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Things have just been bad lately. It's just one thing after another. I'm feeling lost and sad. I can't work right now because I'm having jaw surgery on my tops and bottoms. I have one last procedure then just the healing. My partner just pulled a muscle in his back and hasn't been able to work since Monday. All the money I get goes to rent and I don't have anyone that can help me out with extra money. Right now my partner is buying all the extra. I also have multiple sclerosis and am on a new therapy for it but it requires me to go to them every day and being that I have no money I can't afford the bus, so I occasionally ask my partner for bus money and then use a transfer when I have no money. Problem is they are getting tight with that. I'm trying to get some free training from the government so I don't have to go back to waitressing because I won't be able to afford my medication every month. Right now I'm walking an hour home because I didn't have money for the bus, my legs are starting to cramp up, I haven't eaten today, my jaw is throbbing from the surgery and I'm crying. I'm grateful I have a roof over my head and food in the fridge but please God I just need a little help.

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Art Nouveau butterfly brooch in plique-à-jour enamel, set with opals and diamonds, France, circa 1900. Art Nouveau Jewelry by Vivienne Becker

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When his lips touched hers, her cheeks turned into the crimson cloud struck by the rays of the setting sun. Her eyes glowed like the twinkling stars and looked deeper into the chaos that lies between his eyes and kissed him again. In the pure ecstasy of the meeting of two lovers and melting in each other's arms, nature smiled and for a moment she knew, pain isn't the night's poet.

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Watch "Sarah Hester - Savage Daughter (Lyrics)" on YouTube

I feel like this song describes me perfectly

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Feel like heaven

Giethoorn in Netherlands has no roads or any modern transportation at all, only canals. Well, and 176 bridges too. Tourists have to leave their cars outside of the village and travel here by foot or boat by. So you can probably imagine how peaceful it is here.

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This man takes my breathe away. He is my heart and soul. If there is a thing of a soul mate he is mine.

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There has been so much fighting between my partner and I lately. It's exhausting me. I talk to his sister a lot and it helps. I'm just having a hard time because he lies over little things. I know I'm not perfect but he makes me so mad. I've been crying a lot. I love him so deeply and I'm trying my best to make it work. I just hope to God that he can make a few changes so we don't fight as much. I did have people warn me about being in a relationship with a Latin man. They said they are whores and that came from his sister. Mine partner just likes being the center of attention and that is his downfall because I have caught him talk to a few girls. He just wants girls to tell him he's handsome and those sort of things. I understand what he feels but I thought I was doing a good enough job. He rarely tells me I'm beautiful and I don't go looking for other men to tell me I'm beautiful.

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I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.

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All I need sometimes is just a little attention. Instead he sits there playing his PlayStation and I'm invisible to him. I don't know how to explain to him that if he keeps it up I may not be there next year. Actually I have told him this. I don't know if he believes me. Does he just expect that I'll just be there when he needs me. I wish I was a robot and I could just turn off when he doesn't want me. At least then the hurting will stop.

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Please take away this pain that is deep inside

I hate the way it whispers to me late at night

Pull it out from deep within

Banish it

Erase it from my memory

Art work by: claralieu - instagram.com/p/BK7NxKbB9sg

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Watch "Happiest man on Death row" on YouTube

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When people think of winter and snow they think it's beautiful and it is. I love to have snow during the holidays but after that I'd love for it to go away. I hate how dreary winter is. The clouds hang so low and it gets dark so early. I already can't wait for spring.

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If you haven't already noticed I love art in any way, shape or form. I clean houses for a living and yesterday I had the pleasure of cleaning this one. He had art pieces on all three floors. I talked to him briefly and he said that he was running out of room in his house so he had to buy a cottage (if we were all so lucky.) If he becomes a regular I will post more of his works.

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You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath.

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“Flowers grow back even after they are stepped on and so will I.”

— B.J