#& not bc of dementia specifically but Idk

[aroaessidhe]

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Returning To You

NA contemporary romance-ish about a travel influencer moving back home to reconnect with her dad, who ends up living with her college friend and fake dating her to get her parents off her back

ace bi & aro bi MCs

I did….not think the aro character in particular was handled very well tbh

[macgyvermedical]

Okay so I have a really specific question. Baseline stats? Except my character is already pretty sick, he's got room to get much much worse but right now he ain't great. He's in a fair amount of pain because he keeps having adverse reactions to painkillers from previous drug abuse and yeah. So what would normal baseline be? And then what would a normal baseline for him bc since he's got this illness. It's idk what you call it but one of the illness that get worse with time... degenerative. Except in this world he can be fixed with enough treatment but he keeps refusing said treatment. Yeah I don't really understand vitals and things so I didn't wanna botch it but based on the info what would you assume would be good? Also what's like the worse someone's vitals could be with them still awake and alive although the mental state can be real messed up. (: thanks hon

So our understanding of normal adult vitals include:

BP: 100/60- 140/90 mmHg (a measurement of pressure)

Pulse: 60-100 beats per minute

Respirations: 12-20 breaths per minute

Temperature: 96-100.4F or 36-38C

SpO2: 95-100%

Level of Consciousness: Alert and Oriented times 4 (can answer 4 specific questions about themselves and their environment)

Now, all these "normals" pretty much assume a healthy, white, 20-something male who has a BMI of 18-25 and who has been sitting quietly for at least 5 minutes. So basically very few real humans.

It's very normal to vary from these somewhat if you are exerting yourself, in pain, sick, or otherwise different from the above demographic. So if we're taking vitals, we want to control what we can (generally asking the person to sit relatively quietly for 5 minutes). If we do this and you're out of range, but we have no other data to work with, we will try to get you back into this range. Because again, it's assumed that to get out of these ranges, you must have something going on medically that needs addressed.

For example, if your blood pressure is 160/90 with a heart rate of 110 because you're in a lot of pain, we can correct that by treating whatever is causing the pain.

Now, there's not always an identifiable (or fixable) reason why someone might be out of range, and sometimes we just correct the vitals themselves because chronically high or low vitals may cause problems. For example, as far as we know right now, living for a long time with a blood pressure in the 180s/100s will eventually cause heart failure, stroke, or heart attack, regardless of the reason. So if we can't get that person back into range by fixing something else, we'll give medications that directly lower blood pressure.

But let's say someone's heart rate is in the 40s because they're a runner. That's normal for them. It doesn't cause them any problems, it's not caused by a disease process, as far as we know won't cause them problems in the future, and their other vital signs are in normal range. They are said to have a "baseline heart rate of 40bpm". That tells other medical providers who are working with them that there's nothing to correct there- ignore that weird reading and just fix anything else that needs fixed.

Baseline can also be used if someone has a chronic illness that is as controlled as it can be, but it still has an impact on their vital signs. Say someone has a heart rhythm called atrial fibrillation with RVR and their heart rate without medications is in the 190s or 200s. This may cause symptoms, but if we medicate to control that rate to between 60-100, it may also cause symptoms.

So we might give enough medication to control the rate to 110s, which minimizes the symptoms they experience but still puts them technically out of range. Their baseline, then, is in the 110s. Again, nothing to correct there, it's just normal for them to be out of range on that vital.

Or, someone might have dementia and be unable to answer all the questions that would make them A+Ox4, but maybe can only consistently answer 2 of them. We wouldn't necessarily be worried about that because we know that it's normal for them to be A+Ox2- their baseline, but we would be worried if suddenly they were A+Ox0.

You can also have other measurements besides vitals that are considered baseline stats. Like pain, or blood sugar, BMI, electrolyte levels, or pretty much any other lab value.

As far as what you are describing I don't know that I can give you specific baselines, as I don't know what his symptoms are or how they relate to vital signs. With chronic pain generally vitals eventually go back to normal (say someone rates their pain at a 5/10 consistently, over time their body normalizes around that pain level and other vitals may only go out of range if they have an acute spike in pain).

What I can give you is a few of the following:

Pain: All vital signs go up

Dehydration/blood loss/shock: BP and LOC goes down, everything else goes up

Kidney problems: BP and HR can change but in what direction is due to the specific problem.

Opioid overdose: RR goes down.

Heart problems: Change in HR and BP but directions can change depending on specific problem.

Lung problems: Usually RR and HR go up

Throwing up: everything goes up

Drug abuse and withdrawal: depends on the drug

[deadpanwalking]

hello!! do you have any recommendations for books or essays about becoming a better reader of poetry? I love the poems you post and esp love when your tags go into what you got out of it / understood from it, bc it’s always so much more than I was able to interpret on my own. and I want to become a better reader and learn how to really sit with a poem and get into all its layers but idk where to start.

I stand behind the recs in this post, but since you want to focus on poetry and poetics, in addition to William Empson's The Seven Types of Ambiguity and Helen Vendler's Poems, Poets, and Poetry, I'd also recommend Christopher Ricks' The Force of Poetry, I. A. Richards' Practical Criticism, and Jorge Luis Borges' The Craft of Verse. They are all beautifully written, by people whose love of the form transcends academia and becomes, at times, a kind of secular worship. I loved poetry before I fully understood language, back when it was just incomprehensible mouthwords my parents repeated to get me to sleep; I'd have loved poetry even if I never toiled a day in the hermeneutics mines, like my grandmother reciting Eugene Onegin after her dementia cleared everything else from the table—she wasn't sure what it meant, all she knew was that this was the nicest thing she had. Isn't that a kind of faith?

There are other good books about how to read poetry, but these were the ones that initiated me into a conspiracy of words, they taught me to be curious about why I liked a poem, how to take pleasure in its vivisection without worrying I'd kill that faith—like martyrs, good poems never fall apart when you open them up, they yield. If anything, the practice of explication has made me even more of a fanatic. I hope it does the same for you!

If there are poets you already like, I can get more specific about recs—I'm partial to modernist poetry, but that just means I like following breadcrumb trails of allusions to lots of different literary traditions and can tell you where the bodies, hatchets and/or treasures are buried.

[sug4r-sp1c3]

Hi!

Could you maybe do villanous x a reader who has rabbit ears please? Thanks!!

RULES ARE RULFES NO SPECIFIC CHARACTERS OR THINGS ITS BEING A HC UHHHH

ok lets begin since i'm sleepy ITA 1 AM WHAT THE FUCK

"but sugar-sp1c3 you said your limit was 4 character-" I KNOW OKAYI' JUST FORGOT WHEN DOING THIS

VILLANOUS WITH A S/O WITH RABBIT EARS HCS !!

Characters, Demencia/Dementia, Dr.Flug, 5.0.5(platonic?), Black hat, penumbra, Sun Blast, Miss heed(not in order lol)

Demencia / Dementia

she woudl make fun of then

but like

A LOT

"Hey bunny ears!"

i feel like she would bite them idk

i mean yes she mocks of you BUT THATS HER WAY TO SHOW LOVE TO YOU..at least i think!

she haves 2 sides

the left one where she mocks and jokes and bites of you ears

and the right side where she praises you and your eyes and- you are basically her new black hat

she would often play with them

or if you have both rabbit and human she would be like:

"SO YOU HAVE SUPER HEARING!!?! OMG THATS SO COOL"

Dr. Flug

his first honest reaction is that gif sorry i don't make rules

HE THINKS THEY ARE COOL AND PRETTY ASF

HE MELTS IF THEY EVEN MOVE LIKE

HE JUST STARES AT YOU IN AWWE UNTIL HE SNAPS BACK TO REALITY!

unless his with black hat bc in that case he avoids to look at your ears at all cost since the "jefecito" can notice and idk yeah

he would probably want to do some experiments

but only friendly ones!!

like testing if you can do other things

if you have extra sensitive ears

or somthn idk i have no ideas rn

he would like to caress them on his little free time

oh btw he would LOVE if you and 5.0.5 where like best buddies or you would be his second parent-like figure(i swear i am trying to make his non specified gender I SWEAR GUYS)

he just lvoes you and you ears so much

5.0.5

he's a fucking bear bruh 💀

ok so thsi will be platonic like buddies or a second parental figure, or smthn like that

he loves to "talk" about your ears or ask you questions.(if you don understand them he would force flug to translate lmao)

he is very careful when he is trying to touch them since y'know..big paws

but he still tries!!

i imagine if he maked cupcakes the icing would be a drawing of an airplane, of dementia, a chameleon or a black hat idk, for you YOUR RABBIT EARS AND A HEART BECAUSE I THINK THEY ARE CUTE!!!!

he would even "ask" you to use you as inspiration for any dessert, or drawing or smthn.

i bet if he haves a rabbit plushie he gives it to you and/or puts something on the ears(ribbons, little hats, etc) he would be like "bow bow!" [siblings!]

Black Hat

he probably threats to rip off your ears

and eat them

basically hurt you

DUDE HE IS LIKE THE ANTI CHRIST ON HIS UNIVERSE WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO TURN HIM INTO A ONCELER?

Penumbra

SHE

LOVES

YOUR

EARS

SHE OFTEN POSTS THINSG ON HER INSTAGRAM(with your consent ofc) LIKE "my sweetie's ears where a bit messy today! so me and sun blast fixed them just a lil bit.... loved the result! 🐇💜"

she would ask if you are sensitive to things like sound or something to try to not let a lot of hard things that can cause a hard sound when they fall or make sure Curie or Sunblast don't throw things

she oftenly tries to impulse you to not cover them! but if you like to have them covered, she would be okay with that too!

the same that flug

she would ask to make some little and non-offensive, experiments on your ears

if you don't want, its okay!

if you want, its okay too!

"look! i got you this! i bet it would make your ears fur brighter!..and curie's too"

Miss Heed

okay she would POST LIKE 10000 HISTORIES, POSTS, AND A LOT OF THINGS IN ALL HER SOCIAL MEDIA

LIKE SAYING "HAH MY s/O'S EARS ARE UNIQUE AND YOURS NOT"

but she would never say that out loud.

she would ask to records tiktoks or anything about them, like idk trends, popular songs or just quick vid like "watch me take care of my Sweetie S/o ears!"

if they are sensitive, during the event of when she had everybody under her control or smthn she would keep you away from them

yes she would be a bit sadistic and evil but she still cares abt you

..or she just does the same thing that she did with them..

when she's at..THAT place..she draws in a corner a lot of little ears, like if she misses you and misses your ears..

if you visit, she would beg to touch them again , to feel them..she would be crazy for it..

Sunblast

Red BEFORE the "The Dreadful Dawn".

Orange AFTER "The Dreadful Dawn" and BEFORE the events of the comic and The "Heedeous Heart"

Yellow AFTER "The Dreadful Dawn" and the events of "The Heedeous Heart" and the little comic

even if you where his S/O he would mock of you and of them..

listen he knows you are his S/O but he just..feels like its the right thing or it doesn't matters

he doesn't even minds as i can think

he is just like "oh i am just joking! geez.."

Now under Penumbra's uhm..how do i say it?..NOW WITH PENUMBRA LMAO

he realized that he may have been a bit too much harsh with you..

he persuades Penumbra to localize you or visit you to apologize

if things go well..you both could try again!

and he is better.

He even tries to make you be friends with Penumbra! like he did with her

He still makes jokes but he thinks about them for a long time like

"no..that would hurt their feelings..NO ITS BAD..well- no wait..no..oh...this one may be good.."

he fears of you getting like the other ones..he tries to protect you at all cost

if you do get under Miss heed's..thing

he would be like mad but that multiplicate it for 10 and then for 100

the only thing that keeps him away from hurting heed and all her followers its his current little size and Curie

when you aren't under heeds control he makes sure you and your ears are okay..

he asks everyday if you are 100% SURE IF YOU ARE OKAY

after the Miss heed thing he is worried more than he should be but like c'mon

leave the little guy alone :(

he lost 2 of his most special people in his life just because a pink bitch

[thebhorror]

hello becca thebhorror who i trust implicitly do u have horror recommendations for someone who will not watch any movies for a year and then binge horror for a week luv u xoxox

hello glassamphibians <3 I love talking about movies :) please see below for my full (and long) recommendation list

Okay so my favorite movie of all time is Suspiria (1977) it’s about ballet and witches and I recommend that. There’s also a 2018 version which is good (but nowhere as near as good as the original)

My next recommendation is malignant (2021). Fun horror mystery from the genius James Wan.

Next is Saint Maud (2019). It was literally one of my most anticipated movies ever and I never see anyone talk about it but shit is incredible.

Then is May (2002). If you like Carrie then you’ll LOVE May. I love weird girls <3

And ALSO Perfect Blue (1997). It’s a animated Japanese horror film and it’s SO damn good like wow.

And of course I gotta mention the classics that have a special place in my heart: Rosemary’s Baby, Jaws, House (1977), Carrie (1977) (wow 1977 is the year ever of movies- it was also the year gerard way was born), Dementia 13, Reanimator, and Maniac (1980- but also the new one with Elijah Wood)

I have like WAY more I can recommend. I tried to pick ones that I thought would be pretty universally liked. If you like a specific genre of horror movies you like I can recommend more (or if there’s stuff you can’t stand OR can’t watch bc it’s too much (idk your opinion on gore) I can also tailor the suggestions to that). Let me know if you watch any (or if you want more suggestions) <3

EDIT: izzy told me to recommend Spree which yes awesome movie

[c0rpseductor]

like related to that reblog, it’s not that memory loss isn’t scary and frustrating bc i have lived with big holes all my life and still find it scary and frustrating, it’s like. idk it’s like op said where it’s inconsiderate to talk about how terrified you are of forgetting things bc your life would Just Be Over but luckily that NEVER happens except when you get alzheimers or dementia when you’re old. like no, amnesia and memory loss is not just an old people thing or some kind of scary hypothetical that doesn’t affect anyone you might know. it’s ok to be scared of it, like i don’t think anybody should feel they don’t have the right to like, not want to develop a disability, nobody wants that, but it’s not ok to act like it doesn’t happen to real people who might be listening or like our lives are so unliveably bad.

also kind of incensed by the amount of people yelling at OP in the tags bc “dementia and Alzheimer’s are awful though they’re way above memory loss don’t trivialize them” like yes but OP was specifically talking about the false equivalence ppl have where they think memory loss only happens to old people and that Alzheimer’s and dementia are just memory loss. fucking clearly they were not saying that those things are equivalent or that those diseases aren’t that bad. but nobody on this website can read so idk what i expected

[sammygender]

icl if you’re excruciatingly tired & miserable all the time u need to do a check up on how ur eating. first of all check that you’re eating at all and by that i mean like proper food w protein and nutrients. i remember in 2020 i went from suicidal and unable to walk up the stairs to still vaguely suicidal but generally better about it and able to go on actual walks just because i started like. eating properly and cooking for myself.

like. okay first of all u need at least 5 portions fruit/veg a day we tell kids that but it’s so true. preferably diff portions but if u don’t wanna manage that u can just overdose on like oranges (vitamin c!!) or like idk carrots sweetcorn whatever. then u need protein, i don’t really eat meat so for me this is beans/lentils/chickpeas but i think a lot of meat counts too, like chicken.

carbs will fill you up and u can’t cut them out bc they give u slow release energy they’re meant to be a key part of ur diet but u also can’t rely solely on them, so many people just eat bread and pasta and rice and u need stuff that has nutrients with it too.

then stuff like specific vitamins can have the hugest impact, ages ago we thought my grandpa had dementia but it was literally a fucking b12 deficiency, b12 deficiency can happen so easily and it causes mental fog extreme tiredness/fatigue and depression. b12 is in stuff like red meat i believe and in lower quantities in stuff like eggs, if u don’t eat meat (i don’t rly) marmite is literally like a perfect source of it, just spread some on toast every day and ur set, think of it like meds. of course there are supplements for iron and omega 3 etc oh shit omega 3 is a really big one as well - i also started taking those near the end of 2020 and like i cannot exaggerate the difference, i was still depressed but like in a much more functional way - but u can also get these in ur diet if ur careful abt it bc supplements can be expensive. omega 3 obvi is in oily fish and i think in eggs, iron is in broccoli and probs other leafy veg and maybe some meat…..

anyway i’m putting this on my blog as a self own & a reminder cause i keep being weird abt this stuff at the moment. but food is so important. at the end of the day making sure ur eating is always better than not eating enough even if what ur eating isn’t nutritious, but if u want to feel at ur best then u just have to keep an eye on this stuff. ALSO. if none of this works then. u probably should go get that checked out mate

[abcdosaka]

Watched oshi no ko and hells paradise both mid. Kinda makes me mad bc hells paradise was giving soul eater a little bit plus the op is catchy as fuck but I’m a little annoyed like I just don’t think I have it in me to tolerate mid female characters anymore. I really wanted to like it too bc the first ep was really good but then the second was like umm ok this dude is a bit much but he’s cool still. Then the third ep I was like “so why tf is the girl even travelling with him if everyone knows he could easily overpower her at any time”. And the forth ep gabimaru had to save her and she collapsed bc she got overwhelmed ? Like it’s so embarrassing for her I can’t go on. I realize her arc is about facing her fears or something actually no I don’t really know what the author was going for but anyway my point is theres a way to do that without making her a cringe damsel in distress. Maybe I’m just jumping to conclusions bc it really does look good but like it’s not a great look so far

as for oshi no ko I was hoping it would be about like balancing motherhood and being a star or something obviously I expected too much. I actually kinda enjoyed the movie pilot but I dislike that:

1 it’s isekai

2 the mom fucking dies and the kid/guy is on some revenge fantasy bs. Like I said I thought this would be some cute show where a guy doctor falls in love with a pregnant woman who’s actually an idol hiding her identity and the issues that would arise from that. (Btw I did not know she was 16 going into this show. Another thing I dislike)

3 I feel like the isekai part is just accepted and will never come up again. Like idk bc I wouldn’t mind if it was actually incorporated into the story as like the main thing but it’s not really. like I want sarina/rubys backstory to be more important, the connnection between her wanting to be an idol and her not being able to move around in her previous life could be expanded on, idk anything abt the guys goals from before but I would like to see that instead

4 I hate the Mc he’s fucking BORINGGGGG and he’s obsessed w his sister and mom. (Side note When are we gonna get an anime where the Mc just despises his sister like there’s no other feeling other than hate.) What happened to the fun guy who used to be a doctor. Like trauma obvs but his whole personality became unbearable. you could say that he was obsessed with Ai even when he was alive but honestly, bro had a job and lived in the countryside, there is no way he didn’t have other things going on in his life

5 both these kids have no personality other than being obsessed with their mom like SHUT UP PLS

6 it’s literally just a girl in the mcs life suffers due to being an idol and he jumps in to save her by doing something maybe a little innovative and weird but ultimately good. Like I kept watching bc I wanted to see how him trying new things could expand his perspective or something like trying acting again or being on the dating show but no it’s just him saving chicks from other ppl

7 I feel like all of those points just show the plot is trying to be more than what it is. Like it’s just another isekai where an older guy takes care of underage women in return for their dedication. Ok to be fair it actually does have a lot of the inside life of idol culture which is interesting but also don’t advertise it like ai is a main character when she FUCKING DIES :(

I actually kinda dislike gabimaru too like both these mfs are gloomy, overly perfect, emo, and have saviour complexes and it’s rly not my vibe. Like idk they’re Gary stus. Ebony darkness dementia raven way but as a guy. Like please just suck at something you’re boring me

I think that’s what I get for trying to watch Shonen but ugh. I like action I like the power of friendship I even like a lil romance if it’s not like annoying and very specifically aimed toward the male gaze.

[creaturebloom]

eddie is set to come home tomorrow evening and i am soooo fucking nervous oh my god if it’s anything like thursday i honestly don’t know what’s going to happen

im putting this under a read-more bc i’m very on edge right now, this is more of a rant than anything so

tl;dr eddie was doing just okay today, not very active and had diarrhea few times but no vomiting as of this morning. fingers crossed that he comes home tomorrow able to drink water on his own

i bought a bunch of like “treat at home” parvo supplies, even though he will have been hospitalized for a total of 4 1/2 days. we honestly can’t afford it if he needs to be hospitalized again, all the credit cards are maxed out. idk whether to start a gofundme or whatever like. idk im trying not to worry about the money right now.

but when my mom went to visit eddie was doing a bit better than when we took him in, but not nearly as good as he had been on wednesday. he also had diarrhea while she was there, thankfully still no blood. the vet tech had said during the night he was doing okay and urinating normally, which he hadn’t thursday night at home and literally just held it until he couldn’t anymore. he wanted to go outside so bad and we kept putting him on his puppy pads and trying to coax him into just going but he’s so well trained like he just would sit on them and look at us so sad and so exhausted

ofc when he finally did pee, not on a pad, we praised him enough to get the smallest little tail wag out of him which was about as much tail wagging as he had done since getting home at all

i just worry that thursday night set him back too much, because honestly the vet tech that discharged him gave us nearly ZERO info on how to care for him at home. we had no idea we would have to force feed/water him. no idea what amounts. like legitimately the actual veterinarians are great, but the techs (nurses, basically) have been really hit and miss through all this. some are great and very informative, others are just like "sucks he won’t pee in his cage here oh well” after my mom told them that he really doesn’t like to do that and will just hold it until he can go outside

PLUS we were told on thursday at discharge that he had eaten breakfast and lunch, but we were NOT told that he had to be force-fed and refused to eat on his own. when my mom dropped him off friday morning and told the actual vet doctor this, she just kind of shook her head and sighed, clearly understanding we should have been told this info and weren’t.

like legitimately they gave us a basic discharge paper with limited instruction for general after-hospital care. nothing parvo specific, the fucking sheet even said we could take him for walks after 10 days and uhhh that’s simply not true at all. nothing about how to hydrate or feed him. nothing about what we needed to look out for, or how to keep his environment. which is so fucking awful because a different vet tech had been super great and answered all my mom’s questions and was very thorough with what they were giving him, how he was doing while there, all of that.

i honestly am just praying that he’s drinking water on his own by tomorrow. like that’s the biggest thing, because he HATES being given a syringe in the mouth to give him water, and we could only ever get the smallest fucking amounts on thursday night. if we’d have known we needed to really keep on it, and the AMOUNT he needed to drink, we would have done more. i feel so guilty but like. we legitimately were not told any of this, we had to learn it from fucking youtube.

my dad is also in a down time, which makes the idea of caring for him and eddie at the same time even more overwhelming. if you’re unaware, my father has dementia and i, my brother, and my mom all caregive for him 24/7/365. but it’s just extra stressful trying to do both. thursday night was miserable and that was even with my dad in a good mood. all day and night he’s been grumpy as shit, getting up and down every 20 minutes, not wanting to use the restroom even to change his diapers, which absolutely need it most of the time. just honestly a really bad time for my dad to be in a down period right now.

i’m. so overwhelmed oh my god. i had a panic attack earlier, i feel like the hits honestly just keep on coming. the last two holiday seasons have been absolute nightmares, and i just can’t take another winter with everything falling to shit around me and there being absolutely nothing i can do about it.

god i just hope eddie is drinking water on his own. like honestly that would be the biggest fucking relief. idc about whether or not he’ll eat on his own, i got nutri-care gel stuff for calories, we can spoon feed him or whatever, but the most important thing is to keep him hydrated and i’m terrified of how that’s going to go if he won’t drink on his own.

if we can’t get him to drink with the syringe or it’s clear he’s getting dehydrated we’re going to take him to the original vet (where he got diagnosed tuesday morning) and ask them for subcutaneous supplies and to show us exactly how to do it -- which they previously said they would do, before eddie was admitted to the hospital.

jesus this is long. i’m just so fucking exhausted already and i’m so scared that eddie isn’t going to make it for whatever reason. fuck.

[dyketectivecomics]

Batfam & techie-ness

Major note: ofc most of the fam are tech geniuses & can out-geek the GeekSquad. But also some of them just... aren’t

-dick is one who’s talent is def in his athleticism. This boi is the nice-mom-jock of the fam.

-which means he Flounders & Fails when it come to tech stuff (& he cheats by letting Bruce & Barbara help him out w/ that stuff. Later tim is added to his Trusted Tech Support Team^tm)

-his Titan teammates all thought he was almost on par w/ cyborg as a techie but it was all a Lie that he is Ashamed to never admit to (he will Deny It at All Costs)

-Babs was a budding expert when she joined Bruce’s crusade. & by the time she finished high school early she was even ahead of his expertise (but Bruce didn’t want to admit it at the time)

-she was happy to provide tech pointers when dick was still Angsting as a Titan & refused to call Bruce but she totally uses it as leverage f he started to annoy her

-ofc she only kept getting better after her rebirth as Oracle

-jason didn’t care at all for learning abt tech stuff, but still wanted to be well-rounded enough to hold his own

-that changed when he stole Dicks RedX suit bc he was Ready to Improve & Surpass dick’s achievements

-those plans were put on hold after he died, but he rebounded from that after realizing how much he needed to put into his big Revenge/Avengence plan for his big Comeback

-tim was naturally gifted like Babs. And surpassed her record for going tech-pro by the time he was 14 (as opposed to her 15/16-ish timeframe). Didn’t pass her expertise until abt 18 tho. But he Tried & that’s what matters

-cass followed in dicks footsteps for mooching off of Babs & tims tech-pertise. Altho she remembers to thank them a lil more often than he does, so she gets a free pass to ask for anything. No questions asked

-need me to hack into that shady gov dept? Np cass! Want sm new upgrades to ur com system to speak for u when u don’t wanna talk? Ofc!

-Damian also takes after dick & cass but moreso in a “ofc I should expect some tech support. Do you rlly think this team would run as well if we all specialized in every aspect of crime fighting?”

-translation: serve me you peons. I will not thank you for your toil bc it is expected.

-Damian gets 0 favors & few updates bc of this. So he’s become more self-reliant bc his Pride wont let him admit that he needs their help

-pro: he’s getting better with tech! Con: he could’ve had their help he wasn’t such a walnut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-steph is v inbtwn. Not an expert, but willing to do a lot of stuff on her own until she makes a mistake. & when she does, she goes to Babs first to fix it. If Babs can’t, usually Tim can & if neither of them can she lets them become obsessed w/ it & drops it to move on to smthn else

-she’s v go w/ the flow when it comes to tech aspects of learning the crime stuff

-Harper is more about hardware than software like tim & Babs are. But she knows enough to hold her own in helping them debug stuff. She n Jason get along rlly well when trying to make new gadgets & improvements for their batputers

-duke is the embodiment of the Jack of all trades & tech is no different

-luke falls in w/ Harper n Jason as part of Team Hardware. He likes to take after his dad in the design dept for the batfam’s gear tho

-Tiffany is like Child^tm when she joins. So everyone eases her into the tech thing. “no pressure” is a v common thing she hears from them & she knows they mean well

-Kate & Bruce are almost on the same page w/ the tech stuff. But Bruce still has a considerable lead over Kate (experience n time as Batman ofc. Kate didn’t rlly show up in Gotham as batwoman till later in the game after all) she’s still all about accepting help after she realizes how much easier it is

And for the FutureFam:

-Helena Kyle-Wayne knows a Lot. Ofc. Not a tech-pert but she holds her own. She’s the daughter of Batman & Catwoman for Pete’s sake!!!

-Carrie was another combat-savvy, partially-tech-deprived kid. She caught onto coding p quick & there was hope for her. She just wasn’t as interested in it at first glance

-Terry is a Mess when it comes to software. If he can’t smash it to fix the problem, there’s no hope that his failed hacking will work. As long as Bruce or smone else guides him step by step he’s fine but if he’s on his own, only God will be able to save the city. (Until Bruce finally cracks down on him to learn the batfam’s standard of The Basics)

-Alfred silently fixes simple mistakes in everyone’s code when it’s frustrated them from staring at the same line knowing that Something was Wrong. But not being able to look @ it w/ fresh eyes. He always offers himself as a sounding board to new ideas, even after advances in tech start to become too much for him to understand (or also bc dementia might be setting in?)

[figula]

it’s 9pm and this is the first time ive sad down all day to eat a proper meal ugh. i’ve just been eating an unholy amout of smarties all day lol :( ive been so busy all day and not in a way that feels satifying or rewarding just like a real slog. anyway. ive finished a few orders + will ship them out tomorrow. my new alpaca is really nice so i will make some good money w/ that when i get a chance to make some more stock wigs. need to ship out all the wigs i made last week first dfgjkfkdgjkfdjkfdjk ARGH. did post a message on my work instagram apologising for delays this week so hopefully that will suffice

spoke to my mum on the phone yest for the first time since The Incident. i had offered many times to phone but she said she didn’t want to talk about it and i am the same so i didn’t call. but we did talk via text + that was fine. she sounded ok, but sad ofc. look away now if you dont want to hear details about death:

she said he died in the early hours of sunday morning. there was a scheduled check on him at 4.30 and he was slumped over on his bed. he was still alive at this time, but he died with the staff around him. he had not wanted to die with his family watching, so this was what he wanted really. when my mum went to visit his body in the morning the staff had put his favourite film on, put a book in his arms, and had put his hat on that he always wore and my mum said that was very nice of them and that the hat - which she always found funny bc it looked like a peaky blinders hat - made her laugh. she said she really appreciated the time spent w/ his body.

death specifics over

i am feeling better today but there is still this sort of veil of melancholy... i feel like a real impostor about this bc our relationhip had obviously really deteriorated since the dementia diagnosis + i didn’t expect to feel sad at all - but here we are! i feel embarrassed about it... ugh anyway

funeral wont be as bad as i thought bc it’s actually in [town he spent most of his life in] rather than down where my parents live, which is only about an hour away from us, so i won’t have to do an overnight, just spend a few hours there and ben will be there too so im suire it will be hugely unpleasant at the time but it’s not gonna be a days-long nightmare

ben’s mum’s birthday party is on saturday + i’ve been invited but idk if i have the stomach to sit and chat for hours tbh like... ben says if im not up to going it’s fine but idk it feels mean to not go bc i think it’s his 50th. but i just want to be on my own rly not in a bad way i dont think i just dont really feel like being around other people who aren’t my top tier rships

[mallowstep]

(foxstride here) ok I have to. Feathertail, Tawnypelt, and Mistyfoot! Listen I just need to hear you talk about them some more ok

@foxstride

okay okay okay

i'm going to bed soon and am too tired to find the actual -- the actual thing, but it's fine i have it memorized by now hopefully

feathertail

what i love about them: she's so (justly) angry. it's good to see. i know tnp sort of...doesn't agree with this, but shh quiet anger.

what i hate about them: that she uses her dying breath to talk to crowpaw and not stormfur

favourite moment/quote: going with hawkpaw and leopardstar after the fox because -- even though she was feeling mixed on hawkpaw atm -- she didn't want anything to happen to him

favourite relationship: tough...probably feather/brook? exactly one (1) piece of fanart exists for them but i love them so much

favourite friendship: ohhh tricky...i think since i used mistyfoot for stonefur using another sibling pair is just barely cheating, so let's go with...sasha. i like them. it's sad but i like them.

notp: crowfeather, but mostly as a matter of taste. i thought crowpaw was squirrelpaw's age when i first read tnp for some reason, not "missing my warrior's assessment to be here," which cast feather/crow in a very different light.

what i want more of: feathertail in general! i just want more of her! i want her to be happy! i want her to live! a little more specifically, i want more explorations of the triangle between her and mistyfoot and mothwing. i should write about that. fuck.

what i want less of: feathertail being the "traumatized one (tm)." it's a bit of a trend i've noticed for her to be the Big Time Trauma one and i get why but i think it's a misunderstanding of trauma responses (stormfur is very clearly an example of fawn), as well as like. i know why. people see like. stormpaw comfort featherpaw but! just bc he did it doesn't mean he was less scared than her. etc.

favourite headcanon: she stays in riverclan because of stormfur.

tawnypelt

what i love about them: YES CHOOSE TO BE WHERE THEY LOVE YOU PLEASE

what i hate about them: ...so you're going to choose your evil dad because you're tired of people comparing you to your evil dad? (look i can feel two things about the same event) (also it feels highly realistic to teenage brains xd)

favourite moment/quote: trash talking tigerstar in the dark forest while bramble is like "evil dad pls validate me"

favourite relationship: i really don't have one for her. rowanclaw is default. i like the idea of feather/tawny but i've never read anything with it nor written anything with it so *shrug*

favourite friendship: rowanclaw and cederheart; dovewing. the first two are fairly obvious, the second will b repeated under headcanons.

notp: uhhhh god idk. fuck. *pulls names from hat* dawncloud. lmao idrc.

what i want more of: explorations of her relationship w goldenflower

what i want less of: tawnypaw/tawnypelt as blindly allying with tigerstar. dgmw i enjoy a bit of it (glances at olwptm), but i don't really want more of it, and would like to see more Nuance and etc

favourite headcanon: she and dovewing are "thunderclan wouldn't less us be ourselves" besties

mistyfoot

what i love about them: it's a little hard to convey this, but that she's a good mom. i don't mean like. i mean like. uh. idk how to put exactly what i want to say into words, there's just something about how she thinks about her kits, how she treats featherpaw and stormpaw, her concern over reedwhisker...i like it. it's nice to see her go from "queen" to "leader" without losing the fact that she's a mom.

what i hate about them: ...can i say that we're going to get riverclan pov for the first time since tnp, and i don't think the erins are going to give a good reason for why mistystar has been acting the way she has? it's conditional, but i highly doubt they're going the dementia route w her. which is a shame bc it would b good.

favourite moment/quote: telling fireheart she won't eat him. made me love her way back as a little kid, and i've never stopped. there's a lot of stuff i love with her, but that one is special to me.

favourite relationship: blackclaw in the sense that i like that they're not a good fit. i have literally never expressed this but i do have a deep appreciation for misty/leopardstar. and for reasons like one person may know, mistyfoot/sunfish

favourite friendship: silverstream!!! i love them <3 besties <3 they're so good

notp: uhhhhh idk...who do people...like...i dunno. notps r hard guys bc i don't usually have strong shipping opinions so w most characters it's like "uh fuck i dunno." like ig i don't think i'd read, say, mistyfoot/greystripe. but is it a notp? not really? i dunno.

what i want more of: her in avos. i will literally never get enough of her in avos. it is humanly impossible for me to overdose. i absorb it like activated charcoal absorbs medication.

what i want less of: ehhhhh i don't think there's much that i'm frustrated with. i want less people saying mistystar doesn't have an interesting story to tell, because they're objectively wrong. (you don't have to personally be interested, of course, but i think it's hard to argue that mistystar-during-avos is an interesting story.) but i don't like. there's not enough mistyfoot in the world.

[secretanimesideblogidk]

ok so because i am a little bitch who likes their Izuku has a quirk AUs, hypothetical:

technicallyyyyyyy it seems that the vestiges aren’t actually certain that it is specifically the factors of “(one for all) + (inborn quirk)” that equal “burning out the lifeforce of users.” we are of course meant to understand that that is the canon explanation but there’s a little bit of plausible deniability wiggle room and that’s where I live

(also from a purely scientific standpoint “life force” isn’t really... real? like there’s neuroelectricity and ATP molecules both of which are pretty high-energy i guess but anything ‘consuming’ them would basically kill you instantly, not over the course of 20 years. Then there’s telomeres, the shit at the ends of your chromosomes that you lose a tiny bit of every time your cells divide and when you run out of them your cells can’t divide anymore and you die. Something that degrades your telomeres would definitely shorten your lifespan. but “this quirk damages your telomeres” is a little less evocative than “this quirk eats at your life force.” Arguably, either the gene splicing that transmits OFA, or if OFA caused cells to replicate faster (OFA doesn’t seem to have regenerative qualities, but i guess it could be on the upper end of normal) could damage or degrade telomeres, but frankly, lots of things can damage telomeres. this is a tangent.

So a common trope of quirked!Izuku stories where he also gets OFA that OFA enhances his quirk, I think that’s vaguely canon for the vestiges quirks? or at least Banjo mentions black whip being stronger for Izuku, which implies but doesn’t explicitly state, but there’s that wiggle room, the place that I live these days. OFA makes quirks stronger, and as it develops they get even stronger.

Fourth’s (Shinomori, gonna have to get used to having a name for him) quirk is, of course, Danger Sense: a spidey-sense style precognitive.. uh... danger.. sense.... pretty self-explanatory name there. what isn’t self-explanatory is the biological mechanism by which it warns it’s user to incoming danger. Izuku describes it as “feeling like getting stabbed in the head” which, while evocative, does not indicate, say, which portion of the brain lights up when it activates. I’m assuming the quirk signals the parts of the brain responsible for stress-response. It makes sort of logical sense, a “you get a migraine when you’re in danger” quirk is more disabling than anything, but a “survival response gets a head start” quirk would actually help someone survive, say, being hunted by an extremely powerful supervillain.

The quirk is basically your amygdala specifically has the gift of prophesy, so it takes a jackhammer to the hypothalamus and you get your whole hormonal stress response (cortisol, adrenaline, the whole shebang).

So a man with a super-amygdala from 30 seconds in the future walks into a bar gets a super-everything-enhancer that makes him the prime target of the demon lord of the criminal underground. I’m guessing that that “danger sense” quirk got plenty of use. which means that his HPA axis was pretty active too. which means we’re looking at symptoms of chronic stress and making that super chronic stress because the whole thing’s a side effect of the quirk that OFA is enhancing.

Long term effects of long term stress can include fun things like depression, anxiety (which in turn cause more stress), general fatigue, a compromised immune system, heart disease, and wouldn’t you know it, premature aging

(also kind of a side-note bc I haven’t done literally 2% of the relevant research, but “sudden explosive [electrical] activity in a portion of the brain” is kind of in-line with a seizure, and so is the only symptom we were actually given: really bad headache. I genuinely do not know enough about seizures or how to respectfully handle this topic to be all like “this is the epilepsy quirk!” but with this hypothesis of how the quirk works (amygdala Goes Off sometimes), and we have research into what happens physiologically when parts of the brain flip their shit, have a tendency to flip their shit, and repeatedly and uncontrollably flip their shit over the course of a lifetime. idk if it would be rude or even accurate to say this quirk is like epilepsy, but I think it at least has some traits in common, so it seems reasonable to consider health effects of seizures, specifically, what effect frequent, uncontrolled electrical activity in the brain can have on the rest of the body. The essence of sci-fi is taking scientific understanding of the real world and projecting it into fictional situations. Apparently people with epilepsy are more likely to have other chronic conditions like dementia, heart disease, depression, and anxiety. this is a side note because if literally one single person with epilepsy tells me i’m off base here i’m deleting this entire paragraph)

Shinomori says he died of old age at 40, I’ve seen people joke about his quirk being ‘super anxiety’, but legitimately, the combo of “inherently stressful quirk + (extremely stressful lifestyle x frequent use of  inherently stressful quirk) + everything dialed up to an 11 because One For All” is absolutely plenty to shorten someone’s lifespan

TL:DR it’s completely feasible that Shinomori’s quirk, not OFA, is what ended up killing him

(now what this means for Izuku, who now has Shinomori’s quirk, in a world where being born quirkless will not save him from it, is a somewhat sadder thing to contemplate)

[liu-anhuaming]

so in one of my classes we’ve been talking about all the benefits of bilingualism and the two most interesting ones to me are (supposed) improved executive function and a (proven) delayed onset of dementia/alzheimer’s symptoms

the executive function one has less hard evidence backing it up, but it makes me wonder if anyone’s ever thought to study adhd bilinguals specifically. adhd really impacts executive function, so i’m curious if there’s a difference between how bilingualism impacts us versus neurotypical/non-adhd bilinguals

the dementia one is really meaningful to me bc my family has a history of dementia. i saw my grandma’s decline in extreme detail, and i’ve seen the beginning of my grandpa’s decline. so yeah, dementia is something that’s been on my mind for a while despite the fact that i’m only 22. in a way it’s almost.....comforting? reassuring? to know that being bilingual could maybe help push this back by a couple years. idk

(note: bilingualism doesn’t prevent dementia, it prevents the onset of symptoms. so these studies found that while bilinguals already had signs of dementia present in their brains, they didn’t get symptoms until ~4 years after monolinguals did)

here’s the readings we did about all this if y’all are curious (ugly links bc i’m ~lazy~)

is bilingualism really an advantage? https://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/bilingual-advantage-aging-brain

a description of an awesome study on dementia in bilinguals from india https://languagelog.ldc.upenn.edu/nll/?p=8364

bilingualism benefits young and old https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/language-and-mind/201901/bilingualism-benefits-young-and-old

the cognitive benefits of being bilingual https://www.dana.org/article/the-cognitive-benefits-of-being-bilingual/

[scumfuckus]

something that rlly annoys me is how non-specific people often are when they talk abt diabetes. like the list of risk factors for pretty much every disease (cancer, dementia, etc.) includes 'diabetes' - but they never say whether that's type 1 or type 2 and i'd like if public health messaging could differentiate more bc the implications are entirely different. type 2 diabetes is controlled by diet, and one of the risk factors is obesity. it can also be reversed. type 1 diabetes is just something that happens, it's an autoimmune disorder, ur pancreas doesn't produce insulin anymore and as of right now there's no way to reverse or cure it, only treat it w insulin. so, even if your diabetes is well-controlled, if you're type 1 diabetic you will always be diabetic.

and of course, much of the complications of poorly controlled diabetes are the same. vascular problems which yes make you more prone to strokes for example. but how much of the time is 'diabetes' listed as a risk factor when in actual fact the real risk factor is obesity or certain diets and type 2 diabetes is simply comorbid with that. is that risk then reduced if you simply change your diet? or is there always a higher risk of developing certain diseases simply because you are diabetic?

i ask this bc i'm t1 diabetic and i hate this vagueness. its not useful information if i don't know whether or not it applies to me, it just scares me. i still don't know if i'm classed as especially 'vulnerable' to coronavirus because they've listed diabetes as something that makes you at higher risk of it being fatal but haven't explained how or why that pertains to diabetic people. you're simply more likely to develop type 2 diabetes as an older person, so is it their age, or the fact they're diabetic?

idk it just frustrates me that they're often lumped in as the same thing when actually the implications are vastly different

[middletonmarkle]

I’m gonna ask you random numbers. GO NUTS. 3, 8, 14, 23, 37, 38, 45, 50, 53, 56

YOU ARE SUCH A QUEEN THANK YOU SFM

3. Funniest historical kerfuffle?

the 1525 incident where henry viii tried to vault a ditch with a pole and it snapped omg i know he almost drowned cause of it but it will always be my fave cause i imagine it happening how it was depicted in the tudors lmaoooo

A Very Henry Moment™

8. Favorite tv show based on historical events, but not really faithful to real life?

i mean it has to be the tudors. they do get a lot right, but they also get a lot wrong but idc haha. it’s the show that piqued my interest in anne boleyn, and without anne i would never have fallen in love with history

14. Favorite female monarch?

i mulled over this question long and hard cause there are many amazing female monarchs, but i’m gonna go with my first gut instinct and say elizabeth ii. her story is not only super interesting (and the journey to her ascension to the throne has all the makings of a shakespearean tragedy) but i respect her so much as a reasonable, constant, and steady leader that’s handled a position she never wanted with grace and an unwavering (but benevolent) hand

23. John Wilkes Booth: crazy or crazy with a cause?

okay i don’t know enough about american history, but i’ll include a link to the video that exposes what REALLY happened to abe lincoln (pls tell me someone remembers this vid!!!)

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37. Have you ever been known as the history person?

lmaoooooooo yes in my family and friend group i am definitely the history person!!!

38. Least favorite president?

i’m really not as well versed in american history bc it doesn’t really interest me as much so i’m sure there are lots of bad eggs i could’ve chosen from but FUCK RONALD REAGAN SPECIFICALLY. people loooove to think he was such a good president cause he embraced trickle down economics but that mfer tripled the national debt, funded the taliban w billions, was an enemy to the LGBTQ+ community, abandoned americans during the aids crisis, deinstitutionalized mentally ill patients and did nothing to help them which left many of them homeless, etc etc etc. just another example of a tv star that has no place being any sort of leader. fuck nancy too btw

45. Candidate that you think should’ve been president(or leader of the country of your choice)?

i personally think if al gore had won over george w. bush, we wouldn’t have invaded iraq. but at the same time we’ll never know and i could definitely stand to be more informed

50. Favorite army story from a relative or friend?

both my grandfathers served in WWII but one of them is no longer alive and the other is suffering from dementia so i can’t ask, but i know he kept journals so i’ll have to find those! idk any stories off the top of my head tho

53. Favorite old political film?

i’m gonna have to pass on this one as i don’t really watch old political films!

56. Opinion on Richard III?

way more nuanced than how he’s remembered. i don’t think he had his nephews killed (and i don’t think it was margaret beaufort either—looking at you, TWP). i think he’s been cast as a villain from 500+ years of tudor propaganda (re: shakespeare lol) which is responsible for how we perceive him today, but i also don’t think he falls to the other extreme of being perfect. i think he’s a historical figure that needs to be evaluated in a more balanced way. but tbh, i’m more interested in his wife!