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fullscoreshenanigans · 2 months

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TPN Committee: Yeah we’re going to horribly truncate this anime adaption by cutting 50+ chapters, removing so much of the nuance people loved about the original story and make it the greatest disappointment of Winter 2021 after the first season was a critical darling, but as compensation you can have some REN Rights in the form of this album cover that wouldn't be out of place for a shoujo series

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wis-art · 1 year

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Hi, i will be rather busy on the weekend, i have drawn this quick little pin-up sketch of Wiki and i will leave it with you all

#wiki #oc #my art #pinup #sketch #doodle #she is in many ways trans #like almost all my art its about the body and the way one perfieves themselves #i haven't drawn her before meeting lucy yet because i have been thinking a lot about them building their characters #originally i just made her as a girl with not much more to it #but as time went on and i kept thinking about her and what i would like her to be i realized she chose to look like this #this is how she wants to be presented #a girl #comfortable in her body #she's never been a boy in a traditional sense though #she is not human #angels are androgynous creatures with no rigid gender like humans #often just kinda neither #wiki became the shape of a woman over time when she realized how happy she is just being a woman #when she learned the concept of gender from her girlfriend she thought its very fun and wanted to participate #hi guys #i woke up #and hid all this in my tags #have fun digging

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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2009 Abu Dhabi Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel

#i went on a rant last seb win about how the camerawork was so good: this one too!!!#he looks glorious this race what else needs to be said???????#THE WAY HIS EYES SPARKLE!!!!!#i will never get over this era of rbr racesuits. just the navy blue with the red lining is gorgeous to me #i could really wax poetic about their 2009-2012 racesuits. def my fav designs in color and form etc #haha you can tell when ive watched a seb win race bcs its gotta be at least 2 posts maybe 3 #i cant help it!! hes my baby waby!! he deserves as many posts as i can possibly make #this is vaguely unhinged but its been nice to see his hair grow out from a buzzcut to this length throughout the season #hes very relatable. him and I do the same hair routine which i call 'the sheep'. when you cut it every once in a while after growing it out #but this and maybe a bit longer is the ideal seb hair length. he just looks soooo pretty and angelic to me <333 #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #2009 abu dhabi gp #sv5 #we do a little bit of f1

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spiderslvts · 17 days

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some new tags ?? some new tags !! + affiliate tags :]

. 🕸️ HOW OUT OF HAND IT’S GOTTEN ╱ ooc.

. 🕸️ MY FLESH IS LACED WITH SUGAR AND MAGGOTS ╱ asks.

. 🕸️ YOU SAY YOU MISS ME ( I’M RIGHT HERE ) ╱ starters.

. 🕸️ WITH PINK EYESHADOW AND A SOBBING PRAYER ╱ isms.

. 🕸️ ANYTHING COULD BE HOLY UNDER NEON LIGHTS ╱ visage.

. 🕸️ DO YOU FEEL THE EYES OVER YOUR BODY STILL? ╱ promo.

. 🕸️ TO SWEETLY MELT IN SIN ╱ rp memes.

. 🕸️ I DRINK ; I BURN ; I SHATTER MY OWN DREAMS ╱ open starter.

. 🕸️ YOUR FISH HOOK IN MY MOUTH ╱ crack.

. 🕸️ EATEN IN PIECES ; NOT MEANT TO BE KNOWN WHOLE ╱ ic.

. 🕸️ I BELIEVE YOU LIKE A BEATEN DOG ╱ dash games.

. 🕸️ I WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING ╱ affiliates.

. 🕸️ KISS ME WITH MY BLOOD BETWEEN YOUR TEETH ╱ ships.

. 🕸️ TO BE LOOKED AT &. NEVER SEEN ╱ art.

. 🕸️ TOUCHED DOWN TO THE DELICATE BONES ╱ poetry.

. 🕷 | IN NEON LIGHTS ╱ canon &. main verse.

. 🕷 | THE CALL OF THE ANGELS ╱ overlord verse.

. 🕷 | FEATHER BOAS AND GLITTER ╱ 70’s verse. (ft. sirserpentine)

. 🕷 | OVERSEER OF HELL ╱ zestial’s employee verse (ft. zestials)

. 🕷 | GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY ╱ human verse.

. 🕷 | LACED WITH BELLADONNA ╱ lost twins verse (ft. spyderdust)

. ♡ DO YOU LIKE THE SHOW ? ARE YOU TIRED OF IT ? ╱ videoaux.

. ♡ THE LAST SHRED OF TRUTH IN THE LOST MYTH OF TRUE LOVE ╱ hellsbroadcaster.

. ♡ I COULD NEVER DEFINE ALL THAT YOU ARE TO ME ╱ r-adio.

. ♡ BUT I’D NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY IT BACK ╱ sirserpentine.

. ♡ I’M PUT TO AWE SOMETHING SO FLAWED AND FREE ╱ dark-ambition.

. ♡ YOUR BEAUTY NEVER EVER SCARED ME ╱ gamblins.

. ♡ THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN / THE FACE IN MONOCHROME ╱ zestials.

. ♡ YOU HATE THE APPLAUSE / YOU CRAVE THE ATTENTION ╱ xluciifer.

. ♡ BUT YOU’RE HOLDING ME LIKE WATER IN YOUR HANDS ╱ oriiginis.

#. 🕸️ HOW OUT OF HAND IT’S GOTTEN ╱ ooc.#. 🕸️ MY FLESH IS LACED WITH SUGAR AND MAGGOTS ╱ asks.#. 🕸️ YOU SAY YOU MISS ME ( I’M RIGHT HERE ) ╱ starters.#. 🕸️ WITH PINK EYESHADOW AND A SOBBING PRAYER ╱ isms.#. 🕸️ ANYTHING COULD BE HOLY UNDER NEON LIGHTS ╱ visage.#. 🕸️ DO YOU FEEL THE EYES OVER YOUR BODY STILL? ╱ promo.#. 🕸️ TO SWEETLY MELT IN SIN ╱ rp memes.#. 🕸️ I DRINK ; I BURN ; I SHATTER MY OWN DREAMS ╱ open starter.#. 🕸️ YOUR FISH HOOK IN MY MOUTH ╱ crack.#. 🕸️ EATEN IN PIECES ; NOT MEANT TO BE KNOWN WHOLE ╱ ic.#. 🕸️ I BELIEVE YOU LIKE A BEATEN DOG ╱ dash games.#. 🕸️ I WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING ╱ affiliates.#. 🕸️ KISS ME WITH MY BLOOD BETWEEN YOUR TEETH ╱ ships.#. 🕸️ TO BE LOOKED AT &. NEVER SEEN ╱ art.#. 🕸️ TOUCHED DOWN TO THE DELICATE BONES ╱ poetry.#. 🕷 | IN NEON LIGHTS ╱ canon &. main verse.#. 🕷 | THE CALL OF THE ANGELS ╱ overlord verse.#. 🕷 | FEATHER BOAS AND GLITTER ╱ 70’s verse. (ft. sirserpentine)#. 🕷 | OVERSEER OF HELL ╱ zestial’s employee verse (ft. zestials)#. 🕷 | GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY ╱ human verse.#. 🕷 | LACED WITH BELLADONNA ╱ lost twins verse (ft. spyderdust)#. ♡ DO YOU LIKE THE SHOW ? ARE YOU TIRED OF IT ? ╱ videoaux.#. ♡ THE LAST SHRED OF TRUTH IN THE LOST MYTH OF TRUE LOVE ╱ hellsbroadcaster.#. ♡ I COULD NEVER DEFINE ALL THAT YOU ARE TO ME ╱ r-adio.#. ♡ BUT I’D NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY IT BACK ╱ sirserpentine.#. ♡ I’M PUT TO AWE SOMETHING SO FLAWED AND FREE ╱ dark-ambition.#. ♡ YOUR BEAUTY NEVER EVER SCARED ME ╱ gamblins.#. ♡ THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN / THE FACE IN MONOCHROME ╱ zestials.#. ♡ YOU HATE THE APPLAUSE / YOU CRAVE THE ATTENTION ╱ xluciifer.#. ♡ BUT YOU’RE HOLDING ME LIKE WATER IN YOUR HANDS ╱ oriiginis.

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reel-fear · 2 months

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Hey guys, if we're gonna post hate on a character [not critique not analysis literally just you saying "I hate this character, and I don't care if u guys like her"] maybe don't put it in her character tags and say how much u wanna kill her.

For one thing, if it's a female character that's not a unique opinion, but it's also rude and in rather poor taste.

#ramblez #alice angel #batim #batdr #susie campbell #can u tell who this post is about?#anyways people have wanted to violently murder susie since she existed as someone who has been in this fandom since chapter 1 #susie hate is in fact rather common youre not special!#esp since the bendy fandom like most fandoms has a misogyny problem yeah maybe lets not post abt how much we want to see her killed horribl #that might be in fact not very tactful or necessary!#yall literally look like that one post thats like #being a fan of any mildly unpopular female character is when you try to post about how you like them and people reply with telling you #they have fantasies about violently killing her #anyways malice haters dni here we love Susie and we know that her and malice are two seperate entities #that susie LITERALLY never did anything wrong or villainous and was entirely screwed over by the men in her life #like joey of course BUT ALSO SAMMY #and that if u hate malice for killing ur dog or whatever but dont hate Sammy for trying to kill Henry thats super sus! Hope this helps <3

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tindove · 9 months

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I’m Coping. I liked the dancing, can we go back to that?

#I still have no idea how to draw them #I never do fanart #but this season made me a bit to ill and not I can’t do anything but draw them #do you know what I look like at work?#so many angels and demons just all over my space #it’s a right problem #had to do a happier times one tho #I can’t drown in episode six forever lol #no that’s for next time #good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #good omens fanart #my art #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #I love them so much

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batshaped · 1 year

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massive doodle dumps from 2020 because i was nostalgic for the giant sketch dumps people used to put on deviantart when i was a kid. i always liked looking at those.

originally posted to twitter: first dump / second dump

characters are Chloe (devil) and Clair (angel) from my comic.

#art #angel #devil #sketch #doodle #doodle dump #chloe #clair #hfhh #hello from halo head #lot i could say here about how the culture around displayiing art online has changed since i was little #personally i love to look at sketches #and i'm proud of my sketches #and i want other people to like them and get lost in them #the way i used to get lost in my favorite artists' doodle dumps back on deviantart #but people are reluctant to post unpolished work now i think #and i understand why #it's hard not to want the biggest possible number on your art cause social media kinda broke everyones brain #and sketches that might be loved and pored over by a silent few #are never going to reach the heights of a polished piece #so people just don't post them as much anymore #i should try to post mine more #i really do love them #long post #2020 art #10202020 #10232020 #october 2020 art

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two-ndborne · 10 months

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my favorite panels from the last 2 chapters of under the red hood be upon ye

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boxwinebaddie · 5 months

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I FUCKING KNEWWWW KENNY HAD A THING FOR RAVENSTAN THE SECONDD HE GOT WEIRD AROUND KYLE SHDJFJFIDISK

AHJHSKSDKDSJS! WOOPS! CAUGHT EM RED-RAVENSTANNED!

...fellas, is it gay to fly into a blind rage and almost break your hand violently smashing a novelty candlestick holder into a windowpane trying to pry it open so your Close Platonic Friend you don't have feelings for who is having a ravenstannic attack can breathe in the cool air while you gently caress their face and reassure them that everything is going to be okay...in front of EVERYONE???? hELLO??!!

very...normal and chill behavior. a normal thing to do for your...friend.

chapter three was so unserious, oh my god. kenny was mad-mad. omg i just knooooooo kyle curled up in ravens lap and kenny was freshly Homicidal behind the skeleken mask and that copy of milfs incorporated which was creased in several places by their rage, smh.

literally kenny and kyle in rm3 in a nutshell:

kenny: cracking jokes, telling stories, making friends with everyone

kyle: breathes once

kenny: damn thats Crazy! who the FUCK asked you?? choke, bitch! :)

kenny, going back to telling their story: anyways! like i was sayin before i was so RUDELY interrupted! holy shit, sOME PEOPLE! WOW!

kyle, reaching across the couch, held back by 3 people: WHAT WAS THAT!!! DEAD BITCHES SAY WHAT??? NOTHING!!!! THATS RIGHT!!!

SHKDHLSDHD WIIILD! yall wanna talk about HATE at first sight?!!!!

those boys are going to KILL each other. its gonna be the petty olympics. i would not put either of them above throwing drinks or punches, pulling hair, screaming, scratching, the whole nine yards.

all while raven is sitting there scratching his beautiful fake blonde head and batting his big dumb massive gorgeous lead singer boy eyelashes all over the place like!!! aaaaaa!!! quit it you two! be nice!!! :(

LIKE BABY WILL YOU WIPE THE HOT BOY EYELINER AND MASCARA CRUMBLE OUT OF YOUR GODDAMN EYES AND LOOK?

smh the r in rm stands for everyone is in love with ravenstan and i get it but oh my god...that boy's helen of troy beauty is such a CURSE.

( its his sweet soul actually: the eyes are just a window 2 the soul <3 )

it's gonna be such a meeeeeeeess because ken and ravens bestie dynamic is that they just hit on each other all the time and are really touchy esp. when drunk and its such a FUNNY JOKE until raven is tipsy n giggly in kennys lap and jersey kyle is ready to kill himself and everyone else ala pep3 and kenny is like Whats The Matter Kyle <3 ;)

kyle: trying to figure out why watching the boy hes supposed to hate being fake flirty with another boy is making him really really MAD

DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!! INSANITY!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me: preaches up and down about just wanting a moment of peace

also me: CAT FIGHT CAT FIGHT CAT FIGHT

-uncle nina, causing problems in my own household for fun <3 :)

#this is my favorite messy side plot #unfortunately stans beautiful boyfail cringe comp actual angel kicked puppy dog energy has bewitched everyone smh #ravenstan abt to leave on his date like kenny how do i look #kenny: considering throwing themself out the window #no one put kyle on RaKen tiktok hes gonna get mad oh my god hes gonna keyboard warrior in the comments sections #the cd boys are so much they hit on eachother so much but uh that line gets blurry sometimes #they taught ravenstan a little too good..they are all like oh my god raven chill out before i kiss u on the LIPS homie jesus christ #for a man with no ass he is HAULING it people are DYING #like he flew through those ravenstan mcwhoremick assignments on floozy 101 he is way too powerful on stage #jealous kyle stans rise we ride at crimson dawn #its ok kennys never going to tell either of them abt that kyle is just gonna figure out it bc his brain is huge #and slowly mentally detrioriate abt it probably and overanalyze every interaction frothing at the mouth #FEATURING A BOY HE HATES AND DOES NOT CARE ABT #i live for petty kyle hes gonna start being a menace #OVER A MAN!!!!! BEBE STEVENS COME GET UR GBF

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angeloftrumpets · 7 months

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i think about this picture a LOT

EDIT: WARNING I JUST INFODUMP IN THE TAGS IM SORRY ???

#when i used to work at burgerking the parking lot literally looked like that and it would be dark and I NEVER STOPPED THINKING ABOUT THIS #the two weeks i worked at burgerking is hwen i made like. my weird au related to genesis apocryphon #duudeeee #when i first found out about it i lost my mind because i came up with my whole concept of be.ginner bible tapes traumatizing someone to a #point where they have a horrible fear of angels and gab. is like Hm... this is gonna be Really Funny and teaches some 20 year old about the #universe #but ends up being a good thing ? ?#< i havent gotten far to the au i still am processing how they would interact with eachother upon first meeting #i have to say my absolute favorite scene in man.dela is gab and dave like ? ??!!?!? I SAW IT LIVE LIKE WHEN IT WAS PREMERING AND I LOVEEE #VOL 4 ITS SOO GOOOD #i never really talk about this anymore but for a bit of last year i hardcore kinned si/x and like oh my god #dadtruder being CANON made me so happy because i was fighting for my LIFE to other mand/ela fans i know and NONE OF THEM AGREED WITH ME #i rewatched vo/l 4 with like 5 different people the day it came out i am not kidding #my initial getting into the series was really strange #it all started by seeing someone in an avatar of him in vr chat ?? but like a long time before that i saw someone who did this AMAZING #FANART OF HIM and when i staw it i just Stared at it for an Hour.#but there was someone in a del/taru/ne world on v/rchat and i just stared with autistic eyes i wanted to ask for the avi so bad but i was #way to anxious BC IT WAS LIKE. REALLY TALL. OKAY.#i used to run around in a backroo/ms world as si/x and gab it was truly a time #whenever soemone makes a toonie avi in vrchat its OVER I HAVE THE NAME ON THERE im so proud #im so sad i couldnt get it on discord it puts me in anguish when i think about it #but YEA i have been typing for like idk how long and im so sorry for the tag spam if you read through this i hope you have a wonderful day #or night ^ u ^ !!

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 3 days

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There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say:#“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t.#Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

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misfortunegirl · 24 days

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bro i really am just.

😀

i am just fucking sitting.

#GIRL.......not nerdy guy just texting me cause i havent responded in more than two weeks 😭 OH CMON I JUST FORGOT YOU i cant be getting #delusional over him aGAIN..... he just texted me “hey (name)? where've you gotten lost?” okokok. the fact he hasnt forgotten my ass yet? ok.#slay mayhaps but also... why🤨 anyways. i came to uni today and barely talked to anyone💀💀💀 he doesnt share today's particular lesson so #we haven't seen eachother in like............. more than a month? give or take..#so if i decide to show up again tomorrow ill most likely see him. so. ill have to dress up extra cute. why? i dunno. my brainworms tell me #to do so. see #i wouldve dressed cuter today but i was too tired and didnt have enough tjme.....#im kinda running on not enough sleep but i meant to say we dont share today's particular class.#ive almost forgotten how his dumb cute lil loir face looks like. hm.... anyway.#im tired. took too much hydroxyzine and almost fell asleep in class 💀 someone nameless bitch gave me a dirty look and i was like ok i dont #eveb know you why the disgusted face💀 youve never seen a sleepy angel or what #“some* nameless bitch”#especially an angel sleepy cuz of a “drug” like cmon. grow up. 🙄#placeholder tag

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rosicheeks · 28 days

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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parents… sometimes. But it’s uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasn’t caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..

I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. It’s wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.

I was texting my sister today about it and she said

“I 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesn’t realize it cause they’re still drinking the kool-aid.”

I ran out of tag room and didn’t want to delete any 😭 seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences

#I relate to all of this so much #and it’s so sad how many people truly have religious trauma #I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine #it’s really hard cause my parents still think I’m a Christian #honestly at this point I have no clue what i am #even if I end up still being a Christian that doesn’t help or heal all of the years of church trauma #but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents #growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold #cause I know that’s what my parents wanted and I didn’t want to disappoint them #but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there #their perfect angel fell from heaven #and I feel like ever since I haven’t been really their daughter…. I’ve just been living on the outside looking in to everything #it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith #it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally #the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church #when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with #wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was #YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for something…. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away #and the thing is I don’t necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone)#but honestly it’s just the environment they grew up in too… like I’m 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life #but won’t get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it #which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didn’t need to #^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop #sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma #yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse #sure I’ll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? it’s 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while I’m dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past #please don’t get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I don’t blame them - they did their best #it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didn’t grow up in the church or in a super religious family #I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help

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craycraybluejay · 3 months

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i should get more method by smoking more weed + remembering the million times i got too fucked up and thought i was going to die or just very but not too fucked up and how it felt in the moment. the confusion, weird fixations, wack visuals, nausea, dissassociation, shame, real and vivid fear of death.

i can tell y'all i have had someone make active attempts on my life but there is no death as frightening as the idea of dying in a puddle of puke and other bodily fluids feeling so disoriented and so much physical pain and discomfort that you'd pay a million dollars to crawl directly out of your body. there's easier OD concepts to stomach like one depressants but the concept of dying on a psychedelic or an upper or even a stimulating dissociative is terrifying. or dying from contaminants which injure you a lot more than whatever you were meaning to take ever could.

i want to write angel having a seizure the way i did. i want to write him compulsively adding different substances because just the one isn't enough. i want to torture this lil guy as he tries and fails to save himself :3

#as i always say please test your drugs im begging you #delete later #getting too personal up in here #but fr the world of serious substance use is a crazy place to even visit let alone live in #the entirety of reality just does not work the same way #its beautiful and scary and you dont want to become a permanent resident there #but its a lot like toxic relationships and maladaptivelt returning to them over and over #i want to parallel angel's drug abuse with his relationship to valentino #because even if you OD or have some kind of serious problem from it or get spiked with something awful #chances are you will always have that curiosity and urge to try again. try more. different new novel fun #bc even when it feels like hell its a unique hell. and more importantly its not your life anymore #no worries about being abused or homeless or very sick if the drugs bring a whole new hell #sometimes when you almost die you just get grateful it wasnt the real world that almost killed you #sometimes when youve looked in the void you laugh at how ridiculous your pain and grief and life is #its all stupid! none of it matters! we are all going to die and your exit card from the real world is in a box of mints #idk. sometimes a drug is an enhancer of reality and sometimes a different reality altogether. a lot of the experience depends on why you #take it. if you get high socially youre going to lean into related effects more heavily. if you do it to escape or explore thats what youll #get. ive never had the level of Problem Angel does but I Get It. i get why #im too broke to sustain a Problem of that nature lmao. like ok if i spend all my money i can lose my mind for a week #then ill be withdrawing and hungover from 20 diff things and penniless. no ty #however i will rarely say no to sharesies ill suck ya dick for my DOC 👍#JOKING. ish

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dirt-str1der · 1 year

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How do you think majima hit his ex wife ? Do you think he did it like kiryu slapped haruka , he whapped his hand over her cheek like a reflex, without even thinking. Do you think he revved up for a backhand during an argument, or maybe he grabbed her by the shoulders and straight up threw her to the ground while she was at her most vulnerable and then he walked out the door and never looked back

#Yakuza loveblog #we dont give majima enough shit for hitting mirei but she seems so wistful when she was talking aboht it #mirei is .. shes like haruka but not because when something terrible happens to haruka she files that emotion away and keeps trucking on wit #her angellic smile but when mireis going through a lot she shuts down and she gets that blank expression a lot more like majima does ..#maybe he got that from her ?? i think she got the abortion and went home to tell majima about it. all the while that blank look plastered on #her face and she tells him that she was pregnant and before he could have any resction to that news she tells him she got rid of it #and majima is shocked he looks at her face and he gets mad it looks like she doesnt give a shit. she didnt even tell him she didnt even #trust him and he shoves her to the floor he’d yelled at her for a reason he cant even remember now and she looks at him without any emotion #and he figures it out. that she was right not to trust him because hes like This. and she doesnt love him because hes like this so he walks #away knowing he doesnt deserve anything from her because she was hurting and he could only make it worse. and maybe he cried a bit over her #had a few angry tears at some bar but she never shed a tear over him because thats just not who she is #she recounts the story to haruka with a blank expression and a slow #calm voice that betrays no emotion ... she really loved majima that much was obvious .. neither of them had been really ready for a #relationship but i believed they did love each other they just didnt know how to deal with two things at once

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richardxoliverxmayhew · 1 year

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Send me a 🌈 and I’ll discuss the chemistry of our muses: ACCEPTING

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//Richard and Eric in our Angel!AU (but I would also argue most of our AUs wherein the two are besties) are the walking definition of Two, Single-Braincelled Idiots. Seriously, these two just toss the braincell back and forth to one another, like its a hot potato, until one of them eventually drops it, and the two of them have to grope round for it before accidentally smacking their heads against one another. Despite that, I feel like that's what makes their chemistry not only SO entertaining, but endearing. Like, here are these two dummies who-- although they get pulled into trouble together-- feel more lost when apart from one another; and despite all the scrapes they get into the two always manage to pull-through. I think their chemistry is also very endearing because even if the two end up disagreeing or getting into angsty arguments with one another, there's this built-in loyalty and sense of protection for one another which causes them to stick by the other to the bitter end. They're just like, "yeah you're being a pain in the arse right now... But I'll be damned if I leave you...." I also how love in-sync these two are. Seriously, its amazing how one of them knows what the other is thinking just by a look. They truly are the most Butch Cassidy and the Sundance duo out there.

In general, I always felt like Richard and Eric have bypassed merely being friends or even best friends with one another, (hell I feel like their friendship even bypasses Richard looking up to Eric as something of a father-figure, or even mentor in the Angel!AU). At this point, they are brothers. They just MUST be. Not brothers by blood, but brothers tied by heart and soul, and I think that might be even more powerful than being bound by blood. //

#dontcxckitup #ericbrandonrp #the warrior and the fallen angel;#//hgjkdshkj thank u for thisssss!!!//#//look it doesnt matter how many years pass. I will never-- and i repeat NEVER-- get tired of writing//#//and gushing over our two dummies <3//#//oh i also forgot to add how they are also like an old married couple at times too xD//#answered ask;

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