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vvitchy-succubus · 4 months

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#I'm so tired but i can't sleep #there's no sleep anymore #no relaxing #im either completely empty #or im crying #from anger or sadness #or both #every blue Ford i see #i think it's him for a spilt second #when my phone rings i hope it's going to be him #when i do sleep i dream about him #i didn't know missing someone could feel like this #it's missing but worse than that #like a hole in the center of my chest #and nothing makes it better #sometimes i can just ignore it for a while #he should be here #i will never understand why it was him #someone so good and loving and sweet #who was intentionally kind to strangers #who held me every time i needed him #i hate this universe #i really really do #i want to wake up in another universe #one where he never got in that truck #where he called into work that day #so that i can call him and tell him all the things i already have to tell him #i fucking miss you kid #it's actually killing me

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moderndaypandora · 2 years

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The LAYERS needed in a modern/human Dreamling au. Some level of Endless family dysfunction, obviously. Hob's family can be be dead or not, it's all good. Are they old enough to have individually gained the awareness they are off-puttingly intense and should hide it a bit at first, or still in that "no, why would I need to Elsa this" stage?

Option A is both of them trying to play it cool, like "don't scare him off" except they so badly want to go from zero to sixty.

(Death and Desire have ruthlessly drilled Dream with flashcards about how to react appropriately in situations.

Desire: it's your one-month anniversary, what do you do?

Dream: [hesitantly] NOT propose?

Desire and Death, conferring, because that's technically correct but the delivery was suspect.

Death, encouragingly: Good start. And? 

Dream: a nice dinner and maybe a walk?

Desire: well done!

Death: and for a three-month anniversary?

 Dream: give them a key to my flat.

Desire: [airhorn] NO. RED CARD.)

Option B makes them the classic anecdotal "my grandparents got engaged within seven days of meeting each other and still are happy together".

(Death, rubbing her temples: so you met this guy--

Dream: Hob

Death: -- Hob, and within 1 day you gave notice to the Registrar's Office and figured out the best day to get married. And Hob agreed to this?

Dream: NO.

Death: oh thank go-

Dream: Hob SUGGESTED this.

Death: . . .

Dream: are you going to be a witness or not?

Death, 29 days later in the Registrar's Office, to Hob's witness: Is he sane?

Johanna Constantine, drinking heavily from a large flask: unfortunately yes, by all legal definitions.

Death: fuck

Johanna: [passing the flask over] if your brother's even a tenth as intense as Hob, they'll be fine. Probably.

Death, brightening: Is Hob that bad? 

Johanna: You know how sometimes you meet somebody and think "oof, they're a bit much, best give them a wide berth"? 

Death: yeah.

Johanna: Hob's like a camouflaged hole in the ground of muchness. Except he's done the hole up all nice and he knows that sometimes you just want to be left alone in the hole to sulk and rattle the spikes for a bit, and occasionally get a F&M hamper tossed in.

Death: [hmmmmmmm'ing approvingly]

Johanna, morose: the bastard.

In the background, Hob and Dream are pressing their foreheads together and basking in each other's presence)

#dreamling #the sandman #it's underappreciated how many red flags hob probably is buried under his amiable exterior #he looked at dream of the endless and went 'yeah'#not even as a 'i can make him better'#very much as a 'i can vibe with his current state and frankly even if he was worse i'd still be like that's my husband [shrug emoji]'#'what am i supposed to do? i knew who he was when i married him'#everybody around them: [extremely done with their shit] STOP ENABLING HIM #hob: he's my goth sweetheart #dream's entire family: he's ten sulking cats in eyeliner and a dramatic coat #hob: i know :D i love him!#johanna constantine is like 'hob's insane'#and everybody's going 'oh no don't be so mean he's just a little boring next to dream'#johanna: he saw dream being dream and went 'i need to stamp my name on him. how do i permanently tie us together'#johanna: he'd never safety pin a condom but i can just see the gears turning in hob's head about how to get to spend more time with dream #johanna: just radiating smug contentment over his insane wet cat #hob: i cannot wait to spend the next 60 years with that man #hob: and ideally die in our sleep together still holding hands #death and johanna: [staring at him over their fourth round of drinks]#dream: [heart of eyes and pink of cheeks]#dream: we should never not be holding hands #hob: okay but what if occasionally we stop holding hands just to then appreciate the feeling of starting to hold hands again #dream: [mulling] acceptable #death and johanna could probably start an entire benefriends or actual romantic relationship entirely based on judging dreamling

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qtubbo · 11 months

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Do you think fit dreams that pac was on his team, that they got to fight side by side, that he’d be the one that gets to protect pac. Just them two sitting by the fire huddled up, together. God it must be hell to be all alone.

#Do you think he dream morning crew was on his team that he got to watch over them #qsmp #Sure he has his team but those aren’t the people he spends every morning with that isn’t his lover #I think people should take advantage of dreams for fit like thats kinda one of his things #He does imporantly #Fitpac #Do you think that pac and tubbo whisper about missing him at night when everyone is tucked in and sleeping #Do you think its hard for pac to sleep worried how Fit is doing #Why has fitpac broken into my house and stole all my thoughts

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cent-scratchnsniff · 2 days

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here together

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #lobotomy corporation spoilers #abram lobcorp #i didnt know that the song that plays during day 48 ending is called 'here together'.#couldnt hear it well because i typically have my sound low (sensetive to louder sounds) and also the dialog fucked me up #so when i pressed on it to hear it. to actually listen to it. then to see the name and remember what it Looked like #i got teary eyed. sorry.#it happened quite. afew times when finishing this shitty thing #i was thinking of how camren's not quite corpse looked as if it were reaching out to him inside the container #how it looked as if she had wings. abrams words. the line from one story that was--#something like 'we were hoping it was just one big prank and she would hop out fro. around the corner with a smile on her face'#how do you move forward when all you think you cause is pain? when everything else youve done only brought to bring people you love to thei #downfall and demise inside agony and fear as they lay dying. none of that was merciful. none of that was just. they were told to carry on #her dream and he views as if all he had done was to become cruel and wasnt fit and never even began to finish what she started.#it was so striking to me. the language he used. sleeping. alseep. waken. when all the others never sugarcoated it #in lobcorp they always said it straight. 'suicide' 'killed' 'dead'. but he used something far more.. peaceful? kind in wording in a way.#softer. describing death as if it were a merciful thing. an end that suits them and not something to be afraid of. to just... sink. to slee #to be with carmen again. to put everything to an end #the place they built with their hands. to have it just... stop. not in a way of repeating and staying in the moment #but of a permanent end. to 'sleep'. to die. to just.... stop. forever. to see no more. to do no more #to not be able to do Anything for when ever he had done Something it just cause agony. cruel hands partaking in acts he so deeply #regrets. everything is just regret. it sounds nice. to move on. to just move forward. but how can you move forward when all you think you #bring to those you cherished and couldnt leave behind is pain?#ill likely move this somewhere else as well. ive been meaning to talk about abram #the rest as well actually. mostly just the few final days w abel adam and abram since i am STUCK ON DAY 49 #oh dear i uh typed a lot in the tags. oops

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sorrowsaint · 4 months

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im going to bed

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heres a song i like goodnight

#......................#.............................................#..............................................................................#thats probably enough of a buffer.#last night i dreamed i was in the hollow below the tree that my body was in. when i woke up in the morgue all i wanted to do was curl up #my bones remember i think. even if i dont. sometimes i feel a phantom emptiness on my chest #like the arrows. like the knives.#its scary. its so scary.#im just a kid #will i remember it forever? how long will it haunt me?#people die all the time. people die and come back. people die and come back and they remember but it doesnt haunt them #i was trapped in death and i think thats... its not gone. maybe it is magically but i still feel it.#all i had for so many months was the vague knowledge that i was dead and this overwhelming sense of sharp coldness #my body remembers. i remember. how does anyone forget things like this? i dont want this. i dont want to remember.#i like it under my bed. ive put pillows and blankets down here. the vent that blows in cold air is here too so it feels comfy #and maybe it reminds me of being under the tree. and i dont know why but thats something im actually okay with #my body was under something for so long. the soil was cursed but i loved those woods. i miss the woods. my body hurts.#my mom is missing a leg and sometimes she talks about phantom pains. like her leg realizes it isnt there and screams #can you feel that way about a hole in your chest and your neck. can you feel that way about a tree above you.#can you feel that way about death #maybe i should get angry. but alone. so so alone so i dont hurt anyone.#i cant prove him right. because he was wrong and everything he ever said was wrong and he sucks and i hate him #im not like him.#im like gertie and my parents.#im so tired. im so tired. i want to sleep in dirt for a few more months. maybe sort myself out somewhere dark and quiet.

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teethbomb · 2 months

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mob psycho(logical horror) 100

#Chatterbomb #There are some terrifying concepts in there they should be stretched more #That comic reminded me of junji itos The Long Dream #I’ll have to do a rewatch and write some stuff down #The mental prison stuff? Terrifying 10/10 #Shigeo in fabricated world for six months is terrifying but I feel like being trapped in a static environment that only gets longer even #Though real world time has barely passed and you are all alone and you can’t escape and you can’t change the environment besides clawing at #The walls #day and night don’t pass with the sun and moon but your body is aging anyway #Nothing changes and you are running out of resources.#How long until you accept no one will come and save you? How much are you willing to starve while waiting for someone who left?#What if the world that trapped you won’t let you die? Starving for centuries without a sign of life #Thinking at some point you must have escaped. Or was it a dream within a dream? Can that happen? How many times have you fallen asleep?#How many dreams deep are you already in?#WHAT IF HE STARTED ROTTING #what if he was living in his own dead body!!!!! Would that be fucked up or what!!!!!#Something about reigen sparks a desire to see him experience pain disconnected with reality #The dreams in train hell are only getting longer. None of them are peaceful. He can’t tell if his hair is greying from aging or how much th #Dreams take a toll on him. How much time has really passed? Can he even rely on how his body is changing? Is it truly time who is #Responsible? Or is it him? Or the train itself?#What if all they found of him was a dryed up body with a beating heart and pulsating brain. Laying limp and clothing scattered #If I really indulge myself the scratched out days. When looked at from farther away. Still marking the potential days reads #Abandon all hope #ye who enter here #Which yeah that’s stretching into being ridiculous but it would be cool TO ME #Dante’s inferno you are so silly and special to me #I got really autistic here but <3 big fan of horror huge fan of suffering <333 #ALSO!! taking inspiration from “heck” short film but the days might be counted by “sleeps” as time cannot accurately be measured in a place #That defies universal law #Ok I think I’m done now ok I’m normal probably

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triglycercule · 7 days

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putting on mtt offical themes and fanmade theme songs and group songs when i sleep all so when i fall asleep and dream i can see them and see what theyll be like and then i wont have to think of them 24/7 through my day when i can just think of them during night. this possibility could either end up in me getting killed by them so gruesomely that i wake up traumatized or i wake up happy and satisfied from a restful night of trio dream time

#least deranged murder time trio fan #everyday i whisper to the world. make the murder time trio real please #it would absolutely be terrible for me. it would be bad for EVERYONE #but i just NEED to see them #i NEED to see what they would look like. sound like. interact with eachother #i unironically do this like every other night accidentally. bc i listen to their themes a lot #so when i put on loop and then get eepy i dont have energy to turn loop off. and its lowkey relaxing #you wouldnt expect someone to fall asleep to fucking red megalovania but I DO. I DO.#it hasnt worked yet to my disarray. i dream almost every night and not once has the mtt appeared in my sleep #CMON NIGHTMARE PUT THEM IN MY WILLING MIND. IDC IF YOU MAKE THE DREAM NEGATIVE #lowkey questionnaire is genuinely so peaceful to sleep to. its nice and quiet so you get the comfort of horror sans but also can sleep #makes me feel like im right there man.... dressed in a ragged purple dress and a missing arm..... looking at the axe about to kill me #anyways UGH i say this every othe week but i need the mtt to kill me. i know theyd do it quickly too #they wouldnt care enough about me to put me through torture and suffering thankfully. so they could be the angels i already praise them as #also if i have one wish in life its to see the trio bickering and laughing over my dead body as i bleed out #or is that my death wish. either one man i just really like them a tad #my friend and i have watched up to 0.3 pt 2 of underverse ‼️‼️‼️ shes about to get to 0.4 #i cant WAIT to see her reaction when ink betrays everyone. she really likes ink so far. shes an ink fan #it KILLS me (haha PUN) to try and hold back on spoilers but i must #anyways soon shell get to see killer's first appearance in underverse im gonna hype him up so much #she also hates nightmare. probably because i told her once that i wrote him killing a cat. but also she just thinks hes an ass #i was like hes serving his purpose thats exactly what he wants. he WANTS you to hate him..... youre just feeding him your negative energy #tricule rant #killer sans #dust sans #horror sans #murder time trio #utmv #sans au #eepy.... feel eepy...... its late. spent time outside today surprisingly

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starchasersunseeker · 11 months

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Okay so we all know both the song Betty and August {by Taylor Swift obviously} can be Jegulus coded..

So James is obviously James in this scenario

But what about Reg and Lily?

Who is Inez and who is Betty? Like of course both can be both depending on are we talking abiut canon compliant or not but who do you all prefer to think is who?

Do you prefer Inez as Reg, Betty as Lily, making it canon compliant with Jegulus having a wonderful summer but James coming back to Lily and marrying her and all of that

OR do yall prefer Inez as Lily, Betty as Reg, meaning James fucked up and left Reg to spend a summer with Lily but then coming back to Reg and spending the rest of their life's together, marrying etc?

Because I interchangeably think about this scenarios when listening to both songs

#as a Reg kin I of course think about him being Betty when listening to Betty but think of him as Inez when hearing August #“canceled my plans just in case you called” Reg would okay he totaly would #he would do anything and everything for James #“back when i was living for the hope of it all” “wanting was enough for me it was enough” kill me this is so them #“slept next to her but i dremt of you all summer long” who did you sleep next to James? who did you dream about??#jegulus #starchaser #sunseeker #james potter x regulus black #regulus black x james potter

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pepprs · 11 months

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im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol