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do not forget the patron saint of these weeks that we celebrate ourselves proudly and openly in the streets

her name was Marsha P Johnson, and we have her to thank for so much.

remember, the first Pride was a riot, and she was one of the brave souls who endured it to help carve the path which so many of us walk today. she helped found several activist groups regarding LGBT safety and wellbeing. and she was absolutely radiant, too.

thank you, Marsha. we remember you.

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Had some good weed. My friend has good shit though my tolerance, to my surprise, is high compared to the THC levels I got.

Still got a nice buzz.

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The demons are pleased to know more and more people are getting into demonolatry. But please---- for the love of all things infernal, enjoy being one of us. And be sincere. This isn't the path for the faint of heart because one needs to embrace the darkness that exists in Hell and Earth, but the reward is so oh rewarding.

Be sincere in this path and you'll have sincere experiences with demonic entities and like-minded people.

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Mama doing blep:P

my climbable mama

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How did you know that's my childhood???

i feel like fire placements especially risings as toddlers probably ran everywhere causing chaos

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The Ascendant & What Your Birth May Represent

The 12th House represent the womb, while the first, and especially the ascendant represents birth. The ascendant and 1st House can describe how your birth impacted your parents or family and your parents/family's expectations of you from a young age.

Aries Ascendant - May be someone's first child, the first child in a family to do something, parents/family have high hopes for them, may expect them to be their own person, expect them to win or be the best, their birth may represent a fresh start to their parent(s). Your birth may have surprised a family member. Family may expect you to be confident and/or ambitious.

Taurus Ascendant - Your birth likely was seen as something beautiful and/or expected/highly planned. Your birth could have been traditional in some way. Parent(s) or family expect peace, dependability, loyalty, obedience, hard work, and patience from you. Your birth may have stabilized or strengthened someone, a couple, or a family. Family may nurture your practicality, creativity, and determination.

Gemini Ascendant - Expectations from family members are likely varied, maybe changeable. A family member may constantly change what they expect from you. Each family member may expect something vastly different. Your birth may have brought family together even if it was temporary, especially family that may be estranged, distant, or rivalries. Family expectations likely revolve around intellect, academia, or social skills and standing. Your birth may bring energy or youthfulness back to a family member. Your birth may have greatly impacted your sibling(s). Your birth may have been the talk of the family or the town, for better or worse. You may have a reputation at a very young age, if not immediately.

Cancer Ascendant - Parents, especially the mother may have been working hard for your birth, maybe wishing and praying for it often. This could indicate a difficult birth or just a lot of preparation work from your family. One parent or family member likely stands out the most in their expectations of you. Your birth may have been very private, traditional, and/or with extra protection or care. You are expected to be understanding, loyal to family, and caring. During your birth and infanthood you likely were highly cherished. Your parents/family were highly sensitive, receptive, and intuitive in the earliest moments of your life. May expect you to be sensitive, shy, fragile or the complete opposite - strong, enduring, hard, usually little room for anything in-between. Your birth may have been the catalyst to family bonding or healing.

Leo Ascendant - The golden child is born! Expectations for this baby tend to be HIGH, grand, and may involve wealth, legacy, tradition, and/or honor. Parents/family take a lot of pride in their new child and role as guardians. Excitement, celebration, and joy revolve around your birth. Family may want your genuine happiness, to follow your heart, while some family members may try to control you. Pay attention to the family that supports you. Family expects you to lead by example, be decisive, and be your whole self or always your best self. Your birth was likely big news in the family or community. Expectations at times can feel larger than life. Family may have supported their creativity, passion, and individuality. Your birth was approached with affection, admiration, passion, and devotion. Family could have nurtured self-esteem a lot.

Virgo Ascendant - Parents may have expected you to be perfect, productive, or supportive. Parents may see you as pure, innocent, timid, or good-hearted. Expectations may be very high at a young age or even before you were born. Your family may have high practical and academic expectations. May be the good news or celebration in a time of misfortune for the family. Can signify the start of healing for a family member or dynamic. Your birth may have been memorable and/or a lot of thought likely went into preparing for you.

Libra Ascendant - Parents/family may expect you to bring peace to the family, to mend ties. Parents likely see your birth as something positive, idealistic, beautiful, and deserved. May expect you to be easygoing, level-headed, and cooperative. Your birth may bring a lot of family members together and can promote harmony. You may be the favorite baby in the family or at least the new favorite. Family members tend to adore you, be jealous of your birth, and/or accommodate you.

Scorpio Ascendant - May have been born during a dark or intense time in the family. May have a difficult birth. Expectations may surround emotional needs of the parents/family. You may be expected to make sacrifices for your family, to be the healer and motivator, maybe the inheritor to a family's power, business, wealth, traditions, etc. Your birth was a transformative power in your family's lives. One family member likely stood out in their bond with you which was highly intimate, deep, and influential compared to any other relative. You are expected to be fiercely loyal to your family. Your birth may have brought sensitivity, vulnerability, and introspection to many family members.

Sagittarius Ascendant - Your birth may be a spiritual experience for your parent(s), may be the family's "hope" somehow, associated with parents having a lot of optimism towards your birth, parents may feel "blessed" by your life/birth. Your birth may be an awakening of some kind to a family member or a moment of truth. May have been born far away from your homeland or culture. Family expects you to go far in life. Expectations may be grandiose or even unrealistic, abstract, or misleading. Family may expect you to have a happy life or to chase what you love. Is expected to be generous, funny, carefree, and honest. Family may put a lot of moral expectations on you, always seeing you as "good" ethically or spirituality.

Capricorn Ascendant - Your birth may have given your parents a great purpose, your birth could have been purposeful. Expectations may be very demanding or burdening. May have been expected to mature quickly. Expectations may also be highly centered on career, wealth, and reputation. Birth may have been traditional and/or possibly challenging. Birth may have been a major focus for their father or grandparents. Family may see your birth as something planned and expected, an advantage, a great responsibility, hard work, or a reward. Your family or a family member may mature and grow a lot due to your birth. Your birth may have also stabilized a situation, family, or parents. You could have been a bossy baby or demanded a lot of attention. But being a very "well-behaved" baby is also associated.

Aquarius Ascendant- Their birth was likely unusual in some way (of course). Their birth may have also been sudden or chaotic. Their birth likely brought a lot of people together, or the polar opposite, was very private, separated, or away. Their birth could have been from an act of rebellion. Expectations may revolve around intellectual, academic, or social standards. Expectations may be around independence, but also possibly being a rule follower. Expectations may have been uncommon compared to their peers or society. Their birth could be seen as something hopeful, new, exciting, or shocking. Expectations may come from their community, friends, or a group or organization they are apart of from a young age more so than their family. Strong expectations may have come from someone or something outside of the family and their family helps enforce this lifestyle, belief, or goals held by the outsiders. May also have expectations that are rebellious against some sort of group the family is apart of or used to be apart of. Expectations may revolve a lot around cooperation, adaptability, social intelligence, and social influence. Birth may have felt like something insightful or enlightening to the parent(s).

Pisces Ascendant - Birth may have felt mystical, spiritual, or even religious to their family. Birth may have helped a family member become more empathetic or tolerant. Expectations may be fantastical or unrealistic. Parents or family may be highly open-minded in expectations for you. Parents or family could be very supportive and forgiving. Expectations could revolve around emotional intelligence, adaptability, and perception. Family may expect you to be sensitive, fragile, and/or easily influenced. Family may nurture creativity, empathy, and people skills.

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My past is not today.

I'm still learning. Still growing as a person. And still on a journey of discovering who I am.

And whatever mistakes I made along the way are scars---- not a prison sentence.

I need to remind myself of this.

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I haven't fallen from grace.

I've fallen from expectations. I've freed myself from chains that bound me to pain. And I've faced greater agony as a wild animal clawing and tearing at myself until my soul broke free.

I'm a free spirit. In the most literal sense of the words. And you don't even know. I don't think anyone will ever truly know.....

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the path you're taking. | ^_^

details: basically a SIX pile reading that focuses on the future path laid out for you. remember, nothing is set in stone. this reading will read CURRENT you's energy. it will focus on any/all significant aspects of your life. choose a pile that calls you AFTER you've looked at all of them. it can be inaccurate (or very accurate) if you choose on a whim, which is why i recommend looking at them all and following your gut instinct.

!!!!!!!!!this is a very heavy reading. please only read it if you're in a good mental health space. there are some triggers in multiple piles, so i highly suggest you DON'T READ IT AT ALL if you are EASILY TRIGGERED!!!!!!!!!

this does not have to resonate. i am a 17 year old tarot reader and by no means a professional, and this does not mean that my readings mesh with you!!

p1.

i think a lot of you may be overwhelmed with the future. many of you see that there are a lot of possibilities ahead of you; you're not quite sure whether you should choose what your heart is telling you, or what others expect of you. there might be the dilemma of choosing what would make you happy, and what would be most profitable. deep down, you know which one you should choose, even if you feel a little bit (or a lot) of regret facing the other choice. a lot of you may face some grief later on, abandonment wounds coming up as all things do catch up to us eventually, pile 1.

a lot of you can feel guilty, at first. for those of you who are planning on marrying, you are most likely going to be the one that's the asset between you and your partner. you guys have a deep glow about you and for most, your partner is happy enough to sit back and observe their beautiful, bright sun. for others? be careful not to attract a husband/spouse that will be jealous of your glow. unfortunately, a lot of men are stuck in the energy of seeing successful people, especially women, as competitors. make sure that you have friends, family, and romantic partners that want all of you, and hold no spite toward the choices that you make, and the glow that you possess.

many of you who are participating in higher education may study in a more urban area, or end up living in one. something about those places calls you and you feel drawn to them. some of you are my ladies in stemmm and congrats. i think that a lot of you are very talented individuals even though you underestimate yourself; so don't worry too deeply about being financially successful. you guys are resourceful and don't mind doing jobs as long as you're respected, which is definitely something to look out for. a lot of people can be a bit disturbed by your personality, but that is neverrr your fault. many people don't like seeing people like you win, whatever that means for you; but your glow cannot be dulled, my darling.

i think a lot of you will be traveling, which means a commute to work or perhaps changing homes/countries. while a lot of you are afraid of this, many are happy and see this as a way of finally spreading your wings. i was on the school bus today and thought of this phrase i've heard; 'never cage a bird that loves its flight'. nothing will be able to bind you down to a place you hate, pile 1. so for a lot of you who are/have been/will be in toxic relationships, you'll be able to leave. i think that a lot of you should understand that you have this deep ability to change within you. you will be abundant anywhere you go, babycakes.

p2.

i'm hearing that most of you so far have had a difficult life. a lot of you have seen the worst people around you win and be happy, especially toxic family members and parents, and you have a deep doubt of your own morals and your own nature as a person. you also have this large desire to please people and to make them love you by being an easier pill to swallow. the first part of your future will definitely be reworking these wounds if you choose to. if you don't, it can definitely cloud up any potential that you have, because a lot of opportunities are ahead of you, but you must recognize your worth while just EXISTING instead of dedicating your whole life to prove that you fit into your own concept of 'worth'.

despite this, i am hearing that the happy ending you desire is in your hands. you have a lot of control over what happens next, but you need to get rid of the illusion of a life that other people want for you. you will only be happy if you follow what YOUR PATH is. what YOUR CALLING is. not what other people want you to do. i think you're more on the artsy side of the spectrum of work; this can range from fashion work, graphic design, to even the more spiritual side of jobs. your future job prospects will be very correlated with your ability to express yourself. your voice is meant to be heard, and your art is meant to be seen. a focal lesson of your life will be learning how to deal with criticism from people, and how to keep doing what you're doing despite the voices that tell you that what you're doing is wrong.

many of you are in your 20s/30s and are still dealing with figuring what you want out; a specific message for you is that you're not too 'old' to be feeling this way. sometimes life takes a while to truly feel like it fits you. you have not met all of the versions of you that exist. many of you also have this deep desire to find peace and stability, particularly within other people. i think you'll definitely have the kind of love story where you meet someone and your intuition tells you that they're the one, even though you may doubt it a bit. for most of you, your future spouse won't necessarily be the person you expect. the version of them you have written in your head won't fit like a glove, but get this; it can be even better than you expect. a lot of you think you have high standards, and i don't necessarily agree with that...but i do think that you shouldn't hold such a specific version of a person to the light, y'know?

ooh. so the same card that fell out in the start of the reading fell out again. you guys can interpret this as you want, but for me, i think it symbolizes a completion of a cycle that you guys have been taking this lifetime to learn. a lot of growth will happen and at times it can feel like an endless circle of death, but at the end, you'll be at peace and recovering from the constant growth that you experienced. your path is not meant to be easy, pile 2. but it's meant to be rewarding.

p3.

a lot of you are going to flourish in whatever you're insecure about. many of you deal with crippling anxiety that can leave you with physical symptoms, and as you grow older, many of you will realize (or have realized) that to deal with physical problems, you have to have physical solutions. yoga, pilates, going on walks...you know what i'm talking about. many of you may have struggled with addictions or grown up with a relative that did, and this deeply affected your psyche and your ability to latch onto things without having a deep desire to completely and utterly possess them or have control of them. people pride you on your leadership and your ability to be strong, but they never seem to see the story behind it.

i think this life is meant to teach you security within yourself. a lot of you may perceive this as being alone, but the truth is, you're never truly alone. your ancestors, guides...whatever your belief system is, they're all rallying behind you. i think that this life is also meant to show you that you guys are truly divine, capable souls. you guys are great manifestors, and great people in general; hearts of gold, and you'd genuinely do anything that'd benefit the world. i think this life will definitely be returning all of your own inputs back to you, even though right now, you probably don't feel like it. i think many of you genuinely didn't think you'd make it this far, and now that you're here, you're experiencing this deep fear of 'what do i do, with all of this?' you guys have that main character vibe and many of you are genuine, unique people who others want to keep in their life, because that little nicheness you have? SOOO OBVIOUS. you guys are the stars, the night, and the moon, all in one.

you have a charisma that is so visible. many of you will be dealing with being seen, in your life, in many different ways. many of you that want fame will achieve it; those that desire to be understood will get it. you guys do have a strong-rooted fear of being vulnerable and exposing parts of yourselves to others, but as you go through this life, it'll become easier and easier to you. many will become mentor like figures to others, particularly younger souls (this can manifest as literal kids, or younger figures, such as students/pupils, coworkers, etc).

a lot of you will most likely end up with a future spouse that has gone down the same path you did. many of you already don't want to date someone who's 'perfect'; you understand that someone who's conventionally attractive, rich, etc. the perfect version that is very often idealized in media isn't someone who would necessarily benefit you at the end of the day. hair grays and skin sags, so a temporary feel-good wouldn't suit you. i do think that you guys will end up with someone who compliments you, and it'll heal a part of you that feared you would never find true joy in another person, due to your own 'complexity'.

p4.

many of you guys feel overlooked your whole life. nestled in the darkness, while others bathed in the light. many of you struggle with insecurities that were instilled on you by societal norms or older maternal/feminine figures that critiqued you unjustly due to their own fractured view of themselves. you hate doing things with other people and you'd much rather do them alone, partly because you know you can handle them, partly because you don't trust others, and partly because you don't want to burden others with your own problems. some of you struggled making friends growing up, and when you actually meet people who seem to like you, you're kind of like 'uhhhh right so this is a trick'.

a lot of you may end up unconventionally happy. NOW, before you get scared, let me explain. this may not be as dramatic as you think; for a lot of you, you may end up dating/marrying someone outside of your culture, which can break your relationship with your family (honestly...for some of you, good.). you may also start to break generational patterns and you're like 'mann i don't wanna do this work' but it'll truly make you happy in the end. unconventional happiness can be not having kids, or not marrying, OR just having a job/marrying someone with a job that's not a popular one, whatever. you guys are breaking norms simply by existing, and by the time you do, you're not going to give one flying fuck about what others think of you. you guys are gonna be like the rich aunt who has a history with the family. younger members will look up to you.

you guys are very impulsive people and don't have strong attachments to things, which can definitely be a benefit in some situations, however in others...you guys have a crippling fear of commitment because you believe everything is temporary, and this can really hurt the people around you if you never heal. while the other piles had open endings, there's two major ways i can see your life going; you decide that you want a good life for yourself and you start to heal and recover from the hellhole that was your younger years, and the other one is you giving up and starting to fall into old habits that leave you stranded in pain and agony until you get back up again. a lot of you may struggle with masculine figures in your life, sometimes you may seek out the feeling of 'safety' you had but is that really safety? many of you are strong women, who picked this pile, and i think that those of you who are struggling right now will be fine, just a small message.

you may have lost a battle, but you won the war. in the longer span of your life, you'll be happy. you will hold a lot of resentment for the system and people that failed you, and you will act as a guide to other people, similarly to the previous pile, that were stuck just like you. you guys have a deep empathy within you and you easily understand what others go through, which will make you a very understanding elder. romantically, there's two major paths for you too; fall for the same toxic patterns in people, or actually allow someone to see you. not every person that likes you is a trick!!!! many of you may meet your actual future spouse later in life. they'll probably be on the quieter side and what attracts you to them is the fact that they're deeply observant and actually seem to notice you, for WHO YOU ARE, deep inside that stubborn little shell of yours, rather than the image of yourself you try to put out.

p5.

you guys have hella trust issues and you're the kind of person who's verrryyy careful financially and in all aspects of life. you are blunt, honest, and deeply loyal to your friends and family. you guys tend to attract people who are loud and charming, and they kinda like you because you're sooo mysterious and alluring. shy smiles, and such a pretty face! your body is really pretty too. sorry for gushing 😔😔. BUT YEAH. a lot of you have this deep maternal energy within you and people notice this. you most likely will end up working/already do in a field that has to do with care. social workers, stay-at-home parent, teacher, etc. you guys are terribly warm people and a lot of animals and kids and women feel particularly safe with you. you uplift others without putting others down, and people think you're such a sweetheart. especially your smile. i don't know why i feel like i have to keep saying that but your smile is made of sugar spice and everything nice :)

many of you will end up with a quiet, peaceful life. you guys will truly take great care in making sure that your future is one of sweet treasures and moments of utter calm, rather than taking the easy way out and rushing through difficult processes. you guys possess a deep wisdom within you that allows you to be very committed to your goals and passions, which is ultimately the reason that you'll find security. your love is definitely going to be a focal point/lesson in this lifetime; it's the reason that you'll end up happy. you guys are the kind of people who forgive but don't forget, and your strong boundaries will definitely end up saving you many times in your future. you guys are also willing to communicate with others and work with them, which will prevent future arguments with coworkers and potential partners.

i think that i've already gushed a lot about your job prospects (you'll be fine, babe), but as for family life? many of you do desire companions. many have faced losses early on in life and you yearn for stability and softness, especially since you guys may have had family members that weren't able to show those qualities to you. you guys will have soo much intimate moments in your future, i swear. all those grocery shopping trips, all those movie nights, you'll get it all. i think many of you do struggle with patience but you're very hopeful people, so keep that up!! don't let time beat you up. everything happens on its own timeline, and listen, many of you already have a deep gut feeling that you'll end up happy, so...keep those dreams. keep your chin up. you know who you are, at the end of the day. it's never worth giving up on looking for that romcom love.

you'll end up living a long life, full of interesting moments. i think a lot of you will end up keeping a collection of journals, poems, scrapbooks, etc. that you'll end up passing onto your kids/or other younger members. you guys will truly be a spotlight for others, and they'll look to your life and your lineage for reassurance that a life of miracles and softness is truly possible. my last bit of advice for you is to never lose your belief in humanity. it is what has gotten you this far, and it'll be very useful for you later on. but also, remember that just because you're a sweetheart, doesn't mean it's your responsibility to deal with other people's bullshit. thank youuu <3

p6.

woww you guys have a deep richness inside of you. very dense with goodness, LMAO. always giving. but seriously, you guys are DOGGEDLY loyal and would do anything for your heart. a lot of you faced several problems early on; miniature adults who faced adversities way earlier than they should have. many had to act as a parent. some as an older sibling. eldest daughters here?!?! youngest daughters that ended up having to support the parents?!?! hiii. you guys feel indebted to the world, as if you have to earn something back. you guys have a deep sense of justice and people probably told you 'you should be a lawyer' before, although it wasn't always necessarily meant nicely. people try to give you backhanded compliments due to jealousy or insecurity. you guys genuinely see the good in others and it feels sooo good to be loved by you. you guys are very tender with your specific people, and others feel so graced that you let your guard up. 'i only have eyes for you'.

many of you will be intensely dedicated to your job, passion, or family. you guys don't just have a deep sense of loyalty for people, but also for other things. you guys are good, conscientious workers, and you see light in everything. but you guys also aren't afraid to stand up for what's right. you bear a lot of weight on your back. many will end up working in higher-end positions because of your dedication and your ambition. you guys deal with a similar problem that one of the other piles had; feeling like you're only good because of your achievements, not because of your existence. your optimism and creativity will carry you far, as well as your general acceptance of other people, even though they might be different from you. you have an understanding that not everyone (including you) had it easy growing up, and you feel drawn to people who have experienced suffering early on. you used to have a savior complex, but for most of you, this died away/will die away because you do recognize that you're not meant to save others, that it's their own path to heal, just like you did. you guys are willing to grow and are very determined to become a better, stronger person, not lingering in self-destructive behaviors or unhealthy connections.

your future spouse will be a figure that you yearned for your whole life. they'll see you as someone almost mystical, at first. very drawn to you, particularly to your physical looks; not just your beauty, but the hint of pain under your eyes. they will probably be someone who suffered but in the other way that you did, and deep conversations are likely. many may try to 'save' you but end up realizing you're already healed, and you can be a catalyst for change for a lot of them. either way, you'll end up in a healthy relationship, i think. it'll be a reward for not giving up, and choosing to be alone rather than to be stuck with someone who's toxic as hell. your intuition will lead you here, as well as your judgement of others who you know would end up breaking you or destroying you. you guys will end up being the powerhouse of your surroundings, and you guys would be great mothers/nurturers due to your ability to nourish others. you guys accept that life is but a fleeting moment in the grand scheme of things, and you are able to provide a lot of comfort to others. your future spouse will probably be similar, and you two will oftentimes be the only pairs of arms that holds the other, as primarily, you both have been givers your whole life.

you'll struggle with a lot of imposter syndrome in your life, because of the sacrifices you made. however, you will recognize that you truly deserve the goodness in your life. your whole path will be made of learning, and although you may get tired of constantly growing, you will always have the ability to bask in the arms of loved ones. you will end up making great, lifelong friends--you will always be progressing, and you will forge a life that accustoms you wholeheartedly. i would not have any doubt for you, at all, darling. you will end up in a bustling environment, for the most part, but you'll have your sweet moments; resting near your future spouse, or listening to music and dancing in your room. you'll be fine.