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[holyshittywritings]

i hope the world is better than i am

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People kill me

With their expectations

And emotional blackmail,

The side-eye expressions

And fake sympathy,

The scolding I deserve

And the kindness they forget.

She loves my different earrings

Oh, that smile after he helped

That sincere goodbye

That hope cause we are friends,

A pat on the back

Laughing at my jokes

Bearing with my nastiness

And taking me to school,

People save me, somedays.

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Finally

January has ended

And February holds no promise

Of the sun through this harsh fog

Guilt of past, present, future,

Weakens my soul

Carelessly

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I have lost all energy

To do anything

Except love.

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Poetry trade?

yes,

-

The veiled morning blooms

Of every shameful beginning,

Grasp onto the lost sadness,

My wishes and wishes under the moon.

Take me to the mountains where

Happiness is broader than the mind

And lay me on a thousand flowers,

Nothing keeps the truth of me alive.

Crows know of the burning sensation

Like a statue asking to be saved,

I would rather use those hands

To sculpt my own piece of bliss.

Full of nostalgic vanilla melancholy

Always followed by wings of laughter,

Because the rose-tinted memories

Could never truly bleed forever.

-

@thevicepope

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Legs getting heavier each second

Each step as I walk

Towards the open door of your room

At the end of a long corridor

No lights are switched on, of course

Its night, so the moonlight does enter

Strongly through your windows

Not for anything to be clearly visible

Only outlines of black and silver

Inside which, I can sense

Your messy desk and messy bed

It all truly looks like a room

Lost in history, lost in time

Not where I had seen you just two days ago

So I can't switch the light on

Even if I don't need to find the switch, I know

The harsh glow will say someone stays here

When this greyness spoke the truth

No one is ever going to live here again

You are not gonna come back from the dead.

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Some words are complete poetry themselves.

What does it matter?

Even thinking about you makes my chest ache

I cannot even say one word to you.

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"Your worth is not measured

by what others think of you

but by what you believe in yourself."

- such a famous motivation.

but to not honestly know

what they think of you,

make assumptions of what they do

from actions unknown,

when the self doesn't believe;

pride is a sin.

Can I beg for the truth now?

limitations do not surprise me,

astonish me with the answer, new,

What colour do you see

that I'm born blind to?

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The Seven Deadly Sins

She sits on a self-made throne

Smirking up toward the gods,

A sigh of content leaves her mouth

Eyes closed, she smiles and nods.

All the gold rests at her feet

Yet she dreams of more,

Thinks wisely about fulfilling her wants,

Existence of others, she ignores.

Except for the one she sees,

A naked beauty in the cold

Like all things that she must have,

Leaving the story of grief untold.

Soon, she is no longer smirking

But yearning for what the gods have,

As if mortal desires aren't enough,

Immortal lushness, she wants to add.

Mortal food tastes incomplete

To what she craves of godly foods,

She can only see its shine and gold,

The deadliness, her mind eludes.

Squinting eyes turn red

From what it seems, she cannot obtain

Not a step down she takes,

For herself, she orders others to attain.

Soon, they say her reign shall end

And serve as a warning to the rest,

Yet, like Icarus's closeness to the sun,

The same, no one should be able to attest.

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Aditi

it's your birthday today a big one and i haven't wished you cause 12 am is not our friendship anymore and 6pm just seems too late to care,

you put a story with your real friends and i don't know a single one of them you look so beautiful there holding the flowers i never gave you,

this girl has the same name as you i like her more i had loved you longer so much love left that i can't express you taught me how to hate myself,

i thought i got over it but my life is a mess like always so i love remembering you from the past feeling feelings and a new jealousy even as i don't want you back now.

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when did it begin to be so easy to lie?

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When I talk to you

All sorrows vanish

But the moment you go, they return.

How do I ask you to stay forever,

When you could say no

And not even give me these little doses.

Are you a medicine or a drug?

When you leave,

In how many pieces will my heart break?

I promised myself I wouldn't ever love someone this much,

The way it destroys you

But I failed.

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"oh no, not her"

weird shapes

slow, sloppy runs

pity and baby

embarrassing human sounds

sweat flat, broken hair

walking alone and hungry

hurting all over

bad days only

but your voice

makes me forget to care.

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10 years, I have known you.

Tickling to heal the car accidents

Under the cave away from the hunters

We stood by each other and danced.

Kicked you due to spicy food

Hug me close; I love your warmth.

Bloody Mary never came to the mirror.

You recognise my house by the one beside it,

Old and abandoned by my dead maid

Who held my brother like a mother once.

No one bought it.

A mango tree grows at the back

Maybe from the seed you threw there.

A blood test fascinates me

You said you loved my knife.

3 am calls revealed your darkest secrets

Hades, the god of the dead you became

The pomegranate was sweet, so I joined in.

Daily trips to hell keep you alive

But I don't love flowers anymore.

Blood looks lovely on my skin,

Especially yours.

I know you wanted to die from poison

I personally love a knife,

Ordinary deaths were not meant for us.

I'll bury the body where no one will find it.

We can be friends truly forever,

We can hold our ghost hands together this time.

No one filming us with sunglasses

Smile love,

Death has just started.

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"If it's not happy, it isn't the end".

That's bullshit. It's not true for everyone. Sometimes it's just a random day when you get shot for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Innocents die in wars that they did not want. Good people die protecting others. Not everyone is the main character that gets the happy ending. Some are the side characters that die, to give meaning to the main character's life. Where is their happy ending? Why does the girl, who has not even turned 18, have to die? Why do children who haven't known this place for long have to die? How do you live in a world so unfair?

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Sisters

Hand-me-downs

Not just clothes,

What if we are born opposites?

How long will you pretend to include me;

Ask of me what I cannot give.

How can we be a team,

Together in all the things 

When personalities don't match,

And siblings get compared to each other

always and forever

Till from life, we are dispatched.

Because your sincerity doesn't feel real;

Obligation kills my love.

How can I meet your eyes,

When you force me to be you,

To be better.

Don't prepare me for your life;

It will not be mine.

Can you sense my anger and grief?

I accept myself, don't try to redeem me.

Your love grows smaller with age;

I don't hate you, but,

It has always been you against me,

And I can never win.

It's Okay though

Maybe our love was meant to live

Only in polite smiles

And the wildest dreams at night.

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Everything is holy. Your love for me and my blood on your floor. Even hell is holy, my love.