mondomillionz

[aviangrian]

Hi!! I just bingeread Starboy and I am soooo hooked. I'm not usually a sports AU person but the F1 content in the fic almost has me invested enough to look more into the real life stuff (I've only ever seen one race with my family, and caught on to some of the stuff they watch on TV). I love the adrenaline rush of the racing scenes and reading all about each teams' reactions to their placements and everything, it's all just so fun. I of course love the Scarian in it, how could I not, but I'm also just enamored by all the other teams and relationships too, it's really interesting to see the balance between "competitor/enemy that could cost me my career" and "close friends that go clubbing and help me out during tough times" and the way all of the characters deal with it. And it's always great to see more of the "Scar fell first, Grian fell harder" storyline! I love a good Scar-centric fic that touches on his goals and life outside of Grian as well! It's just been such a a blast so far and I'm really excited to see where it goes from here, I can already tell I'll miss this world and these guys a lot once it ends. Much love to you, author, thank you for a wonderful story!

first off i wanna say thank you for giving the fic a chance! i have a whole tag on here for sports haha so i love it and i love seeing people who don’t typically like these kinds of aus reading my story! and enjoying it!! :D

one of the funnest parts of planning out this au was doing all the teams and dynamics. grian and scar cross a very dangerous line of “you drive for my biggest rival” and “i wanna kiss you 24/7”, but they aren’t the only ones lol. jimmy’s also crossed that line 1000 times w not just one person, but TWO haha. it’s fun having everyone w their own unique relationships w each other, even where grian and scar aren’t concerned!

my biggest gripe w romance novels lately have been the mcs not having any sort of personality outside of their relationships so i refused to let that be this fic lol. grian’s gunning for that world championship and scar wants to be the very best like no one ever was! they have lots of goals and ambitions outside of each other!

thank you for the ask! seriously it’s so nice and i love getting them. i also think about the last 3 chapters remaining and it makes me sad too :(

[jjunberry]

HE LOVES ME NOT ˚* ❀ part eight ✎

y/n rushed out of her dorm towards jake’s car. she had her tote bag ready. “should i be worried with how big that bag is?” jake asked when she got in the car. “no i never actually fill it.” the girls laughed. jake sighed before starting the car again. “don’t sigh today will be fun!” she cheered.

jake stopped and got the girl coffee and finally pulled into the parking lot of the bookstore. she squealed before hopping out of the car. jake following behind. her first stop was the new romance books. she picked up a few but was having a hard time balancing all of her belongings. jake noticed and held his hands out. she smiled and placed her phone and coffee in his hands.

jake even wore her tote bag with embroidered flowers on his shoulder. “i think i like this one.” she said putting it in the bag. she ventured over into the next genre which was manga. her fingers grazed over the different books. she finally settled on her sailor moon.”can i get two of these?” she asked. jake nodded. “of course.” she smiled and grabbed the next two in the series she didn’t have yet.

she placed them in her bag before scurrying off. jake tried his best to keep up with her. “y/n?” he called out when he finally did end up losing her. he couldn’t call her because he was holding her phone for her.

he decided to just go look at the different collectables since she’d have to find him anyway. he had her tote bag after all. her phone kept buzzing and buzzing. curiosity got the better of him and he peaked at her lockscreen. multiple messages flashed across her screen.

his eyes widened when he took notice to the name and contact picture. heeseung. “no way.” he said. “no way what?” her voice startled him. jake jumped and turned towards her. “no way you only want three books.” he laughed it off.

“i told you not to be worried!” she laughed and took all of her belongings back. her tote bag on her shoulder. she unlocked her phone and frowned. “is everything okay?” jake asked. she sighed and nodded. “i think so, my boyfriend is messaging me.” she started walking towards the check out. jake followed.

unsure if he should tell her he knows about heeseung. he knows what heeseung has been up to. “how..how long have you been dating him?” the girl furrowed her eyebrows. “just about a year and a half now.” she said placing the books on the counter. jake felt his stomach drop. in the last few months all the girls he’s seen heeseung with. not one of them being y/n.

he was stuck between a rock and a hard place. does he tell her? would she be mad he’s friends with him? would she be mad he read the messages? would she not be his friend anymore?

their day was cut short when y/n had to meet up with her friends. jake didn’t protest. he needed time away from her to think. think about what he was going to do with this new found information.

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tag list ˚* ❀ @jjunieworld @304files @mrchweeee @sionshiii @kayleeshinee @crybqbyme @yizhoutv @jaeyunluvr (if your name is bold i couldn’t tag you)

author’s note ˚* ❀ i need to start updating this more often! im sorry y’all 😭 forgive me

love, echo ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪

© jjunberry

[chainedupgirlsblog]

✎ Commentary of Ep 7 ~ The Loyal Pin (Thai GL-2024) - Part 2

In life I only aspire to be as forward and well-spoken as Pin. Such a classy lady! Very demure, very lady like of her to reject this man for the nth time being this polite and calm! (Could never be me!) I love her so much, it was so nice to hear and read this, and to witness! You tell him queen!

Anil might be a princess but she bag herself a ✨queen 💅🏼✨

Let’s continue with this episode!

THE AUDACITY OF THIS MAN???

Pin was flabbergasted, gagged, confused is an understatement. And so was I.

Exactly! I made that exact same face Prik! The audacity of this man!

No. She will never love you. Leave 👏🏼 her 👏🏼 alone 👏🏼 Don’t even get me started on the starting a family part. Move! Remove yourself from my sight as well!

“Please kindly remove yourself from my sight and never return”

GODDAMN!! That’s the most polite go fuck yourself I’ve ever seen. That must’ve hurt. Serves him right tho! When is he gonna learn???

Wish I could say he finally understood, but from spoilers of furthers episodes and the trailer itself I guess the fuck not. The man is insufferable!

Not Pin complaining to Anil’s most loyal supporter and calling Anil, Prik’s Princess when she’s mad at her little girlfriend for not writing her more letters hahaha

And Prik getting right back at her with that comment of haven’t she won both your heart and your… and Pin panicking right there and then ahaha please they’re so funny.

As a side note I must add Freen’s deep voice (when Pin snap at Prik) still hunts me at nights 🥴

THE LETTERS!!!

I might die alone and single after this! Cuz what do you mean this level of romance doesn’t exist anymore???? The softness, the yearning, the handwritten poetry???

Why is it always “I like you. You’re good” and never “Please accept the caresses of my lips on your left cheek, right cheek and your forehead” Why????

How am I supposed to settle down for less than this Emily Dickinson level of poetry??? 😭😭😭

She’s fighting destiny, deadass throwing fits at morpheus for not allowing her dream about her amorcito. My little Princess is so cute 😭😭

A year has passed already! We’re moving fast!

THE GIFTS!! Love all the precious gift they gave each other, they were so meaningful! You could see they absolutely love them.

We know how much Pin loves collecting small little souvenirs from her princess so I can only imagine how much she appreciates the gifts Anil so thoughtfully gave her. She had them made! The Princess is not joke!

“All I want is for you to return to my arms” Nevermind! She doesn’t want gift she just wants her girl back in her arms!!! 😭😭😭

We have one more year to go, be strong sweeties. We can do it!

Oh, she goes to her room every day. Every. Single. Day! Oh to be loved like that!

Such a beautiful scene, them laying down in the bed facing each other as the intertwine their fingers. It’s all in Pin’s head but it’s just so lovely!

And then that little hugging scene where Anil imagine Pin warming her up with the scarf she made herself for her. Ahhh it’s all just pure love and romance! Love it so much 🫶🏻

Then we have another sequence where Pin tells Anil about her new job as a translator and isn’t it amazing how much they’ve grown?!

We also have another small time jump and we see Pin complaining to Prik again about the lack of letters from Anil. Prik tries to reassure her it’s probably because the princess is too busy finishing school and she’s not far off the truth.

Pin goes on which I guess is her daily walk visit to the Pine Palace and she misses her princess so bad she starts hallucinating her there. (Pin, sweetie 🥺)

But guess what? Pin hallucinated so strong that she actually brought Anil back!

The Princess is right there behind her and I can’t wait to see Pin lose her lady like marbles! Hahaha

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Another great episode. I love this show so much <3 I’m still catching up (sadly not fast enough) But I’ve watched till ep8, so that commentary should be posted soon. Here’s Part 1

[nerdieforpedro]

Weekend Update

12/03/2023

Nerdie, you’re making this a thing now?

Yes! I have to keep ya’ll updated on what’s going on.

Well, what did you read this week?

Many wonderful things:

I will again sing the praises of @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin three part series “When My Time Comes Around.” You’ll feel all the emotions and be thankful that you read something that touches you deep in your soul. 😭 She also attacked my heart again on Frankie Friday with bittersweet angst in Tender is the Night. I'm a fan of the melancholic greatness that is Angie.

So...you like reading about sad things?

There's more to it than that. Just go read her fics! Then you'll know.

Tommy Miller fans unite! @musings-of-a-rose is continuing to feed our younger Miller brother delusions with her series “Falling Slowly.” The slow burn romance is one of the trope I really dig. And Gabriel Luna always. 🫠 Dig into some Tommy…

Nerdie, you’re doing so well, don’t jinx it.

I mean, I'm not wrong. Whatever, moving on...

I also read Honey Stained Hands by the sweet and deceptively naughty @undercoverpena too. Seems to be a Joel fix this week. Post-outbreak. The reader manages to make honey and different sweets in Jackson. Telling ya’ll anymore is a spoiler. Go read it!

There’s also another grizzled man this week. Tim Rockford who in the capable hands of the same writer @secretelephanttattoo who brought us Marcus Pike (Doughnut Debauchery) and the reason I’ll never look at doughnuts the same, I’m sure she’ll find many a use for his gun holsters. She began her new series “Undercover.” I’m throughly looking forward diving into more of the chapters as she releases them.

@linzels-blog wrote another Din Djarin fic that is equal parts sensual and sweet. It’s called Safe to Touch. I’m rather fond of our intrepid Mendalorian and him exploring his body with someone he loves is a treat.

Speaking of which, who doesn’t like baked goods? We’re also being fed by @avastrasposts as she starts her A Baker’s Dozen series with Pedro Pascal characters. Her first one is about our favorite trash cuddle panda Dieter Bravo. It’s adorable. 🥰 Such fluff.

Nerdie, you actually read fluff? This is surprising.

What do ya’ll take me for? I told you, 80% smut. This is in the 20%. Geez. 🙄

I will say though, this next one, 100% smut, not watered down, will burn your throat and you’ll love it and want more. You’ll want it other places. 😘

Welp, we knew it was gonna end here eventually.

Yes! @morallyinept had me removing my socks and pants in an effort to cool down, it did not help. I will think of this version of Dieter Bravo when I’m out at night. Heck, maybe as I walk across the parking lot to get in my car after a shift. That honestly would be the perfect time… long story short, wild back alley sex with both Dieter and the reader being complete and utter lust filled humans. It is called, Back Alley Bang if you enjoy Pedro Pascal characters smut, it’s required reading or at least highly recommended.

Anything new for you this week Nerdie?

Session Two of my “Sard’ika Sessions” will be out on early Wednesday AM in EST. Session One and all sessions will be linked to the Sard’ika Sessions Masterlist. I’m currently writing sessions 3 and 4 from my notebook because I wrote them down. Wild what you think of between the hours of 12 mid and 4am.

I finally started writing for our Pickled Peña prompt! I might even have it in on time. If you’d like to join in, see all the details here. I’m on the fence about smut, odd I know. 🤨

I also started a Benny Miller fic (likely fluff with food) and a Christmas fic with Joel and Layla (on OFC I wrote three fics on a few months ago - I love them very much ❤️). Joel and Layla are on my Masterlist.

Anything outside of fanfiction Nerdie? Please say that’s not the only thing you do. 🙄

I have a job you know. I actually worked this weekend. I visited my mom while she had a cold earlier this week. She’s very into Tom Hiddleston. Not a bad choice, I too appreciate his accent and baritone voice. She enjoys his dancing. 🕺🏽 I’d watching Loki with her and finally got her to watch Andor - she liked it but called it “low budget Star Wars” because she didn’t know any of the actors. I swear she’s so goofy. I love her. She also said that Andor grew on her like The Mandalorian and she wants to see more. I may be able to get her on board with both Lunas eventually. 😝

I’ve been working on my Statistics class. It’s difficult but I’m pushing through. 😵

Finally watched two Garrett Hedland movies this week! Country Strong and Four Brothers. The first was bittersweet but I liked it. He did sing a lot which was wonderful. The second one I’ve seen multiple times with little brother (he loved the movie when we were younger.) Garrett looked so young! It was from 2005 though.

Well Nerdie, your week sounds full. Good luck!

Have a great week everyone!

I jammed to while some music while looking at a picture of Gabriel Luna that @musings-of-a-rose sent me because she knows me well and is always willing to share: 😍

One of the songs was:

Stay safe and feel better to all those who are feeling under the weather,

Love Nerdie ❤️

[kingkatsuki]

jo, you have to tell me. in which au do you and bakugo don't have a happy ending

Omg this is such a hard ask because I genuinely think there’s loads of reasons why we probably wouldn’t work out.

He works long shifts, and our schedules never align. I’m often leaving for work while he’s dragging his feet through the door from another twelve hour shift. Doing the same when I come home as he’s about to leave— some days it doesn’t even feel like we see each other at all. When he misses his usual train and in turn misses seeing me for a few minutes at home before I leave, or I have an early morning meeting so I have to be out of the house before he’s finished.

We just both end up drifting apart— and there’s nothing we can do about it. I can’t tell him to leave his job, especially not when it’s his dream. And he can’t tell me to leave mine— so I’m sad in an empty house waiting for him to come home each day.

I like to think in this timeline we break up, drift apart but end up finding each other again years down the line? Maybe we’re at a friends wedding/birthday/baby shower/anniversary and we realise how much we both need each other? He hasn’t even attempted to date anyone since because he just knows his heart belongs to me.

But then you also know I’m obsessed with LDR, and that’s how I imagine our relationship starting out and how we meet. So I just picture it becoming hard when trying to sort out documents is taking too long, or we can’t find as much time for each other anymore when he’s so caught up with work. It just feels like it’s never going to work out? And so we split up, but we’re still friends on every kind of social media, and he’s still there liking my pics and watching my stories— because he hasn’t given up. And then it’s a few months down the line when his job is going to bring him to me, and he asks if we can meet up.

Omg but also I love that kinda pain of falling out of love with someone? Like it’s no one’s fault, neither side is to blame but those feelings slowly start to fade away? And you both have to admit that maybe this isn’t the best place for you both to be?

Ahhh or him breaking up with you because he thinks he’s protecting you, but it’s clearly a bad fucking idea. Because he’s better WITH you protecting you instead of creating that distance.

Or Bakugou who’s terrified of love. He falls way too hard and fast and then panics? Because all these feelings are so new, so foreign and he doesn’t know how to handle them. All those romance stories and movies he’d watched and read growing up couldn’t prepare him for actually experiencing it? He keeps those walls up and guarded because he thinks if he does that I won’t ever see the real, vulnerable him. He’s petrified I’ll hate that version of him, the true version— so his walls are up to stop the hurt before it happens.

I don’t even want to get started on all the reasons why the relationship wouldn’t work because of me though😂😭

But also Shindou I’m single call me😂😭

[yc-shiya]

danganronpa universe dashboard simulator

💔 monoslayy Follow

rlly it’s not “pretentious” to not find the newer seasons better?? listen i love the new ones as much as anyone else (ESP DANRON 48 UGHHHHH WTFFF) but to act like the junko twist is still subversive is just WRONG

😈 junkosgirl04 Follow

Literally who said that lol this is not an unpopular opinion at all

💔 monoslayy Follow

are you biased maybe “junkosgirl04”

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they did him so dirtyyyy 😭 we do not talk about this hair ATROCITY!!! its not even funny

🌟dangan-wrongpa Follow

I find it really interesting that you so-called “sympathetic” Danganronpa fans are always harping on about the tragedies of the characters played by *REAL LIFE ACTORS* rather than the later seasons when the showrunners recruited and killed *TEENAGERS* for money and views. It’s one level of wrong to be a fan of the show and still acknowledge its problems, especially with the newer releases. It’s something else entirely to still be talking about seasons one, two, three…and completely ignore the ongoing human rights violation that is modern day Danganronpa. You people disgust me. I sincerely wish you could take a better look at the media you consume, because it’s actually, LITERALLY killing people.

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not reading that

🌟 dangan-wrongpa Follow

wow! posting fetish art of REAL LIVING PEOPLE too! literally nothing shocks me anymore with you freaks!!!

🍬 kimurasgf Follow

hey wait arent you the guy who auditioned for season 53 pitching yourself as the ultimate vtuber? lmfao?

🧈 death-by-balls Follow

If i had a nickel for every danganronpa man ive loved who was executed and turned into butter, i would have three nickels, which isnt a lot, but its weird that its happened thrice

#in 1 then 13 then 39 #they were cooking tho ngl 🔥🔥

🍀 hopefulservant Follow

listen i can be fucked in the head sometimes but we srsly gotta take a step back and consider how the series is exploiting mentally ill people for content. i mean, whens the last time we had a double or triple murder where the killer wasn’t already, or eventually revealed to be, mentally ill? What is that saying, exactly??

💣 togamicorp Follow

more👏neurotypical👏serial👏killers👏

🔪 chapter3sweetheart Follow

OP i have some news about your best boy

🍀 hopefulservant Follow

….agh…….my worthless talent…….

🎹 warriorsofdope Follow

okay can someone tell me why im seeing ship discourse about danganronpa 48 again? i thought we all played the same game and came to the consensus that the optional romance event with the whole class was universally canonical

🔮 30-percent Follow

Some of us didn’t get it on our playthrough 😒 also Sorry but I don’t like some of the cast of danganronpa 48. I don’t want them all shipped together.

🎹 warriorsofdope Follow

I can’t forgive you . Im gonna have to kill you for having that opinion.

🌟 dangan-wrongpa Follow

you shouldn’t ship the cast of danganronpa 48 because half of them are confirmed clones of Junko. go through chapter 5 again if you forgot.

🚀 femmesakura Follow

SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES SHUT UP ABOUT THE JUNKO CLONES

THAT THEORY WAS DISPROVEN IN DANGANRONPA 49 STFU STFU STFU HOW ARE PEOPLE STILL THINKING THIS?!?!?

🐹 gundamwenttohell Follow

dont bother with him hes the vtuber guy

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

i followed you because of darklina but i went down a rabbit hole bc half your listed fanfic was helsing (and im into dracula too a bit but i was only familiar with castlevania’s alucard) so i spent some time reading alutegra stuff and they sound interesting. i put the show on my list even though ive spoiled myself atp

the main point of my ask is if you think integra is a lesbian. I haven’t watched the show or read the manga but i came across a discussion where some fans were say alutegra shippers are erasing her lesbian identity and forcing feminine traits on her. idk. what are your thoughts?

second, in canon, if integra was to open up about romantic feelings once alucard came back, how do you think he would react?

sorry for all the questions and i hope you write more alutegra fic!! i need it for when i start and finish ultimate lol

Obviously I… do not think that considering how much ship fic I have posted? Like I’m not sure what you are expecting me to say here! I’m not interested in ship wars. And if someone is dead set on her being a lesbian then like good for them lmao. Canon tells us fuck all, interpret it however you want idc

But omg getting into Hellsing for ship content and then it’s ten hours of a wildly suicidal Dracula in a stupid hat goring nazi vampires. Good luck 😭

Fwiw, if you like manga, I think starting with the manga is a slightly better entry point. The Ultimate OVAs follow canon pretty closely but the first episodes make some odder stylistic choices, and the vibes just end up being a little different.

As for romance, like I struggle to see her doing that tbqh? We don’t talk about feelings in this house! And it’s literally a character choice that she keeps like three feet from him at all times in canon lmao.

But also yeah I mean he’d go along with it? He has zero boundaries + probably views a sexual relationship of some sort between them an inevitability— like I HC that he was absolutely fucking Arthur and Van Helsing too. If she reads into that context though, she would HATE it.

And then there’s the element where… he doesn’t do well if offered like. actual kindness. So if she’s unmistakably talking about feelings and making it clear she cares about him, then very high chance he’s going to either write it off as her being young and silly, or he might just think that she’s mocking him. Idk it would just be very thorny regardless.

OH I just scrolled up and saw the “when he came back” bit. Idk man honestly that’s harder to parse. I typically think they’re even more dysfunctional after the timeskip because they barely know each other anymore at that point.

[jerzwriter]

as a writer, when you put in all that hard effort into creating this massive story with so much thought and research, it just gets swept away and with people more inclined towards reading one shots and Tumblr's own interface designed for blog posts and not longform fiction like say, in ao3, it is unsurprising to find people gravitate towards fluff and stuff that gets wrapped up in 1k-2k words.

There isn't really a lot of interest in people wanting to read something that gravitates away from romance in the slightest. People want the engagement stories, the days leading up to it, they want the cute dates and that's perfectly fine too, but there really isn't any point complaining about engagement anymore because the fandom has just shrunk exponentially and it only makes sense to support each other's work because you like the author and you hope they keep writing time after time.

I don't know if I'm making sense lol, this is just my two cents on the situation and many random shovels of thoughts.

I do hope we get a fandom renaissance or something but that would require people to share, reblog and actively be a patron for people's works and not everyone has the time for that in this post-covid era, which is totally understandable too. I just hope we find a middle ground so people of all niches can be accepted and they can reach their audience.

While fandom events do encourage people to create; as a catalyst, the readers always play the primary part in making sure that encouragement sustains enough for authors to create. After a while it gets pointless to just shout out things into the void and you're left wondering if the stuff you create really matters or not; even if you think you're writing for yourself and you matter, it gets tedious 😭😭

OMG THIS. THIS. THIS. THIS. THIS!!!!!!

THIS!!!!!

Not going to lie… there are days lately I am like “It is time to just hang it up”, bit it still brings me some joy in a world that isn’t always so great. So I do it. But the desire to produce isn’t always there, and when it is, it is more likely to be short, simple, and like you said, that’s fine too. But I miss delving into deeper, more substantial content. But who is going to take the time to do it if … as you said… you are screamed into a void.

We always talked of “silent readers”. Well, I think a lot of them are even gone now, but I am sure some remain. But at this point if we don’t encourage one another, I think we will have very little outside of occasional shared screenshots within a year.

A year ago, the fandom was smaller, but I couldn’t have imagined hanging it up. Now, I think, “after I tell this… chances are I have nothing left to give.” And thats from someone who always has a new idea. Hey, that hyperactive mind fucks me enough, I am grateful for the good things it gives me too! lol But even for my Tobias and Casey, which are truly my heart, I can see an end. Today, it is all day by day.

Thank you for this… this post says it ALL.

[if-i-was-a-cucumber]

currently watching part 6 || dangerous romance

my reactions to dangerous romance episode 4!! please don't read if you don't want spoilers but the episode came out today so be sure not to miss it and support the series if you can, because it's currently my obsession and it should be yours too

he actually cares so much about sailom. i mean guys, LOOK AT THIS. he’s trying so hard to keep his grades up because sailom needs the money for his debts. and also subconsciously bc how can he live w/out dear sweet sailom as his tutor. all i can think about rn is which episode they start being cute and domestic.

breaking news: rich boy discovers poverty for the first time. am i taking too many screenshots of kanghan? yes. is he too attractive for me to stop? also yes.

NEVER MIND WOW THEY’RE ALREADY BEING DOMESTIC. AND TO THE SONG TOO!! WE DON’T HAVE TO WAIT FOR ANYTHING

“that means the wind is very important to the windmill, right?”

genuinely i have no words. tbh i knew kang would fall first and i knew something like this was coming the moment sailom mentioned windmills in the news but i didn’t know it would be like THIS. kanghan is literally flirting and he probably doesn’t even know it. sailom is in for a long heccin ride. i can foresee sailom having to explain to kang slowly that kang likes him 😭 😭

i can’t with kang sitting alone now that he and sailom don’t have excuses to hang out anymore. omg just get back together please i’m begging. the angst is hurting my heart. you’re too hot and fashionable to be sad kanghannnnnnn

THE ROMANTIC TENSION EVEN WHILE THEY’RE APART— this is really giving star-crossed lovers.

NOT WITH GUY AND NAWA LITERALLY PULLING CHANCES TO TALK (flirt?) OUT OF THEIR ASSES. if they really hated each other why take the opportunity to talk. no they had to have a conversation here. they had to display their intense sexual tension. TELL ME YOU DON’T SEE THE ANTICIPATION IN GUY’S FACE. THE REPRESSED ATTRACTION IN NAWA’S EYES AND SMILE.

the annoyance when max cuts into their “argument” - they’re not even trying to hide it guys

don’t mind me guys. i’m just here waiting for saifah’s inevitable romance with that rich loan shark guy whose name i forgot, and his cheerful lil demeanor will turn that True Asshole into an Affable Villain?

ending this part here because i don't like it when posts are too long!! thank you for being here and the next one will be up very very soon! love to you all <3 <3

[pilvimarja]

🔥= smutty ‼️= read the warnings 😭 = emotional ❣️= fluffy and sweet ✅️ = completed

Oh, You've Got To Be Kitten Me by Fuddlewuddle, explicit, cat AU, bottom Mav ❣️🔥✅️

Maverick is a cat. Rooster is also a cat. Can I make it anymore obvious?

It's Free Real Estate by thedastardly, explicit, bottom Mav 🔥✅️

“Finish peeling your carrots.” Rooster’s voice is low, all gravel, as he leans in and speaks, right against the shell of Mav’s ear. The sound goes right to Mav’s stomach, a hot flip of his gut that leaves his skin feeling warm all over.

Bad Romance (j'veux ton amour, et je veux ta revanche) by Finistra, explicit 🔥‼️✅️

When the talk turned to callsigns one day, Jake had gleefully offered Cock, which someone else then turned into Rooster and everyone cheered in their inebriated state, and somehow the name had stuck. Most of them hadn’t even known at that moment, but he saw Jake whispering to people behind his back and them looking at him and snickering.

Knife in a Phone Booth by thedastardly, explicit, bottom Mav 🔥✅️

Maverick can say with some certainty he’s never been in a position quite like this one. Many dog fights, many flybys, many orders ignored from where he sat in the cockpit of many different kinds of aircrafts. This, though, is very new to him.

The Life You Save May Be Your Own by Hazelmotes, explicit, bottom Bradley ❣️🔥✅️

“Ask me, sweetheart, c’mon.” Pete started working his thumb against a bruise he’d sucked into Bradley’s collarbone, leftover from a few nights ago when some ensign had had the gall to hit on Bradley at the Hard Deck. “Ask me for what you want.”

“I don’t know how,” Bradley said on a gasp, arching into the pain, into the hand of the man he belonged to.

“That’s alright,” Pete said. “I can tell you how.”

[m1ckeyb3rry]

STOP! YOU HAVE TUMBLR? 😭😭I love your stories so much, the amount of times I read ‘Promise’ is unbelievable. I love your writing style, it’s so beautiful. The words are creative yet they are so simple and flow so well with each other. And Y/N is always so funny, it’s never the perfect Y/N since we can see the flaws clearly within her and she understands them.

My favourite without a doubt is ‘Promise’. It’s so hard to find a character who joins the Military Police or is born a noble (plus the Eren is a bonus). Her relationship with both friends and family are important to her since in most stories it just focuses on romance. Also poor Levi. I never realised how funny of a best friend Jean would be, and I live for their friendship. I swear my sister is so bored and tired of my ranting about this story. When I read ‘Swear’ I could tell the difference but also the similarities, both were so fun to read. I’m excited to see what happens next with Swear if you continue to write it.

Endure…. That had me bawling. It was so heartbreaking yet sweet. She went through so much shit and managed to pull herself together even when the man she loved was destroying everything. And the fact she moved on was so sweet yet sad, she loved Eren but Armin and was so torned between them. And the cabin scene with the little waltz that she taught him a long time ago gave me tears. You know how to make me cry, I also cried in the last chapter of Promise when she dies and they meet again in another life. I swear most Y/Ns always live up to the end, the plot armour is so strong.

I recently started SITH and the Colt love ❤,but I’m also suffering from second lead syndrome cuz he is so sweet. But I am also curious what will happen to the Jeagerist Ackerman Y/N? I’ve never seen a type like that before and I’m so curious to know what happened next. I’m dying of my impatience to see her arc and story and I think I will most likely cry in it.

Sorry for the little rambling but you are my favourite author since your stories fit it so well and the characters are never ooc.

YESS I DO HAVE TUMBLR!!! I’m trying to be more active on here nowadays :) and thank you so much I’m so glad you like my writing!! I really try to balance being creative and having “poetic” writing with being easily understandable and not overly pretentious. I also don’t like reading perfect characters so i always try to write Y/N characters that have flaws and act at least SOMEWHAT realistically.

I’ll respond to everything else under the cut because I don’t want to take up too much space on the dash lol

I think promise is one of the only stories where Y/N is an MP!! I’m sure there’s others but definitely not many hahaha. To me when it’s just romance it makes the plot and experience of reading the story almost boring?? It definitely makes writing it boring so I usually focus on platonic and familial relationships as well as romantic ones ofc. JEAN IN PROMISE IS SO FUNNY i actually love him so much in all of my stories but especially that one…he’s just so good as a best friend character honestly. And noooo not your sister LMAOO I get it though I always make my best friend (the inspiration behind Tullia) listen to all of my story ideas and she’s definitely so done with it by now. If you ever want to rant about anything my inbox is always open!! You can send an ask or just dm

Honestly endure feels like a fever dream at this point I’m not sure why i just feel like a completely different person wrote it if that makes sense?? I’m not huge in the AOT fandom anymore so maybe that’s why 🤔 regardless endure always feels like home in a way because it’s my longest story and the one that most people have read so it’s just super important to me…kind of like a childhood room HAHAHA and yeah Y/N characters usually have massive plot armor but you’ll never catch me slipping like that 💪🏻

SitH was meant to be a Colt fic but at this point it’s a Y/N fic 😭 jkjkjk it’s still a Colt fic ofc but the romance is so not focused on we’re like 130k words in and they haven’t even kissed or anything — it’s more plot and character driven. I’m not sure how far into it you are so I don’t want to spoil or anything but SitH Y/N is probably my favorite Y/N I’ve written because she’s super unique and the story really leans heavily into some aspects of her character and trauma that a lot of fics don’t usually touch on. I definitely feel you about the second lead syndrome though I feel like it’s so easy to get with SitH because Friedrich is so bf material (idk if you’ve gotten to Hadrian yet but he also has very much second lead syndrome vibes although his situation is kind of different because he’s not exactly a second lead??? But he is??? But he isn’t??? I can’t explain it I’m sure you’ll know what I mean if you’ve gotten there already)

Unfortunately swear and hostis humani generis (the Jaegerist ackerman Y/N fic) were victims of the great m1ckeyb3rry cleanse and I don’t really anticipate finishing them 😭 I did have their endings planned out though so if you really want I can give you the sparknotes versions :) rest assured though both endings were very sad as is expected from me by now

I LOVE RAMBLING NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR IT!!! Long asks are literally my favorite thing ever I love reading and responding to them. Ramble as much as you like!! Also I’m super flattered to be your favorite author and it’s so nice to hear that you think my characters aren’t ooc because i’m always paranoid that they are. Thank you sm for reading and leaving an ask. UNRELATED BUT I SAW YOUR ART ON YOUR TUMBLR ACCOUNT IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL I’M JEALOUS

[jemsboner]

I read chain of thorns btw, it was fine but I have a lot of a lot of little complaints that just add up lol

- i miss the earlier books that centered around just the heroine and were almost exclusively from her pov. Now the povs feel like they change every two seconds because the main casts are just way too huge and all always needed something to do.

- in a similar vein, i don’t care about side couples and I never have. I end up skipping like 50 or so pages a book because every. single. character. has to be in love and I have to hear about every single trial and tribulation and make out for some reason. I understand romance is a big aspect of these and don’t get me wrong, i LOVE romance, but these books are so bloated with every teenager having to have one on one moments constantly that I feel like the group dynamics take a hit and even big plot moments feel rushed to make more room for side stuff. Your 800 page book should not feel rushed.

-the family tree being not correct has been a mysterious detail since cp2 and the answer being some lady just did it wrong cause she felt like it is so stupid 😭

-James and Cordelia being in a fight based on a miscommunication for half the book just for drama is infuriating. The reason James does not tell Cordelia about Grace barely makes sense and is only there JUST so he won’t tell her and make the drama last longer.

-the reasons for the adults to be out of the picture just so the kids can be main characters are getting so unbelievable. I was actually interested in Tessa’s trial but too bad we didn’t get to see any of it, and then they all just go to Alicante for a quick trip as if the world isn’t literally ending 😭

-similarly, the lengths tlh goes through to make sure that the tid cast does not steal any spotlight really hurts it I think. Obviously I’m biased and I just want to see Tessa but I don’t think that’s a crazy ask? Like the plot revolves around the fact that her father is a powerful demon and how that affects her kids, but we don’t even get to hear from her after a whole mob accuses her of consorting with Belial. In tmi the adults were not the main focus, but they were *there* and they did things outside of giving vague life advice and then being offscreen for 95% of the books. It’s just feels weird, not even in a stan way, but in these kids’ parents are NEVER around way lmao. Will got to be the designated spokesperson for all of the tid characters and everyone else gets to say nothing ever.

- I’m tired of the demon realms. I never wanna go to a demon realm again.

-Christopher was my favorite of the side characters and I don’t feel like that much weight was given to his death to the point where I was actually surprised when he stayed dead lmao.

Wow I sound like such a hater but i promise im not trying to be 😭 i found it fun enough to still read it within a day, like it’s fine. I just don’t feel a lot of love in the books anymore, they’re very copy and paste and follow a very specific formula but I guess thats what happens when you write at such a rapid pace in the same universe for over a decade. I say all of this but I’m still gonna read the next one lol. Until next time 🫡✌️

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would like to know more about your opinions about punk 57 :))

Hii Yesss, okay so I’m just gonna say eeeverything (but warning it’s not positive lmao) it’ll probably be a lot so I’ll put a readmore lol (also spoilers)

Okay idk where to start. So this is obviously fully my own fault but I misread the blurb (several times💀) and thought this was a wlw story and was a tiny bit disappointed when I realised it wasn’t lol but at the same time I was still really excited to read it bc I’d only heard good things and either way I thought the pen pal thing was super interesting and could be cute

Right from the start I didn’t like Misha like aren’t the male MCs supposed to be likeable and loveable in a romance book? Lmao. I guess he wasn’t bad but even before the thing with his sister happened I didn’t like him.

Then we met Ryen and I didn’t like her either. I mean most people wouldn’t like her at the beginning obviously but she’d been so horrible that by the time we found out why she’s the way she is, I didn’t care anymore 😭 also I think 18 is old enough to know better and not act like that.

Omg and generally age wise? There’s no reason for these people to be 18 and in high school. It’s like Euphoria in that way lmao. They should have been in college. I didn’t know whether to expect YA or New Adult and I still don’t know what it was because it’s clearly not YA because of all the sex but then why are they in high school? I didn’t really enjoy the smut bc it was weird knowing they’re barely legal. I’m not much older than them or anything but most people I knew when I was 18 (and actually it hasn’t changed much in the two years) were not having that type of sex lol (sure some people do and good for them lol but just make them older lol. This is a book adults are supposed to read so?). It was so so cringe to me when they were having sex on the library floor and in the car with their whole class right next to them omg.

And also about the sex, so I genuinely don’t mind the word slut during sex lol BUT NOT WHEN IT COMES OUT OF NOWHERE? If you haven’t talked about what you like during sex yet and the guy suddenly calls you a slut? 🚩🚩🚩 I mean Misha was generally a red flag tho, he was so aggressive and weird and I get he was heartbroken because of his sister but I just didn’t get him. and he was suddenly a criminal as well like idk he was such a ‘bad boy’ but like for no reason and he wasn’t even cool. He was just an annoying man (boy) who was very unlikeable and I didn’t see any character development? And yeah just very mean and aggressive towards Ryen. They definitely had sexual tension (although it kind of came out of nowhere too) but I never got why she would like him, especially before she knew who he really was. I get their history but I still didn’t believe that they actually liked each other romantically.

And for Ryen idk😭 I usually support women’s rights AND wrongs and sometimes I love a messy female protagonist but I just couldn’t like her, she was just a bully and so was Misha. And yeah she kiinda redeemed herself at the end but yeah by that point I just didn’t care. Also why did she have to be pregnant in the epilogue? It’s so random when authors put that in an epilogue it literally ruined the story even more lol. And like I said I would not believe that they’re still together after 5 years because they didn’t seem to actually like each other. I’d believe that they liked each other while they were still writing letters but irl I didn’t see a connection except a sexual one, especially because Ryen didn’t even know who he was for ages.

And just generally they were extremely immature all the time. And yeah they’re 18 but then it’s weird to see them fucking the whole time when they’re acting like (violent lwhejs) 14 year olds.

Okay now an important point. I would feel very differently about this if it was like a dark romance or not even romance at all lol. But as far as I can tell it’s apparently a romance book. But it just isn’t lol. There were hardly any romantic moments in it. It was a badly written dark high school erotica at best and if it was marketed as that genre, I still wouldn’t have liked it a lot but I would be a lot less disappointed lol and yeah I think selling it as a romance book is just not appropriate and telling anyone that that’s a healthy romantic relationship is just not right lol. (I mean I guess in the book it was never claimed that it’s a healthy relationship lol like of course the characters are toxic but they never stopped being toxic? Like there was a bit of character development in Ryen but Misha was nothing but an asshole to her and everyone else (except that guy Manny? I think that was his name lol. Only character I liked😭😭)

Omg also I just remembered the amount of times Ryen was in Misha’s lap and they were lowkey making out in the lunch hall😭😭😭 why would an adult write that lol. Also literally every single scene in the school was so so unrealistic and cringe lol. And if people really act that way in school, why has no adult done anything about it??? Lmao

It also definitely did not pass the bechdel test loool. I understand women can be mean and I’m not saying Ryen should be friends with Layla or whatever her name was but I would have loved to see at least one nice woman or healthy female friendship. Or reconnecting with her sister. I know there was one sentence about how her sister doesn’t hate her anymore or something but come on 😭 give us something 😭. I’m concerned for Ryen because Misha’s not good for her and she doesn’t even have a female friend to be honest with her about it. Yeah there was Delilah but that’s not what I mean obviously. With the whole fitting in theme etc I think it would have been so important for us to see Ryen connect with another woman or at least not be a pick me (she wasn’t a pick me generally I guess but in that regard she was). (Female) friendships can be even more important than a “romantic” relationship so just because she has her toxic unlikeable misogynistic bully boyfriend she inexplicably likes now, doesn’t mean she’s gonna be happy forever.

I really wanted to like this book and I’m genuinely happy for the people who do but I just can’t see the appeal shsksj

BUT at the same time I did read all of it (although I was tempted to dnf at many points😭) within two days which is fast for me so it couldn’t have been all bad lol.

What do you think? 👀 lmk!! (Whether you agree or disagree with me lol I’d just love to hear what other people think!!!! <3)

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

6:39 pmpdt 13 fe bru ar y 2023 Monday

(7:16 pmpdt Part 2)

6:40 pmpdt I have been rejected 🙅‍♀️ a lot all my life. It doesn’t take much to mess up a first impression. Sometimes my shyness & inadequacy if social skills & sometimes it was not being able to respond in a timely fashion to someone did it/annoyed? Triggered a bad response. I probably can blame that on my learning disability: left brain 🧠 working slower than the right, which is probably bcz I hit that side a lot more than the right side. 6:45 pmpdt for some reason I was rejected 🙅‍♀️ a lot. & I do blame myself. And b4 2017, I think it was then that I tried to catch on quicker & try to adapt to the idea 💡 of accepting rejection & to leave people alone who didn’t want me around. 6:48 pmpdt a girl knows when a man doesn’t want her. Although incubus sometimes made it harder to tell ≈2017??& last 5 years???? But it’s very clear now. Trying to gain clarity. Pain can do that. Make it easier when it feels like near death ☠️ experience & everything starts to look like a lie. 6:51 pmpdt I don’t anticipate that the world 🌎 will change. I think 🤔 they are too much about control. So much, that they don’t want anymore population growth & they like it when people prematurely die & suffer. I am thinking about assisted suicide. 6:53 pmpdt

6:57 pmpdt tattoos are no longer romantic to me. I think 🤔 they do it more for themselves. Something about a painful way to get a tan. Incubus said. 6:58 pmpdt tattoos lose romance when it’s ambiguous. & a lie. Lion 🦁. 6:59 pmpdt he probably heals supernaturally fast like Superman so I don’t think bleeding 🩸 is a problem for him. 7 pmpdt maybe 🤔 it’s not even made with needles?? Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

7:16 pmpdt Thomas Jefferson (heifer = cow 🐮?) last year I opened up my breaking bread Bible (manga ish style illustrations white cover) my mom bought for me ≈2017/2018 bcz I was starting to read the Bible seriously (I only randomly opened it up very few times b4 then & read a few lines each time?) . She had the excuse that she didn’t want me becoming confused? Confused 🤷🏻‍♀️ it dead has a lot of explanations.last year I randomly opened it up (autocorrect said started deleting 7:22 pmpdt what are they deleting 🥺😭😖😭😱????) to Jeremiah & slavery & the sacrificial cow 🐮. I am year of ox 🐂. Which might also be called cow 🐮. I am also Aries ♈️ = ram 🐏/lamb (r= L sound Japanese 🇯🇵) my moms name has Abel in it. ... my name might be Jesus actual name. & transliteration of chavah w/Greek letter nu. Hosanna in the highest. Yeshua Nick name. I might be a sacrifice for the renewing of the covenant of god & a sign 🪧 that nothing is going to change. It will continue like b4. You will have to 4give people like garrido, Jaycee dugard’s kidnapper & rapist, bcz he does what god incubus wants him to do. 7:29 pmpdt

7:43 pmpdt how do I connect the dots to sacrificial cow 🐮 & Jeremiah? (😖😭 right heel pain 7:44 pmpdt) my (different) cousin & sis are leo ♌️ (satan/devil? is said to be a hungry lion 🦁 looking for someone to devour? Devil 👿 comes to steal, destroy & kill? Klove radio 📻) not saying that they are devil. It’s symbolic. Same bdays. That cousin, name is Jeremy. & he was formerly a policeman 👮‍♂️. 7:47 pmpdt my sister’s name has “Die” in it. My older half sister is also Leo ♌️. And incubus has been bugging me a lot & giving a lot of signs 🪧. Using stuff I drew. The sun 🌞 tattoo near his shoulder looks almost identical to something I drew in high school 🏫 & I oddly chose to throw it away even though I usually hold onto a lot of my drawings. & if you know my bday, then you know. 7:51 pmpdt

8 pmpdt 8:01 incubus captioned in his Instagram picture for the “wait” 2nd music video using Snapchat “work smart not hard” hence lying 🤥 can get the job done ✅? Reverse psychology he somehow put that in front of my face in 2017. 8:03 pmpdt stroh said “in plain sight” was it? 8:04 pmpdt which is why I don’t believe in heaven, only Sheol now. Which was introduced recently. With in last 2 years. 8:05 pmpdt

8:36 pmpdt he likes to do what is easy & deceive. I’m always being punished. He already said he would never touch me/ sleep 😴 with me/ have s*x w/me. “I can’t I just fucking can’t” was it? He doesn’t like ugly girls. He knows all the social ques to make himself look 👀 good. He went to French woods arts 🎭 acting school 🏫. He’s an actor. He showed himself to me when I lived in blossom hill. He showed me he hated me. He seemed to halfway reenact it w/an old man on an Instagram post w/a caption? His disgust was palpable. He’s actually talking about his own feelings about me. But in the picture he’s smiling- opposite of what I saw 👀 in person. & he’s giving the bird to the viewer. Bcz I’m slavery covenant sacrifice, I’m fucked. I’m also fucked Bcz I’m being burned to death ☠️. My arm is red. They scorched 🥵 my back & side. They are vicious. I did not rape or premeditate murder. I think 🤔 they don’t like me Bcz I mayb was a little too greedy w/ food & I gave my aunt a hard time. They encourage people to keep quiet rather than complain. I was thin most of my life & petite but I guess it isn’t enough. Once when I was on a college bus 🚌 I felt like they were telling me I took up too much space. I’ve been told I look anorexic b4. & twice I lost a lot of weight in 2014 & 2019? I was probably under 95 pounds each time- guessing 2014. 8:52 pmpdt they have torn away almost all of my hip bones 🦴. So I think it is best to have assisted suicide like behati’s T-shirt says. W/ her tongue 👅 sticking out & an x formed w/ her arms over her vag. Sitting on the bed. Instagram picture. It’s really going to happen. 8:55 pmpdt bcz they didn’t let me see who was kissing me I’m guessing it was a gigolo assistant. Otherwise why put it online for me to realize after the fact? He lies all the time Bcz it’s easy for him. Detached. 8:57 pmpdt I would have really liked a happy ending. Like he kept dangling in front of my face w/ false promises. Like a donkey. Behati lied 🤥 to me too . Waiting for water to boil. David dowd boil. Beloved = boil. Susan boy-les/boiles. 9 pmpdt burning 🔥 my flesh means I won’t heal. 9 pmpdt he put I didn’t cheat on my wife but I crossed a line. That I guess was for me about the gigolo assistant kiss 💋 with my eyes 👀 closed. My eyes 👀 had to be closed Bcz it wasn’t him. 9:06 pmpdt

9:07 pmpdt I don’t remember much anymore. I gave my aunt a hard time sometime after my cousin punched me & I lost my job soon after which was a year. My former boss was very kind to me giving me chances. 9:08 pmpdt

9:42 pmpdt the him you saw in concert snobbish the fan who jumped on stage to give him a hug recently is probably closer to his real personality- a guess. (Blood spurt blood 🩸 9:43 pmpdt)

9:45 pmpdt lion 🦁 babies need cow 🐮 to eat. 9:46 pmpdt

Kiss 💋 of death ☠️ 9:47 pmpdt

9:49 pmpdt I look 👀 sick & tired 😴. Hospitals 🏥 avoid helping me as much as possible. I’ve been starving for oxygen, started having breathing difficulties mid 2019. Everyone ignored my breathing problems until recently. Felt like I was dying every time I can’t breathe. A lot of suffering. They don’t care 🤷🏻‍♀️ for me to have a painless death ☠️ they made it very painful everyday since summer 2017 & made me crazy enough to burn myself in 2017/2018. 9:54 pmpdt & starve myself again since end of 2017? (10:07 pmpdt year change) beginning 2018. 9:55 pmpdt everytime I eat now they drain me of blood 🩸 & feed me vinegar probably. I look anemic under my eyes 👀 w/ dark circles? They heat me up all the time so I can’t breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ again . 9:57 pmpdt & they brain 🧠 washed me last year & 2017 using my mom possessing her to tell me lies that the incubus loves me as if she had personal meetings with him. & then he wipes away her memory of it. They are very cruel. It’s their brand of reverse psychology, woo me to kill me. Black widow spider 🕷 scorpion 🦂 praying 🙏 mantis. 10:01 pmpdt. They constantly flip flop 🩴 since 2001? It seems. But it’s now increased Bcz I’m close to death ☠️ boiling pot of water & frog 🐸. They had a back story that kept changing to support the tolerance of the flip flopping. 10:03 pmpdt but I had came to the realization that to flip flop 🩴 means to admit that they’re lying 🤥 & to normalize it. Lying 🤥 = double crossing. Cross a line then cross back over. = death ☠️ 10:05 pmpdt

10:08 pmpdt most of my life I’ve been alone. Rarel/occasionally saw grandparents on either side & cousins & aunts & uncles. Rarely talked too. (Incubus pricking tongue 👅 tip & heart ♥️ pain 10:10 pmpdt they don’t have sympathy 🫂 for me. 10:11 pmpdt)

10:54 pmpdt I need to cough to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ & each time I tried to cough they stabbed my brain 🧠 w/ many spikes covering the top of my brain 🧠 which is very painful 😖 & makes a full cough difficult. They made me vomit 🤮 minutes ago & now making me more nauseous. They like to torment torture me every day. Then they did the acid sand paper again.

the tricycle thing I really think 🤔 I went slow. They made me doubt myself w/ a deep fake edit. But how does an adult go fast in a tricycle not meant for adults? 11:01 pmpdt makes me think he really hurt the kid w/magic to make it feel worse than it would have felt w/o. They’re going to kill me now. 22;02 11:02 pmpdt

11:03 pmpdt Scott watched history channel in his bedroom & I watched Hitchcock’s the birds 🦅 in his room with him bcz he wanted me to even though I don’t like scary movies. Birds = pestilence = apocalypse birds 🦅 = acid eating 🍽 my brain 🧠 11:06 pmpdt. Nick lived on cassiar-> cassieopia constellation 🌌 serendipity movie 🎥 Kate beckinsale smoking 🚬 w/ her. Katty. Brain 🧠 damage? Deprivation? Etc they’re probably going to do that to me now. More tortures death ☠️ 11:09 pmpdt

11:11 pmpdt I’m wide awake Katy Perry’s. I have been to the (brain digging into tissue of brain 🧠😱😖😭😫😩 feels like they destroyed tissue 11:14 pmpdt) Phillipines when I was 7 years old , 13 years old , & 2012, 2018. Long distance calls were expensive. Comcast had a very limited plan that’s easy to go over & be charged a lot. 11:17 pmpdt all my relatives usually didn’t speak English. They did a little bit & but would often say they are embarrassed of their English. I did not learn much of either dialect my mom spoke. I think they destroyed a significant portion of my brain 🧠 & knowing their pattern they will keep doing it. 222 this is the apocalypse Sean of the dead ☠️ zombies 🧟‍♀️ 11:22 pmpdt when I tried to learn Japanese I forgot a lot even though I was practicing a lot. 11:23 pmpdt yeah, he (#3 mins ago don’t want to get up 11:24 pmpdt) lied 🤥 about loving me. He thinks I am ugly. I don’t have children 👶. Incubus doesn’t love me. It’s weird how easily he can flop flip flop 🩴. It’s easier to pretend when he lives 500 miles away. He probably gets nauseous & gags & shakes off (tummy ache torture 11:28 pmpdt) something dirty when he thinks of me. 11:28 pmpdt

11:35 pmpdt karas flowers 💐 we like digging ? I feel like I am missing part of my brain 🧠 this is not good. 11:36 pmpdt incubus is smiling = death ☠️ shi Japanese Japan 🇯🇵 Chinese 🇨🇳. My head was probably already smashed in a lot from the top 🔝 & the sides. I remember it hurt a lot. But they want me to believe it wasn’t bad. It hurt & I felt like a weirdo afterwards. They don’t want to empathize. 11:39 pmpdt they want to kill me now slowly torturesly. 11:40 pmpdt

11:45 pmpdt I wonder 💭 how dumb Nick thought 💭 I was. He probably thought I was retarded. What tummy ache 😖 I wonder hot 🥵 hot hot 🥵 if he was able to fit a game with out losing any graphing capabilities. 11:48 pmpdt incubus really hates me. If someone can tell me if Melissa Cuen is in Sunday morning at the table with the blonde 👱‍♀️ at the beginning that would be great 👍. 11:50 pmpdt job yob 408. Juke box cds 💿. 11:50 pmpdt

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11:52 pmpdt I don’t expect to win. But if he’s going to do this to me then why not? 11:53 pmpdt

1 ichi chi Qi blood 🩸/life force bleed 🩸 11:54 pmpdt

11:55 pmpdt I might have also tried yoga 🧘🏻‍♀️ in 2006 for the first time in community college. 11:56 pmpdt I wonder 💭... if it’s not a coincidence... I really feel like I’m missing a big part of my brain 🧠😰😭 11:57 pmpdt

in 2008 I had a project that I played the guitar 🎸 & made up my song 🎵 & played it in class last minute idea 💡 my hands 🙌 were oozing body fluid from eczema probably. I didn’t feel great. Originally I was going to make a video but I couldn’t think of what to do. (I hate you incubus 12 am pdt) I don’t expect to live. With the way it’s going. I really don’t like doing presentations in front of the class. Always. Kindergarten hiding behind my rain coat 🧥 when I hung it up 🆙. So I turned all the chairs 🪑 around, so I don’t have to see their eyes 👀 & they don’t have to see me. It was like a radio 📻 experience. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if anyone remembers. I m guessing no one cares. It’s ok. I don’t expect to get anything from anyone. 12:04 am pdt

12:06 am pdt usually I get very nervous. Even if I have to sit in. My seat 💺 & answer a question 🙋🏻‍♀️ I sometimes got shaky. 12:07 am pdt

12:10 am pdt I would rather have my all my bones 🦴 & health than anything.

[euphoricsunflowers]

PLEASE WRITE ABOUT THE COWORKER WONWOO😭😭😭😭😭

literally just needed one person to tell me they wanted it lmao

based off of this. text messages are bolded. content warning for unsafe bondage, not specifically afab!reader but kinda fem, hickeys, slight possessiveness lol, making out, mentions of taking sexy pictures but it doesn’t actually happen, also ahem: Don’t Fuck Your Coworkers <3 pls <33

you: are you busy right now?

your text message startled him out of his focus on his work. if he’s being honest he’s got so much work to do that he’s overwhelmed. he needs to tell you yes.

wonwoo: no

wonwoo: why

he hopes being short in his messages will maybe make you telepathically understand that he really can’t right now even if he would love to. it doesn’t. he sits for a moment, head in his hands when he reads your reply.

you: you know where to meet me

unfortunately, he does. this arrangement has been going on for a couple months now. he’s decently sure no one has noticed because you’ve only done it a handful of times and you’re really good at acting outside of your precious oasis: the janitor’s closet. what a perfect place for inter-office romance.

except he’s assuming the romance side of this is one-sided. not in some tragic, sad way, but he just assumes you like using him for whatever kind of stress relief this is. he doesn’t mind.

wonwoo gets up, making his way towards the bathroom. it’s only once he’s completely out of sight from everyone that he makes a sharper right turn into the janitor’s closet that is so conveniently placed for your impromptu meetings. he’s pulled in somewhat forcefully, but because this is not the first time you’ve done this, it doesn’t surprise him anymore.

your lips find his instantly, immediately titling your head to deepen it as soon as possible. you’re still holding his wrist from when you pulled him in, but your other hand rests simply on his shoulder. his hands grip your waist as you make out.

you pull at his tie to loosen it and eventually remove it entirely, still keeping him distracted with your kisses and the close proximity. he’s getting dizzy; you’re just getting started.

you pull away from the kiss, one hand still holding his wrist while your other hand wraps his tie around it. you take his other hand and tie his wrists together loosely with his tie. only finally do you look up at him, meeting his intense gaze, “is this okay?”

his breaths are more shallow than he’d like to admit, “yeah, you’re fine. do whatever you want.”

“mmm can i give you hickeys? let the whole office know someone’s got you?” even if your arrangement didn’t have a lot of romance in it, it was hard to not feel possessive of someone so perfect like him.

he plays absentmindedly with the buttons on your blouse because it’s all he can do with his hands tied, “you know i’ll just cover it up. i’ll get really into wearing turtlenecks for a while or something. i’m creative,” he smiles charmingly.

okay then, you give in. you pull his tie up so his hands are above his head, held up with your hand pinning his wrists to the wall. you kiss his neck with vigor, touching all over his chest, his waist, feeling up everything under the thick material of his suit as his hands rest uselessly in front of him. you move to unbutton his shirt as you go back to his lips, making out and grinding on each other for what feels like a mini eternity.

it feels like paradise, except he’s not sure if paradise includes worrying about cumming in his expensive pants.

your fingers run through his hair, nails dragging at just the right places to make him shiver. he wonders if it’s your intention to make him look like a sex-crazy wreck or if that’s just an afterthought of your stress relieving methods. maybe you don’t even think about it at all, which is almost hotter.

“hey, i just remembered i’ve got a meeting in like 15,” you say suddenly, pulling away while fixing the button on your shirt. it takes him a second to come down from the daze he was in. you smile when you get a good look at him, “maybe go fix yourself up in the bathroom.”

only then does he realize you were wearing red lipstick. good god.

you help him undo the knot of his tie, “wish i could take a picture of you so i can never forget how pretty you look right now,” you say, untying his wrists, leaving a delicate kiss on his hand. it’s far too sappy a moment for what you mean by ‘pretty’ because he looks like he just had wild sex. and you barely did anything to him.

[awarmcupofmilk]

Hi starry!!! Blue broke my heart, would you consider writing a sequel where Reader moves on with someone else and is happy? Would love to see Gojo’s POV on that happening. Want some comfort 😭🥹

Aww thank you for reading!! Here you go :)

Gojo x reader "Green"

(I was trying to find a consistent title haha)

Sequel to "Blue"

summary: after ending a long-term relationship with Gojo, you learn to move on

content warnings: breakup/sad, angst in first half, fluff, comfort

word count: 1,280

© 2022 awarmcupofmilk

please don't repost, edit, translate, use, or copy my works on any platforms (if you'd really like to please reach out -- reblogs are welcome)

You’d held out for another three months. 

It felt pathetic, a measure of insincerity in comparison to the years you’d spent together. But after you both knew whatever was between you two had fizzled out, the days dragged on like weeks. 

You were sipping coffee, on the rare occasion with Gojo. The coffee was well-brewed, a rich, slightly bitter aroma that would have been wonderfully enticing. But you couldn’t smell or taste a single drop. When you finished, you turned to look at the man in front of you, setting down your cup with a clink. He was really taking his time with his cup. You just watched as he took his last sip, then looked at you reluctantly, as if you both knew what you were going to say. 

Honestly, you didn’t know what to say. What came out felt formulated and cliché, like somewhere in the back of your mind, among one of the romances you’d read and watched at some point, you’d stored this line. 

“There’s nothing left between us.”

He looked down at his cup. He must have foreseen this, since he had swapped his blindfold for glasses. It was as if he wanted you to do the interpreting, so he wouldn’t have to talk. 

You’d do him this favor. The last one. “Satoru,” Your voice shook. You fought to keep it steady. “I’m letting you go.”

You weren’t quite sure why of all the lines that came out. No, “let’s break up,” no “this isn’t working out”, no “I don’t love you anymore.” Of course, the last one was impossibly untrue. But you also couldn’t admit he didn’t love you anymore, not that explicitly, not out loud. 

So, you were stuck with this melodramatic line that made you cringe a bit as you said it. You blinked back the tears. At least his response was appropriate. He just nodded. Not meeting your gaze. Was he ashamed? He didn’t need to be, it’s not like it’s his fault. But you also weren’t big enough of a person to tell him that. 

You reached out for his hand, one last time. His skin was a bit too cold to be reassuring. 

“I’ll be going first, then. See you around, Gojo.”

✧ 

If only that was the last time you had to see him. Even just the last time you had to see him outside of work. But no, all of your things were still in the apartment you shared. Gojo had offered to move out, but the last thing you wanted was to be stuck in the rooms you shared, haunted by all the empty spaces where his belongings used to stand. 

And so, feeling like a burden, you stayed in your shared apartment for one more week while the contract for your new one-bedroom finalized. 

✧ 

The day you moved out, he had somehow made time to help. It had almost felt like he was sad to see you leave. It must have felt strange for him to some degree, too. Even if he didn’t love you anymore, there probably wasn’t anyone else in the world who knew him as well, who he understood. 

So, carrying out your boxes for you, then leaning against the doorframe while you walked down the stairs with your last suitcase, he looked… apologetic. Sorry he couldn’t love you till the end, you guessed. You had to swallow a lump in your throat as you turned to meet his gaze. You couldn’t help the instinct to memorize every inch of him, stare into his eyes and remember the exact shade. You’d never be able to stare at him like this again. You swallowed again and turned away with a courteous wave. 

✧

After the breakup, you couldn’t help but feel empty. And feeling empty made you feel pathetic, weak. How you’d wished the feeling had been mutual, that you’d also fallen out of love. Then there’d be no desire to blame him, which only made you feel emptier since there wasn’t a reason to.  

Sometimes, sweet little things in your days made the void close up for a few hours, a few days if you were lucky. 

Yuuji, Megumi, Nobara, Toge, Panda, Maki. You taught more classes, trained more students, because they were the only thing in your life that made you feel warmth. But that came with downsides. Every time you ran into him at the school, it all came rushing back and your heart felt so heavy you thought it might tear. 

At one point, you were even pressured into a blind date. 

Though reluctant, you had dressed up for once, and even painted your nails. You had secretly hoped your date would be so unimaginably wonderful that your heart would move on and finally stop making you miserable. 

That didn’t happen. Casual, no-strings-attached dating turned out to be really not for you. If anything, the pain of having to start over with icebreakers and small talk only reminded you of how easy it had been back when Satoru still loved you. 

So, you threw yourself into teaching, into seeing your students grow and receiving their warmth. 

Oh, and missions, too. Those definitely helped distract you. 

The days were repetitive, but they weren’t painful. Maybe, just slightly, you thought you felt yourself becoming a little less miserable with every lesson you taught, every mission you completed. 

You were waiting for yourself now. Waiting for yourself to heal, to reciprocate your own love, to somehow come out of this a better person. 

✧

The summer air was steaming, waves of heat gliding past you. Fireworks flew up and erupted all around in the blue-black sky above you. You pushed past the crowds, inhaling the mouth-watering aromas gushing from food stalls. The first years had dragged you out to a festival, but now you were wondering if you hadn’t been hoping they’d invite you the entire time. Nobara and Yuuji had run off into the crowd, definitely about to return with hands and faces stuffed full of street food. You’d stayed behind with Megumi, who, with a little smile on his face despite his expressed annoyance at the other two for rushing off, seemed to be having a good time. 

“How are you, Y/N-sensei?” Megumi asked as you two strolled along, and you knew it was more than just a greeting. 

“Good,” you said, smiling, and this time, you really felt it. 

As you walked, you noticed a tall, attractive figure standing under the fireworks who met your gaze and, surprisingly, waved. Nobara and Yuuji had rushed back, and surely enough, they were covered in food, beaming. You excused yourself from the three and timidly went up to the man, making conversation. 

He was charming. Maybe you wouldn’t even see each other again after tonight. But you found that you could laugh, you could be interested in what he said, and you could hope to see him again some other day. And as if signaling enough time had finally passed, that you’ve finally waited for yourself long enough, the fireworks above the two of you erupted in swirls of green. 

“Oh, Gojo-sensei,” Yuuji exclaimed as Satoru made his appearance. 

“Is Y/N here?” Satoru asked. 

Megumi eyed him suspiciously but nodded in your direction. 

And Gojo, seeing your expression, your laugh, for a fraction of a second, felt something in his heart twist. Maybe it was a sense of loss? But then he cleared his throat, looked away, and by the time he turned back, all he felt was relief. 

The fireworks cast light down on you, enveloping you in a haze of green. 

You were done waiting. 

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