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This Panel Hit Home (Hard)

Found this post two weeks ago; I scrolled to see how long it ran and my phone stopped on the above.

It's hard to fix what one did wrong when you never even learned what the wrong was.

It's hard to stop hurting someone you care about when you don't even know if all the times in the past you think you did that you did.

It's hard to renegotiate a Reinsurance Treaty in 1920 with only public diplomacy.

It's hard to hold someone in your arms when they constantly keep you at arms-length.

It's hard to avert intrusive thoughts and fears when everything's a riddle wrapped inside an enigma. (Succumbing to the thought I'm seen as a third-rate duelist, briefly, before sanity returned.)

It's hard to know if everything's reconciled and righted if you look to know where things stand and all you see is fog.

It's hard to halt hoping when your heart tells you to keep faith.

Stranded on the Mountain, Parzival

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Fifth Amendment

As requested (until further notice).

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Assuring affirmation 😊

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Eclipsing Herself in Storytelling

1.13.35 - Shrike Fainne sure knows how to flirt; that wink 😉

1.14.1 - I love Alinua (characterization and drawing); so glad she's coming back soon 🙂

Love the pattern on the Tarot cards; I utilized something similar when teaching AP Psych. (What it reminded me seeing once.)

1.14.6 - Admiring the artwork of the tessellated chain, then 1.14.7; just wow 😀 Seeing as I just passed September 2, double reminder of my sister.

1.14.7 - What's the trick Tess' sleeve is hiding (I wonder which gym she would attend)

1.14.8 - The benefit of in media res hindsight (that blue scarf feels familiar too. And a random redhead behind Shrike)

1.14.9 - Will never forget the person who introduced me to watermelon 🙂 ("Eat the weird blue melon")

1.14.11 - A powerful panel to finish, given my working theory

1.14.12 - First panel: the wrong time to take a bite 😆

Last panel: only one thought. (Having a leader with vision... that's not what we had in mind.)

The Time Traveler's Thoughts Trekking through 2021

August 19 - Forgot to mention: in watching Red's video, I enjoyed hearing her origins story for her love of astronomy. (Still have a copy of the book I bought many moons ago.) It was also when I learned her birthday.

August 30 - The largest class then (17) was my largest this past year. My total roster (174) would now mean I teach 60% of our entire school. (Sheesh)

August 31 - Ah Brightspace; let me count the ways I miss you...

September 1 - October 19

September 10 - A memorable meeting of a talented student who would go to add an impressive array of acting credits in my class

September 19-20 - Okay my life stopped resembling any sense of normalcy a few light years back, but um... what?

September 21 - My first use of Lyft... as I turn to needing it again in a week

"You might be our ringer" -- My teammate on me at trivia

September 28 - "The genius" (at least to my trivia team). Reminds me of what I've told my students, sometimes you can be so smart, you're stupid.

September 29 - A student I had virtually tells me how good of a teacher I am (apologies for her disengagement then). Funny how often when I've needed a mood boost most, it shows up.

One of the wildest synchronicities I've come across (regrettably not recording the exact date): embarking on my presidential bio journey, I commenced a concurrent clearing of Clancy novels. "The Sum of All Fears" differs from the movie; for starters, he wasn't about to nuke a city in his home state! But in the aftermath of the attack, the FBI arrives and I find the following...

Please note: the book came out in 1991; not only had he not been elected yet, he was the governor of the 49th poorest state, polling in single digits in the Democratic race. If Clancy were still alive, I'd want to ask and find out: um, what?? (I did get to shake his hand when he was in Annapolis 25 years this fall.)

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When I fell for Billy Joel in college, I was told you listen to him the most when you're in love. This song has spoken to me since first coming out, and described many a moment since.

To manifest the mental image (laying next to the one I adore, needing no words, letting our eyes, smiles, and caressing fingers do the talking): I've heard that more powerfully than any other part of this song. Every time 🙂

Hopefully learning Legilimency better, Harry

Silence, I discover, is something you can actually hear.

Haruki Murakami

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All I saw was the Weasleys' house 🙂

abandoned grain elevator, highway 195 through the palouse in wa. // dec. 2024

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Morning Reading and Reflection

3, 11, 16, 17, 19, 20, 22, 28, and 30 really spoke to me. But most of all 14.

My subject (social studies) revolves around studying to understand. Just because two people answer any question differently does not render either answer inherently wrong. Too much of life gets reduced to being binary when it's not (and neither is gender). Black and white can be found on Pride flags, but not as much in the day-to-day people and goings one encounters.

Happy Pride to one and all, Parzival

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I fell in love with your voice (and mind) alone; all seeing you physically did was solidify my attraction, particularly whenever you smile or laugh 😊

If I could only hear you in person again...

Mhmmm. It’s so lovely.

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"A Most Fateful Day": My First Canzone

So close, yet so far, from the one I adore Arriving late for my train, too soon to meet Resolve all but broken, I sat on the floor Adrift in doubt, how can I achieve this feat? Lo, many obstacles have I overcome Omens speak truth, yet prove misleading as hell Verily now does my faith succumb Ever unclear the path, my heart thus now fell

Then a glimmer of golden red hair appears Wait! Is that--can it be? Is it truly her? If so, pray now my voice override my fears! Now I see Blue, my heart joyfully concurs! My mood thus improves, neither blue nor downcast Excited, both feet and voice alive once more As she and her coworker by me walk past I hail him by name, that they stop I implore Compliant, I pray that this moment may last

"So, enjoying the Con?" comes his merry ask Of course I reply "Yes," a con of my own Unwilling to burden them, I put on a mask Little knowing karma on this lie will hone My beloved herself masked, smile hidden As I fumble my line, my gift still warms To this lucky lone fan, sharing unbidden Eagerly their video, calming the storms

Then gifting their image, they swiftly depart Whirlwind of a meeting; mere minutes, just three! In this brief span, the desire of my heart Now granted, leaving me just giddy with glee! A prophecy called upon me, "Seal your fate" And thus then I embarked, by fortune's wheel willed Gazing through the glass, I see a sign quite great Its message simply states, "Destiny fulfilled"

Shall I say, "I know the future?" Nay, not so Amen, amen, I say thus, only my heart Realizing the odds, I give this a go Always I strive my true intent to impart: To uncover and live love's truths to the full To honor and cherish the one ultra rare A woman so truly unforgettable That no other woman will ever compare

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If I Only Could've Applied to the Archives...

Thoughts on the Comic

1.13.24 - The fandom's right: Panel 2 has me sold on Dainix's cute factor. And a Monty Python reference to boot 😀

1.13.25 - What I swear I just read earlier this morning

I appreciate the insight… and dig the design sarcasm

1.13.26 - "Weird metal women" sound like they'd be a handful; so glad I don't know any

1.13.30 - The description of Dainix really speaks to me because [Classified]

1.13.32 - I can't tell if the caption is serious xD And I thought I was bad bringing my JFK biography into Baltimore on an ultimately rainy night.

1.13.33 - Thought-provoking hover text

1.13.34 - Perfectly positioned roof artwork I must say 😉

The Time Traveler's Thoughts Trekking through 2021

August 1 - Contending with a personal demon of my own

August 8 - Starting my second biography ("John Adams"), which of the 40-50 books I've read, I recommend most highly 😃

August 9 - Text to my friend: "Afghanistan really depresses me though 🙁" It still does. Almost makes me feel glad I didn't volunteer to serve.

August 18 - Wanting to cut my own stay short at my last school

August 19 - Not yet aware of Aurora, but catchup on my favorite channel, really relishing a random rant

Searching for the above, I found this

Looks like Red's wrong; it does exist AND it time-traveled to the present, so there 😛 (I mean, I'm a veteran time traveler so I think I'd know.)

Thoroughly enjoying my morning (and source of my joy), Parzival

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A clever take on a familiar meme 😄 I swear if it's not the red dress, it's a redhead (rocking red flannel even). Nothing but trouble since 700 BC.

Your move, sweetie 😘

Planning and plotting for tomorrow, Parzival

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Courage, dear heart ❤️

What I found tonight (in case someone needs it)

Resist the urge to make yourself feel better. That is avoidance. Let yourself feel bad, and it will pass.

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"Your navel is as delicious as a goblet filled with wine. Your belly is lovely, like a heap of wheat set about with lilies." -- Song of Songs (7:2)

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There's only one answer: always 🥰

I searched the song recommended to me by a channel I faithfully follow; didn't matter opening either the version I'd played before or the next one. Two paths to the same person ☺️

I want to be the one who makes you feel safe and loved. Will you let me?

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Aurora Appreciation (with Hindsight)

Thoughts and reactions reading through the prison break...

1.13.10 - Alinua's expression of exasperation in Panel 4 (probably not based on personal experience)

1.13.11 - I was just napping before I read that; what does that make me 🥺

1.13.13 - Why does this sound so on point for the outside world right now…

Panel 4 only conjured one thought ("Zuurith" didn't dispel that).

1.13.14 - The caption… on that date

The Time Traveler's Thoughts Trekking through 2021

July 5 - Mulling my makeshift stones (as here in the present opting to order the actual set). I forgot it'd actually been that long.

July 7 - My first lockout in 17 years (channeling Kendal I guess)

July 8 - “The likelihood there’s going to be the Taliban overrunning everything and owning the whole country is highly unlikely.” Um, Mr. President? About that 😡

July 10 - Starting my presidential reading with Washington: A Life, as I sit w/in 200 pages of finishing the last president planned for it

Ron Chernow captured me instantly: “he used many of my favorite big words.” (So does someone else I've taken a liking to…)*

July 22 - Amid searching for my story, I came upon two of the Names in conjunction (on the date most meaningful to the third)

July 23 - “I think it would be hard if George Washington came back from the dead and he chose Abraham Lincoln as his vice president, I think it would have been very hard for them to beat me.” I plead the 5th 😡

“California is America, only sooner.” -- What I read about education then (and hope holds false now)

Waiting now for November 16, 2021, Parzival

* For whatever reason, "multitudinous" popped in my head to utilize with my 'm' alliteration and Dante yesterday. (Not a word I've ever used I can recall... but then found in a place I've visited maybe once.)

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Just listening to my queen would suffice 😊

Catching up on 20 years worth of gossip

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Vita Nuova - Golden Silence (XVI-XVIII)

A serious question: how does the world's weepiest wordsmith endure through all these trials and tribulations? I mean, the unrelenting war imagery in Chapter XVI. No wonder he's plagued by fainting spells!

"The Transformations that Love Worked in Me"

Chapter XVII is brief, barely a paragraph, but linguistically symbolic given Dante's driving belief he "should be silent and say no more about this" and how he "should never again address [his] poems to her" (32). I know that sentiment all too well, as recently as the spring. I know in my case I did undergo a seismic, soul-level shift.

Suffice it to say, the girl I've dreamed of dating exclusively must be an undercover witch (a blend of Hermione and Ginny), because starting Holy Week, I experienced a surge of desire and feeling such as I've never, ever felt for anyone before. (It's not exactly abated since.) I owe her a debt that will be expressed in at least one poem (one of the past capturing the closest I've come) and when the mood strikes, an original one.

Dante and the Meeting of the Ladies (Chapter XVIII)

All I could hear in this segment was "wing girls"; I count many such female friends in my inner circle, who guide me when I require it in the ways of wooing the object of my affection. In our prolonged pining poet's case, he consults with these women involuntarily, as one calls him and inquires "To what end do you love this lady if you cannot endure even the sight of her? Tell us, for surely the purpose of such love must be strange indeed." (33) Forced to justify his fidelity to the object of his heart steels the Florentine's fortitude: "I resolved from then on I would choose material for my poems that should be in praise of this most gracious one."

But it wouldn't be our protagonist without some Dantean doubt and dilly-dallying, since he still "dared not begin writing... for several days afterward with the desire to write and the fear of beginning." (34) In the event I face the same dilemma, a preview of poems publishing in the interim on the 16th anniversary of their composition...

June 19 - "The Lady of My Mind"

July 3 - "Revelations of the Soul"

Enamored and enjoying of the summer, Parzival