it's kind of a fun move to make my very very personal blog also the one I post my drawings on
ive purposefully done it to not create that kind of environment where it's just an account posting art, a one-dimensional abstract thing that's so detached that if I were to post something like 'teehee I tried to off myself so I'm opening comms to pay the bills' it'd be met with utmost surprise bc it'd break the illusion yknow?
but sometimes I do want some drawings to not have context. to be as impersonal as a vintage figure whose sculptor has never been fully known or a golden locket with the picture of someone who you don't know anything about
I want both, to be honest. it's always been a struggle of the need of external validation but also to not want to taint everything with myself
I want to draw a pet portrait for someone and not have it be judged with all the ramblings and half-jokes about how everything sucks every now and then.
I want to draw a guy being mechanically separated for no reason and not have it show up besides someone's pet portrait and having to explain to the average person I don't even know why I like gore so much besides rendering it is fun
it's all like a cycle of making it clear who is behind the art for context but also sometimes wanting everything to speak for itself and wanting a sort of pure reaction to it
and it culminates into that overly familiar feeling.. of wanting to be consistent. to have a feel, a look that you can maybe hope someone will identify as yours.. and the question is always the same - for what? why? why does it matter?
if anything the first thing I'd ever say to someone who remotely showed interest in art and wanted to know my side of it is that nothing matters and everything is subjective and that there will always be people who see too much meaning where there isn't and people who miss the point entirely. and that diversity is just as good as quality and not a binary switch that you have to pick for the rest of your life. and that often by trying to achieve perfection you just end up dumping what gave your art a personal touch because it wasn't absolutely on par with the version of you that you so desperately want people to identify you with or the vibe you want to give off or whatever else
it's kind of a problem that also has different connotations depending on the way wherever you post works, too
on devart and I think insta too favorites and likes are the easiest way to show a kind of support that happens to streamline everything into images on a page instead of actually taking in most detail, the title or description or lack thereof, maybe even a message or line or music lyric intended to aid in the perception.. that ends up getting completely ignored because it takes extra effort to do. and it gets exponentially worse the more people you follow
then, well.. tumblr. because of the way the posts are organized and at least show captions it has a bit of a leg up, but then the sideblog stuff comes up. posts 95% of the time only give traction to the account that posted it, so a sideblog where you reblog your art is pretty much just a gallery for the convenience of whoever follows them. if you post on that sideblog however, then that facilitates no one visiting your main and just looking at the drawings, leading to the art-artist detachment as it is also plenty of extra steps and effort
then, independently, the path you choose is hard to undo. choose to be unknown and be bound to the façade you have to keep and not break your persona, or put all bits of yourself out to the public and there will forever be an image/ background version of you that will contextualize everything you do
try to turn around and choose to hide and it will put people off and affect how some will look at your new stuff now that you're less of a social butterfly because of the instinct of curiosity and wanting to know what happened , choose to show yourself and now you're too real and people don't want to associate with you because of the things you express or how it hits different knowing x and y or just not caring about you enough to be bothered to keep up with your life with sporadic drawings inbetween
it's all ironically about your own self-image and knowing others who know you
oh and it just hit me the financial side of things too. but that's too much for me rn and it's sort of a bonus to my point anyways
idk man. I feel like I'm having a stroke while an influencer tries to explain branding to me
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WE CANT BE FRIENDS | 23. BUT I FEEL SO SEEN IN THE NIGHT
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pairing : myungjae x fem!reader | fluff, angst | w.c : 838
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"so are you guys like friends now?" woonhak asked as he recorded the 3 of you guys walking to the park together for a shoot.
"yep, we're best friends!" jaehyun said as he wrapped an arm around your shoulder. "don't push it myung" you glared at jaehyun making him turn to you and sulk, "you said we were friends though" he mumbled.
when you guys finally got to the park woonhak ran away hiding somewhere trying to find a good place to record you both without being caught. as he found a space, he zoomed into you and jaehyun walking. it was quiet for a bit before jaehyun spoke up "I'm sorry...i don't know why I'm so awkward alone with you..." he laughed slightly. you turned over to him and grinned at his loserness, "you're fine, we just worked things out like...yesterday. i wouldn't expect you to be all buddy-buddy with me you know?" he nodded and it went back to silence.
...
"how was your date with jaehyun?"
"i didnt go on a date with you...do you mean the fish one?"
"nono, JEONG jaehyun"
making an 'o' shape with your mouth you nodding understanding him now
"it was okay...i mean you should know, you were there." you smiled "i mean, it seemed like he was more on a date with me than you, he just ignored you and talked to me the whole time." "wow, way to rub it in myung..."
"no! i didn't mean it like that, i just wanted to know if you liked him or anything...just curious..." he peeked at you to see your head turned to him as you guys kept walking "well i didn't get to know him that much to like him you know? maybe if me and him actually TALKED, i could've but he wanted to go to a shooting range..."
jaehyun busted out laughing to which you playfully hit his arm "i took you on a better first date right?" he turned to look at you. and maybe it was the first time he fully looked at you since you two had met again but it seemed to him that you had gotten more beautiful than before, which he didn't even know was possible but it felt like he fell in love again for the first time. "you took me to a trampoline park on our first date..." "which was fun right?" "yeah, it was fun...really fun actually, then you took me to the laundromat because i told you my washing machine broke and you needed to do laundry" "hey we had hours to talk, a vending machine to which i paid for anything you wanted, as well as fresh laundry to come home to" "i never told you how much i enjoyed that, or when we went to the lame comedy club and wrote down our rankings on a piece of paper" you both stared laughing as you remembered the moment "i remember silly soosan, all we could write on her ranking was 'boo tomato tomato'" laughing you slightly lean towards him. "remembering these moments reminds me that our relationship wasn't so bad" you said looking at your feet, jaehyun nudged you a bit "ouch, but fair enough...
do you ever wonder how our relationship could've been if i didn't mess it up? like what would we be doing right now?"
"probably at another laundromat, ive been too lazy to do laundry."
"oh i get it, you would want me to do your laundry for you"
"and you would do it"
"i would..." he said under his breath
"what'd you say?"
"nothing."
"you would do my laundry?" you repeated
"oh i hate people like you, you guys pretend not to hear something then say exactly what i just said
but im serious." he stopped walking and held your hand making you stop to look at him
"what would we be doing if we stayed together"
"do we fix our issues?" you asked
"i mean we would have to sooner or later" jaehyun tilted his head slightly grinning
"do you choose music over me?"
"well, since we fixed our issue, no. no i wouldn't choose music over you"
"then we'd be-" you were cut off by your name being called.
"YN! YN!"
turning your head you see jeong jaehyun running towards you. when he caught up to you and jaehyun, jeong jaehyun caught his breath "hey..." he looked at you before turning to myung jaehyun. "whats uo Brodie" jeong said as he dabbed up myung.
"yn..." jeong jaehyun started "i wanna make it up to you and take you on a date to fix the first one"
jaehyun 1 felt like jaehyun 2 shouldve just slapped him at that point.
suddenly woonhak and leehan jumped ontop of jeong jaehyun
"WHAT THE FUCK- YN ILL PICK YOU UP AT 7 TOMORROW"
"KEEP WALKING
KEEP WALKING"
"NO-"
"JUST KEEP TALKING ILL TAKE CARE OF THIS"
"YN-"
the mix of leehan and woonhak fighting jeong jaehyun made you and the original jaehyun run.
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Caine, Jax and Kinger with an kid reader who is like sleepy and very calm most of the time; like having that sleepy voice and is most likely to sleep standing up.
But when someone gives sugar to reader OH BOI
Reader gets eletric, like running around 300 kilometers per hour (Figuratively, not literally) does jumping jacks and starts like accidentally wrecking havoc with their running cuz they keep knocking things on accident while their run, but after an hour or two, reader just... Sleeps on the ground like they didnt almost destroy the entire place an minute ago.
Im going through an hard time in my life and currently your blog has been comforting me, so ilysm! Tyy<3 stay safe!
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Caine, Jax, and Kinger x sleepy!kid!reader who gets zoomies (platonic!)
Eeueueuee lemme just say I love this idea so much I remember seeing this when it first got sent in and I just
UGH!!!/pos
Hope you enjoy anon!
CAINE:
I was about to say that he would wear one of those kid baby carrier harness things to carry you around when you fall asleep but then I remembered how short Caine is LMAO... that said I think he would probably like. Idk summon a digital cloud or something to carry you to bed. Very nice very sweet, I think! Honestly I kind of love dad Caine...
Thinks you look absolutely adorable when you do the sleepy wobble when you're standing. Probably calls for nap time periods during IHAs
One day he thought it would be a good day to reward everyone with candy after a IHA and he just
Watches wide eyed when you suddenly start running all over the place. What happened? Is this normal? Are you okay? He tries to zoom after you to catch you before you hurt yourself
Lots of chaos for the next half hour or so. I think he would even resort to sending out bubble to intercept you
Carefully scoops you up when you succumb to the sugar crash and just
Stands there as you fall asleep on him
Very lost very confused, though the sugar rush thing was a myth
JAX:
Very similar event from Caine's part. Everyone is given a piece of candy after successfully completing an IHA. I do think that Caine would still enforce naptime breaks during IHAs during Jax and Kingers pieces too, since I think caine would just generally want to keep this kid friendly/safe but maybe that's just me falling in love with dad caine
But this is about jax
Real quick before we get into the sugar rush, let's talk about your general sleepiness. Honestly I think he would be a little worried about how tired you are all the time... what's that? Jax worried about something? Now that's new!
Jokes aside I think he would try to ask around for any advice on how to boost your energy. Earns him some looks because it's kind of out of character for him. And you know what? It is.. but I think he would be soft for his new adopted kid
Tends to carry you around when you get sleepy, which is often
Now for the sugar rush. One second you're there and the next you're bolting and running around all crazy. I think he just. Stand there flabbergasted for a second because he thinks it's a little funny
Doesnt intervene until you start knocking into things... and almost knock into him
Now we know how fast jax can be, so I think he wouldnt have much issue catching you (assuming that part in the pilot was more than a gag.. it likely was just a gag but I'm feeling silly)
Kind of just holds you up in the air while you flail and try to run away.. before eventually going limp in his grasp
Similar to caine he kind of just stands there. Very taken aback. Thinks it's a little funny though.
"Comeon kid, let's get ya to bed"
KINGER:
Same scenario with the candy after an IHA.. but first, of course, how kinger is with your eepy self
Honestly you two just hang out together in the pillow fort. Its nice and soft and cozy. So even if you werent so tired all the time you would still have a very easy time falling asleep in his fort!
Usually he will take you to your room when it's nighttime... cue the universal memory of falling asleep and waking up somewhere else as a child
Always makes sure you're tucked in and with your favorite plushie... now kinger would have a baby harness and be able to carry you around when you get tired
Let's out a yelp when you suddenly get your sugar induced zoomies. Tries to run after you but you're just way too fast. I think some of the others would take some pity on him and try to help him. Probably pomni, ragatha, and gangle.. zooble cant be bothered and jax is just laughing at the situation because it aint his kid.. caine may try to help if hes still hanging around
Panics when you suddenly slump over and fall asleep on the floor. Is going to have to be reassured that you did not just
You know... and that you're just asleep
Makes a mental note to limit sugar
...its not even real sugar.. its digital.. bro is beside himself trying to make sense of it
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I am not a full AI skeptic but when it comes to AI-as-writer types I find its endorsers to be all the counterexample you need. Look at this:
Which is a fine enough basic idea, this has applications ofc. Then you zoom in:
And its like what on earth are you asking about. That is not an ambiguous sentence - particularly if you have any inkling at all of the plot of the Screwtape Letters, which you should if you are reading it. There is nothing in need of explanation here!
Even more silly, GPT's response isnt wrong, but because the sentence is a not-subtle, direct statement its 'explanation' is just a long-winded rephrasing of the sentence, it adds no value. But that didnt stop this person from copying the entire text into his notes apparently! His notes are an anti-synthesis of the text, *reducing* its meaning-per-word.
As an aid to a highschool freshman reading it, sure, this has value, its a google search tutor generating novel links on the spot. But these images were selected by the tweet author to highlight its value as a research aid for serious analysis, this should be the best it has to offer. What it shows instead is this use is an extremely poor fit for the tool.
I fully believe future developments will progress the tool in this direction; my point instead is how much of the hype is just froth right now. This tweet was not born of the impressive results of Chat-GPT; it was born of the impressive reach one can get shoehorning Chat-GPT into your content.
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Can I have Rhea x Fem reader with the prompt "I'm never afraid with you"? Pretty pls make it fluffy my anxiety has been acting up
With you
Of course <3
Rhea Ripley x Fem!reader
I was in the living room scrolling through Instagram and tiktok seeing what's going on, Rhea was in our room probably doing the same.
I was scrolling on tiktok was i saw one post saying how Rhea deserved better, my heart panicked and i click the comments which were saying things like 'on lives Rhea looks so uncomfortable with Y/n' or things like 'y/n is so annoying Rhea is a goddess on the earth i mean...' I was scrolling down them my heart beating fast as i saw the things videos where saying the same thing, once i saw one video i was seeing loads i feeling fidgety thinking 'did Rhea thinks this? I am annoying?'.
Thoughts flooded my mind what if Rhea was cheating because i wad annoying maybe she doesnt love me? I fell into a rabbit hole of videos, fans zooming in on moments Rhea would look unhappy with me around then her with people like Damian or Dom. I was afraid of losing her she was my favorite person the one thing that truly made my day better made my smile real.
I was still looking at them tears forming as anxiety grew i heard footsteps and i quickly hid my phone turning it off so she wouldnt see i wipe me eyes "hey baby" she smiles sitting next to me "hi babe" i smile my heart hurting as she takes her phone out again watching videos "you okay your a bit quiet baby" she smiled at me her smile was soft and calming her eyes had worry and trust in them "yeah i am fine" i said looking at my hands playing with my shirt "well that doesnt look okay to me" she says her hand going onto my thigh her hand was warm but the metal of her ring cool on my skin "its just.." I played with my shirt even more scared of what she will say "its just i saw some clips and it just made me worried" i didn't look into her eyes not wanting to see her expression "oh baby...what was the clip" she says her tone showing no change staying clam and soft her accent showing through "it was people saying how i don't deserve you and it worries me that its true and i m afraid you will leave me or hurt me your the best thing i'm never afraid when i am with you" i didnt look up tears falling into my lap when i feeling her warm hands cup my face "baby you deserve everything i would give you the world if you wanted it, i love you" she smiles our eyes locking onto each other as she speaks "it...it just worries me" i admit she was the only person i trusted with my feelings "i know they arent fans they are haters who just want to make people sad my real fans loves you i love you babe dont be afraid of me leaving because death will be the only thing taking me away from you" her warm smile never left "i'm never afraid when i am with you, you make the world stop" i smile my eyes a little red tears drying on my face as i looked into the eyes of the woman i love and loves me.
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