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i’d be happier if the education system didn’t suck lmao

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i feel so left out when im with guys

i feel like im not supposed to be there to vibe with them to be around them or to do anything around them

i vibe with girls a lot i talk to them freely i feel comfortable and safe around them, but one can only vibe for so long

i kinda feel like im burdening both of them when and if im around them

i never feel like i belong anywhere

i feel so lost and tired

maybe its the BPD? but cant blame it for everything now can we?

there are guys shyer than me in the "guys" group but they still vibe, but i cant, i just feel like im idk i cant explain im just ranting lol

oh to be a guy who cant vibe with guys lol

eh im tired

i want this to end, its so overwhelming to explain how overwhelmed i feel by everything im just so tired idk how much longer i can keep up

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Ek kachori do samosa

Is sansar ka kya bharosa

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Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Concerns from a hot-boxed jeep”

[Text ID: “How do I stop / carrying everything / that had ever / happened to me?”]

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oh to be there for people but not have people be there for you

im so tired

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history exam tomorrow and all i know is that mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell

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tfw you want to read novels and poetry to understand the depths of the world and the human mind but you have a small attention span so you read quotes on tumblr to feel about yourself

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post happiness, sadness.

does anyone experience this “post happiness, sadness”

it’s like you go out with the people you like, admire or maybe love and have the time of your life.

but, when you come back home, it feels like a void has been formed in your chest, like you can’t find a way to fill it, and it starts filling with sadness.

maybe it’s because you start thinking about how you can’t feel the way you felt in that particular  moment ever again and won’t be able to experience it at that level again.

again, not sure where i’m going with this, but there is a lot of mix and match of emotions which confuses me idk 

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me: "i wanna lose weight"

also me: *has waffles and chole bhature*

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me

so you’re saying you’re desi but you did not use moms dupatta as a saree when you were a kid? that’s illegal.

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the day i make friends who wanna do impulsive things with me in bangalore its over for y'all

also the day i make male friends who like are wholesome and not borderline toxic its over for y'all i think

i think i need constant validation

help pls

tis a cry 4 help

pls

also im panic posting because like exams and idk wut but like yey i think pls send help

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honestly, it's just me and my desire to bake cinnamon rolls and drink cold coffee against the world <3

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sorry i'm late. just ran over someone's italian boyfriend.

sorry i’m late. just ran over someone’s golden retriever boyfriend.

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me before an exam: "only god can judge me"

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i like to gain knowledge but when it comes to being marked for the knowledge i gain, thats where i draw the line.

like why are you judging my mental capacity?? like hello??? sir??? i am like not the strongest soldier of god pls stop testing me???

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oh to go to the terrace after it rains at night and feel the cool breeze take over you, each breeze taking away the stress you've been holding on to piece by piece.

the cool air just comforting you and making you feel care free for a while like nothing could harm you, just you the clouds and the wind taking over you and your problems.

i think this is where i feel the word "hiraeth" a word i admire so much, i word i fell in love with.

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the mentally unstable urge to drop out of college right before an exam