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There a habits which I developed which slowly and suddenly align to something that is very worthy to me, even if they feel to be the most lone traits which I fancy, enjoy and am unable to de-condition myself from, all of them resolving around the same habit: waking up early.

Waking up early? Waking up early!

It started during school time when I had to deliver homework. I just didn't do it after the school because it just felt like a repetation of the day. This doesn't mean that I made my homework from 4 am on. Sometimes, that time were meant for me to have time to play computer games in the morning

Waking up early did not seamed to align perfectly in my life when I was younger:

It felt lonely.

But I were lacking the crucial aspect which it brings to my life which I weren't able to enjoy enough when I had been younger - the peace, the silence, the tranquility and the quality time which I could have for myself.

For the longest time in my Life I asked myself: how can people sleep so far into the day?

Which also caused a lot of unhappiness which it caused in my Life - because it affected who I was aligning with, partnering with, work with, trusting and relying on.

It is just odd to wake up between somewhat 4 - 7am dependent on the season and being partnered with someone waking up between 8 - 11am, especially when this habbit is somethign that isn't work related. It is even more troublesome when both with different sleep rhythms share a tighter space with less room for private space, when both or multiple people just hooked up with each other and it is the other day. I guess this is the part in the movies where the early cup of tea leaves the new acquaintance is her/his home, already realizing this might not work out together at all or isn't just worth the hassle for the longer future.

We prime most our habits because the form based on the challenges and duties people have to, want to or need to suffice for.

Adapting to it increases the chance to survive, increases the chance to bond with someone or leads to greater success.

So, it is not just the waking up early, but the whole routine showcased which result on the way people decide and try to keep up with: the cheese, the plume, the egg and the green tea

But, I feel I don't want to write about topics which are throughoutly discussed or which I already stated and finally removed from the internet entirely or resolved otherwise. What remains is this, a breakfast which I found again and swooned about again for that the pieces about it found be which had been developed in various sections in my life, and that not just metaphorically.

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When I've had been living in Linz in Upper Austria, I used to go to this Place to learn secretely to play the piano. I also went here when I was feeling lonely, when I needed moral support or even when I was not feeling like partying, staying here into the deepest night.

I revisited the place and I am missing it. I am missing that grand piano, I miss the ambient and the sounds of everyday business. I miss the habits I had along it despite I know, the habits were unhealthy, and I know I can not allow myself the habits, I don't like to have them again.

But the Situation is, I am lacking a direction in Life again - or at least for the summer. I really need a Idea or a Friend to let me know:

"Hey, Eden - we're going to travel to .... and we/I need you along. Do you want to come with me?"

I would even sacrifice a bit of my gear if that is needed. I wanted to sacrifice this cam, but it is more likely that I would rock two 35mm analogue film cameras and would just get rid of some lenses instead if I had to.

Really miss the sound of the grand piano, I am craving it more than the habits which used to devour the sadness in me but did not took me under because there were the right keys of hope in my Life to decide for a better Life.

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The endeavour of owning a Sigma fp is endless and it is not made for a sleek workflow, not for a uniform workflow. Rather it is made for gruesome knee-deep adventure of looking into every little detail, and which doing so, getting every single, slight detail out of the image. It takes a hardship to manage to use this device properly, every single piece around it is very specific and to work with it in the end is exactly the opposite.

I used to believe, there should be a uniform colour space that fits here - there was none. I am not struggling yet, but the results I get are nostalgic to the bone and very demanding to edit and I am still into it. It'll definitely lead to a review about the device and I will definitely find a very sophisticated way to work with the footage of it. I got to admit, the raw or pro-res files which one can obtain through this device are perfection, but every other codec is super limiting. The cdng-raw is barely optimized, the crop factor records are not optimized and I believe, the camera might only be optimized to work with native sigma lenses.

I'll definitely not give it away, but I have to say - if you really want to use the sigma fp, you should also be interested in cinema or opt-out from this very asthetically pleasing device. This is not arrogance, this is not a attempt to gatekeep this marvel here. It is the bitter, salty truth. We do not even speak of seamless cinema, that is not this device.

It feels more experimental than I'd like to admit. Great for streetphotography because of the super short boot-up time, the super quick electronical shutter, the small size and the 16-bit pictures.

Sigma dropped the fp/fpL entirely, they dropped to produce cinema camera bodies and are focusing on lenses where the last release did not even bother around the L-Mount system.

I still really like that this device is not overtly styled and designed minimalistically, but I feel they don't understand others, don't understand what they dropped here.

Whatever comes next speaking of camera bodies, I feel they can't come up with something uniform again which can stand the competition in the near future.

What remain are the lenses which are still at the very front row of quality where nothing is sacrificed to acquire the best results.

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This might be my last upload here on my blog before automation of my posts on Instagram as @bleuyn_

Still thinking: should I connect multiple Tumblr Blogs in a way that the my entries are directly transfered to Instagram, or should I create a cloud folder where each of the files are being uploaded to Instagram?

Should I involve ChatGPT so I don't even have to write anything at all? It just doesn't feel worth the time spent on Instagram honestly and it doesn't either feel worth it to write there or any of the many other plattforms since it does not help me grow, reflect, connect and exchange after all.

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So, here a View on the Way I displayed the Pictures. Been spending the 1st till the 3rd in the morning in Graz, Styria and left for a single Day for the wedding of an friend, and returned back on the 5th but couldn't display because of the Rain. For that it had been my first exhibition I got to admit that I am satisfied with the results, the pictures and the experiences on my side and responsibilities. I displayed 31 out of 36 pictures and got in general a good reception about the images, great discussions and opinions to hear, also it been a possibility to have great exchanged with Margo Gontar who supported me for the discussions and also had her own participation on a Stage at the Lendwirbel, the Eulenwirbel-Stage.

I wanted to use different materials and more Hardware from the Store, but I should also maintain the character of substainable DIY since the Organisatior of the Part of the Street during this Event had only this one requirements to be met.

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Cleaning the last grit in my gears, prepping the last things for the exposition (link on top bar) and trying to embrace a bit more of stillness in life.

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It is easter. Although it does not matter that much in my day to day life beyond closed grocery stores and that piece it takes within my heart, appreciating and respecting what means a lot to others, this easter is different. Different by magnitudes of strong compassion. Compassion for people who experience a past built on to till the day in front of the altair, as others strive to get there, chasing and finding their privacy where they were able to escape to make the plans about being a family. My part is another one, if it would be a book, one would find the same boxes checked and unchecked at the same time.

So here I am, who likes to commit myself to people who influence me the most, missing life and love, laughter and longings since I can only interact with people locally, where there are ticked boxes - but not those I crave all my life.

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I'm travelling almost all of my distances with public transport only. What is close by is being reached by feet, on a day with good weather by bicycle. There are a lot of things here which are more fortunate than, speak of, by car/plane but also disadvantages, like, being limited by train tracks, higher expenses for the last miles and a hardship with struggle when desiring to reach places in the nature which are not reached by any public transits.

Sure, taking a train is comfortable, and a night jet train in a sleeper pod will show you a view through the window in an uncontested amount of intimacy - but, have you ever had a coffee beside a camper van on a place with high elevation with someone you like?

In contrast, when I saw this beautiful view in vienna, I had to tie my bagpack open as my train rolls in quickly trying to capture this beauty nature serves us everyday, and feeling that many people only know the sunrise only per pictures like mine here.

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Losing time to recover and have to take antibiotics, thus in a city which is called to be most liveable, but with the clear indication that the locals are a total lackluster. I don't want to life here, still. It might be promising with enough perspectives and a nice circle, I don't feel that the latter one is even available in this town for all or most of my important needs. So, Vienna is simply not liveable enough for me?

I don't conclude about it. Heal through it, increasing efforts to guard myself in an absurd close to presidential level and to work on an exhibition in may.

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I'll need to find out a reasonable way to have my portfolio on this page without using too much of external services. There are very easy ways, also the option to provide the pictures upon request - just got to find out the way which is suiting properly for me.

I've made the record 2 weeks ago on a new device which I own for whom I am still lacking proper lenses suitable for my style.

Curious on how the video looks on this page!

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most of the issues are resolved. at least it feels like that for now. so, I'm matching the page to the design of my personal cards.

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I've noticed that the preview on these Images on the Page does work by double-tapping, but it doesn't do that on mobile.

Gotta fix that or find another solution before putting up print options.

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Finally managed the DNS-records of my page with the instructions and troubleshooting by @support and am very thankful for it!

Right now I am at my parents house in my hometown after my travel to Kyiv, UA and use the time to recover, go through pictures and footage, working on my portfolio.

I am also reimagining how to use the homepage here and also working some kinks of the page out.

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this user is right now located in vienna and will need a bit more time setting everything up properly!