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Why have one when you can have all three?

Holy trinity

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Credit to the creator

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Idk who needs to hear this, but stop feeling guilty. Just stop. Guilty for eating food, for making mistakes, for not doing everything perfectly, for being 'awkward' or 'embarassing', for saying stupid shit sometimes because it WILL happen. Stop it. You're not doing yourself any favors. We're all human.

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forgive yourself. forgive yourself for all the versions you couldn't become. forgive yourself for the wrong things you said. forgive yourself for not knowing any better at certain point of your life. for fucking things up so much that the grief still haunts you. forgive yourself for the darker and shadowed parts of you. you have to learn to integrate all parts of you, even the ones you desperately want to disown. it'll be alright.

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ romanticise nourishment˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

full tummies, fuelled bodies and freedom from ‘good’ or ‘bad’ foods!

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there will always be new friends to make, new jokes to keel over laughing at, new games to play, new hobbies to learn, new foods to try, new sunsets to watch and new places to visit.

don’t give up, because there’s always new and brighter times ahead.

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Omg I'm so tired of how little actual awareness there is about an0rexia like everyone's heard of it but there are so many misconceptions it's so damaging

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Your ED will never give you what you want. Never. Even if what you want is to be skinny, (which it is problem more than that) you'll never be satisfied. It will never be enough.

Starving myself did not make me prettier, make me love myself more, give me order, make me 'stronger', make people like me more, bring my dad back into my life, or undo all of the hurt I had gone through.

It made me lose my hair( I still have some bald spots and my hair is thinner than before), made me cold, made me weak, ruined my skin, made my fingernails blue, made me black out whenever I stood up, made my knees sore, made me lose my period, made me ravenously hungry, made me miss out on life and time with my friends, hurt my family, spoiled holidays and my birthday, destroyed my self esteem, gave me an awful relationship with food and my body, gave me anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts.

Recover now before it is too late. Please

Eating disorders are not an aesthetic. You don't want one. Belive me.

My bulimia did not...

... make me skinny.

... make me able to enjoy/eat more food.

... make me more popular.

... give me more contol of my life.

It did...

... give me an inflamed stomach.

... give me accid damage to my teeth.

... made me scared of carbs.

... give me dry skin.

... give me swollen salivary glands.

... made me get bruises more often.

... give me water retention that makes me look more fat.

I do understand that I (like most of us ed people) started this behaviour as an subconscious coping mechanism. I do understand that recovery is hard. Very hard. But it is never okay to post fatspo or hateful texts to drive others deeper into an ed.

Ana and Mia are not your friends, they are trying to kill you.

You deserve help. You deserve to eat. You deserve to live.

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Queer Christians are on a whole other level. Queer Christians have faith you can't even understand. Queer Christians know God in such a deep and special way. Someone who realizes they're queer and STAYS a Christian has such a powerful belief in God and such an intimate acquaintance with His goodness. I wish homophobic, transphobic, conservative fundamentalist evangelicals could grasp even a tiny bit of the joy and peace and love that I experience through my QUEER relationship with God.

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remember everytime you choose not to recover, you're actively dying 💓

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Ah yes, the Holy Trinity of mentally ill girls

this is me for real