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We didn’t try but

we should have. I didn’t love

you but I could have.

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || Pistanthrophobia

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Who a person is

has to matter more than who

you want them to be.

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || Potential: Pending

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They listen but roll

their eyes - “What’s wrong? You could have

anyone you want.”

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || But we both know that’s not true

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The fact that I find

myself reaching for a pen

means I’m in too deep.

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || This is going to hurt

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An entire generation, starved for affection and terrified of love.

Ten Word Story || Colleen Courtney Joyce || Catch 22

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If you knew you were going to die in a year or less, what would you start doing differently?

More than I’d like to admit. Generally speaking, I’d try to spend less time working and more time doing what I enjoy with people I love. I would also try to put my stubbornness aside, be less passive and more forward with how I feel and what I want.

P.S. These asks are heavy, y’all 😭

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You should write about friends who dont even seem like your friends. Friends who you help with anything and everything and they barely even listen to your stories. Friends who pretend.

Thanks for the recommendation! I will add it to my list.

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How do we know if we’re doing the right thing? Like what if a choice we make has a positive consequence in one regard yet an unforeseen negative consequence in another?

I’d be lying if I said I knew the answer to this one. I guess I just try to determine what is truly important to me (values, interests, people, goals) and make decisions that bring me closer to each of those things. Will there be collateral damage caused by some of my decisions? Undoubtedly. I also expect I’ll sometimes be adversely impacted by others’ decisions. The “right” thing to me may be the “wrong” thing to you. I’m not certain that an objective, concrete answer exists.

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Guilt drips from my pores and pools on the floor like evidence of my recklessness. As if I never noticed the agony I was causing, like I was blind to the casualties around me. Pleading for deliverance from my abiding ineptness is no longer an option I can claim with clear conscience. Some say it’s better to keep closed lips and plead the fifth. I say that I am guilty and beckon the retribution forthwith.

|| Colleen Courtney Joyce || Act of Contrition

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I can feel the pain

I am causing you. I can’t

do this anymore.

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || Another Goodbye

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20,000 breaths

a day for 21,535 days.

Breaths that fueled

laughter and running

and crying and kissing.

Breaths that made

promises and breaths

that broke them.

Breaths that saw

children born

and breaths that saw

them grow.

A lifetime worth of

swift intakes,

gentle sighs,

deep exhales...

A medley of

430,700,000 breaths

and then suddenly

nothing.

|| Colleen Courtney Joyce || Strangers As Your Witness

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I’ve mastered the art

of walking away... I need

to learn how to stay.

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A light, steady pull.

What is this cord that binds us?

Is this how fate feels?

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || Magnetism

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When all else fails, use a black and white filter #☑️

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Blanket the world around me in a shimmering sheath. Pay no heed to those who shield their face and forsake your virtue. Only a fool would deny your beauty. Only a fool would curse your name.

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And suddenly, I’m

hit by a remarkably

strong urge to call you.

Haiku by || Colleen Courtney Joyce || But I don’t

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So fresh & so clean clean #RuskotheCaneCorso