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I was wondering if you would write a Maxcar fic where Oscar is a virgin who wants to learn and Max basically teaches him how to have sex. The goal was always for Oscar to feel comfortable enough to have sex with other people but Oscar goes and catches feeling for Max. Oscar decides the only way to get over Max is to try to sex with others, Max is suddenly possessive about the fact that he's the only person to ever have Oscar and wants to keep it that way.

Yes, absolutely. I will add it to my works in process right away. Is there an account you want me to tag when I post it?

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I know that she was ultimately good for Ted, but rewatching Ted Lasso has shown me that Dr. Sharon was just kind of an asshole and an overstepper with Ted in the beginning. Like don’t try to diagnose and analyze someone without their permission and when a new coworker tries to get to know you and build a friendly rapport, maybe just like, go along with it and tell him your favourite book.

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You need a former addict to clarify? Well ask and you shall receive, for I am here.

First of all I wanted to say that I saw a comment on this that says that former drug addicts don't even drink because it's too much of a slippery slope, and that's not necessarily true, it depends on the person. Addiction is an illness and the same way that cancer doesn't affect everyone the same way, addiction doesn't affect everyone the same way either.

For me, smoking weed was one of the biggest tools while I was getting clean, and this was for a couple of reasons:

Withdrawal and recovery is incredibly physically painful, and when you're someone whose coming down from a painkiller addiction (like our favourite boy Mr. Bob Reynolds), marijuana can be a great way to manage that pain without risking re-addicting yourself.

Both addiction and the ensuing recovery can leave someone feeling incredibly out of control, and for me that was definitely the case, and for me setting rules about consumption and proving to myself that I could control myself was very helpful. I don't drink because of addiction issues, but being able to smoke a joint in specific social situations was helpful. It made me feel like I could stand on my own two feet when it came to recovery, and eventually I built my confidence up enough that I didn't need it anymore. (This is a dangerous game and I'm not sure that I would recommend it to anyone, real or fictional.)

When you're in active addiction, you spend so much time doing drugs that once you're out of rehab and the early stages of recovery, you have a fuck ton of free time, and what do you want to do with that free time? Drugs, you want to do drugs. For me, I would wait for the cravings to get really bad, for me to be really jonesing for a hit, and then I would smoke like a half of a joint. What I found was that I managed to reprogram my bodies understanding of being high, a little like a reverse gateway drug situation. Instead of making me want to chase a bigger and better high, I pavloved myself into lowering my tolerance from hard drugs down to marijuana, which is not anywhere near the kinds of things I was on before rehab.

All in all I would say that whether or not Bob Reynolds himself would smoke marijuana after becoming Sentry would be entirely up to the way that you write him and consider him yourself. I believe that he might if he was still experiencing withdrawal symptoms from meth after waking up and it was an effective coping mechanism for his pain, but if he's in no pain after the events of the movie then it might not even register as an option for him. What I will say is that, I, personally, believe that in the events after the movie he will try and get high again. He is an addict, he has never gone through a recovery process meaning he's still in active addiction, and addicts in active addiction want one of two things: to get high or to recover.

TL;DR - It really depends on the person and your personal headcanons whether or not Bob smokes weed post Sentry project, because addiction is not one size fits all.

Sorry this was so long and in-depth, I hope it was at least helpful.

Someone said that Bob Reynolds would smoke weed and tbh I do not know enough about addiction to know if that would be accurate.

Would someone who’s a former addict smoke weed? Like, I feel like that would be counterintuitive?

But also?? Would it even do anything because of the serum??? Man can’t die, we think he can get high???

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Lovely that I found found the right person (Maxcar writer). Do you take requests?

I absolutely do, feel free to lay it on me!!

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Hey, do you write Maxcar on ao3? I'm not sure if I've got the correct account?

Hi!!!!!!

Yes girlie this is me, the one and only (not the only actually but still me).

You're the first person to come here from my AO3 so this is very exciting for me.

🧞‍♀️✨ What can I do for you? ✨🧞‍♀️

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I don't know why but Joaquin Torres gives me chubby chaser vibes in the best sense of the word.

He loves a woman with a little extra to grab onto, but it's about more than just getting a girl with a big ass or tits for him, he loves a soft tummy to lay his head on too. He likes it when he has to work a little bit extra to lift his girl up, likes it enough that it keeps him committed to going to the gym every morning, because he knows how embarrassing it would be if he tried to pick her up and couldn't.

For him, if you're not at the very least a size fourteen, he's not interested.

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I am trying so hard to turn this hellhouse into a hellhome.

It is not working

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The problem with being a writer is that I can never really be sure I'm good at it.

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Lowkey, one of the scariest things in the Tumblr universe to me is @lewmagoo blocking me. Terrifies me. I love your blog so much and I am in fact over the age of eighteen.

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Trigger Warning: mentions of SA/Rape

No to dredge up shit from a tv show from like fifteen years ago, but the way that everyone treats Jenny in the immediate aftermath of her sleeping with Chuck at the end of season three is crazy!!

This is a man that already tried to rape her once, and she clearly wasn't in a headspace to give enthusiastic consent when they slept together, and fucking Blair is mad at her?????? Like girl, your man is a rapist, it's that simple.

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Spoiler Warning !!: Sirens (2025)

I cannot stress how much Sirens (2025) ended exactly how I wanted it to. Like from the moment I saw the synopsis for the last episode I was hoping that Simone would swoop in and snatch Peter Kell, and that's exactly what happened.

I like to believe that Simone and Peter are happy and spend the rest of his life (because let's be real, he's dying first) together and that kills Michaela inside. Like, from the way that his kids were immediately smiling, and the fact that Michaela is a total bitch and that's probably why her and Peter flame out quite so spectacularly, makes me want to believe that she'll really make it, that Simone is the last Mrs. Peter Kell.

(Also I'll probably be writing fanfic to that extent at somepoint, so stay tuned.)

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Not to get personal and shit, but a @patricia-taxxon post that came across my instagram feed has opened some eyes for me and I thought I would share, because when I'm not posting fandom shit, this blog is basically my personal diary.

The contents of the post are that people don't know what mental illness looks like outside of its most extreme forms, ending with a declaration of "I'm not going to perform my rock bottom for you for the sake of being believed".

Which for me is so meaningful, because for my last year of high school I was trapped in a friend group that forced me to rock bottom at all times. I thought I had found people to support me and care for me and cheer me on for the first time, and instead of I forced to be on my knees, struggling for even a breath of relief all of the time. It's only now, seeing this declaration that it is okay to be partially healed, that you should not have to perform rock bottom in order to be believed, that I realize how fucked up that is.

I didn't need people to drag me back down to my lowest all of the time and they shouldn't have wanted to do that to me. I should not have felt guilty for having successes, and those that were undeniable (like when I wrote, directed, and produced a play with the school), I shouldn't have felt the need to minimize and give the credit to them instead. I should not have felt the need to perform my rock bottom in order to be believed and accepted, and more importantly, THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE WANTED ME TO!

So as much as this post is about me, it's also an invitation for all of you to evaluate your current and past friendships. Are you giving your friends the love they deserve? The kind that loves them not only at rock bottom, but also as they grow and heal and become better, because at the end of the day, that's what they deserve.

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I don't think we talk about how garbage unsalted butter is compared to salted butter.

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Update day has finally come

I finally got around to updating When I said I loved you, I meant every version of you on AO3 at this link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/63720679/chapters/170464939

Sorry that it took me so long, I got my ass kicked at my first rugby game of the season and since then I've been feeling a little under the weather, so like, ya boy's been going through it. Also, I'm thinking of making another moodboard for this fic so stay on the lookout for whether or not I actually do that.

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Does anyone else think that Hollywood/the movie industry is starting to digest itself a little bit?

Like, watching the credits for Sinners (2025) something really hit me, which is that it was the first time that I saw an 'Introducing' before an actor's name in a long time. Like, I know that it's not a rule or anything, but it is common curtesy that when an actor books their first major role, they get the 'Introducing' title in the credit role, and it got me thinking about the movies that I had seen recently, which led me to the realization that it has been a long fucking time since I last saw a new actor in a major role in a movie or tv show.

Like, the same is true with a lot of new projects these days, where we're not seeing any new actors from open calls in roles, we're seeing vets with extensive histories in acting. I'm not advocating for not casting people with experience, just that that combined with the fact that those who are being casted in various roles are getting older and older just makes me wonder about the future. Like, at somepoint they're going to run out of people to cast in these projects, and what will happen then?

I think this is an even bigger problem with directors and writers. It is even more difficult to get a break in the film industry as a director or writer than it is as an actor, and it's because the reputations of the directorial and writing elite in Hollywood is so well established, but one day they're going to die, and for some of the older directors like Scorsese it won't even be that long (I promise I am not wishing that to happen).

I don't really think this shift will be disastrous, but it just seems like the film industry is not being very forward thinking.

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This but also icemavsarah, because married couples adopting mav into their relationships is my favourite thing ever.

Like, obviously Mav clings to Ice after Goose's death, desperate to keep hold of the one person willing and volunteering to comfort and support him. They cling to each other, and traditionally they'd be boyfriends, but honestly, they are so much more than that to each other. They're each other's everything, the force that pushes each other to fly and the rock that keeps them grounded. They're each other's wingmen, there's no other way of describing it.

And then Ice meets Sarah, and Mav knew this day was coming. He knew it would come to an end sometime because Ice wants to be SECNAV one day and part of moving up the ranks is playing the political games, having the wife to show off at Navy balls and important events. So he's ready when Ice ends things between them, and he's okay with it because Ice really does seem to love her, and that will be enough for him.

What neither of them expected was that Sarah's not fucking stupid, she knows that her husband is in love with Maverick and she can't even blame him because of course he's in love with Maverick, everyone who's ever met Maverick is in love with him.

There's no rising tension, no inescapable sexual need, there is just soft love and comfort filling in the cracks in each of them. Sarah holds Mav through nightmares when Tom can't be there, Tom cooks his Babushka's pelmeni and make his Babcia's Golabki when he's stressed, he likes feeding those that mean the most to him. And Mav, Mav is always there. He picks up the kids from school, he makes lunches, he drives Sarah to the shopping centre and organizes little camping trips for everyone.

It's the quiet but strong, solid type of love. The kind of love that doesn't announce itself, but only because it doesn't have to, because everyone who has ever met the three of them knows it anyways.

I am a icemav girly at heart but can I intrest you in mavgoosecarol poly?? Cause come onnnnn it's right there. They are literally co-parents.

Imagine a younger mav, meeting goose and eventually carol and getting hit with bi-panic. They become really close friends, going out together, having dinners, watching movies and mav almost moving in with them.

Mav trying to keep his feelings in check thinking they would hate him if they knew mav's feelings aren't entirely platonic but in reality goose and Carol have been trying to date mav thinking they do not wanna overwhelm him so trying to take everything slow.

Finally one day mav was leaving for some work after breakfast and both carol and goose just kiss him goodbye and mav just stand there keys in hand mind blue screen like ?!?(!

They both still laugh at the fact that mav didn't realise they have been dating for the past months now.

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I am a icemav girly at heart but can I intrest you in mavgoosecarol poly?? Cause come onnnnn it's right there. They are literally co-parents.

Imagine a younger mav, meeting goose and eventually carol and getting hit with bi-panic. They become really close friends, going out together, having dinners, watching movies and mav almost moving in with them.

Mav trying to keep his feelings in check thinking they would hate him if they knew mav's feelings aren't entirely platonic but in reality goose and Carol have been trying to date mav thinking they do not wanna overwhelm him so trying to take everything slow.

Finally one day mav was leaving for some work after breakfast and both carol and goose just kiss him goodbye and mav just stand there keys in hand mind blue screen like ?!?(!

They both still laugh at the fact that mav didn't realise they have been dating for the past months now.