#cptsd problems

[whiteringaway]

I just want to be soft

Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.

It’s unfair

[billybob-99]

I feel so disgusting and uncomfortable in my own skin I don’t wanna be here

[mycptsdstory]

Found on twitter

[armchair-lethroe]

Idk who needs to hear this but a parent defending or “staying out of” the abusive actions of the other parent is abuse in its own right. Yes I am also referring to emotional or verbal abuse.

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

[kittycommitte]

[sufferingtosurvive]

It’s not fair!

[shrimpleastha]

Fantasizing about extremely traumatic scenarios bc it doesn't feel like my trauma is enough

[lostmf]

[billybob-99]

Being left bc you’re too mentally ill is really something!!😃😃

[spacefaringamoeba]

I hate that I'm considered "high functioning". I barely qualify for any "level" of disability in my country and I will never get a disability income. Yes. I'm able to go to work. But I will not be able to hold it for more than a few months before getting burned out and having daily meltdowns. No, having 10 minutes extra work break won't help me. Neither will wearing headphones or carrying fidgets. I'm literally not able to work 40h a week without severe negative consequences... How do i fucking exist in this society!

[bruisedpeachbaby]

things people don’t talk about enough with cptsd:

feeling like you’re back in traumatic situations when you get triggered/overreacting to perceived threats

not trusting people easily and pushing people away when triggered

increased risk of ending up in abusive/toxic environments

feeling exhausted for long periods of time

physical symptoms like nausea, migraines, body pain

regularly feeling guilty or embarrassed

feeling “different”, “damaged”, or “dirty”

not trusting your own feelings

relapsing after a major trigger

being uncertain of identity

intrusive thoughts of being harmed

experiencing age regression

compulsive masturbation/hypersexuality

attempts to avoid abandonment

over-communicating while feeling scared of true vulnerability

addictive and adrenaline-seeking personality traits

feeling the need to keep things secret or rebel

[iced-depresso-macchiato]

Okay real question-

How do you make new friends as someone with cPTSD in their early 20s?

How? There’s so much context that people just won’t have about you and how do you introduce yourself or talk about stuff when your whole life is so interwoven with little traumas that you’ve only just started to discover?

Especially if you’re a parentified child like yeah I’m quite good at being the friend who takes care of others but I feel like I’m hanging on by a thread and I need a friend to just be there - not to solve things or do anything but just to be there and not be freaked out but I don’t want to be a burden and trauma dump on them because I have a therapist.

How do you make friends in early adulthood when you’ve only just realised that your childhood (the bits you remember) aren’t the norm? What do you talk about when your hobbies have turned out to be forms of escapism and self-soothing tactics?

Complex trauma is so weird. As much as ‘you’re more than your disorder’, it’s different here. This literally grows with you. How do you make new friends when you’ve don’t know how to exist as your own person outside of a fight/flight response?

[poemsandghosts]

I was emotionally parentified, of course I am the "therapist friend"

I was emotionally parentified, of course I can't handle any form of criticism

I was emotionally parentified, of course I will immediately apologize for every minor inconvenience, even if it is not my fault

I was emotionally parentified, of course I am an empath and an old soul

I was emotionally parentified, of course I have no identity and no clue what I want to do with my life

I was emotionally parentified, of course I am afraid of conflict and will do anything to prevent it

I was emotionally parentified, of course I appear to be "emotionally intelligent" and am good at comforting people

[kittycommitte]

[sufferingtosurvive]

It’s not fair!