#why is the titanic thing important? well i'm glad you asked

[queerstudiesnatural]

i still can't believe dean slept with anna "cas mirror" milton titanic style the minute they met and she touched the handprint while they were going at it. what in the hays code

[midwestgp]

Hello! After a good few weeks of combing through lots of data, I have coherent numbers for your viewing pleasure. This whole thing birthed from the hypothesis that past BTS fans now liked Charles and quickly grew from there. I am happy to say that many of my suspicions were confirmed and some surprises arose along the way. Thank you to everyone who participated and took the time to relive some great or not-so-great memories. Enjoy!

Some Notes Before Hand:

Combing through this data was a bit challenging. I tried to find data points that most fans would find interesting. To help give myself some sort of a guide I chose one of the top subjects in each category and analyzed the data attached to them. I will probably look back into this stuff more in the future, but trying to find points for everyone is a wild goose chase. That being said, if you notice something I do not, please let me know! I want to hear what you all think that's why I made this :)

Favorite Drivers (current grid):

So this was a bit surprising, but I think it was caused mainly by my wording. According to this graph, out of 346 users, Oscar Piastri is currently the most popular driver by a long shot. While I do think Oscar is very well loved, I do not think this is true at all. Because I allowed participants to choose more than one driver it became less of a true ranking and more "these are the drivers people think most positively of currently". I think if I asked everyone to pick one person Oscar would not be at the top and more likely around the 3rd-5th range. Other than Oscar it is also important to note my audience certainly had an effect on the results. Things are probably skewed slightly towards other drivers than they are realistically, but I still think this is pretty close.

For the future keep the numbers up here in mind and our top three, Oscar, Charles and Max, will be important. All pipelines are based off and cross referenced with this data set.

Drivers on Past Grids:

No surprises here! I did not do any pipelines attached to any of the data on this graph so this question was just for fun.

Anime and Manga:

Sports anime! Competition! Yippee! This is about exactly what I thought would happen. It makes perfect sense that the sports anime is popular in the sport community. Also, it was really fun reading some of your less than enthusiastic previous fandom experiences and memories.

Pipelines:

31/69 Haikyuu!! fans said that Max was one of their favorite drivers.

Also chances are that if you watched Haikyuu!! you also watched My Hero Academia because 29/69 Haikyuu!! fans also clicked My Hero Academia.

Max was the most popular person in this category as a whole and that does not shock me even slightly.

Favorite Characters:

Izuku Midoriya and Bakugou Katsuki from My Hero Academia

Tobio Kageyama from Haikyuu!!

Russia from Hetalia

L from Death Note

Levi Ackerman from Attack On Titan

Saiki K. from The Disastrous Life of Saiki K.

Literature:

I probably have the least commentary on this section. A lot of the books I love don't have dedicated fan bases attached to them (I wish they did) so I needed help when making this question. I have no clue what a lot of these are but I'm glad that you all enjoyed them.

Pipelines:

My Hypothesis for this was "are past Harry Potter fans more likely to like drivers with British accents?"

100/152 Harry Potter fans said that either Lando, Lewis, George or Alex was one of their favorite drivers. Considering that none of these drivers are in our top three I'd say I was correct.

Favorite Characters:

Draco from Harry Potter

Newt from The Maze Runner

Kili from The Hobbit

Elizabeth Bennet from Pride and Prejudice

Percy Jackson from Percy Jackson

Peeta Mellark and Katniss Everdeen from The Hunger Games

Alice Cullen from Twilight

Comics, Cartoons, Graphic Novels:

I was not previously aware of the amount of comic and graphic novel fans in Flblur! I thought at first that these numbers were coming from MCU and DCU fans (some them surely but that's besides the point), but after consulting my council (princess george cord) I quickly learned that there are a lot of comic fans.

Pipelines:

When looking at the Marvel Comics numbers, this was one of the most diverse sections when comparing it to favorite drivers. This group leaned more towards the middle of the pack rather than our top three.

That being said Max and Lewis were our most popular contenders here. 36/93 Marvel Comics fans liked Max and 33/93 Marvel Comics fans liked Lewis.

I personally feel like this makes a ton of sense.

Favorite Characters:

Lance, Keith, Shiro and Pidge from Voltron: Legendary Defender

Zuko and Katara from Avatar: The Last Airbender

Dipper and Mable Pines from Gravity Falls

Garnet from Steven Universe

Tony Stark, Peter Parker, Bucky Barnes and Deadpool from Marvel Comics

Fluttershy from My Little Pony

Fandom RPF (no music):

Looking at this section now, my labels could be a bit confusing. Chances are if you are a fan of a person in the Minecraft RPF category they also probably fit into both the YouTuber RPF and Streamer RPF categories. I made these separate from each other based on if I felt they had enough history and content to overpower other names who would fall in there. Phandom has so much history at this point that if I bunched it in with Youtuber RPF it would kind of feel disrespectful (and I wasn't even involved in it). Anyways, I decided to focus on Minecraft RPF for the pipeline in this section just because I felt like I could analyze it more closely even though it isn't the top spot.

Pipelines:

So my hypothesis for this section was that the fans of Minecraft RPF would generally be more attracted to the younger people on the grid, like 2019 rookies and onward.

Something stood out very quickly and it was the amount of Logan and Oscar fans. The numbers aren't staggering or anything, but there's certainly a pipeline here.

23/62 Logan fans like Minecraft RPF and 49/197 Oscar fans liked Minecraft RPF. As a pairing, 16 Minecraft RPF fans liked both. Now this probably doesn't seem like a lot, but if you compare it with Lando's numbers (because Lando and Oscar is Oscar's most popular pairing) its kinda clear there's something different here. Only 18/88 Lando fans were previously Minecraft RPF fans.

Favorite People:

Dan and Phil

Technoblade

Ranboo

Markiplier

Smosh

Movie and Film:

It is not shock the amount of Marvel Cinematic Universe, Star Wars and DC Universe fans there are in F1blur. I was a bit surprised by the lack of spread overall though, though who am I too judge I would really only attach myself to like two of these. Originally I did not want to look at the MCU in for this sections pipeline because I looked at the comics earlier, but the results were surprisingly different.

Pipelines:

Ok, so previously in the Marvel Comics section the two most popular people were Max and Lewis. Here things are a bit different though Max and Lewis and still popular.

The standouts here this time are Alex and Yuki! 41/88 Alex fans liked the MCU and 46/73 Yuki fans liked the MCU.

It is also worth mentioning that 93/167 Oscar fans liked the MCU too.

Favorite Characters:

Loki, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes, Black Widow and Peter Parker from the Marvel Cinematic Universe

Poe, Finn, Luke Skywalker, Obi Wan Kenobi and the Clones from Star Wars.

Merlin from Kingsman

Q from the James Bond Franchise

Music and Band RPF (no kpop):

I mean, it's what is says on the tin. One Direction being the most popular band in F1blur makes perfect sense, no comment. It also makes sense that Panic! At The Disco, My Chemical Romance, Twenty One Pilots and Fall Out Boy are so similar in numbers. I am kind of curious on how people interact with fandom spaces with some of these artists, but those are questions for another time.

Pipelines:

Although I did not poll anything to do with shipping, I am going to talk about it here. It did not shock me that Charles and Max were popular here.

53/143 Charles fans were One Direction fans and 51/130 Max fans were One Direction fans too.

28/108 One Direction Fans chose both Max and Charles. I am sort of pointing at possible Larry and Lestappen connections. Yeah.

Also lots of George and Lewis fans here.

Favorite People:

Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles from One Direction

Gerard Way from My Chemical Romance

George Harrison from The Beatles

Luke Hemmings from Five Seconds of Summer

Kpop:

This is our smallest yes category...I will admit, I was shocked by the lack of Kpop fans from the poll. I assumed that because a lot of my F1 friends and moots were previous Kpop people that this would be similar for everyone else. I now see I am wrong. I am a little sad about it to be honest. Anyways, BTS was the most popular and no one bats an eye. Though I predicted EXO and Blackpink would have placed higher.

Pipelines:

I wanted to focus on Charles for this one because him and BTS is why I did this whole thing.

Would it surprise you if 1/5 Charles fans were also BTS fans? Because it's real and I think that's amazing.

I crave to know what this fraction of the Charles fandom thinks about Jungkook because I know it's not normal :).

Favorite People:

Kim Namjoon (RM), Min Yoongi (Suga) and Jeon Jungkook from BTS

Bangchan and Lee Know from Stray Kidz

Jennie from Blackpink

TV Shows:

This was our biggest yes category! The TV section has such a nice spread and it was one of the most fun sections to study in my opinion. I am not super into any TV Show fandoms so I also learned a lot here. These series are topics I will see in the trending tab, but know literal zero about. I am glad that you all seem to love these shows because that makes total sense since F1 is also TV.

Pipelines:

Ok so I don't know much about Sherlock. When trying to find a pipeline here I just took a lot of numbers from each driver and waited for something to stick.

Imagine my shock when the standout was Fernando! 23/71 Fernando fans also chose Sherlock. Thats about 32%. Middle aged men for the win.

Favorite Characters:

Stiles Stilinski from Teen Wolf

Steve Harrington and Robin Buckley from Stranger Things

Sam and Dean Winchester and Castiel from Supernatural

Hannibal Lector from Hannibal

The 10th, 11th and 12th Doctors from Doctor Who

Aziraphale and Crowley from Good Omens

Sherlock Holmes from Sherlock

Theater:

Ah yes... theater. If I could go back and redo this I would LOVE to know what extracurriculars everyone did in school because I think that would pair with all this so well. Again, it is not surprising that Hamilton is the fan favorite. Romance, competition, war, betrayal, it has it all and so does F1 (and Heathers too now that I think about it).

Pipelines:

I was practically flabbergasted by this section because it was immediately apparent that Hamilton fans go crazy for Oscar.

Out of the 91 people that said they were Hamilton fans... 74 of them also said they liked Oscar.

I do not know why this is. I thought George and Lewis were gonna be the stand outs here and they weren't. I'm a little bit confused, but at least you all sorta agree on something.

Favorite Characters:

Lafayette, John Laurens and Angelica Schuyler from Hamilton

JD and Veronica from Heathers

Enjolras and Grantaire from Les Misérables

Video Games:

Last Category, woo! Ok since I already focused on Minecraft and yapped on that a lot we are going to instead look at Detroit: Become Human. This section had the best spread overall which was nice to see. I knew the most about this section so I thought is was funny seeing how high Five Nights at Freddy's was. Though I forgot to add some of my own favorite games sadly. There's also probably a lot more pipelines here than I realize and I am sorry that I can't look into more of them.

Pipelines:

I knew coming in that Detroit: Become Human was going to be popular though I was surprised it beat out Five Night's At Freddy's.

I was not surprised though it find that George and Lewis were very popular amongst these fans.

16/43 Detroit: Become Human fans were fans of George and/or Lewis, the vast majority being both.

Favorite Characters:

Zelda and Link from The Legend of Zelda

Ghost and Soap from Call of Duty

Zagreus from Hades

Connor from Detroit: Become Human

Ganyu from Genshin Impact

Leon S. Kennedy from Resident Evil

Change In Pace: About You

So after asking all these fandom based questions I wanted to ask two about each individual: age and time spent watching. I think it's important to also study how time effects people in fandom and the fandom space as well.

Age:

For this section I looked at the average number of drivers picked during the first question. I predicted that the older you were, the less drivers you would say were your favorite and I was correct.

Below 18: 4.07 range: 1-10

18-22: 3.44 range: 1-9

23-25: 3.38 range: 1-13

26-29: 3.42 range: 1-10

30-35: 3.26 range: 1-6

36+: 2.53 range: 1-5

Time Watching F1:

I did the same analysis here as I did with the age question, so the longer you've been watching the less drivers you would say were your favorite. I was surprised by the amount of people who have been watching for less than a year (not that there's anything wrong with that). Also "My Whole Life" is a separate category because I figure it is at least 15+ and it has the added idea that F1 might be more than just a hobby to you. Finally, the orange and red are 10+(10 votes) and 15+ years (9 votes).

Less Than A Year: 3.58 , range: 1-10

1 Year: 3.62 , range: 1-11

2 Years: 3.34 , range: 1-13

3 Years: 3 , range: 1-7

4 Years: 4.19 , range: 1-9

5+ Years: 3.52 , range: 1-7

10+ Years: 3.7 , range: 2-7

15+ Years: 2.77 , range: 1-6

My Whole Life: 2.92 , range: 1-8

The End and Final Thoughts:

I am tired. This took probably 50-60 hours to do. I don't want to type anything or count Oscar's name ever again. Besides that, this was a lot of fun. Thank you to everyone who took part in this survey. Many of you left very nice and funny messages for me. Thank you to everyone who caught errors and let me know. Thank you to the wonderful people of princess George cord for their support and help. And thank you to anyone who actually reads this. I am very hungry.

If anyone notices any errors or inconsistencies please tell me and I will try my best to fix them. I am no scholar, but I really did try my best to make this as true as possible.

P.S - Thank you to Game Theory for being my background noise for the majority of this.

Midwestgp (koyya) <3

[buffysimonriley]

[ our hearts and souls to the cause ] • e. smith

synopsis - erwin asks you to come back to his office one night and tells you this may be the last time you ever see each other.

pairing - commander erwin smith/reader.

warnings - nsfw. minors dni.

fancy buying me a coffee? | ao3. | requests: open.

you sat in the seat opposite the commanders desk. you were playing with a letter opener that you had taken from the desk upon your arrival, lacing it between your fingers, as you waited for the commander to enter. this is how it usually went: late at night you and erwin smith, commander of the survey corps, would get up to some shenanigans in his office and when the morning came would go your separate ways until the next meeting. lately things had been different. erwin had lost one of his arms to a titan and since then, had kept his distance from you. you were beginning to wonder what you had done to make him ghost you, until he approached you in the hallway and asked you to follow him. he had since been diverted to more important matters and had asked you to stay put in his office until he came back.

"my apologies," erwin's voice came. you swivelled your head round to look at the door he was entering from, a smile on your lips. "we have an important mission coming up soon. we are heading to shiganshina to see what is hidden in eren jaeger's family home basement." you just nodded, your way of saying you understood what he was going through. you may have not been a member of the survey corps, but you understood the importance of his duties. "i'm back now, though."

"i'm glad you're back," you smiled. you placed the letter opener back on the desk where you had taken it from and stood up to greet the commander properly. you opened your arms for a hug and erwin walked into them, placing his hand on the small of your back. the hug was intimate, probably the most intimate hug you had ever had and it was at this point you knew something was wrong. "commander," you whispered. "what's wrong?" 

"i..." he started. erwin opened his mouth to continue talking, but closed it again quickly as he rethought what he was going to say. "this might be the last time you see me y/n."

you took a step back from the embrace and looked up at erwin, your own mouth hanging wide open. tears prickled at the corner of your eyes when the words left his lips and your mind began to spin with the load of questions that were popping up - was he calling off whatever relationship you had? did he regret it? was there somebody else? - all the questions had began to make you feel dizzy. you stumbled back into erwin's arm and looked up at him. "is there somebody else?" you asked before you even had time to process what you were going to say. 

erwin shook his head. "no, there's no one else."

"do you regret it?" you asked another question before you thought about what you were going to say. erwin shook his head 'no' at that question too. you sighed and asked, "then why might this be the last time you see me?" 

erwin took a deep breath before answering, "because i might not make it back alive." 

your breath caught in your throat. "what do you mean?" you asked shakily. 

"there is a high possibility i will not return from shiganshina," erwin repeated. he stared into your eyes as he spoke and noticed the tears welling up in them. he placed his hand on your face and used his thumb to wipe away the stray tears that had began to fall from your eyes. "shh don't cry, my love," he whispered. 

"don't go," you whispered back, looking up into his eyes. 

"i have too," he replied. "i have to see what's out there." 

"please," you begged through a whisper. you didn't care how you looked right now, you didn't care that the tears were falling from your eyes or the snot that bubbled at your nostrils, you didn't care. erwin sighed deeply and stroked your cheek with his thumb lovingly. "is that why you asked me to follow you tonight? to tell me you might not be back?"

"primarily yes," erwin sighed with a nod. "but also because, well, i was hoping to feel you one last time."

erwin's hand made it's way down your body and to the swell of your hips which he squeezed slightly. he then moved in to kiss your cheek and made his way down to your neck where he made hot, open mouthed kisses to your jugular vein. you whimpered as the commander began to suck and nibble at your neck, melting into his touch. "commander-" you whispered, throwing your head back. 

"call me erwin y/n," he pleaded between kisses. you nodded your head and moved your head to the side, granting him easier access to your neck. he tugged at the lining of your shirt and looked into your eyes, "may i?" he asked. you nodded and before you knew it, your shirt had been pulled over your head and was thrown across the rather large room. erwin wasted no time in unhooking your bra, kneading at your breasts hungrily, yet gently. previous nights like these had been passionate, rough almost, but tonight... tonight felt different. as the giant towering above you backed you into the wall, you had no place left to run: not that you wanted too anyway.

"erwin," you whispered.

"hmm?" he hummed.

"don't tease me," you pleaded.

"i want to take my time with you, my love," erwin replied. he kneeled down to suck on one of your nipples and used his hand to give your other breast attention. his words sent shivers up your spine... this might be the last time you sleep with commander erwin smith and he wanted to make it count. "you are so beautiful, do you know that?" you shook your head 'no' as erwin continued to talk, praising you. "you are absolutely beautiful my darling. everything about you from your eyes, to your lips, to your hips... just perfect."

you squirmed as erwin's tongue lapped around your nipple and his fingers played with the other. your eyes fluttered closed as you revelled in the feeling, pushing aside that this may be the last time with the handsome commander. erwin switched places, turning his attention to the other nipple and using his hand to play with your now wet-bud between his fingers. you arched your back in pleasure as jolts of lightning shot through your body and you rubbed your legs together to gain some friction. erwin knew playing with your nipples was a quick way to get you into bed, and usually you would be spread out on his desk for him right now, but erwin was taking his time. he was sucking and licking at your nipple and areola, making sure that each breast was given the same amount of attention. as erwin continued sucking, his hand dropped from your breast and into the waistband of your pants. you gasped when you felt his long finger flick between the slick of your folds. your parted your legs unconsciously, allowing him access into your cunt. against your breast, erwin smiled. not an evil smile, but a genuine one. one that showed love and care. just as you were about to ask the commander to insert a finger inside you, he did. you found yourself getting lightheaded again at the newfound sensation between your legs. 

erwin used your parted legs and chance to push his finger all the way in, already reaching that sweet spot inside of you. he knew your body expertly well, more than anybody ever had and probably ever would. as he curled his fingers inside you, erwin moved his mouth from your breast back to your neck and began sucking hard enough so that love bites would be there come morning. they were already beginning to form as red patches on your skin. erwin moaned into your neck as you sucked in his fingers with your cunt, greedily he wanted more. he pulled out his finger halfway to the knuckle and used this opportunity to plunge in another finger. "fuck erwin," you groaned, using your hands to grasp onto shoulders. holding onto him was the only thing that was stopping you from simply melting to the floor. he scissored you open slightly, turning his attention to the other side of your neck. pressing hot open mouthed kisses down to the valley of your breasts. you thought he was going to stop and give some attention to your nipples again, but instead he kept kissing down. erwin got on his knees so he was now eye-level with your crotch and smiled, looking up at you. his fingers still stuffed inside of you halted their movements and retracted, leaving you empty yet again.

erwin took his fingers and pressed them into his mouth, eyes rolling back as he tasted you on his fingers. "i will never get over how delectable you taste," he moaned, swirling his tongue around his digits. you let out a slight moan at the sight and began to unbutton your pants. you were desperate to have him inside of you already, but erwin still wasn't done. you pulled down your pants briskly bringing your underwear down with it so they were now pooling at your ankles. you stepped out of them and kicked them off to the side, lost alongside your shirt. you were now completely naked apart from you boots, but erwin didn't seem to care that they were still on. he grabbed your hand in his and guided you to the chair you had been sat on when he arrived. "sit down." 

you sat down on the chair, obeying his command. the wooden chair was cool against your back and your lower half but you didn't seem to care. still kneeling, erwin used his hand to open up your legs so he could nestle in between your thighs. he pressed kisses against your inner thigh and made eye contact with you as he did. the sight shot warmth straight to your core and before you could ask him, erwin buried his face in your cunt. he licked long, hot stripes against your folds before flicking at your clit with the tip of his tongue and back down again. he continue those movements a few more times before plunging his tongue straight into your hole. you let out a strained moan as your hands shot to his hair, using it as a means to press his face deeper into your pussy. erwin didn't mind though, instead he kept himself balanced by using his only arm to rest on your thigh. the smell of you was intoxicating to him, so much so that he was drooling. as erwin decided to give some attention to your clit, he removed his hand from your thigh and plunged two fingers back into your core. at first the pace was slow, but with a buck of your hips he quickened his movements. it didn't take you long before you were pushed over the edge, "cumming!" you yelped, digging your nails into his hair as your legs began to shake violently. erwin smiled into his clit and continued sucking and finger-fucking you until your grip on him had loosened. 

"such a good girl for me," he whispered as he removed his fingers with a pop and sucked on them, licking your juices off. as he began to take off his clothes, erwin pointed at the floor next to a lit fireplace. "lay down for me, my queen."

again you nodded and with shaky legs made your way to fireplace to lay down. you closed your eyes, panting as you came down from your orgasm when you felt erwin climb on top of you. "erwin," you whispered, opening your eyes and wrapping your arms around his neck. "please, fuck me."

it was now erwin's turn to nod as he pumped at his cock between your thighs. you looked down and your breath had caught in your throat. you'd had sex with commander erwin smith a handful of times but had never known him to be thatbig. you whimpered as he lined himself up with your hole and braced yourself for the initial thrust. no matter how well prepared you had been, you always needed a few seconds to get used to the feeling of him penetrating you. erwin thrusted his hips against yours and entered you, letting out a strangled moan as he did. he knew the drill well enough to know you would need a few seconds to adjust, so erwin bent down and pressed kisses to your shoulders. when you were ready you gave him a nod, letting him know that he could continue. erwin was quick to react, already pounding into you like his life depended on it. "fuck y/n," he groaned, each thrust harder than the last. "you're so tight."

you let out a short whimper in response and wrapped your legs around erwin's waist, pulling him closer to you. the newfound closeness caused erwin's cock to reach deeper into you and you cried out his name. "erwin!"

"so beautiful, so perfect," erwin groaned pulling away from your shoulder to stare into your eyes as he continued to spear you onto his cock. "i love you."

"w-what?" you stuttered. 

"i fucking love you," he repeated. your pussy clenched around his cock at the words, only turning you on even more. "should have told you sooner, but i love you."

"i love you too commander," you whimpered. you found tears welling up in your eyes once more from both the emotions you were feeling and the pleasure building up inside you again. you blinked away the tears and kept your focus on erwin. erwin pressed his lips to yours in a passionate kiss, his hips faltering with each thrust signalling he was close to his own release. 

"do you have one more in there for me pretty girl?" he asked between your lips. you nodded enthusiastically and unwrapped one of your arms from around his shoulder to snake between your thighs, ready to circle on your clit. with erwin's cock and a little help from yourself, you were clenching around him again in no time. 

"cumming again," you cried out. erwin began to pound into you harder and faster. 

"fuck i'm cumming too y/n," he groaned. "fuck that's it, take my cum. take all of it!" he shouted - much louder than he had intended - as he came inside of you.

erwin toppled on top of you, panting deeply. he nuzzled his head into your shoulder and pressed a few more kisses to your shoulder. "erwin," you mumbled, eyes fluttering open and closed. you were completely spent and were ready for some sleep, but not until you spoke to him.

"yes my love?" he asked, looking up at you.

"please, please come back to me," you begged, before drifting off to sleep. erwin sighed as he watched you sleep. he knew that he wouldn't be coming back to you, but with that being said he would always be with you in spirit. 

"our heart and soul to the cause y/n," he whispered before allowing sleep to overtake his body.

[andrew-nobody]

Hello! I dunno if I'm gonna word this right so bear wit me please. But I'm curious.

I heard from a lot of systems that when there's a fictive they're WAAAYYY different than they were in the source.

What's that feel like? I mean... how do I explain? Like, you're suddenly... alive? Sorry if that's offensive, I unno a good word for what happens. Manifest?

And then you're seeing all this stuff about you but they're also kinna NOT about you personally?

Is that super overwhelming? How do you deal with that?

I hope that makes sense. I'm so bad at explaining and wording stuff.

Great question. Not offended, glad you asked. Just the way you’re asking gives me the impression that you get it.

It’s incredibly overwhelming! That’s a big reason I made this blog. Before the blog, I kind of walked into the Motel (the innerworld) with no sense of where I fit into it, let alone the world-at-large. But here, answering questions and stuff, it gives me direction, a purpose. A way to connect to my source, and all the people who love that source. And I want to contribute to that, because I feel like a part of it.

I am sort of suddenly alive. I suddenly exist. And the rules are different. Reality is different. I still have all of my memories from the game. That was all I knew before I “walked in.” Hell, I have memories that aren’t even in the game, but they’re blurry and hard to define until I explore them - kind of like that ask about if I’d ever want a pet.

More under cut….

I don’t want to say that I’m “WAYYY” different than my source. I’m kind of like an alternate reality version of that Andrew, I guess. Like, yeah… I fucking killed people and even ate them and also I didn’t do that because that happened in a game.

Would I kill someone now? Well, no, my circumstances are completely different for one thing. Also I don’t want to perpetuate a stereotype of an “evil alter” that can switch in and commit acts of violence. But when I put myself back in the headspace of my source and the exaggerated experience of fiction, I can still feel it. And when it comes to the play of an ask blog, why not do a little murder? Or whatever. Who’s it hurting?

When it comes to seeing people talking about a me that is not me, there’s definitely cognitive dissonance there. I just have to try to separate their experience and interpretation of the me that is a publicly-consumable character versus the me that is me.

For example, a lot of people are really into transgender/“genderbent”/femdrew/Andrea—whatever you want to call her. Seeing those interpretations give me some gender dysphoria, probably because the host of my system is trans masculine. But none of those interpretations are about me. So it’s simple, I just keep scrolling. I move along. Trans Andrew is just as valid as I am. And I know every version of me is important to the person that version is stemming from, and it says more about them than it does about me.

As for suddenly being in a system full of people I don’t know. It kind of sucks! Everyone here can read my mind?! I’m not used to that kind of lack of privacy, and I used to live with Ashley so that’s saying something! And I’m not the only fictive here, either. (There are fucking Teen Titans here? Lmfao??) And that’s difficult because, you know, we don’t all get along.

Anyway that was a LOT longer than I meant it to be. Kind of a whole vent post! Hope you don’t mind, Anon.

If you see this, feel free to shoot me a DM? I’m happy to talk more about this in detail (though I guess I already have…). Hope to hear from you.

Thanks so much.

[onigiri-dorkk]

Hi I'm new to the fandom and not gonna lie for a long time I was confused about why would anyone ship Rivamika because it always seemed like Levi was barely aware of Mikasa and Mikasa hated Levi or disliked him. I started reading the manga last week and I'm honestly surprised by how little changes made a huge different. WIT always made it seem like Mikasa didn't care about anyone other than Ereh and I believe they are the reason why everyone makes fun of Mikasa for being obsessed. I genuinely thought "I love her but she's very ungrateful and rude sometimes, their strongest soldier hurt his ankle when they needed him the most because of her and all she cared about is Ereh" but it's not like that in the manga. She actually feels guilty and responsible which is a great panel to show how character development. A 3 seconds scene would do so much good to Mikasa's character but WIT somehow didn't want to include that scene. Even in S3 it seemed like they would like to keep them apart and don't let them interact even though there was a huge reveal about them. And I think it's not only WIT. Even Isayama himself is almost afraid to let them interact and I'm not talking about shipping here. Imagine finding out that someone experienced the same things as you did, have this weird mysterious power thing going on and that person is your Captain whom you made it clear that you trust and respect now. It's crazy to me that they don't even talk and compare their experiences etc???? Again, it's not even about shipping, it pisse me off because it feels like Mikasa isn't allowed to have anything of her own, the reason why Mikasa ships aren't popular isn't because she's not loved, it's because Isayama, WIT and even Mappa didn't let her have many meaningful interactions. Hell, even with Armin (they are supposed to be a trio) it sometimes feel like they were just hanging out for Eren. Ughhh they could at least let Mikasa have Ackermans for her own. She could interact more with Levi and even with Kenny for a sec. So disappointing :(

Wow!! Anon, welcome to the fandom and thanks for sending this! I never get asks and it’s always exciting 😂 We’re glad you’re here!

The “I didn’t get how people shipped rivamika” thing is common tbh, don’t worry! I was on that train too until I stopped to think about everything implied between the lines—most of it being in the manga, as you said. I know people say things like we ‘grasp at straws’ but there is realistically fantastic depth we can assume from their closeness as comrades alone. The magic of Rivamika as a ship is it takes more deep knowledge of the characters to understand why it WORKS so well. And when you get it, gosh, it’s amazing!

We definitely agree too, that WIT cut such crucial scenes to Mikasa’s character. I will never understand their choices… And I’ll forever grieve it 😭 That scene of self-reflection and guilt over Levi’s injury/absence is important because it’s the first time she finally thought outside of her tunnel vision of Eren. Ultimately, she learns to care about what happens to others as a result of her actions, which quite literally starts with Levi.

I also agree, it seems like Yams started the Ackerman reveal + arc but decided midway not to commit to it or develop it. It explained their strength, but that was it. It’s strange that even in the anime they chose not to explain that Ackerman’s are Titan DNA hybrids. That seems like a crucial piece but I wonder why they didn’t think it was important. Because then the whole “Ackerman’s are immune to x and x” has no narrative proof at all.

I like to think Ackertalk happened behind the scenes. I like reading everyone’s versions of it—but always a shame we never got that in canon. It’s even strange because they both lost their entire families, so finding out you’re from the same people should at least create a sense of bonding or they’d take on a slightly familial role, or SOMETHING. (Though I’m glad it didn’t go that route because people would REALLY think they’re cOuSiNs lol) But it’s just strange Yams introduced these things that ended up really having not much purpose, or none at all. (Don’t get me started on the Azumabito shit)

I still hope and manifest for some sort of Ackerman spin off that explores this. Can you imagine? Levi and Mikasa (the cash cows of AOT, we say!) venturing off post-war to discover more about the Ackerman’s? Or to retrace and find surviving Ackerman’s outside the world?

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Adventures of Chika Hanabusa: The Restoration of Earth

Disclaimer: This book follows the events of Percy Jackson and Heros of Olympus fanfic, this fanfic will not include Trails of Apollo, The Kane Chronicles, and Magnus Chase.

Chapter 16: Meeting Chika’s Parents

Reyna PoV

As I walked across the legionnaire, everybody was training. I'm glad that they were still disciplined while I was gone. Frank and Hazel were discussing their training, and they stared at me as I stood across from them. Frank seems more confident and composed with his posture up and his bulky body standing tall, he is not the same shy teenager anymore. Hazel has also become queenlier with the purple chiton and her curly cinnamon-like hair tied in a similar braid to mine. It was kind of adorable that they were holding hands, so I'm assuming that they have become a couple.

“Hey Reyna, Welcome back officially, how was the quest?” Hazel shakes my hand and looks at me with compassion with a small smile. The sunlight does highlight her dark skin pretty well.

“The quest was just a waste of time, but I did manage to stop my mother's Greek form from causing any more problems. Chika made it out safely, but Hyun has been exposed as a spy for the Titan Army in the past. Which led to me banishing her, she will survive and might even find a new home." Frank and Hazel look down at the ground, probably disappointed with her actions. Hyun was one of the few who never looked down on Frank and Hazel for their status, even though she wasn't close to them. I am disappointed with her since she caused the deaths of Camp Jupiter, but she was one of the first friends I had in Camp Jupiter.

"The important thing is that everybody was safe and not killed. Is there any other news that you want to share?" Frank asked while Hazel stared at me with uncertainty, why is Hazel looking at me like that?

“I was thinking about spending the spring semester at the mortal world and then I will be back as Praetor." Hazel did a small smile and hugged me while Frank just closed his eyes and did a proud smirk.

"Honestly Reyna, you do deserve this break than the rest of us, you hold this camp together while we have the Earth Mother herself. Now it is our turn to look after our comrades” Frank says with an understanding tone while Hazel puts her hand on Frank’s shoulder.

"Don't worry after I am done with the spring semester, I will come back as Praetor. I just wanted to explore the mortal world and what it's like to be normal. Plus, I’m going with Chika, whom I trust very well, and she offered to let me stay at her place. So, I already got a plan of where I’m staying while I go to school.” Hazel and Frank look on in approval and give me a thumbs up.

“I do want to meet Chika, maybe you should invite her to the next anniversary party. She seems like a nice girl.” Hazel says out of curiosity. It will be ironic if Chika and Hazel become friends considering their parents’ history and the fact that Chika holds our biggest enemy inside her.

“Sure, I will ask her about it, you will like her. She’s a kind and trustworthy person and she has inner strength. She did help Hyun and I survive the quest.”

"I'm sure she will be cool to hang out with," Frank says and then offers a nod of approval once I walk back to my office. I'm not going to unpack from the pouch since I will be leaving soon. I'm both excited and a bit anxious since I will stay at Chika’s father’s home,  I will be a good guest in his home. I put my robotic hounds and give them a rubber ball to play with.

Chika and her father, Isshin Hanabusa were waiting in front of my office. How did her father get here so soon, I thought I would be him at night.

“Nice to meet you again Reyna, I hope that you will enjoy your stay at our home. I am lucky that Demeter is helping us travel without monster interference, she's waiting outside as we speak." Isshin explained. I got my magical pouch that had all my clothes and other necessities, and I followed them outside to meet Lady Demeter. She was wearing jeans and green flannel, while her long dark was free flowing and not tied up. Lady Demeter is a gorgeous woman and I have no doubts that Chika inherits her beauty. I am curious why will Lady Demeter help transport us.

“Are you ready little ones, I can’t wait to help my family make dinner." Lady Demeter says in a typically motherly manner. Lady Demeter is very fascinating, I'm glad that she's the only goddess I must deal with. At least she doesn't try to kill demigods. Chika, Isshin, and I gathered around the goddess, and we were transported in golden green light. This doesn't feel too bad, my body doesn’t feel evaporated like with Hyun’s shadow travel. We are transported to a two-story house that is painted white with an armchair out of the front. We also saw a barn full of farm animals like chickens, horses, pigs, sheep, etc. And there was a huge land for a lot of crops.

The sky was turning evening when it reached a dark blue color and there was a beautiful sunset.

“I want to talk to you privately Daughter of Bellona. Can you spare a couple of minutes?” Lady Demeter asks while Chika and her father, Isshin, look at each other. Lady Demeter shoots a look at Isshin and Isshin gently moves Chika back to the house.

"Now that they are gone, I just want to say that I'm grateful that you look after my daughter and teach her how to survive on a quest. Don't be afraid to ask my assistance." Lady Demeter bows to me and I'm surprised by Lady Demeter's humility.

“The honor is mine, Lady Demeter. You should feel proud that your daughter honors your bloodline.” I bowed back to her.

"I don't care if she honors my name or bloodline. Just want her safe and happy like any mother would. She doesn't need to go on quests to gain my love and appreciation. She doesn't need to be a special hero like Hercules, I'm content with the fact that my children will have the freedom to choose their destiny and not be tied to prophecies. You can say that I'm my children's biggest cheerleader." Chika is truly lucky to have a warm-hearted goddess like Demeter as a mother. If only other gods felt the same way for their children, then the Titan War would never happen. Lady Demeter is truly special. I felt tears coming to my eyes and Demeter hugged me.

“It’s ok child, you have been strong for a long time. We gods are truly grateful for your sacrifices, your mother should at least give you a lot of money for your hard work. Just remember that you are cherished and loved by others. Never be afraid of finding love. Now then I bet my wonderful daughter made some delicious food for us. Come, it's getting late." I'm very surprised that she hugs me and I wipe my tears away quickly. Why did tears come out of my eyes from Demeter words, I must control my body, or else I will be seen as weak. I am a Preator of New Rome; I must be strong.

As we walked inside Chika’s home, at the wooden dinner table, there was an oven-baked chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn. How did they prepare this in such a short time?

“As you may be wondering why the food was ready quickly. I may have helped from this special lady over there before we picked you girls up.” Demeter points to herself and then waves at Chika and Reyna with a cheeky smile.

"So anyway Reyna, what is it like to be the 'Queen' of New Rome," Isshin asked in curiosity while Lady Demeter and Chika consumed their chicken and mashed potatoes like pigs. Isshin silently chuckles while they eat. I'm not going to lie, seeing both Chika and Lady Demeter stuffed themselves is very amusing. Chika and Lady Demeter looked at each other and blushed in embarrassment.

"Sorry Dad, this food is good. I will try to control myself." Demeter silently agrees with her.

"Sorry, my devouring habits are unbecoming of a goddess. We did a good job together Isshin." Demeter says as her face is red with embarrassment.

“I don’t want you to get a stomachache alright, we are safe from monsters," Isshin says in a calm voice. I'm guessing Isshin finds this amusing.

"Anyway, being a Preator is a huge responsibility like being a president. I have to make sure our society is running smoothly, make sure campers don't break the laws, make new rules as time goes one, make sure our military is strong, make sure our gods are honored, etc. Despite the countless responsibilities, I'm just glad that I can give back to other demigods and make sure everybody has a home" I explained, and  Lady Demeter looked down on the food, processing what I just say.

"I'm wondering if there are adults that took this responsibility, seems very heavy for a teenager," Isshin says cautiously.

“The adults are retiring veterans, it is up to the younger generation to keep the camp.” Both Lady Demeter and Isshin stare at me in uneasiness, but they hold their tongue.

"We gods do owe demigods our gratitude. Anyway, I must talk to Chika privately after this meal." Lady Demeter says, and Chika looks a bit anxious. Isshin seems to be a bit cautious but understanding.

“Thank you, Lady Demeter, and Isshin Hanabusa, for having me in your home," I say with gratitude.

“No problem, Reyna, we are happy to provide this lighthearted moment for you. Especially for having a stressful position” Isshin says. I had my plate and I chewed on the corn, mashed potatoes, and the chicken. The corn was a bit burnt in the ends, but not enough to ruin it for me. The mashed potatoes were very smooth, and you can taste the potatoes. The chicken was cooked at the right temperature, and it is not undercooked or burnt, this may be one of the best meals I have had in a while. I’m grateful for the dinner and I don’t mind staying here for a couple of months.

“I don’t mind having this moment and I did enjoy your cooking Mr. Hanabusa and Lady Demeter. I will be honored if you let me stay at spring?”

“We do need extra help on the farm, and it seems you have the right muscles to do many tasks at the farm. But yeah, I don’t mind you staying here for Spring. My daughter will appreciate that, isn’t that right Chika” Isshin winked at Chika and Lady Demeter did a teasing smile while Chika's face went very red.

“Sure…I don't mind…sharing this house…with my…good friend…Rey-Reyna "Chika strutted madly while Lady Demeter and Isshin cast a knowing look at each other. I hope Chika is ok with this, but she did offer anyway. I may have to ask her what she thinks of me, the way that she stutters is a bit concerning, I hope I didn't intimidate her by accident. I do like spending time with her, she's a welcome presence in my life.

"Well, it is decided, congratulations Reyna for joining this farm and our family," Isshin says in a high voice and Lady Demeter chuckles madly.

“Way to be subtle Dad.” Chika looks embarrassed.

"Hey, daughter, your friend over there seems like a responsible and strong girl. I'm grateful that Reyna protects you for the quest and she has my eternal gratitude for that." Isshin says cheerfully and Lady Demeter looks on in approval.

“I agree Isshin, it seems our daughter is very fond of her, and I trust her over any deity to look after her.” Lady Demeter cast a knowing mischievous smirk at Chika while Chika rubs the back of her head nervously. This family seems nice, even with a goddess in it. I don’t mind getting to know Chika’s family very well. I wonder if I will have a family like that someday. All I can do now is make Camp Jupiter safe and prepare other demigods for the worst so that they feel safe to have their legacies. That is my biggest in life, to make sure the demigod race can at least have a semi-normal life and die peacefully. The night passed while I finished my delicious meal and Chika and Isshin decided to do the dishes together. Once that is done, Isshin shows the guest room, with a small desk and a big bed covered with a huge white blanket. I just decided to lay in the guest bed for a bit and suddenly I feel a bit tired, but not enough to fall asleep. I wonder what Lady Demeter wants to talk to Chika, the only thing I can think of is the whole Gaia situation. Does Lady Demeter know about it and will she help Chika with it? I guess I will ask Chika about tomorrow, for now, I will rest for a bit.

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annabeths 19th birthday

Prompt: Annabeth's 19th Birthday (very specific lol)

Annabeth's nineteenth birthday was going well. She and Percy had spent most of the day traveling around Long Island visiting some of its most famous architectural landmarks, including the windmills of East Hampton and Watermill, Old Whaler's church, Sagamore Hill, Old Field Point Lighthouse, and finishing at Montauk Point Light.

It had been great, just the two of them driving around all day, seeing the different architectural monuments. Percy had happily let her drag him by the hand around the various buildings and had seemed to listen to most of what she told him about them. She was glad they saved the Montauk Point Light for last—it made her heart beat faster to watch the way Percy came alive beside the sea, his eyes reflecting the green of the water, his grin turning slow and lazy as he looked out over the waves. She especially liked when he turned that grin to her as he took her hand, his fingers sliding through hers, lacing them together.

"Good birthday?" he asked.

She nodded, drinking him in. Last summer, they'd spent her birthday grieving Jason and the loss of so many in Camp Jupiter and New Rome. The summer before that, they'd spent her birthday in Tartarus. The summer before that, the Titan War was in full swing. The preceding summers it had been the joys of the Labyrinth, the Sea of Monsters, and the Underworld. To just have today, calm and peaceful, after a really great first year of college and looking forward to their second year, was about the best birthday present she could ask for.

"So do you want to walk around the lighthouse and tell me its history and how it was built and everything?" Percy asked her.

"In a minute." She put her free hand on his neck, pulling him closer, and kissed him. For a few wonderful seconds, nothing else existed. She could even briefly push out of her mind the thought that had been bothering her all day and which she was continuing to refuse to look at.

Once Annabeth was actually focusing on the lighthouse, it was even cooler than she'd hoped for. So, yet again, she grabbed Percy's hand and pulled him around the base of the structure, pointing out features and talking about its history. She'd thought by this point in their architectural tour, he'd be completely zoned out, but he still appeared to be listening, even asking her questions and pointing out some things about the nautical benefits of the massive light and why it was important on this spit of land.

Finally, she cracked and said, "I've been talking about architecture all day. How are you still interested?"

Percy actually laughed at that. Then he slipped his arm around her waist and kissed her cheek. "Because I love you. And it's your birthday, so I'm just happy that you're happy." He hesitated, studying her face, then asked, "You are happy, right?"

Again, the thought Annabeth had been ignoring all day rose in her mind, but she shoved it back down as she managed a smile and told Percy, honestly, "I'm very happy. And I love you, too," she added, moving closer to kiss him again.

They headed back to camp for the evening. A lot of their friends had come in to help celebrate Annabeth's birthday. It hadn't been her idea to have a party at camp, but Piper and Rachel had insisted, and enough of the other campers had agreed that Annabeth really had no choice. So, somewhat grudgingly and somewhat gratefully, she had agreed to the party.

Party preparations were in full swing in the dining pavilion when they got back. Annabeth only caught a glimpse, though, before Piper shoved her away. "No way. It's not ready. Go away for a while…like another hour. Drag your boyfriend off and go make out somewhere or something."

"Eewww," a voice nearby squealed. Annabeth turned to see Angelina, one of the newest Athena campers, making a face. When she caught Annabeth looking at her, though, she giggled and jogged off, streamers trailing from her hands. Annabeth was struck by just how young she looked; Angelina, with her glasses, braces, and incredible aptitude for mathematics and chemistry, was only twelve.

The same age Annabeth had been on her first quest. The quest where Luke had gifted Percy some cursed sneakers that had nearly dragged him, Annabeth, and Grover straight into Tartarus.

"You okay?" Piper asked, studying her face. "I'm not trying to kick you out, we're just finishing up—"

"No, it's fine." Annabeth forced a smile. "Just…thinking about something else. This place is looking great. I'll be back in an hour."

Annabeth made her way down to the beach. A few campers were splashing in the ocean, so she headed a little ways farther down from them, until she was hidden by a dune. Then she sat down in the sand, put her arms around her knees, and took a deep breath, letting the sound of the waves wash over her. After a few moments, she closed her eyes and also allowed the thoughts she'd been battling all day to rush over her.

She was nineteen today. An age many demigods didn't get to and which she was very proud and grateful to have achieved.

It was also the age Luke had been when he'd decided to betray Camp Half-Blood. When he'd been willing to send Percy, Grover, and her to Tartarus. When he'd tried multiple times to kill Percy—who had only been twelve. At the time, Annabeth had been deeply hurt and disappointed in Luke, but now, looking at the other campers, some of whom seemed so young, she simply couldn't understand how he could have made those choices. She'd always had a good imagination, but she couldn't imagine choosing to set them up for destruction. The gods hadn't always treated her fairly either, but she would never take that out on the other campers.

"Hey."

Annabeth jumped as Percy appeared around the edge of the dune. "Oh. Hey."

"Can I, uh, join you? Or would you rather be alone?"

In response, Annabeth patted the sand beside her and Percy plopped down, sending sand flying. She made a face at him, but he just shrugged.

Percy leaned back on his hands, eyes on the ocean. "So, what are you doing out here? Just feeling old?"

"Watch it, Seaweed Brain. I'm only a month older than you." Annabeth poked him in the side. "And no. I was just…thinking."

"Uh-oh." Percy shot her a smile. "What's up, Wise Girl?"

Annabeth sighed. She pulled her legs more tightly against her chest and rested her chin on her knees. "I was just thinking that…the summer we did our first quest, Luke was nineteen."

"Oh yeah." Percy frowned, thinking. After a few moments, he glanced at her. "You're not, uh, having similar thoughts, right?"

"No!" Annabeth burst out. "Just the opposite. I can't understand how he could do it." When Percy didn't say anything, Annabeth continued, in a lower voice, "I couldn't do it, Percy. I couldn't hurt kids. We were kids. You, me, Grover…but he still gave you those damn cursed shoes. Plus, almost everyone at camp was younger than him. And he was ready to kill us all. Or, at least, he was okay letting everyone die. What—" her voice caught. "What went wrong?"

Percy was quiet for a long time, looking out at the water. "When we were on the quest to Greece, I kind of started to think that I understood how Luke had felt. Just a little bit. It sucks to be a pawn of the gods over and over again. But I know that they still beat the alternative. And, yeah, I could never turn on my friends. Or camp. I definitely would never hurt kids. If…if you're hurting kids, you're always on the wrong side." He shook his head. "I don't know, Annabeth. I don't think I have a good answer for you. I mean, part of the reason we did what we did in the Titan War was because we couldn't see his side."

"Yeah, that's true." Annabeth wiped a tear off her cheek. "I didn't expect to think about it today, but this morning at breakfast, looking around at all the other campers, they just seemed so young and then I realized I was the same age Luke had been when he'd tried to kill you with that pit scorpion." She shook her head. "And then I just couldn't stop thinking about it. It feels different from this side, you know?"

Percy nodded. He studied her face for a moment, then scooted closer and put his arm around her shoulders. Annabeth leaned into him and drew a shaky breath.

"Sorry to be all blubbery on my birthday," she told him.

"It's fine, babe." Percy kissed her forehead. "Besides, isn't there an old song about it's your birthday and you'll cry if you want to?"

Annabeth gave a watery laugh. "I think it's party, not birthday."

"Close enough." Percy tightened his arm around her shoulders. "Nice sunset."

"It is." Annabeth laid her head on his shoulder. They stayed there, watching the setting sun turn the sky orange and purple until the conch horn sounded for dinner and it was time to head to her party.

*

The party was a lot of fun. Annabeth was able to shake off her morose mood and go back to having fun; talking about her thoughts with Percy had definitely helped, as it usually did.

At the campfire later that evening, Harley and some of the other Hephaestus campers, with help from Leo, who was back for the summer, set off a pretty impressive display of fireworks because, as Harley said brightly, "Annabeth is old."

"She is," Percy agreed solemnly.

Annabeth smacked her boyfriend, but high-fived Harley and thanked him for the awesome fireworks show. He grinned and ran off to join his friends, who were roasting marshmallows over the fire. Annabeth had to smile as she watched them, then popped a marshmallow into her mouth; it was gooey and smoky from the campfire—perfect. She didn't love being called "old" (especially when she was only nineteen, which was still pretty young—she couldn't even legally drink yet!), but the way Harley had said it, with hope, reminded her how nice it was, now, that demigods knew they could grow old. Bringing New Rome into the picture hadn't just been good for her and Percy; it could be a source of hope for all demigods. Life was still difficult. It always had been and always would be for demigods, but there was also hope for a future. And that made the impossibly hard things she and Percy and their friends had been through worth it.

Maybe that was what Luke had lost. He'd given up hope. Annabeth thought that was probably true, and she ached for him. That must have been terrible, to lose sight of hope. Annabeth was determined to never make the same mistake.

So she leaned into Percy's arm, lacing her fingers through his, and letting herself smile at the brilliant flashes of light from the second round of fireworks. Apparently, the Hephaestus cabin had been having a lot of fun with explosives, helped out by a few Hermes and Ares campers.

When Percy kissed her forehead, Annabeth felt a hopeful flutter in her chest.

Hope.

That was the magic word.

She had graduated from high school. She had completed her first year of college. Both of those things seemed as incredible and had once seemed as unlikely as the fact that she had managed to survive being on the front lines of two wars. And now, she was hoping for a future she had once never even dared to dream about.

It felt good to be nineteen.

[windy-babe]

My submission for the first day of the Huntlow week!

Day 1: Palismen/Date

So exciting, so excited!

Show: The Owl House.

Ship: Hunter x Willow (Huntlow).

Words: 860

I'm a sucker for the headcanon of palismen speaking with less words, idk why

Clover was flying in circles around the Noceda's garden, buzzing happily a self made melody as she bounced in the air from one side till the other, giving twirls and stroking the flowers of her witch with her body.

What could be the reason for the happiness of a little... Big bee? Maybe the pollen was sweeter today? Or maybe Willow gave her an extra kiss in the morning? Well, the truth was that she felt something special and different. She had been feeling it for a while now, not knowing what that meant, but now she realized, she is not the one feeling that way, it's her! Willow!

"A lot of noise! A lot!" Flapjack complained arriving through the window. He was taking his first nap of the afternoon, when a lot of 'Titan! Titan! So exciting, so excited!" woke him up, and also made him grumpy.

"Flapjack! Listen!" she buzzed, as she couldn't care less about his sleep, "Important thing!" she flew around him excited.

"What thing?" the cardinal asked, skeptical.

Clover tried to answer, but her excitement couldn't allow her. She started to spin around, not knowing if stay there or go any better place. Finally, she told him to follow her with a head move, he rolled his eyes and followed her till the top of the tree of the backyard.

"Tell me important thing" Flapjack demanded, grumpier now after all the mystery that the bee was creating without a good reason.

"Yes! But not tell big boy about this!" she frowned, so he would take her seriously.

"Hunter? He has something with it?" he rose an eyebrow.

"Yes! Promise?" she got closer.

Flapjack thought about it for a while, if it was something bad he would have to tell him about it, but we are talking about Clover, a happy clover, what bad news could make her that glad?, "Promise! Tell me, tell me!"

Clover buzzed happily and made a twirl in the air, "Important thing! Important thing!" she giggled, then calmed down and sit in a branch right in front of the red bird, "So, important thing is that Willow loves Hunter!" she squeaked, ready to fly around in circles with a happy Flapjack, but he just stayed in his place giving her his particular skeptical look.

"Sure! Everyone loves Hunter, he is a wonderful boy!" he said indignantly, as if insinuate another thing would be a crime.

"No! Flap-"

"No? Who don't love my boy?!" the bird asked ready to throw wings.

"No! Listen," she buzzed calmly, "Willow loves him, so much, so so so much!" she said as she spun gracely in the air, "True love! Beautiful love! Love, love, love!" she giggled and sit down, only to see his face as he realized what she meant.

"Love? Love! Hunter loves Willow too!" he chirped, opening his wings.

"Hunter loves Willow and Willow loves Hunter!" she sighed, satisfied with the cuteness.

"I know a lot about love!" Flapjack spun around Clover, "Caleb loved Evelyn too! And Evelyn loved him so much, so so so much!" he lied on her back, hugging her, "You think that Hunter and Willow love like Caleb and Evelyn?"

"No Flapjack, i never met those witches," Clover said, "But I met the two big witches that love Willow, they love each other so so so much too!" she giggled.

"Caleb was a human," Flapjack whispered, but Clover didn't listen, she was distracted by the back door of the house opening. "Like Luz, a wonderful human."

"Clover? Clover?" Willow was calling for her, and he was with her.

"Flapjack? Where are you, buddy?" Hunter also were calling for his palisman.

Both of them were looking around the backyard and the garden. Both palismen opened their wings and flew to them, then, twirled around them saying how excited they were, and how much they love them.

"Oh, I love you too!" both, witch and grimwalker, said at the same time, then looked at each other surprised. Willow just laughed it off, while Hunter blushed a little.

"Okay, what you two had been doing here?" Willow asked, but neither of the palismen answered, they just giggled and snuggled up in their hands.

"I guess they were looking for bugs and then remember that we can give them food, that's why they are saying how much they love us and stuff" Hunter said, looking at how cute Flapjack looked as he frowned indignantly, "Oh, so you aren't hungry, little bud?" he asked, getting a lovely bird snuggling towards his cheek as an answer.

Willow laughed, "Do you want some berries, big girl?" asked stroking her head, Clover nodded, looking so happy of having a really good and sweet witch. "And what do you say, Flapjack?"

The bird chirped, "Flapjack says that he would love that", Hunter answered for him.

"So what are we waiting for? Let's go inside!" Willow said with her lovely tone heading to the door, and Hunter followed her, thinking in how cute she was.

Clover flew to Willow's shoulder and looked at Flapjack, who was in Hunter's hands. Then she buzzed, and he chirped back, both knowing what they meant.

[morningstar-chronicles]

regarding your refined crossover dr. do you have like the future "plot" of it scripted? and if so, would you feel comfortable to share it?

i am so glad you asked

i am so sorry in advance for the absolute infodump coming your way. this is the part of our shifting journey where you find out i'm batshit crazy

so when i first shift, i'm gonna be about 15, and each season (except 3, which... well, you'll see) takes place over the course of about a year. you'll already see some immense canon divergence with the hexside houses and with hogwarts/demigods/shadowhunters existing and stuff, but there's also a school in the ribs of the titan that specializes in emperor's coven recruits- it's called "the house of the isles" but most people just call it the house. i can never remember if i've already posted about it or not lol

anyways, i work there as the silver soldier (i know i'm not original i know 💀) alongside hunter, or the golden guard. he's the head tutor there, and gives the kids general knowledge lessons while i do fighting lessons. this is where we meet micah and cass- they become important later.

i also attend missions with the golden guard when i'm not busy at hexside. i'm sort of like the cat of the emperor's coven- i come and go as i please and i don't love to do as i'm told. i stress hunter out a lot, but he recognizes me as an asset and eventually takes a liking to me. no one in the coven knows how old i am, including belos, who has never seen my face.

luz still has all her main character moment stuff, but because she and i are friends, i get in a lot of shit breaking people out of prison. including eda. many, many times. season one isn't really that special for me, i become friends with luz after she and amity become friends. i don't attend grom that year, so nothing happens there. things don't really pick up until after eda gets taken. i have no idea anything has happened until i waltz into work on friday and everything's gone to shit. i free eda, but she doesn't understand why, because literally no one knows i'm the silver soldier except hunter (which is a recent development) and my dad. the protest never happens because the petrification gets "called off" (eda escaped lol).

sometime between then and seperate tides, luz finds out it was me that freed eda. i explain i'm only in the coven at all for hunter's sake. she's like "what" and i explain that he's much, much younger than she thinks he is, and he needs protecting. she thinks i'm batshit crazy, but she keeps my secret.

i'm largely uninvolved in the plot again until any sport in a storm, where i join willow's flyer derby team. i recognize hunter and i call him out privately. he says he's on a mission for my dad and assumes i'm here for the same reason. i try my best not to sigh, because i sort of have an inkling that my dad is just keeping hunter busy (keep in mind they don't have a bad relationship in my DR prior to this, my dad just thinks hunter's kind of annoying lol). i don't say shit though because hunter will be like "you are sabatoging my mission!! treason!!" and it'll be a whole thing. besides, i know nothing bad will happen anyway, so i just kinda chill. hunter turns out to be a good player, and then he kidnaps everyone (me included for some reason? probably to conceal my identity).

everyone is highkey freaking out, but i know that my dad is literally just coming to pick us up, and most of my teammates will recognize my dad when he comes, so i'm super chill. hunter eventually calls me out and is like "i bet you're excited for the coven, huh?" and this is definitely how he finds out that i don't have a sigil. it's also how the entire flyer derby team finds out i'm a coven soldier 🤡

they're all pissed as hell at first, but i eventually explain the hunter situation and im like "yeah he thought he was gonna get murked if he didnt follow orders" and they're all appropriately horrified. they're still kinda miffed about me being a coven soldier but they'll get over it pretty fast (especially since willow is already talking to hunter online by the end of the night- they're just friends in my DR though, not dating). they also immediately bully me for being in love with hunter, which i deny like a lying liar who lies.

ah. hollow mind. i'm there for this one because i was hanging out with (read: babysitting) luz at the night market. i get sucked into the mindscape with hunter and luz and i witness all the TraumaTM. this is where the divergence starts- instead of hunter running off into the woods, i try to convince him to stay with me. he ends up at the owl house for a while (i stand by mom!eda and son!hunter but that's me pushing my own agenda) but over a long stretch of time he eventually gives in and does move in with me. my dad is fond of him, and my siblings get along with him, so everything's good anyway (also i was trying to get him to move in forever ago but i will DIE before admitting that). anyways the reason he moves in is because we start dating. not sure how i want that to happen yet. maybe i'll let it happen organically... 👀 probably not tho lol

y'all i'm gonna have to make a part two i got too excited 💀

[glassesntea]

Hey! For the character ask, since you have him in your avatar, Levi!

Oh, hi! :)

How I feel about his character

Levi's character surprised me, because I didn't expect to love him this much. It wasn't an immediate love, though, the Uprising Arc really did a numer on changing my perception of Levi, as well as reading the manga and discover all the nuances that were lost in the adaptation.

(Never forgiving WIT for chicken out THAT scene with Historia)

He is a deeply human character that has torn himself to pieces for others, until the very end. I'm glad he survived to finally live a normal life.

Maybe all the hardships he endured since he was a child and, despite that, being a compassionate and kind invividual make me feel a genuine attachment to his character. And not beign suave at all, with his awkwardness and coarse demeanor contributes at rendering him very unique.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Pretty much just Hange. I like their dynamic, how well they understand and balance each other. Their interactions are great: they are basically the parents of a bunch of teenagers, holding the weight of everyone expectations (Levi) and the difficulty of command (Hange) and they pretty much just have each other to shoulder the pressure, being the only two veteran left.

I can imagine them getting closer in a romantic way.

However! Let's move forward with the next question.

My non romantic OTP for this character

Hange again. If Isayama will confirm in the future that between them there's nothing but a platonic relationship, I wouldn't bat an eyelid. Because I think that even in a romantic relationship they wouldn't act any different from their usual self.

They just work, because they care for each other and their friendship is just special. Probably one of my favourite scene in Aot is Levi's farewell in Odiha. It just break your heart Whetever you see them as simple friend or an item.

I would have loved to see some more interaction between Levi and Mike, with the fact Mike was the strongest after Levi and how they interact with each other after No Regrets.

Mikasa/Levi is another huge non romantic OTP for me: because they come from the same clan, being the strongest in the army, their rocky start. I would have liked to see them interact more.

My unpopular opinion about this character

MAPPA design for the winner. I know it's not about Levi as character, but the design is pretty important when you present someone. It has muscles, it looks his age and not a teenage stick. So thanks MAPPA.

My second unpopular opinion is that he was vital in the final battle and that Isayama didn't nerfed him just because...

He put the groups together when their resolve started to wane with the upcoming transformation of the Eldian (and Jean and Connie) into Titans. He pushed them to act, and they won.

"But he was so injuried because he did something stupid": he's human, humans do mistakes, if a character is perfect it's boring. A story needs some conflicts. Zeke just titanized 30 of his men, whom he was forced to kill, he was angry and despite that he kept Zeke alive for Paradise sake. What Zeke did was pretty unpredictable and it costs Levi a steep price.

Last unpopular opinion: why many of you are so upset with him being in a wheelchair? It made sense after the injuries he got and this doesn't diminish him at all. Once cool you'll always been cool.

One thing I whished would happen/ had happened with this character in canon

More interactions between him and Mikasa, and some lore about the Ackerman in relation.

Also I would like to see his life after the Rumbling, with Onyankopon and Gabi and Falco and their family. Did he opened a teashop?

Isayama said that, maybe, he will write some post-canon Levi so, finger crossed!

Thanks for the ask! :D

[hanjo-love]

Now I became selfish and I hope the shard is showing Hanji being saved by Kiyomi or something. She go the worst treatment and if Isayama was afraid of the backslash like you said why make it even worse with those parallels with eremika? Is he preparing the Fandom for another levihan moment? I'm tired of EVERYONE surviving but her, Kiyomi's kindness really??? And Onyankopon, while I don't hate him, he survived a plane crash and he doesn't add much yet he is there for being the editor's favorite, Yelena is there after all she did and she adds even less, and the people titanized will revert to human (or at the very least Isayama's favorites will).

Oh anonie, you and me both my friend, you and me both 😔 Beware, a long rant-ish meta is ahead of you lol

I have absolutely no fucking idea why Yams decided to treat Hanjo like shit. You know, after a long time of denying her death, I was starting to accept it, because she was finally free, free of the burden and pain and finally reunited with the people she missed and longed for the most. But then Yams decided to slap us all in the faces saying there's no happy & peaceful afterlife in snk and Hanjo was probs only hallucinating because of her 4 years long depression? Well then, fuck you Yams! What was that even for? Isayama never backed off of showing us the horrors of death in snk, no matter how important the characters and how brutal their deaths really were. Still, he never showed us Hanji's actual death or dead body. He kept it misterious and his vague answers only made it worse. So it's only natural for us to expect a plot twist, right? That's the reason all of us gathered various hints in the manga, anime and his interviews. And lemme tell you, these theories are far more logical, better explained and have less plot holes than the entire final arc smh (yes I'm salty, fight me lol)

I hate to admit it, my inner self is still in denial and fighting, but Hanjo ain't coming back folks. We won't get any background story and the misterious shard will never be explained to us either. Yams had more than enough time to bring Hanjo back, if he truly wanted to. But he didn't. And now with only one chapter and so many unanswered questions left, there's no time for Hange's return. Why would he even do that anyways? Hanjo isn't important to him or to the story anymore. To us she is, always was and always will be ❤️ You know, I'm so fucking desperate to see her again, I'll even take one last panel of Levi remembering her, just like in ch136. Yams just let us see Hanjo one more fucking time 🙏🏻 I need to say my proper goodbyes to my one&only comfort character, who's influenced my life like no one else ever did ❤️

Back to Levihan (I don't think I can answer an ask without my biased and trashy shipper ass butting in lmfao): the question why Yams confirmed Levihan as canon if he didn't intend to bring Hange back and reunite her with Levi to make us him happy again? Well, isn't it obvious? This man is the devil incarnate. THIS MAN HAS NO FUCKING CHILLS lmfao JK y'all before someone declares war on me and my blog haha Well anonie, I feel like Yams really wanted to confirm his initially planned ships as canon, before the manga ends. And he chose the safest way possible. Easy as that. Also he said he is going for a bittersweet ending and what's more tragic (in this literal hell) than separating lovers, ergo Eremika and Levihan.

Now to something else, that's been bothering me for a while now and I'll use your ask anonie to share my thoughts with the world even though nobody asked lmao tbh I'm a bit disappointed with Armin. I love him, I really do. He's my precious cinnamon roll and my fave 104th kiddo. But honestly, I was expecting a bit more of the alleged "hero who will safe humanity". In fact, I'm sure Hanjo only died for Armin to become the new commander. That's it. That was the reason she had to die. Yams glossed over her to make Armin shine. But in fact, Levi's the one who's giving orders ever since Hange has left them. I might me salty, but I really hope the talk with Zeke (and probs Ymir as well, we still might have a chance to see the dialog that made Ymir change her mind) and his titan nuke weren't the only things he did as "humanity's hero" in this final arc. For some people this might me enough, for me it isn't. It wasn't worth Hange's sacrifice. Also what made me really sad was Armin himself glossing over Hanjo when he remembered Erwin Danchou, but not her. Like she didn't just pass away an hour ago to save their pathetic asses. Ugh this is making me hella mad, ngl. Hanjo didn't deserve this treatment! She gave her all for this! To save the alliance, to "pay the price" for her "sins" as the SC commander and to save humanity. I can't deal with how all of them and the fandom apparently forgot about that.

Now on to "Kiyomi's kindness" lol I wasn't really mad at Gabi for saying this as most of the fandom was. I won't go into detail why she isn't really a rationally thinking character (yo guys, you do remember she's a 12 year old kid, right?), but it's a fact that she didn't care for Hange enough to mention her. I mean, why would she? She barely even knew her. Also we don't really know what's gonna happen with Yelena, Kiyomi and her delegation. I don't know if I'm reading too much into it, but I feel like Kiyomi accepted her death with saying "that's not enough atonement for what I did anyway". I mean they don't know if the alliance will win (they probably think they won't) and they're in the middle of literally nowhere. So I feel like Gabi said that because Kiyomi sacrificed herself (and the others on that ship) willingly, for Gabi, Falco and Annie getting a little chance of surviving and helping the alliance. But I get the rage of the fandom. Especially because no one, except for Levi, remembered Hange after her noble sacrifice.

As for Yelena and Onyankopon, there obviously has to be someone from outside of Paradis to survive the rumbling, otherwise it wouldn't make a lot of sense, I guess. I like Onyankopon a hecking lot ❤️ precious boi was literally crying for Hanjo 😭 Yelena on the other hand deserves what she got. Death would be too easy and kind for her tbh. She has to live with the consequences, just like Kiyomi, so I'm actually glad they survived. So my guess is, it's not really about who's Yams' favorite and what these people are contributing to the story, but it's rather about a logical ending and a good conclusion of the story.

I agree with you about the ones who have been titanized. They'll for sure revert back to humans. It's not really Yams' style to kill of an important character like Gabi, whose character development he's been forcing on us for quite a while now lol. I'm pretty positive about an ending with the titan curse being broken and bringing the titanized people back to human beings (probs also the millions of colossal titans?). It's only natural for Yams to end the story with the titan curse being lifted. Otherwise it wouldn't make sense to end his story at this point. But let's not forget what a big ass troll Yams is lmao you never really know what he's up to, so let's prepare for the unimaginable lmfao

I'll probably never forgive Isayama for what he did to Hange, his best written character, how he completely ruined her and threw her away as disposable, just to make other characters "shine". HER DEATH WAS POINTLESS AND IT DID NOT FUCKING CHANGE ANYTHING! That's the harsh truth y'all. Yams betrayed Hanjo and us AND FOR WHAT?

Thanks for the ask anonie and sorry I turned this into my personal rant lmao hope you still enjoy reading my thoughts on this ❤️

[aot-snk-4238]

AOT No Requiem Fanfic Review Part 2

Disclaimer: I am not a supporter of ANR myself, so I knew that I probably wouldn't like most of what this fanfiction is putting out there. That being said, I decided to check it out anyway because I was interested in seeing what changes these people were planning on making. This review is not meant to bash the work or the team of artists and writers behind it. These are just my own personal opinions, and I will try to express them as professionally as I can without coming across as aggressive or rude, as that is not my intention.

After a four month hiatus, it looks like the popular fan fiction Attack On Titan No Requiem is back in action. I'm glad to hear that their creator is doing okay. Since this fan fiction covers the final three chapters, I'm splitting my review into three parts. The first one can be found here so if you haven't read it, you can check that out first. I kept it short and to the point and I intend to try and do that with the rest of these as well, so without further ado, here are my thoughts on the second installment of this short series:

This chapter opens up where the previous one left off, with a clash between Eren and Armin's ideologies, their discussion getting more heated by the minute. Armin still believes in a more peaceful way out of the situation that involves more talking and less bloodshed, whereas Eren sees no other options other than the path he is currently on. Fuming with anger now, Armin grabs Eren by the shirt and this is where the scene transitions to the rest of Eren and Historia's conversation from chapter 130. I still can't believe we were deprived of this in the canon universe, so I was interested to see if any of it would play out in a way that I wasn't already expecting. As it turns out, it did not. I was fully prepared for them to confirm or at least imply that Eren is the father of Historia's baby considering what theory this whole thing is based off of and that's exactly what happened. To their credit, they didn't make it as cheesy and overly-romantic as I was afraid they might, but it still could have used a bit more exposition and time to develop. I didn't care for what appeared to be a brief elopement scene in the woods, though. And was that supposed to be Floch officiating it? That's...just too weird for me. Sorry, but a secret wedding in the woods with Floch as the priest felt more like a joke to me rather than a serious event. I remember when most fans used to hate him, but that changed at some point and now he's quite popular. I can't tell if it's for the sake of memes or if people really had a change of heart. And just to be clear I have no issues with people liking him, I'm just a little confused as to how it came about. As for the whole pregnancy subplot in general, I don't think there's anything that can done to make me like it at this point. It came out of nowhere and it led to nowhere. It looks pretty clear to me that making Eren the baby father is the only solution that people can come up with to have it actually mean something and have relevance, which only serves as further proof to me that it never should have happened in the first place. Even if this team has something clever up their sleeve, I feel like there's only so much they can do to make it better, especially considering that they're only changing the last three chapters. To me, a much better handling of Historia post time-skip by Isayama would have involved giving her a chance to actually be queen and exploring her thoughts on Eren's actions and whether she would have allowed the Yeagerists to take over the island. We saw in the end that she did let them take over, but we're not clearly shown why. We also never found out why Eren was able to change her mind so suddenly regarding his plan and what made her decide to have a child. Not to mention that not once did we get to see her interact with the rest of the cast, which it doesn't look like will happen in this fan ending either. It was just her in that stupid chair and then the baby is born and that's it. I appreciate the AOTNR team's attempt to breathe some life back into her, but it still doesn't make up for all the missing screentime she had from chapter 90 onwards.

Moving on to the last part of this chapter, we see that after learning Eren's secret, Armin has had enough. He calls Eren a hypocrite for hiding what he did with Historia from everyone and how things could have been better if he just trusted them, but Eren is still unfazed. Armin asks Eren why he was brought back into Paths if it wasn't actually going to fix anything, and this is how the rest of the chapter plays out:

I like the way this cliffhanger is depicted. It shows Eren and Armin both as children this time facing each other, each with a determined look on their face while their adult faces shine in the background. It serves as a good visual representation of just how much things have changed between them since their early years and prepares the audience for a huge face-off outside of PATHS where everyone else is still trying to fight off Ymir's horde of ancient titans. Speaking of that, these two fan-made chapters have not given much focus to what's been going on on the outside, unlike Isayama's chapter 138. It looks like their three biggest priorities here are giving us Eren's POV, which we didn't get until the very end, Historia's POV, which we never got at all, and a final boost of character development for Armin. As a result, other important plot points are put on hold, such as what's next for Zeke and the rest of Eren's friends. This, paired with a lack of action sequences, causes the pacing to feel slow. Seeing where we are now, though, I'm assuming that it will pick up next chapter. And now that they've given Historia some much needed attention, I'm interested in seeing if they have any plans for Mikasa. There are a lot of people who strongly dislike her, so changing that perspective into something more positive looks like it's going to be a big challenge and I'll be very impressed if they pull it off. Overall, I thought this chapter was okay. It's very good for a fanfiction, though, and I'm glad that other people are enjoying it. I'll be grateful if it brings at least some level of peace to this fandom in the end, so until next time, thanks for reading ✌.

[akarinittalovers]

•Nanaba Part I: Confessions

It was quite a boring day in the Survey Corps, there is nothing to do. No, saying that there is nothing to do is not correct, there are still many tasks to finish especially this early in the day. This was just all you do after being promoted as a squad commander. There was just a lot and a lot of paperwork especially in between expeditions like right now.

You let out a sigh as you finish another stack of paper for today. But still, your work here is far from over. You peek at other stacks of paper on your desk waiting to be done. You will be here for a while.

You place your head on the desk taking a short break. Honestly, you wanted to cry and just run away from all this, you would prefer to fight a titan than doing this. Suddenly you straighten up your back and slap both of your cheeks.

'No, we are fighting Titan so that we could live peacefully like this.' you thought to yourself.

With Your spirit renewed and you prepare to fulfill your duty to completion. But as you grabbed on the next paper to fill there are knocking on the door of your office. You are honestly a little pissed off by it but then again it might be something important or at least something that elevated your boredom and hopefully not an additional task.

You calmed and tidy yourself up before permitting whoever was outside of the door by saying "please come in."

After you say that the handle on the door moved downward and it's slowly open revealing a figure of the person who knocked. A short hair blonde woman, not very tall and she has a somewhat petite body.

"Excuse me." That person said before entering and closing the door behind her back.

You silently thank the heavens. The person who just enters your office is someone you actually want to see.

"Oh, Turn out its Nanaba." You said

"Is it a bad time, sir?."

You shook your head gently before the answer her. "Not really, I just finished part of my work though I still got some left."

"I see, hope I am not bothering you too much, sir." She said as she walks towards your desk. You are almost mesmerized by how gracefully she walked - Well, we are being honest here she just walked like a normal person but for you, she was as graceful as a butterfly. -

"Not at all, I'm glad you can come here, and could you stop calling me sir, please. Call me by my name."

"Eh?... Why not it sounds nice on you." She said as she moved aside your stack of paper and then she sits on your desk. "You deserve it, after all, Squad leader." She said teasingly.

You sighed tiredly as she let out a small laugh.

"I think you're the one who deserves to be promoted. Your skills are far better than mine after all." You said to her.

"Well, that is true. I am skilled and talented moreover I am cooler than you." She said in a teasing manner. But then her tone changes into something more serious. "Still, I think you will be a better leader than me. You are smart, courageous, and reliable. You've saved my life many times before, thank you for that." Nanaba said to you with a sweet and gentle smile.

As both of your eyes meet each other gaze your heart skipped a beat and you couldn't help but get flustered to her. It seems that Nanaba also experienced the same thing as you are since you could see a blush forming on her cheeks. To everyone surprised she was the first to avert her gaze.

That doesn't mean that your situation was any better though. Your heartbeat is very chaotic and it perfectly reflects your emotions right now. You cough at your fist as a way to calming yourself down.

"Well, we are comrades after all, and besides you also save mine countless, times before," you said. "Then tell me why are you came here?."

"Why?... No reason I just wanted to see you that all. You have been working all day and don't even come out of this room at all."

"All day?." You asked her.

"Yeah, it's already 8 pm. You haven't come out all day."

"What!? 8 pm?." You shouted at her. You then practically jump out of your work chair and run towards the window and open its thicks blind. The scenery you see outside of your window is shocking. Beautiful sunlight that illuminates the world is long gone and the recruit who is training in the field is nowhere to be seen. "Just how long have I been working here anyway?."

Seeing your shocked face Nanaba let out a laughed.

"Poor thing too focused on doing the task to forget the time. You shouldn't do that you know. Please take care of your health." She said while gently bonked your head. "Just take a rest, I'll make you some tea."

"Yeah, you are right thank you."

You return to your seat and resting your back on it. Your eyes followed Nanaba, seeing her made a hot tea for you. Just by seeing her like this was honestly enough to restore your energy.

Not long after that, she finished

making you tea and gave it to you.

"Here it is." She gave the teacup to you.

"Thanks." You take a teacup from her hand.

You relaxed your whole body as you began to take a sip from the teacup. The fragrant taste of the expensive tea began to fill your mouth. It was quite expensive tea that only rich merchants could buy. You only got your hand on this because you got a particularly generous discount and you got some money saved. Honestly, You rather saved this tea for special occasions but again since Nanaba was the one who made the tea its should be count as a special occasion right?.

You close your eyes trying to savor as much tea flavor as possible. Your mouth then let out an "Ahhh," as the tea wash down your throat filling it with a warm delight. Still, despite you being drowned out by pleasure, you couldn't help but notice a pair of eyes surveying your every movement.

You decide to see what's up with that and you saw it. Nanaba sitting at your desk, one of her hands holding her head in her hand. Her face is filled with a gentle yet beaming smile and Her gaze is fixated on you.

"Wha-." Before you could finish your word Nanaba hands already reached both sides of your cheeks, holding them quite tightly.

"You know, I lied to you," Nanaba said.

You who were still left speechless by her previous action started to wonder what does she meant by 'lied to you'. Just as your mind wonders about what going on, Nanaba pulls your face closer to her and places her lips into yours.

At that moment your wondering mind went blank and your body froze unable to move. All of your brainpower to focus on the tender feeling of her lips on yours. The sweet and gentle sensation flooded your senses.

The kiss lasted for a few seconds that felt like an eternity. Though you would love it to last forever there are important that needed to be addressed first.

After Nanaba pulled away from your face and get her hands off your face, you placed your hands on her shoulders. The expression on your face was hideous, it was a combination of scared, disbelief, and panic. But as hideous as it was your expression right now perfectly mirrors your heart.

"Wh- Wh- What are you doing Nanaba?."

"I got tired," Nanaba said.

"Tired?." You tilt your head slightly in confusion.

"Well, the thing is I knew that you had a crush on me, and I also kind of liked you. So I decided to if you confessed to me I would accept it. But I am stupid thinking that way. We are members of the survey corps we don't know when we are gonna die. I couldn't just sit around waiting for you to come to me."

Nanaba breaks eye contact with you. You could notice a blush start to forming on her cheeks. The usual confident Nanaba now is nowhere to be seen and what replaces her was the vulnerable Nanaba. Honestly, you feel honored to have her showing that side of herself to you.

After taking a few deep breaths she looks you deep in your eyes, her face filled with conviction that she gonna do it right here, right now but still, it was quite evident that holding back her blush a lot.

"So that why I am betting everything on this," she said. while she was not screaming her tone was definitely louder than she usually was.  "I will live for you so please live on for me. I love you Y/N."

After hearing that you pulled Nanaba closer to you into a tight embrace. In response to your hug, Nanaba also wrapped her hand around your body and rested her head on your shoulder. Surprisingly but expectedly your shoulder where she places her head feels damp. She just let out all of the feelings to you and knowing her personality it was possibly her first time doing it, so it makes sense if she was overwhelmed by it.

"As expected your body is warm." She whispered to you. You also could feel her hands move around your back and petting your head.

"How did you know that I like you?." You asked her.

"I don't know, I lied. I just hope that you do like me. I- I am sorry if I am assuming your feelings, I am okay if- if you don't like me back but just don't hate me." She began to hold you even more tightly while holding back her tear.

You went and gently stroke her short blonde hair as a way to comfort her. "I never gonna hate you Nanaba. You were right I have had a crush on you ever since the first time we meet I want nothing more but to spend the rest of my life with you, to protect you. That is why I am joining the Survey Corps in the first place to be with you."

"So that why you join the Survey Corps, it is because of me." Nanaba looks you in the eyes once more. "Y/N, You dummy I don't need your protection." She bonked your head again "Well since you joined the Survey Corps because of me it's become my responsibility to protect you. Nanaba said teasingly and with a big smile.

"I look forward to being protected by you, Nanaba. I knew you are strong but still, I want to protect you as well."

"Let's promise we look for each other back. Like I said we live for each other." She said smiling.

"That a promise."

Both of you giggle at each other and then that giggle grew into a laugh but not long after that both of you went silent with eyes inspecting each other bodies. She is just perfect in your eyes from her short blonde hair, her majestic blue eyes, and her whole body and You are also as equally perfect in her eyes.

Both of your heads get closer once more. Nanaba could smell the sweet fragrant of the tea you had been drinking as she feels your breath and you also sense a fruity sense from her as her shadow began to cover your eyes. A what felt like an eternity later both of your mouths finally meet again as you went on a passionate kiss with your lover.

Your knees got weaker as you experience something that you always dream of but never actually believe you could do it. You hold on to her for balance while keeping both of your eyes closed so you could focus on one thing, your mouth.

Both of you pulled away from each other faces but both of your arms still squeezing one another bodies tightly. Both of you giggle at each other as your forehead touch against her's. The warm feeling of her breath and her very existence there bring you a sense of euphoria.

"Your mouth still has a sweet tea taste on it," Nanaba said as she released her hold over you and turn away walking towards the exit.

Feeling quite disappointed and confused you grabbed her hand holding her in place before asking. "Nanaba where are you going?."

She then turns her head towards you and answered. "Well, I would love to stay and spend a night here but we can't do it right now."

"Why is that." You asked her.

"Take a guess."

You do as she said and after a short deliberation later you came to a conclusion. Knowing her you are about 90% sure you came to the right conclusion.

"You came here to inform me that Erwin has summoned me to join the meeting at his office along with every high-ranking officer of the Survey Corps but instead of doing that you got carried away teasing me and somehow ended up confessing your love to me. Is that correct, Nanaba-san?." You said with a tired expression on your face.

"Oh wow, your guess is spot on. That amazing Y/N, I always knew you are smart but damn."

You let go of Nanaba hand and walked to your desk and fondle around the papers on it scanning it before choosing to be placed on the paper folder that you'll bring to Erwin.

"Guessing you was easy enough. Well, you go there first, I'll meet you there. I need to prepare the paperwork for the meeting first."

"I see, then see you there."

Nanaba waves her hand at you first before she began to walk away towards the door of your office. She then opens the door and steps outside of it but before she closed the door, she called out your name.

"Y/N..." You look at her. Her head peeks inside a half-closed door to your office, her hand is still on the handle. "I'll look forward to our next hand-to-hand combat training session." She said before closing the door with a wink.

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[captainshadowshifter]

Heya, I've been seeing your art of your LBP AU, and it looks super cool! I'm really curious to know what it's about?

WELL

Firstly, thank you! I'm so glad you think it's cool!

Secondly, asking about the whole thing?? Bold move mate, I can talk about this thing for hours, it's a clusterfuck of 4 years worth of ideas, there's so much to it I could be here all day...

So it started as a self insert to cope with shit - LBP3 was literally my life and I saw so much of myself in Newton that I kinda just... Heh. Enter OC Shadow.

She's a character I've had TONS of versions of over the years - this is the one that I use most though (but I added the others in somewhere ajsjskdjd). The main premise of the story is that she has a Power to balance and control the universe.. it only she knew how to use it! The Power is as old as time and gets passed down to certain individuals through the generations - usually in the Haeven (the immortal/demimortal realm; angels, demons, fallens, reapers, etc it's a whole thing) but APPARENTLY it either saw something in her worth fucking up the universe for OR it was bored as shit (the latter me thinkses)

This out of control Power led to a disruption of the balance. Shadow was experimented on growing up because of her abilities, and as a result ended up creating Vex who shares her powers - but also (as currently unknown to him) has the ability to Corrupt anything. Every major villain (with supernatural powers) has something unique that separates them from the rest. Vex and his Corruption power, the S.M.U.D (demon snek thing) being able to absorb and use any type of power it wants (Vex figures this out a bit later but he's not made for it so he go melty)

I mean I have 21 different note folders, 20 of them to categorise stuff I write into their respective story arcs - 12 main timeline arcs and 8 side stories that are JUST as important to the timeline but they're like different perspectives.

For example, the Psychoverse (as I call it) is an alternate dimension to the main one where Newton and the Titans were never stopped. It technically appears in the 9th main story arc, but it has a side story with all the shenanigans that happened before leading up to that (it's hella dramatic).

I also have a side story about Newton's past! It's very... metaphory. Also angst. Emo teen Newton is mean (also headcannon he didn't always have the prestige accent! He trained himself into it, but he goes back to the old one when he's drunk it's kinda funny)

Anyway so yeah I'll stop rambling on this tangent (ugh tangents why do I always aksjskbddj). This thing is a gigantic clusterfuck of literally every genre. There's cutesy shit (Shawton ship hhhhhh I love them they're so cute together), comedy shenanigans, soap-opera level drama, horror and gore, action...

Aaaaaaa sorry this is so long 😅 I hope my ramblings made enough sense! If you wanna know more I post a lot in my AU tags but there's not much way I can think of to sum it up quickly...

[justanotherlifeff]

Levi Ackerman × reader

Genre: Angst, Hurt/comfort, Fluff, matured themes, slowburn

Warning: There's mentions and descriptions of underage rape and suicidal themes and self harm. DETAILED SMUT IN THIS CHAPTER

(Y/N) POV

Levi and I were on horseback with the military police recruit on our way to the hospital. Everything from last night still felt like a dream. I realised how wrong I was about sexual matters. Dirty thoughts spread across my mind just as I was thinking about last night and I had to fight off a blush. "We should talk to Erwin about everything. Specially after that stunt you pulled in the bar last night." I heard Levi mutter to me as I looked at him to see that he brought his horse closer to mine. "Okay" I replied shortly. The fact that he wanted to say about us to uncle Erwin was getting me nervous. Heck, I wasn't even used to calling him just by his name yet. I knew that he had better judgement though.

We were the first ones to arrive at the hospital. Hanji and Moblit were late. "Erwin, I would've killed you in coma if you woke up any later. I'm tired of the extra paperwork." Levi stated sourly to uncle Erwin as we entered the room. Uncle Erwin smiled and said, "I knew you would Levi. I am grateful for your help. I assume you and Hanji managed everything well while I wasn't there?". When the military police cadet saluted and went off, he said blandly, " Yes we managed the meetings, Hanji is still questioning Eren as he can't remember much from when he got kidnapped, I chose my new squad from the 104 trainee corps recruits, Krista Lenz is Historia Reiss, an illegitimate child from the Reiss family, (Y/N) gained popularity as humanity's strongest woman, I promoted her as second in command and I'm in a relationship with her." He sat down on a chair to the right of Uncle Erwin as he said that.

I kept standing at the foot of the bed. Uncle Erwin looked at him and me with wide eyes and I looked down to hide the blush on my face. "Well, I won't have a problem with you being in a relationship with (Y/N) as long as it doesn't effect any of your performances. I would like to speak to you alone though, (Y/N)." Uncle Erwin said just before Commander Pixis entered the room with his second in command, a red haired girl. I saluted and stood beside her when commander Pixis motioned me to be at ease.

Hanji came in there a while later and explained that the titans in wall Rose were actually people from the Ragako village. Levi seemed troubled by the fact that he had been killing humans all these times. I felt troubled too because I didn't know how to take the news either. When everyone was done discussing the details on the current situation, Uncle Erwin asked me to stay behind in the room as everyone left. Levi tried to reason with Uncle Erwin about letting him stay as well but it didn't work.

When everyone was gone, he asked with a concerned voice, "Are you sure you made the right decision?". I looked at him confidently and said, " This probably was the best decision I ever took in my entire life." "Why is that? " Uncle Erwin asked. "Well, after I got myself into this, I found myself enjoying social activities like going on horse rides. I also found out that talking about things that bother you helps you deal with the problem more efficiently. I feel comfortable with sharing things from my past with Captain Levi because he had a similar past. I felt like my life or emotions didn't matter. Now that someone acknowledges them, living feels worth more than just trying to make my parents proud." I finished.

Uncle Erwin kept looking at me in a comforting gaze and said, "I am trusting your judgement. I know how loyal Levi can be when he wants to be but he never took any woman seriously before. However, since he talked to me about it, that must mean something." he sighed and then looked at me firmly and said, "(Y/N), if he ever tries to hurt you or force you into anything, just come to me. I'll kill him". I looked at Uncle Erwin's fatherly demeanour, smiled slightly and said, "Don't worry about me. I can take care of myself". Uncle Erwin smiled at my reply and said, "It's strange to see how you have grown. I'm proud of you (Y/N). Second in command and having so much reputation at this age? Even Levi couldn't do that. And you're also fighting your fears. I'm glad that you're turning into a strong woman".

" Are you done with your emotional speeches? We need to go and you need to rest before you pass out on us again" I heard Levi's voice from the door. "I'll be going. Get well soon." I said to Uncle Erwin with a smile and walked out of the door to Levi. We reached the courtyard of the hospital to find three carriages waiting for us and Hanji squad. Hanji and Moblit were waiting for us while her other squad members were already inside one of the carriages. "(Y/N)! Get in my carriage this time!" Hanji said as she scooted towards me. She wasn't cheerful as usual and was kinda gloomy. "She's not going with you Hanji." Levi said to her calmly.

"Heichou, please don't mind but I think I should go with Hanji" I told Levi making eye contact with him. He took a look at Hanji and understood that something was wrong and so, let me go with her. When we were on the carriage, I asked her, "Is everything okay?". She looked at me gloomily and said, " No. I predicted that we will have enemies inside the wall but I didn't know how strong they will be. I'll let everyone know the details when we reach the safe house."

The ride was rather quiet which was unusual as Hanji usually talks a lot. I felt worried for her because after that shopping trip, I was certainly more friendly to her than before even if she was irritating. She seemed like a brilliant woman who seemed to not try to bring up my past like most people and talked about topics I wasn't uncomfortable with except her rambling about titans which I figured she couldn't stop even if she wanted to. Of course, I wasn't exactly best buddies with her or anything since that isn't something I do but I was nice to her. Watching her so gloomy made me uneasy.

As we reached, I went in the safe house to find a scared Eren and an intimidating Levi talking about their lax cleaning job. There was hot tea in a tea pot on the table with cups arranged together. We didn't have breakfast this morning so, even if it was afternoon, we decided to have some food. Hanji was clever enough to get the supply cart going to the safe house to send a message to the safe house about making tea and breakfast for us before she went to see Erwin this morning.

The squad, including myself sat at the table with Levi. Hanji and her squad was sitting on the sofa with their tea and breakfast. Levi was talking to everyone about our next move which was to seal wall Maria and asking Armin about his plan and Eren if he can seal the wall with hardening his body. After Eren said that he'll do his best, Levi told Hanji, "Hear that Hanji? He's for it and you're the one who chooses where our experiments will take place.".

To that, Hanji replied gloomily, "Yes, ofcourse, it's my duty. As long as I'm alive..." Levi raised his eyebrows at that and Hanji explained that as much as she wants to work on capturing wall Maria, things in the walls got more complicated and that she wants Eren to lay low for now. I knew this was related to what she told me this morning. When everyone arose questions to these, she broke the news that Minister Nick is dead. Apparently she managed a place for minister Nick in the military barracks so that he would be safe. However, people from the interior military police killed him making the military police our enemies for now.

It was decided that Eren will train with Hanji. After the whole meeting was over, I had to go to my room in here, take a bath and finish Levi's paperworks as he was planning how to train Eren discretely with Hanji. I spent the whole day in my room only getting out for lunch and dinner. In the middle, Levi came to my room, we exchanged a kiss and he took most of the stacks of paperwork back to his room to help me out. Apparently I'm too slow at writing, he remarked. When I was done, it was pretty late at night. I went to bed but I couldn't sleep.

After tossing and turning for a while, I decided to try out the finger actions Levi did on me last night. Rubbing my clitoris felt good but not as much as when Levi did that. I was getting impatient and I needed that tingly feeling that I got last night before passing out. I tried fingering myself which ofcourse felt much better but got me no close to the tingly feeling. I was frustrated and without thinking, I marched off to Levi's door in my nightgown and knocked. When he opened the door and invited me in, I realised that I felt too embarrassed to ask for his help.

"What are you doing here so late? Do you want to say something important?" Levi asked me. "Uh... No it's nothing important. Sorry for bothering you." I blurted out and tried to escape the room but Levi caught me and said, "I know you (Y/N). You wont just go to someone for no reason. Say what you came to say". I blushed hard and looked down at the floor. He came closer and held my hand and said in a soft voice, "Don't be shy (Y/N). I can clearly see you blush. Don't hold it in like having constipation." "I was trying to finger myself but I wasn't getting that tingly feeling that I got before passing out. I need your help." I blurted out. "I see. So, you want me to make you cum." he replied. "That's cumming?" I asked with shock. The books, again, weren't wrong.

Levi POV

"That's cumming?" she asked me with a shocked face. Her obliviousness was so cute that it made me smile. "Yes, that's cumming" I replied. "I want you to do that again" she told me as she was blushing like crazy. I looked at her and sighed. She needed to know that I wanted to experiment more when it came to sex. Last night, I did absolutely nothing with her so that she won't be scared of the idea of sex again.

"(Y/N), what you saw the last time isn’t all there is to sex. There are a lot of things that I want to try with you if you allow me to Things I will do may hurt you just a little bit but I promise you, you will feel good. You have to trust me" I told her as I pulled her close with my hands on her waist. She hesitated a bit before saying, "Okay. I trust you". " You'll have to learn some basics before." I said as I moved away from her towards my bed and signalled her to follow me. I sat down on the bed with my legs down and said, "(Y/N), kneel down and sit between my legs.". She did what I asked her to and I took her chin in my hand and pulled it up so that she would face me to say, " (Y/N), don't ever be embarrassed to talk about sex with me. It's a normal thing that couples do and we already did it once. Don't be shy."

"I'll try" she whispered as I unbuckled my belt and pulled my dick out infront of her. "Now, suck on it. Use your tongue to lick the spot just beneath my foreskin and the top of my dick too." I instructed her. She did exactly what I asked for with really good precision and I was impressed at how good she was. She got me rock hard in no time. The way her mouth felt on me made me want to shove myself deep in her throat. I pulled her hair gently to remove her face from my dick and she looked at me as I did this.

"I'll gag you with my dick. You have to stay calm because you'll be hurt if you panic and cough. Just trust me okay? Take a deep breath" She nodded to let me know she’s ready as she had her mouth on me again. I grabbed her hair and pushed her head along my length. She was calm but I could feel the muscle spasms of her neck. I stayed there for a few seconds and then pulled her back up. She gasped for breath and when her breathing was back to normal, I repeated the process. I did this for a while till I felt like I needed to fuck her properly. I let her go and undressed her. I didn't want any foreplay because she was dripping wet and I was impatient.

I opened my own shirt off before impaling her with my dick. She hugged me tightly with a soft moan as I did that. Without giving her any time to settle to my size, I moved inside her vigorously. I felt her vagina squishing me, i felt the slimy warmth with the small bumps inside her which released volts of pleasure from my dick to all over my body. "Levi... Levi... Levi..." I heard her gasping my name, holding me tight, getting ready for an orgasm. Before she came, I pulled out. I had other plans for her. She groaned in frustration. I sat back on the bed and said, "(Y/N), sit on my lap and spread your legs". She did exactly as I said. She rested her head on my chest and I fingered her. Her soft moans turned into her gasping my name again and I removed my finger as she was reaching an orgasm again.

"NO! DON'T STOP!" she whined in frustration as I pinned her down on the bed and said while kissing her neck, "I won't let you cum if you don't trust me.". She became quiet after that and let me kiss her and bite her neck giving her hickeys. After a while, I positioned myself and got inside her again. She wasn't expecting the quick change in actions and gasped loudly. I pounded into her fast making her orgasm as she shouted my name out digging into my back. I reached my orgasm by watching her lewd expressions.

When I was done, I slumped down beside her on the bed. She was still breathing heavily from the orgasm still recovering from it. I realized that I forgot to pull out because she looked so darn good. I got up to get a handkerchief so that I could clean her down there. She laid down and watched me clean her up. When I was done, I told her that we need to take a bath. She got up and followed me to the bathroom. She snuggled close to me in the bathtub because the water wasn't warm. After we were done, she proceeded to wear her clothes. " Why are you wearing those?" I asked her. "I need to go back to my room right?" she asked with slight confusion on her face. "Stay here" I told her in a demanding voice. "Won't there be a problem if someone goes in my room and doesn't find me?" she asked. "If that happens, we will manage something. You're staying here every night from now on. It helps me sleep." I told her in a matter of fact tone.

She looked at me for a while trying to process the fact that I asked her to stay with me every night out of nowhere and then she just headed to the bed leaving her nightgown on the floor. I folded it and folded my own clothes which were on the floor too and got on the bed beside her, put an arm around her and drifted off to sleep after a few minutes

(Y/N) POV

I woke up the next morning to find a lightly snoring Levi spooning me. I enjoyed his warmth for a few moments before getting up and going to his bathroom to wash my face. When I came back, Levi was sitting on the bed waiting for me to come out. "Did you sleep properly?" I asked him. He said "Yeah I did" with an yawn. He was naked like myself and I really had to admire the view I got. His pale skin glistened in the sunlight coming out from the window beside his bed.

"Come here" he demanded while sitting on the bed. I walked to him and he motioned me to sit on his lap. I did what he asked and he pulled me close and kissed me on the lips. We made out for a while till I pushed away from him with a chuckle and mentioned, "I need to make breakfast. We really should stop now" with a smile. "Okay" he answered with a grin and slapped my ass slightly when I got up. I was shocked by his action for a moment but I realized that I kinda liked it. I wore my nightgown and went back to my room to take a bath and wear new clothes.

When I was done bathing, I wore a casual shirt with a long skirt and used a scarf to cover up the hickeys that Levi gave me last night. I went downstairs and took out some bread and got jam on it and made tea. Levi was the second person to come down and he poured his tea from the tea pot and took some bread and jam for himself. I did the same and sat on the chair closest to him. He always sat on the head of the table. Hanji and her squad, Eren, Mikasa, Armin, Connie, potato girl and the guy who always used to fight with Eren came down after a while.

Hanji just took her tea and bread and commanded her team to do the same and ran off outside to "prepare for training" looking very excited. Potato girl looked excited as she saw all the bread on the table and tried to eat all of it and I had to tackle her. "Oi potato girl! I'll break your neck if you take one extra bread!" I gritted my teeth as I struggled to keep her away from the bread. "I thought everyone forgot about that!" she gave an exasperated groan. "No one forgot that, Sasha", Connie answered with a sigh. " I didn't know you had a name expect potato girl before now" I added. She stopped struggling and looked embarrassed about her alias.

As we were eating, Eren and that guy, who's name apparently was Jean, got into a fight again. Levi motioned me to stop them and I just walked between them and held both of their punches with both my hand. "Stop acting like uncivilized baboons. I expected you to be a bit more matured than this, Eren. You are in the special operations squad so act like it." I glared at both of them and Eren just stormed off from the room with Mikasa running after him. Jean on the other hand sat back on the table giving occasional glances on my way.

"(Y/N), meet me in the clearing in 10 minutes. I need to see if your hand to hand combat is as good as before. And I think you need to learn how to use a knife. As second in command, you need to know all sorts of self defence techniques as possible specially in a situation like this. And say Eren that Hanji is itching to do experiments on him." Levi told me as he got up from his chair. "Yes Heichou! I'll be there in 10 minutes!" I answered standing up as Levi left the room without a word.

When I was going to get Eren, I heard Jean shout out, "(Y/N)! Wait!" I stopped and looked back at him as he stumbled towards me, "Uh, well, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for being so immature back then. It was stupid" he mumbled with a nervous smile. "It's okay." I replied shortly before turning back again. Again, he shouted, "Wait!" I turned to him, looking uninterested. "Uh, I just wanted to say that your hair looks nice" he chuckled nervously after saying that. "Okay. Anything else?" I told him looking absolutely uninterested by whatever he had to say. "Uh, no. Good luck while training" he said as I was marching away exactly when he mentioned that he had nothing more to say.

I went to Eren, who was sitting outside with Mikasa and said him that Hanji is waiting for him in the clearing and went there with them as Levi instructed me to go there too. Levi took me a bit far from there and gave me a pocket knife. "You need to be able to kill people with this without a scratch. If you can bring me down once, I'll consider you to be ready. I learnt some techniques from Kenny and I'll teach those to you. You remember what I said about him right? You still won't be able to bring him down if he’s given a pocket knife and you’re given a sword. Then again, you won't ever see him" he said as he proceeded to show me everything he knows.

It was evening when I was done with training. I went to take a bath and after bathing I had to go to the watch towers as it was my turn to keep a watch. I took a bath, washed the bruises from my training session with Levi. I lost some hold on how good I was because I didn't practice hand to hand combat for a while. The fact that he had a knife didn't help either. I had a few minor cuts on my hands and legs too. When I was done, I went to the watch tower and climbed up there. Jean was sitting there and he stood up as I came.

"That shorty really hurt you didn't he? I hope he gets eaten by titans someday." he grunted. "Well, it was required. You can't learn things by being completely unscratched... And, I hope he never gets eaten by titans. We need a leader like him." I answered earnestly and kinda pissed by his comment. However, I hoped that he wouldn't get eaten by titans for other reasons too. Jean definitely didn't expect this reply. "How do you not hate him?" he asked with a surprised tone. "I just don't. He does what needs to be done. I don't see anything to hate in him" I replied calmly.

"So, you can like someone who beats the shit out of you?" he scoffed a bit angrily. I didn't understand why he was angry though. "I can like someone who can teach me things to become stronger and not die. He makes us do these because he doesn't want us to die. I think it's a nice thing to do." I answered to that trying to continue being calm. "We kill titans! You're humanity's strongest woman! Why would you need extra training for beating humans?" he questioned with an exasperated groan. "Because humans are worse! The worst thing a titan can do is kill you but humans can do things that makes you wish you were dead all your life!" I lashed out with frustration because of his nagging.

He became quiet after I said that. He probably understood that the last thing I wanted was him to be there and so he got away. I didn't feel bad about lashing out on him because he was being completely unreasonable and I didn't like the way he talked about Levi. The sky was getting darker by the minute. It was a cloudy night. I heard someone getting up to the tower and noticed that it was Mikasa. "Hey" she said as she sat beside me. "Hey" I sighed. I was in a bad mood because of Jean.

"Who gave you the hickeys?" she asked. My mood shifted from angry to sheer panic as I looked at her and said, "What are you talking about?". "Well, I could see something black underneath that scarf." she said in a matter of fact tone. I didn't know how to reply to that. "Was it Eren?" she asked me with a cold stare. "Eren is like my younger brother" I replied with a disgusted look. She calmed down as I said that. "Well, if it wasn't Eren, I don't really care who it was." she answered with a smile. "You really love Eren don't you?" I asked her with a sympathetic smile. She sighed, "I wish he understood..." I didn't know how to console her.

"So, now that you got out of your 'not getting emotionally attached' ban, why are you still so cold to everyone? I heard you shouted at Jean for looking out for you?" she asked me. "It's just how I always was. I never really cared about what others felt because of my attitude. You heard about that Jacob incident from the newspapers right? My parents were scared of me after that. It hurt me because I cared about them so I decided to stop caring. Now I'm making the same mistake again and I just can't stop myself because he just doesn't judge me for what I am" I sighed to her.

"Well, I'm living to protect Eren and Armin. I'm not a strong willed person like you but I can say one thing. These people in the special operations squad, they mean a lot to me. I'll try my best to save all of them if their lives are in danger and I don't regret it. They care back too. You should know how good it feels when someone cares about your life right?" she asked. "Yeah I know." I muttered trying to weigh the depth of her words.

She was right. Now that I conquered my fears about caring, why should I still keep myself separated? It's true that I'm not particularly friendly but that doesn't mean I couldn't care. Isn't that what Levi does? Isn't that why he is so strong? He wants to protect everyone too and that makes him stronger. Wouldn't that make me stronger too? I remembered the promise I made to myself years back. "I'll avoid being hurt". To avoid being hurt, you have to be strong. To be strong, you need to be hurt in the first place. I made my decision. "I guess I'll try to care" I told Mikasa with a small smile. She nodded at me and said, "It's for your own good.". I replied, "I know".

Levi POV

I heard the conversation between (Y/N) and the gloomy brat. I had to agree with her. Caring about my teammates got me where I am. After Mikasa left, I went up the watch tower to sit with (Y/N). "I'm getting a lot of visitors today" she stated as I sat down beside her. "Well, I was here when you were talking to that gloomy brat. I decided not to interrupt because she was right. You do have to create a bond with the team. When you care, you want to fight harder for them and that makes you more efficient" I told her. "I figured that's how you do it." she replied. The sky was clearing and there were stars filling the sky. It reminded me of my last night with Farlan and Isabelle.

[AUTHOR'S NOTE: Just imagine the music from that scene in the No Regrets anime when Levi was looking at the sky with Farlan and Isabelle.]

"The sky looks beautiful" (Y/N) said, her face showing her admiration. She looked beautiful in the moonlight. I put an arm around her and answered "Yeah it does". "I cried with I saw the sky for the first time after coming up from the underground." she whispered. "I smiled when I saw the sky for the first time" I told her as I was reliving the memory. I wasn't gonna let her die too.

To be continued...

Taglist:@reality-is-often-disappointing, @kingtamakimurder

[katsuukiwii]

Could I get a matchup for AOT, Black Butler and MHA, please? 😊

Personality: I push myself REALLY hard. I have a lot of willpower and am VERY stubborn. I try to be highly independent, usually to a fault. I don't like asking for help and it takes me a very long time to realize and admit I need it.

I'm distrusting and cynical and have been through a lot. I get stressed out really easy and am anxious and depressed. But my anxiety is usually hostile/aggressive. When I get anxious or stressed, I usually lash out or try to control things. When I'm depressed I usually shut down completely or dissociate really bad. (Wow this sounds so negative when I type this.)

This combination (being stubborn and refusing help, but also being very handicapped) is harmful to myself and I've begun to finally realize that. I've been gradually trying to accept help from others more and allow myself to not live up to unrealistic standards. I would need someone who is supportive of this and someone would help me stop pushing myself into oblivion.

On a more positive note, when I'm not stressed or being combative, I really love life and am one of those people that appreciates seemingly insignificant things that most people take for granted. I'm also very sensory oriented. Even something really small can greatly lift my mood, like a nice breeze or rain or a flower. I like being outside for a part of the day because of this.

I can be a little weird and don't really care too much tbh. I do weird or sometimes childish/childlike things like chase/stalk geese or immitate animal sounds. I can also be very mischievous if my mental health has been doing well for a long time and I am happy. I will pull pranks or be evasive when speaking or play (not malicious) mind games.

I also tend to love VERY deeply when I fall in love. I feel very strong emotion and affection towards that person, am fiercely loyal and am usually sacrificial to a fault for them (again, push myself too hard).

I'm easily crushed if that person I love abuses my love or neglects me.

(I also hate very intensely too and can be very petty, spiteful and vengeful. Just strong emotions, I guess.)

Sexually, I honestly can't see myself being dominant even if I tried. I probably would try, but would fall apart. I also have a very big masochistic streak. I like very intimate sex. Not necessarily soft, slow or gentle (but it could be these), just physically and emotionally intimate.

That's it cause I don't want to type too much and make this super long! Thank you very much, you are great! 😞 Matchups can be hard, I appreciate your effort!!

Matchups!

No, no, thank you for making this long! I got a lot of details from it! I appreciate the appreciation! It SOUNDS negative, but I know people PERSONALLY who have experienced similar things to you (from what I read) and have seen these sorts of things, so I hope I gave you good results! Im glad you were willing to be so open, even if it’s through anon, that stuff can be hard to talk about ^^

Attack On Titan:

I ship you with Reiner Braun!

He doesn’t know EXACTLY what you’re going through, but he does his hardest to try and understand so he can help you out. He’s dealt with some issues on his own, and knows that its no fun to experience it on your own!

Your can get aggressive, all good! Reiner knows you truly don’t mean any harm towards him, you just have a lot on your mind that you need to let out.

He wants you to come to him if anything is on your mind, good or bad! He wants you to know that he’s there for you, and that he loves you no matter what! He gets so happy when you say that you want to reach out to people, and get help

Now, onto happier things! He loves taking you on walks, especially if it’s raining! He likes to get outside too, so he doesn’t mind a bit!

He’s uh...not the smartest, so mind games can confuse him! He loves to pull pranks with you, usually on poor Connie, or Jean.

He understands that you like to be independent, but he also knows that nobody is capable of doing everything! He likes for you to admit if you need help with something, since it helps you learn, but if you refuse to he’ll just try and have you do something else while he helps. It doesn’t work often, but he still tries!

He doesn’t mind your weird side! He’ll watch you stalk geese, but won’t actually join you. It doesn’t make him ashamed, it’s just not his thing. As usual, if you REALLY want him to, he will.

BUT he does like to try and imitate animal sounds with you, he thinks if silly!

For sex, you’re submissive, all good! I picture him being more of a top anyway! So, you like something kind of rough, but intimate, and loving, and he’s totally cool with that as well! It fits him perfectly! Plus he’s a big guy, so sometimes he can unintentionally hurt you (not horribly), and he’ll apologize even if you liked it.

Aftercare g o d. Always makes sure you feel okay, and comfortable about what happened! He’ll make sure you’re nice and clean, and then give you some snuggles if you want!

Runner-Ups: Erwin Smith and Armin Arlert

My Hero Academia:

I ship you with Eijiro Kirishima!

It takes Kirishima a minute to get used to your hostility (only when you have those moments, ofc). He doesn’t really know what to do until one day, where he doesn’t force you to do anything. He speaks to you in a gentle voice,

“I’m not going to force you to do anything. But I would really appreciate it if you just....opened up to me. I’m not sure how to help you out, I need you to show me. So can we talk, please?”

You try to be more open after that, and in all honesty, it didn’t just help you, but it helped him. A LOT. He just wants to do his best for you!

Yes, maybe he has called people whiny before, but he still knows that emotions are very important. Everybody has to let them out every now and then!

He will NOT take your for granted. Not just because it’s “manly”, but because he cares so much about you, and he wants you to know that you aren’t alone!

Now, he, unlike Reiner will TOTALLY chase geese with you AND imitate animal sounds! He’s a child at heart as well. He’ll take a walk outside with you! He prefers to be inside, but he doesn’t hate it! Plus he loves to see how calm you are when letting the rain fall on our hand, on taking in the vibrant colors of a flower!

He’ll catch on to SOME of your mind games, but he can get stumped! You often pull pranks on him, and he still laughs about it and has fun! What a sweetheart!

During sex, he’s all good with being on top! He will be a bit reluctant to hurt you if you ask, but eventually you’ll make him comfortable enough to be a little rough, nothing to far though!

He IS a switch, but he’s absolutely fine with you wanting to be on bottom! The only thing is that he is very sensitive physically, so he can get vocal. SO even if he is on top, his face could be bright red with his eyes shut tight, it’s cute!

Runner-Ups: Hizashi Yamada and Shouta Aizawa

Black Butler:

I ship you with Sebastian Michaelis!

This man is probably one of the BEST options for you, honestly!

He knows just how to calm you down almost right off the bat! Of course, everybody requires a bit of adjustment, but for him it was a piece of cake!

Of course, he can get a bit annoyed if you get SUPER aggressive, but that doesn’t mean he hates you! He still cares about you so much, but it can be a lot, even for him. 

He makes sure you get the help you need!

Let’s be honest, most of us know that scene with Beast. He CAN be manipulative, but he would N E V E R do it towards you. He’ll tell you and show you. So he will praise you in bed if you need it, or even if he feels like it.

You absolutely cannot play mind games with him. He’s too smart. If anything it’ll turn into him playing a (not malicious) mind game on you. He likes to tease you, but he makes sure not to take it too far!

Absolutely will not chase geese. It’s not for him. He will only do it if you wanted him to catch one. In that case, he could probably catch a few with his skills!

He doesn’t imitate animals sounds with you...in public, that is. In private, he likes to as well! He’s not quite sure why.

And now, for sex! We’ve seen the scene with the nun. This man goes HARD! Of course, he can be gentle, but it’s in his nature to be rougher than the average person. If you want him to be gentle, he will. BUT if you do want a little pain he is totally down. Definitely a sadist. He fine with you being on bottom!

Runner-Ups:  Adrian Crevan and Claude Faustus