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"You do not have to be baptised in blood. Pain is no virtue and your silence is not holy. Speak up."

-What my Brain came up with half asleep. The woman who told me this was tall, (inhumanly so, think two grown men standing on each others shoulders) and had patterns like a faun?? no antlers or anything but had floppy ears and a cute little tail?

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I LIVE FOR PLATONIC DISPLAYS OF AFFECTION 💛💛

let me tell my friends how much i mean to them. let them rest their head on my shoulders. let me hold their hand. let me show my friends how much i care Goddamnit!!!

i want to let my friend call me mom and trust me when their stressed, i want to call someone my husband/wife entirely platonically, i want to hold onto their sleeves so i don't get lost in crowds and i want to head but them like a cat and i want to nibble on them very gently. and i want it to be platonic!??? am i so wrong for that?!??

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i am generally unlikable. this isn't a self pity thing, no this is an objective truth, one i actively acknowledge.

i overshare when i first meet people, i make stupid mistakes and do really weird things: make weird sounds.

unfortunately, it's a habit of things i did on purpose as a kid. that's the vibe check. i'm annoying you? you are too weak willed. (i do weird shit, but if i find a boundary i will shift gears, the weird trial i do is accessible.) I come off strong so i can be gentle once i get to know you.

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Sibling relationships are so silly, like:

i say i despise you, i wear your clothes because they feel more like home then any house ever did.

I curse you out, when you look into my eyes, all there is is a reflection of your own

I bit you and never apologised, i taught you how to do your hair when you grew it out.

i'm you in all the worst ways, your younger sibling.

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Do dogs know who they used to be? when they back and howl do they wait for a packs response? do they with their teeth were sharper to hunt for their family? do you think it hurts their soul not to nip their pack like they would in the wild? to not provide, hunt or scavenge?

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The worst part about growing up is realising just how many time someone should have helped you, but ignored all the obvious signs. I could not have possibly known what was happening, i was five.

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big soft warm lady told me in my selpy rime "who would come if you screamed? who would love you when your blood stained their hands?" like bitch the aldrich horrs ar really late on thaat shoit i am loved mf

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"Do you think frogs miss their gills when the flood comes?" i'm still trying to figure this out, but this is the only explanation listed???

I just found a note in my notes app reading "Frogs are a metaphor for formerly gifted children" and i'm trying to follow my thought process there??

like heh??? what

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I just found a note in my notes app reading "Frogs are a metaphor for formerly gifted children" and i'm trying to follow my thought process there??

like heh??? what

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What do you do when someone says "I'm sorry" like a practiced prayer? when it's on their lips quicker than even the mistake they seem to think they made? When it's said like a plea to a sky they can only assume is empty, but with knees bloody from kneeling regardless?

Who made you so scared? Why are you so afraid of your own mistakes?

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Enemies to lovers is great, but what about Enemies to Brothers??

We went from holding knives to each others throats to a tight knit found family that would die for eachother

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We all adore Laika the space dog, and she deserves it.

but no one talks about Félicette, a french cat sent into space. She was sent up with electrodes in her brain, and electrocuted during the flight to stimulate her legs and muscles to move. Félicette survived the flight only to be euthanised so that her brain could be studied.

Félicette was chosen on a mission, survived despite the challenge only to be put down.

Félicette had been trained with 13 other cats. one was sent up after her, but upon a failed launch, the second cat had been exploded. most did not survive.

A monument was only erected 50 years after her space flight.

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AWWWW THE BOY!!!

also rooster as a mermaid is the funniest thing, the man has seen an ocean

Its mermay bitchs :333

LOOK AT HIMMM AUGHHVFHH

more mermaids soon

@dingodoodles

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dang, touching grass sounds awful, why the hell would i do that

Having mosquito bites AND blisters on your feet is the worst thing ever, which of you smug little hooligans let me go outside without supervision?

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i'm in my little box of my blog and the five people who see me rambling like a lunatic gently toss me breadcrumbs and go on with their day.

Thank you for the bread crumbs 😋

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i looked at the child i once was in the mirror. she didn't speak to me, but she split her ham sandwich in half when my stomach growled.

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i've been informed that this is called "sleeping". sounds fake idk.

someone PLEASE turn me off and on again, i am malfunctioning.