traits. Just picture Mal preening and puffing out his chest when someone compliments him, or specifically his tracking. (subtly, but noticeable if you're looking at him). Alina gets sick once when they were kids, and Mal spends a whole day running back and forth from her room gathering blankets and pillows and food and water until Alina stops him (buried in a mound of the aforementioned blankets and pillows). Or Mal in the military being oddly aggressive and territorial because of the trauma from being bullied in the orphanage, and becoming weirdly testy and hostile towards people who approach his "area".

And of course, because I am, as always, ridden with a severe case of Malkolai brainrot, so: Mal wearing bits of colour and spending ages in front of a mirror "preening" his appearance (essentially dressing up pretty and dolling himself up) before going to meet Nikolai. Mal constantly seeking Nikolai's attention by hovering (or, as Zoya and Alina dubbed it, "fluttering") about the golden King. Mal making a cooing/trilling noise when he's content, discovered when he and Nikolai were laying in bed and Nikolai started running and hand through his hair at the base of his head, which led to a very shocked silence, embarrassed blushing, frantic denials, and a fair amount of teasing (and yes, Nikolai does take full advantage of this discovery and now his hand is almost always on the back of his pet tracker's neck, much to the pleasure embarrassment of Mal). Mal extending his territorial and protective behaviour to Nikolai almost as soon as he met him, much to both parties' confusion and Alina's delight.

[zukkaoru]

for the drabble prompts: “I always thought the choice was mine / and I was right / but I just chose wrong” from the laurel hell lyric prompt list for any character(s) you want!!

i debated which character/s to write for this for a bit but ultimately i had to go with nikolai bsd because i think this line fits him very well. uhh sorry jupiter ik you don't know bsd but i have very bad brainrot. also this isn't edited bc i don't feel like it right now

(prompt requests are still open)

warnings: heavy religious imagery & symbolism, character death/dismemberment (#just fyolai things) word count: 602

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Fyodor’s hands have always been cold. This was true when he was alive, when Nikolai grabbed hold of him and the only thing separating skin from skin was a pair of stolen gloves, thin enough to allow the iciness of Fyodor to seep through into Nikolai. And it is true now when all that remains of Fyodor is a severed arm, when Nikolai cradles the dismembered limb to his face and each finger is a lifeless icicle caressing his cheek.

This is what he wanted.

Congratulations, Dazai told him. Fyodor is dead. You did it. You killed the unkillable, you transformed yourself into Judas by choice. You brought the thirty pieces of silver to the men who wanted him dead, placed the proper tools in Dazai’s hands, and turned your back while he was crucified. You did it.

You proved your own free will.

You chose this.

Behind him, Dazai and Chuuya murmur to one another—about their friends back in Japan, about administering the antidote, about Dazai’s injuries, about Sigma. They talk about Sigma like Dazai is the only one who has ever cared about them. Like Nikolai didn’t save them from death, like Nikolai isn’t the only reason they were here and Dazai was able to use them in this game. Thirty pieces of silver. Thirty coin bombs never detonated.

Jesus was executed with two other men, one on either side, men who actually deserved the punishment they faced. To hang on a cross and slowly bleed out, nails through their hands, nails through their feet, their suffering on display for all to see.

Fukuchi is dead in Yokohama, if Dazai’s intel is to be believed. Sigma will never wake, if Fyodor’s words were true.

Which one of them begged for forgiveness in their final moments, and which died still rotting in their sins? Does it matter? They are gone and Nikolai is still breathing and this was his choice. This was his choice. This was his choice.

But Judas took his own life after betraying the one he loved.

Fyodor’s hand is cold. If he raises in three days’ time, Nikolai will be long gone. The Savior has the power to raise the dead, but why waste your time on someone who sold you out for thirty stray coins? Nikolai knows the stories; he grew up having them carved into his flesh each Sunday. He knows who lives, who is resurrected, who is redeemed. And he knows who turns traitor, then lets his grief and shame consume him, and is never mentioned again.

But Judas didn’t have a choice. Judas was merely a pawn in God’s perfect plan. Nikolai chose this.

Nikolai wanted to be free, so he took Fyodor’s life in his own hands and he made the choice and he has proven that no cage can hold him inside. No imitation of God can control his whims. He is free by no hand besides his own, but there is something inescapable forming in his chest that calls itself grief, and Nikolai is beginning to fear escaping one cage only leads you into another.

He always believed it was his choice, to bring about Fyodor’s death. He believed in his own free will, and he saw his plan through to its end. He was right—there is such thing as the existence of choice, because Fyodor is dead and his arm is clutched in Nikolai’s hands and no one sane would choose to kill the only person who ever understood them.

The choice was always Nikolai’s.

But now that the irreversible has come to pass, he fears he chose wrong.

[akutasoda]

Hey I’m not sure if this is a too sensitive topic but could I ask for a comfort one shot with any bsd character where reader meets them at their loneliest point and makes friends (or possibly more, I don’t mind) with them? I love your writing so much, please keep up the good work <33

a unexpected saviour

synopsis - when everything was going wrong your solution was a curious one at that

includes - nikolai

warnings - gn!reader, angst to comfort, slightly darker, mention of depression and slight hints toward suicide, wc - 776

a/n: hii! thank you so much :) was having serious nikolai brainrot when i read this so here we are

life never was entirely fair and you knew that. but you never expected it to be that cruel to you. everything uou attempted to do didn't go how you planned, you were struggling to keep up conversations with ones you knew, barely finding time to take care of yourself and just sinking further and further into a slump. one that became almost overbearing.

it was the equivalent of screaming into a void that was slowly consuming your whole. you briefly tried to get yourself back on track but it hadn't worked and only seemed to put you down even more, feeling as if you were failing at everything you did. very quickly depression consumed your whole being.

days dragged on in blur and your lack of care seemed evident in your appearance so much so that your employer had taken pity, giving you some time off. although that seemed to make it worse. now you slumped around in your residence barely taking care of yourself as you lounged around goving no care for your actions. waves of negativity crushed you by the day until you truly felt like an empty shell.

nikolai had decided to go upon a small walk. it was his first time in yokohama after all, he wanted to see what it had to offer. and what better way to go do that than to look up from a higher point of view and find a particular point of interest. yet when he found one it was not what he was expecting. you had merely decided that maybe you needed atleast some fresh air.

maybe it did look a tiny bit alarming, especially if they knew what you were going through but you truly had no intentions of doing what might be interpreted as your intention. nikolai didn't understand why he acted the way he did, he didn't even know you yet there he stood asking if you were okay. you turned to face the rather strange looking man with a rather questioning look.

you watched as he sat next to you and started telling rather corny jokes but somehow they made you laugh. those jokes flowed smoothly into a conversation. it was the first conversation in a while thag youhad enjoyed, your worries were pushed to the back of your head and you happily conversed with the clown looking man.

as time bled on you realised you may have to head back soon. so you thanked the man for providing you a rather enjoyable conversation and headed back. for some reason following your conversation you felt more motivated to look after yourself. and you never really second guessed his outfit, afterall he had seemed to help you pull yourself out your spiral.

having a sudden wave of motivation you started clearing around your residence and decided to start looking after yourself again. and that would start with actually getting some stuff in, so as daunting going outside seemed you knew you had to. and it was as if it was a sign things were getting back on the right track, because as you finished up you spotted that same man in the distance in a less crowded area. you don't know what came over you but you headed in his direction to properly thank him.

nikolai too was surprised to see you again, but didn't mind. surprisingly he enjoyed seeing you again and seeing you seem much happier gave him a warmth. he took your apology and yet again started talking to you and lead to a very long conversation with him. and it seemed the feeling was mutual that maybe the both of you saw a friendship on the horizon.

you hadn't minded his eccentric personality as it seemed to be contagious as beong around him made you feel better. and you both decided to exchange contacts. and after you started hanging out with the man you now knew as nikolai. and before you knew it your void of depression had evaporated very quickly and you felt better than ever.

maybe it was fate that nikolai had saw you that night. but you couldn't of wished for a better person in your life. your eccentric clown friend always seemed to brighten your spirits and very quickly stopped you from downspiralling yet again whenever things got tough again. ane you never minded his talks on how freedom was this and that because in some way you agreed.

but regardless you were very thankful that nikolai had helped you, as not only had he saved you from your self depreciating thoughts but you had gained a very dear friend to yourself.

[compulsiveimpairment]

Aftermath...

So Fyodor and Nikolai successfully freed themselves! Here's Sigma's reactionnnn

TW: Blood

Knock-knock-knock

“Gogol? Dostoyevsky?”

Knocking on the door, Sigma paced worriedly. He’d heard a sound like someone falling and came back to investigate. “Nikolai, you better not have done something…” He knocked on the door again, this time a little harder. “Guys?!”

No response. At this point, Nikolai would have jumped out from the door and spoken quickly with a flurry of apologies. And Fyodor would have calmly walked out and softly said an apology for taking so long.

But neither of them answered the door, and all was silent in the room. Dammit, what’s happening?! Sigma ran down the hall to his office. Looking around, he saw the keys on his desk. He picked them up and ran back to the room. A strong smell of blood hit him as he ran back.

Oh no… No, nonono…! Sigma covered his nose as the smell hit him. He hastily opened the door. “Guys?!” The room was silent, but the smell lingered more. Sigma looked around, seeing no one, yet he knew that something wasn’t quite right. The window’s curtains were opened, and the moonlight shone in. A bench sat in front of the window, which was usually by the door. He walked over to it.

The bench was still warm in two spots. Inspecting the bench more, Sigma found dried drops of blood on it. Looking at the floor, there was blood leading to the right of the bench. He followed the trail. At the end of the trail was something that Sigma never thought he would see.

Fyodor and Nikolai lay on the floor beside the bed,  blood pooling around them. Fyodor was holding Nikolai, who lay on top of him in a position that seemed like a hug. Both of them had small smiles on their faces, as if they had enjoyed their last moments together to the fullest. For once, Nikolai seemed calm and Fyodor showed emotion.

Sigma walked over to them, careful not to smudge his shoes in the blood. They’re already gone… He thought. Sigma sat on the bed and looked out the window, the wind was tugging lightly at the curtains. “Were they admiring the stars? That’s unexpectedly sweet of them…” He wondered. The sky was still dark, and the stars shone brightly.

“I wonder, what did these two think of each other?” Sigma walked to the door and closed it, locking it as well. “I always thought that Nikolai annoyed Fyodor too, but now? It doesn’t seem to be the case…”

Sigma looked back at the two of them when he sat on the bed after pushing the bench back to its place by the door. He smiled softly. “I hope they’re together, wherever they are.”

Hm, that turned out better than expected.

Well, I hope you enjoyed .

I’ve had Fyolai brainrot for a while.

Enjoy the rest of your day/night and maybe go look at some other topics.

Angst isn’t really the best way to start/end your day.

[officialleotolstoy]

Oh Dolokhov Brainrot We’re Really In It Now, aka Dolokhov playlist annotations!

A note on the cover photo: I don’t really like this one but I got tired of looking at men on Pinterest so I gave up. The window symbolizes the rum window and the smoking symbolizes uhhhhh habitual bad life choices idk

Drinking game take a shot every time I say “it’s about the vibes”

Wrecking Ball - Mother Mother

“I break it just because I can”

This is THEE ‘I am going to cause problems on purpose’ song and that is like his entire narrative purpose!! Argue with me about this one I dare you

The Good, The Bad, and the Dirty - Panic! At The Disco

“If you wanna start a fight you better throw the first punch, make it a good one”

Partially its just vibes, I won’t lie. But also the consistent spoiling for a fight is very in character

Shoot to Thrill - AC/DC

“I’m like evil, I get under your skin”

It’s got I Am Morally Repulsive But Also I’ll Steal Your Girl energy which really hits all of Dolokhov’s character traits. And of course the added bonus of gun imagery.

Mr. Brightside - The Killers

“It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this”

I added it strictly for vibes, but then I realized the quoted lyric is very much him @ the Kuragins if you take the reading that he refuses to admit he actually like them but grows genuinely fond of them over time even though he initially got to know them with a lot of ulterior motives.

Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen

“Mama, I just killed a man”

The amount of songs that are on these playlists just for what are essentially your mom jokes since Dolokhov loves his mom so much is a little pathetic. But I’m not wrong! I can’t really put it into words but something about this song has Dolokhov energy.

Feel It Still - Portugal the Man

“Give in to that easy living, goodbye to your hopes and dreams”

A good deal of what I find interesting about Dolokhov is the internal conflict he has of knowing he’s become rather wicked and problematic but also not really trying very hard to change and almost enjoying it so a lot of the songs on here are about that, including this one. The “I’m a rebel just for kicks now” also very much screams Causing Problems On Purpose.

The Bidding - Tally Hall

“I like to take advantage of the bourgeoisie”

His whole role in volume one and two is to take advantage of the bourgeoisie! This song also oozes confidence and a sense of superiority that comes from being better than the sellouts in high society, Dolokhov’s not like other girls uwu (he really is, but I don’t think he would admit that).

Say Amen (Saturday Night) - Panic! At The Disco

“I could be better but baby it’s Saturday night”

Embracing his own wickedness! The idea that he knows he could be better than he is but he doesn’t want to take that opportunity...yeah vibes

Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) - Fall Out Boy

“I became such a strange shape from trying to fit in”

This is the epitome of the “woe is me I need to be purified” phase he goes through when he’s into Sonya. Also “I’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker color” reminds me of Comet Dolokhov’s stupid eyeliner <3

Some Nights - fun.

“So what is this? I sold my soul for this?”

There’s a long stretch of this playlist that just boils down to “Woe is me I need to be purified” crisis hours, because Dolokhov’s oscillation between embracing his own cruelty and trying to be a good person is super interesting to me. This song captures the idea that he’s still having fun and there’s some good there, but he’s also aware that he’s losing himself a bit

Roaring 20s - Panic! At The Disco

“I don’t even know me”

“Woe is me i need to be purified” crisis AGAIN. This song gets more to the annoyance with society as a whole and feeling kind of lost in it

Send Them Off! - Bastille

“Help me exorcise my mind”

“Please purify me 16 year old girl! I’m 27 this isnt creepy at all ahahahha”. I do despise Sonyakhov but this has the vibes of a man feeling his own evil and wanting a woman to fix it. Not a great look.

Easy Days (Demo) - Bastille

“I don’t wanna fall back again, back into the easy days”

Near the end of the “woe is me I need to be purified” phase when he’s kind of drifting back to his old ways and he’s like wait no- wait- and then he does anyway because he’s horrible. I also really like the acknowledgment that his horribleness is easy and pleasant for him, and he has to fight against that (and he loses that fight HDJAJJD).

Undisclosed Desires - Muse

“You trick your lovers that you’re wicked and divine”

This is a Dolokhov/Nikolai song I do not take constructive criticism. Undisclosed desires...not being straight...lots to think about! It feels almost like a corruption arc? Nikolai isn’t corrupted nor does their...fling (?) last very long but Nikolai is obviously enamored with Dolokhov despite him being The Worst so I think this fits. I don’t have enough songs for a Nikolai/Dolokhov playlist so I just add those songs to both of their individual playlists

Thnks fr th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

“Thanks for the memories even though they weren’t so great”

Also mostly a Nikolai/Dolokhov song. This man has never ended a relationship on good terms, huh. Also. Sighs heavily. “He tastes like you only sweeter” never fails to make me laugh when I think about it in the context of Dolokhov post-duel being like oh?? You’re just a stupid WOMAN Hélène your brother and/or Nikolai is hotter than you :/ which is not exactly what I think happened but it makes me laugh to consider. Dolokhov ur bitterrrrr

Dangerous - Royal Deluxe

“I’ll be the last man standing here, I’m not going anywhere”

I feel like this has the vibes of his cruelty, especially in that bit after the Kuragins have died when he and Petya infiltrate the French army.

Another One Bites The Dust - Queen

“There are plenty of ways you can hurt a man”

He will hurt you and kill you so violently :) It’s about the vibes.

White Wedding Pt. 1 - Billy Idol

“It’s a nice day to start again”

In the exact inverse to his “woe is me I need to be purified” phase, he’s like ok yes i will pick up bad habits again and enjoy them because frick you! I read once that this song is about a relapse into drugs, but I’m making it analogous to his relapse into Terrible Person Behavior after Sonya’s rejection. Also the repetition of the phrase little sister does something for my brain idk, after we know he loves his mom and sister it just fits.

Highway to Hell - AC/DC

“I’m on the highway to hell and I’m goin down”

Like White Wedding, it screams acceptance of his problematicness. He knows he’s cruel and evil and he revels in it. This is the phase we see him in most I think.

Back in Black - AC/DC

“It’s been too long, I’m glad to be back”

I think this plays every time he gets reinstated to an army position he lost by being reckless earlier. Just kidding sort of but listen to this song and tell me it doesn’t have Dolokhov vibes. If you do, you’re wrong <3

Poet - Bastille

“I have written you down now, you will live forever”

This is just here cause he ghostwrote Anatole’s love letters and I think it’s funny. It’s MY playlist and I get to choose the barely relevant Bastille songs

St. Jude - Florence + The Machine

“Maybe I’ve always been more comfortable in chaos”

This one’s more scattered lyrics than an overall vibe. “Each side is a loser so who cares who fired the gun” has duel energy also.

Hey Look Ma, I Made It - Panic! At The Disco

Confession: I hate this song. However, it’s about the about the MOM R U PROUD OF ME vibes (she is. Should she be? Probably not).

Rich Kids - Bea Miller

“It’s never enough for the stuck up types”

The not coming from wealth and having to almost scam your way into being part of the aristocratic scene is very Dolokhov. Also in my mind the rich kid he’s roasting is specifically Nikolai.

Money, Money, Money - ABBA

“It’s a rich man’s world”

I’m not SAYING the wealthy man they talk about is Anatole but - [i am shot]. Scheming and clawing your way up to wealth is Dolokhovcore.

This Is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco

I literally have no justification for this other than that i think modern AU Dolokhov would vibe with it. Look at the amount of eyeliner he wears in Comet and tell me he didn’t have an emo band phase. You can’t.

Trouble’s Coming - Royal Blood

This is not about the words at all, it’s more about the vibes. It just sounds Dolokhovish to me, don’t ask me to explain.

Sleep Alone - Two Door Cinema Club

“They’re just ghosts and they can’t hurt him if he can’t see them”

This gives me post-Kuragins’ death vibes, and I can’t pin down exactly why? I think it’s the idea of being very alone and closed off.

Golden Days - Panic! At The Disco

I can’t put a specific lyric to it but it’s the vibes of looking back on your hedonistic youths with nostalgia and rose-colored glasses. Post-Kuragins’ death vibes again.

Go Get Your Gun - The Dear Hunter

“One foot in the grave, the other one’s kickin’ its way right down to hell”

All we see of him after the Kuragins’ death is just him being particularly cruel and reckless, almost careless. This feels like it encapsulates that energy.

The Fallen - Franz Ferdinand

“They say you’re a troubled boy just because you like to destroy”

I’m aware that a good portion of this song is about a Christ figure but I’m going to respectfully ask you to ignore that bit and just focus on all the Sketchy Things the guy does instead. Thank you. He does in fact like to destroy things! Señor Cause Problems On Purpose back at it again at krispy kreme, huh.

[daz4i]

ok i have time to kill and nothing better to do and a kinnie brainrot slowly eating at my skull so. dazai animatic brainstorming time bc i can't draw or animate but i have ideas :)

song is debt collector by jhariah (can you tell i have mild brainrot abt his music lately) btw. go listen to it. i am no longer asking 🔫

It's all catching up to you now, hope you can run

the horse race scene basically.

Cause soon your past will come and drag you (Down, down)

jouno showing up and cuffing him

You scammed your way into Heaven

shot of dazai with the ada, looking like he's talking and they're listening

Til the angels realize you're not one of them

the image changes a bit - instead of regular current day dazai, he is now dressed as he did during the dark era, looking way more serious and empty

Here comes the debt collector, seems you owe him again

dazai in meursault, sitting across from fyodor's cell

Dollars and coins can't cut your check this time around

we see them talking, body language implying it's the scene right before nikolai takes them out of their cells

Here comes the debt collector, and you owe him again

start of the race, nikolai explaining the rules of the race

Kind words and lies won't save your head this time around, 'round, 'round

dazai pointing at sigma, choosing him, smiling

i think there's some music here so like. see them walking through meursault

Gravedigger, cordial killer, your payment is due, they're looking at you

with each. not word but ig section? as in after every comma, the image changes to different moments from dazai's time in the mafia, mainly hurting or killing people

We've done what we can, it's out of our hands

the talk dazai had with mori right before odasaku's death, very clearly mori speaking these lines

Sooner or later, it comes back again

dazai turning around and running out of the room, and as the next line enters, the scene changes from him running in the mafia hq to him running in meursault

Here comes the debt collector, seems you owe him again

he is walking with sigma down the hall, then grabs him

Dollars and coins can't cut your check this time around

they are dancing into the security room with the dead guards, and dazai immediately props himself by the microphone

Here comes the debt collector

this time it's not dazai being spoken to, but rather him talking to fyodor, we see him say these words, smiling

And you owe him again

but then his smile goes away as we see chuuya drowning next to fyodor as well

Kind words and lies won't save your head

dazai's gay ass flashback speech,

This time around

he turns around, and we get a hard cut to dazai and sigma in the elevator

Please don't think I have no empathy for you, what you've been through, but

fyodor talking!!!! fyodor by the mic, saying these exact words!!!! on the "but", he clicks a button

There's nothing I can do now but stand here and watch it all catch up to you

the room filling up with water, dazai and sigma slowly starting to drown

Here comes the debt collector, seems you owe him again

fire bursting, dazai shooting the gun, yknow that whole scene

Dollars and coins can't cut your check this time around

dazai kicking sigma out of the elevator -

Here comes the debt collector

and now we see him on the ground

And you owe him again

same pose, same scene, but now there's a gun against his forehead

Kind words and lies won't save your head

we see chuuya is the one holding the gun, and now dazai is raising his head to look at him, starting his whole "we are destined to-" thing

This time around

the gunshot

during the outro music, we can see him bleeding from his forehead

and that's it! short and simple. idk how vivid that one was esp given a lot of it just canon scenes and less imagery and symbolism but it's very vividly imagined in my head and i hope it is now in your head too :)

[daz4i]

Heyyyyyy sorry it's been so long, but I'm back~

Ahh thank you for all the detail hehe, and I'm glad you liked the questions~

The not dating but behaving as a couple is so real too, that's been me many a time irl as well 😂

You bring up such a good point though with your f/o being what you need at the time, I've never thought about it but I can totally see that in mine as well. And I think Nikolai would love to bring the chaos for your life 😌

As far as my f/os, Kunikida and Nanami (JJK) are kind of my main ones long-term, as well as Poe hehe, but I do end up all over the place depending on what brainrot I have at the time, like right now Leviathan from Obey Me has had most of my focus 😂

~☄️

omg hiiiii 🖤

hehehe i am sensing a bit of a type within your f/os there >:3 but i get you abt the "all over the place" part 😭🤝