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A system is a collection of alters. Alters are chronically dissociated self states, with different neurological pathways that often are accompanied by a varying degree of amnesia. Dissociation is caused by stress/trauma. Alters are a byproduct of dissociating from trauma. You can’t dissociate from trauma you do not have. You cannot dissociate without trauma. You cannot have alters without trauma. You cannot have a system without alters.

You cannot be a system without trauma.

Do you have to know about the trauma ? No. Does it have to be a certain type of trauma ? No. Does it need to be a certain severity ? No. It just needs to have occurred during critical developmental period of the brain. Before the ego states have stitched together, it must be chronic, and beyond the child’s stress threshold, otherwise it will not disrupt the developmental growth. This is different for everyone. The reason trauma cannot be listed as a diagnostic criteria, is because there is no “xyz trauma that causes dissociative disorders”. It’s completely unique to each person suffering from the disorder. And in often cases, the person suffering from the disorder isn’t aware of their trauma. That’s the point of the disorder. This does not mean you don’t need trauma to suffer from a dissociative disorder. Systems are byproducts of dissociative disorders, you cannot be a byproduct of a disorder you do not have.

Endos are not systems. What do I mean by this? I mean that, by definition, that term is not suited for them, and is not meant to describe them. Just like kinning doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like roleplaying doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like religious practises such as tulpamancy isn’t a system. You are perfectly free to do whatever you please, truly. But do not compare it to being a system. You do not share our experiences. You are a different community entirely, and that’s ok.

But please, for the love of god, stop invading our community, and stop spreading misinformation about an already stigmatised and misunderstood disorder.

I understand if you didn’t know better. But please, educate yourself, and stop spreading this misinformation. Being a system isn’t an identity. It’s not a label. And please, stop comparing it to being queer. This is a mental illness. Being queer is not a mental illness.

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having DID with a disability is basically

System: hey we have a disability. This means we should take it easy and listen to our body's limits! We'll feel better if we take care of ourselves. If we push it too much it can have a lot of consequences. :)

Alter that holds internalized abelism: this doesn't apply to me actually and also you're wrong

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TW: mentions of medical trauma and images of medical items(needles primarily)

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*GASP* sashabunnie posting a piece of art that isn't an original character? That has deep themes and dark images without using dark humor? What has this page come too? 🙀

In all seriousness though, I thought I'd create an art piece that speaks to me. An art piece that I hope speaks to others.

The art piece in question is about chronic illness, how draining it is while those around you(specifically doctors, nurses, and other medical professionals), talk about different treatments, medications, etc. and how much it'll help. But in the long run, this is your life. It is what it is and what it will be.

Diseases with no cure, but not deadly enough to find one.

Diseases that are rare enough that you get told that it's "not real" or that it's "too rare to happen to you", but just common enough that people start saying it's a "fad" or "trend".

While treatments may be given, doctors appointments are attended too, and ER staff get "used" to you coming in, you yourself are beginning to feel sick and tired of being sick and tired.

But this is your life. You can't escape it. There's no way out.

Guys, gals, and nonbinary pals, I present to you:

"Sick and tired of Sick and tired"

(progress proof since I can't figure out how to get a time lapse on Krita):

Sketch: Before details/shading:

I hope you enjoy this piece. It took me around 5-6 hours to complete. I hope someone will see this and feel seen by it.

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Hi! I apologize for not posting recently despite having a resurgence in wanting to draw. I've recently gotten a new art program and am still trying to figure out how to use it. In the meantime I'd like to discuss a topic I find important to talk about.

I recently received a question in my inbox. I found it rude and decided to delete and block the person. But now I'm realizing I could use this comment to educate those not in the art field on this subject, specifically about how proportions and different body types are taught to be drawn. I'll paraphrase the comment received:

"It's funny how you're fat but you draw yourself skinny, it's hilarious."

Yup that's the basis of what the comment was. I could tell from this comment that a) they're trying to be rude and mean and b) they at least don't draw humans and at most have no idea how to draw period.

Now you may be asking, how does this comment lead to an educational moment? I'm glad you asked.

I've been drawing since I can remember, and I only took a few art classes in middle school and highschool. Other than that I'm almost completely self taught and often took my inspiration from cartoons.

I also grew up in a much larger body than a good portion of my peers. I had binge e@ting disorder. This was caused by growing up in a poor family. I was taught to eat whatever I was offered(unless it was by a total stranger). I was also taught at school to inhale my food starting from kindergarten as we only got 15 minutes to eat and 15 minutes to play, if we went over the 15 minutes to eat we weren't allowed to play. Anyways this conditioned me to have BED.

Being overweight as a child was torture. Just like any ED it's very hard to control and even harder to spot in a child. I went untreated until I was 19. I'm a lot better now but sadly my stomach is now partially paralyzed.

Now like I said, growing up fat was extremely difficult, seeing others in my life who were skinnier than I, seeing all the cartoon shows on TV with the pretty skinny ladies and bulked up men, or even lanky men. And sure there were fat people in cartoons, but they're often portrayed as these lazy, stupid, people or they're middle aged with greying or thinning hair, in a mobility scooter, who are also portrayed as stupid and lazy.

I never saw a true representation of myself in cartoons. I never saw a plump nine year old with dreams to become a ballerina or baseball player, I never saw a bigger girl who exceeded in every class who wanted to become a paleontologist. All I saw were people making jokes about the fat character, how dumb and lazy they were.

But to me, I was never lazy or stupid. And when I started drawing myself I did so as a beautiful young person who was smart, clever, and always taken seriously. It was my escape from this world of hate.

Then I started taking art classes in middle school and highschool. They taught very basic anatomy in drawing, such as "this is how long your arm should be" and "the hand should be able to cover the face", just teaching proportions. But here's the catch, they hardly taught anything more than an hourglass shaped body for females and a rectangle shape for men.

In fact if we tried to explore more or less body shaped, whether it was a flat chested female, a dad bod male or vice versa, it was met with severe criticism.

Now over the years I've learned how to draw different body shapes and sizes better than I have in the past. And I have worked greatly to improve my self image and that a bit of extra fat here or there won't be the end all be all.

However that's not to say that I still have a hard time drawing myself as big as I see myself irl. The ED that warped from BED to OSFED in my teen years still yells at me from my mirror, telling me how ugly I am for being in a bigger body. People have told me several times that I'm not as big as the mirror says I am, which is true.

I may be in a bigger body but it's not to a point where my weight is affecting my health. The only real thing affecting my health are a slew of genetic disorders that I cannot control.

Just to conclude, just because someone draws themselves as bigger or smaller does not mean that they're delusional. It's just how they draw themselves.

Just be kind and non judgemental. You don't know what that person has been through and honestly it's not really your business unless it's a threat to safety, theirs or others.

And if you don't like what you see, scroll, it's not your place to get upset over something as small as someone drawing themselves in a different light than your perspective.

Love y'all!

(Picture of my gravity falls x the owl house OC for y'all)

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We've been seeing a lot of AI filters that turn photos into specific styles of art on our FYP. We strongly dislike all of these filters, but especially the studio Ghibli one. It feels like a mockery of Hayao Miyazaki's and studio Ghibli's animators' beautiful hard work. Miyazaki himself has come to condemn AI art. So because of this and the fact that we're feeling really Petty today, we did the trend but instead of using AI, we actually drew it. Therefore I present to you what we would look like if we were in a Studio Ghibli Film. The video attached is a Tiktok we created to combat the other videos under this trend on that platform. Anyways I hope you enjoy our pettiness and the artwork!

The Finished Piece:

The Video:

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Sometimes it feels like everyone around me is speaking in a secret language and I'm the only one who doesn't know it.

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Happy Pride! I (Sasha) haven't posted on our page yet with art(it's mostly been Emery's art) and since they are having a hard time, I thought I'd post some of my art for pride. Collectively we identify as Abrosexual & Nonbinary, but personally as an alter I am a lesbian. So I hope you enjoy this self portrait to celebrate the month! -Sasha

(P.S. we found some anti AI theft filters so now you can enjoy the full art instead of having blatant watermarks)

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We went to the park since it's been pretty nice the past few days and decided to do some landscape art(of a portion of the park) and experimented with the water color brush on the art program we use. I think it turned out pretty nice and watercolors are a lot easier when you don't have to wait for layers to dry. I'll update on our health later but hope you enjoy this piece of art. Love y'all!

(watermarks to prevent theft)

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Sorry we haven't updated in a while, we've been very busy with our health and getting treatment for our gastroparesis. We got an nj tube to help with nutrition. Thanks for the support!❤️❤️❤️ Will update in a bit.

(photos edited for privacy)

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I just had to

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TW: Tube feeding

If my stage 3 gastroparesis was a person. We're doing our best to cope with the fact that we need a tube so dark humor it is. It's going to suck but it'll keep us alive. Stay tuned ig. Love y'all! ❤️

(watermarks to prevent theft)

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My Hazbin Hotel OC CiCi or Cecilia. Her backstory is interesting, it still has some loopholes I need to fix but I hope you like her! I think she turned out very nice.

Love y'all!❤️

(watermarks to prevent theft)

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Up close of my pfp + time lapse. Sorry about the watermarks, I'm not willing to get my art stolen by anyone or AI (other artists know what I'm saying). Anyways more art to come. Love y'all! ❤️