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Seeing my boyfriend be muscular and fit is just extra motivation for me to become the skinny, dainty, fragile girlfriend he deserves ‼️🔥

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I'm so mad I've been eating in a deficit of 800 cals for the past week and I have not been losing an ounce of weight it's just not going below that 55kgs mark, no it kept fluctuating between 55.5 and 55.1 even, I am so mad at myself I don't even know what's wrong

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I'm gonna eat ice cubes, loads of them, as breakfast/lunch from now on because I keep eating instead of drinking water so I hope this'll help

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I did 50k steps today to make up for the 25k I didn't do yesterday. I'm gonna be honest, my right knee was already in bad shape, but now it's aching so much I'm close to crying lmao

Gonna take it slower from now on

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Goal for myself to hit tomorrow: 25k+ steps

We gon' be power walking to the moon

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Fasting rn so my only meal of the day can be a tub of halotop ice cream muhahahahaha

-320 kcal

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I want to get so thin and sickly I land in the hospital or get taken out of my mom's home. I'm middle eastern so you know how the culture is, you're not allowed out of the house unless you're married.. I have an abusive father (his side of the family is insane too) and brother who both went to jail so if I move out without an excuse they'll kill me anyway so might aswell land myself in the hospital yk

It sounds dangerous but man it's probably the best idea I've had in a while

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My mom got a hula hoop and it's such a fun way to get some exercise in for anyone that hates moving around (like me) 😭

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Dude I can't wait to get to my ugw and buy ALL of the pretty clothes in stores, I have cute clothes right now too but I just don't feel as pretty in them yk :(

I will also get a haircut!! I don't have money saved up for nothing..

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Omg now that I've gotten into the rhythm of liquid fasting I'm so at peace with myself I finally don't feel guilty or disgusting and I can indulge in my favourite beverage: diet coke!!

Lmao it was actually on sale today in stores and you KNOW I had to take my chance hahaha

Stay skinny! <3 ✨

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I'm gonna set clear rules for myself from now on so I don't make any more exceptions

-water fast a minimum of 3 days a week

-no more than 800 calories a day

-try to eat around 500 a day

-no processed sugars

-8 glasses or 5 bottles of water a day

-if I binge I must fast for the next 5 days as punishment

-weigh ins I'll change to every week so I don't get demotivated

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today I binged really badly and I'm really not in the headspace to continue restricting for today, tomorrow I'm gonna water fast though, so wish me luck UPDATE/EDIT: My binge was around a 1100 calories I'd say and I burned 305 calories, so I change my mind I'm gonna restrict for the rest of the day and then starve for 5 days (water fast only) I've done this before I gained a bunch of weight last year and it worked charms, omg I'm so happy I didn't go further!!

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I ate breakfast this morning but I'm gonna fast for the rest of the day!! The breakfast was 245 calories (sandwich + small chocolate). I'm gonna go on a walk with my boyfriend after we're done working so I hope I'll burn all of it off! Stay positive <3 ✨

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I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

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I'm on my period and the cramps were so bad I impulsively ate a chocolate croissant.. 230 calories!!

That plus warm soup is ~370 cal in total (upped it to stay on the safe side)

Sigh, at least I'm gonna be burning calories at work

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Gonna update my CW weekly(decided to do it daily anyway) on this post to motivate me to keep goinngg!! It's fine if its stayed the same or hasn't changed much, that just means I gotta keep going harder

CW: 50.9kgs(I FINALLY GOT OUT THE PLATEAU 😭)

Keep going lovelies <3 ✨

[actuallypookie]

Try a liquid fast today or tomorrow! I've only really done water fasts and I never realized how fun a liquid fast can be, guess I'm a slow learner lol 😭

Love ya, good luck <3 ✨