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only a man

made a fake poster while playing w texture brushes lmao

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uh

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really fucks me up that kim dokja killing kim namwoon is initially played off as a joke because he didn't like his character in the novel, only for it to later be revealed that he sees his younger self in knw and is just projecting his own self loathing, only for it to later be revealed he resents that knw is continuously forgiven and accepted by yoo joonghyuk despite being fucked up, only for it to later be revealed that this is because kdj hates himself so much that he believes he is the only person who doesn't deserve to be forgiven or accepted. demon king of salvation who doesn't think he deserves to be saved. kind of crazy

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Fixated

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Isolation

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Me, holding my 17 angst fics, 12 meta analyses, 32 fix-it’s, 8.5 hurt/comfort fics, 20 canon divergences, 93 fanarts, and 3 crack fics about a single character in my arms: I’m completely normal about them; why do you ask?

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"Why him, and not me?"

Because you gave up and stopped hoping. This might seem understandable for someone millenia old, someone who's died more than a thousand times, but the whole point of Yoo Joonghyuk is that he doesn't give up no matter what. He keeps hoping for the best, he stands up after a loss and keeps walking. He is an honorary Spider-man at this point. And this is exactly what young Kim Dokja needed: someone to show him that he can continue, no matter what horrors may lie ahead, no matter how tired, disillusioned and desperate he gets. He can overcome this, because Yoo Joonghyuk has been through worse and still chose to overcome this. The moment Yoo Joonghyuk stops, he is no longer the Yoo Joonghyuk that Han Sooyoung created for this sad, desperate, suicidal teenager (which is symbolically underlined by Yoo Joonghyuk choosing to call himself something different). True, he is no longer a character, he's broken out of his confinement... but he's also lost the essential part that mattered most to Kim Dokja, the sole reason behind his existence.

What is also interesting is that it's Kim Dokja who gave 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk the will to live again. Yoo Joonghyuk had to keep dying and returning again and again so that Kim Dokja lived, so that they eventually met and Kim Dokja could give Yoo Joonghyuk the hope that Yoo Joonghyuk had been slowly feeding to Kim Dokja through an IV for all these 13 years. This is why it's 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk, and not the Plotter.

(Although I do find it ironic that the Plotter basically gets an umambiguous happy ending with his friends and his adoptive child/sponsor/reason for existence, whilst 1864!Yoo Joonghyuk's suffering is far from over, and we don't even, strictly speaking, see if he's succeeded in bringing Kim Dokja back).

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Happy birthday Kim Dokja! Thank you for your story.

the text is the poem "If I Can Stop One Heart from Breaking" by Emily Dickinson

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Hanged man in the Yuppie Psycho Tarot Card set. Will I do more? Who knows

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Words are very unnecessary

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"Damn squid."

[carrd, comms, and other such things]

GOT IT DONE :"DD

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what sustains a constellation

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how cruel of them to do this

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If you want to write a dumb little story with a dumb little plot and ridiculously silly characters. No one's stopping you. Genuinely, no one should be allowed to stop you. Write that dumb story with your whole heart and don't hold back.

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"Damn squid."

[carrd, comms, and other such things]

GOT IT DONE :"DD

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