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I agree so much with your last post about Hannah! I got the same vibe and it SUCKS cause she had potential but:(

No fr. I LOVED her at first despite the dramatics with losing her friends. But then she just continued to get more unhinged and take everything seriously, it really annoyed me. Her interaction with Jade this episode made me roll my eyes. Girl please you are older than me acting like that.😒 I'm not saying this because Jade is my fave, but I just feel like I'm being gaslit everytime I watch her. Because so many people love her and I'm just like.🧍‍♀️

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THANK YOU!!! I REALLY don’t get why Hannah is such a massive fan favorite. I liked her in the earlier episodes but after episode six or so she was just kinda.. there. Plus, she’s low key kind of a bad friend to Benji?? Not that she means to be, but it’s kinda hard for me to watch some of their scenes together bc she’s constantly making fun of him to the point where I just feel bad. And clearly she just expected him to do whatever she wanted the whole time, like the whole “we do the usual, you do what I say!!” Thing in episode 14.. what was that about

Glad to see I'm not the only one who doesn't like Hannah that much. I never thought of Benji and Hannah's dynamic that way but I see it. Honestly, their relationship was probably the most entertaining thing that involved her. I shipped them a little but the little sister thing was fine.

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I'm gonna say something I feel like a lot of people are going to disagree but I don't like Hannah that much. Like she's nice on her own but she is so hard to watch sometimes. I usually like emotional or characters with trauma but the whole "everyone around me leaves" thing is SO aggravating. "She didn't watch the show. She didn't watch the show". She's been in it long enough PLEASE. Everytime she interacts with Jade or Spencer I feel like muting it because she has so many strong feelings and to me they are so dramatic, and not in a good way. I know she's written to be likeable and sympathetic but I don't really find her to be. I want to like her because everyone here does but I just can't. I'm not asking anyone to convince me to like her or object, I just want to know if anyone else feels that way.😔

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Guys, do you think they know it's risky for the game to engage in romance??

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I just know in my heart that Sam would be a bad bitch if he was a woman. It's canon. And I feel like Bucky would be a lover girl (hear me out). I want to draw them together sometime. I drew up something of Sam real quick to share the vision. Rough sketch.

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Day 9 of my new diet. And I have a LOT to share

First off. The meals I had eaten were not a good idea. Before I ate a meal a day my body actually worked fine. But I think when I did eat a full meal my body remembered it was not eating. My stomach was so bad. I won't go too deep but let's just say I changed my diet a bit.

In the past two-three days I pretty much had cheat days, with some of my healthy habits mixed in. I was really disappointed in myself because my motivations for doing this mean so much to me. And it made me feel like I didn't want them enough. But I quickly got myself back together and today I am sticking to it and am more determined than ever. Every journey involves a step. Forwards, backwards, side-to-side, you're getting somewhere. I would really appreciate it if you guys could comment.

New Diet

-ONLY water (seltzer or regular)

-Fruits and vegetables in between meals as snacks.

-oatmeal for breakfast

-A salad for lunch and then dinner.

-A protein shake if I want.

Me personally, I do feel more energized after changing my diet. I add blackened chicken to my salads for protein and to feel satisfied. I've been eating less for so long my stomach gets fuller easily. Which is a blessing and a curse because I love drinking water (especially seltzer)😭.

Anyways, I haven't weighed myself yet. I decided to weigh myself on Monday. I will update you guys. Love you! 😘

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Update from my previous post. My diet is as follows:

-Fruits and Vegetables

-Meal Substitutes (protein shakes & bone broth)

-ONLY water (regular, seltzer)

-If necessary for peace of mind ONE meal and must not be fried. ,(Rotisserie chicken breast, stir fry)

It's day 5 and I've lost another two pounds since my last post (390lbs now). Nine pounds down! I've been eating one meal for the last two days because I felt hungry. I ate brown rice, chicken, feta, broccoli, and sweet potatoes cut up into small pieces. It looked like a chipotle bowl. When I eat/drink I like to not consume a lot so it can be below 1500 calories. I burn around 3000 calories a day.

I noticed some changes with my body. All I ate today was some fruit, a protein shake, and the bowl. I had went around 6 whole hours only having the fruit and shake until I had the bowl. I was genuinely surprised that I didn't feel that uncomfortable feeling you get when you diet. I was really proud. My discipline and body has begun getting used to this. I'm so happy.

I think I'll go back to drinking the meal substitutes though. The meals I ate were my dinner and I like to weigh myself in the morning. So I think if I do choose to eat something it'll be lunch or breakfast instead so it can fully digest by the time the morning comes.

Thank you to my pookies who are reading. Your girl has goals and ambition. I love y'all. Pray for me. I'm gonna try to update every two days. ☺️

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Okay guys. I am posting this to not only help myself but other people who really want to lose weight but doubt themselves for any reason. I used to weigh 399 lb. And when I realized that, that was my breaking point. I've just started this new healthy lifestyle and I'm going to log in my journey to help you guys.

My current diet is as follows:

-Fruits and vegetables

-ONLY Water (regular, seltzer, etc.)

-Meal Substitutes with protein (Premier Protein or other shakes and Bone Broth.)

-If absolutely necessary for peace of mind ONE meal but must not be fried.

Examples are Rostessie Chicken breast or Stir Fry

This diet is a result of many attempts before that were too extreme for me to keep doing. As of right now it is day three and I currently weigh 392. I have lost 7 lbs so far and I feel so full of energy. Thank you all for reading and just know that I wish you all luck on your own health journeys.

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You know, I like the ship gaalee but I can hardly ever enjoy the fan stuff. Everytime I look up fanart I'm bombarded with the most atrocious looking drawings I've ever seen. WHY is Lee 7'2 and Gaara 4'6?!? If you've ever had the displeasure of going on Pinterest you know the artist I'm describing rn. They're like two inches apart PLEASE I beg of you. Stop! Fanfics are even worse because you actually have to sit down and comprehend the bs. Lee is the main one who has shown feminine traits in the show, why is he so....that?!? Gaara is.... something.

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Okay I didn't know if anyone else noticed this but like, when I look for fanfics about Sam with whoever, a lot of them make him the only mature person in the story. I'm not even talking about the mother-hen archetype but he'll keep his actual characterization and the other person is dumbed down or OOC completely. I just noticed it too. I read this one poly fic that was set in the Omega verse (you can judge) and Sam was completely normal but Steve and Bucky were soooo needy. Mind you, Sam and Bucky were alphas and Steve was an omega. Steve was such a baby the whole fic even when he wasn't in heat it was so weird. And Bucky was the alpha stereotype to a tee. He was possessive, aggressive, and controlling. But also needy and was bratty as hell. And Sam was just this ordinary guy that reacted how an average person would in that situation. Even when he was in rut he wasn't doing the most. I'm not saying you can't write characters how you want but I hardly ever see fics where Sam is the dumb or OOC one. Like EEEEWWWW! If one has to be dumb why can't they all be?😭

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Hey I updated my Metal Lee fic! I'm really excited for you guys to read it! He has so little fan-anything. It's a coming of age story, mostly. For more details please look at the post before this. Here's the link! ☺️

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64267954/chapters/165869413

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Hello Metal Lee fans! I got tired of the lack of fics about him on AO3 so I made my own. It's called This New World by Pookie_Panda! I just published it so please check it out. I will be updating regularly because the fan work for him is so scarce.😭 My fic is a coming of age story with multiple chapters and a background romance (not for him).

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Another drawing of my queen! 😁 This is digital unlike my previous drawing but I honestly prefer hand drawn. Digital takes soooo long.

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I really don't want Spencer X Logan to happen.

I know there's a good chance Spencer and Logan could get together but I really don't want them too. I love their characters individually and sometimes this shows slows down character arcs for relationships to form. It also seems unnecessary.

Logan could come out in a different way and didn't Spencer just get out of a relationship?!? He doesn't need a new one. I like him and Jade's dynamic better because you have one person who hides a lot of their feelings and one that shows them (but sometimes has trouble controlling them). I'm also worried because sometimes with this show the other relationships the two characters have with others take less priority and can end up sloppy.

I don't want that with Jade and Spencer because why are they together in the opening if they never got to have a good connection. At least Diego and Spencer had something going on before Diego went home (wasn't good but still).

Also the couples we already have are nicely done. And I feel like adding another couple would be too much.

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Just finished drawing my queen👑. I love her and Spencer's alliance. He really cares and I think she cares too. They're so cute.😭

Dork Diary hands. It's all I got.😖

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Honestly even though Sambucky is probably never going to become canon, I won't be disappointed. I actually like that they're not confirmed because then it could get boring and the writers could mess it up. And AO3 exists for a reason. Given the multiverse in Marvel, those fanfics are canon in some of those universes so yeah. Keep writing more!

Also, are y'all open to seeing Sambucky fanart? I'm a beginner artists and I really need to get used to drawing men and this would be a fun way.

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I'm going to say my piece. And then I'm going to head out. The way some of y'all show energy for Bucky's cameo in this movie. And the way y'all inflate the hell out of it because "they're together again". I better see that same energy if Sam appears in the Thunderbolts* movie.

Also, stop tagging Sam Wilson and Anthony Mackie if y'all aren't going to talk about them. I touched on this in my previous post, but I am so sick of going to those tags and all I see is y'all talking about Bucky Barnes and Sebastian Stan. And maybe y'all will throw in a little mention of Sam or Anthony but that's about it. But yet, when I go to Bucky Barnes' or Sebastian Stan's tag, most of the posts rightfully focus or include the character or actor in a meaningful way

I have this same energy for the people who post in the sambucky tag but only or mainly talk about Bucky. Some of y'all talk about Sam like he's an accessory and it's so weird. The way y'all will give the most critical, deep essays and character dives about Bucky and then at the same time act like Sam is this "helper" or therapist to him is so hypocritical it's wild. And don't get me started on the people who picture Sam as this "big and strong" black man. It's straight up fetishization. Not to mention Anthony Mackie is literally shorter and smaller than Sebastian Stan. Y'all have such a warped sense of reality that y'all will make up features in order for them to fit your ideal couple. Nasty.

It makes me feel like some of y'all don't see Sam as a character. Some of y'all see him more like an accessory or a caricature. And if you're offended by this, or you're like "I'm not like that". You're probably way closer to what I'm describing than you think you are.

Anyways, feel free to like, comment, follow, and repost. Also send me a question if y'all want to! Hugs and kisses to all of my supporters and those who take the time to receive my message. Thank you! 😊