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Mini-me wakes up every morning in a beautiful mansion. I can tell the walls are painted blue, but I swallow a pill to make it happier. A bowl full of heart for breakfast. A cup of whiskey and blood for digestion. It's a full meal to follow the pattern as we learn she has a super hole in the place of her belly. It's a pretty day outside. Mini-me is standing on the balcony wondering about the day she'll die. She wears a nice swimsuit and tries to inhale smoke from the charred corpses in the living room. Dive into the hydrofluoric acid pool. Backstroke until she can't feel any abuse. I can tell she's relieved when she feels she can't be me. However, as in a game, she is reset. Madwoman, I assure you that. What else am I supposed to do? Tell me right now what kind of medicine I can take to get rid of you?! Mini-me got me on my knees. She destroyed every wall I built. She kept all the affection I sought in a private prison. She poisoned our brain just for obsession. And she keeps ruining me for fun and distraction.

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Salt air and boldness of youth. Send signals and stupid reviews. I wrote your name down and screamed my affection: I love you, my dear! It could be a dream or a brain reaction. I opened my arms, and filled out my lungs: I love you, my dear! Is this just enough?! Darkness could hear, the ocean could feel. But it turns to bad habits, memories, and something unreal.

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I could see my gravestone. Right on the shores of the coast. Swim, adrift, drown and fight. Breathing water will make me die.

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I want to be remembered.

I want to be missed.

If I don't pass through anybody's mind,

It's impossible to exist.

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Hey, I've been thinking about you. My hands in yours. Your lips in mine. Wanna feel your misty Your tasty wet divine.  Begging for some sweetie Lovin' you and leaving Right back to my daydream Where I must dismiss it. End up in your bed sheets. Treat me like I'm crazy. I just wanna feel I'm your favorite 'Daisy'.

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Love,  You make me feel like floating Floating in the ocean.  I feel afraid of drowing With all of these emotions. It seems like in the open sea You must have clarity. Maybe sailing must be it I'll enjoy every bit. Thus alone I shall not be. Embrace me in your salty Your mystery profounding And just let it be.  Because I'm ready I'm ready for all the diving.

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Dear T,

I had a beautiful night yesterday. I didn't even think about you. - Now, while bathing, I can't help myself thinking that it's different and weird, but it's something remarkable. I guess.

You were someone I knew too much for so long, T. You gave me all you could give and I'm glad for that. I still miss you, but I'm truly tired of this melancholy since we broke up, all this pain I wanted to feel, and this mental cage I put myself in. It's not your fault. I became friends with my demons and my suffering because in my mind that was what I needed: to belittle me, to punish me for your period. Now, I want to remember good things about us and for that, I learned in my spirit and all those therapy sessions that I need to let you go. It's time.

I love you and I'll always will - that's the only thing I know for sure. We couldn't last, right? We were built unsustainable. - You said that and now I got it. Now I understand you. Still... it's weird. Did you have the same feeling when you forgot about me? Is that moving on, T? Did you do it too?  Well... I guess it was different for you because we loved in different ways. That's alright now.

You were my home. You were my town. You were my whole world, T. But there's life after you. There's hope and love. That's my closure. I'm ready now.

Goodbye, T.

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November night is all in my head like all the memories we used to share. My heart is full of your pictures just like my phone during that summer. I used to think that we were doing fine. But I was wrong. All this time.

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Disappearing

I've lived my whole life without you.  So, it should not be that difficult to get you out off.  You know... my head, my skin, my every single beat. 

Non-sense life.  I do what I have to do. And they usually say there's life after you. 

It feels like fighting against addiction,  All my desires and passions are with ya.

Damn it! I've been missing you;  Your smile, your eyes, your fingertips too. 

Three months have passed already. Ninety days exactly.  It's even colder than before. And I can not feel myself anymore. 

You'd inhaled me until I burn your throat.  And exhaled me like your favorite smoke. 

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Lost my right to be wrong Even my mistakes need to be what they want. Feels wrong to feel anger; And act like a bitch when someone did the same thing just 2 minutes earlier. 

Life is all this bullshit You’re all by yourself even if you have lots of people to count with. Have you ever felt like this before? You want to die and feel your tears burn But you don’t let yourself to cry Because you know your pain is a desire of their own.

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In the middle of the night During summer time We were at the beach;  Feeling the cold water in our feet The weather was warm Just like my fearless love We did not see what was coming next: Your things on my bedroom floor  Memories and pictures to burn Wish I have never met you. Too late to even forget you.

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Juliet and Romeo

How to know if it’s love? Where’s the clue? 

Is it perfect like fairytales? Or just tragic like Juliet and Romeo? 

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Fading

Am I alone?  Or am I fading into your tones?

I couldn’t get anywhere Nor even through your soul

You filled me up with your colors  Left me out and undercovered 

And it’s just another day being yours Forbidden to taste your love 

Hence I’d felt the void  Intense and morbid void

Asleep in this dark eternity Hearing tic-toc daily 

Waiting for your voice  Begging for your touch  Hoping you can find me  Even though you won’t.

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ISIS

On my knee And no air to breathe

A dark hallway  No door, no window Nor anywhere I could stay 

Vanishing taste  Is there any spell I could say? - Please Goddess would you give me your grace? So this pain could finally go away.

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Dear warrior,  I met you a century ago in a chaotic world. Perhaps when you were a boy and I was your girl. We disappear along the universe timeline then we were born again, but separate. The eternity surrounds us such as the embrace of a mother and, for that, I assure you we're gonna keep this love.

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O meu erro sempre foi ir até o fim das coisas. Chego ao extremo em tudo o que me proponho a fazer e sentir. Sangro e suplico pela morte, mas ela nunca vem. Então vivo como um interruptor: sinto tudo ou sinto absolutamente nada e não sossego até a autodestruição.

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Nossa pele entra em contato e lembro-me o quanto te quero. Mais do que te amar, há um sentimento que me preenche e inunda meus sentidos por querer te tocar. É o seu corpo. E todas as vezes que pelo acaso encosta-se ao meu. Mesmo de roupa sinto-me nua e a vontade que me ocorre é de te levar para casa, beijá-la até o caminho do quarto, entre uma parede e outra deixando rastro de roupa, morder seus lábios, beijar seu pescoço e em um instante parar para olhar nos teus olhos e beijar seu sorriso, te fazer sentir o quanto eu desejo você. É você. É você. É você. Que nunca saiu da minha cabe��a, nem mesmo quando tentei seguir em frente e havia outra tentando ocupar teu lugar. É você. Sempre será você.

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