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I’m so addicted to the marauders and especially to Jegulus.

I just love them so much but at the same time it’s just so bad for my sanity and mental health which are already not good 😭🖤

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The way I overly relate to Regulus is kinda worrying for my mental health honestly…

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I hate how in the huge majority of books, movies and series gay couples are still so often reduce to side characters.

And on top of that then if you ship non canon gay couples because you want gay characters to be able to be main character you will get harassed by straight fan because you’re splinting official canon couples 😤

Leave me in peace, you can open almost any books and the main couple will be straight ! I just want to have some queer content not reduce to side characters, and yes to have that I ship gay characters with straight main characters.

Sorry not sorry, but I won’t apologise for not contenting myself with gay characters only being allowed to be in relationships with side characters at most, like it’s the case in 99% of canon stories.

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did rick riordan really say ‘nico would do anything for him’ and end the same fucking book with the ‘not my type’ line .

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People who seriously ramble about Percy and Nico age gap 🙄

Many couples irl have the same and even bigger age gap

Calypso, a thousand years old nymph, is dating a teenager and you find that okay but not for Percy and Nico ?

It’s a fiction with gods literally dating mortals and you ramble about a three years gap…

Don’t use that as an excuse, because it’s okay for people to ship who they want and we shouldn’t divide ourselves because of that.

Ship who you wish and let us ship who we want, we all love the same books and we should just all enjoy that 💫

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People who said that should grow up 🙄

IRL most couples have a bigger age gap, I have with my bf, my parents have, most couples I know do so too.

Good thing I'm a law breaker then. haha.

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Percico walked so jegulus could run

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Late night Percy Jackson confession

I still ship Percy and Nico after all those years 🥺

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i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reaction horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

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I’ve just seen that Zar has decided to take a break and leave the marauders fandom.

I feel so sad because, Crimson Rivers, Just Lovers, Best Friends Brother, and so many are gone 🥺

Some of the fics that have build this fandom are now gone it’s so unreal…

I wish Zar the best and hope he will take care of himself 💛

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“Just lovers” from Zeppazariel is truly like a remedy for me. Like every time I read a canon compliant marauders fic I have to read “Just lovers” after to save myself from a breakdown 😂🥲

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Me : nahhh my mental health isn’t that bad… I’m just a naturally lonely person and I’m a bit sad sometimes…

See a character who is basically a depressed gay boy, who suffered violence from his family, s3xual abuses, can’t love himself and is certain that he is not worth being happy or loved by anyone, has almost no friends and deep trust issues

Also me : damn I relate so much to him, I feel just like him…

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Currently reading Choices right now, I don’t know why I keep going I’m definitely hurting myself but I just can’t stop

I know the ending but somehow I still manage to have hope my baby Reg will be saved

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That’s almost offensive if it weren’t that true…

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We so much need it 😂😭

And especially if someone love Regulus that’s a sign of bad mental health 🖤🥲

For anyone who also cannot stop thinking about dead gay wizards

Here’s some fun and fresh facts for you

The Length of:

ATYD: 526,969 words

Choices: 624,187 words

Crimson Rivers: 720,011 words

The FUCKING Bible: 783,137 words

ALSO

50,000 words is about 200 pages

WHICH MEANS

The shortest of those works is

2000 FUCKING PAGES

We all need mental help

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Just read the chapter 19 of Choices… I clearly have to take a break I’m hurting myself at this point reading that 😭

I knew it was coming but still had somehow some hopes it wouldn’t

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Just found out that Regulus star is the heart of the lion constellation

Regulus is the heart of the lion

Regulus is literally James’ heart

Why is JK doing that if it’s not canon 😭 ?