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Pile 1

**This could also resonate with you if you have: Cancer, Leo, Pisces, Aquarius, Taurus, Scorpio placements

Who are they?

Your person seems to be someone from your past, with whom you already had a relationship with and it didn’t really work out. They definitely seem to be someone who right now, is only present in your life in your memory and you might be daydreaming about them especially if this relationship has ended recently, or they may not be fully in your life, being a bit in and out. If it hasn’t ended recently, they made an impact on you and you definitely would like to give it another shot with them because you still feel a lot of love for them in your heart. This person is someone who has worked really hard to balance their feelings with their intellectual side, maybe when the two of you met in the past they weren’t really good at it because this has definitely been quite a long and slow moving journey for them. it feels as though maybe you were somewhat ahead of them and the incompatibilities were too high at that time. Now they seem to be on your level from that perspective. They have been working on themselves, slowly, and they’ve reached a point in which they are able to find a really beautiful harmony between mind, body and spirit, which is actually making them be more prepared for a relationship. They could’ve been incredibly held back, even being extremely gullible and other people might’ve made them believe various different things about themselves and the relationship with you, which wasn’t the best for a connection. They now can say about themselves that they are well balanced, able to set goals for themselves and go after them and a better team player than they were before, especially because they got used to a life in which it was only just them, one in which they were only thinking about themselves, which limited them in the way they were showing up in a relationship and working as a team with you.

How are they going to show up in your life? (relationship skills and obstacles they need to overcome)

They seem to still have a lot of things to overcome, even with all the progress that they have made from when the two of you decided to go your separate ways, but the difference here is that they found their inner strength and they are better equipped to deal with the obstacles that life and relationships bring them. I would definitely say that when it comes to relationship skills, they are definitely able to be compassionate towards you and actually understand where you are coming from, making them more likely to actively listen and compromise with you so that the both of you feel safe in the relationship. They have taken back control over their ego and it’s not really the main thing that runs the show anymore, so now they’ve expanded their capacity to show and receive love in a really sweet manner that they weren’t really able to do before. This is probably one of their best relationship qualities beside the strength that they have to fight for you and for the relationship no matter what anyone else says or thinks. Once they’ve chosen their partner, they are definitely the type who will prioritize the well being of their partner and of the relationship before anything else, as they are looking for success and they have come a long way, facing many challenges to learn how to be a good partner. They’ve come from a really sad past, they probably have lost a lot of things in life and there was definitely sadness when the two of you decided to call it quits, they might’ve blamed themselves and feel as though it was their fault because they weren’t good enough and it was like a war in their heads, going back and forth, being their worst enemy because they do like to feel connected to someone and have a romantic relationship that brings them joy. So they took their weaknesses, they took their own self-judgements and they transformed those into strength that helped them become better. Thing is, I don’t believe that this person has had another significant or important relationship to actually practice these skills and so they might be a bit clumsy at times in their relationship with you, so they might be learning how to actually apply them in a relationship with you. The obstacle here is literally not knowing how to properly adapt in a relationship to that flexible extent, they might take a while to practice to be able to reach a more proficient approach and show up the way they envisioned for themselves.

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Pile 2

**This could also resonate with you if you have: Pisces, Libra, Scorpio, Aries, Sagittarius, Aquarius placements

Who are they?

Your person is definitely someone who’s loving and kind, they definitely seem to be the ones who have a really good heart, ready to give, ready to embrace love and offer it in a really sweet way and they totally do want to get married/be in a relationship and have that long-term commitment with someone. The issue here is that even though this person has a golden heart, the might’ve been taken advantage of it and they turned out to have quite a few self-defense mechanisms that you would need to get past before actually seeing the true them. It’s not that this person is actually testing you in any way, they just are extremely careful about the way they move into the world to be able to push aside anyone who doesn’t have genuine intentions towards them. That means that they take a lot of time to open up and at first you might see them as being indecisive, not knowing what they want or need, and kind of not moving the right way in a relationship because they are still testing the waters. You might see that this is actually out of their element in some way, the way these vibes fall onto them is just now who they really are and somehow, you will actually manage to see beyond this and expect or wait for more from them. They will do a lot to protect their own hearts, always being defensive of the most previous and sensitive parts of their being and they won’t reveal their true self all at once because that approach has hurt them in the past. They might feel extremely inadequate as well, especially having dealt with people with ill intentions, and they might feel as though there is no one genuine in the world, that they have to pretend they are someone they’re not just to protect themselves and they don’t think that’s the right approach, but that they have to do it anyways because if they don’t, they’re going to get hurt again. Once these layers of protection fall bit by bit, you’re going to see a new, adventurous and playful side of them, one that actually has a lot of hope and love to give. They’re extremely loyal, especially to those who are closest to them and want to explore life by their side.

How are they going to show up in your life? (relationship skills and obstacles they need to overcome)

When it comes to how they’re going to show up in your life, there’s definitely a lot of insecurity and pain that will come through here, because they doubt themselves a lot. You can see that this person is someone who’s able to create a safe space for you to be fully yourself, one in which you feel loved and cared for, them being your biggest support system with anything you may need help with, especially mental health wise, they’ve been through a lot so they know a lot and they know how to handle different situations and be the person they never had for others. They are also incredibly good at understanding their emotions, for seeing things as they are and honestly, they are also extremely self aware, able to accept the truth about themselves and no run away from it no matter how harsh it might seem, but they’re still at a crossroads now, trying to get out of being the person they’ve been, with defense mechanisms, overthinking, over giving, over working, being at a distance from themselves and not being able to truly find themselves, to actually becoming something new. They have a lot of great things about themselves that they’ve forgotten about all this time because they were so stuck in being someone they were not due to their experiences. Now, in the relationship, they need to overcome a lot of obstacles and that might create more obstacles in the relationship, on your side of it as well. You may or may not be equipped to deal with their baggage, as it seems to be a lot to handle from their side and it might feel that when the two of you make progress towards being closer to one another, something happens and the progress you made is null. There are a lot of cycles on their end that are challenging and making the relationship difficult to maintain long term, because they have lost themselves and you might not fully see their actual sweet side for a while. They might give you bits and pieces here, but they’re not allowing themselves to be who they are out of fear, which is definitely going to make you think that they don’t have the bestest intentions towards you and that they’re just playing games. They will try their hardest to make you happy, but that’s going to cause stress for them, maybe even being paranoid most of the times and not believe in themselves that they can do this. They don’t want to disappoint you but they are a bit buried under the pile of behaviors that have helped them to keep on going. Change might be on the horizon though, something might trigger it in this relationship and they will have to make a decision to heal and move on from the old, as you might be nothing like those who took advantage of them. Trust needs to be built here.

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Pile 3

**This could also resonate with you if you have: Libra, Virgo, Leo, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Scorpio placements

Who are they?

Your person is someone who has come a long way in their journey of discovering themselves, especially because they seem to have started off with some beliefs and ideals that you can think your way through life, without feeling it at all. Feels like this person has been seeing life as an adventure, maybe even climbing their way up to where they are right now and things haven’t always been easy for them, especially in the beginning. They were unsure of themselves, unsure of their moves, only being equipped with very little knowledge about life from their caretakers and at times they had to learn the hard way how to deal with the things that came their way. This required them to be equipped with a sense of exploration when it came to the way they were thinking about things and the way they were perceiving them, thus managing to get out of their comfort zone and take risks due to the hunger and curiosity they had for life. Their parents might’ve been protective of them, there is this sense that they were quick thinkers, adventurers and wanting to explore the world, but being limited by the things around them, which has, in fact, never stopped them from going after what they wanted. Though, this has limited them a bit only on exploring the mind and not the heart. This person has matured rapidly, which also is a great example of someone who didn’t have time to learn all the skills necessary to enter the emotional world due to a lack of guidance and a push in a specific direction, so with that, they kept on exploring the mind until they started understanding it in a really elevated way up until they hit a dead end in their exploration which required them to dive deep into their emotions as well. That’s when they understood that it’s not all about what you think, there’s also always feelings involved that can offer as much information, if not more, than what the mind is providing.

How are they going to show up in your life? (relationship skills and obstacles they need to overcome)

In all honesty, you can expect this person to be a little bit passive in the relationship as they are someone who usually introspects and self reflects a lot, rather than taking a really big and confident stand in any relationships. That’s something they still need to learn how to master, though they’re in the process of understanding their own emotions and they’re coming off as passive simply because within themselves, there’s big inner conflicts that keep on going on without ever stopping. They are trying their best to figure things out for themselves, making sure they are successful in anything they learn or acquire but don not expect huge gestures in the beginning from them. The more they explore their emotional world, the more inner conflict they have because they are going through major transformations in how they perceive the world around them and what they believe about various aspects of humanity and relationships in general. When one’s beliefs are being challenged, through various experiences, they’re not in a position in which they can actively respond because what they know to be true is actually crumbling and being replaced by a new one. It’s not that they wouldn’t want to show up in one way or the other, it’s that they are still learning how and while you might see this composed person, in reality, within themselves, they aren’t as composed as they appear. This exploration that they’re still doing is one of their obstacles, something they need to overcome and figure out on their own, but it’s being brought up by your relationship as you have a different approach than what they learned. Their positive side here is that they are open to learning and open to growing so this person is definitely going to want to learn more about how they can be a good partner to you and how they can show up so that you feel loved by them. They’re still new with emotions, but they are quick learners and over time, with their openness, they’re going to be really good with expressing their feelings for you and receiving the love that you’re giving them as well.

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Pile 4

**This could also resonate with you if you have: Scorpio, Aquarius, Gemini, Virgo, Cancer, Aries placements

Who are they?

They are someone who have been looked forward to having a relationship for a really long time. For a very few of you, this is someone who has either been forced to remain single due to religious reasons or to get ready for a pre-arranged marriage that wasn’t going to make them happy/they could also be divorced as well. It feels as though this person wants a good marriage, they want to be married if that is where the relationship leads, though it’s not constantly on their mind because to them, the most important is the journey of getting there and just experiencing and devoting themselves to a long-term commitment. This person could also have some physical disabilities or even struggle with some mental health disorders that to the world, they get to be a bit marginalized or pushed outside, and that’s felt lonely to them for a really long time because they felt as though no one really understands them for who they really are. This person, no matter of their characteristics which might be particular and fit only a few of your situations, they have been working really to be able to identify some things and certain people that are rare and beautiful within and without in the crowd. They’ve been looking for someone to stand out in ways that no one else would notice, only them, because they have sharpened their eye and their energy field to be able to feel who is that person that they have been looking for and so they do tend to trust their instincts pretty much when looking for new people in their life. They’re extremely kind and connected with their emotions, but very quick witted as well all at the same time. They are always changing and improving themselves, wanting to do and be better, especially because they have been treated poorly by others and they believe that change in the world starts with change within oneself. You might be seeing them struggle with an impostor syndrome as well, as they have gone through major negative experiences and they struggle a lot with believing in themselves and their own skills.

How are they going to show up in your life? (relationship skills and obstacles they need to overcome)

When they come into your life, this person is going to definitely come off as stubborn and very subjective in their interactions with you; you might see them projecting a little bit onto you too especially due to the negative romantic experiences they have had before. With this person, it’s full of ups and downs, they might not be in your life for a really long time because they might not be actually the person that you’d like to be with or there is going to be some sort of break up and them coming back later on. It’s definitely going to be a combination of being kind of carless and projecting without thinking of consequences, which is going to cause them even more pain. The world has put a lot of pressure on them and has hurt them a lot, and that is just making them either be careless, not worry too much for too long and continue running away from themselves because they just don’t feel safe enough to remain in a single place. You might be fall for them, you might feel as though this person cares for you, and they do, they just have an extremely bad way of showing it because they’re still hurting and you definitely don’t have to stick around for that if there isn’t an equal exchange of energy between the two of you. It feels as though you’re giving this person what they need, sort of like it’s helping them start addressing and seeing themselves a bit more clearly, but they are in no position of giving back to you, due to being starved from love their entire life but also because you are way out of their league, especially when it comes to emotional maturity and growth. They’re in the process of becoming more mature, but they have a lot more to experience to get there and they don’t seem to be fully in alignment with you. The obstacles that they need to overcome here are created by themselves, they’re just self-sabotaging everything and then feeling hurt that they sabotaged it. They’re still hurting and they can’t fully see past that; it feels as though they are a bit stuck in a dream in which they’re doing everything right for you, in their heads, but when it comes to how they’re actually showing up for you, they seem to distance themselves and pull away, then they don’t understand why you do and say the things you do and say to them. They need more time on their own before actually being ready for something serious.

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Pile 5

**This could also resonate with you if you have: Pisces, Sagittarius, Taurus, Scorpio,Virgo, Gemini placements

Who are they?

This person might be someone who has been stuck in situations in which they might’ve been the third wheel in a lot of situations, either at work, either in their friend group or in another relationship. It’s very likely that their previous partner has taken advantage of them, broke their heart because they wanted to be with someone else, or they have been in a polyamorous relationship in which the parties involved struggled with communication and building trust and safety. It didn’t really end well, but their past has a lot to do with commitment and whether or not that commitment was worth it to them, regardless of their own circumstances. They dedicated themselves to the person they were with and they over extended themselves to make that relationship work, they might’ve went above and beyond and in the end, they just received a really big baggage to carry. This person is still learning how to love themselves and how they can take care of their own needs and wants, they’re sort of in an exploration journey of figuring out what wounds are open, what hurts, what works for them and what doesn’t because they don’t really want to continue on being stuck in the same cycles over and over and over again. They are experiencing a lot of pressure and inner conflict on how to go about this, they don’t really know what to think to this day about what has happened in the past, but they are doing their best to keep going and try to figure it out, hoping that there is a better future waiting for them. They have a great support system, though, it feels like this person doesn’t like to ask for help and they’re only relying on themselves most of the time, which is no making it easier for them to deal with their issues. They might not trust people around them and they’re really independent, as they have learned that they can only trust and rely on themselves to be safe.

How are they going to show up in your life? (relationship skills and obstacles they need to overcome)

As you might’ve expected, this person is still going through a process of transformation that’s most likely going to last for a while so for a few years of you two being in each other’s lives, you might see that they are struggling and that they are in pain, which makes them have a little capacity for the love that they will show you. This doesn’t mean that they won’t do their best to be there for you and take you out and try to work as a team with you, but the extent to which they will do it might not feel your cup fully. They weren’t really looking for a relationship when they met you, but they actually ended up catching feelings for you and having you in their life just gives them hope that the future is going to be okay. Now, their challenges are just their pain, as if they do not properly deal with it, they might unintentionally hurt other people around them, including you, as a result of still being emotionally stuck in that moment in which they felt extremely betrayed. They are still grieving that relationship but most importantly grieving the happy and safe version of themselves that they left behind. They are sinking into this pain, giving into the desperation that they might not be able to figure it out and they certainly struggle with communicating their own pain. It feels as though this person might intellectualize it a lot, if they think about their feelings, they will probably not have to feel them and therefore they will not have to feel their pain, which is just a work around for them wanting to escape that experience and the feelings of pain that they have. They are avoiding it, whether they realize it or not, they are running away from it because they are on survival mode right now and until they learn how to calm their nervous system down, they will keep running away from their own self. This person is incredibly strong and resourceful, though they like to be in an energy of pursuing romantic interests, of being romantic and going on dates, building that relationship slowly. This also means that they usually like to find solutions to issues and they seem frozen right now so they do feel extremely powerless and guilty for now being able to show up in the way you should be treated. They will express their love through acts of service or taking care of you/buying you gifts, so while it may not seem like a lot, especially if that’s not your love language, they are doing it in the ways that feel safe for them. The positives here is the fact that they want to change, they want to do better, and right now they are a work in progress so even if they want to, it will still be on them to actually become who they want to be.

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tarotofzhivamoon · 5 months

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Pile 1

Your person knows that relationships, especially ones that are successful, require consistent and long-term commitment towards making these relationships successful, or in some cases unsuccessful depending on how you look at things; some people have the tendency to remain committed and faithful to beliefs, behaviors, ideas and assumptions that would make a connection most likely fail due to not wanting to change or to compromise for the relationship to work. Either way, your person isn’t the type to lack the willingness to compromise and try to find a middle ground with you so that this connection can be a successful one, they actually do want for the two of you to find that mutual understanding because they have noticed that the both of you tend to make unconscious choices that usually lead to a result that’s opposite to the type of relationship that the two of you want to have. They are seeing this very clearly that in order for this connection to actually fulfill the both of you, there needs to be some level of trust and cooperation that right now doesn’t really exist between the two of you and they’re not really impressed or happy to notice that about your connection because they don’t understand how the two of you have ended up to this type of place even with all the efforts you’ve been putting in to not get here. They kind of feel like their requests and needs aren’t such a big priority to you, that whatever they tell you to do, you simply do it without putting any thought, any genuine effort into it and they would truly love for you to simply take your time to figure out what they love, what they need from you and to actually deliver those things on a regular basis because they feel as though your effort is a bit inconsistent. You might be busy, you may tend to overwork yourself too much and whatever they need from you isn’t at the top of your list, always —

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Pile 2

Your person is kind of sensing and focusing a whole lot of attention on the fact that the two of you have been really only tending towards superficial, surface-level things in your relationship and not really focusing on the feelings, on the genuine connection that the two of you once shared which is creating instability and a sense that security is actually lacking in this connection. They see this and they don’t really know what to do about it because it does bother them to an extent, they would like to go back to actually getting in touch with both of your emotions and show up from a loving place rather than being so overly focused on things that don’t really matter. They’re not really being judgmental of it, they’re looking at it through loving and compassionate lenses because this person seems to be really in tune with what is going on in the relationship, with the feelings that are present for them and for you and honestly this person has come to the conclusion that the both of you actually might be obsessing over imaginary fears, of what may happen to this connection, on what you might say to them or them to you, it’s always been things that aren’t real or that only happened and took place to that extent in your heads, and that’s causing a whole lot of issues in this relationship. They’re kind of waking up to their own patterns and yours as well and they are viewing what’s going on right now as an opportunity for the two of you to revisit things that happened in the past so that you can continue on growing together and move past the things that have been addressed. This person might also seek redemption of some sort in your life, especially if they have wronged you, they don’t feel really happy about that; for a lot of you, you might —

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tarotofzhivamoon · 5 months

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Pile 1

You could be dealing with a Capricorn, Aquarius, Leo, Scorpio, Taurus, or for more specific placements they could have Mars in Gemini/Aries/Leo, Venus in Aquarius, strong fire placements as well. This person seems to be over playing games, they kind of come across as sure of themselves and of their decision regarding you and your connection and they’re kind of tired of continuing on entertaining the dynamics that have been playing out for so long in your connection. It seems as though they want the both of you to be able to turn away from looking at things from the lenses of anxiety and bring in more compassion and understanding towards your unhealthy behaviors and shadow self. They seem to be understanding very well the fact that there are some things that both of you are struggling with, maybe it’s about negative coping mechanisms, negative behavior, issues in communication due to overthinking and misunderstandings but they are starting to realize that fighting more with each other or against accepting those negative patterns isn’t going to bring in the change that the both of you need in this relationship so that it could become stronger. It’s more so coming to the conclusion that both of your perceptions of the current situation is kind of adding and enlarging the issues that the two of you are facing and it could also be the way that the two of you deal with these issues, the actions that you both are taking seem to be a little bit against what the two of you actually want to do. This person is starting to accept the fact that some of the things that they said and done might’ve actually caused you pain, they might’ve hurt you even if when they said it they really didn’t mean any harm. There’s always been a battle and an up and down between choosing to act from love and choosing to act from fears and insecurities, never really one being it, one being the go-to place from which actions are being taken, words are being said and the two of you have based a lot of your responses on either or, but mostly it was anxiety. Your —

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Pile 2

You could be dealing with a Capricorn, Aries, Aquarius, Gemini, Taurus, Scorpio and more specifically they could have Venus in Virgo, Jupiter in Libra/Pisces and Moon in Sagittarius. This person might be feeling as though you’re being unfair towards them, that you might be accusing or blaming them of things that aren’t really true or that you are also guilty of and this approach of trying to assign blame and not taking accountability is just a way of causing more harm in this relationship than what you’re both comfortable or intending to cause. It might also be a way for the two of you to simply avoid talking about your real feelings. It’s so easy to blame, to point fingers, to be defensive in conversations or even when conflicts arise between the two of you, but if you look at the moments in which you’re truly having those conversations to solve something, you may see that there’s a whole lot of mechanisms that appear as a way of shifting the conversation to something completely unrelated to the feelings that you are feeling within yourselves. You might end up pointing fingers at each other, trying to figure out who’s at fault for whatever is happening in your connection when the both of you are participating in creating this dynamic and it’s not just one person or the other being ‘the problem’; this all shifts the conversations from what you really should be talking about which are feelings of insecurity, of being afraid of something happening in the relationship, of feeling like your effort isn’t being appreciated, to not feeling seen, heard and understood and instead it just turns into a really stingy conversation in which nothing is really resolved. This person is looking at the dynamics of the relationship and they’re not seeing their investment of time, affection, attention and effort being reciprocated by you, they might think that they’re giving way more than they’re actually receiving and it seems as though what they want from you isn’t what they’re really showing or telling you in this connection. They —

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tarotofzhivamoon · 5 months

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Pile 1

Your person is really speaking a whole lot without taking your feelings into their account, it’s almost like they’re distorting the evidence that is in front of them, the one that you are sharing with them and they’re turning it all around to make it all about you and nothing really about them. They just simply aren’t fulfilled within, they might be burdened or overwhelmed by something, kind of making it a habit of overextending themselves here and there without really understanding their levels of energy and what they can actually give vs what they give. It seems like they’re pouring it all out on you, they’re exhausted mentally and emotionally, they don’t know what else to do and you are the closest one to them that can actually take ‘their punches’, it’s kind of like they feel as though that they truly do not have the energy on working on this relationship right now and instead of stating that, they are saying that they are able to, that they want to, when in reality they don’t have the energy needed due to their poor choices. Your person craves a deeper intimacy with you, their commitment towards you is actually really secure and they are very serious about you, are loyal and they want to love you the way that you deserve but their ego seems to be getting in the way a little bit. It’s a challenging time both for them and for your relationship, they want to discontinue this habit of theirs to actually overextend themselves and invest into what they find meaningful and what’s bringing them happiness, but they feel like they are being pushed away from you, the only place in which they actually feel comfortable and safe, and that’s taking away all of their sense of stability and security. This isn’t some sort of dependence on you emotionally, it’s just that the relationship this person has —

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Your person would like to tell you that they know you are healing and they know that they are also healing, trying to move past the pain that you’ve been through, the things that have been said or done because they really can not stand the two of you being so apart from each other emotionally. They are trying to actually understand the setbacks in this relationship so that they can figure out the best solution possible and they would really want to be able to convey to you how hard they’re trying, but they’re saying nothing about it or very very little. They’ve been very absorbed within themselves, looking at their world, their inner world, trying to reflect, shutting the door onto the outside world and maybe even on you. Even if you’re knocking at their door, they’re not really opening it up even if they are hearing you because the mistakes that have happened have made them feel like they’ve been failing the connection, they might’ve even felt rejected by seeing this distance between the two of you and these changes that have been happening in your connection have truly been emotionally and mentally debilitating for them. They want to let you in but they don’t have an answer, they need to go within, but they’re not really telling you this because they’re afraid you won’t really let them have their space or that you would think something they don’t really mean from them taking this space so they are detaching without saying a word, without asking, thinking that is the best solution right now. To you it seems like every effort that you put into this connection isn’t seen, isn’t really wanted or accepted and you want it to be equal, you want the both of you to actually put in more effort for this relationship, but they truly need this space to regroup themselves right now. It’s almost like it’s a lingering, slow detachment, they’re not willing to come through and communicate openly and honestly about what’s going on in the connection right now because even if they want to, they really don’t —

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It took us a while to fall in love, to let each other open up to this possibility that maybe we are meant to be together because old habits kept coming back, they kept influencing our ability to open our hearts and they hindered this beautiful fresh start of a new beginning for us, as we came into this with suspicious and cautious eyes. I must say I lacked experience in relationships, it took me a while to understand how I am supposed to show up for you, how to actually be able to make you part of my routine, but it’s all so clear now that I can push past the limitations of my past. My heart is open to you, it is open to love and inside of me there’s a constellation of feelings that I feel for you because you just bring out the best in me, a part of me that I never really knew existed. I have tried to hide behind the shadows of my defense mechanisms, of every behavior, thought and action that I took with the idea that I needed to take care of myself and preserve who I was in case someone else wanted to conquer me, take everything and leave me with nothing but with you all of my defenses dropped. I can’t think clearly when you’re around, I can’t even describe the things I am feeling when your soft skin touches mine but I know that I am surrendering to you; you can have all of me, you can take over everything I am because I completely trust in you that you do not want to change me, I trust that you love me just for who I am and that whatever you’ll take, whatever I will give you, you will also give back to me so that both of us can grow beautiful gardens within us that are watered by our gentle, pure love. I want everything with you, I want to see the end of my days next to you, I want to start my mornings and end my nights with you here, with a kiss, a touch, a smile and other tokens that symbolize the absolute love we have for each other.

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I have walked alone for years and years, always leaving parts of me everywhere I went, something that people could remember me by or it maybe was because I had lost so much of myself in that relationship of place that I didn’t know what was mine to take. I have always been one to want this world to become a more loving place for everyone, I understood and observed others, saw their pain and I took it on me to the be the person that is always there for them because I thought they needed me, even though I was also hurting on the inside and no one actually really saw me. I didn’t want to fall in love ever again, I wanted to be on my own because I felt that I had a bubble of protection around me that no one would be able to break if I didn’t let them get too close to me, I just didn’t want to surrender to such a powerful, yet possibly extremely hurtful experience if it wasn’t meant to work out; I didn’t want to take that change at being heartbroken anymore because I felt like if it happened it would have turned me into this cold hearted monster that had no empathy, no understanding and no love to give, only madness at a world that seemed to be against me and never showed me the love that I needed and wanted in return. I have been in my own world, my own safe space, like a little scared rabbit I would hop in and out of relationships and places the moment I started to feel vulnerable and threatened, nobody was really able to catch me and to show me the love, show me the way back towards a part of me that I actually lost in the process of trying to protect my heart. You were able to make me want to stay next to you because you have been so gentle with my heart, you have actually a better understanding than me about the things that I was going through because you’ve been through similar experiences but you still turned out differently, those experiences actually transformed you into being even kinder, even more loving and your energy has showed me the way back to myself.

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I threw logic out of the window with you, I didn’t need it and I don’t think I will ever need it because I knew that I needed to let my heart guide me to you and guide me with my relationship with you. I manifested you, I spent entire days thinking about you and wanting you to find your way into my life so that I could experience this type of psychedelic love with you, one that lifts me up to the sky on soft clouds and makes me feel lighter than ever, like I have no other worry in the world. Your love is spiritual, I do think and feel as though you have a spiritual purpose in my life, this romance isn’t simply practical, it isn’t a simple “this is what I need to do, this person is good for me”, it’s more than that, it’s deeper and besides that feeling that you are the one for me, there is something that doesn’t really make sense. And it’s beautiful that it doesn’t make sense, because we are nothing alike, we see the world differently, but we want the same thing which is love and growth. My prayer has been answered when you came into my life, romance found its way into my life in the most elevating way and I knew right from the start that I was going to marry you because it was the only path our connection had as an option. I’m here to work hard for you, I’m here to work hard for our relationship because I know that the effort I put in matters and I know that it makes a difference towards actually achieving the beautiful things that we both want out of this connection. I know that both of us are going to be successful because everything we need is right in our hands. I know that sometimes these feelings can get overwhelming and sometimes too much, even if it is love, can do great harm if it transforms into smothering and being too present, I am guilty of that, I’m guilty of wanting to spend all of my time with you, guilty of doing everything with you but I also know that we should maintain this sense of independence for us to be able to do things outside of the relationship too because it’s healthy.

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It seems like the two of you, as per your current situation, are still influenced by some lingering effects of your past challenges within the connection which could range from not feeling enough, not receiving enough, being insecure, fearful of what’s to come and what could happen. Even though those challenges are behind you, they are still impacting you on a mental and emotional level and it’s almost like whenever you get too deep into what has happened in the past, you feel or go through it all over again. You seem to be holding onto those past hardships tightly, even if you honestly don’t really want to, and they are causing even more stress, pain and not allowing the two of you to be open towards each other as much as they are causing so much friction and insecurity within your connection. It’s that type of situation in which you’re kind of afraid of history repeating itself and the human mind has a really amazing ability to store past experiences and actually barely releasing them just in case it happens again. We think that if we hold onto the anger, onto that fear, onto whatever feelings we’ve felt in those moments of high stress and tension, we’re going to prevent it from happening, but, in reality, that is not the case because it doesn’t allow us to move towards the next step, which is letting it go and actually start the healing process. There are doubts here, based on those experiences as well, which is causing a lot of emotional exhaustion and neither of you actually have enough energy to spare towards perseverance and resilience that are needed towards facing future challenges that may arise. It almost feels like if one issue arises in the present moment, it brings up all the other past issues that you have been through and you think you have let go and moved on from; think of it in the way of when you turn on your computer and it’s all taking some time to load, you click on the browser you want to dozens of times because you want it to open and start doing what you were planning to do, it still takes some time to load and then all at once, there’s those dozens of tabs that are open and you get annoyed and frustrated because now you have to close them all before getting to do your work. Same thing could happen here as well, it’s a situation in which it feels that since you have never let go of those experiences, there’s a backlog of things that actually fully need to be addressed that are not letting you focus on the newer issues that show up, and you’re still stuck in time trying to catch up to them, but you’re struggling to. You’re too overwhelmed to find a balance here, you’re also too overwhelmed to actually set healthy boundaries and since you don’t really know what is going on right now in the connection, you both may tend to set boundaries that are unrelated or a little bit out of defensiveness, getting back at the other person for things that have happened a while ago and both of you thought you were way past them.

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It seems as though in your current connection you might’ve freed yourselves from some limiting beliefs, you have learned from them and you have realized the negative impact that those negative beliefs and thoughts actually have on your relationship. Of course, there’s still others that need to be addressed and it seems that after that initial success with healing some of them, something just isn’t right. It turns out that the two of you might’ve actually only addressed those limiting beliefs on the surface and they were still lingering in the back of your minds and if you weren’t careful enough or actually paying attention to your own thoughts, you weren’t catching any of them because you were doing something you’ve done for so long, it was or seemed to be very normal for the both of you. You’re actually now struggling to work on your relationship, it seems like it’s getting harder and harder to deal with the issues and the both of you seem to be burnt out, almost wanting to give up on this and on trying because it feels as though no matter what you do, it doesn’t make a big difference and you circle back to those issues over and over again. The good thing here though is the fact that you aren’t ready to give it up yet because you still want to try, you still want change and you are holding on tightly to what love and your relationship could be like when you both successfully make the changes that need to be made and you actually overcome the current challenges that you are facing. You know that behind all of this hard work that at times feels so overwhelming and pointless, the rewards are worth it and right now, that is one of the only things that are making you both continue to try and work on this relationship while keeping a positive mindset towards the negative experiences that are coming your way on a regular basis. The problems here seem to be that the two of you could be too dependent on the other for your happiness and it could also be that one of you might be feeling as though there is no personal freedom due to how the intention of the other are coming off on top of an avoidance of confrontation and actually talking about all of these issues. It feels as though neither of you want to upset the other, you want to feel happy and you’re doing everything to hold onto that happiness when you have it, maybe sometimes or most of the times something happens that is triggering and you may want to speak up your minds about it, but you end up not actually doing it because you want to protect the relationship at all costs. You refuse to let conflict destroy that happiness and it seems that every move of yours actually depends on what the other person says or does, or how the other feels and that’s also because you kind of take a whole lot of things personally due to feeling insecure within yourselves but also within this relationship through the damage that has been caused overtime.

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Your person isn’t making the first move right now because they feel extremely intimidated by you, by your energy but also by how you are making them feel when you are around you. There’s this nervous energy about them that is coming through really strong because you as a person, you demand respect from those around you just by the way you present yourself, the way you enter a room and how you navigate life and that’s simply too powerful and way too intimidating for your person. It’s almost like they feel as though they’re not on your level yet, they haven’t really explored themselves, but also the world the way you’ve done and they just feel really insecure when it comes to approaching you. It seems as though they’re really struggling because this person could be very domineering, energy wise, as well, but you’re far more powerful than they are and they haven’t really met someone who could actually stand up to them or is as sure of themselves, sure of what they want and actually taking the necessary action to get it. It could be that you’re the one who approached them as well when you’ve met, your eyes might’ve locked on them and you weren’t simply passively waiting for them to come to you because you simply give off that energy of “I want it, I got it” and you don’t really give up or stop until you actually have what you want. They’re simply impressed by you and who you are as a person, they are studying you but keeping their distance a little bit because maybe they’ve been used to be the one who’s in control or to actually make the first move in relationships, come up with the initiative to do something or take some form of action and you just flipped their entire world around by simply being this amazing you. This person is so into you that they just freeze when it comes to actually coming towards you, they have no idea how to act, how to react, how to respond because again, you’re a person who knows what they want and now it’s making them feel like they don’t want to do or say the wrong thing and lose your interest because they didn’t play their cards right with you.

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Your person isn’t making the first move just yet because they are feeling very disconnected from you emotionally, they don’t really know if you are interested in them just as much as they are interested in you and they really seem to be very self conscious about the way that they are showing up with you. They are looking at things from a higher perspective, debating, thinking, analyzing and honestly the conclusions that they have reached have been pretty unfair towards you. There might be some accusations in the end on you as well, that you’re not doing this and that, that you’re not showing up and you also could be the one to actually make the first move and they don’t have to be the ones doing that at all and they are just trying to assign blame everywhere else but on themselves where it kind of is necessary. The two of you really need to sit down and have and open and honest conversation about where the two of you are at mentally, emotionally but also in this connection so that the two of you can actually address the root cause of that resentment that they have been building and forget past mistakes in order for you to move forward with the connection. This person seems to be lurking in the ‘shadows’, from behind the scene and they are actually looking through your social media, checking to see what you’ve been doing, what you’ve been sharing, maybe even looking to see if you’ve shared something for them specifically that you’re not actually saying to them directly. Instead of messaging you and trying to be mature and act like an adult, they are actually choosing to play games and actively look for passive messages for them that you might be sending them. They might be the type of person who’s not very experienced in communication, they might struggle to initiate them or even talk about difficult things that kind of need to be addressed so their other options is to just avoid those conversations and try to find answers through other means that are very indirect and non-confrontational.

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Some of the main blockages for this reconciliation are indecision and a whole lot of lack of clarity, accompanied by feelings of isolation, of not being supported and needing to deal with everything on your own because emotionally and mentally you know you can’t depend on the other person for help. This knowing doesn’t necessarily have to be true though because in the past either you or your person, or both of you even, have dealt with experiences that were sort of unpleasant and your minds have stored those unpleasant experiences to a point in which it makes it really easy for you to categorize, label and compartmentalize all these other experiences that happened after those moments. There are associations of new experiences with memories of similar past experiences that have really made it hard for the both of you to actually believe that you’re there for each other and that you want to offer and show support, but due to what you have gone through in the past, it was really hard to believe at the time, maybe it’s hard to believe now as well. It’s very easy for human being to just assume what the other person is feeling or thinking about us, it’s easy to feel like you rightfully know everything about them and about what is going on within them and that’s what gives it some form of realism, it seems like that’s actually what is happening, when in reality the other person could feel completely different than what we are assuming, but instead of asking or clarifying, we continue on believing the story that our minds have painted based on their behavior and comparing it to past experiences that go way deeper than romantic love or friends, down to the relationship we had with our caregivers and what we have seen around us along with what beliefs have been passed onto us. There could’ve been moments in which the support wasn’t there, where it was actually how the other person showed up, but it wasn’t all the time either; that lack of clarity has truly made you both go to really difficult mental and emotional places when it came to each other and your relationship and it has caused a whole lot of baggage; this is the root issue that —

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The main root blockages for this reconciliation are definitely well represented by either you, your person or both of you just effortlessly wallowing in such an unhealthy self-pity, refusing and clinging to move on from the past and just letting go of what has happened which results in you both beating yourselves up over past mistakes that you have made and taking those on as your full identity. Not only this but also not taking on a whole lot of accountability within the connection which has made it very easy for the both of you to simply allow this fear of failing each other to just limit the effort that you have been putting into this relationship when you were together. This is how the dissolution of the relationship started and how it’s been for a whole lot of time, until one of you actually started to see things for what they are and actually put some of that mindset behind, trying to guide the other towards doing the same thing in attempt to save this relationship but it just was too late. The two of you just couldn’t move on from that fear of disappointing the other, maybe it was warranted to be afraid of that due to some criticism or an issue in communication that has caused the both of you to take things personally, to feel like you were being blamed for everything that was going wrong in the relationship almost like you were passing blame from one to the other back and forth, but it’s also been something that you have heavily experienced before in other relationships too. There might’ve been small mistakes that lead to bigger problems or even past criticism, small experiences that have had such a big impact on the both of you and made you believe that it’s so easy to disappoint another, that if you can’t meet their expectations, then you are just doomed because you messed up so badly to a point in which you lost value, the other person might not want anything to do with you anymore. There’s a sense of catastrophizing everything, but it doesn’t seem to be directed at each other or when the other messed up, it wasn’t such a big deal compared to when you both individually messed up and the other would speak up for themselves, in however way they knew best at the time. If you messed up, it was like it was the end of this relationship and those mistakes kept daunting you both until —

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