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Been a minute since I was on here last, here's an update;

Got broken up with via discord group chat

Got ghosted

Started making good money at work

Got my hours at work suddenly and drastically cut back

Got a new partner

New partner (hereafter "Cowgirl") was a childhood friend of my one remaining partner, Gremlin

Group date with Gremlin & Cowgirl tonight

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Fuck all of it

I'm so done with this shit

If my recent fortunes don't turn the fuck around, there are going to be consequences!

I may do a war crime

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Just need to scream into the void I guess, would appreciate any support. I've been super worried about one of my partners for about 2 months now because he's been distancing himself from everyone and everything because seasonal depression and personal trauma. I respect that mental health is tough, but he's just threatened to block me because I've been trying to check in to make sure he hasn't killed himself. On top of that, another partner just broke up with the rest of us. And over a fucking discord group chat no less. I'm really not doing well.

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My mental health lookin like Luigi lately

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Et tu, Legolas?

"Damn, they Caesar'd his ass."

-Me, in response to a bunch of elves stabbing an orc to death

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This makes me violent. If I was playing with this Warlock, there would be PVP. If I were this Warlock's DM there would be a TPK.

dnd character idea; warlock that calls their party "chat" and their patron "mods"

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I do be needing some forehead kisses, not gonna lie.

SHITS GONNA BE FINE. *kisses your forehead*

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As a boyfriend, I really get...

Slept on.

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I am so tired of the world being the way it is. People I care about are hurt and it breaks my heart to see them struggling. Let me be your strength, if for no other reason so that I can see the strength I can hold for myself too.

It hurts me more to see pain and not be able to do anything about it then to struggle and fall myself.

I hate it. I will find a way to shatter the foundations of this world. Bring it all down and burn it to the ground. I will raise hell.

Let me bare your pain, My Love. You have carried it too long and it's breaking you. Your strength is better spent on joy. I will drown your sorrow for you, even if that means drowning myself with it.

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I am so tired. Me and all my loved ones are stressed out passed capacity. Having issues of my own doesn't matter to me, but I'm terrified that my partners aren't listening when I say

"I am only ever a call away if you ever need me for anything"

I just want to rest. I want to sit quietly and peacefully on the moon. I want to drink a cup of white tea while I watch the Earth rise. None of my terrestrial issues can weigh me down on the moon. Then when I come back, I want to fix everything for everyone I love.

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They're so cute when they explain anime and book lore. I love this being so much.

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Meeting my romance gremlin's mother today. I do not think I am sufficiently armed.

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It is 11:08 PM, I just got home an hour ago from watching my partner's dance practice and now I crave sushi. Why the fuck do I want sushi!?

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My partners keep rescheduling plans with me! Darn humans having lives :^(

On a tangentially related note; I sent this pic to my boyfriend with a caption, but saved it before adding text because it's a fantastic queer reaction image

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I want to do this!!

I’m all scratched up and I can still taste spray paint in my mouth and my husband almost fell out of a tree BUT THE GHOST SCULPTURES ARE FINISHED!

They’re finally finished and I’m so happy with them!!

Some progress shots:

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It was nineteen eighty nine-teen eighty-teen-eighty-nine.

It was nine teen eighty nine teen eighty nine!