( ๐ฟ ) . . hi! my name is Oliver or Alex, but you can also call me any nicknames that you can up with.
( ๐ฟ ) . . I'm around 20-25 years old in-sys. I might reblog some suggestive stuff, so do with that info what you will.
( ๐ฟ ) . . I use he/they pronouns, although I prefer he/him over they/them.
( ๐ฟ ) . . I am a transman, and I am a fictive and part of a system and I have auDHD.
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( ๐ฟ ) . . I will most likely reblog most of the time, but when I talk, it'll be most likely about my boyfriends, about my source, or about filmmaking and all that stuff.
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content warnings; toxic relationships, unhealthy relationships, toxic boys, smut, arguments, verbal abuse, rough sex, making up sex, crying, degrading, emontional abuse(?), reader has no vision and is just a normal citizen, attempted physical abuse, dubcon, attempted killing(? Idk scara almost uses electro to shock you), threats of murder
notes; I was listening to mars argo and this song made me have a idea, (it's called runaway) and @cutiesgawr said that I should do like toxic smut or angst thing, while their doing another lyric one ! These boys are toxic, so deal with me ;3 btw
๐๏ธ SCARAMOUCHE is rather someone that makes you want to scream, his arrogant attitude, his ignorance. His neglection to you, your relationship. All he wanted to do was to get that gnosis, take revenge on those who wronged him. His cruel words, you finally had enough as you can feel tears coming. It wasn't due to sadness but rather due to anger, you harshly rubbed at your eyes as you clenched your fist. You bit at your bottom lip, you inhaled and exhaled. "Scaramouche, I thi-" before you could say your words, he cutted you off. "Just leave me alone, I don't want to deal with you." He said, looking at you with a blank look. You suck on a breath, you wanted to scream right there. "Scara! You bastard! Can you atleast pretend that you care!?" You yelled, you glared at him, he had a dark tint in his eyes as he smiles and looks at you. "Why should I care? I didn't even need you! I could fucking kill you!" He screamed, you stepped back as he laughs and walks towards you. "What's wrong, baby?" He teased. "Where's all your confidence gone? Hah?" He said, you flinch as he corners you, he lets out some electro, seeing a purple light makes you more scared. Your body shakes in fear, how dumb can you be to say that to someone who has an advance! "Hm, you work for that fox girl. Right?" You peek open your eyes as you slowly nod your head. What was he going to do? He leans towards you, his lips landing on yours, you gasp as you push on his chest. Your hands slowly fall to your side, was he finally giving you attention, he pulls away as you whine. He chuckles as rubs at your hips. "I am sorry, baby.. how about I make it up to you~?" He says in a melodic voice, your face feels hot as you nod. He sucks on your neck and bites on it softly, you gasp as you realize that he was going to do it outside. His hands land on your legs as he makes you wrap your legs around him. "mfhm! Scara, w-were outside!" You cried, he hums as he take soff your lower clothing, you closed your eyes as he takes off his lower clothing. Revealing his hard dick, he aims it at your hole. He pushes into you, going you down as you slowly take him. "Mmh!" He groans and moves quickly, you gasp and cling onto him, your back is against the wall as he slams into you, his dick hitting those special spots in you, it makes you go dizzy. You can see stars, he groans in your ear, your hole clenches move around him, your toes begin to curl, you moan loudly. Not caring for someone heard you or not, your eyes roll back as you climax. You let out a sigh, he lets out a small moan as scara climaxes, you can feel his dick twitching in you, you can feel him filling you up. He gently sits you down, your mind feels all mushy. Scara can be a bastard but I guess your into bastards like him!
๐ฐ๏ธ AYATO is a wealthy and praised man, a perfect husband! He was but he wasn't so great, his silver tongue wasn't something that was healthy. Him manipulating you, and everyone else made you mad. How stupid can you be for not realizing it! You have a smile to Thoma as you walk by him, he gave you a smile. You walk down the halls to his office, standing infront of his office, you exhaled as you open the door, ayato was at his desk. Writing on papers, he looks up and smiles, he looks back down, you walk towards him, you were going to talk about his behaviour and actions. "Ayato, I want to speak to you" you remained calm. "Hm? What is it, sweetie?" He said, you sighed. "Why are you manipulating me?" You said, he looks at you and tilts his head... His simple action made you mad, how can he pretend that he doesn't know?! "I feel taken advantage of!" You yelled out, he smiles softly and looks at you. "Ah? What do you mean dearest? Why are you talking crazy?" He said, you clenched your fist as you glared at him. You wanted to scream at him so badly. "Stop pretending! Ayato, you know how cruel it is!" You slammed your fists onto his desk, he doesn't say anything as he looks down and looking at the messy desk. "Sweetie" he got up and you backed away, he smiles as he grabs your wrists. Twirling you around as he gently lays you on his desk, you glare up at him. "Dearest, I could never, I think you been to stressed... How about I make it up to you?" He said, you raised up an eyebrow, what did he mean. He goes down as he looks up at you, his lips curling into a smile. "Whaโ!" You let out a moan as his mouth lands in your crotch, you games down at him. "What do you say?" You gripped at the desk, your heart was racing. Your eyes were focused on him and you didn't even feel yourself nodding to his question. His mouth goes back to your crotch, sucking at your sex through your clothing, he smirks as you whine. He takes off your lower clothing, looking at your underwear. He smirks and take sit off, slowly. You whined and he lets out a chuckle, he was amused by you. His tongue touches your sex as he slowly licks at it, his mouth goes on your sex, licking and sucking. You moaned and closed your eyes, your eyes roll back as his mouth doesn't stop pleasuring your sex. Your sex leaks out your pre-cum/juices, you gasped as his teeth touches your sex. Your eyes were completely rolled back, your chest goes up and down, you were seeing stars. He kept on going, soon you were to climax, he sucks more harder, you whined and grip at his hair. You climaxed. "How about we continue later, after I finish work, m'kay?" You nod, he smiles.
๐ช CHILDE is a dangerous man you feel inlove with, his job was risky to be with. His bloodlust and wanting to fight was also dangerous, you grip at your clothing as he practiced and practiced and kept seeking out the blonde traveler. Didn't he know that he can get hurt?! Your hands grasped your clothing, he loved you and you know that! He would give you anything but he was selfish. He wanted power and he kills people, he kills so that he can satisfy his needs, his killing and fighting does that for him. Childe craves more and the world gives him so little, he comes back battered! You didn't like that and you always wanted to scream at him, you feel powerless. You didn't equal to him at all, he had a advance to you already but he was a bigger advance! You gripped at your clothing as you wait for him, you wanted to confess how you felt and you hoped that he wouldn't take it the wrong way. You got up as you faced him, he had some cuts in him, he looks at you and smiles sheepishly. "Childe, can I tal-" he walks by you, you look at him as glared at him. "Listen to me!" You screamed, he stops in his tracks as he turns to look at you. You exhaled and clenched your fist as you tried to hold in your anger. "What is it?" He said. "Stop, being so.." you said, muttering. "What? Stop being what?" He said. "Stop being you!" You blurt out. "What? Stop being me?" He said, his eyes having a dark tint. "That's not what I meant! I meant being so... Selfish!" You yelled out, he glares at you. His glare makes you get goosebumps. "Selfish? Hah! How am I being selfish?" He said, taking a step to you as you take a step back. "I am giving you all you want and you call me selfish? Don't make me laugh!" He said, you flinched. "Argh! See! You don't get what I mean and you just want more and more!" You screamed to him. "More and more of what! All you do is stay at home while I do my job and you dare to speak to me like that?!" He screamed and he takes steps towards, his hand raises up as his weapon comes out. Your eyes widen as you fall to ground, you look up at him as a dark shadow covers his face, he drops to floor as he holds your cheek. "Sorry, baby" he says, you look at him in confusion. "Sorry, baby. Semes like we are both stressed, I didn't mean it..." He said, he kisses you. "Sweet baby, how about we forget about all of this. I think we both need to get rid of our stresses.." he says, you look at him as his hand lays on your thigh. You gasp as he smiles at you, looking at you with a warm look. You were both mad at eachother and now he wants to have sex? You tried your best to be mad and say no but he looks so sweet and warm... What happens if this your last chance if this happening, you and Childe never had sex in while .. you nod your head as he kisses you. Slipping his tongue into your mouth, lifting you up as he lays you on the bed. Your hands gripping at his shoulders. You kiss him as he fastly takes off your clothing and his, his dick is standing up as it leaks out some pre-cum, you moaned when his dick touches your skin. His dick teases your hole before he finally enters you, he puts you in a mating press. Your legs tucked as he kisses you before moving fast. "Fuck... Baby, you feel so good~" he says, his dick hitting spots in you, fast and hard. You can feel yourself ready to cum, your eyes roll back due to his fast movements. "Ahh! Childe!" You cried, your hands grip at his hips as he slams into you. His fast, needy actions show as he is about to climax. Moaning and groaning into your ear, your eyes roll back as you arch your back. His dick hitting at spot in you, your hole clenches and you climax. He kisses your neck and he slams into you, his dick twitching and he fills your hole up. We'll your selfish for his dick and his love and he seems to be selfish for your body and love!
๐ฌ KAVEH is someone you admire, his job and how hard he works. But he works about to hard, it's quite concerning. He was a sweet lovable man that you loved so much but you he doesn't spend time with you that much. You know he is busy but does he have to drink, it isn't a the best way to escape from struggles. You wanted to talk about it with him, you wanted him to take a rest and just focus on himself and you. You smiled as you set up dinner ans the bed, you pat yourself on your back, you wait for him. "KAVEH!" You got up as you heard the door open, you see your blonde boyfriend, he looks at you. You smile as your hand rests on his shoulder, you tilt your head. "L-leave me *hic* alone!" He said, you look at him as your eyebrows furrowed, he was drunk. You could smell it on his breath, you sighed and smiled. "Kaveh, I made us dinn-" he walks by you and towards the bedroom door. "I don't want!" He cried, you grab his wrist. "Kaveh, you have to stop" you said, he glares at you. "Just leave me alone" he said, you frowned and point at the table. "Kaveh, I made us dinner and drink some water." You said, his eyes roll. You kept in bothering him as you try to drag him to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. He shakes his head and he groans, you want to scream at him. He wants listening and you were starting to get mad. He pushes you as you gasp and look at him, he opens his mouth. He starts spewing out nonsense and words that hurt to you, you grit your teeth and he moves to you. His hand raises up as you lift up your arms. He stops as he sobs, you look at him and he stops to the floor..wiping away his tears. "Sorry.... I am just a fucking mess, I don't want to hurt you and I am so sorry!" He sobs, your eyes tear up and you hug him. It wasn't his fault. "I am so sorry, sweetie.." he cries, you nod your head and kisses his cheek. He loks at you as he kisses you, his hands under your shirt. You pull away. "Kaveh, your drunk an-" he cuts you off. "No... It's okay, I want it, I I want to make it up to you... My love" he says, you smile and he nods his head. You both make your way to the bedroom as you both tangle with eachother, hands in hair as you makeout, you moan and whimper. "I love you so much, I am so sorry, baby.." he says, kissing your chest as he takes off his pants in a hurry, holding you close. "I love you too!" You say, you moan when his dick enters you. You wipe away your tears as he fucks you. Bending you as his tongue sucks on yours, fucking you slow then faster. Your eyes roll back and he begins to moan really loud. Whimpering in your ear as he goes faster, getting sloppy. Your legs tremble in pleasure and his dick twitches. Warning you for his soon-climax. You kisses him harder, slamming your lips together, you both climax at the same time, holding eachother close. You smile and look at him, h kisses your neck and smiles. Well the food probably goes gone cold but oh well!
anyway iโve been thinkin about how sweet and doting patrick and/or art would be when youโre sick๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ (im sick right now) theyโd treat you so nice i just know it๐๐
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Aww thank you babes! <3 I did a little thingy with Patrick some time ago, so you can check that out! :3
If Art came in, it would be slightly different, mainly because he is the maternal type, like literally. All the knowledge he has from his grandma, he's putting that to good fucking use - making you tea and soup, bringing you various painkillers, tablets for your sore throat and flu and whatever you have going on - like that man knows what's up.
He won't let you move a muscle, absolutely not. You remain in bed, right where you are, the covers pulled under your chin and wrapped around you so tightly that you can barely move, three pairs of socks on your feet.
"There you go, that looks better," he mutters, rubbing your forehead with a damp cloth, already seeing some hints of colour in your cheeks, "Pretty girl."
"Can you lay down with me, Artie?" you plead with a pout and he has a hard time resisting you.
One thing about Art, though, is that he's a responsible man. And he knows damn well that if he laid down with you, he'd get sick as well and who'd be there to take care of you two? Patrick? No no no, he's not letting that disaster of a guy enter your place.
"Nonsense baby, I'm here to take care of you, not to get sick too. C'mon, don't gimme that pout." he coos, his walls slightly cracking. But he has to remain strong. For you.
And then he's gone, presumably cleaning the kitchen where you left some mess last night. He's away for way too long to your liking, leaving you swaddled in the blankets like a baby that's expected to fall asleep soon. Only if you were able to actually fall asleep.
Art is acting more like a maid, literally ignoring you and taking care of your place instead. Humming to himself and insisting he helps, since you're bound to the bed. It pisses you off a bit, because all you need at the moment is his presence. So you yell out his name, a slightly distressed tone just to make it seem more dramatic, so he could be there as quickly as possible.
"What's wrong? Are you hurt? You gonna puke?" he's there within the blink of an eye, towel tucked behind the waistband of his jeans.
You groan, rolling onto your side. With a dramatically prolonged gesture, you raise a hand, beckoning him closer, "C'mere artie."
"What's wrong?" Art repeats as he moves closer, unable to see any signs of pain on your face.
And just as his hand wraps around your own, you pull him in with all the remaining strength in yourself. Art's body collapses onto your own, a soft gasp leaving his lips as he falls.
"Just stay here with me, okay? Don't walk away from me," you mutter, adding a small smile which you hope is enough to warm his heart, "Please."
Art's expression then melts, a soft grin spreading over his features as he realises that what you need the most at the moment, is his presence, and his comfort.
So he lays down next to you, takes you into his arms gently to run his hand over your back and through your hair, easing you into a content state of relaxation. With his tender motions and whispers of sweet nothings in your ear, it's nothing difficult for you to slip into the desired state of slumber, your worries slowly evaporating.
Oh and i remembered one more, do you have any sleeping hcs for them all? Iโm not sure if youโve done this one before!! Like position, deep sleeper/restless sleeper, etc โค๏ธ๐๏ธ
i was so mad because i had this saved and tumblr deleted my long reply ๐ญ so take two!
Everyone thinks Darry would snore but personally? I donโt think he would. I feel like Darry is eerily quiet when he sleeps. Like you canโt even hear him breathing and the only way you know heโs alive is if you can see his chest rising and falling. He also sleeps like a rock, though he does wake up at certain things, like crying, creaky floorboards, his alarm and whatever else, but if you try to wake him you literally WILL NOT be able to. One time when they were kids, Soda wanted to wake Darry up at likeโฆthe crack of dawn (If Darry could have it his way heโd sleep โtil noon-he is NOT a morning person.) and Sods could not wake him up and it was dark so he couldnโt see his chest rising and falling. He ran into his mom and dadโs room screaming and crying and yelling โDARRYโs DEADโ until Nr. Curtis got up and at that point Darry had woken up and he had to snuggle Soda for the rest of the morning because little bro was SO scared ๐ญ He sleeps on his back. He has a very very soft pillow that he keeps his head on but he sleeps with a harder pillow to support his neck because heโs sick and tired of his back pain. He sleeps with his hands over his chest too like a dead man. He doesnโt necessarily move when he gets nightmares-his breathing gets faster and itโs actually audible but heโll literally jolt up in bed so fast and so hard-heโs pulled numerous back and neck muscles doing this. If heโs cuddling with his brothers he still sleeps on his back but he has one arm around both of them. He sleeps in just boxers (because if a burglar breaks in he wants to show them who theyโre messing with)
Soda moves in his sleep. Even in his sleep he canโt stay still-itโs honestly kind of impressive to an extent. He starts out on his twice and usually ends up on him tummy on top of whatever/whoever heโs cuddling. He NEEDS someone to cuddle with at all times. If Pony isnโt there heโll beg Darey to come cuddle him (Darey usually canโt say no unless he goes to bed earlier than Soda, to which Soda doesnโt bother asking evacsue he doesnโt wanna wake his brother (itโs not like he can tho-he sleeps like a rock). In those very rare cases he has a pillow. He starts out with an arm around the thing/person heโs cuddling but when he wakes up heโs sprawled out and either directly on top of them, wrapped around them like a koala bear. Heโs seriously such a sweetie-he doesnโt snore too bad but he does snore. Like he does the inhale and then just softly breathes out and itโs the goofiest thing-sometimes youโll get him snoring in your ear but itโs okay since itโs Soda lol-he doesnโt get nightmares often but when he does he kinda just goes rigid-he starts whimpering and crying a little too but the way you know heโs having a. nightmare is that he goes completely still. If heโs having any other kind of dream heโll mumble in his sleep and move around a lot. He sleeps like a rock. Like nothing will wake him up. He has a natural alarm tho but there could be a nuclear war in his back yard and heโd still be sleeping. Heโs just kinda like that-if you let him be little spoon though heโd actually cry and never leave your side lmao Sods sleeps with socks on. Pony said he likes walking around in jhsy โstocking feetโ plus he seems like the kind of menace to sleep with socks on (same) he also just wears boxers to bed because he thinks heโs gods giving gift (is he not?)
Ponyboy is definitely a restless sleeper and if anything he snores the worst of the three brothers. I mean-he smokes like two packs a day of course he does ๐ญ But even then it isnโt bad. Heโs just a loud breather and sometimes sleeps with his mouth open-bros lips are CHAPPED. He sleeps in a fetus position a lot and will not admit it, not even on his death bed, but he loves to be held. He lives deep pressure and a bone crushing cuddle puts him to sleep. He doesnโt often sleep with his mouth open and Soda will straight up close his mouth for him so his lips donโt get any more chapped than they already are-honestlyI like to think that he got off the cigarettes and onto nicotine gum (it was really really tough but Darry helped him and decided it was the best option and it still calms Pony down because it has the nic in it but anyhoo) he stops snoring completely when he stops smoking and he is a delight to sleep with-eeeexcept when ge gets nightmares. He starts kicking and punching in his sleep like nobodyโs business-if you donโt mind a sudden swift kick to the stomach go ahead and cuddle with him lol-Soda makes Pony sleep with socks on too because bros nails ar3 sharp as hell and he has scratched Soda in his sleep-Pony doesnโt mind since he likes sleeping with socks on (he pretends he doesnโt because itโs not tuff) but heโs also a sleep cuddler. Like you will be trapped for the night if you sleep in the same bed as him. You cannot pry him and Soda away from each other. He sleeps kinda hard but sudden movements or noises will wake him up. He does not have a natural alarm and has a very fucked jo sleep schedule. So heโs either up at 5 AM or 1 PM. Darry hates it.
Johnny is honestly such a light sleeper. Sixteen years of abuse does that-heโs just always on high alert even when heโs sleeping. His parents would often come into his room just to yell at him or literally beat him awake so if you touch him when heโs sleeping to wake him up heโll flinch so hard and itโs so sad-it also doesnโt help that he sleeps in the lot and Socs have come and literally stomped in his back so he does not sleep on his stomach much. He sleeps on his side because he feels like he can protect himself easier. He, like Darry, is very quiet when he sleeps, but his breathing tends to be a tad loud. He looks a lot younger when he sleeps-he looks at peace for once and he no longer looks like a kid who has suffered numbers of abuses. He just looks at peace. He sleeps in a fetal position as well with his mouth ever so slightly open. I feel like he tends to drool a teeny tiny bit but itโs Johnny so itโs kinda endearing and nobody gets mad at him. Heโll sleep in just about anything. Jeans. Jean jacket, heโll heโll even sleep with shoes on. If you gave this boy actual pajamas heโd be so confused ๐ญUnfortunately Johnny is highly prone to nightmares form the amount of PTSD and trauma he has, so sometimes itโs a bit rough. He goes board still and just lets out this small gasp before his breathing picks up speed. He never makes a sound other than the breathing and that alone is terrifying. He doesnโt like being cuddled much but sometimes if he has had a particularly rough day heโll be okay with an arm around the shoulder. It takes a lot but after a lot of trust he doesnโt mind cuddles. But you have to initiate. He will never initiate. He hates sleeping in the dark-the Curtises and Two Bit donโt mind keeping a hallway light on for him. Darry bought him a flashlight tho because electric bills were too high :(
Dallas doesnโt sleep letโs be real ๐ He crashes out at Buck Merrilโs place a lot and can somehow sleep through all that loud music and whatnot-he sleeps harder than Soda. Nothing will wake him up. He sleeps sprawled out with his limbs everywhere because he likes stretching out like a cat. He never goes to sleep earlier than like-2 in the morning but then he sleeps for like 19 hours. Heโs lowkey nocturnal-you barely see him out in the day. He prowls around at night oftentimes until itโs very late in the night and then he just barges into Bucks and steals his room ๐ญ He cannot sleep with anyone in the bed. He sleeps in the pitch dark too like he will literally cram towels under the door to keep the light out-He refuses to share a bed with anyone and would rather sleep in the floor than sleep with another person in the bed next to him. He sleeps naked. He doesnโt even bother with clothes-he literally just snuck into the Curtises house and crashed into their guest room-Darry was not happy and literally yanked the covers off him only to get flashed. He never disturbs Dally in his sleep ever again. He needs a good four hours after he wakes up tho because he is literally so grumpy. He will literally like-push some old lady so he can get to where heโs going faster. Heโs such a hypocrite because heโll get mad at Pony and Johnnyโs sleep schedules and then when theyโre like โwhat about yours then ๐คจโ he just goes โTHIS AINT ABOUT ME ๐คฌโ like he is NOT happy when people bring up his sleep schedule-he kicks and punches a lot, especially if heโs sleeping with someone else but at that point heโs just pretending so the person will leave ๐ญ
Two Bit is the only one WITH a sleep schedule honestly. Itโs mainly for his little sister because she wonโt go to bed hnless he does but he doesnโt really mind much. He goes to bed at exactly 9 every single night so his sister will sleep but then sometimes he honestly just sneaks out. He never fails to get up at 8 every morning tho. He sleeps on his back with one knee over the other and with his hands behind his back. Nobody knows how he doesnโt have neck and back pain honestly-itโs really impressive. He probably snores a little-or a lot depending on who you ask. He only sleeps in a shirt. He doesnโt bother with pants (also before anyone tries to twist this, him and his sister have separate rooms, sheโs just the kind of kid to think sheโs a โbig girlโ who โdoesnโt need sleepโ but they do have separate rooms( I feel like he has a white noise machine because he finds the noise comforting. He likes being in busy environments even in his sleep. Heโs completely still when he sleeps but he has this easy smile on his face. If he has a nightmare he probably just sits up, screams for a minute and is like โthat was kinda svary ๐จโ like heโs so goofy and nobody knows how-be has a lot of fever dreams and heโll tell the gang like โyeah i had a dream that peter cottontail tried to steal my kidneys ๐โ and the rest of the gang is absolutely appalled-heโs not too hard of a sleeper but of course he has a natural alarm and any time between when he goes to sleep to 8 am heโs absolutely unmovable.
I honestly feel like Steve is sorta like Johnny. I meanโฆhis father kicks him out of the house a lot. And then pays him off as an apology. So I feel like Steve has soent a number of nights in the lot. He didnโt wanna go to the Curtises place because he was honestly too prideful but one time Soda found him and dragged him to his place and stayed with him. He drags Steve to his place a lot after that because itโs either that or the lot and Soda will be damned if his best friend goes to sleep cold. He prefers to sleep alone but if Soda wants to cuddle heโs fine with that. He probably sleeps naked just like Dallas I wonโt even lie-or at the very least he sleeps in just tightie whities and Pony is DISGUSTED by this man-Steve likes to sleep in the cold so he does not use blankets. I know he absolutely SLOBBERS in his sleep tho like his pillow will just be absolutely damp in th morning. He doesnโt even give two shits he just flips the pillow ๐ญ He sleeps on his stomach. When him and Soda are together itโs literally the โhonk mimimimimimimiโ think-Steve snores but only when he exhales like he just preaches out a whistle of breath. Pony has kicked the wall and yelled at him to stop ๐ He also lowkey stuffs himself before he sleeps like heโll literally just raid the Curtises fridge and just conk out. Hes just a bitch like that. Soda is the only one not mad at him- โCmon, he didnโt mean it :(โ and Steve is just there with cake on his face as heโs like โyeah i didntโ as he swallows the massive mouthful of frozen steak he stole
These past two Eras Tour shows in Lyons, France seemed to be very Haylor coded. My first thoughts:
Lyon = Lion, and Lyin'
I think Taylor's screaming the truth, however no one can "hear/see" it...
Lion:
loml CODES to Harry's Love Of My Life
Oh, what a valiant roar ๐ฏ
What a bland goodbye
The coward ๐ณ๏ธ claimed
he was a lion ๐ฆ
I'm combing through the braids of lies
"I'll never leave" ...
"Never mind"
Wildest Dreams MV:
Has a FILM ๐ฅ camera, just like how the road unrolls like film ๐๏ธ at the beginning of Female Rage: The Musical ๐ผ๐ค๐ฌ๐ค๐๐ถ๐ณ๏ธ๐ธ
Wildest Dream, 1989 connects to Glitch by sharing the Spotify visuals
This makes GLITCH CODE TO WILDEST DREAMS...1989, who we all know the MUSE was HARRY.
sorry not yelling, just enunciating as a way to highlight the CODING, think of it as a Map Legend...๐๐๐
Summary: James let his faults and insecurities take over his life. Saying things he doesnโt mean because he doesnโt deserve them. This costed him the love of his life and his children.
Warnings: like none really? Crying, angst, kissing, Bucky and reader have children, No happy ending!!!
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For a while I sat there staring at her photograph, For a while I cried and tried not to make a scene.
James watched the old tape of their wedding. The way she looked ingrained into his mind evermore. How he sore to any and everything that he would spend the rest of his life loving her. Thatโs the only promise he kept out of all of them.
There in the small coffee shop he watched crying as his y/n and their children sit at a table smiling and talking. He tried not to make a scene.
There was a time when we were young I used to make her laugh. But life is long, my love has gone away from me, gone away from me, gone away from me
โEw James stop! No..no donโt you dare put that on meeee!โ James chased her around the island in their home with raw cookie dough, trying to smear it on her. He was shirtless just in some sweatpants, she was in his shirt.
โCome on baby come give me a kissโ he said playfully.
โIf I walk over there and give you a kiss promise you wonโt get that on me?โ She asked hesitantly
โYes, yes I promise!โ He laughed. She slowly made her way to him like a bunny trying to approach a wolf. He had his arms out waiting for her smiling like a fool. Drunk on love. Once she was in his arms, he held her tight and kissed her. It was warm and comfortable. No lust just pure admiration and love.
Once they broke out of the kiss he rubbed the spatula on her nose.
He broke the promise
โJames!โ They laughed together
๏ฟผ life is long, my love has gone away from me gone away from me, gone away from me. Life is long, my love has gone away from me.
โWhy!? James have I done something wrong? Just let me inโ she begged
โI canโt do this anymore, the routine and boring life. I have a second chance to live my life! To be free from hydra! Andโฆโ
โAnd you donโt want to spend it with me? Or our children?โ Hopelessly. Was how she said it. And when she put it that way James felt guilty.
โI-i yes! Alright!โ He took his regret out on her, in anger.
โI canโt fucking stand to be in this house! The mess! The noise! The nothingness! Thereโs nothing here!โ He yelled
โOur kids are here! Iโm here! Our family and love and home is here! We built this! I thought you loved usโ she cried, sobbed, feeling like her whole life had been ripped apart.
Becauseโฆit had.
Lately I canโt seem find myself no sleep at all. Lately I just lie awake and hear and dream of a time when she was mine,felt like I had it all. But life is long, my love has gone away from me.
In different beds, in different houses that are not quite home. The broken couple that is no longer one lies awake. Thinking, missing, and dying for the other. The presence of one another still lingers on the other side of the bed. James sits in a half empty house. His kids rooms all cleared out, nothing but some left toys they didnโt want anymore. The other side of the closet, bathroom,and bedroom are still โmoms sideโ James in his heart is still married.
Y/n even though in a new house still has an empty space in the bathroom, closet, and bedroom, and her heart. Her stuff on right his on the left, but now she just has a half empty everything. She still makes room for him even though he is not there.
Gone away from me, gone away from me, gone away from me. Life is long, my love has gone away from me.
He didnโt want the endless hookups or a new woman every night like he once told her. He wanted what he used to have, what has left him. He pushed her away because of his insecurities. His arm, his age, his past, his ability to be a good father which he used to be. The kids were still young. Cecily and grant only 6 and 8, could he make it up them? Make it up to her?
Gone away from me. Life is long, my love has gone away from me. Yesterday is gone. Yesterday is dead. Get it through your head and walk away. Yesterday is gone ainโt no use of hanging on to her memory that only causes you pain.
โIโm sorry and I love youโ
โPlease donโt give me false hope. I love you James youโre the love of my life! But you made this decision and I- I donโt know if I could survive another thing like this happening. Iโll miss for the rest of my life.โ
โIโll miss you until the end of time.โ He kissed her goodbye one last time before the kids could notice them, the two kids sitting in the car waiting for them to stop talking so they could go get ice cream with their dad.
At least he tried to get his life back after he broke it.
For awhile I sat there staring at her photograph. For awhile I cried and tried not to make a scene. There was a time when we were young I used to make her laugh. But life is long, my love has gone away from me.
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He sat and watched her marry a new man. One who could hold and keep his promises. And not let insecurities get in the way of his love and family. For this was Jamesโ life now. Staring at her photograph.
I love ur work and if u need an idea I have one! So u are dating Darry and u have been for a while and u were friends with him and the others before for awhile. Y/N has really bad anxiety as Darry knows and if u are having trouble u go to him for help. But one day darry had to go to work and soda was hanging out with friends so it was just y/n and pony. You start to have one so pony helps comfort u and y/n is laying there head on his shoulder while reading them a book to help them calm down even more
(sorry for the long text )
- gentle lullaby
๐๏ธ - SYNOPSIS : darry normally comforts y/n when they have a anxiety attack. when y/n spirals, who comforts them?
๐ผ - WARNINGS : anxiety attack, foul language, fluff, bad grammar cos thats how they talk, bad writing(?) idrk, bad parent relationship, past emotional & domestic abuse
๐ - K.J.'S DIARY SAYS... okay but why is the picture layout so bad? idk. anyways, thank you for the request!! don't worry, i'm not bothered by the size of the text requests <3
๐ฟ - READER PRONOUNS : they/them
๐๏ธ - PAIRINGS : romantic darry curtis x reader, platonic ponyboy curtis x reader
"You're late, Soda!" Darry hollared, buttoning up his work shirt. In response, a loud crash and "oh fuck!" was heard by the curtis kids and y/n. y/n chuckled lightly, standing uo to help button the five remaining buttons.
"One day he'll be fired if he shows up late again, y/n," Darry sighed.
y/n nodded. "It's only the third time this month, though. I'd say Soda's doin' fine. He has that half day today, remember? He'll be on time."
Darry cracked a grin. "It don't hurt to get 'im out of the house faster."
"Darrel Curtis! Ponyboy is in the house!"
The eldest Curtis child only laughed and pulled y/n in for a kiss.
"I gotta go, otherwise I'll be late," Darry murmured. "Bye, be safe."
"I'd worry 'bout those brothers of yours, Darry," y/n said, following Darry to the door. They both heard Ponyboy scoff.
After grabbing his coat, Darry turned around with a smile. "I do," he replied. Darry kissed y/n one more time before saying a goodbye to Pony and leaving.
As y/n heads to the kitchen to start making some extra cake, Soda flits from room to room, making sure he has everything. "Bye!" He yells, walking out the door.
That left Pony on the couch reading a book, and y/n pulling numerous items from cabinets in the kitchen.
As the time passed, y/n started thinking. They thought about all the times y/n and Darry made the chocolate cake the Curtis family was known for. Darry would make it the best, though y/n ran a close second so he normally made it while y/n admired Darry.
y/n maneuvered the pan of cake batter into the oven and closed the oven. With a sigh, they started to clean up. y/n crossed one side of tge tiny kitchen to another multiple times, carrying spoons and bowls.
A glass measuring bowl that was used to measure oil and water was last. Absentmindedly, y/n grabbed the body of the measuring cup and turned to head to the sink.
Then the glass slipped. y/n watched eyes widening as the glass made contact with the floor and shattered. "Oh shit," y/n whispered, watching large shards of glass slide around on the floor.
Their eyes welled with tears. Suddenly, they were back at their parent's house, getting blood on the floor because of their hastiness to clean up broken glass.
"He's gonna kill me," y/n whimpered, dropping to their hands and knees, completely numb to the pain of the glass nicking their hands. y/n's jeans got little tears in them. "Crap, he's gonna kill me."
y/n couldn't help but think about their dad. Time and time again y/n would drop a glass or a mug or even a plate; and time and time again y/n would get a beating from it always followed with a "I paid for this and you wanna go breakin' my stuff! Don't apologize, you bring this onto yourself every time you're careless with my dishes!"
"y/n?"
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry! I'll clean it up, I promise I didn't mean to," y/n rambled as they used their hands to gather up the glass and dump it into the garbage can. Tears rolled down their face and their chest shook on every step.
"y/n stop, you're getting blood everywhere," Ponyboy stated. Glass crunched under his comverse as he crouched down beside y/n tolet them know that it was Pony beside them and no one else.
"Pony?" y/n askee, voice cracking.
"Yeah, it's me. Let's go." Pony ushered a sobbing y/n into the living room when y/n sat down on Darry's (and y/n's) chair Pony hightailed it to the bathroom to gather peroxide, bandaids, and then grabbed a couple towels.
"Let me see you're hands," Pony mumbled, dropping everything to the floor beside the chair. Pony carefully grabbed y/n's hands and felt his eyebrows raise considerably. This was not going to feel good in the next dew weeks, Pony thought. He uncapped the peroxide and dumped some onto the towel. From there, Ponyboy dapped lightly at the open wojnds on y/n's hands and wrists. Their crying had almost stopped by now, only occasionally withholding a shudder at the sting of the disinfectant.
"Do you want me to do your knees or... do you want to do it?" Pony's cautious voice almost made y/n tear up again.
They smiled, teary-eyed. y/n had to be strong for Pony. "No thanks, thing three. I think- I think I can get it," they said. Pony blinked. "Will you help me wrap my hands though?"
Pony eased the white guaze from y/n's shaky hands and started wrapping. He ignored the quivering of y/n's hands and their shaky breath, for he knew y/n was born to... crueller folk. For y/n's sake Pont didn't say anything. He hadn't said anything when he saw y/n flinch (very) violently at the way Sodapop flew over to Darry to bear hug him. Pony hadn't said anything whenever y/n fleetingly avoided eye contact whenever the subject of 'mistreatment' (as the teachers at Pony's school call it) at home. And now Pony wasn't gonna say anything to y/n about what just happened because Pont really liked y/n; they were good for the whole family, but especially for Darry.
"Thanks, kid," y/n murmured when Pony was done. "Read to me while I patch myself up?"
Mustering a convincing happy smile, Pony snatched up his copy of Boston Jane as y/n tentively started dabbing at the smaller cuts on their knees.
It took a long time, really. y/n couldn't move their hand too well so that slowed down the process a lot. But eventually- after two chapters- y/n got themself cleaned up and put everything away.
y/n felt really small in Darry's chair- it wasn't right without him. "C'mere," y/n said. They patted the small space beside them and waited for Pony to comtinue reading before letting their head rest on Pony's ungreased hair.
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That's how Darry found the pair hours later. He chuckled softly as he closed the screen door. Darry knew y/n had anxiety- specifically separation anxiety, so Darry was glad Pony was there for y/n. He toed off his shoes and went to kitchen to grab a drink.
"Oh christ," Darry cursed suddenly. He luckily saw the shattered glass amd dried blood before he stepped on it.
Darry grabbed a dustpan and broom and easily sweeped the glass up before disposing of it. After that, Darry grabbed a plastic water bottle and headed out to the living room.
Setting down his water, Darry couldn't help but smile at the way Pony's book was nestled on his chest. Darry carefully slid Pony from y/n's protective hold and picked him up.
Darry set his youngest brother on his bed and untied his shoes. After softly brushing away a stray hair from Pony's forhead, Darry set Pony's shoes in his closet and then left.
"Hey sweetheart," Darry murmured softly after crouching in front of y/n. "How'd you sleep?"
y/n blinked, shrugging away Darry's hand to stretch out and get their bearings. "Fine, fine. What time's it?" y/n slurred, voice gravelly with sleep.
"Bout..." Darry started, looking around for a clock, "one in the afternoon."
y/n nodded. "Will you... hold me? It was a rough day..."
Smiling, Darry sat down in his chair. He felt his chest swell with warmth when y/n wrapped themself around Darry, burrying their face in his neck. "I broke a glass today," y/n began. "I didn't mean to, Darry, I promise. I'm sorry I broke a glass and then got blood all over the floor."
"It's okay, sweetheart, I'm not mad. Are you okay? You get yourself cleaned up?" Darry's fingers traced patterns on y/n's back as Darry soothed his beloved.
"Yeah. Pony helped me." y/n closed their eyes. "I know you don't hear them say it, but you're raising those boys right and well. I think you're the reason Pony cares as much as he does and i think you're the reason Soda always tries to see the best in things. We love you, Dare."
As y/n drifted off back into sleep, Darry felt himself tear up. He knew he was harsh on his little brothers, he knew it good and well. But Darry also felt like every waking day he failed his little brothers. Every day Darry was down the boys' necks, making sure they were where they needed to be, on time and ready for the day. Every day Darry tried his hardest to support the family- and the gang- even when that meant raised voices and misunderstandings.
Darry sure as the sun in the sky that he wasn't perfect, but for his family, he'd sure try to be.
โDonโt say that.โ + โWhy are you doing this?โ
For Sean and Reader, pretty please ๐ฅ๐๏ธ
Here we go my lover, I hope you enjoy it! You asked for this, I don't think I'm sorry.
cw: mentions of possible cheating, heartbreak, crying, gn!reader
You and Sean had gotten together just before his career skyrocketed, every premier you were arm on his arm love in your eyes as you stood together.ย
You'd been seen as the It couple, the normal person and the film star. It didn't bother you that he was famous, of course you missed him when he was away filming but you'd make up for it when he came home when the pair of you would fall into each other's arms.
This time had been particularly hard on you, while he'd been away there had been pictures published in the tabloids showing Sean with someone else. You'd been assuming that a proposal was coming soon, seeing as how long you'd been together but those pictures filled you with fear and dread.
Arriving back from work, you saw his bag in the hallway. Smiling widely, you took off your jacket and rushed inside looking for him. As you entered the living room you saw him walking down the stairs, more bags in his hands. โSean, what's going on?โ You asked as your heart began to beat faster.
โWe're over.โ His words hit you like a ton of bricks to the chest. โWhat do you mean?โ You asked in hardly a whisper. โI don't love you anymore.โ You felt your heart breaking into pieces. โDon't say that.โ You said as you looked at him. โDon't lie to me.โ Sean placed down his bags as he looked at you.
โIt's been coming for a while, I met someone else. I don't love you anymore.โ Tears ran down your face as you looked at him stood there wearing Jeans, a button down shirt that you'd brought him and a brown jacket. He looked so good and this made it worse.
โWhy are you doing this?โ You croaked out in a small whisper as Sean walked over to you. โBecause it's not right to string you along.โ He reached up to touch your cheek, he always hated when you cried.
ย โDon't touch me!โ You smacked his hand away. โYou don't have the right to touch me anymore!โ You yelled through your tears. โIt's that person you were seen with in the papers, wasn't it? You said I had nothing to worry about, you said it was just publicity! You lied!โ Shoving him away from you, Sean stumbled back and looked at you.
โI'm sorry.โ He whispered as he placed down your house key and picked up his bags. โI'll come for the rest of my stuff when I'm settled.โ Watching him walk away, you crumbled down to the ground, sobbing on the floor.
Sean stepped out of the apartment and closed the door, he could hear you sobbing and it broke his heart. He would give anything to take the last five minutes back. Leaning against the door he took a shaky breath, Josephine was wrong just because you were from different worlds didn't mean you wouldn't work.ย
But it was too late now, he'd already broken your heart.
Literally don't worry about rambling in reblogs from me, I do it to you all the time. But, muahaha, what I'm really here for... is Fulfilling your Request!
๐๏ธ, ๐, ๐งฆ, ๐, ๐งธ, ๐
For Finn please! And!
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For Axelrod!
(@markbeakskisser)
WAUGH,.UAHSHA THANK YOU!! sometimes I get carried away with it but it's just too much fun!!
AND ALSO THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!! ONE THOUSAND THANK YOUS...!!!! I don't know why ask games just do something for me but oh man. And I just bursted over this one. Your endeavors shall never be forgotten. This is worthy enough of going down in history.
I got so carried away with writing for this,, but thank you aaa!!! Putting this under a read more cause I let myself ramble like crazy heheh
For Finn:
๐๏ธ: If you have movie nights, what kind of films do you enjoy watching with your f/o?
I am so selective about what media I watch especially cause I can be very sensitive to new stuff and get uncomfortable easily from it, so a lot of this is me subjecting Finn to like the same two or three movies that are like stuff that is marked E for Everyone. Though, depends how much you'd like to stretch the definition of movie, cause I've absolutely sat down with him and gotten all cozy together and like watched 1-2+ hour long videos or streams with him(if it's long enough of a stream we don't watch it in one sitting).
Finn is absolutely all over like very romantic sappy sorts of movies, ones that might get a bit emotional or labeled as cheesy. Though I try to make up for not being able to watch those with him by dousing him in affection while we watch whatever we do end up watching๐ฅฐ
Though I absolutely wouldn't be surprised to every so often catch him watching some sort of suspenseful intricate thriller of some sorts.
๐: How would carving pumpkins with your f/o go? What do you think theirs would look like?
It would be a mess(literally). I would get myself menacingly covered in pumpkin guts while cleaning it out and Finn would probably have to take the overcoat of his suit off and roll up his sleeves so he didn't get his suit messy and we'd both questionabley stare at eachother. I have had soooo many pumpkin ideas that I've wanted to do over the years but never wrote them down anywhere so when it does roll around I can't remember!
I'd probably do something simple and sweet though like a silly face with swirly eyes or a little cat face.. maybe do a reference to a show I like or such. I think Finn would do a classical spooky jack-o-lantern face, but it'd be carved a little toooo well...
Doing pumpkins together is such a cute sweet thought though and it will now be occupying my mind for the next forever.
๐งฆ: Who puts their cold hands/feet on the other when cuddling?
This is the question where he points at me and I point at myself because we both know very well who the culprit here is. In MY defense, I've started occasionally giving him a ten second warning for when I'm about to do it, he could fend me off if he'd like. Hands belong on tummy!! At first it was just that but now I've gotten more devious about it and any spots like his neck or back aren't safe from my cold hands. And my hands can get cold often! And sweaty.
๐: If you were picking out each otherโs outfits for the day, what would your f/o pick for you, and what would you pick for them?
This would be relentless because he would probably yell me that it doesn't matter what I wear and it's not important, that maybe I should just stay in for the day, and I would not be spared from any and all praising from him. He'd probably use the opportunity to make me wear something really comfortable or cozy especially if it was during one of the colder seasons, cause then he can have me wear something soft and fluffy. I'd be like a little lamb or something! Sweaters and soft pajama pants, things like that. I'd probably be trapped in his arms for the rest of the day! Not that I'd mind at all hehe.
I almost don't know what I'd make him wear, too much power for me to hold!! But that man belongs in a sweater and sweater-vest combo, and yall can fight me on it. And then he'd inevitably be glued to me cause he's wearing something so soft and cozy and I wouldn't be able to let go of him augh!!
๐งธ: When one of you is feeling down, how does your f/o cheer you up, and how do you cheer them up?
It depends what kind of "down" feeling we're talkin about here! I'm just gonna go with it being just being sad or upset over something, and in that case it's moreso a matter of time for me till I get over it, but Finn absolutely helps try and ease me until I'm all better again. He'll bring me food or a drink that I like or if there's a particular one I want, and it typically ends with me being swaddled in blankets and I'm not allowed to leave the bed and I'm watching some lighthearted or relaxing or funny thing that I enjoy. After I finally manage to convince him that there's nothing else I need and that he doesn't have to fetch anything else for me, he'll come and join me and bundle me up in his arms.
It's not often that Finn gets awfully upset or distraught, or even really upset in general, so when I do notice he seems a bit off or down it's definitely a cause of concern for me. Normally letting him air out whatever is troubling him and talking it through with him helps a lot, but if there's nothing that we can actively do about it to fix or ease it, I simply just cradle him in my arms, rubbing his back or petting him hair, saying anything that I think might soothe him. Bonus points if I get him to fall asleep in my arms.
๐: Do you remember your first Halloween with your f/o? What was it like and what did you do?
Truthfully, and slightly unfortunately, we didn't do very much on my first Halloween with him, cause I was feeling not very well at all at the time, and it had been badly interfering with me celebrating Halloween(which is unfortunate cause it's one of, if not, my favorite holiday), so we settled on just simply treating it like any other day, even if it still left me a bit gloomy. Course, Finn is a smart man, and since it was moreso one particular thing I was avoiding during Halloween, he decided to just navigate around that and still got some small treats for us to share like Halloween themed sweets and treats, or some pumpkin flavored things.
It nearly leaves me a little extra excited for this Halloween, simply because it'll almost be our 'first' Halloween, cause(knock on wood) we'll actually get to spend it in a bit more of a Halloween-y manner! Which, mostly just means decorating, probably pumpkins, and I get an excuse to dress up as a vampire again. Classical Halloween costume, never done me wrong, and I get to be all mysterious and secretive, and have a big cloak typically, it's perfect for me! No clue what Finn would be or if he'd even dress up, I had actually done some conspiring with Leland(a shared friend between us) about what it may be. Though now I'm thinking maybe there's an opportunity for vampire couple๐ฅฐ Normally couple costumes almost feell...boring? To me? But getting to be vampires together sounds silly and fun! Oh man, maybe I just gave myself an art idea....
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For Axlerod:
๐ฅ: Who gets colder easier? And who warms them up?
This is a very good question... cause neither of us are particularly portable heaters or anything, it's like we're both on the colder side and were destined to just have to share eachothers body heat to stay warm! I think he might be a bit warmer though simply just cause he has a big overcoat he wears everywhere and that helps a lot. I love it, it's so thick and heavy I kid you not it's like a weighted blanket!! Course, I've never really heard him audibly complain about being cold unless it's like SUPERR cold outside and like snowing or heavily snowing and stuff. But then again, he's rather reserved about some of his thoughts or feelings when it comes to picking one-or-the-other sorts of things, leading a lot of things to be up to me. Sometimes I swear he's bluffing with that though..
๐ช: What small quirks does your f/o have that you love, and what quirks do you have that your f/o loves?
Whenever he's trying to make a statement, whether playfully or not, he does this thing where he'll lightly hit the side of his fist against the table once or twice. I don't know why but it makes me giggle whenever he does it! I've also catch him humming to himself quite often and he always gets a bit embarrassed about it, even if I like it. And it's impossible to bake anything with him without having him want to lick the whisk/spoon of the batter. He says the batter tastes better than the actual cake/brownies. I think he's a goober. But, I have had my moment of almost ruining a batch of oatmeal cookies cause I wanted to eat all of the batter, so, I can't entirely tease him about it.
I have this think where whenever I get something new, I have to check it over with all my senses(I would say "my five senses" but I'm not licking things that aren't meant to be licked!๐), and we've dubbed a few different terms and titles for it, but the biggest one is just me having to sniff/smell everything new I get. Food, plushie, pencil, book, flowers, clothes, toys, the inside of packages if they come in bags, so on and so forth! It amuses the daylights out of him and sometimes he'll just hand me things and prompt me with "sniff check." And I have to give my reports on it. I'd be concerned if something DIDNT pass the test, as it's almost more of just a way of me exploring the item in like a primitive way or something. I blame me not being neurotypical for it.
๐: If you were picking out each otherโs outfits for the day, what would your f/o pick for you, and what would you pick for them?
I think he'd make me wear that bee sweater he got for Halloween just because he knows how much I enjoy it. I can be very shy and limited in what i wear cause I fuss so much about how others will see me and for some reason part of my brain argues that there's no need to dress up unless I'm going out somewhere, which is nonsense, so I definitely think he'd use it as an excuse to have me wear something that he already knows I'd want to wear or would enjoy wearing and I just haven't had the nerve to chalk myself up to wearing it.
Okay, I actually had to do a little bit of thinking, but then it absolutely hit me, and I would love to see him in one of those V-neck cardigans with like one of those white undershirts on. I mean, the undershirt color doesn't matter so much, but it's like always a white button-up for some reason! I have a button collection of random buttons(I don't think any of them match), but I'd love to perhaps knit him one sometime and put the buttons on it, especially because most, if not all cardigans seem to have that very knitted look to them, and I think it just adds to the coziness of it! Or maybe I'd buy some like little star shaped buttons for the occasion....
๐โ๐ซ: free gush pass to share anything you want!
Ough, oh me oh my, a gush pass! And so funnily enough I had just mentioned a little while ago on a gush pass post that I saw going around how much I love gush pass sorts of things cause I sometimes have trouble gushing unless I'm prompted to do so due to...reasons that would perhaps be a little closer to venting territory. But anyway! Oh, I nearly don't even know what to gush about over him, everything, perhaps??? I kid you not I can't look at the color olive or like any shade of it, or those flat caps, I can't see anyone else in them! I catch anyone wearing those whether real or not, my brain is just immediately thinking about him and it does not stop till it's out of my sight. I know this is like perhaps an obligatory statement, but he's really gotten me through some things. And sometimes I feel completely confident in myself, like not even an ounce of shyness in how I look and how my body is because I just sometimes get such a secure feeling that he loves every last bit of me, that truly he wouldn't want anything else. I think about him so much, so many things remind me of him and I get kinda emotional thinking about it if I'm honest! He's such a nice breath of fresh air. A rock to lean on, if you will. I love how much we'ved helped each other in so many ways. I feel like he actually loves me and my voice and who I am. I honestly don't think anyone could change my mind on it. I don't feel like some dumb American around him with some unflattering accent, I feel.. good. Like there's nothing wrong with that and that my accent is great. And it's fun giggling over how we pronounce certain things differently even with words we never expected. I spent so much time scrolling through like ASDA websites and watching people do grocery hauls from those stores on YouTube cause I like to really think about the differences in those stores, in what gets sold and different products, I just can't get enough of it. I watch videos of people doing those hour+ long videos of just silently walking or driving around different parts of the UK, I'm geniunely intrigued in that place at this point, wanting to learn about it's history and everything. I mean, Finn has also contributed to this as well because he is also from the UK but I'm keeping this Axlerod centered. He does this speech in the second movie that when I was going through a really rough time, nearly each day or every other day when I got home I would watch it, I'd turn on the movie sometimes just for that part, and I would cry so much to it cause it was just so comforting. He uses a voice changer during it to disguise himself a bit and I so wish I could hear it in his actual voice(someone actually uploaded a YouTube video of repitching certain parts so it is in his normal voice, and I love that more than I can explain), and it's just. He means so much to me. His wiki fandom page is so like.. horribly wrong and written I get nervous that people will look him up and see that and think it's true, which I have seen many wiki fandom pages be flat out wrong, but he has my whole heart. I associate so many silly things with him like sheep and bees and I love our inside jokes and I've written so many poems about him and.. one of the cars I want and kinda dream of having is a jeep wrangler. He's a land rover defender. We are literally practically the US and UK counterparts of eachother.
โ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. โ (mustard lolz
"Wow!" Adam yells, "So fuckin' helpful, aren't ya!? Little shit." Groaning, he motions forward towards the cabinet, pointing at it. "Fetch me some fucking bandages or something. Come on."
๐๏ธ: What โcanonโ scenes would the fandom point to as evidence for the validity of your ship? - Well as the seasons progresses a couple of scenes pop up. First one being during the time adora become corrupted by the infected first one disk and attacks catra, my insert snarling out "I WONT LET YOU HURT HER AGAIN!". as i defend her, yelling at the corrupted adora about her "abandoning us" and how its tearing catra apart.
Another one being a scene between my insert and shadow weaver where he confronts her in her cell after she tried to betray us. Shadow weaver going on and on about how catra ruined her life and stole everything for her and that she always knew she was more trouble than she was worth and always was a failure. My insert eventually screaming out as his magic explodes outward, him screaming at her that of course catra never tried to be better. nothing she ever did was good enough for her. that no matter how hard catra tried she always treated her like garbage and abused her. that even though catra hated her for how shadow weaver treated her as a kid deep down she just wanted to be loved and that maybe if shadow weaver hadnt been so short sighted and cruel she could have had an amazing warrior. Of course it backfires and she uses this to realize how she can escape and lies to catra and convinces her to give her the magic pendant that lets her escape, using my words and catras feelings against her.
And of course the biggest one being the portal scene, that even in her corrupted frenzied state he stayed with her. my insert telling her he promised he would stay by her side all the way to the end, keeping his word as he holds her shaking crying form close. kneeling with her and holding her close saying what might have been "i love you" as they are both disintegrated by reality collapsing. This being the biggest sign that is evidence for the ship.
Of course this being all before in the final season when it does become canon after we rescue her from prime. After he convinces shadow weaver to help him perform the spell of obtainment to gain the power to save her.
๐: What tropes show up in fics involving your ship? - a few that immediately come to mind are ones like "childhood friend romance" , "friends to lovers", PLENTY of "angst", and GOD i cannot begin to imagine the amount of "hanahaki disease" fics (considering catra battles her feelings for my insert for multiple seasons and it actively tears her apart inside as well.
She owed me a simple favor, and I had an offer she couldnโt refuse. It was supposed to be for show... so what if Iโm still in love with her? Sheโs Americaโs sweetheart, and Iโm Hollywood's bad boy, and action took on a completely different meaning.
The director yelling cut did nothing to stop our complicated love story.
If anything, it only blurred the line of what was fake and what was real.
โ i could keep you safe. theyโre all afraid of me. โ
There's something so cynical about the laugh which bubbles out of him at the statement. "Yeah, right!" he yells out, patting the other's knee in as patronizing a fashion as humanly possible. "Totally. You're exactly the typa person I want keepin' me safe, yeah." he lets his hand slip away, back slowly leaning against the couch as he gets over the sheer hilarity of the premise.
"Damn." He turns to Moriarty, remnants of his laughter still echoing into the smirk about his lips. "That's just about the dumbest and funniest thing you've ever said to me. What, you gonna princess carry me outta danger, too?" a quirked brow. "The reason they're all afraid o' ya's exactly why I'd rather blow the behind of an actual raccoon than ever ask for you to 'keep me safe'." That, and he knows damn well not to trust Moriarty's sort - not to trust anyone, really, but especially Jim Moriarty's sort. Damned he'll be if a single statement fools him into a sense of security, no. If anything, he's feeling more on edge now with the suggestion, like he's being blatantly played with.
โ iโm sorry, i thought i sawโโฆ โ ( bell )
"Finish the damn sentence!" Adam yells out, looking around them for what the other could've possibly been referring to. Incomplete answers have a tendency to frustrate Adam. If he thought he saw something and felt the need to voice it, the least he could do was be specific about it!