#🪦. ...we were never near the grand canyon

[campbluesky]

I feel like the wide shot at 38:23 in S2 Ep10 of Z Nation perfectly captures how Murphy is in the group at this point. Ostracized. The group has treated him like less than, like a package since day one. They treated him poorly and he didn't fit into the group well to begin with. It didn't help that literally all of them except for 10k knew each other. Of course, theres the episode where they finally start seeing him as a friend, but only because he brings them supplies. And despite them saying that, their attitude towards him doesn't change. He is still Murphy. And of course, he slowly becomes more zombie looking, making the group ostracize him even further, except now they're treating him as less than human. They're treating him as a zombie. Despite clearly being something in between human and zombie. He gets even more disconnected from the group and slowly starts gaining a connection to the zombies. They stop going after him, he starts to see himself in the zombies, and he starts to feel bad about killing them. Then, he can stop them, stall them, make them back off. He can make them understand, he can teach them to play fucking patty cake if he wants, they would listen and understand. He sees himself in the zombies and starts to feel one with them. He feels deeply connected to them. He feels like they're his people, his flock. Hes deeply, deeply connected to them, feeling deep negative feelings about killing them and hurting them. And the group disproves. The group tells him that he is going to need to make a choice eventually. They justify the killing of his people by saying that it's just survival, not even willing to make a compromise. And they're still. Treating him like shit. He is not a part of the group. He is a prisoner. He is their cargo, their package, their cure. That's it. They have made that abundantly clear. He is not one of them. He is not a human. He is not a part of the group. He's just Murphy.

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[campbluesky]

Holy hell. I might make a carrd explaining the different kinds of verbality because the only source or explanation I could get for a lot of them was fucking PLURALPEDIA. And I know for a FACT those are not reliable definitions.

[campbluesky]

Our hyperfixation on z nation is deepening dear gods this will obliterate me

[campbluesky]

I loooove the dynamic between 10k and Murphy in The Collector I need to study them both under a microscope

[campbluesky]

Ok grhehrgrhfrr I need to talk about this but I fucking HAAAAAATE JAVIER HOLY SHIT HES ONE OF YHE CHARACTERS I HATE THE MOST. You CANNOT tell me that most of the Murphy shit that went down would not have happened / would not have been THAT bad/extreme if he weren't fucking there. WHY WAS HE THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE?????? He's nothing but an unoriginal Mexican stereotype!!!!!!! With fucking. Idk Macks death and HIM joining the group for who knows fucking why, the group started to treat Murphy MUUUUUUCH worse and it was very notable. His actions and way of thinking started to rub off on Warren and just generally the group started going in a weird way moral wise. I guaranTEE you Murphy would not have run off/escaped as much as he did if fuckin JAVIER weren't there. I hate him so much I see no point in him being in the show at all.

[campbluesky]

Idk if I'm SUPPOSED to feel sympathetic towards Murphy but in s2 ep10 "We Were Nowhere Near The Grand Canyon" the scene where he tries his hardest to get to the zombies to help them- it always makes me feel bad :[.

[campbluesky]

Pt;

I'm an optimistic old man with substance abuse problems and a younger person who I treat like a son in place of my real son who I abandoned

I'm a pessimistic old criminal who got convicted for postal fraud and got chosen to be the savior of the human race by pure chance and have many, many issues stemming from that

And together we are

[campbluesky]

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