As a deer longs for flowing streams
so I long for you, O God
My soul thirsts for the living God
When can I see his face?
This taunt breaks my bones:
"Where is this God of yours?"
My heart aches as I recall the days
I walked among a great crowd
we sang for joy and we gave you thanks
a festival in the house of God
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God
I will praise him again
my Saviour
my Saviour
my Saviour and my God
Now my soul is cast down
but I will remember you
even though I'm far away
from the place you led me to
Deep calls out to deep
as waves and tides sweep over me
and through each night I sing his songs
receiving life from my God
"O God, my rock," I cry
"Why have you forgotten me?"
Why must I walk mournfully
oppressed by my enemy?
Day and night I have only tears for food
But each day God pours out love
and through each night I sing his songs
receiving life from my God
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God
I will praise him again
my Saviour
my Saviour
my Saviour and my God
~~
I wrote this in Spring 2010, but I’ve never shared a recording because I find it actually impossible to play. I have a “number of acceptable mistakes” threshold for when I’m sharing a recording, and this is the first take of this song to scrape in under it, so I’m letting his out into the wild.
The lyrics are based on Psalm 42 from the NLT Bible.
Billions of years ago*, in some other life, I was in Beirut, Lebanon, taking some quiet time with my Bible and my guitar, and I wrote this song.
*actually like, July 2007 or 2008. I think the notebook I was using at the time has been archived (i.e. is in a box under the bed, and way too much effort to retrieve).
The lyrics are lifted from Psalm 93 in the NIV.
Psalm 93(ish) (NIV)
Adapted by Michael Flaherty
The Lord reigns, he is robed in majesty;
The Lord is robed in majesty and armed with strength;
The world is firmly established, it cannot be moved.
Your throne was established long ago;
you are from all eternity.
The seas have lifted up, oh Lord,
the seas have lifted up their voice;
the seas have lifted up their pounding waves.
Mightier than the thunder of the great waters,
mightier than the breakers of the sea—
the Lord on high is mighty!
the Lord on high is mighty!
the Lord on high is mighty!
Your statutes, stand firm;
holiness adorns your house
for endless days, oh Lord.
for endless days, oh Lord.
for endless days, oh Lord.
Looks like I've crossed the line from "learning Godot and Blender for some reason" into "I'm actually making a game!"
More details in the link below :)
I’m trying to remember to publicly document things I learn in Godot which might help people, so here’s a quick tip:
The classic
yield(get_tree().create_timer(1), "timeout")
won’t pause when you call
get_tree().paused = true
This is because create_timer() has a second parameter, pause_mode_process, which defaults to true. So then, to yield to a timer which will pause when you call pause, add false after the time. Like this:
(written 2011, recorded 16th and 17th November 2019)
In the beginning darkness covered all
and chaos reigned
in this empty soul
The Spirit of God hovered over me
at just the right time
he set me free
He said "let there be light"
and the light was good
was good!
For your mercy I will praise you Lord
you were angry with me
but not any more
I am comforted by the Holy One
and I will trust in him
my strength and song
Many times since I have wandered far
and you've brought me back
onto your path
The Good Shepherd is like no-one else
his faithful love
outlasts my legs
There is only one God
and our God is good
is good!
For your mercy I will praise you Lord
you were angry with me
but not any more
I am comforted by the Holy One
and I will trust in him
my strength and song
There is only one God
and our God is good
is good!
For your mercy I will praise you Lord
you were angry with me
but not any more
I am comforted by the Holy One
and I will trust in him
my strength and song
I know that my wretched soul was saved
when Jesus died on the cross
and he rose from the grave
The power of sin destroyed at Calvary
and death is swallowed up
in victory!
It seemed like any other day
I wasn’t open, I didn’t wanna be
Sun was shining, I turned away
There was nothing, no-one in front of me
But I sang
out loud
I didn’t know
quite how
the day would change
It seemed like every other day
until my voice escaped with its melody
that brought the light back to my face
and everything was right there in front of me
So I sang
I prayed
I didn’t know
quite how
but I had changed
“Tranquil” was a bit out of my comfort zone, so @loveletteredbybekki suggested I draw the effects of a tranquilliser dart (she knows me so well)...
Drawn in actual ink on actual paper (with actual ink bleed, like the paper was damp or something). Such is life.
I’m told these posts should end with a “call to action”, so go ahead and comment with your story of the most notable occasion you were shot with a tranquilliser dart xoxo
Poisonous. 1st of Inktober 2018. By Michael Flaherty.
I’ve been neglecting my drawing skills of late, so I figured I’d give Inktober a go. Trying to treat Procreate like a pad and pen - no undo and no eraser.
This was quite fun to draw, but that’s no guarantee I’ll do it again tomorrow :p
I’ve been learning about happy endings
and how they look a lot like new beginnings
and how the boy who no-one loved is
now in love
with everyone
Everyone!
I’ve been staring at a strange horizon
I’ve been seeing things with fresh perspective
and whether life is hell or heaven
depends a lot on where you stand
Where do you stand?
And do you know
that when it’s dark inside
the sun still shines
And rain will fall
but God’s not mean
he just wants you clean
I’ve been trying hard to take things easy
but the more I try, the more I stress out
So I stopped and I took my shoes off
and with Kurt I said
“if this isn’t nice,
I don’t know what is.”
I’ve been living out a new beginning
as the boy who no-one loved but
is now in love with everyone and
everyone is in love with me!
Or so it seems
And do you know
that when it’s cold inside
the sun still shines
And rain will fall
but God’s not mean
he just wants you to be clean
Something I’ve learned
is even when it hurts
the world still turns
The beauty is
that life goes on
even when you can’t.
~~~~~
The Kurt quote is a reference to this A Softer World comic (or really, Joey’s comment below it).