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I lost my touch,

I stand behind glass door

Looking as the world rushes past.

I make leaps,

Only to remember

How it hurts falling down.

Down into the abyss;

A bottomless pit.

Would I piece myself back together?

Or would I be too scattered,

Too shattered ?

Would the fates be in my favor,

Salvaging my lost soul,

Guiding it to you;

Brown eyed boy.

Would you be the shining light

To the one lost in the dark.

Break open the glass door;

Taking me along for the ride,

Tell me Would help me find my ground again ?

Should I fall and bet on my fate.

Leaps, I say;

Mercy pleads my heart

Up to the skies above.

LILA.G

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She had madness in her eyes,

The type

Which made you believe

You were enough.

A glance from her

And the very ground I stood upon

Shook.

Reverbing the sweet nothings

Of the night before.

She had madness in her eyes,

The type

You couldn't forget.

Soft kisses and softer hands

Willing you

To bring the world

On its knees,

For just a smile;

Whose reason are you.

She has madness in her eyes

Drowning,

Encompassing,

Fiery madness

Demanding

That I fall.

And I do

Like Icarus did.

A flight for freedom

And a fight of love.

It's all the same

When it's her eyes

I look into.

-LILA.G

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June has a day left.

The place I was in

Most of June

It didn't rain.

But it did

On the last day

In a foreign city.

Light showers telling

'Hope to see you again

Hope your stay was wonderful'

It kissed my cheeks

And bid me farewell.

Like you did,

Only to ask for a new beginning.

It's raining back here in our city;

It was kinder,

June

Has a day left

And I hope

Ours never end.

-LILA.G

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June has a day left.

The place I was in

Most of June

It didn't rain.

But it did

On the last day

In a foreign city.

Light showers telling

'Hope to see you again

Hope your stay was wonderful'

It kissed my cheeks

And bid me farewell.

Like you did,

Only to ask for a new beginning.

It's raining back here in our city;

It was kinder,

June

Has a day left

And I hope

Ours never end.

-LILA.G

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1/4th of June has already passed,

It hasn't rained yet;

Perhaps, that's why

The pain hasn't left.

And I can't help but

Lie

To myself:

It'll be easier tomorrow morning;

With the sky rumbling and pouring

Telling me,

That I'm not the only one who's hurting,

Pitter-patter, Pitter-patter;

Like a hug

Telling me I'm not alone.

-LILA.G

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What stops me

From going through all the plans made up in my head;

Is it the outcome I imagined already?

If it fails and doesn't end like how I planned

Who is to blame for all the lost efforts and sleepless nights?

To let it go mid way

Cause it just isn't working out;

Will giving up,

Make me sleep soundly?

Or will the what ifs haunt me?

The paralysing fear

Of failure

Made me so static;

To give it a shot

Seems like a job,

Rather than a step.

An unwillingly Volunteered

Responsibility;

That's what life seems like.

LILA.G { From: If I spoke honestly, would you listen?}

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Me and you

In an abandoned castle

With moonlight spilling in through its broken windows and walls;

Like lost lovers

Of the past

Met in another lifetime

Oh how gracefully our steps align

A perfect match

Dancing to the tune

Quite unfimiliar to our ears

But it's the rhythm of our souls

-LILA.G

Sweet harmony...❤️

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At 19

Why does it feel

Like my life is over

The best parts of it never came

Yet the worst showed its face

Even before I could recognize mine

2 decades of life

Not lived

If I die today

Would I regret

The years I haven't lived

Or the ones I was alive in

But surely not living.

-LILA.G

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It's mid may,

And the flowers outside my window

Bloomed.

The weather is cooler and wind fresh.

It seems like

June came early;

Would you too ?

-LILA.G

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I love a bit too much

A bit too deeply

A bit too much

To leave any for me.

So when you came

You took apart

The walls kept

I hid behind.

Ushering laughter and love and hope

With each step you took.

Now when you leave

You take a part

Of me

Where I learned to

Laugh

Love

And hope.

How shall I build up the walls

When even it's rubles

Has your named

Carved in bold.

-Lila.G

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'I'm such a sucker for walks'

You laugh and say

'Let's go for one now'

'Its 2 in the morning'

You say getting up

'Ya it's 2 am'

I say walking towards the door.

Your face lights up and a giggle escapes

I smile ushering you out the door.

Durken patrons of the bar across the road

Siging lyrics to songs they won't remember;

Stray dogs and

Night lit up bu streetlights

Were are our company.

Cool wind and shy brushes of our hands

We crossed the street

Walked a bit more;

The park

So filled and lively

In the hours of the sun;

So empty and comforting

In the hours of the moon.

I swear,

The trees and the wind

Made a scheme with the moon;

Setting the mood

With silent whispers of love

How could I not fall

In love

With you.

How could I not love you

As you pointed out the moon and took pictures

Of it in the dark;

Complaining the camera doesn't do justice to the moons beauty,

Oh my love

Oh my dearest

It's the same God

Who made the moon

Who made you.

This world doesn't do justice;

To either ones beauty.

-Lila.G

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Thanks for this bubs🥺❤️

What feeds your soul

When it devoured sorrow;

As a substitute for love.

Who caresses your aching head

When the words

Spoken

In carelessness

Still ring loud.

Where does it bleed?

It's an open wound.

Growing up

Is an

Open wound.

-Lila G

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I wear too many masks;

Each bearing vulnerability.

Yet never vulnerable together.

Who am I?

Just a numb shell

Of my mother's daughter.

Lila.G

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@suryanshukedar you making me dayyyy🥺 ilysm❤️ and yes I'll forever be that bitch and make u feel single 😌😌. One hopless romantic calling out the otherrr🏡🥺

I like simple things,

Like paper back books ans coffee stains on the pages;

Maybe crumbs of bread

To fall off when u reopen them after years.

I'm not a morning person

I swear I rather close the blinds and go back to sleep;

But oh yesterday

I went for a walk at 7 am

The sun was soft and the air cold;

The silent shower of flowers

Oh how calming

How restful

After a night's ache.

When I spoke to the moon then;

He told me

My scars are my pride.

The part hidden in the dark

Is the enchanting ones.

And when I spoke to the sun

Yesterday morning,

She told me

It's true

The claims of the moon are true

I asked her

What about you?

What about me,

I'm just a dying buring star.

Later when it wasn't day and it wasn't nightfall

Somewhere between day break and the wee hours of the night,

The moon confessed;

I'm what I'm

Because of her

Oh how she Flushed the sky with a pink hue;

Hiding behind the clouds

Shyly sneaking peaks at the pearl in the sky.

Oh I like simple things,

Like paper backs

And slow mornings

Where we'd dance in the kitchen

As the sun and the moon

So unabashedly declare

Their love

And we ours.

-Lila G (@delilamusings ) (Annoying ass who happens to be my home🏠, my person, my whole world🌍, hopeless romantic and a bitch who constantly calls me out for being single😌)

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It's April

And I miss June ,

And the rain,

And you.

LILA.G

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Perhaps it's to painful to remember,

Perhaps it's better this way.

Perhaps perhaps perhaps.

I lost me on purpose,

Perhaps I was tired of me.

Perhaps I'll stay lost.

Till insanity drives me to my last breath,

Or maybe idleness shall kill me before.

-LILA.G

{From, 'The torn pages of my diary'}