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Everywhere you walk, there's fabric. Textile waste everywhere.

We dug down over 8 feet, and still haven't reached the end of some of these tangles and mounds. Eventually it makes its way out to sea, and so we believe the sea floor looks exactly like this, if not much worse because all the stuff has sunk.

It's going to shock you, what you see, entering our tests. Out of the ten millilitres of water filtered, we had 96 microfiber counts. Fast fashion is causing much damage to our water bodies. We need to be worried because more clothes are being made, more of them are coming into the country, and literally into the lagoon.

From the beginning of the supply chain to the end, we're all being exploited.

— Brandy Hellville & The Cult of Fast Fashion (2024)

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Fandom Problem #4403:

Do fanpol know that most "normal people" are capable of watching / reading problematic or questionable content, properly identifying certain parts are problematic or questionable, going "yeaahh that part was a little yikes" then continue on watching / reading as normal without having a meltdown over it or accusing the author and every other person who's read / watched and enjoys it an any capacity of endorsing every single action and idea presented in the work?

Sometimes its necessary to go "yikes" and then move on with your fucking life. If the "yikes" is TOO Yikes for you to continue on, that's totally fine, but don't act like everyone else having a higher Yikes tolerance think everything is absolutely fine.

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Everyone on April 1st this year

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It always makes me seethe to read idiotic labels like "fandom wank" being slapped onto things like cyber bullying and serial harassment in fandom.

I am sorry, but driving people to self harm and otherwise question their morals over fictional material, especially when in many cases the fictional material isn't actually even offensive, via constant surveillance and chastisement of whatever they write and enjoy, goes well beyond inconsequential acts of online goofiness.

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Biker!Jayfeather

Since he is blind, he customized the med-bike to run on electricity, that way its way more silent and makes it possible for him to drive and navigate using echolocation! Since there are always a limited amount of resources for the motorbikes, he is the only one who currently use an electric motorbike and no you cant borrow it. It takes fkn forever to recharge ok. Dont touch his bike.

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PLEASE UNMUTE THIS. PLEASE. 

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Illustration I did for the Il Monstro zine once again with @vermilionzines! Obviously inspired by the iconic Mizumono episode, who could forget??

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FINALLY watched Centaurworld and very glad i did

ID:

Illustration of Wammawink and Waterbaby from Centaurworld dancing and singing in front of a rainbow

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apparently it is morally wrong to have a crush/sexual feelings for anyone in general. Like. the whole 'dont sexualize literal people ewwww.' i really really wish less teens were on the internet because of this kind of stuff. we are mass-producing mental illness and i am not kidding.

like imagine being 15, having a crush on someone in your class, going on the internet, and being bombarded with all sorts of people saying its wrong to experience sexual thoughts towards people in your peer group. its wrong for adults to have sexual thoughts about other adults. its even more wrong for you, a teen, to have sexual thoughts about your classmates.

you are 16 now and very lucky to be in therapy with a well off enough family. you confess to your therapist how evil you are for wanting to touch or look at that one girl in your class. she looks at you with confusion, like how your mother looks at you when you ask her why you have a computer and your friend doesn't. why is it fair. everyone's confused about you and you are confused too. you're evil, you must be, because you have dirty disgusting feelings. you deserve to be mocked online, says dogluvr15089. you're an evil monster, says @Official Priest of West California. you're a pervert and sexual predator, says fandom_m0m321. they have stupid names and no faces-- but if all of them are saying it then it must have some truth to it, right? your therapist is saying something but you don't hear her, you're in your head wondering if you should punish yourself, how you should punish yourself. when you're back in the room with her you ask her what's wrong with you. she writes you a diagnosis for ocd and anxiety. you take the drugs, like the good, righteous, pure teenager you want to be. they make you feel weirdly empty, and not very hungry, and kinda sleepy. they might give you dementia in your 50s but who cares. you deserve it for being gross. you look through the comments even on other people's stuff, the comments telling them the same thing you were told. you're still punishing yourself for natural feelings-- seeking out the same degrading bullying when you don't get enough of it. you don't tell your therapist you are doing this; because you know she would tell you to stop and you don't want to stop. it's a compulsion. you talked about those last Tuesday.

you're 17. you haven't asked anyone out. by some miracle, a girl who likes you takes the initiative. you stumble through the date awkwardly and anxiously, trying not to touch her, flinching away when your fingers brush over a cheap burger. she asks if you're okay, and then asks, "don't you like me?" She asks, "why do you look like you're scared of me or something?" You stay silent. But then when it happens again, she gets up to leave and the rejection causes the dam to break. You try not to cry, because that's Emotional Manipulation. You choose your words carefully, because you don't want to accidentally Gaslight her like the evil thing you are. You stumble through it but you tell her you're sorry, you tell her you've never had the chance to date. You tell her, shaking like a leaf, like a dumb idiot, that you really really like her and she's very pretty and you're scared to say Hot or Sexy so you don't. And you tell her you're scared. You're really scared she'll see you're a bad person and leave you for someone more pure and good. You try really hard to phrase it like a PR team would. She tells you that's ridiculous, laughing like sunshine and kisses and god, sex. But most of all you've never heard someone so flippantly tell you how ridiculous of a notion that is. She makes you feel brave. You tell her what people have been telling you, scared that you're Trauma Bonding her but pushing through. She, with more surprise, again tells you it's ridiculous. She's not laughing anymore, but you want to make her laugh. You ask with a voice too small for your age if its okay you think her laugh is really sexy. She smiles so brightly its blinding, and says she thinks you're sexy too. You hold hands when you leave together. You go on more dates later, and the two of you talk about your problems and your dreams. And she shows you how to yell at "internet dumbasses." And you still go to therapy except this time you think it's working, because this time you Get It. You get it's ridiculous, and you're happy enough to try to heal.

And you know what? You're one of the lucky few that got that chance. Many teens struggle with mental health problems due to the internet. Not all of them are caused by this purity bullshit. Some of it is body image-- accounts that encourage eating disorders and low self-esteem. Some of it is trends and feeling lonely and unlikeable. Social media doesn't just excaberate mental illness. Sometimes it really and truly produces it and this fact needs more awareness.

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Scenery for Kafei!

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note: am v aware i have horrible taste lol

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"How can someone write a Marvel character but hate the MCU lol, it doesn't make sense?!"

"You're not a real Marvel fan if you don't like the MCU!"

"Get out of this fandom MCU hater!"

Can I just say:

"The MCU" isn't synonymous with "Marvel". Stop using it interchangeably.

And no, you don't need to like the MCU to be a "real Marvel fan".

You know why? Because the MCU is written by a bunch of specific writers, led by producers with a specific vision, and it has a specific mainstream style, and not everyone is gonna like that. Nobody's freaking out if you hate certain comic book runs due to the writers, whether because the writing is too silly or dark or inconsistent, so why freak out if someone hates the MCU? It's basically the same as a long comic book run.

It's so dumb that someone can read years of comics and love the characters, but feel lukewarm or negative about the MCU's take on that character, then get fingers pointed at them because apparently they're "not a real fan" just because of that.

TLDR, stop being ignorant gatekeepers just because you wanna feel like you're part of an exclusive in-group.

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He so badass

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tw: Reblog bait/people trying to guilt others into reblogging stuff. I am not actually saying the things below, they're just examples that I have seen.

I fucking hate when people say stuff like this. Especially when it's on a generally good post with valuable information. On the one hand I want to share that information because it could genuinely help someone; on the other, I don't want to spread this type of guilt-tripping and shaming and potentially trigger someone else like me. It's a lose-lose situation. No matter what I do, I am going to feel guilty. No matter what I do, I will feel like a terrible person. It sucks and I just wish people would stop doing this. I know it's shocking, but it is actually possible to make an important and useful post without guilting everyone that sees it into sharing.