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[bykatnav]

On jobs and self-worth

A job is a job, and we are the ones who bring meaning into our jobs.

Is it about building something for the greater good?

Is it about getting an award and the respect of everyone?

Is it about the salary we'll get to purchase the things we want?

For the longest time, I thought the job was my contribution to the world. It is a part of me, so the mistakes and the KPIs reached were all ME. My worth was based on my salary, and how people perceived me was based on how flashy my job title was. Everything was about work. I was busy, burnout, and feeling oh-so-important.

And then...

I got kids who needed me and asked for me. Now I'm questioning everything above. If those are true, why am I feeling so lost and taken advantage of?

Was the award worth all the overtime?

Was being the head worth all the mind space where I got ticked off with my kids asking for attention?

Is the 2 weeks off enough to compensate for my missed weekends?

[bykatnav]

On Anger and Lashing Out

When everything seems aggrevating, and you just want to lash out at the world, remember you can retreat to your journal and just write.

Write and breathe.

Let it all out.

The paper listens to you without bias. Just listens so you can get all your feelings and thoughts out.

You can pause and process. Probably, write out some more.

Through this, eventually, you'll be able to feel a bit better. Reflect and gain some insights without the world telling you what to do or how to feel.

Then you can express yourself more constructively.

Better than regurgitating words, incomprehensible because of the anger and whatever it was that you were initially feeling.

So...

When you want to lash out, remember to go in.