#← gabapentin. pain...

[deathdetermineslife]

Heeey 🫶 i love your blog, truly i adore you because of how open you are about your selfship and relationship! I’ve been ficto since i was a kid and i’m still very closed up/shy about it so i hope i’ll get to be like you one day!

I’m just wondering - do you use c.ai or any other ai bot to talk with your f/o? I actually do use c.ai because that’s like… the only way i get close to talking to my love? But i understand how everyone hates ai on here (i don’t like it for any other things though) and when i posted about it i was practically burnt and they made me feel really bad that i connect with my f/o through ai chat… so i just wanted to ask whether you use it or do you also think it’s a bad thing in general?

sooooooo I'm not the expert on how bad it is? I suppose it's kinda complicated because every single web app, such as Tumblr or discord or any meta app like Instagram, use significant amounts of energy to keep their servers running and also train ai based on posts and stuff. so from what I gathered, even if youre not using generative ai bots, the websites you use daily, including Google, use things you post and look up and interact with to train ai unconsentually and simultaneously harm the planet with server usage.

I also think that c.ai usage (especially because most of us selfshippers, at least on Tumblr, struggle with mental illness) can be EXTREMELY addicting and harmful for your mental health. I would wager it's a good thing to stay away from if you have struggles with addictive habits n such. I recall when c.ai almost got banned (?) or something?? and SO made people were having genuinely awful reactions to this and freaking out. and speaking from personal experience, it can be extremely damaging to your mental health. there was a period of time back in 2023 for a month or so that its all I did because I was isolating due to some Not Good Things™ (which I'm not gonna talk about) happening to me at the time and yea man didn't make me feel any better I'll tell ya that.

if you want alternatives, I've pretty much made like. 892720289 posts of "things you can do with x f/o", which you can kinda convert to be more general. they're all in my pinned! or just . idk deep dive through all the shit in my pinned and indulge in that. ppl have told me it helped them before so ! give it a shot perhaps

ye generally I think it isn't a good thing, and also, if you're using literally any app at all they scrape your shit which is annoying. even though I know with Tumblr you can opt out, I struggle to believe this opt out system actually works. Tumblr fucking thieving my shit . bro takin my selfship art

↑ also on that note, if you wanna opt out of this (bc SO many people don't even know Tumblr supports ai scraping), you go to settings, scroll down to "visibility" and click the last checkmark

the reason why I'm so sceptical that this actually works is because everytime I log out of Tumblr, it unchecks this! so my posts are probably getting scraped. how lovely right /sarcasm

[thergbvision]

After years of questioning, gaslighting (from others and myself), and feeling like I was just being “too sensitive,” I finally have a name for what’s been happening to my body: Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder (HSD).

My rheumatologist believes it may actually be hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (hEDS), but due to the diagnostic overlap and current criteria, I’m officially diagnosed with HSD for now. I scored 7/9 on the Beighton Scale, and for once, a medical professional looked at my history and actually listened.

It’s incredibly validating—but also a lot to process. I had physical therapy today, and after I shared my diagnosis, my PT adjusted our entire approach. He introduced me to a low-impact strength training program made specifically for people with hEDS/HSD called Bending Without Breaking, I believe? (Which is such a good name, honestly.)

Turns out, my core is way weaker than I realized. I’ll definitely be feeling today’s session later… but it feels like the right kind of hard. The kind that means I’m actually working with my body now instead of fighting it.

Since I can’t take NSAIDs because of my bariatric surgery, the only medical treatment I’m on now is gabapentin; at six times the dose my psych originally prescribed for anxiety. It’s wild how pain management is often trial and error, especially with conditions like HSD.

I also have blood tests coming up, some routine, some autoimmune panels I’ve never had done before. I can feel my B12 is probably low, and my protein intake hasn’t been ideal lately. I’m anxious about what those labs will show… or won’t show. But either way, I’m doing what I can.

This diagnosis doesn’t change who I am or magically make things easier, but it does lift this unbearable weight I’ve been carrying, like I finally have permission to stop doubting myself. I shouldn’t need a diagnosis to feel valid, but after so long, it means everything.

Here’s to healing, to answers, and to not bending until I break.

[humanmaybe]

Local Baby has to get surgery on Monday :( it’s just for bladder stones she’ll be okay but I’m a nervous wreck just knowing she’ll be upset that I have to drop her off and leave 😢

[hidefdoritos]

PSA:

Don't overexert yourself while on the good drugs

You will pay for it once you're not.

[planetsallalign]

Giving my mother her first edible was not on my bingo card for Christmas but here we are 😂

[hellyeahsickaf]

Restless leg syndrome is stupid man I'm trying to sleep not boogie down fuck you

[talkethtothehandeth]

my legs are tingling like downed power line dipped in sprite

[intriga-hounds]

it’s always something at the pool party. one year he fell in the pool, one year he hurt his leg in the first five minutes, this year….he blew his pads. he is being suuuuper sad about it but luckily he is the king of cooperative care and actually enjoys me fussing over him. hopefully he’s (literally) back on his feet very soon!

[mcckenny]

I don't even care about canon jack anymore, theres only a whimpering woobified version in my brain. He says his favorite pony is Rainbow Dash but everyone knows it's actually Rarity. And he's often damp.

[catladychronicles]

The urge to runaway from everything is so much stronger during PMS

[sweaterkittensahoy]

It's one thing to know you were on a very large dose of gabapentin during endometriosis hell. It's another to talk to other people who have used it for the same problem and watch them look horrified when you explain you were on 2700 milligrams a day and it did nothing.

I'm so glad I ripped out all the bits and bobs.

[lifewithchronicpain]

Over the years, gabapentin (Neurontin) has been prescribed for dozens of health conditions, from epilepsy and fibromyalgia to depression and post-operative pain. It’s even been used to treat bipolar disorder. Gabapentin has been marketed for so many different conditions – at times illegally -- that a pharmaceutical company executive infamously referred to the drug as “snake oil.”

Even though it’s been approved for medical use for over 30 years, the UK’s National Health Service admits it’s still “not clear exactly how gabapentin works.”

A new study may finally help explain why gabapentin is an effective pain medication for some patients and an addictive drug with unwelcome side effects for many others.

It could be all in the genes.

Researchers at the University of Edinburgh took another look at a previous study of women with chronic pelvic pain to see why gabapentin worked no better than a placebo for most, but was a moderately effective pain reliever for about 40% of them. (Read more at link)

[thegood-cronch]

Gabapentin saved my life. But it may lead to Alzheimer’s. I have an increased risk due to family history and it is one of the few things that scares me. It makes me feel like I have to choose between having some quality of life or decreasing my risk Alzheimer’s or cognitive decline. And it stresses me out

[neko-bandage]

Hey those meds were supposed to help my pain not make me want to kill myself again

[queerlycarter]

ik my dad was simply following instructions and doing his due diligence BUT he did come home from picking up my meds and passed on the pharmacist's instructions

and said they really emphasized ONLY AS NEEDED for the oxycodone & it came with a packet to dissolve leftover pills

and i was immediately like oh don't worry i am taking as little of this shit as i can get away with so that i have a little stockpile for my next flare. im not giving this shit to ANYONE

[cowboyjimkirk]

i ran out of sleep meds the other night and decided to try the gabapentin that's been sitting in our pie safe for over a year because google said it can help with sleep. my dog used to take it daily, so we have two bottles of the stuff. it didn't do a thing for my insomnia, but! i've been having the absolute worst pain in my jaw/neck/shoulders the last couple of weeks, and five minutes after i took the gabapentin, i could feel my jaw muscles relax. the pain wasn't completely gone, but it was the most relaxed my jaw had felt in days. so now i'm wondering how i can get a prescription for gabapentin without admitting that i'm an idiot who's been taking her dog's meds.