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DPD crash emoji
ughh srry for not posting much guys, we rushed this since we have little motivation and r in artblock AND we r in one of our very brief psychosis lucid periods where our brain is semi working so the coloring nd art itself nah not be great ⊠erm yeah :,)
-Canine and Vee
( @murderscenemotes đ«”/silly )
#DPD related#cluster c related#Disorder related#actually dependent#actually dpd#emote blog#custom emote#emoji art#emote artist#custom emoji#aac emoji#emojiblr#custom discord emoji#discord emoji#emoji#cute emoji#discord emojis#discord emote#emotes
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More like a headcanon, but I like this one
#dbh#dbh connor#dbh hank#detroit become human#dbh headcanons#dbh memes#Connor for obvious reasons#Hank for Cole's death#(even if it wasn't his fault I feel like it's typical for people in his position to blame themselves even if it's just for staying alive#and keeping living after what happened)#although I suppose there are def also other reasons to feel guilty about#in relation to more recent events#for being so blinded for not realising thimgs earlier#for not stopping helping DPD catch deviants earlier#or (what I think shouldn't be forgotten) almost blowing Connor's brains out in a drunken state#this *would* leave a mark and it *will* resurface sooner or later (I think)#it's not really one of those things you can just take back#as if it never happened#haconk
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I feel bad for existing
#foryou#explore#lil darkie#viralpost#relatable#i need a hug#i need sleep#leave me alone#please help#i hate my existence#i hate everyone#i hate everything#people#quoted#quotes#mental health#mental illness#dpd#ptsd#mysli samobojcze#motylki any#notatki samobĂłjcy#samotnoĆÄ#samookaleczanie#zmeczenie#umieram#tw depressing thoughts#mam dosc
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When your partner loves you and also understands harm reduction. They always makes sure I have multiple cleaned and sterilized blades on hand <3

#tw s3lf harm#tw self destructive behavior#tw depressing thoughts#actually dependent#dpd#tw sh related#actually mentally ill#s3lf mutilation#s3lfharmm#s3lf harn#jirai kei
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Dpd culture is feeling absolutely terrible crying wanting to sh for having dpd. Because of all the ableism for having codependency not even getting into the hate for having the disorder itself but just the hate for being co dependent on a person.
#dependent personality disorder#actually dpd#dpd dp#cluster c#dpd culture is#dpd feel#cluster c dependent personality disorder#cluster c dpd#actually bpd and dpd#tw sh related
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I'm unsure if I'll include this in our fics, but our Perpetua fictive has taken an immense liking to hamsters (partly because he relates to them for reasons that are applicable to our characterization of his source character) and I love the idea that he has hamsters and Copia has rats.
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on today's ash-is-so-stressed-cuz-of-their-own-fuck-up
learning vocab for a retake, and it's a hubling experience, but hey, you can count on me to somehow always bring it back to current fixations one way or another cuz what do we have here

#it might be silly#but at leasts it helps me not to lose it#another related motivation is that I'm most likely getting kaoru's wig today (or Monday if dpd decides to be annoying)
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Honestly? I got no idea, probably cuz of the buddy cop thing and cuz people don't know how to develop characters outside the most superficial phase: the buddy cop dynamic we got 80% of the story. If u go around u gonna see, people will invent any random shit just to get both characters to point B directly, even if the route they're using for context is basically a "no" -, ESPECIALLY considering what DBH's story is about in general.
Took months of paper work for CyberLife to plant Connor in there "legally" (but i bet using corrupt methods) for a very short temporary assignment to deal with thing X, imagine without all these 3 very important variables. This whole bullshit ain't something u make it work in less than 5 yrs of a lot of fighting, not to mention (like u said) the 2 characters are pretty much "fuck the police" by the end of the game.
Where does the idea that Connor would go back to the DPD even come from? đ
It's so much more likely that Hank would leave the force instead of Connor going back there. They wouldn't want him back! He wouldn't want them back! He was never a real cop there, he was only sent by Cyberlife to assist in the deviant cases, likely because Cyberlife HAD to step in somehow since it was their responsibility and their androids who deviated.
I don't mean fanfiction, write whatever your hearts desire, but people actually believe this is what would happen after the credits. But why?
Markus tells him like 5 times that his place is with his people, he frees a gazillion of androids to shift the balance of power in the androids' benefit, he even stands on that podium with the Jericho crew. So why would he abandon them - his people who need his skill and whatever he can offer the android movement WHO DON'T EVEN HAVE RIGHTS YET, to assist the human cops who bullied him instead?
#the least bad i've read was something very very bad happening and being related to androids#and jeffrey somehow managing to convince the brass to get hank and connor back temporarily cuz he trusts hank#and since hank knows how to deal with connor they got on board on this one#but i don't remember if was under the dpd or if as outside resources (allies). cuz being le will limit u in some things.#dbh
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Lost in the fire ËàŒ | S.R



âł in which the teamâs newest case puts your life in jeopardy, at your own accord.
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader
genre: angst, sprinkle of fluff
warnings: general cm gore/case discussion, fire/arson, injuries related to fire, swearing, references to religion + greek mythology, friends toâŠ? (theyâre in la-la-la-love, your honour), some possible inaccuracies (sorry!), small jemily mention because lesbian rights, hopeful ending, use of she/her pronouns, no use of y/n, second person narrative.
word count: 4.3k
a/n: my first ever fic iâm very nervyđ«Łiâm not expecting this to gain any sort of traction, but lmk how you find it, i suppose!
âHaley Bradstone, aged twenty-five, and Laura Kilmey, aged twenty-seven, are the most recent victims in a series of murders in Detroit, Michigan. Both victims were discovered four days apart, and only five miles away from each other, their bodies disposed of in black FIBC bulk bags that were left in trash-sites.â JJ pauses, her gaze flickering between the team, almost hesitant as her thumb circles the silver remote. But, with a clearing of her throat, she continues. âCause of death for both victims has been ruled asphyxiationâŠby smoke inhalation.â
You abruptly halt toying with the frayed edges of the case file, your eyebrows shooting up and head lifting to look at her, and then also at the rest of the team - who look just as bewildered.
âSorry, did you just say smoke inhalation?â You ask, genuine confusion weighing down your tone.
JJ nods, her expression dismayed as she eyes the two beaming faces displayed on the board. âYes, as laid out in the case files, high levels of carbon monoxide, hydrogen cyanide and hydrogen sulphide were found in both victimâs lungs. The coroner also noted soot around the victimâs faces, and TBSA burns, all of which are synonymous with death via smoke inhalation.â
âCarbon monoxide poisoning is actually the leading cause of death in smoke inhalation - causing approximately 2,100 deaths in the U.S each year.â Spencer adds, followed by his familiar flat smile, which he usually does when he doesnât know what to do with his face - which happens to be always.
You blink, with a slight quirk to your lips, despite the circumstances. Trust your good doctor to know just about everything.
âWere there reports of any fires around the general area?â Hotch pipes up, his face set in his usual stony expression, though his eyes betray his pensiveness.
JJ shakes her head, adjusting her stance. âNo, which is what makes this stranger. The DPD reported no calls about any sort of fire on the days our victims were killed.â
âWhat? So our unsub justâŠlit a bunch of fires in plain sight?â Derek questions, with a flick of his brow, his gaze alternating between the board and the manilla folder in his grasp.
You huff, turning to face him with a slight smile, musing. âMust be one hell of a magician.â
Derek smirks in general bemusement, his dark eyes swirled with mirth, his tone light as a feather as he shifts in his scratchy office chair. âLooks like it, lil mama.â
Ever the smooth talker.
âOr, he could be using a secondary location.â Emily chimes in, her narrow-eyed gaze set firm on the file in front of her, her slender fingers fiddling with a bullet-point pen, and her lips contorted into a reflective pout.
âThatâs plausible, but youâd think at least someone would notice.â Rossi adds, with a slight huff of incredulity, his calculating gaze sweeping across the entire room before him.
The two smiling faces are quickly joined by two more, both just as radiant, both just as nausea-inducing. Those poor girls.
âWe donât know for sure. But, the most recent victims join twenty-eight year old Sarah Holloway, and twenty-two year old Jessica Bailey. Who, similarly, were found four days apart, five miles away from each other and dumped in black FIBC bags, also ruled dead via asphyxiation. However, Sarah and Jessicaâs dumpsites were around 14 miles away from Haley and Lauraâs.â JJ purses her lips faintly, eyes still fixated on the crime scene photographs of four similar looking women who didnât even live properly yet, robbed of the chance to, just like Poseidon robbed Medusa of her autonomy, on the marble steps of her deityâs temple. The thought alone just worsens the crease between her brows.
âfour victimsâŠwhy are they only just asking for our help, now?â Spencer ponders, features frozen in contemplativeness. His fingers sweep up to push his black-rimmed frames back to their previous position on the bridge of his nose.
God, you love his glasses.
JJâs face morphs into a faint grimace, as she replies in a reluctant tone. âUnfortunately, the media managed to connect the dots on this one, theyâre dubbing our unsub âthe smoke-killer.â But, the DPD really needs our help with this.â
You sigh, eyes trained on the gruesome imagery displayed on the silver screen. No matter how long youâve been with the BAU, the violence never quite gets bearable for you, though you canât bring yourself to look away - like witnessing a car-crash. You understand the psychology behind it, shock rooting the human body in place as the brain tries to comprehend that what itâs processing is real.
But, guilt still flows around in your system like the Noachian flood. Maybe, if you thought about it hard enough, youâd feel the ark bashing against your innards as it tries to navigate the brutal waves.
You suppose the violence doesnât get easier for the team, either. Perhaps thatâs what keeps you all tethered to each other, bonded. After all, the Greeks did beat the Trojans in unity - and disguised as a large, ligneous horse, but you digress.
Hotch nods, solemnly. âAlright, we can discuss further on the jet. Wheels up in 20.â And with that, he abruptly stands up, striding out of the room with a sureness in his step that only he could possess, effectively putting an end to the briefing.
The screen then goes dark, the car-crash finally being attended to. The sounds of chairs scraping across the frizzled navy carpeted floor and paper rustling bounces around the small space, as everyone heads out and into the bullpen, all but the exception of spencer, who remains seated, brooding over his manilla file as though heâs a modern day Thomas Aquinas. always thinking. You muse to yourself, though your eyebrow still raises in question nonetheless.
âReid, you coming?â You probe gently, standing in the doorway with a faint grin. Your eyes flickering like fairy-lights all around his hunched-over frame.
Spencer startles slightly, craning his head up from the file and over to you - a rosy hue creeping up the nape of his neck from the sight of you alone. He swallows, standing up suddenly, and pushing his chair out with his hip, as he breathes out. âUh, yea-yeah iâmâŠiâm coming.â He collects his things quickly, scrunching up his case file as he slings his satchel over his shoulder. Though, it doesnât really matter, heâs already memorised it from start to finish. Eidetic memory and all.
He flashes you his signature flat smile once again, as his muddy hues rake over your appearance. You look pretty today, well he thinks you always look pretty, but today especially. Your hair swishes around your face in wisps like cotton-candy, your frame adorned in your usual grey fitted slacks, paired with a pink striped puff sleeved button down and black leather boots.
He believes youâre the personification of an angel, and with the way the abnormally-harsh office lighting is dancing around your hair in a nimbus-like manner, heâs probably right.
âCâmon then doctor genius, we have an hour long flight to catch.â Your voice rolling out with a teasing lilt, a subtle smile curled around the edges of your glossed lips.
Spencer usually loathes being referred to as a genius, namely because itâs said with such obvious sneer and condescension, like heâs an abnormal form, like heâs still that twelve-year-old high schooler. But, you never say it with thinly-veiled disgust, no, you say it with such reverence- like itâs something to be admired.
Yeah, angel.
He mirrors your smile, eyes soft and starry eyed as he follows you out of the room. âone-hour, 19 minutes and 45 seconds.â He corrects softly, always keen for specifics, his satchel smashing against his upper-thigh periodically as he walks beside you.
You huff in amusement, rolling your eyes in jest. âRight. My bad, one-hour, 19 minutes and 45 second long flight.â Your head tilts up slightly to look up at him, your irises dipped in unsubtle gaiety,
Spencer lets out a huffy laugh of his own, shaking his head in amusement. He loved when you teased him, though heâd never admit that. At least, not to you anyway.
âOh, forgive me for being specific.â He sounds out, airily, like a dish-soap bubble crafted by small exploring hands, as he places his own ridiculously large palm on his chest in mock-offence.
âmore like particular.â You reply, just as you reach your desk, in faux-annoyance, the curl of your lips betraying that fact.
Spencer puffs out another slight laugh in response, as he leans against the edge of your desk, watching you comb through it. His gaze doesnât settle, darting around the array of trinkets and just general stuff aligning the glossy oak, including the multiple pots of bright pens - some looking vaguely like the ones heâs seen scattered around Penelopeâs âbat-caveâ - and even a stick-figure drawing of him scribbled onto a canary yellow sticky-note, featuring overly large glasses and converse, which are more akin to clown shoes, alongside an equally as dramatised stick-figure version of Morgan, complete with a badly scrawled out six pack and huge biceps.
He feels a warmth blossom in his chest as looks over the cluttered space. Itâs just so irrevocably you.
âparticular or not, i still believe everything-â He begins.
â-everything should be accurate, wherever possibleâ You mock affectionately, with a barely hidden smirk, still rooting through your things like a squirrel digging for an acorn.
A slight pout forms on his face, bordering on more petulant than anything. âHowâd you even know I was going to say that?â
A faint effervescent giggle slips past your lips, your head still firmly pulled down, as your hands continue their wandering through your desk drawers. â âCause youâve said that line at least a dozen times now, doc.â You drawl out, still grinning to yourself.
He wants that sound to be his morning alarm.
He rolls his eyes, only half-seriously, a smile lighting the corners of his mouth up like a vegas âwelcomeâ sign. âI have not said that a dozen times!â He huffs out, with a shake of his head at the injustice of it all, his dark curls springing with the movement.
You just smile, continuing to rifle through your desk before you locate what you were looking for, quickly straightening up and collecting the rest of your things before turning to him.
âWell, Iâm all set doctor, lead the way.â
âIs that just so you donât get lost again?â he replies, with an overt teasing twinkle.
You groan, blowing out like a whistle âthat was one time! i was still new, and the hallways are confusing!â
He just bellows out a laugh, pushing up off the edge of your desk and beginning to walk - more like stride - his way to the elevators. You in tow, but just barely. His legs are way too long.
âI can put a sign on my back that says, âfollow meâ, if needs be.â He throws behind his shoulder.
âOh, shut up!â You bark out, not really with any bite. Never with him.
It had been about three days since you landed in Detroit, Michigan. Most of that time being spent cramped up in the tiny makeshift office curated for the team, downing copious amounts of coffee, reading files until the backs of your eyes burned and dodging the borderline leering looks from the mid 40-year-old, beer gut endowed cops.
In other words, it was hell.
The team had made some progress, though. Narrowing down the profile to a white male in his early to mid thirties, who works a menial job, of average height and build, and who clearly dislikes women. Obviously, that didnât narrow down the âWhereâs Waldoâ search by much. But still, you really just couldnât shake the obvious questionâŠ
Why go through all the trouble of burning these women, but not completely, just to dump their bodies?
And it seemed that question floated around the backs of everyone elseâs mind, too. It was bizarre, to say the least.
Currently, the team is all stuffed in said aforementioned makeshift office space, like sardines in a can, no less. Emily and JJ sat at the table together, as usual, Derek propped up against the wall, Hotch and Rossi stood brooding in the corner of the room, quietly discussing something between themselves, leaving you and Spencer situated in front of the board, where the geographical profile is mapped out.
âHeâs operating within a 20 mile radius, dumping the bodies within an area heâs comfortable in. Heâs either going to strike here.â Spencer points to a spot on the map with his finger, tapping against it slightly before dragging it across and towards another spot, âor here.â His features were swamped in pondering thought, his honeyed gaze encompassing the sight in front of him.
âYeah, but i still donât understand why heâd go through all the trouble of burning them till they die from smoke inhalation, and then discarding the bodies. jusâ seems a lilâ pointless tâ meâ Morgan drawls out, his stance wide and his arms folded, one of his hands resting on his chin.
âwell ainât that the million dollar question.â You reply, with a sigh lathered in perplexity, your arms folded in a similar manner, but with one of your hands rubbing up the side of your arm, in a absentminded fashion.
âMorganâs right, it doesnât make any sense.â Hotch pauses slightly, contemplating - like everybody else in the room. His dark eyebrows stitched together, and his lips set in a taut frown.
âNone of it makes sense, i mean, even the dumping method, why bulk bags and not just plain olâ trash bags?â Emily questions, sitting back in her seat with an exhale, her legs crossed with her boot-clad foot tapping against one of the legs of the rickety table.
You blink, a thought coming to you at her question. âTheres a Hardware store in the middle of town, right?â You throw out, hands stuffed into the pockets of your black slacks.
Hotchâs brows furrow, as he regards you. âYes, why?â He says simply, almost curiously.
You shrug, âso then heâd probably be getting the bulk bags from there, since itâs easily accessible.â
Everyone goes silent at your question, seemingly mulling it over, before Morgan responds.
âIf so, why wouldnât he just buy trash bags?â He says, with a cock of his brow.
âBecause he wants the victims to be found.â Spencer states, plainly, piling onto your train of thought and rocking back and forth on his heels, as his tongue darts out, swiping his slightly dry bottom lip.
âThink about it, a bulk bag is much more conspicuous than a simple trash bag, he wants his handiwork to be seen - maybe not right away, but he knows at least one person would find the presence of a large plastic bag near a dumpster to beâŠalarming, whereas no one would bat an eye at seeing a trash bag. Same goes for his M.O, he most likely has some sort of access to an incinerator, perhaps due to his job, which allows him to discreetly âburnâ his victims, before dumping them in a way which derives notice.â
His hands flail around wildly as he talks, an endearing habit that makes it seem like heâs so excited to talk about what heâs discussing that, at the minimum, one part of his body has to move with the speed of his mouth.
You smile - more of a secret thing, really, just for yourself - you love listening to that man talk. Itâs the eighth wonder of the world, to you.
Everyone nods, the notion seemingly settling into their psyche without much problem, as logically, it did make sense.
âIf thats the case, then we have a problem.â Rossi scratches the side of his jaw lightly, his head tilted and his bronze hues directed at the table.
Emily raises her brow, in clear need of clarification. âWhat problem?â She murmurs out, her head cocked to the side, questioningly.
âWe have an unsub who wants attention, and will stop at nothing to get it.â Hotch adds on, sharing a brief glance with Rossi, his expression more grave than usual, before he fishes out his phone, dialling a number and setting the onyx Nokia down onto the table. âGarcia, youâre on speaker.â
âHello, my favourite crime-fighters! To what do i owe the pleasure?â The shrill cheery voice of Penelope Garcia rings out, immediately bringing a small smile to your face. She really was like bathing in sunshine.
âWe were wondering if you could take a look at a hardware storeâs sales within the last month, more specifically of FIBEC bulk bags.â Hotch drags out, his arms still folded and his face betraying nothing but his usual stoicism.
âOh, that i can do upside down with my hands tied, sir! justâŠoneâŠsecond.â Penelopeâs voice hauls out, followed by the rapid clinking of keyboard keys. âWhatâs the name of the store?â She asks, her tone focused.
âSallyâs Shackâ Hotch replies, his tone equally levelled.
After a few moments, and a lot more keyboard clicking, Penelope finally pipes up again. âAh-hah! so, it appears that our shack in question has sold six FIBEC bulk bags within the last month, all to the same buyer - well, at least the same credit card was used, ending in 4678.â
Hotch looks visibly taken aback slightly, before he asks âCan you get a name, Garcia?â
âAlready on it, sir.â Penelope replies, with her usual peachy tone.
A tense silence follows, only sporadically broken by the clickity-clack of Penelopeâs rainbow pastel keyboard. Then, she pipes up again.
âOkayâŠlooks like the card belongs to a 33-year-old, Mr. Eugene Humphrey, who currently works atâŠâ Her words trail off, obvious hesitance behind them ââŠburns funeral home and crematory, and owns a residence just in the middle of town.â
Everybody seems to pause, then. He matches the profile - Mid thirties, works a menial job which would give him access to a âdiscreetâ burning method and just so happened to purchase the same material used by the unsub, whilst also owning his own property not too far away from the hardware store in which the material was purchasedâŠyeah that canât be a simple coincidence.
âPen, does he have a criminal record of any kind?â Your voice floats out, drifting through the confined space like Thumbelina on her shamrock lily-pad.
âI will have a looksie for you now, my sweet sugar muffin, just hang on one second-â Penelope cuts herself off as her fingers begin their ministrations again, the keyboard rumbling with every tap, a smile edging on your face at the absurd term of endearment.
âAlrightâŠlooks like our guy spent six months in juvenile detention when he was sixteen for lighting his girlfriendâs car on fire, claimed he caught her cheating on him with his best friend, youch!â
You can practically see the cogs turning in your teammates heads, looks like you got your guy.
âOkay, thats good garcia, could you-â
â-send his information over? already done, sir.â promptly interrupting the low voice of your unit chief, in a way that is so Penelope, that he canât really object.
âThank you Garcia, We appreciate itâ Hotch replies in his typical authoritative tone.
âYouâre welcome, my gorgeous gods and goddesses, now go and save lives.â Penelope chirps out, swinging on her swanky desk chair, her hands now preoccupied with a bright pink fluffy pen.
âYouâre the best, babygirl.â Morgan calls out, his tone suave and a smirk illuminating his features.
Penelope lets out a giggle, replying in her token-teasing articulation. âOnly for you, my chocolate thunder, now ta-ta!â Her sing-songy voice sounds out with finality, before the line drops, indicating that she ended the call.
âAlright, everyone, looks like weâre scoping a funeral home. Iâll go inform the captain, and i need all of you to gear up, as a cautionary, is that clear?â Hotch demands, his gaze expectant.
resounding murmurs of âyesâ fill out the area, to which the dark-haired agent replies to with a curt nod, before swiftly exiting the room.
You let out a breath, turning to the rest of the team with a faintly reluctant expression. âLetâs get this show on the road then, guys.â
Morgan flashes an easy smile, coming up behind Spencer and clapping him on the shoulder, his smooth voice infused with teasing. âYou heard her, pretty boy, letâs get moving.â
Spencer has to resist an eye-roll, his cheeks immediately flushing raspberry red, whereas you just let out a small confused laugh - clearly not in on whatever inside joke that seems to be playing out - turning on your heel and prancing out of the room, leaving the two of them to squabble like 10-year-old brothers.
Though, on your way out, you swear you saw Emily squeeze JJâs hand underneath the tableâŠ
Something went wrong. Terribly wrong.
You donât know how - hell, nobody on the team knows how, but Humphrey somehow found out you were coming. He mightâve gotten some frustratingly accurate in-tell, or maybe he just⊠knew. After all, bad news attracts bad news, right? And being arrested for the murders of four women sure seems like pretty bad news. Or maybe he was a paranoid fuck. Either thought seems plausible, but currently pointless.
Ironically, Burnâs Funeral Home and Crematory, was wellâŠburning. The two-story high foundation, which youâre guessing was once a depressing waxen colour, is now engulfed in orange. Bright, blazing orange, and for a moment, you almost believe the sun crash-landed onto earth.
The ignited shades dance across your features , making you look like youâre almost glowing. You hear Morgan let out a few curses, and Emily mutter something eerily close to âOh my Godâ under her breath. But, the rest of you remain silent, devoid of speech, heads lifted up and staring at the fiery wreckage. Drawn in, entranced.
You canât pull your eyes away, Not even when Hotch snaps out of his own silent gazing and begins to talk around you, shooting out instructions like darts to your co-workers. Well, until you hear a fire-man trudge past you, in full PPE and carrying a winding anaconda-like hose, writhing along the gravelled floor with each step he takes, similar orders being barked out of his mouth to his team-mates. But, that isnât what grabs your attention, itâs the information coming from his radio.
A mother and her child are stuck in there, apparently looking for a casket for her husband before the building went up in flames, and they arenât even going to attempt to save them - something about the fire being âtoo large, too risky.â
A mother and her child. Her 8-year-old little girl who just lost her father, and now is going to lose her own life, trapped in a scorching maze.
Not on your watch.
You will not, cannot, let this sick bastard take another girlâs life.
Your legs move before your brain even has time to catch-up, darting straight past multiple fire personnel who all try to stop you, but you dodge each one. Not even the sounds of the team shouting your name halts you, your figure retreating straight into the raging inferno.
Whatâs that saying? Moth to a flame?
Well, consider the molten-structure your flame. Because you wonât stop, will not stop, not until the mother and her daughter are out. Safe.
Either way, God appeared before Moses in the form of a fiery bramble. And maybe, he was doing it again, instead for their freedom, not yours or a 120-year-old manâs. You were getting them out of this desert, even if there were no miles of grainy-sand and the occasional tumbleweed, but instead hot, piercing, smouldering heat.
Spencerâs astute brain doesnât take long to register what the hell you are doing. And, he doesnât think heâs ever felt so panicked. He practically screeches your name, moving to go after you, but with no such luck as Morgan and Hotch hold him back. But he fights, and he fights harder than heâs ever had in his life, because this is you.
âLet me go! sheâs in there! you canât just let her go in there!â He shrieks, every word sharpened with utter desperation.
Neither Morganâs nor Hotchâs replies to his incessant wailing actually penetrates his mind. He feels like heâs underwater, succumbing to the depths of the Mariana Trench, fading black and blue.
The water freezes over the longer youâre in there. Trapped in that dismal, enflamed formation. He feels sick, but he knows spilling his stomach content wonât provide any relief, itâs a sickness thatâs lodged itself into his bones, into his very being. He wonders if this is what the Woolly Mammoths felt like during the first coming of the glacial-period, just observing as they, one-by-one, all perished to the frost.
He canât have lost you. Not before he-
âŠNot before he could tell you that youâre his first thought when he wakes up, and his last before he surrenders himself to the dark abyss of unconsciousness.
No, this canât be it. He refuses, he downright rejects the thought.
He just stares, and stares at the lit up property, his whole entity screaming for you to just make it. His mind and mouth spinning prayers to godâs he doesnât even believe in because if there was any chance of that turning the cards in your favour, then heâs taking it and holding on tight.
The seconds feel like minutes, the minutes like hours. Time is a fickle thing, always stretching and compressing back together again depending on someoneâs emotions. But, that philosophy does nothing to distract him from the ache. Because a life without you in it, he grasps, isnât a life at all. Not one that he wants to live, anyway.
Two soot-covered frames emerge from the fiery entrance, immediately being swept away by fire-personnel for medical treatment. And his heart stops, until he realises you arenât either of those coughing figures.
Where are you? Why arenât you coming out?
Time seems to stretch again, expanding like a black-hole over his fitful, beating heart. Ready to consume, ravage. But, maybe, that would be an act of mercy, anything would be an act of mercy compared to the waiting. Agonising, hoping and waiting.
ThenâŠa third figure finally bursts out of the flames. Heâs seen that mop of hair before, he knows that hair. Even at a fair distance, hunched over and simultaneously gasping for air and hacking your lungs up, tousled, with skin embedded in ash, Youâre beautiful and youâre alive.
Youâre alive.
He pushes his body forward and he runs, he sprints and goes to you. And this time, Hotch and Morgan let him.
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Hiii, I just wanted to tell you that I donât have autism, but I do have dpd and raspberry girl is such a comfort story to me and I love it so much and I just wanted to thank you for writing it because it genuinely is amazing and you deserve to be appreciated for it!
Hi! Iâm thrilled the story brings you comfort, that means a lot to me đ©” additionally, raspberry girl is only neurodivergent. She could be autistic if thatâs how you see her, she could have sensory processing issues, she could have and anxiety disorder, DPD, ADHD, etc etc etc. This is intentionally left blank and open ended to encourage self insert.
And while Iâm on the subject: there is no medical criteria for neurodivergence. It is not a diagnosis, a condition, or a disease. It only means your brain functions differently than the perceived norm. While it directly applies to autism, you do not have to be autistic to be neurodiverse.
Essentially, sheâs whoever you want her to be, and I hope whoever reads her and feels like they can relate even a little bit, takes comfort in knowing theyâre not alone out there.
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I dont think ive rlly smiled for about 4 years
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Avoidant attachment culture blog
This is for those with an avoidant attachment style (dismissive or fearful) to vent, talk about experiences or send in characters that you relate to.
This blog is run by an adult. Minors may follow and interact but be mindful and intentional with your actions.
> Also see @anxious-attachment-culture
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I personally think the wof mental health rep is a lot better than it seems at first glance.
I should say upfront that I'm not a professional, though one of my biggest interests is psychology and majority of the conditions I talk in this post I either have or have traits of (and I'll clarify which I don't).
Whiteout is the only canonical neurodivergent character as far as I know, having associative synesthesia, but many headcanoning her to be autistic. I haven't read the books in a long while, but from what I remember I can agree, though I'm not autistic (despite meeting criteria... long story) so I won't for sure say if I think her traits are enough for a diagnosis or not (again, haven't read the books recently), but everyone seems to think they are so I'll agree.
Hawthorn has psychotic symptoms, which I think is important to represent since people with psychosis (whether that be from being on the schizophrenia spectrum or some other reason) are very often put in a bad light. Hawthorn is too, to an extent, but that's more so due to the Breath of Evil and not due to his psychotic symptoms, or from what I can remember, at least. I don't think Hawthorn has a mental disorder like schizophrenia since symptoms of psychosis can be caused by isolation (I'm not actually 100% sure if this is true, this is just something my psychologist told me), but I think the representation is still important either way. I relate to him a lot due to his symptoms.
Darkstalker very clearly shows symptoms of NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder), I don't think you can even argue that (sorry, narcissism anon from a month or so ago). I myself fit the criteria for NPD, and I definitely see myself in him. I doubt he can be diagnosed since he is still a child, but his symptoms might be extreme enough to warrant one, I'm not sure (coming from a minor who's doctors referred them for a personality disorder screening themself). Of the nine (9) criteria for NPD, just off memory he fit basically all of them. I won't go into all of it but I will definitely mention his splitting, seeing how he goes from loving Clearsight to thinking he can kill her if she doesn't meet his expectations. He also has the aspect of how it develops too, that being trauma (I recall Arctic being abusive to him which is definitely enough to warrant trauma), and being spoiled as a child (this could be my brain making things up but I swear this happened, or at least he was overly praised or something). So yeah, fairly sure he would have been diagnosed with NPD if he didn't eat the strawberry.
Moonwatcher seems to have social and separation anxiety. I like this, since I am diagnosed with both and they are both very difficult to live with, and I like seeing another character having it that I can relate to in that way. She also has symptoms of AVPD (just from what I remember), but she's only like... twelve (12) so there's no way she could be diagnosed.
Anemone, while not having any mental disorders specifically, still had a rough mental health journey so I think it's important to bring up. She grew up with her mother, Queen Coral, who was a complete helicopter parent, and likely never met her Father, King Gill. She was praised and adorned all her life, so it makes sense that when she was eventually separated from Coral, she acted out what she thought she deserved. While I think Darkstalker has NPD, I can't say the same for Anemone, since she was so young and it's normal for young children to have narcissistic traits. When she met Darkstalker, they clicked well due to both being animi and having... less than positive thoughts on the dragons around them. Darkstalker ended up lovebombing her, and telling her to leave when she got mad at Moon. She lashed out at Turtle afterwards, before they reconciled later. I thought this would be important to mention.
Peril likely has a few personality disorders as well, the most likely ones in my opinion being BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and DPD (Dependent Personality Disorder), which isn't surprising given her situation. She likely has tons of trauma so it's only natural for her to develop a traumagenic disorder. I say those in particular because of her rapidly changing thoughts and emotions and her over attachment to Clay, which I can definitely relate to given how I act with my DP (Dependent Person). I don't have BPD though I show traits (not sure if enough for a diagnosis or not) and I remember Peril showing traits too.
There's also a lot of dragons that probably have PTSD in some way, Fathom, Peril, and Jerboa III being the first ones that come to mind specifically.
I seriously think this is an important topic and I might make a video on it at some point. Like I said, I love psychology and I think it's interesting how it impacts characters from my favourite book series.
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Okay I need to talk about it as the local psych student
First of all psychopathy isnât a real diagnosis, the closest youâll get is the heavily criticized âpsychopathy checklistâ which is is basically a myers brig test that can fuck up your life if youâre given a bad score
The ACTUAL diagnosis are ASPD/DPD which you canât even be diagnosed with until youâre 18! Thatâs Conduct Disorder and even then itâs somewhat rare for it turn into ASPD!
Along with the fact itâs a HEAVILY at risk minority group with a high risk of suicide! It involves impulsivity and recklessness along with a struggling to both relate to other people or inability to fully understand how oneâs actions can harm other along with difficulties feeling and controlling their emotions. It is often comorbid with things like anxiety and depression, and those with ASPD are at a high risk of turning to drugs to manage their condition.
Along with this THERES THERAPY FOR IT! AND EVEN IF ONE WITH ASPD DOESNT GET THERAPY, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS AN âEVIL PERSON DISORDERâ JUST HEAVILY CULTURALLY STIGMATIZED DISORDERS
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all personality disorders and basic definitions of them cuz i'm bored
cluster a - odd / eccentric , there's multiple types of this i'll be discussing down below
PPD - paranoid personality didorder , it's known as actions of distrust , paranoidness , having unwanted thoughts such as , thinking someone's watching you , thinking people are against you , etc .
SZPD - schizoid personality disorder , it is defined as showing none of very little interest for social interaction , it is also shown as having a hard time expressing or explaining emotions
STPD - schizotypical personality disorder , people with this disorder often have odd thoughts , speech , behavior , and have discomfort for close relationships
cluster b - dramatic / erratic , there's multiple types of this i'll be discussing down below
BPD - borderline personality disorder , it is known for having unstable mood , relationships , actions , etc , often having awful mood swings , sometimes having BPD feels as if you're a different person due to the mood swings , BPD is very self destructive , and has episodes of self destructiveness and feeling as if everyone is against you
ASPD - antisocial personality disorder , can be defined as having little to no empathy , or have trouble showing empathy and emotions . this can also include having a hard time relating or feeling sad for others
NPD - narcissistic personality disorder , it is often seen as thinking you are greater then everyone else , most people with NPD have a weird relationship with themselves , as they feel as they are the best , but also have a hatred of themselves , on the topic of NPD . "narc abuse" DOES NOT EXIST . if you believe everyone with NPD is a abuser then you are ableist . yes some people with NPD can be abusers , but saying they all are is just wrong .
HPD - can be described as , wants people's attention and desires praise , inappropriate or odd ways of speaking , little empathy for others , tries to gain attention from other people , very vocal on emotions , but at the same time is confused about their emotions , and being easily influenced by others , it's often seen as doing things for attention or praise
cluster c - anxious / inhibited , there's multiple types of this i'll be discussing down below
DPD - dependent personality disorder , causes people with dpd to feel as if they can't take care of themselves and need care from others, so they are dependent on others, they might have trouble making every day decisions and feel as if they can't do basic needs or tasks alone
AVPD - avoidant personality disorder , characterized as being distant , or feeling uncomfortable with psychical touch in any way also known as hypersensitivity . it can include avoidance of group activities , unwilling to be involved with others
OCPD - obsessive compulsive personality disorder , this can include , unwanted thoughts of things , need to be a perfectionist , unwanted need to have everything perfect and under control
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