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i have too pretty of a face to waste it on being fat.

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I wanna be her

*pics from Pinterest*

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ok so summer break started 3 days ago and i've managed to go above 1000 calories each day. i only have a month of summer break so i need to do this right to lose how much i need to. anyone willing to keep me in check feel free to do so (pls)

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i want to be a model that parties all night in milan :/

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“She came back from summer looking gaunt and sick, clearly not well, but oh god her body dropped jaws”.

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Found my old journal again

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hey so tomorrow is technically 2022 in my country and I just wanna say if you made it through this dumb year I'm so proud of you. I can't tell you how many times I dreamt of not being alive and how many times I fought through those feelings even if the fight was in the form of doing the bare minimum to get through the day. If this time of year is hard for you just know that it won't stay that way. You made it through this shit show of a year and you'll make it through another ♥️

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Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

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umm

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Okay so basically I consumed 733 calories today for bfast lunch and dinner. But I drink chaii like a crazy person (it's like tea but you boil milk+water with black tea leaves) and I don't know how many calories to count for that because I'm pretty sure they're wrong on Google (it says 200 calories a cup for what? half a cup of milk(whole) and half a cup of water?)

Any help?

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I was about to eat cake this morning like a tiny tiny slice like a bite... but I didn't. I'm so happy rn. Kinda sad cuz I have to eat breakfast anyway cuz I have to go to class from 11am to 4 30pm and I need to like pay attention and not pass out😪

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Sticks for legs and collarbones..... that's all I want:(

(not mine)

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does anyone pace around in theyre room for hours at night because your to depressed and tired during the day to do exercise? cause same lol -(not me) just thinspo <3

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Last night🌲 Weighed in 102 this morning🐇 never pro Ana just using tags

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I avoid being alone with my mom at all costs and she was in the kitchen so I went to check if she needed help. I planned to be in and out ASAP but somehow in a couple of seconds she managed to tell me how I'm the type of person to consider myself above everyone else and I give no one else importance but me and for her it took seconds but now I feel like shit.

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And it's my younger sister's 16th so I kinda had to suck up the tears. Did that. So now I'm gonna pretend like it never happened🙃