#cluster c related

[meeb-motes]

DPD crash emoji

ughh srry for not posting much guys, we rushed this since we have little motivation and r in artblock AND we r in one of our very brief psychosis lucid periods where our brain is semi working so the coloring nd art itself nah not be great … erm yeah :,)

-Canine and Vee

( @murderscenemotes 🫵/silly )

[nagichi-boop]

I know that this scene is about Shadow grappling with the fact he has alien DNA, but I feel like his thoughts in this scene are relatable to people with conditions like autism, BPD and NPD (not an exhaustive list) who struggle with feeling and being treated like an outcast or monster at times. For some, it’s because we struggle to operate in a world not designed for us. For others, it’s fighting against all the negative perceptions society has of us.

Shadow sees himself as a monster. But Maria assures him that just because he expresses himself differently, that doesn’t make him evil. I feel like especially for people who struggle with empathy, this really hits home. People often assume that people who struggle with empathy, whether cognitive or emotional, are heartless. And for those with personality disorders, they’re often treated as if they are abusive or manipulative just because of the disorder they have, even though people with said disorders are victims of trauma and abuse themselves.

I hope you all have a Maria in your lives. And if not, please remember that it’s your actions that define you, not your neurotype or disorder. If you struggle with socialising, or emotional regulation, or empathy, you’re not a monster. You’re strong for living in a world that so often seems to outcast and insult you. You’re strong for choosing to be as kind as you can be, even though so many people refuse to show that common courtesy in return. Even when you can’t be strong, you are not a monster.

Please be kind to yourselves. You deserve it.

[sleeplessv0id]

sometimes the distractions fail, and I am forced to confront the fact that I am still as sick as I've always been.

[avpdpossum]

meeting with my therapist of ten years after getting my diagnosis was wild. she didn’t even acknowledge the avpd diagnosis and i was just sitting there thinking about how i told her years ago that i thought i might’ve been developing a personality disorder and she just brushed it off. imagine if my avpd had been caught back then instead of just letting it get worse and worse throughout college…

like i know that personality disorders are famously hard to treat but people have had some success with things like dbt and schema therapy and certain medications and i feel like it’s going to be so much harder now than it ever needed to be because, in my neuropsych’s words, i’ve been isolating myself for so long that i lost the social skills i used to have (which were already limited) and now it’s not just about gaining to confidence to interact with people, i literally have to learn the skills all over again.

and now, it seems like she wants to just go for a skills training/exposure therapy kind of approach for improving my social interactions, but i feel like that’s not going to work. maybe it would for social anxiety, but if she just pushes me into interacting with people more and we don’t to any work on the reason they’re so hard for me or the thoughts i have when i feel like i’ve done something wrong, i feel like it’ll just make things worse.

[npd-avpd-culture-is]

NPD + AvPD Culture Is not quite being able to just engage with others

[equalperson]

people mostly talk about splitting as literally all-or-nothing--"I love you" or "I hate you"--but I personally experience an in-between point sometimes.

I don't know what I'd call it other than "thin-ice devaluation" or something along those lines.

like, yes I devalued you recently and I realize now that I was being irrational, BUT if you say something even slightly suspicious, hurtful, or incorrect, I'm going to assume that you're evil and/or useless again much faster than I would have before.

[cluster-c-pds-culture-is]

avpd culture is having no social life outside of dating/sleeping around because you feel like all you can offer someone is your body

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[meeb-motes]

DPD / Dependent Personality Disorder emoji.

(Person doing the ASL sign for Depend !! )

Requests are open !

[sleeplessv0id]

I don't believe in God. anymore

but I hope he loved me. at least once.

[avpdpossum]

i might try to do a deep dive into the conflicted avoidant subtype at some point, and maybe the self-deserting subtype after that. every time i read the descriptions of them, i’m struck by how accurately they describe me, and i wish there was more info about the subtypes out there

[pepsimaxolotl]

I thought I mightve had a cluster A personality disorder for awhile cause I've been constantly terrified of everyone but actually I dont think other people are evil or out to get me I just feel like they're a threat to me because... I'm me. And I'm something I should be ashamed of so im thinking now actually I might be cluster C whoops

[dependent-broderline-culture-is]

Dpd culture is feeling absolutely terrible crying wanting to sh for having dpd. Because of all the ableism for having codependency not even getting into the hate for having the disorder itself but just the hate for being co dependent on a person.

[charmcoindied]

i have to admit that i originally got interested in dunmeshi not from any posting about it or anything but because i took a uquiz that assigned me marcille and when i read her wiki page i knew right away she was such a me type character. n then i read the manga and it was absolutely cemented. i'm not even done with it yet i need to keep reading but she's just soooooooo. Soo

[windrunner]

REVERSE THE ROLE, MY CABARET TO CATCH A PREDATOR, YOU'RE MY PREY IT'S MY WARFARE AND YOUR DOOMSDAY GOD COMPLEX WHEN YOU HEAR ME SAY SONGS GOT LEGS, A MILLIPEDE WROTE THIS BOUT YOU, BUT YOU CAN'T READ INSTEAD I'LL MAKE YOUR FUCKING EARS BLEED

[chiwosays]

PD's and rep

this might be controversial idk lol but i really do hate that 90% of personality disorder rep is cluster b (minus hpd because people leave that one out a lot). and a lot of cluster b representation does suck in terms of accuracy and sensitivity, which sucks and is harmful, i recognize that fully.

but even in online discussions about personality disorders the main focus always seems to be cluster b PD's, specifically BPD. while cluster a and c are either very ignored or mentioned once and then moved on from.

whenever i go to the cluster c tag or join spaces for cluster c personality disorders, or even my specific diagnoses (when i can even find them), its very overrun by cluster b posts which does get frustrating after awhile because i want to see other people in my cluster in the tag.

obviously people with cluster b PD's deserve to talk about their experiences, im absolutely not discrediting that or trying to take that away, i just wish cluster a and c had a bit more spaces to talk about our experiences without it being turned into another cluster b conversation. i do relate to a lot of cluster b posts and im always happy to see them succeed and have good conversations and resources, but it gets lonely when you're left in the dark, to be honest.

[nagichi-boop]

Trying not to care but I care too much.