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DONT. FUCKING. TOUCH. ME.

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14 July 2013 12:05am

At this moment, this very exact second, I am Happy. I am indeed more than Happy, I am so Happy that I wonder if it's even possible to be so Happy. I miss you soooooooo much and right now, you're here, and I feel like we're back to where we were, back to the days where you were always, ALWAYS, there for me, days where we talk about everything and anything, Moments that I yearned to get back, moments that I missed ssoooooooo much, moments like this that I dreamed and dreamed and dreamed to have back,moments that I cried and prayed to have back,  and right now, at this very second, it's all happening in front of me.  You're here, with me. And it feels like Christmas. You make everyday feels like Christmas. -J

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Taking a walk in the world of uncertainty.

We all need assurance. Assurance that, even if we're afraid of the dark, it's ok to switch off the light.

I need assurance. Assurance that even if I'm afraid to get hurt again, it's ok to open up to you completely.

But lately, winter's taking over summer's heat, and I'm wearing thin.

What do you want? If this isn't what you want, then stop doing what you do. Just, stop.

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What could be an anchor here With a storm on the rise When you're never meant to see so clear When smoke gets in your eyes And the man in the moon Never makes his replies understood?

I've got my life in a suitcase And ready to run run run away I've got no time 'cause I'm always trying to run run run away 'cause everyday it feels like it's only a game I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase

For a moment I was warm and the world made sense For a moment here this storm had no consequence

Copeland-The Day I Lost My Voice

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I used to think I deserved everything in this world there could be Then I met you and you brought me down it was like a disease One time should've been enough for me, fine I guess I couldn't see through your lies You're making me believe but then you go and do it again This time I don't wanna hear the one line And I don't really care that you're fine Don't wanna come and ask for you to come and love me like you should One time should've been enough for me... One Time by Safetysuit

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“Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it. Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year that Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen.”  ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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Baby you are not to blame at all. when I'm the one that pushed you away. Baby if you knew I cared, You'd have never went nowhere 

  Mario - How Do I Breathe

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Happiness feels a lot like sorrow  Let it be, you can’t make it come or go 

Happiness damn near destroys you  Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor  So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now  Happiness has a violent roar 

The Fray - Happiness

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Nothing goes as planned

Everything will break People say goodbye

Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out

  Andrew Belle - In My Veins (Single)

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Holding on to what I got and love But things still seems so dark and cold The fire is burning down my happiness But I will rise

Cause the days no more the same without you

Volbeat - Fallen

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You're always saving me.

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God’s time is His own. but I pray daily that He take into consideration our time not spent together is time lost. - Anonymous

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Lucas: I love you Brooke, I don't know how else to say it

Brooke: How about how you show it? I am not pushing you away, Lucas, I am holding on for dear life, but I need you to need me back. Why wouldn't you tell me about the kiss, and why didn't you call me while you were away and why won't you ever just let me all the way in?

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Peyton: It seems like you're working really hard to push me away. So if you're not into me, just say so.

Jake: No, that is not it. I love you, Peyton, okay? I don't want to believe there's another guy in your heart, but I think that there is.

Peyton: I think that you're afraid.

Jake: Yeah, you know what? I am afraid. It hurt like hell the last time I lost you, and I don't want to do that again.

Peyton: Then don't.

Jake: Look. Marriages fall apart all the time because people, they get caught up with the romance, and they're not honest with themselves. Well, I have to be twice as honest. Once for me, once for Jenny

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DO NOT FEED SADNESS!

DO NOT FEED SADNESS!!!

  You are smart, beautiful, confident, talkative, funny and cute. You were once who people wish they were. You once had a life people told you they wished to have. You were once been told of being bubbly and cheerful almost all the time Most importantly, he fell in love with THE YOU. So, stop feeding your sadness with negative thoughts, stop thinking,  stop reminiscing, stop missing stop telling yourself you're the reason why people leave, they leave coz they're screwed up and they're stupid and they have no idea what they're missing out, the problem is not you! it's them! stop talking shit about yourself stop saying negative things stop complaining, stop staying up too late and let negative thoughts have a chance to crawl in, stop listening to slow and emo songs, NO! IT'S NOT HARD AT ALL! JUST HIT THE FREAKING STOP BUTTON! stop wondering about all the what ifs, stop thinking back to those mistakes you've made, what's done is done, you cant change the past but you can decide the future!

JUST STOP BEING NEGATIVE!   START BEING WHO YOU WANNA BE! BE THE GIRL YOU WISH TO BECOME! BE THE GIRL WHO WOULD LAUGH AT THE SLIGHTEST STUPIDEST THINGS EVEN IF PEOPLE START SAYING YOU'RE CRAZY OR WEIRD! COZ HONESTLY WHO THE FUCK CARES! I'M LAUGHING AND I'M HAPPY AND THAT'S MY SHIT!  BE THE GIRL YOU KNOW HE WOULD LOVE! BE THE GIRL WHO CHEERS PEOPLE UP! NOT THE ONE WHO ALWAYS NEED PEOPLE TO CHEER HER UP. BE THAT GIRL!!! You know she's still in there somewhere! You just have to take one step and pull her out and you're good to go! IT'S REALLY NOT THAT HARD! Whenever you feel sad or depress,  GO TO SLEEP!  Shut your brain down from thinking! LAUGH INSTEAD OF SMILING! you'll feel so much happier!  DO NOT FEED SADNESS! BE BUBBLY!!!!!!!!!

Please, coz i'm really tired PS: Use =D instead of =), it looks happier!! - J 

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I forgive you For every times that I cried Over some stupid thing you did to hurt me That's alright Yeah, I forgive you I forgive you We were just a couple of kids Trying to figure out how to live doing it our way No shame, no blame 'Cause the damage is done And, and I forgive you

Kelly Clarkson - I Forgive You (Lyrics