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Starts yelling I love creating I love writing I love causing and creating emotions in people I love ejecting the emotions I feel because I can't hold them myself and I need to turn them into something beautiful before others can see them I love fictional characters I love parallels I love the way we can see ourselves in people who don't exist I love

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Padmé‘s Hopes

“Shiraya-on-Solleu” (850Y’K),  P. Jemabie, Amidala Memorial Gardens at the headwaters of Solleu, Theed Outskirts, Naboo.

Commissioned by the Naberrie Family for the Amidala Memorial Foundation, in the loving memory of Padme Amidala Naberrie, 821Y’K - 848Y’K.

Queen. Senator. Daughter.

Vader’s Ghosts

Ah broken is the golden bowl! the spirit flown forever!

Let the bell toll! — a saintly soul lies on the Stygian river;

And, Guy de Vere, hast thou no tear? — weep now or never more!

See! On yon drear and rigid bier low lies thy love, Lenore!

Come! let the burial rite be read — the funeral song be sung! —

An anthem for the queenliest dead that ever died so young —

A dirge for her the doubly dead in that she died so young.

(Edgar Allen Poe, Lenore)

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Learning to delete/mute/block before a negative comment takes root in your mind is a modern survival skill. If you're going to wander the overgrown countryside of the internet, you need to develop a quick eye for ticks.

It's deeply tempting to respond to the "well, actually," to the cruel assumption, to the unjust accusation, to the odious viewpoint. It's tempting because you're defaulting to the etiquette of dinner conversation. This isn't a dinner conversation. Someone is shouting at you from a moving car. Turn away.

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Idk if anyone has already pointed this out, and there most likely have been since I am a little late on this train;

But, something that caught my attention around my second or third rewatch of Encanto was the fact, 

Bruno never holds eye contact for very long.

There’s a few scenes that are very good at showing this; one that does best, is the whole 5 or so minute long scene with Mirabel finding Bruno in the walls and finding out everything he had been doing. 

So many good examples happen throughout this scene. There’s their first meeting after Bruno fell, where he just kinda stands around before breaking the silence by leaving. 

There’s the scene with them going through the walls towards his room and Mirabel sees that he’s been trying to fix the cracks; him going into different characters (or personas) to try and lighten the situation and also quickly breaking eye contact after the whole “real gift was acting” thing.

Even when they finally get to his room and Mirabel comments on it, his eyes are all over the place, never staying one place for too long - avoiding hers as much as he possibly can (could also be out of embarrassment but imma still count it)

And the scene just keeps on giving them, like with the whole plate thing and Bruno sitting down in his chair playing with the string from it;

It just keeps on going.

He never instigates eye contact, and acts like he doesn’t want it in fear of disappointing or angering the other (or something idk if I’m reading too much into it)

Where am I going with all this?

Well, one of my favorite scenes in the whole movie - and I think it’s the favorite for many - is the scene with “Dos Oruguitas” with Alma’s whole story and all that.

One part of that scene that always hits the most in all that to me, is when Alma leaves her room and walks by the different family members in order of when she wronged them and began putting extra pressure on them (Starts with Bruno, then Isabela, then Luisa and then Mirabel).

Not only does it gives us a chronological line of who in the family feels most pressured (don’t get me wrong, the others in the family most likely have their own pressure too, but these are the characters that are most explored in the movie)

But it also shows us something different about our boy Bruno;

Before he notices Alma, he looks to the ground like he always has, but as soon as he notices her walking towards him

He lights up

This is a boy who admires his mother for everything she does and is his only role model to look up to

and what makes this scene hit even harder?

He is looking for her eyes

The man who avoids eye contact and often is the one to break it during conversations with others

Is looking for his mother’s eyes

Wanna have it hit even harder?

She ignores him

He is practically begging for it, begging for his mother to notice him, begging for his mother to just see him

And she ignores him completely

And him, who have only ever wanted to be noticed - to be seen as something else than a curse and a failure

Goes back to his ways

Because the one figure he ever looked up to, failed to be there for him

ouch

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Isabela and Abuela Part 1 of 3

Is it just me, or is anyone else deeply disturbed by the way Abuela treats Isabela? Abuela exclaiming that “Isabela’s out of control!” immediately set off major red flags for me. 

Disclaimer: I’ve been in Isa’s shoes, which is why this is triggering me so badly. This isn’t an Abuela hate post, it’s me looking at things from Isa’s pov.

When I rewatched the film focusing on Isabela, I noticed several deeply disturbing things I haven’t seen mentioned online.

During The Family Madrigal:

While Abuela is both extremely proud and deeply moved by Isabela’s ‘perfection’ (kissing Isabela’s cheek and putting her hand over her heart); Isabela starts off looking extremely uncomfortable with Abuela’s affection, keeping her eyes open and centered on Abuela during the kiss. She then launches immediately into big and extravagent display of her power, because she knows this is what Abuela wants.

The breakfast scene:

When Abuela says “… Mariano’s proposal to Isabela.” she grabs Isabela’s chin:

After Dolores says that Mariano wants five babies, Abuela exclaims, “Wonderful!” She then notices Isabela’s dramatically different reaction:

Isabela is obviously shocked and overwhelmed. However, instead of asking Isabela what’s wrong or comforting her, Abuela states, “Such a fine young man with our perfect Isabela will bring a new generation of magical blessings and make both of our families stronger.” while ‘correcting’ Isabela:

Isabela tries to smile at Abuela, but her discomfort is obvious and it only worsens as Abuela treats her like a puppet. 

Now, I’m not saying Abuela is physically abusive. However, she clearly has no regard for Isabela’s personal space and autonomy. She has decided Isabela will be perfect, so she ‘makes’ Isabela perfect.

The hallway:

I can’t find a clip online of Isabela and Abuela talking in the hallway about Mariano and I don’t know how to take a screenshot from Disney+. However, when rewatching it Isabela’s discomfort was obvious to me.

Abuela is holding and patting Isabela’s hands as she says, “Such a perfect match.” Isabela merely echos, “So perfect.” Abuela continues, “And so good for the encanto.” 

Abuela knows how people in love act. Both of her daughters have happy and loving marriages. None of Isabela’s behavior matches that of an excited bride; and while Abuela might have genuinely missed the signs here, she certainly didn’t during the breakfast scene!

Link to Part 2

Link to Part 3

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this is your reminder to start slow and gradually lean into consistency rather than to change your entire routine one fine day. it's okay to start wherever and whenever you feel ready. please don't compare yourself to the highlight reel of people on social media. i promise it's never too late to work on your goals. you don't have to make a drastic change just because it's a new year. time is a social construct and i want nothing more than for you to truly enjoy life at present without worrying too much about the future. you are completely able to achieve goals you have set for yourself, but take it step by step. please avoid burnout and please take rest. wishing you all the best!!

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i don’t understand how anyone can enjoy a piece of media without getting the urge to make an OC for it. like how can you fall in love with a world and its characters and just not want to create a little imaginary guy to experience it? couldn’t be me

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Instead she smiled, and whispered, “Ben!”

She was glad to see him. Glad to be with him in this moment. It was the greatest gift she could have given him. 

The Rise of Skywalker by Rae Carson

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Once again thinking about Encantó and how the house was cracking because the family was cracking under pressure and how Mirabel’s part in saving Casita and the miracle wasn’t even about mending people’s struggles but simply about acknowledging them and telling them it’s ok and they don’t have to do it alone.

Thinking about how the first cracks appear when Mirabel feels ostracized from her family and is about to break under the pressure of feeling wanting and invisible and alone.

Thinking about how the thing Mirabel does for Luisa is listen to her and just say “you are carrying way too much” and then when Luisa’s powers begin to malfunction it isn’t because of her but because Luisa dared slow down a little and was IMMEDIATELY hit with crushing guilt and tried once again to overcompensate it and THAT is when her strength failed her.

Thinking about how Bruno left in an attempt to keep the family from fracturing and was literally trying to fix the cracks with his absence, but it was Mirabel SHARING a vision with him which actually helped him find a positive outcome for a vision because he wasn’t alone with that burden and his anxiety and she led him to a happier perspective.

Thinking about how the real healing moment between Isabela and Mirabel isn’t Isa’s confession really, the turning point is when Mirabel actually stops and LISTENS and simply acknowledges that her sister is struggling and goes on to loudly support and encourage her to find and be herself.

Thinking about all the other cracks we didn’t entirely see. Antonio’s pressure to not be “another disappointment” to his family but obvious guilt that Mirabel didn’t get to shine. Camilo’s consistent changes for the sake of others, but when he starts to malfunction he’s a grown man with a baby’s head, because maybe that’s how he feels, lost and not quite either. Thinking about Pepa, unable to feel any negative emotions, to the point of absolute repression because every single anger or sadness is an open nerve for the world to see and “Pepa, stop! Not again!” Thinking about Julieta’s role as a consistent care taker in a family that even with their powers gone yells for her when in panic because she Must Know how to fix it. Thinking about Dolores so overwhelmed and tense and overlooked, whose great romantic ideal is someone finally SEEING her.

And the cracks showed up whenever the pressure was too much. Whenever Abuela was too afraid and protective and holding on to her control so tightly, marked by the trauma and fear of losing them, to the point where she couldn’t take anything or anyone being out of her control (an obvious PTSD thing).

The family was cracking because Abuela lost sight of the family as people vs the family as a well oiled machine. And while it was obviously due to generational trauma, it was also an issue that no one else in the family could see because it was the dynamic they grew up in and accepted as right and healthy. It was only Mirabel, blessed with an “outsider” perspective, who could see the way the pressure was mounting on everyone’s shoulders and who (having no expectations at all put on her by dismissal) could dare to break the cycle and speak up, not only for herself but for others.

I am once again thinking about Mirabel’s door being the front door of the house (her casita who she is clearly the closest with) and just like everyone else has their powers represented in it, Mirabel’s shows her surrounded by her family, like the anchor that helped them build a new foundation in their relationships with one another, based not on what they could “do for the family” but by love and acceptance of each other.

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Knowing something in her head was different from knowing it in her heart. Rey had understood on some level that she wasn't alone anymore, but now she knew it, and it was so wonderful it hurt. Tears filled her eyes. Loneliness was a kind of agony. But belonging was another.

― Rae Carson, The Rise of Skywalker: Expanded Edition

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i feel like procrastination really robs you of proper rest. because you’re not even properly resting when you’re wasting time with the gnawing fear of what you sHOULD be doing at the back of your mind, and i can sometimes spend a whole day doing nothing and still feel absolutely exhausted by the end of the day. and then when i manage to force myself to work for a few hours, i can’t even take a good break bc i feel like i don’t *deserve* it because i procrastinated so much. 

breaking the cycle of procrastination involves learning how to work properly AND how to rest properly

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sisterhood is powerful right? happy international women’s day runaways!

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we’ll win this game over and over again [x]