#'its fine its fine its fine theyre just asleep or something with the rest of the system and skills'

[jeonjcngkook]

incandescent | jjk

pairing: jungkook x female reader

genre(s)&au(s): fluff, established relationship

rating: pg

wc: 1.3k

warnings: theyre so in love with each other🤭! koos singing voice lulls us all 🤲🏻 makin’ out, playing with koos pretty hair bcs its exactly what he deserves !!!

summary: you and your boyfriend spend a comfortable romantic night in together.

note: unedited. repost bcs the last one stopped showing in tags 🙃.

Is there anything more beautiful than the sound of your boyfriend's voice?

The deep tenors and sweet cadences lull you into a state of calm as you stretch yourself out on the couch below, listening to Jungkook reach the notes in a perfect sequence to the song he is currently singing on his karaoke machine.

Friday nights are typically spent with each other as you participate in different activities. Your relationship's own version of a ‘date night’, you could say. However, this time it had been agreed between you both that staying in and enjoying each other's company in the cosiness of the home you built together was exactly what was needed.

Earlier, Jungkook prepared dinner for you both — a spread on the table of both your favourite foods and glasses of alcohol to wash it down with. Every detail had been carefully thought of, all the way down to the scented candles, that he personally chose to match the fragrances of the food.

Now, with full tummies and even fuller hearts, you both lie within the blanket of reds, blues and greens from the stars of his favourite LED light system and a spread of mandarin & grapefruit scented candles decorating the living room.

You could listen to Jungkook’s voice all day and never be tired of it. The calming effect he has on you with his words alone is something you have always admired. It doesn’t take much for a yawn to slip through his lips, catching the attention from yourself as he continues to sing through the verse of the next song. You watch as he attempts to stifle it underneath his breath, pulling the thin knitted throw up to his face to conceal the motion.

A sweet smirk is on your lips as he continues his lacklustre attempt at concealing his tiredness. Tears cling to his lower lash line from the yawn, head falling to the side and landing on your shoulder.

“You should get some sleep,” you’re quick to say as you feel him wriggle further into your warmth, his hand finding your spare hand that isn’t holding your phone and intertwining his fingers with your own.

“I’m fine staying here with you, baby,” he mumbles back in retaliation, cutting himself off mid-song to rebuttal back, voice half asleep and rubbing at his eyes like that will do the job of removing the sleep out of it. “I like laying here with you.”

You huff a little at his words. He is too darn cute for his own good and it makes your body warm knowing that he is licking being with you over much needed rest.

“But we could lie together in bed, snuggle up nice and cosy, and then in the morning come back here and cuddle all day into the night. Doesn’t that sound like the perfect way to begin our weekend?” You reason with him.

Jungkook’s lips part open for a moment as if he had the words to argue back with but is quick to shut them and opts for putting his microphone down on the coffee table instead. He finds the remote control for the TV and lowers the volume to something less deafening and one a little more relaxing as the lofi sounds act as a background ambiance.

He turns towards you and you watch as the flickers of the candles scattered around the room flicker and dance against his skin; bathing him in an ethereal glow — just like how an angel should look. The bright vibrant amber candlelight beautifully illuminates the melanin of his skin, extenuating his tanned skin stunningly.

It doesn’t help that his shirt is loose and baggy on his upper body, sleeves cuffed half way on his upper arm showing off his pretty tattoos of striking colours and bold black lines, only for the muscle under his skin to thicken as he brings his hand up to his hair. You watch intently as both hands comb through the long curly tresses from forehead to crown; again and again and it only magnifies just how pretty your boyfriend is.

The tip of his tongue presses against his inner cheek, his cheek protruding from the outside…an action he usually does when he is deep in thought. With the way the light hits his soft skin, it perfectly shows off how sharp his jawline is and how his gentle pink lips rest in a natural pout, leaving them looking plump, pink and irresistibly kissable.

“‘m not tired,” he argues, a grin on his face as he lies himself down next to you on the L shape of the couch, pulling back the thin blanket that has been resting on the headrest of the sofa and engulfs you inside the fabric before laying his head into your lap and effectively trapping you against the back of the leather and his body. Another yawn takes over his body as you feel him stiffen as he rides it out.

You lift your hand up to his face and let your fingers play delicately with the strands of his hair, twisting it around your finger and curling it around his ear away from his face.

Jungkook’s eyes flutter closed as you continue playing with his hair, adding to his tiredness and lulling him into a state of slumber. The atmosphere is exactly what Jungkook had promised earlier…cosy.

Jungkook’s eyes slipped shut, just long enough for you to see before he is prying them back open again with as much willpower as he can possibly muster. With the feeling of your fingers gently twisting and pulling at his hair, he has no argument against his exhaustion as it finally reaches him.

You reach the tight curls at the base of his neck, fingers playing with the curls as you make sure to let your nails scratch lightly at the base of his scalp, knowing that Jungkook has no bone in his body to make this stop, enjoying your touches so much.

You have him exactly where you want him.

Jungkook’s eyes are glazed over with sleep and yet all the same still looks dreamy — the browns are rich and deep, flakes of amber dotted within his irises. Love songs are written about eyes like his. It wasn’t hard to peer into them and to see your own smile reflecting back when he looks at you.

He runs his thumb over your lower lip, parting them just slightly before he leans down, pillowy lips connecting to yours in a soft kiss.

The feeling is so fulfilling that it is enough to make your eyelids flutter shut and your heart racing in your chest with blissful warmth as he presses his mouth deeper into yours. Even in a state of sleep, the kiss is still filled with emotion — passionate and sensual.

Jungkook moans as his mouth continues to work over yours, his teeth catching your lower lip and biting down with little pressure and letting it snap back before chasing your mouth for a second kiss.

Your hands run through his hair,nails grazing his scalp enticingly, eliciting another moan from deep within his chest. The way you kiss him has him seeing stars; dazed and lost in the touch of your lips. You caress his face with delicate touches, tongues flicking across his mouth and the way you counter back by nibbling in his own bottom lip before breaking the kiss.

Endearingly, you both press your foreheads together and close your eyes with a smile on both your lips.

Jungkook’s hand finds home on his hip before slipping underneath the cotton material of your t-shirt and resting his hands there. His thumb runs tracks over your skin in back and forth strokes as you bask in the calming, soothing sensation.

You feel his foot nudge open your legs as he tangles his limbs with yours and pulls you impossibly closer to you, your own leg now resting on top of his lip as you lock each other within the other's arms.

The feeling of Jungkook’s breath against your skin causes goosebumps to travel over your body, the warmth now turning into a small bonfire as love for the sleepy man in your arms ignites and burns bright.

It isn’t long before his breathing becomes drawn out and even, loud snores whistling through his nose and his thumb slows its movements as he eventually falls asleep in your arms.

“So much for not being sleepy,” you mock him as if he could hear, when deep down you wish that he had taken off into a dreamy slumber.

With gentle ease, you press the palm of your hand against his full cheek and brush your thumb over his cheeks the same way he did with your hip moments ago. You press your head against his forehead and land a tiny, light, airy kiss on his pouty lips.

You close your own eyes, listening to the flickering sounds of the small candles around the living room as well as concentrating on the rhythm of Jungkook’s breathing, hoping to ease yourself into your own slumber.

What felt like a moment later, Jungkook tightens his hold on you, whispering a small ‘i love you’, before sleep eventually blankets over you.

[dullgecko]

listen. listen closely. gorgug LOVES spooning - romantic or platonic, he loves being the big spoon specifically, he just sleeps better when his brain and instincts know hes comforting and protecting someone; this is often zelda while theyre dating, but also the other bad kids ! one sleepover he woke up in the middle of the night to adaine tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, and his half asleep brain just pulled her closer and held her until he felt her drift off, and it spread to the others from there

gorgug is usually the second one to wake up at sleepovers (in freshman year at least), after riz, so its no surprise when hes the one to go investigate the sound of fig crying on the balcony one night. a case of his half-asleep brain strikes again as he just wraps an arm around her and leads her back inside, and she doesnt drift asleep as easily as adaine, but it sure is a lot nicer crying when she feels safe and protected and loved

riz will often cuddle up in the crook of his legs, hell even his hoodie pocket if hes wearing it, on his chest if hes on his back for once but thats rare, sometimes hell turn it into a three person spooning by either being the little shrimp in the middle or hell hug gorgug like a backpack and be on the other end

kristen rarely partakes in the spooning, but she has convinced gorgug to little spoon a couple times. he doesnt like little spooning *as* much, but its not like hes going to say no to properly cuddling with his friend who usually just flops across the others like a blanket, plus it honestly probably kickstarts whatever gender stuff hes got going on in there; little spooning will do that to a guy. kristen does like big spooning, but her preferred cuddle method is definitely still just laying on top of everyone and using them as pillows

fabian took a while to come around to the idea, but eventually gives in once all the other bad kids start talking about how nice it is. he is asleep within seconds. he wakes up better rested than he has felt in forever. this is nothing on how secure he started feeling in his friendships when he realized casual platonic affection like hugging and cuddling was. like. Fine, actually. this did wonders for his mental health. he also likes to big spoon though! it just. makes him feel like hes doing something. like hes protecting someone, even if hes just going to bed.

anyways this is my personal take on the bad kids(specifically gorgug) and their sleepover arrangements. join the gorgug spooning agenda ! we have breadsticks and cuddle piles !

The bad kids dont really have a SET arangement for sleeping, so its often an absoloute chaos of limbs and pillows as everyone tries to get settled for the night.

Gorgug is most often in the centre though, because he can act as a buffer to everyone else, but it means that if you're within arms reach while he's half-asleep you're GOING to get grabbed and cuddled. Everyone has accepted it at this point, because getting spooned is a better alternative than Gorgug raging in his sleep (holding someone keeps his heart rate down, so they've never had any issues of him flipping out in his sleep like he does when he's alone).

Other than Fig he also runs the hottest out of everyone else so in winter he's a fantastic heated and weighted blanket for whoever gets grabbed that night. In summer though he has to sleep on his back with his friends just leaning against his sides, lest he accidentally cook someone in their sleep.

[alyimoss]

Yeah I'm also new to tumblr that's why I'm doing this (re: starlo dad ask a few days ago)

Also do you have starlo hcs

lmao welcome to tumblr

and yeah ig but theyre not rlly?? idk substantial?? its been a while since i was insane abt uty, ive been meaning to replay it but stuffs been getting in the way.

anyway heres a couple

i think hes a good cook. i like the thought of him teaching ceroba how to cook, too (she almost set the kitchen on fire, they yelled about it in fear, had a couple drinks, then almost set the kitchen on fire again and yelled abt it). he also is the one cooking for the rest of the feisty five more often than not (they others are mostly ok at cooking tho. ed's really good, but struggles sometimes bc his hands are too big to be able to properly use certain utensils and appliances. moray is also a pretty good cook and help ed out a lot. they make a great team. ace is alright, can definitely follow a recipe, and is really good abt finding ones the rest really like. mooch.. mooch wouldnt go hungry if she lived alone. but shes generally not allowed to cook. has a no-bake dessert everyone loves though, she makes it on holidays and special occasions and to bribe the others)

this isnt my hc but i dont remember who i first heard it from but i loooove the hc that star glows when hes flustered. i think when he first started crushing on ceroba and theyd have sleepovers, hed just start glowing at times and shed throw pillows at his face telling him to stop bc she couldnt sleep

on that note, consider the bunk bed in his room. him and orion definitely shared. and orion definitely dreaded ceroba sleeping over bc her and star would share a bed and stay up late joking around and playing and talking and whatnot and hed often have to get up and just leave to go sleep on the couch or with their parents. they got into arguments about this.

he runs warm. dont hold his hand unless you wanna get sweaty.

in the case of clover lives/dadlo, hes the last one to know that clover thinks of him as a father figure. everyone else knows, either through observation or clover accidentally calling him dad in front of them or them just admitting they think of him as their dad. star probably learns of this via ceroba or dina or one of the five or someone telling him "you know clover thinks of you as a father figure, right?" and he bluescreens about it

im not like. the biggest corn yaoi shipper ever, but i think its cute (and the name makes me laugh), and i think dalv confesses first. theyre in some fancy restaurant or something and star asks "so, what'd you call me here for?" and to that dalv responds by just blurting out that he thinks hes in love with him. and star immediately chokes on his food bad enough he needs medical attention.

so ceroba mentions in-game that living w the feisty five is a bit of a nightmare bc of the sleeping and the fact that everyone has some kinda problem that specifically makes it hard for her to fall asleep. i think star is actually pretty normal in terms of sleep. might snore lightly if hes in an uncomortable position, but overall just quiet. the rest of the five dont fare so well. ed's got it best, he just snores. loudly, but everyone other than ceroba is just kinda fine w it. moray grinds their teeth and needs to be restrained or theyll end up halfway across the room from where they fell asleep. or farther. ace sleepwalks and talks. ceroba once woke up to him eating the berries off the plant on the dresser by her bed. still asleep. mooch also grinds her teeth and "sleep steals", aka waits for everyone else to fall asleep so she can go through their stuff. star, despite being able to sleep through everything else, somehow has a 6th sense for her or something, because he very consistently wakes up to catch her red-handed and chew her out

thats all i rlly got lmao

[ghost-go-roasty-mctoasty]

I know it's been talked about many times before, but I just love the hc that Hunter started falling asleep everywhere in the human realm since he finally felt safe and comfortable enough to let his guard down for once.

Like I'm just imagining the kids a few weeks after coming to the human realm, sitting on the floor of the living room, all staring at Luz as she tries to explain the rules of uno to them (to at least try to get a sense of normalcy back into her life.) Gus is staring at her, wide-eyed, trying to soak up all possible information about this odd human game, Amity is just happy to finally see Luz smiling again, Willow is trying to collect all the green cards and Hunter is just sitting contentedly on his little pillow, Luz's voice going in one ear and out the other, though he is trying hard to memorise the rules. And with every question Gus asks, Hunters head sinks lower and lower, until his chin is resting against his chest and hes completely dozed off. The kids notice, but they don't bother him at all, even though they know his neck is gonna be killing him when he wakes up. They let him sleep, lower their voices, and try not to giggle when the uno cards slowly slip out of his grip. Flapjack is resting in his hair, and for a little while, everything seems fine. They dont need to mention that this is the longest Hunter has slept without waking up screaming from whatever monster was plaguing his dreams.

All of the kids start to notice how often Hunter would just suddenly fall asleep in the middle of doing something. He fell asleep on top of the recipe when he was trying to help Camila cook dinner once, he completely crashed in Luz's room another time when she was giving him a summary of the good witch Azura books, which Luz found odd, since he seemed genuinely interested in what she was saying. He keeps drifting off when he spends time in the garden outside with Willow, but none of the kids say anything when Willow just makes a bed of flowers for him and continues her gardening. They've all noticed how prone Hunter is to falling asleep when theyre with him, all except Amity...

When he's with her, he always stands too tall, or sits up too straight. Amity doesnt really seem to care too much, just chalks it up to their rocky relationship from the past, but she cant deny that it does bother her how rigid he always is around her compared to everyone else. She brings up her concerns to Luz, and Luz tells her that she should try talking to him, and so she does. She goes down to the basement one day to see Hunter stitching up a shirt, all alone. As soon as he notices her walk in, he sits up straighter and puffs his chest out. Even though his movements arent all that obvious or exaggerated, its uncomfortably close to how he used to hold himself as the golden guard. So Amity sighs, sits down cross-legged in front of him, and starts talking, just like her girlfriend told her to. And after a long, emotional talk about expectations and abuse, Hunters shoulders sag and his back relaxes a bit. A few days later Luz walks into the living room to find Amity reading a book, and Hunter sound asleep right next to her.

[shiftingwitholive]

Moomin Valley script

(just a heads up, this script is very unstructured.)

my name is Oliver and i’m Snufkin’s person. in the winter we travel south where its warmer, to a place which is basically what i imagine aesthetic Europe to be, where we have a little log cottage in the middle of the forest by a lake.for the rest of the year we’re in moomin valley.i have my black fluffy hair and green eyes and i wear black pants and a dark blue jumper with stars on it like the one in coraline and black boots. i play the violin and guitar and ukulele while snuffkin plays about every instrument under the sun.

moomin mama treats me like a second son,moomin papa lends me books from time to time and i teach moomin about the world and the things i read in books. me and snufkin both accept that we need space and time alone, so we will often go and do separate things or one of us will go to the moomin’s house. we communicate, and we get by without any problems.

under snuffkin’s coat is just a green-brown sweater that’s really really soft and obviously, brown trousers

because we dont have phones or anything my script is just a notebook that no one can find. i can change it through writing or just thinking.

snufkin smells like pine needles and rain and firewood in a nice way. im more of a lavender and oranges boy.

me and snufkin are only like 17-20(aprox. no actual ages) moomin is like 10-11ish (so is snorkmaiden) and the moomin parents are around their late 30s/40s, little my is probably the same age as moomin,maybe a little younger. (none of the ages are pinpointed, i like to think we are all ageless beings but for convenience i thought i would try to think of some rough ones)

heights: snufkin:5’6 me: 5’5 (dont come at me i know i’m short ok) moomin mama: 5,2 moomin papa:5’4 moomin:5’0 little my:4’8 snorkmaiden: 4’11 (i gave them all normal heights instead of little my being like 2 feet tall and snufkin being only 4 feet tall because from my perspective it made more sense)

my hair and everything will always look right and i wont look tired or too pale or icky at any point

scenarios:

one time, we were on a walk along the cliffs together and an unexpected storm came in. it was raining and we were too far from our tent, so we rushed to the moomins’ house. because it was really cold i got a bit ill. we turned up pretty late on their doorstep all wet with me sneezing and shivering. moominmama sat us down and started warming up some soup and told moomin papa to set up 2 beds upstairs. we are given some blankets and soup and moomin mama roots around for some spare clothes. (we left some over just in case) and we get changed and go up to our room, they put up 2 twin beds but we end up pushing them together and falling asleep all tangled together.

moomin mama and moomin papa peek in and are all “oh look at them” “aww” at us. the next day our clothes have dried and we eat breakfast and then moomin comes down and sees we’re here and we have to explain our night to him, then after breakfast we look outside and it’s still too stormy to go home so moomin papa lends me a book and i sit on the couch while snuffkin goes to do something upstairs with moomin.

then around mid-afternoon the sky clears and we go back to our tent and its fine, we lie and cuddle and fall asleep again.

—

when theyre explaining that numbty’s aunt is mean and sarcastic one of them pipes up with “ but oliver says he’s sarcastic, and he’s nice” and the grown ups have to explain the difference between sarcastic humor and being mean and how i can be sarcastic in a way thats a joke, but some people only do it in a mean way. which can hurt peoples feelings.

[sakumasmut]

free use anzu? free use anzu.

its no secret that anzu enjoys being treated like a whore by the idols. not even a few minutes after stepping into the agency building for the day, one of the idols would make her kneel down in front of them, face fucking her until theyre satisfied. another would join not long after, pushing her against the wall and pounding her tight cunt for as long as they like. you get what im talking about

by lunchtime, her clothes are absolutely ruined. if the juniors are not around, theyd just leave her in nothing but her barely buttoned shirt and thong which is now leaking with everyones seed. its not so rare for her to get too fucked out that she couldnt even do her paperworks, to the point that she just laid senseless on the couch and let her beloved idols fuck her even more. dont worry about the paperworks, the others are handling it for her, as long as she takes everyone's cock like a good fucktoy for the rest of the day

if them freeusing her doesnt do enough justice to her lust, hosting a group sex session on the weekends would do. with the amount of the idols fucking her holes, shes deffo not getting any breaks. by the time the last idol to fuck anzu fills her pussy with their seed, the first one would want another turn again, and that goes on for the rest of the weekend. she would be extremely cockdrunk by the end of the session. bonus point if theyre extra rough with her, she fucking loves it😳

with how many times her holes getting filled with cocks in a span of the day, i dont think shed quit anytime soon

i just know she gets fucked at least.. 30 times in a day hah

okay I just combined all the stuff I got so far bc all of it pertains to free use anzu and you all give me so many ideas I need to ramble

Anzu Free Use Ramble

God. Okay so first off, her just not bothering to wear a bra because it’ll be tossed to the side anyways. Only wearing a thong for undergarments, one that barely covers her cunt so that the first person who wants to use her hole doesn’t have to tug it down, they just pull it to the side and slide their cock into her warm and waiting pussy. An idol pushing her into the nearest dance room to fuck her on the floor, only for several more to gather, waiting their turn after the first one’s filled her up with a few loads.

She knows that when a bunch of them have crowded around her that she’s not getting any paperwork done that day, but she still tries. Even when she’s taking a needed break while cockwarming someone, the idols will chastise her for trying to do her job instead of resting. All she needs to do is be a good slut for them, they can handle her work for her. If she’s insistent on trying to get something done though, a few idols will give her an “I warned you” look before being rough with her, making her squeal and tired enough that she falls asleep with cocks still inside her. They’ll still use her holes though, they’re tight even when she’s knocked out. She tends to wake up to soft thrusting, and when she moans a cock will quickly slide into her mouth.

Some of the idols are pretty strictly off hands with Anzu if their juniors are around, namely fine and ryusetai, but some like Natsume like the thrill of fucking her with the potential of getting caught. They’ll dress her back up of course, but her disheveled looks will raise eyebrows.

I also think like. She’s definitely into being a cum dumpster. Being fucked to oblivion is one thing, but only being used as a convenient hole for idols to pump their loads into is heaven for her. On the weekend they’ll usually have a hotel room booked for her and a few groups who aren’t busy that day, and they just click her legs into place on a spreader bar, keeping her doggy style while everyone jerks off to the sight of her wet cunt just waiting to be filled. She only gets fingers for now, both in her mouth and pussy, and she wiggles her hips, wanting to be filled already. Then when they’re ready to blow their load, they slide into her, only just getting one squeeze of her tight walls around their cock before cumming deep inside her womb. Then they pull out, and the next person immediately follows suit, until she’s just completely filled with cum, her cunt clenching, trying to keep it all in and her whines the only audible thing coming from her because none of them actually properly fucked her yet. Some of them degrade her for begging for cock, but most can’t wait and give her exactly what she wants, mounting her and rutting their hips against her ass while moaning about how knocked up she’ll get (it’s all talk. she’s on the pill, for good reason. it’d be chaos if she got pregnant and there were 30+ potential fathers)

I think like. Even if Rei wasn’t her first time, he definitely played a huge role in corrupting her. Got her used to taking his cock, then got Kaoru in on it, taught Trickstar some tips on making her feel good, then slowly every other adult idol from Yumenosaki followed. Jun probably walks in on her riding Makoto and while he’s embarassed initially, he gets invited to join and boom, now Eden’s fucking her too. Mayoi was watching pretty much everything from the start, and just gets over his shyness eventually to get to use her too.

And oh my god her being pressed to the glass windows of a meeting room, fucked from behind and being so exposed to the public even if the most people would see is a blurry silhouette…such a big turn on. I just know the meetings she has with the idols quickly devolve if they get bored enough of work.

I don’t think she’s bold enough to walk around completely naked…but if all the idols decide to keep her in her break room or one of the meeting rooms the whole day, she won’t bother with clothing anymore. What’s the point when everyone wants a turn? You just walk in and get the full view of her red nipples and puffy cunt, probably being used by an idol right that second. Her shirt is still on, but it’s so sweaty than it clings to her form, making you want her even more.

[silly-lil-scribbles]

vent of sorts under the cut

i miss being able to be awake at late hours of the night after everyone is asleep, because then i had some time to catch my breath, to try and feel something without the fear of being exposed. i could just wallow in my grief and guilt and pain and anger for a few hours. i mean when else can i do that? wakig up early cant fill that space because having a mental breakdown the moment you wake up is an insane fucking idea, thats too exhausting with a whole day ahead of you. cant in the middle of the day because everyone is there. everyone is always there. and now i cant at night because i go to bed before everyone. theyll catch me. theyll know. i dont even fucking know what theyre gonna know but they will. i sit through every day numb and mindless as the ticking of the clock showing how many hours im wasting peirces my skull but i cant move. i dont know why, i try to grasp for more time but its gone before i can even hope. theres always something wrong with me but its not wrong enough because nobody can see it. im desperately clawing along because i cant stop, they wont ket me. i dont even know who but it doesnt matter, does it? the point is, im trapped in a race against everyone else but im the onlyone still stuck on a never tiring treadmill. im so tired im so fucking tired but i have to keep going because i said i would. i cant stop because id let too many people down. i gotta keep crawling, keep dragging this wretched body though it. being up in the late hours of the night gave me a moment of rest. i could weep all i wanted as long as i was quiet enough. i had the privacy to be in pain when nobody was there to hear it. im always in so much pain but its still not enough, its never enough never fucking enough. and so many horrid little shards of myself still want more. maybe if im dropped enough times then i can excuse being shattered. something keeps battering me til im broken and bruised but its never enough because i can still keep going. and as long as i can keep going im fine in their eyes. but they cant see me when im broken either, because now theyll know im bad. theyll know im lying ive lied i keep making empty promises to tell her when i get worse but i cant. i know how they look at me when im broken. i feel like some sort of pathetic diseased dog. i need fixing. i always need fixing. nobody ever lets me just be not ok for a while, nobody wants to have to look at me while im like this and i dont blame them. i have to be better before they blame themselves, and i know they will. and the worst part is that they probably deserve the blame, i know that, but i still dont want them to hurt. if i just do better then theyll see that it wasnt that bad and they dont need to feel guilty. maybe then we can just forget everything thats happened. but im just so tired. so fucking exhausted from doing the bare minimum. just surviving hurts too much, but i know i will because i always do. because if i dont survive then thats letting down the people i love and care about and that i need to be there for. but god its so hard. and thats so small in comparison to everything i need to do, theres so many things and never enough time, it hurts so bad to even try. i just need to be worse until i cant do it anymore. maybe then theyll let me recover.

i dont want to hurt because i deserve it, but because thats all i know. what even am i if not suffering. ive lost so much of myself trying to ignore the hurt, not let it show. if i pretend i cant feel it then maybe i wont anymore. but ive learned now that feeling something that hurts is so much better than feeling nothing at all. i want to be happy, but how could i even do that now, im too tired. im tired because i dont even know who i am or what i feel but nobody can know that or theyll think im lying. im not lying i promise im not lying. i still know when i should be feeling something. not in the way that im expected to feel that way, but i can tell that if i wasnt like this then i would be feeling that. maybe that doesn’t make sense. none of this probably makes any sense, im sorry. everything is jumbled and and repeating and im saying so many words and i fel kinda dizzy rn. if anyone is reading this dont worry too much about me, im always fine eventually. just gotta get this out, yk? if you reply to this post then i probably wont respond but ill still read it and i love and appreciate you very much, thanks for wasting your time listening to me shout my incoherent complaints into the void of tumblr lol

[astyrluna]

ok i gotta talk abt my bg3 playthough w/o twitters character limit cuz this has been on my mind

SO im at the beginning of act 2, into the shadow cursed lands. got through the beginning just fine, went to the last light inn, did all that, prevented isobel from being abducted (which im v proud of cuz i killed a handful of the winged beasts or w/e they were called and had cast lightning bolt to take some down, but then i realized u lost the encounter if isobel got knocked out and was like "well im not wasting a lv. 3 spell slot on this fight if shes just gonna get taken anyway" which quickly became "well in that case im not fuckin letting her get taken then!!!" and it took me 2 lightning bolts and astarion being downed like 4 times but i DID IT)

*ahem* anyway, i prevented isobel from being abducted, and the mission after that is finding out how the cultists traverse the shadow curse and doing the whole ambush. NOW i already knew there was a dialogue w/ kar'niss cuz ive seen clips from "evil" playthroughs where ppl were interqacting w/ him and ive also seen ppl simping for him (and just for the record: smash) so after just letting the ambush happen and initiating battle and seeing his level and hp, i was like "lets see if theres an easier way to do this"

so i reloaded and decided to make myself known. i lied that the absolute protected me and told kar'niss that she wanted me to have his lanturn, then told him to go on. cuz im a sorcerer, i took the option to fake a protection spell on them, and man. i did not fucking expect kar'niss' screams to be so gut-wrenching. my heart dropped hearing him plead. i dont regret it and i will be doing the same thing on future playthroughs where possible cuz its the easiest solution but that was. hard. to listen to. so now canonically thats the first time in the whole adventure that my tav felt actually sick abt something he did. i havent had a long rest since but ive decided that hes gonna have a convo w/ the companions like "i dont regret what i did, it got us what we needed without a fight, but i think that driders screams are going to haunt me for a long time." (but astarion and shadowheart approved so my boys gonna get some ~reassurance~ lmao)

and like. ive made it to the town whose name im forgetting and come across the toll collector and made her kill herself too and felt normal afterwards so its not that i made him basically kill himself, its specifically the sound of his screams that got me

also when i realized they showed back up as shadow cursed creatures right outside the toll house i reloaded again and went up onto the roof and just had astarion shoot them all from a distance. didnt even enter initiative w/ them AND it got us all to lv. 7. ty astarion, my hero *mwah*

and finally (and i did talk abt this on twitter but still) we found arabella at the gates to the graveyard. this fuckin kid. the first thing she does when we approach her is show off some INCANTATIONLESS MAGIC which immediately impresses the FUCK outta my sorcerer ass, tells me her parents are missing (and like. they were dead. i already knew they were gonna be dead. finding the bodies just confirmed it), THEN arabella tells me the only ppl she trusts are herself, her parents, and me, and tops this all off by calling me "hero-man" and running off to my camp like. congrats on the new big brother kiddo youve got him wrapped around your finger already. were both mephistopheles tieflings (presumably. she is also blue skinned), were both magic, like cmon. thats my tavs kid sister

and speaking of finding her parents bodies, actually, the whole conversation w/ the nurse "tending" to them is just...profoundly sad. i ended up choosing the deception choice and saying like "oh i see now, theyre deeply asleep" and the nurse says like "i knew these hands wouldnt fail me" like oh...sweetie...no...

(that didnt quite hit me like kar'niss' screaming did, it just left me feeling sad. for her, for the whole situation. i havent gone back to camp to tell arabella yet, im still 'splorin)

also i found the true love rings. ofc i put one on astarion and the other on my tav. i havent even got to the true confession yet lmao. you dont even know how excited i am for that. god i such a fuckin simp

OH SHIT ONE LAST THOUGHT: I GOT TO FUCKING HUG KARLACH!!!!!!!! LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

you have NO IDEA how happy i was when she got the upgrade and one of the options was "pull her into a hug" i was sat there SCREAMING in joy for a solid 30 seconds before actually doing it, and then a further 2 minutes after LMAO

i just wish there was an option to pull dammon in on the hug. man deserves it. we love this dude

[chiaplantseed]

Raine Days(oc) art+ramble

i am losing my mind, i cannot draw digitally at this time so im left to either draw traditionally in my silly little graphing notebook or write out silly ideas for my character

have my silly notebook page and a silly finger phone doodle🫶

dont mind the cat ear doodles, not canon to them, i just felt silly goofy (they are infact a fruit bat now)

and i apologize in advance for the lengthy ramble below🙏

i believe this hides the rest of my ramble for those who wish to read and those who dont? but anyways onto my ramble

so ive recently discovered, what was missing from raines design was little animal parts! (my old middle school days have returned to haunt me)

taking into account how theyre meant to be the sleepy character in the cast, i took to the internet to find sleepy animals, as i didnt want to do the basic cat ears and tail (i have enough ocs who are part cat, again from my middle school days) and in my searching i remembered bats exist!! so raine is now part fruit bat! (their favorite fruit is grapes incase anyones even curious)

but then i started thinking about what their relationships with all the other characters would be like, so starting off with of course the main man of the cast...

•wally! - i like to think theyre besties or at the very least close friends! perhaps Raine might take on a more leading role in their friendship when wallys learning something or doing something silly, like how everyones decided wally steals apples from howdys store. i like to think raine tries to intervene, or at least pay. (so wally doesnt get in trouble) which leads to their relationship with...

•howdy! - since raine pays (like a normal customer) for their items (and wallys) howdy is thankful and for that the two have a good relationship! not besties but they are friends! not much to say though, but sometimes howdy gives them little deals as a thanks! specifically on the items raine often buys! (theyre very consistent in what they pick, grapes and a blue soda, and no they do not know what the actual flavor is, only blue)

•sally! - again, besties! more so than with wally actually! before their house was built, raine actually lived with sally for a little while! they had the same problem that poppy does at the beginning, where when sally would be rehearsing to herself raine would think she was talking to them. they learned quick though, and would actually help sometimes too! their checkered pj pants are actually a gift from sally, as raine wanted to match something with sally! they sleepover often together (raine always falls asleep first however)

•julie! - theyre friends! julies pretty energetic, which keeps raine awake for the most part when they hang out together, but sometimes raine just really needs to rest or chill out, which julie gladly respects. raine loves looking at and taking care of flowers with her though! theyve joined julie in talking to franks flowers, granted that raine can't actually understand the flowers. (they fully believe juile can though) which leads to...

•frank! - theyre uh fine? not enemies or anything but not quite close friends or anything? franks knows a lot about stuff and has a lot of books, which raine likes, but frank can be a bit serious which kinda just worries raine sometimes that he doesnt like them. they want to read his books though. which in turn leads to...

•eddie! - close friends! eddie teaches raine arts and crafts often, as they find it fun and cute. they keep every craft they do together because they like having little trinkets around their house. eddies also trying to help raine get close to frank actually, reassuring them that frank likes them. (theyre still worried, its a wip)

•poppy! - poppys got a kind of mothering relationship with raine! she teaches them how to bake actually, raine took interest in it after the first time poppy gave them some homebaked goods. now whenever theres an event where everyone brings treats or food, raine helps poppy bake! also raine tends to bruise easily and randomly, which poppy worries a lot about (its gotten to where poppy baby proofed her home out of concern) they still get bruises from god knows what

so overall, theyre friends with most of the neighbors, with the outliers being the slow growing work in progress friendship with frank, and the mother/child relationship they have with poppy rather than friendship.

thats all for now! i'll probably make another ramble specifically about raines habits soon! (if anyone's actually interested, if not another essay for my notes app🫶)

[wabblebees]

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[wovenstarlight]

tonight's variety of poisoning my own brain is crossovering my own AUs: ywbk/sixth sense edition. and oh I am so deeply poisoned

[lockleysfav]

Wake up

santiago garcia and frankie morales x reader

summary: It had been two days since you had been returned home from being tied down, cut, beaten and burned with flaming iron. You’re laying in a sleeping bag in the woods, asleep with the group until you have a nightmare.

warnings: pstd reader, fluff, unedited

You were inbetween Frankie and Santiago fast asleep while the rest of the group were chatting and eating. Frankie was the first to check on you, his beautiful eyes scanning over your exhausted ones. “Fuck sake pope” he mutters causing Santiago to turn around pulling the beer bottle away from his lips “whats up? is she okay?” Frankie grits his teeth “We should’ve been there” he spits “WE SHOULDVE BEEN THERE” the group falls silent at his outburst, Santiago is quick to stand and lightly pull him away from the area.

“hey..hey look at me fish” santi places a hand on his cheek patting it then placing it onto his shoulder “i know, we shouldve been there but we werent. You cant keep blaming yourself man, Y/n wouldn’t want that” Frankie suddenly shoves Santiago “You dont know what the fuck she wants, none of us do because she too afraid to fucking breathe incase its too loud, you know she was probably in that room waiting for us, waiting for us to come and take her back to safety because thats what we do right? we keep her safe not-” his hands are already balled into fist and he paces, Santi knows Frankie wont say it. All he can do is pull him into a hug and tell him everything is gonna be fine, you’re going to be fine. Weirdly enough it soothes him.

—

Will lowers his head, staring at your sleeping body. He felt just as guilty as Frankie did but what was there to do? he had no clues, no directions to who the fuck did this to you and it was tearing him from the inside out.

As they all finished clearing up their bottles, Frankie and Santiago got into their jackets and propped their bags up as pillows next to your body in case you needed anything. It brang comfort to them and the group to see you sleep for the first time in days but it still frightened Frankie, he was scared you wouldnt wake up.

—

“Dónde está el dinero” you felt the knife prick at your throat as tears continued streaming down your bloodied face “I dont fucking know what youre saying” you heard the man chuckle and another bucket of freezing water was thrown over you causing you to let out a strained whimper from the shock “I DONT FUCKING KNOW” your sreaming was silenced as he held up the ak-47 pointing it right between your eyes “inútil puta” he whispered before the bag went over your head and the water came over your head again

“f-frankie!” you were thrashing in your sleeping bag making Santiago stir awake, his body shot up seeing you thrash and he quickly leaned over your body caging it in his arms to calm you, normally it’d be a bad idea to cage someone in when theyre in this state but for you, being caged in by Santi or Frankie was the only way to calm you down. “Hey shhh, y/n cariño its santiago youre safe” his fingers brushed a few sweaty strands from your face and you finally woke up properly, locking eyes with santi. “Pope?” your voice barely came out as a whisper but you knew he heard it because he smiled “i’m here, you’re okay i promise” the both of you looked over at the sudden shuffling, it startled you and you instinctively grasped Santis hand in fear just for him to reassure you with a soft squeeze “it’s just frankie” he whispers.

Frankie sat up and looked over at your body curled into Santiagos, sighing in relief, he crawled over to the both of you and gentle placed his hand on your arm “Y/n, Are you okay baby?” you nodded and turned to face him. Locking eyes with Santiago was something, but locking eyes with Frankie made your fears, worry and pain disappear in seconds. Santi knew you felt more at ease with Frankie because you had known him longer but it didnt help the tinge of jealousy when you were pulled into Frankies arms. He fiddled with his watch and looked over at the group sleeping before turning back to you “Could i uh…hold you too?” his voice lowered as he go to ‘you too’ and you could tell he was upset.

The thing is Santiago was an overthinker and for some reason thought you found comfort in only Frankie but it wasnt the truth, you felt everything for them equally. Frankie was the loving, over protective boyfriend and would take his time inflicting pain on anyone who harmed you. Santiago was the hot headed, possesive but gentle lover and would put a bullet in someones skull with no second thought if they even looked at you funny. He believed no one deserved to live another second, Frankie kept them alive only for them to live in agony, that was of course Santi would lose it and shoot the guy.

-

“of course” you smiled at Santi and suddenly you were sandwiched between the two.

“mi amor estas seguro ahora”

[hugs4jkk]

"I love you too , aha."

Pairing : yoongi x reader

Summary : you write in your diary about how much you like yoongi and .. he finds it.

Warnings / tags : crush , fluff , 8th member of bts , roommates, soft yoongi.

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You were always fond of yoongi, ever since debut. The others noticed he was your favourite but didnt think much of it. For The past few months, you felt different about yoongi. You hadn't thought of yoongi in a romantic way before. Sometimes jin and taehyung teased you for blushing when someone mentioned him. You were a hopeless romantic.

One night, at around 12am, the others decided that they should have a movie night. Nothing unusual , right? When everyone sat down , you sat next to yoongi. About half way through the movie, you started to drift off to sleep. You rested your head on yoongis shoulder, which was a pretty bold move..well to you anyways. You felt your face turn bright red as he covered you with a blanket. You were so in love. It was hard for you to stay awake but you wanted to watch the rest of the movie. "You can sleep if you want to , nobodys stopping you aha" yoongi whispered , trying not to be loud. His voice was so attractive , you got butterflies everytime he spoke. After about 10 minutes , you were fast asleep. And of course taehyung and hobi found it hilarious and decided to take a picture of you asleep. By now yoongi was half asleep too,it was surprising he even stayed up this late. He covered himself with the blanket too and rested his head on yours. After the movie, you and yoongi were still asleep on the sofa but everyone else went to bed.

The next morning, you woke up and realized that you had fallen asleep next to yoongi. After 20 minutes, yoongi woke up and saw you next to him. He thought you looked adorable but didnt say anything. "Good morning" you said while rubbing your eye. "Morning." Yoongi replied , smiling a little. You both got up and went to the room to get changed and freshen up. After you both got dressed you left the room and went to get breakfast. Taehyung saw you both walk in , "Hey lovebirds" He said in a teasing way. "Shut up" yoongi said, obviously annoyed. Jungkook was making pancakes, not your favourite breakfast food but theyre not the worst. "Hey , you guys want some pancakes?" Jungkook asked. You and yoongi both nodded. You sat down at the breakfast bar and talked for a little till the pancakes are done. 10 minutes later, jungkook served everyone. You got up to get a drink and asked if yoongi wanted one and jimin,jin and taehyung laughed. You were pretty sure that they knew you had a crush on yoongi but its fine aslong as he didnt find out.

After breakfast, you went into your room and grabbed your diary. You hadn't wrote anything in it for a while but you felt like you had to, having a crush is tiring. You grabbed a pen and started writing. You wrote about how attractive yoongi is and..other things about yoongi. You wrote about yoongi for almost 30minutes, you were so in love with him.

Jin called you into his room to help him with work so you left your diary on your bed , opened. You helped jin for a while and then went back to your room. You looked on your bed and your diary wasnt there. Someone had found it. And probably read it! You wanted to cry. It wouldve been 10 times worse if yoongi found it .. You wouldve seemed like a stalker or something.. You decided to just forget about it and went to do some work. Later in the day yoongi was going out of town for some important work, you didnt really know what it was about. You were a little sad about it though,you werent used to him being away, even if it was only a few days. He said he would facetime you while hes away, which made you feel better.

It was now 6pm and yoongi was packing his bag, you went to go ask him if he needed any help but really it was an just excuse to talk to him. He said no but you stil stayed in the room with him, because you were gonna miss him when he was gone. "You okay?" Yoongi asked, confused. "Oh im fine,why?" You responded while looking at your phone. "You dont have to stay in here you know, i dont need any help" he said while shoving a few chargers into his suitcase. "I know but.." you mumbled. "But what?" Asked yoongi. "But uhm ill..ill miss you or whatever" you said quietly while covering your face. "I said we can face time,plus ill only be gone for a few days" yoongi replied while blushing a little. "I know.." you muttered under your breath. Yoongi packed a few more things and he was ready. It was 6:30pm and he had to leave at 6:35pm. You and him talked while he waited on the couch for his uber to come. Everyone was in the lounge as everyone finished their work for the day. It was 6:34pm so yoongi stood up to leave, you stood up and walked to the door with him. "Bye guys" yoongi shouted. Everyone else said bye also. He hugged you, "bye, y/n , dont miss me too much aha" . "Shut up" you said in a playful way. "Okayokay sorry," he said, "ill miss you too." Before he opened the door to leave he kissed your cheek. You were blushing like crazy. Everyone was watching us..which was awkward. "Lovebirdsss" jin said, teasingly. "Shut up," you said, pushing him away.

Around half an hour later ,you went into your bedroom to grab your phone and saw you had a message, it was from yoongi. Obviously , you opened it as quick as you could and jumped on your bed. It said:

Yoongi <3

Hey, im almost at the hotel, you okay?

Yeah im okay, how long will

you be gone??? Not saying i

miss you or something stupid

Aha, ill only be gone for 3 days. Do you

Want to facetime when i get to my room?

Yeah totally! Im making some

Desert for the others rn :))

Cool, im about 2 minutes away from the

hotel. Im listening to your song rn :)

Oh? And whys that ahaha??

Its good, your voice is soothing.

I just got to the hotel, ill facetime you in 5mins :))

Okayyyy :)

(Read 7:05pm)

You pressed your face into your pillow and kicked your legs in the air. Your whole face was red, you loved him so much. 6minutes later, your phone started ringing. Your heart was beating so fast, you never talk to yoongi on the phone, hes more of a texter. You picked up to see yoongi sitting at a desk. "Hey" yoongi said, smiling. "Hii,how are you? Youre taking care of yourself?" You asked him, slightly worried as you werent used to him being away. "Haha , ive only been gone for an hour." He said, covering his face as he laughed. "I know .. but im not used to you being away" you replied while playing with the strings on your hoodie. "I wanted to tell you something..well its more of a question.." yoongi said, quietly. Your heart dropped, "what is it?" "Well uh i..found your diary.." yoongi replied, obviously embarrassed. You felt your whole face turn red, "yoongi im so sorry i-" he laughed a little, "No don't apologise , i just wanted to know ..do you actually feel like that..?" you had never felt so embarrassed in your life, "i mean..yeah.." you mumbled. "Well i just wanted to tell you uhh .. i like you too" yoongi replied while blushing alot. You both went silent. "R-really?" You asked. Yoongi nodded and smiled, "so..wanna make it official..?" You nodded in response. Both you and yoongi smiled and started laughing a little. "I love you." you said while playing with your hair. "I love you too , aha." He replied.

[vampryn]

i finally contracted ‘rona after surviving this long unscathed 😭 im pretty sure i got it at goth night, which is funny because i travelled all the way to and from germany and came back completely fine, but 4 days after going out maskless i thought i was having another allergic reaction.. nope. im so glad i decided to test myself before i went out for a day of adventuring. i was gonna take a trip down to spirit halloween, but when i went for my morning walk i noticed i felt really sluggish, which isnt normal for me as im a morning person.. i then remembered that i woke up with a headache and half-asleep took an advil, which i have no idea how id forgotten but it was 5am i do remember that. thats when im like fuck i think i got INFECTED. sure enough, as soon as my spit got into the potion distributor it was there clear as day. i feel bad because im not sure if i got anybody else sick, and thats always been my biggest fear about getting covid. i just dont want to be the reason somebody is sick and has to take days off work, out of their social life, or possibly end up ill for the rest of their life, not to mention all the other complications and possibilities. i read that its more common to just have to wait it out, but still, any chances of denting somebodys life that much feels like :( people are right though, weed helps symptoms a LOT (imo). when i smoke a bowl i feel like the headache is slowly being erased out of my brain. which is nice because i dont really like taking advil (not for any rational reason). i also am finding it way easier to fall asleep, which is a nice little vacation. a friend that ive only met once (but theyre really nice) dropped off some candy for me today!! it was so nice, and i literally ran out to my porch and destroyed a chocolate bar as soon as i scurried back in. people who live here are really kind and neighbourly. another friend ive only spoken to a handful of times offered to bring something by, but i dont want to be a bother, ill be able to order grocery delivery and dont want to burden people!! i appreciate people so much though, community roxx!! we love our goth bbs

[milkacchan]

Request for anon: Omega angst???

Omega angst 😌

• It was Katsukis fault really

• well- sorta

• you already had the fear of being too overbearing and because of that you held most people at an arms length

• and you fought yourself so hard

• you desperately wanted to be comfortable in front of your friends- your pack- you wanted to proceed with your semi clingy antics and stupid bullshit you did with those you really trusted.

• But you didn't want them to leave- you didn't want to be called clingy, or crazy, or dependent.

• So you kept that arms length- for a really long time.

• your 'omega' rarely showed

• but the inevitable happened and you DID get comfortable.

• and new territory came with that.

• you were more open, you were more affectionate, you didn't particularly mind when your 'omega' showed itself- the Alphas, omegas, and Betas in your group didn't seem to particularly mind either.

• your fear lingered- sure- sometimes someone acted 'wrong' and you got scared you did something, you panic quietly and deal with it yourself or ask for quiet reassurance

• and they learned how to deal with it efficiently soon enough

• But then it happened.

• You just wanted attention

• You weren't having the best day and you just wanted someone to hug

• and Katsuki was there

• So you hugged him from behind and he seemed fine with that

• until he had to move

• but you weren't ready to let go- not yet. You needed to calm down, you didn't want to let go.

• He grumbles something and gently moves you off, "You're such a clingy fucking omega." He picks up his phone from the counter.

"Oh. Sorry," you give him a sheepish smile- one thats definitely fake, but it convinces him.

"If I'd known you were so damn needy.." he mumbles to himself as he walks out if the kitchen.

• He didn't mean it of course, you shoukd've known. He had somewhere to go. And you wouldn't let him go.

• but he made no effort to clarify that afterwards- not that you told him it bothered you, how would he know?

• but you were in your head- already having been struggling with the fact that maybe you /were/ too much- just like you'd been told your whole life

• You should've kept them at an arms length.

• You kinda shut down after that

• and they took notice almost immediately

• and it fucking scared them when you started to pull away.

• You rejected scenting, hugs, compliments and voices concerns

• it was stressing Denki out too- the groups second omega who heavily relied on your affection.

• He relied on the way you held him, how you scented him and how you kissed his cheeks

• He relied on the way you ran your thumbs across his cheekbones and counted his freckles

• he relied on your smell-

• and now he didn't have it. Any of it.

• But what really scared them was two weeks later, when your heat approached and you hadn't asked for any of their things

• they'd known you for years- and you always asked for at LEAST one thing from each member

• and you usually wore someones jacket until it hit

• but you hadn't asked for a single damn thing. And you wore a jacket- your own and you refused to let anyone scent it.

• Kirishima had tried- and you were temptedn so fucking temoted to give in. God thats all you really wanted, your friends things- their scents- their noses rubbing along your neck

• but Katsukis words rang through your head again, 'clingy omega,' and that was something you didn't want to be

• so after slightly leaning into the redhead you snapped at him, shoving him off and stroming out of the room.

• they send mina next- well- she goes on her own accord.

• You tell her nothing.

• Then, Denki decides to step in. He misses you- he misses you so much and he can't figure out why you pulled away. You smell different now- not like you usually do. Theres a bitter undertone that never fails to make him wrinkle his nose

• "I mean- do you want anything..? Some shirts, jackets maybe?"

"I don't need them." You say.

"Oh do you already have some?"

"No, I'm not building a nest for this heat."

His eyes widen. "You're- what? Why not?"

"I don't need it. I don't need the groups clothes or help to take care of my stuff. I'll be okay," you give him a soft smile

• When Denki see's the group that night- he immediately goes for Bakugou, grabbing his shirt and shoving him back. "What did you do?" He growls. "What did you fucking say!"

"Hey hey, Kaminari, calm down. Whats going on?"

"She said she's not building a nest. She said she doesn't need us when it comes to her problems." His gaze never left Katsuki. "We worked hard to make her feel okay with us- what did you fucking say!"

Mina and Sero were quiet, eyes training on the blonde.

"I mean I called her clingy awhile ago- but I thought she knew I wasn't being serious, she never said anything to me afterwards so it must not have been a big deal-"

"Not a big deal? You know how paranoid she is!"

"Has she already left?"

Denki nodded. "Fix it."

He smelled sour now, bitter overtook the room- even Sero was affected by it, and the beta was rarely affected by smell.

• That heat was absolute hell for you

• You had no comfort

• You just writhed in your own discomfort- slick pooling down your thighs

• The toys you had brought some comfort- but that was it.

• You didn't have Kirishimas hoodie or Bakugous Favorite shirt.

• Seros jacket or Minas tank top.

• Denkis favorite pair of PJ bottoms, you were alone.

• You had this Heat Buddy that Denki got you, it was a teddy bear and stored scent packets- ones that would he comforting to omegas but it wasn't nearly the same, you decided as you buried your face into the cloth animals stomach

• Youre omega screamed and clawed and cried of the lack of comfort. No familiar smells, no pieces, no staying in touch- no help.

• Your omega kept you on edge the entire week if your heat, not once letting you rest.

• That heat took everything out of you, all your strength, energy, motivation- you almost felt worse coming out of it than you did going in

• Probably had something to do with the lack of comfort, the lack of smell and submission.

• But when you return, you look exhausted and everyone takes notes of it

• They can smell you through the scent patches and its not pleasant.

• You're snappy, on edge and irritable. Constantly on the verge of tears the whole day and /extremely/ protective of yourself.

• Bakusquad is waiting in your fucking dorm room when you get up there

• You don't even have the energy to snarl at them- you just whine.

• Your pack is in the room- and they smell so nice, but they're worried. So so worried.

• The tears threaten to spill over and you drop your keys

• You don't hear exactly whats said, you just know you're sinking to the floor the next minute, head in your hands.

• You're crying and arms wrap around you, ones you immediately recognize to be Katsuki

• You lean into him, apologizing weakly. You didn't mean to be a shitty Omega, you didn't mean to be clingy, you didn't mean it.

• he moves a hand to your cheek.

"It's okay," he murmurs. "You're okay. You didn't do anything wrong. I'm sorry, as shouldn't have been so harsh. You're not really clingy,"

"I should've told you it bothered me. Don't apologize."

"No, im definitely in the position too."

• Once you've calmed down, you look half asleep. Katsuki softly noses at your neck and youre more than content with it, finally, /finally/ giving into your omega urges.

• Katsuki carries you do the bed, and your pack surrounds you, smiling gently when he touch you.

• Denki lays his head on your shoulder and you gently rake a hand through his hair before returning it to Seros hand.

• Mina nuzzles your neck, your scent patches long gone

• Kirishima is gently rubbing circles into your wrist before he rubs his own wrist against yours.

• Soon you're asleep, mouth slightly parted, head leaning against Denki, back against Katsukis chest

• Theyre thankful it worked out

• You start wearing their hoodies again. You snuggle into their blankets, you fall asleep in their rooms

• And come your next heat, you're ruffling through draws to find/exactly/ what you want for your nest

• And they let you.

[unquestionably-queer]

zukka has been living in my brain rent free so its headcanon time. today we’re talking about love languages lets get into it:

- both sokkas and zukos love languages include gift giving. due to sokka’s shopping addiction and zuko’s access to pretty much anything at any given moment, the amount of gifts they give each other is absolutely absurd. 

- they both really appreciate the thought but sometimes they both go a little too far and they usually have to reign each other in

- sokka will be like oh i ran to the market to grab a couple of things and i saw something that reminded me of you so i bought it and zukos like oh? and sokka whips on the original playscript to their favorite show that definitely cost a ridiculous amount of money. and zukos like !!!!!!!!!! thats too much i cannot accept it. btw i bought you an entirely new custom made wardrobe bc a couple months ago you said one of your socks was itchy.

- they have to create a budget for themselves whenever the holidays come around (they always go just a little over but they just Had to get it because they knew it was perfect)

-  sokkas favorite gift from zuko was a promise ring made out of whale bone and space rock with a sun setting on tiny waves carved into the inside. zuko said that he knew life wouldnt be easy for them given their political statuses but the sun always set on the sea and he promised would always fine his way back to him. it is one of sokkas most prized possessions

- zukos favorite gift is from the time when sokka had casually been taking paint classes and come back one day and was like i made it for you!!!its a family portrait :) the portrait itself was zuko sitting in his thrown with sokka standing tall next to him in a style that was an awkward attempt at realism. zuko honestly wouldnt have known what it was otherwise but oh how he cried. he keeps it framed in his study.

- on that note, theyre also big into acts of service

- like one day zuko is grumbling to himself after a particularly frustrating meeting with some of the generals about something or the other. sokka can tell he just doesnt want to be bothered so he silently gets some jasmine tea and braids his hair and allows zuko to sulk. zuko was too cranky to admit it but in that moment he quite literally fell in love with him all over again

- it becomes this routine that whenever zuko has a particularly rough sokka will bring him some tea and company

- another big thing is that zuko would not take care of himself. some nights much to zukos dismay, sokka will quite literally take the papers from his hands and send him to bed 

- “i dont want to hear it. theres a bath ready for you and food with your name on it in my room. ill meet you there when im finished with all this.” zukos protests fell on empty ears as he shoved zuko out the study and locked the door behind him. sokka spent maybe an hour going over the rest of zuko’s paperwork before returning to his room only to find zuko fast asleep with his hair still wet and smelling like spice. 

- on the flip side, sokka keeps his space pretty messy. he swears its organized chaos but its just a fire hazard waiting to happen. sokka was always a late riser, much later than zuko. one time sokka woke up to find zuko long gone and the mess had gone with him. on the night stand next to the bed was a note that read ‘cleaned your chaos’ with a little heart squiggled in the corner

- honestly most of what sokka had originally thought was good luck around the palace was just zuko working his magic and flexing some muscle and honestly? sokka couldnt complain

- they do the absolute most for each other at all times and honestly? its kind of adorable

((also if this is a fanfic yall would read i could definitely clean it up and throw some dialogue in there hehe))