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"A Message of Obsession"

"Your Secret Admirer" - Chapter Two

"　cal　is　head　over　heels　in　love　with　andre,　so　much　that　others　call　it　an　"obsession".　he　wants　to　be　the　focal　point　of　andre's　love,　attention,　affection;　he　wants　to　wring　andre　dry.　"

tw　:　self-harm,　unhealthy　obsession

uploaded　on　:　august　31st,　2024

tags　:　calvin　gabriel/andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel　&　andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel,　andre　kriegman,　cutting,　implied/referenced　self-harm,　self-harm,　blood　and　injury,　blood,　obsession,　cal　gabriel　is　obsessed,　toxic　calvin　gabriel,　toxic　caldre

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"Sun-kissed"

"　connor　and　evan　are　walking　around　silently　within　a　forest,　trees　towering　over　the　two　of　them.　eventually　connor　has　the　idea　to　carve　their　initials　into　a　tree　that　he　spotted　previously,　which　leads　to　feelings　being　discovered.　"

uploaded　on　:　august　28th,　2024

tags　:　evan　hansen/connor　murphy,　evan　hansen　&　connor　murphy,　evan　hansen,　connor　murphy,　soft　angst,　romantic　fluff,　fluff,　forests,　warm　and　fuzzy　feelings,　hidden　feelings,　gay　panic,　gay　evan　hansen,　gay　connor　murphy,　connor　murphy　lives,　soft　connor　murphy,　evan　hansen　has　a　crush　on　connor　murphy

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"A Message of Obsession"

"Ire and Regret" - Chapter One

"　cal　is　head　over　heels　in　love　with　andre,　so　much　that　others　call　it　an　"obsession".　he　wants　to　be　the　focal　point　of　andre's　love,　attention,　affection;　he　wants　to　wring　andre　dry.　"

tw　:　self-harm,　unhealthy　obsession

uploaded　on　:　july　31st,　2024

tags　:　calvin　gabriel/andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel　&　andre kriegman,　calvin　gabriel,　andre　kriegman,　cutting,　implied/reference　self-harm,　self-harm,　blood　and　injury,　blood,　obsession,　cal　gabriel　is　obsessed,　toxic　calvin　gabriel,　toxic　caldre

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"Hold Me"

"　cal　and　andre　are　sat　in　andre's　room,　cal's　sat　on　the　floor,　his　back　uncomfortably　leaned　against　the　bed　frame　while　andre　is　fully　indulged　in　a　film　on　the　tv.　he　continues　to　notice　how　cal　is　constantly　shifting　around　to　get　comfortable　and　allows　the　blond　to　sit　on　his　bed.　"

authors　note　:　baby's 　first　uploaded　fluff　fic!　sorry　it's　short..

uploaded　on　:　july　29th,　2024

tags　:　calvin　gabriel/andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel　&　andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel,　andre　kriegman,　gay,　as　fuck,　fluff,　my　first　uploaded　fluff　fic,　sappy

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"I Begged You to Stay"

"　andre　got　locked　away　in　a　mental　hospital　before　zero　day　could　happen,　but　one　night　he　broke　out　and　said　his　final　goodbye　to　cal.　"

based　on　:　"twin　sized　mattress"　by　the　front　bottoms

uploaded　on　:　july　12th,　2024

tags　:　calvin　gabriel/andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel　&　andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel,　andre　kriegman,　angst,　hurt　no　comfort,　andre　moved　away,　mourning,　everyone　is　alive,　zero　day　didn't　happen,　mental　health　issues,　mental　breakdowns,　mental　hospital,　mental　institutions

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"Unexpected Phone Calls"

"Letting Go" - Chapter Two

"　adam　picked　strahm　up　from　the　hospital,　in　the　car　strahm　expresses　he's　leaving　his　job　at　the　precinct　due　to　stress,　but　adam　has　an　underlying　feeling　that　that　isn't　the　full　story.　"

requested　by　:　@narcvampp

uploaded　on　:　july　9th,　2024

tags　:　adam　faulkner-stanheight/peter　strahm,　adam　faulkner-stanheight　&　peter　strahm,　adam　faulkner-stanheight,　peter　strahm,　angst,　pawnshipping,　self-harm,　everyone　is　alive,　implied　ex-coffinshipping,　implied/referenced　suicide,　panic　attacks,　overthinking,　implied/referenced　abuse,　gay　peter　strahm,　gay　adam　faulkner-stanheight,　post-traumatic　stress　disorder　-　ptsd,　self-harm　addiction

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"Unexpected Phone Calls"

"The Day of Worry" - Chapter One

"　although　strahm　and　his　ex　have　broken　up,　he　continues　to　think　about　him　before　falling　into　the　deep　realization　that　the　relationship　he　has　with　adam　was　the　place　where　he　truly　felt　safe　within.　"

requested　by　:　@narcvampp

uploaded　on　:　july　9th,　2024

tags　:　adam　faulkner-stanheight/peter　strahm,　adam　faulkner-stanheight　&　peter　strahm,　adam　faulkner-stanheight,　peter　strahm,　angst,　pawnshipping,　self-harm,　everyone　is　alive,　implied　ex-coffinshipping,　implied/referenced　suicide,　panic　attacks,　overthinking,　implied/referenced　abuse,　gay　peter　strahm,　gay　adam　faulkner-stanheight,　post-traumatic　stress　disorder　-　ptsd,　self-harm　addiction

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"by your side"

“　cal　loses　himself　within　depression　and　gives　into　the　suicidal　thoughts,　which　leaves　andre　to　grieve　and　mourn.　what　does　he　do　now?　”

uploaded　on　:　june　3rd,　2024

tags　:　calvin　gabriel/andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel　&　andre　kriegman,　calvin　gabriel,　andre　kriegman,　suicide,　suicide　notes,　grief/mourning,　depression　angst

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"can you feel my lovebuzz?"

kurt 　 adam 　 dylan 　 eric

14 year old fanfic writer　　𓏴

non human　　:　　vampirekin , angelkin , zombiekin , godkin , therian.

heavily disordered　　:　　narcissistic personality disorder , borderline personality disorder , autism , did , adhd , complex ptsd , amnesia / memory loss , psychosis , depression , anxiety , experiences delusions and hallucinations , insomnia , substance abuse disorder , schizophrenia , "obsessive love disorder" , anti-contact paraphile.

fandoms i will post to　　:　　saw (2004-2010 + 2023) , scream (mainly 1996) , motley crue , guns n roses , natural born killers , brooklyn nine nine , twilight , it , two broke girls , the good place , kiss , zero day , bon jovi.

heads up　　:　　most of my saw fics are based on turnipodditys chainshipping art, godsplatters coffinshipping art, and bathroomtrapped 3dshipping art, make sure to check them all out.

tw / cw　　:　　due to heavy amounts of trauma , that i will not be sharing , i post dead dove do not eat fics - with proper warnings. fics can and most likely will include sexual content , violence , drug / substance (abuse) , and triggering topics of course (s/h , sa , ect).

dni　　:　　i have no dni. please block me if i fit yours though, and i block freely based on how i see fit. although i have certain stances that will make certain people on tumblr pissy, such as: i am anti endo , anti-transid/radqueer/goodfaith , i may be a paraphile but i do not consider acting on my thoughts and i believe in NOT legalizing harming ones or ones that cannot consent.