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Life is fucked

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I hate living with bpd im just so very exhausted

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cleaning yourself after the relapse gets more tiring after years and years of saying you'll stop

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I want to be seen and validated but when i tell ppl im struggling its always just judgement and ridicule

Why aren’t you better already? You’ve already been to treatment twice

STFU SHUT THE FUCK UP I DONT WANNA HEAR IT IM TRYING IM TRYING IM TRYING WHY CANT YOU JUST SAY ITS GOING TO BE OKAY AMD ILL SUPORT YOU WHY DO YOU HAVE RO JUDGE FUCK ME FUCK YOU FUCK THIS AHHH

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More me core

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I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

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I want help I don’t want to be like this

But I don’t have the energy to get out of my head

So I stay stuck

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Wanting someone 2 love you like you love them when you have bpd is so shattering

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AHHHSHCHDJ I need to scream who am I what am I doing

I think I just switched on my gf I was so turned off by her one minute and now I want to be with her again laying in her arms

But I think I ruined it I ruined us I always do I’m so fucking stupid

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I’m okay.

it’s getting bad again

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”don’t cvt yourself !!”

my body my choice bitch

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For once, I want someone to be scared of losing me. To fight for me to stay when I try to leave. Why am I always the one scared? Always the one fighting for someone to stay?

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Should I keep laying in bed, cvt, or mastrabate

Decisions….

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I wish I wasent so sick in the head

I want to be able to love my gf in the way she deserves

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I just relapsed, I feel so clean yet so dirty and im scared

I’m scared of my gf seeing ik she’ll get mad at me i just don’t want her to reject me bc of them

I’m so fucking stupid

The worst part is I don’t wanna stop I wanna do it again

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i swear to god i just want someone to talk about $h with that won’t discourage it all the time. I just need a friend to talk about it with and validate each others feelings is that too much to ask?? >:|

Fr hmu if you need a friend bc I need one too

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Relapsing isn’t real

I was never clean in the first place

I’ll always be dirty

There’s no restarting