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christians are always screaming about how christianity is a narrow path and few find it as if christianity doesnt have 2.4 billion followers. im not a satanist, but a compelling argument is the one about the anti christ. if its true that the anti christ is one who deceives like 1/3 of the world or sm, how could that be the devil if nobody even fw him. everybody and their mama is terrified and hates the devil but ppl still act as though hes the one influencing 2.4 billion people. the only person who fits the description of the deceiver of the whole world is jesus

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' what are 3 things you can't live without'

jin jin jin

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the basis of all shifting methods is the act of setting your intention to do so. there is no real power in a shifting method in my opinion. all methods boil down to the fact that you are setting an intention. you lay in the starfish position with the intent to shift. you listen to subliminal with the intention to shift. you meditate with the intention to shift. you count to 100 with the intention to shift. you visualize with the intention to shift and so on.

some people shift with specific methods because maybe the hype surrounding said method builds up their belief in themselves. people give the credit to the method because humans lack belief and awareness in themselves. people find it impossible to beleive that they are powerful, so they give credit to external forces. external forces typically only have power because we are the ones who give them that importance. the projection of our lack of belief in ourselves is the fuel for external forces that would otherwise be nothing.

you are not arrogant or full of it for realizing that you are powerful. this is an example of how badly our society has failed us. people feel arrogant , boastful or proud unless they are continuously self deprecating.

but yes. shifting and manifestation is all reliant in your belief in yourself. you don't have to mindlessly affirm for hours upon hours in order to get your desires. methods work for some ppl because they beleive the method will bring it to them. so again, it has everything to do with your personal beliefs and assumptions and nothing to do with a method itself.

i just wish that more people would have faith in themselves. you are not a broken, powerless being in need of some god to swoop down and save you. you are god. you are what you need.

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one of the worst things i ever did when it came to manifestation, shifting, spirituality, literally everything is listening to everyone. listening to everyone has been the worst thing ive ever done to myself and it ranges through every area of my life. it reminds me of something i saw once that said something like 'if you want to make the wrong decision, ask everybody.' this is an interesting revelation considering i used to ask for everyone's advice all day long. but i know now that it was a grave mistake. what i hate is that nobody ever assess things from the big picture. people only ever tell us things based off their understandings. if theres something you don't understand, is it so hard to admit that rather than fill in space with mindless ramblings. its taking a while to reteach my self and to reprogram my mind. everything has become so much easier once I've realized that.

something that has not become easier though is being patient. i am the most impatient person ever. ive been dreaming of escaping my family since i was a little girl. but most notably, once i was 12 or so. it was easier to swallow the concept of patience then because i had no outlet. because i had no choice. but now, 6 years later, with only 6 months left, i cant seem to wait. i have my escape plan. the temptation for it now lures me to no end, and it's harder than ever to ride this last little bit of time out..

to help myself though, i keep trying to look for things to make this mundane period worth it. exciting. enjoyable. there really isnt much. i just work, and go to school. im motivated by the fact that i get to go to uni in 6 months, though. become older, see what happens. meet my friend next year.

something i'll always appreciate about myself though is my willingness to rebel against all odds. an interesting thought that i have alot is that everything about who i really am would repulse the people who claim to love me most. no, im not christian. no, i don't agree with your political views. no, i haven't retained anything you've taught and no, getting hit as a child didnt make me a better person. no, no, no, no.

but lastly for now, i will also say that i will always honor my 17 year old self. i have a few staple ages of life so far. 14 was when i was deep into the goth subculture, and was unapologetic myself. it was the first time i ever dared to question and challenge my religion. 15 was more mundane, but i just remember it because its the age that i met my friend that i still really care about. but thats all. it doesn't really count though.

17 however was the age when i did things i never thought id do. not because they were necessarily bad, but because i never thought id have the courage. i got my first jobs. i got accepted to universities and finally solidified my escape. i completely trashed religion and began with other systems. i had lots of experiences that i did 'for the plot'. most notably, sleeping on a rickety pull out couch with my cousin while a drunk family friend slept on the chair, snoring and talking to herself for hours. ive since then realized fully that i hate sleepovers or staying overnight anywhere that isnt my house, but that's another story. i spent lots of time with my friends. saw long lost family members. i love hanging out with, and talking to people id never considered before. i love my unending willingness to try new things, new people, everything. its added meaning to my life. its why im always down for whatever, because i never know what harbors fun that i never thought existed.

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ive noticed quite a few things about geminis.

ive noticed that they have really nice, thick hair. they have a very strange vocabulary and use strange words out of nowhere. but in my experiences they only use these words for humor purposes and it works. ive seen that they have a rather bland sense in fashion and that they seem to always have tons of information on drama. they're unnaturally supportive when you bring up good news or something like that. and i say that in a good way. their enthusiasm is abundant and genuine and you can just tell. especially when it comes to you having a crush. its like they're your biggest supporters. ive noticed that they seem to be on the chubbier side and have rounder faces but maybe thats just the ones ive met. i also notcied that they laugh alot and get good grades without putting in much effort.

every capricorn that ive met has always been a bit hot tempered, though i always seem to get along with them. i dont mix well with scorpios, though. every scorpio that I've met has been the same exact way. they can be super cool and fun to be around and then the next minute they're like really stingy and its confusing. ive never had a steady, stable relationship with any of them and ive never stayed friends with any of my scorpio ppl. but ive also noticed that they're all really well liked by everyone so maybe im the problem. lastly with libra, i noticed that they have very prominent, beautiful eyebrows and really pretty smiles.

but anyways this could be completely untrue, contradicting to reality, and independent to my experiences only..

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last night in my dream i was riding on a camel down the sidewalk through some city.

the dream was so hazy and felt like a dream if that makes any sense. ive been having the long, frequent, vivid dreams again. i also asked a friend of mine in the dream about my college of choice and he said i should persue it. i had been wanting to ask him about it irl since he goes there but never had the chance, so im happy i got it 1 way or another. i havent fretted too much about not shifting recently because i decided that i'll just carefully craft my afterlife into my waiting reality. dont know how that works, if it will work or what it even means to do that but im guessing that it will just have too. and i miss my dream camel so much now. he was very sweet and could run very fast for some reason and he fluctuated between being a camel and a white horse. i met a man in my dream as i got off the camel and he said something to me that i dont quite remember and he began to laugh. things have been strange recently such as my health, subconscious, manifestation success, luck, and so on..

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i recently read macbeth by shakespeare.

i enjoyed it. the play was honestly really scary in its own right. i really enjoyed the paranormal/supernatural aspects. like the part where the 2 men were talking about how strange the weather had been. the way the gaurds or servant's whoever were talking in their sleep when macbeth was about to murder king duncan. that actually makes me so sad cause king duncan was such a good king. i was also really sad when macbeth had banquo killed. in my opinion banquo was very respectable and honorable and it makes me sad that someone would kill their best friend over something so trivial. but anyways like i was saying. i also watched the play, and the part when macbeth was seeing visions of banquo was so scary. its obviously scary to read but was extra scary actually seeing it play out. the witches prediction about the forest coming to Scotland was so interesting and it was so cool the way that the English army actually made it appear that way. the prediction about 'no man born of a woman can kill macbeth' portion was really interesting too. maybe its just my own mind but macduff being born by a cesarean section was so underwhelming. i know this isnt important or relavent to the plot whatsoever but i was really hoping deep down that the notion of macbeths killer not being born by woman meant his killer would be some monster, or meant that macduff wasnt human even tho i knew that wouldnt be the case. and omfg lady macbeth pissed me off bad

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shifting is self discovery.

excuse the yap but i think it’s very important that people realize how fundamental you are in your shifting journey and that you are literally the only thing you need to shift.

you do NOT need:

a method

subliminals

(guided) meditation

to look for advice hour after hour online

symptoms

the void state

lucid dreaming

to visualize

to use your 5 senses

a script

you DO need:

yourself

you can say fuck you to the universe, doubt as much as you want, and still shift. i say that because i’ve done it before even with doubts! so you can too!

“how do i shift?”

every time someone asks this i lose 5 years off my life span. i can’t determine that for you, nobody can. i can tell you what has personally worked for me and so can others, but there’s no guarantee it’ll work for you.

“so what do i do?”

sounds a bit harsh but you figure it out. and that’s what i mean by self-discovery.

of course, you can & should see what other people are doing to create a base line of what you think could work for you. for example try getting into the void state, see what happens from there. doesn’t work or you don’t like it? (because that obviously won’t do the same thing for everyone) try something else!

play around. add new things into the mix. affirmations. intention. you can visualize or use your 5 senses. keyword can. you don’t have to. because what do i think works the best? minding your business and shifting your own way.

remember that you can literally just say “fuck you i want to shift” and shift. you can shift accidentally. so who’s to say what you’re doing doesn’t work? (if it really doesn’t then you can adjust it slightly. look back on your behavior and think about what you want to change.)

seriously!

you can shift:

tired

awake

asleep

in the hypnagogic state (the state of the transition from wakefulness to sleep)

in the hypnopompic state (the state of consciousness leading out of sleep)

while dancing

sitting

standing

laying down

on the floor

accidentally

through a lucid dream

with doubts

and so much more i didn’t mention. seriously no need to overcomplicate it.

just remember that other peoples’ shifting journeys are not yours and that you’re the most important part of your own.

you are what makes you shift.

it’s not your subliminals or your method or whatever, it’s you. YOUUUU. subliminals? “methods”? those things? just helpful tools. they can HELP you shift, but there’s no guarantee.

for example, i personally have been getting more effective results after listening to specific subliminals regularly (psst.. i make sure they’re safe! to check if they are safe, look at the comments around the page and if you’re still not sure and you feel uneasy then do not use the subliminal. if it makes you feel unsafe or weird then do not use it. always read the benefits or what you can find in the description.) it works for me. it got me results (along with other stuff) but it might not give them to you and that’s okay. you don’t have to use subs.

just a reminder that you don’t need anything but yourself to shift <3

it’s self discovery because you’re learning from it and actively finding out (discovering) what works for you.

your shifting journey is yours so don’t make it rely on what someone else does.

THERE’S NO KEY TO SHIFTING EXCEPT YOURSELF.

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another mini dr moodboard (my most important one)

this one is also very breif. prior to 2024 i never gave much thought to permashifting but after all the bullshit going on i made my decision so fast. so im actually going to shift to my other dr a few times before i actually permashift bc theres sum silly stuff i wanna do here and there . but this one is my final destination. im not sure exactly when im going to go there but its my final destination and it's so exciting. its sometime in the year 3000 here or so.

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mini moodboard for my current dr

very breif but i wanted it displayed somewhere here

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my opinions on horror books

haunting of sunshine girl: i really enjoyed this book. instead of the little ghost girl segments scaring me, what scared me most was the gradual change in sunshines mother. the small things, like her eating raw meat and displaying unnatural strength. huge no for me. that's so scary. and I obviously loved sunshine and nolans friendship. ive been jealous of Nolans leather jacket since day 1 and jealous of sunshine since she got to wear it.

the shining: all i have to say is that the book blows the movie all the way out of the water. stanley Kubrick really ruined the original plots potential imo. im not saying that the movie was ass but it could have been sm better if he had stuck to the plot. its crazy bc before i ever even read the book or watched the movie, the only thing i knew about the shining was the 2 twins in the hall. i kept waiting and waiting for that part to come up in the book but it never did. the movie messed tony up so badddd oml 😩 like in what universe was making Tony pretty much dannys alter ego a good idea. that doesnt even make sense. and also the movie did a horrible job at displaying the strain jack hitting Danny & him being an alcoholic had on the family. that was the main thing in the book and the movie did that element no justice at all. what the movie did get right however was the way it had the overlook freeze in the end. that was pretty freaky for the movie, however i did appreciate the overheating boiler element displayed in the book. 1 of the few instances where i really appreciated getting to see both outcomes. the overheating boiler really added angst to the book and omg i just feel like stanley Kubrick took all the elements out that made the shining the shining. the bloody elevator scene was cool but i was also so disappointed that the movke didn't really mention the dream jack had abt his father. It left so many key elements out

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my shifting/loa advice as someone who has been quite successful in both of those areas.

if you are a newer member to either of these communities, its natural that you want information on how to do different methods, natural that you want to be interactive in the community etc.. but my biggest advice to you is to stop consuming so many different methods and ideologies. all things shifting and loa all depend on your personal practice/method and what works for you. what happens when you absorb so many different things is that you start thinking that you have to do a million and one things when what you want to gain is relatively simple, for example manifestation or simply shifting. individuality really changes the game when it comes to these things. one thing that helped me realize that is the fact that all the creators/ppl i looked up too all hand crafted their own methods through their own trial and error and their preferences and what works for them. ofc methods help but all things rituals, manifestation, spirituality and so on are most potent and powerful when it's something organic by yourself. stop doubting yourself and stop asking so many questions and just do whatever it is you want to do when it comes to how you want to go about your practices and do it all for your own sake

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movies i watched yesterday

yesterday i finally watched insidious the red door. im not sure what i expected but i was disappointed. i wasnt very engaged with the movie the way i am with others but from what i did see, i just wasn't impressed. when i was younger i always thought that insidious was 1 of the scariest horror movie franchises ever so i never watched any of them. anyways starting off. the part where the dad was in the mri machine and saw the thing crawling towards him was so stupid. like umm ok. and then the part when the main guy, i dont even remember his name was at the party and saw the guy throwing up everywhere. i mean ok that's kinda creepy i guess especially when he was telling him to close the door but other than that i was just bored. the part that made me the most irritated was the part when the song by tiny tim was playing. i was hoping that that would be left in the first movie. imo tiny tims songs are actually really good. I dont find his voice or songs to be creepy the way i used too when i first heard them. my whole problem with this movie is that they tried too hard to make it scary. like ok jumpscares and creepy music and songs by tiny tim. but at what point do ppl not get bored with that. like all horror movies after 2010 are basically the same. they're all so boring and repetitive and try too hard to be scary that they just end up not being scary at all. jumpscares only go so far. without jumpscares, the red door wouldn't have been memorable or 'scary' at all imo bc the plot itself really wasnt that scary, memorable or intresting. and another thing. i feel like movies that focus on just 1 monster/entity tend to be more interesting bc in this movie, there were like 3/4 different monsters. the main one i guess, the thing in the mri machine and then the demon tht kept throwing up. like atp who or what am i even supposed to be afraid of. it was just all over the place. 3/10 rating from me i hated it

the babadook: ok this movie did creep me out a bit. what scared me is the lighting and the setting of the house and everything like that. the depressing nature of the house especially since the dad had died was done really well. the book itself was weird and i thought the design of the babadook was pretty creepy and creative. he looked creepy especially when he was on the tv. i also got scared when the mom started changing and the way she killed the dog was like. ew. no. and also the way the babadooks voice sounded whenever it said its name was freaky so yeah. other than that i was neutral about it. what i will say though is that i hate parents in horror movies 🤦‍♀️ like the little boy literally pushed the girl down and would talk nonstop about how he had to kill the babadook and like first off if that was my child i would question why they were even thinking about killing things 24/7, and why he was constantly talking about some character in that way. and the mom the whole time was just like '😄' like girl no. i hate the trope of adults being passive abt weird things their kids do just bc 'they're kids.' Like when has that ever played out well

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What’s your favourite kind of soup?

first i was gonna say that my favorite is tomato soup but then i forgot that potato and taco soup existed 😪. as much as i love potato soup, i think i'll have to settle on taco soup. its so good and my favorite thing during the autumn and winter months, but only as long as it doesnt have tomato chunks in it bc i hate those.

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shock (1977)

i just finished watching the movie shock. its an older film from the 70s. i really enjoyed it. im really disturbed rn and i feel sick. in my opinion, the 70s was a great time for horror movies. 1 thing that i liked about it from the beginning is the fact that it was rather silent, which is also what i liked about the exorcist. there was still a back track but still a significant portion of the movie was silent. I dont remember the mothers (dora) real name but she is an excellent actress and she did an amazing performance. i really liked bruno from the beginning. i thought that his relationship with marco was so cute. like the way he was putting up a swing for him. i thought it was creepy how the fingers of the decorative hand was sticking out from the couch like that was very ominous. but again i thought it was so cute how dora marco and Bruno were all playing outside on the swing. red flags would have automatically went off for me obviously when marco told his mom he had to kill her. She was way too nonchalant about that and idc if it was a party setting i would have gone to find him and told him to elaborate. at first i was like 'eww why wld dora follow him when hes acting like that' but then again i wld do the same bc thats her son. marco had started acting so strange and misbehaving and i honestly dont know what i would have done. it was already creepy enough but the part when he was pretending to be ill and then jumped up and said he was just kidding would have freaked me out to my core. anyways like i said, he was misbehaving and i was so frustrated with him. i was thinking 'omg why doesn't dora discipline him or show him that shes serious' and i was expecting her to sit him down and talk to him or something but instead she slapped him and he started to cry. all frustration i had with him went away immediately i felt so bad. no matter how frustrated i get with a child i could never hit them. i feel like I would sit with him and talk to him but i just couldnt hit him even though he was bad i mean thats just a little kid. anyways. I think dora took him to counseling way too late. i really liked bruno near the beginning but then i got annoyed with him because he didnt do anything about doras breakdowns but the twist at the end was so chilling. what i thought was scary about this film was doras expressions. idk the girls name but she did a phenomenal performance. The way her eyes would go wide and the way she portrayed the fear on her face was so scary in itself. not only that but psychological horror messes with me so bad. the way she was having the nightmares and the hallucinations was so sickening as a viewer and it just was so off putting. the way her husband was in the walls is such a scary concept and the way she killed bruno too and put him in the walls was soo scary. when dora killed herself i really expected hands to reach out and pull her into the wall too but that didnt happen. i honestly feel so bad for marco omg poor child. the part that also really scared me was the way marco turned into his father while running at her in the hall.

I really enjoyed this film. i loved the sound design, the way it was quiet, the piano music, the childs nursery song ig it was, and the way marco kept saying 'mama' was so eerie as the film progressed. i also liked the way it was filmed. The cameras transitions were really cool, especially the one when marco pushed the swing which affected brunos plane. i liked that the movie didnt have cheesy jumpscares and the cgi wasnt overdone. the hand imo wasnt that scary but still cool i suppose . but omg why did dora kill bruno he actually kept her out of trouble but idk. the movie did an amazing job of portraying how dora was losing her mind and im still chilled. great movie 8/10 imo. i love loopholes in movies. the way marco was so attracted to the cellar and the way bruno was so adamant about closing it away. great watch i really enjoyed. also the part when Marcos eyes were all white was so creepy eww

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i wanna hear more stories about people who have shifted through sleep paralysis or lucid dreaming