#writeonworld

[devinetheory-2]

I'm sorry I'm not sorry

I couldn't just be

Their stress-free

deprivation box.

Shameless thoughts

I've faded off

Because my chaos threatens

to break their safety locks.

And I'm taking off

Ignoring the fake

Aim take the safety off

And I haven't found an answer

To the pain yet

Exhausted

Writing rain checks

To the process

of my brain health

Try to get Enlightenment

Life is just

an insane train wreck

And I don't know how

to fight the shit

So I sit back

with a 6 pack

And use the fire inside

That keeps me alive

To light my spliff

Which chain reacts

to ignite my gift

Wondering how much longer

I can live life like this

And I can't help but wanna be more

But I am armed c4

On the ledge

on the 17th floor

Looking down at her ghost

Is it me or does it seem

That she needs more

Worrying about me

Has never been

About me before

Lost within her dream

Somehow took a detour

I am not peace...or

Release or

The power of belief

But I tried to believe

I could be yours.

The forth horse cometh

I can see more

They want to feed me war

180 degrees

I am diseased

To thee core

I am not a king

And you're right

I couldn't agree more

I have my point of view

and I've seen yours

honestly I'm probably

in a little bit of danger

considering my level of anger

And the fact that

I don't even want to be

A - ny - more

I try to be grateful

for my days because

I don't have many more

As shes on stage strumming

my pain with her fingers

As she sings her sirens song

I bring her the detonator

Depression threatening

to arrest me later

Then she calls

And seconds later

it's like she's my respirator

I can feel her angels breath

Head on my chest

The after position

that I love the best

But only when I'm

on my best behavior

The Way she moves

provokes my protective nature

Get aggressive

and you'll be a memory

just seconds later

With no evidence

for the investigator

And no one on earth

Will get to save ya

Then I awaken from the dream

Floating impossibly

The cost is cheap

These thoughts are deep

Come get lost in me

And there are different variations

behind each door

you are a star

and I am of the Earth

and the Moon seems

too high a dream

for me to reach for

But we have pain

and I feel like I love in vain

if I don't bleed yours

I'm not insane

I just bleed more

I feel everything

Intensely

Can't keep up with the beat

Im tired

But too wired to sleep

Defeat

- DT

[mcharoldx]

M.C. Harold is a Pittsburgh based fiction author

I AM BLACK MAMBA: Short Story Series (Summer 2021)

www.iamblackmamba.com

[write-on-world]

Funniest Thing I Heard Today:

"If bisexuals have a parade, does it go both ways?"

[devinetheory-2]

Eternal flame lit

I tried to save it

Then my face went

Flat on the pavement

And I'm supposed to worry about

her heartbreak-in

I guess she never knew

about the days spent

emaciated

opium Haze bent

taking out my rage

on somebody else today

Her ghost won't stay away

So I keep the sage lit

I barely got away

She's happy she got away with

Angry and dangerous today

And I just wanna break shit

I thought I was safe

She thought I was a game

I was looking for love

Not trying to be played with

feeling like nothing has changed

cuz nobody's changed it

So I find myself idle in the same cycle

dealing with the same s***

and I ain't trying to fight

Napoleon Dynamite

running off of the stage quick

I want to close my heart

Because we're still apart

and I can still hear your voice

in my brain from inside my cage

destroying my name

you wanted to die at one time

I wanted keep you alive

You wanted somebody to ride

All the way to a grave

I wanted us to escape it

We are not the same

another victim of expectation

Shit doesnt even make sense

lost in This Matrix

and in my mind I'm staring ay my grave

as it caves in

standing at Heaven's Gates

thinking.... Damn

I almost didn't make it in

Busy trying to save those

that didnt want to be saved

But noone is there to save him...

Thinking, "Damn that's some insane s***"

Yeah we were supposed to make it

You were Supposed to be

my safe place

but the place I saved

left my page ripped

and the pages I saved your name in,

Can't be replaced

and I'm running out of space

on my broken heart to put tape in

I wanted your heart

you wanted me to be a security blanket

to fall for the fake s***

and if I didn't invite you into my heart

You were going to break it...

DT

[devinetheory-2]

The writing below is from a dear friend

I was victimized by

her riteous heaven dipped

feared respected and revered pen.

Her wand is dark magic

Heavily guarded

tragic semi automatic

emphatic charismatic distraction

She keeps coming back like elastic

I can't help but feel that

the attraction

Between our souls

and our hearts is like magnets.

All you needed was one pen

And I was caught in your dragnet

An addict that won't break the habit

I cant help it

As passion had a chemical reaction

With tragedy

and gave birth to bat shit...

And I loved with everything I had

Back then....

Thank you for being you

Unapologetically savage

And tragicly empathic

Intergalactic rabbit

And I think I'm not afraid

As I am intoxicated by her magic...

And collapse in orgasmic

fantastic compassion

Animalistic

Tender madness

I'll eat you alive

In cannibalistic fashion...

But it always ends

in poetic madness.

As all things do

That are dangerous,

fast and attractive

As I fall into her dream

Wondering what it all means

I fade into the blackness...

- Devine Theory 👆 😁

rayven-interrupted 👇

Nov 10, 2023

He writes me, so indicatively

Perfectly capturing all my tragedies

His pen is the beauty of my insanity

🖤

................................................................................................

She's watched me

descend from calamity

I can't pretend

Im not treading water anymore

Lust, lack of trust

Thick like sand

I've lost the entire world

When it was just in my hands....

I will not survive my own gravity...

And it always comes back to me

I pay for the weight of my mistakes

With these tragedies...

The hitman...

And every bullet fired is actually

Iron blasphemy

Sent from the mouth of God

With unforgiving accuracy

Ceasar watching the ones I loved

With everything in this now

Empty cavity take their justified

Stab at me

Its my own fault

As I dozed off

I chose wrong

And now my soul owes cost

my spirit begins to atrophy...

Standing at the gates of heaven

Hoping they'll have me

And God isn't mad at me

Because somewhere along

this dark and lonely road

Where you have been traveling

With your back to me

I was kinda getting used

to being someone you loved

But changed your act

And threw a toaster

in the bath with me....

(Shocking....)

And within this insantiy

we've lost our humanity

As the demons birthed

of my darkness pull at me

Grabbing me dragging me

Armed with matches and

Cans of gasoline

She tells me that she loves me

Narcissistic vanity

I try to escape its inevitable grasp

But death just rolls her eyes

And laughs at me...

While I'm chased into never

forever by my past

this fight is so old

Her essence now is so cold

And there is no limit to its savagry...

See, I've never felt like I've belonged

To this world of fake magic dreams

Where the REAL ones will die

Leaving holes inside

And their flesh just rots

for the maggots to eat.

And yeah.... She lied,

miserable little harlot star

She'd burn me down

Leaving nothing but scarlet scars

Now ive lost myself again

in this starlit dark

until I would feel like

the wrong one died

Tearing my heart apart

Just saying that

Made trauma that I cant repress

Now I beg for death

Nothing but salty tears

And anguish left

The danger is in the anger

Because I can't release

I might bury my grief

Deep into some strangers chest.

Dont look into my soul

Thats where my flames are kept

Fueled by her games

until my brain resets

Stained by the charred remains

Of regrets and her angry threats

I write about it

And pretend

some of the pain just left...

Don't judge me

This world has made me insane

my Guardian Angels have to be drained

And insanely stressed

Thinking

I should maybe rest

But I keep up the fight

Like my line

cant be pressed

But today

i just remain depressed

A prisoner....

Chained to my regret.

Dont judge me...

I played my best

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

And in her darkness

I found the light

And within my weakness

I found the courage

Somehow to fight

As the warrior within me

Screams loud inside

I can't stand the way they lie

Existential visions

interdimensional wisdom

I can see thru your prism

with my third eye

Desensitized

Luckily I forget how to cry

Carry on live

With ever lasting energy

Yet lacking symmetry

Crash chemistry

My passion limits me

She says I love you

But it just doesn't sound right

Life is a constant battle for self

So I'm always wound tight

Vampire's are all around

ominously searching

For a sound bite

Unfortunately

I just don't know how to die

Her engineering is impeccable

Yet threatens to finish me

No Self control

I find that

My own soul is the enemy

And nothing is as it seems

At least not

what it pretends to be

Offended by their ministry

Yet still in search of divinity

Feet in the sand

Heart on my sleeve

Head in the clouds

wishing this Darkness would leave

Traveling against

the current of the crowd

As my sanity

slowly parts from me

Blessed but stressed out

And I dare not start to speak

lest my heart start to bleed

splatter on the page

Its ok my pain is all art to me

Uncharted

attempting to protect

and somehow resurrect

all the Lost parts of me

The fire burns different

When you know

you could have done better

but didn't

So many times we've died inside

sacrificing this life of mine

for the sake of somebody else to live it

Resentments turned me cold inside

another casualty

of another attempt at commitment

How much pain

how insane must I be made

How many "mistakes" does it take

for me to finally get it?

Check my pulse for me,

or just hold me closely

before I Impulsively

make another attempt to forget  it.

I'm not living well

Throw quarters in my wishing well

Some Wishing I fell

deep in a prison cell

waiting for medication

reservations in hell waiting

mental health fading

cradle to the grave quick

like rooftops to pavement

so impatient

and she couldn't be the glue

that holds my broken heart together

so she was gonna break it....

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

Stars fall from the heaven

I kept in my sky

I Let it rain

tear drops stain

the window pane

from the pain that I hide

And the light starts to fade

behind my eyes...

It's insane

how fast time flies

Liquid rage

Cyanide Lies

fill my page

As I kill time

Tired inside

Feeling aged

A villain

Still enslaved

I fill this cage

I built from rage

Iron fireflies

As I wonder

is she still mine

Her ghost haunts my page

Exotic on the stage

Exorcize the demons

in my mind

Burn the sage

As I turn the page

before the stress inside

Becomes weaponized

And in seconds I

Release all the madness

I've kept inside

And after this disaster

Noone is left behind

To clean up

this mess of mine

And I've become

Dangerously numb

And unprotected

Unrecognized

In record time

-Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

Starstruck Lover

Everything you are to me

Just to make you smile

I would reach into the Heavens

And grab every star you see

And rearrange them in a way that spells the words "Forever 'heart' you and me"

You are the light when I'm not right

And the futures too dark to see

You are the soft skin on my hard scars

You are the better part of me

The other half

of my wounded heart

My muse My artistry

And the bars

that guard the parts of me

that are just too dark to see

You are the motivation

to reach my dreams

When they seem

too far to reach

I'll love you forever

You make me better

From every scar you see

Thru every lesson

Until the reaper of death

Comes to collect

And trust I'll fight that

Until my very last breath

Until you're convinced

And start to believe

That every perfect imperfection

You think you have

Is just like art to me....

- Devine Theory

@lyrical-enchantress-69

[devinetheory-2]

Her psalms take flight in me

She has absolutely no idea....

I confide in her

Silently.

Reminded of a bond

formed at twilight

after decoding the lines

from her minds

diary,

like interviewing a vampire

Her eyes like...

tiny

Hungry

campfires

that shine on me.

She carves her story

through the landscape of my mind

Tirelessly...

Somewhere inside

she desires

A love so strong

it could break the ties

that bind her

and reverse the spell

that's designed

the very fabric of a mind

that she doesn't realize

inspires me...

Indecisively

and sometimes violently

Casting shadows on the light

That used to shine so vibrantly

Illuminating Deep

into my leviathan

where hope

and childlike wonder

was once alive in me...

I used to dream

the dream of kings

Of a queen

that would breathe me back to life

letting the fire

she ignited in my mind

attempt to purify me

while I sleep

and I would survive

and be renewed entirely...

And I would awaken

In spite of all the times

I didn't see a way out alive

and maybe didn't want to die

But wanted a better life

In spite of all

I've ever tried to be...

And everyone

that's ever

lied to me...

And all the hurt and pain

From all the mistakes

I've ever made

from just trying to maintain

would die...

expiring delightfully

And finally

I could sigh relief

Footsteps down a dark hallway

Echoing melancholy

Seeds of anger

And oh Ive been suffering

from mental realness

Bleed your passion

Dont conceal it...

But stop giving it for free..

...Promise me

And I'm not promising that

You'll thank me later

As we're waltzing around

In my mind

Until the time

I return to my cryogenic chamber

Frozen tidal waves

Of Psilocybin danger

Wanna know

how I got these scaaars?.... (Joker Voice)

....I tried to tame her...

Thrilled

when I'm in danger

Uncomfortable and undone

Because I'm safer.

Get in my rocket

Let's make love in the cockpit

And then war

just because it's toxic...

Oh... how I miss the Chaotic

Hide from my fears

Living a nightmare

I'd pay top stock

to stop quick

Familiar but obnoxious

Illegitimate process

God's Prophet

With a God complex

Unshakable feeling

That im gonna drop next

Stressed tf out

cuz I can't show

reasonable progress

And I can't read the lick

And I keep getting hit

Cuz nobody is honest...

Hustle harder listen more

and talk less

Professional help

With an ominous context

and you want more content...

But I am but a victim

indifferent to stop it.

I don't architect this shit

You're reading my vomit

As the demons that hunted

me so feverishly

with bloodlust passion

And no plans to stop

Rush thru my door

Because I invited you in...

And you forgot to lock it....

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

Our eyes meet

and it seems

like forever between

Heartbeats

I needed

Something to Believe In

Instead I was hit hard

And left barely breathing

So much pain

From the face of an Angel

body of a demon

Thinking I was blessed

but now I'm just stressed out

deceived again

Scarred deep

reaching out for a star

That always seems

just out of our reach ....

...and she loves me,

or I wish she did..

hands on her hips

and I can taste the lies

on her lips again

she was never mine

so many times

so many instances ...

I'm not safe

and it's created

so many distances.

I've died inside

so many times

no longer interested

All the lines

down my wrist

from the missed attempts

but she loves me

and I'm convinced of it...

I'm scarred deep

probably why I hardly sleep

probably going to hell

from all the shit we did

all the fights

and long nights

and senseless s***

all the places we saved up

when the world had plans

to break us

Lies spit

trying to get

us to break up

all the times

we made up

And all the places we made love

fell down on our knees

praying for God

To save us

or just make a way

away from a grave

Any escape from the pain

That made us

Grateful for the opportunities

God gave us

but we were Relentless with it

Incidents I didn't start

But had the heart to finish

when I said I loved you

I meant it

I hope it lasts forever

never diminishes

loneliness is hell

and leaves you limited

And unforgiven

I know

I been living in it....

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

You

your rhythmic

Bliss

Midnites kiss

A freshly cut scar

On a soft pale wrist.

A misuduction

A chemical plug in

A pool of lies

I can't wait to jump in

A short story

About a fools paradice

Of loyal subjects

And an endless budget

...I can't wait to plunge in

A colder storm

On a cold winters night

After the promise

Of a summer

that never comes in.

Sealed by a kiss

from the sun

But the evils done

Another illegal run

And it all falls down

Past the lines on her face

And It seems we've all been

Runnin from something

Blind but somehow

I seem to find my place

But I let no one in...

But I am but a broken me

And I will never have all of her

Because broken men

Can only have broken things...

Her, the last hope

An open vein

Doomed to be scattered over

the ocean sea

At the twilight

In the shadow of the sun

On the dark side of the moon

So they both can see

Releasing her magnetic

Hold on me

Increase the dosage

To maximum potency

Anytime she gets close to me

I want to open her poetry

thoroughly and totally

soak in her soul

And inner rythm

Matching her live essence

With my Mental vision

And Let it all go

Like my ashes

From my past lives

In the ocean breeze

Feed emotionally

Well and long after

They have taken

over me

Relapsing from

the sober me

Screaming from my toes

At the broken me

until there is no more

Passion left to show vocally

Hells angels

Burned deep into the snow

As she shakes violently

and uncontrollably

She doesn't know

but she makes my knees

and my shoulders weak

And I get so high

come float with me

It's not necessary

but that's how it's supposed to be

honestly I just want to make sure

that she never forgets

and knows it's me

holding me ever so close

love like this doesn't exist

supposedly

So much affection

Solar plexus

No direction

This love is dangerously hers

There will be no exceptions

Off into celestrial Wilderness

with no directions

no expectation

to ever make it back

to the same place

it's no vacation and there's no protection

she's found a way in to my home

And has left her scent

On everything that I love in my soul

and I can do nothing

But fold.

- Devine Theory

[mcharoldx]

Short Story Series, Summer 2021: www.iamblackmamba.com

[mcharoldx]

Word Of The Day

Palimpsest (noun)

A manuscript or piece of writing material on which the original writing has been effaced to make room for later writing but of which traces remain. MC first read this word in Margret Atwood’s, “ Chapter 1″ Handmaids Tale. Atwood writes, “Dances would have been held there; the music lingered, a palimpsest of unheard sound, style upon style, and undercurrent of drums, a forlorn wail, garlands made of tissue-paper flowers, cardboard devils, a revolving ball of mirrors, powdering the dancers with a snow of light.

[mcharoldx]

Art of Invention

June 24, 2020

#1 Lesson From Polti On Character Development

“All life is movement; all movement is observed from the point of view of relative immobility, of a repetition, of identity rediscovered here and there in the moving stream...” (Polti, George. “The Art of Inventing Characters,” page 166). 

[devinetheory-2]

Who am I?

How have I survived this long

without knowing my identity?

Driven, without purpose...

Forgiven ...

But only on the surface.

In search of serenity.

How do you live for your future

Without giving in

while being haunted

by your unforgiven sins

and her memory

I Yurn for Her chemistry

Burned imagery.

Soft skin,

curved symmetry.

Lost words between heartbeats

Its a dark world

where my scars meet

You love me?

Then remember me

Infinitely,

Thru my strengths

and your weaknesses

until the end of things

When noones watching

And im not in your vacinity

Even when im in your dreams

You Stole my heart

You Hold my soul

I Seemingly have no control

But i know...

You been a thief...its ok

Until your Nightmares

give you away

You been talking in your sleep

And you know me

I been listening

You know I know if its real

Because you cant conceal

Your energy

You are my poison

You are my remedy

one love one body

one mind

One fight

Whether you're wrong or right

No intentions of surrendering

Later that night

touching you softly

Loving you is costly

Now fkn get off me

If youre intent is

to injure me

I been on a mission

in the front line

Do me wrong

Gone after 1 time

Ill have the homies

Pour out liqour

In your memory

Im in the fight for my life

And I am the 1st infantry

I am the wraith

I am the ghost

I am your faith

I am your hope

I am everything

That "THEY" pretend to be...

I didn't have to go down that road with you...

I did more than "just stay"

- Devine Theory