#'laziness doesnt exist' my ass

[adlibitur]

I think I'm gonna delete most of the rest of my social media apps off my phone and go back to a media consumption format closer to high school. I didn't have a smart phone til uni, so all my social media interaction was through my laptop or wifi connected ipod touch as of summer after high school, and thats when my reading went down dramatically and I essentially started being a full time slacker so I think I'm gonna prioritize fixing that.

[yeah-asbestos]

i just had a moment of panic that my sibling would take one of my uquizzes and go to the tumblr that i mention in most of them (even though he has literally *never* expressed a single shit about tumblr or uquiz or quizzes like the ones i make or taking uquizzes like the ones i make and then going to the tumblr page of whichever random whore made them), so i de-named every one of them ahaha anxiety is a whole ass wild ride

[reegis]

Yo! Do you have any notes/tips for your coloring process? I've always had trouble with that part of drawings looking good lmao and I really like yours! If not for your specific style, do you have any tips with that in general?

Iv gotten a few asks about how I color but iv always avoided answering because

A) I am absolutely awful at explaining things, and

B) I am a very Very lazy artist you should probably Not do the things that I do

BUT i feel bad gatekeeping(?) my horrible technique if it helps anybody ig ill try and explain so

✨✨✨Welcome to Reegis’ Probably Not Reputable (But Very Long Winded) Art Advice✨✨✨✨

line art of a random character for the example, just pic whatever colors you have in mind for your base colors, you can try using palette generators or basing it off of existing palettes/characters/whatever I have absolutely no idea how color theory works (& this is why you shouldnt listen to me) so im solely going off of vibes. but it is Rough so onto step 2 & 3

(edit to add i usually start off with the skin hair & clothes on separate clipping layers and merge them together towards the end.. i think i forgot to say that at all here oops)

I abuse the hellll out of layer blending modes. overlay, saturation & multiply mainly, but also difference, brightness & screen. (just doodle something & try all of em out to get a feel for them honestly ik theres a Lot and they can be intimidating) for this i just wanted a more cohesive warmer tone to start with so i added a peachy overlay & a slight ombré to the hair to add a bit more interest to the character.

then just the most basic of rendering, some blush & highlights just wherever i think theyd go.

Another thing they tell you Not to do, my next step is to block out all my shading in a vaguely purpleish multiply layer!!! i cant be assed to do it any other way im sorry…. once i have the basic shading down, i lock the layer & go in with air brush eraser & also airbrush in other colors wherever I think the purple is maybe too harsh/clashing

still wasnt 100% happy with the colors so messed around with some more layer filter/modes/whatever you call them then colored in my line art! i think this is honestly the saving grace for all of my art shshsdhhf color your lines people. doesnt have to be all (i dont, i like the contrast) but it usually helps to make some at least a little less harsh

then with a little more color tweaking im done! one random sleepy dude, fully colored (by my standards)

and then if a piece needs more dramatic lighting you justttt

im so serious play around with layer settings! these are just basic multiply & add(glow), there as so many others you can abuse the shit out of & nobody will know or care in your finished piece.

was this?? in any way helpful???? I hope so.

[alex-supremacy4]

OKAY SL MY OPINION ON WW..

might delete later, just felt in a willy's wonderland mood rn (my silliest mood)

tl;dr at end if ur too lazy to read everythimg

tw: mentions of death, mentions of s3x, spoilers, etc

chris did NKT deserve to get killed. he literally didnt. but you know who did? BOB AND THAT BITCH KATHY. AARON AND DAN DIDNT DESERVE TO GET KILLED EITHER, TJEY BARELY EVEN DID SHIT

KATHY AND BOB DESERVED TO BE KILLED. LITERALLY. BOB WAS BEING THE FAT FUCK HE IS, BUT KATHY IS WORSE. SHE WAS TRYING TO SEDUCE CHRIS, AARON AND DAN EVEN WHILE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH BOB. AND THEN, HAD S3X IN THE MIDDLE OF A LIFE OR DEATH SITUATION LIKE BITCH RECOGNIZE THE SITUATION YOUR ASS IS IN RIGHT NOW. AFTER THAT, SHE DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO HELP BOB NOT DIE AND WASNT EVEN WILLING TO DO ANYTHING AT ALL LIKE PULL THE ANIMATRONIC AWAY OR HIT IT, ETC. SHE JUST RAN TO THE DOOR AND TRIED TO GET OUT FAST. SHE WAS AN ASSHOLE GIRLFRIEND AND DESERVED TO GET HER ASS KILLED OFF. SO DID BOB, BUT I FELT A BIT BAD BECAUSE HE WASNT EVEN HELPED AT ALL AFTER THAT.

BUT CHRIS. I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD FOR CHRIS. HE DIDNT DESERVE TO DIE I SWEAR. HE WAS SO FUCKING SWEET (excrpt for the time he rammed into bob but not in THAT way, just ran into bob and got them stuck inside of the resturaunt.) AND CARED ABOUT THEM SM. AND THEN HE TRUSTED CAMMY. HE TRUSTED HER HE FUCKING TRUSTED HER. AND THEN HE WAS BACKSTABBED. LIKE NO THAT DIDNT HAPPEN!!! HE GRABBED CAMMYS TONGUE AND CHOPPED IT OFF BEFORE HE COULDVE DIED AND RAN OFF EITH THE JANITOR AND LIV BEFORE THEY COULDVE GOTTEN STOLEN BY WILLY OR THE GRANDMA PEROSN THING CALLED SHERRIF LUND.. (im delusional) But anyways HE DIDNT DESERVE ANG OF THAT.

DAN WAS JUST A SILLY LITTLE GOOBER WHO DIDNT DESERVW TO DIE EITHER, NOOO I DONT KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT!!! HIS INSIDES DIDNT GET TORN OUT AND EATEN OUT BRUTALLY, HE WAS FIGHTING BACK FOR HIS LIFE AND SUCCEEDED AND SAVED EVERYONE ELSE FROM DYING (except for kathy and bob) AND FLEW AWAY ON A TAP DANCING FLYING OVERSIZED DOG (im delusional pt2)! AND HE WAS JUST TRYINH TO HELP I THINK BUT THEN IT BACKFIRED ON HIM. I HATE YOU SIREN SARA AND TITO GREEN Turtle ASS THING.

aaron.. aaron.. AARON DIDNT DIE NOT MY KID NOT MY BBG. I DONT KNOW WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT HE DIDNT GET IMPALED WITH A SWORD BY THAT DUMBASS KNIGHTY KNIGHT BITCH HE LIVED BY REALIZING WHAT WILLY'S SONG MEANT, TURNED TO LOOK BEHIND HIM, GRABBED THAT BITCHES SWORD AND FOUGHT HIS ASS TO THE DEATH UNTIL HE FINALLY GOT HIM AND STABBED HIS ASS!!!!! HE THEN TAP DANCED OVER THAT BITCHES CORPSE, FLEW AWAY WITH HIS FRIENDS (but left bob and kathy behind) AND PLAYED FLAPPY BIRD WHEN THEY GOT HOME! (im delusional pt3). AARON DIDNT DWSERVW THAT SHIT BUT HE TRIED TO STOP CHRIS FROM GETTING AT BOBS ASS BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER, HE WAS SO <33 PLEASE BRING HIM. BACK I LOVE HIM HE SHOULDVE DIED LAST OR NEVER EVEN DIED AT ALL

LIV AND THE JANITOR WERE SO ICONIC. THEY WERE SO COOL AND SILLY AND LITTLE GOOBERS IM SO GLAD THEY DIDNT DIE BUT THE FACT THE JANITOR LET (I THINK) WILLY BLOW TWO POWERFUL ASS ATTACKS TO HIM MADE ME CRY SO VIOLENTLY LIKE WTF. HELLO????????? TELL ME THAT SOMEONE ELSE CRIED AT THAT PART TOO PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE TO SOB WITH ME WHILE WE REWATCH THE MOVIE 4 TIMES PLEEAAHAHAHAHASE IM BEGIGNG YIU. PLEAS3 PLEAS E PLESD RPLEASE.. also im makijg a willys wonderland au with m. characters and sneak peek: kathy doesnt exist so the charavter thats bob is just gonna be. complete asshole with no bitches and dies first 🥶🥶

i HATE THAT BITCH SHERRIF LUND. SHE TRIED LEAVING JANITOR TO DIE AND FORCED LIV TO LEAVE THE JANITOR BEHIND. AND THEN SHE LURED IN WILLY, NOT EXPECTING HIM TO BE BEHIND HER INSTEAED.. AND YOU KNOW EHAT??? SHE GOT WHAT SHE DESWRVED. SHE GOT KILLED AND SLICED IN HALF, LIKE SHE SSHOULD BE. SHE NEEDS TO LEARN HER PALXE AND WHY THE FUCK SHE WOULD SACRIFICE A GOOD PERSOSNS LIFE JUST FOR THAT CRAPPY ASS TOWN THAT IS TOTAL SHIT AND DOESNT EVEN DESERVE TO EXIST.

evan is my silly goofy goober boy and nothing can change that.. EVAN DIDNT KNOW WHAT HE WAS DOING THOUGJ, SO IT CHANGED S LITTLE BIT BECAUSE HE WAS KINDNOF TOTAL SHIT TO LIV IN THE CAR AND KIND OF DESERVED TO GET EATEN BY ARTY ALLIGSTOR OR TITO TURTLE . FORGOT WHICH IT WAS BUT EH.. IM NOT EVEN GONNA BE DELUSIONAL FOR THIS PART BECAUSE H. WAS KIND OF TOTAL SHIT.

tl;dr: kathy and bob are asses and deserved to die. chris, dan, and aaron didnt deserve to die. liv and janitor deserved to live. i hate sherrif lund. i kind of dislike evan but still love him.

thNk you for listening t my rant bye bye

by : khel / micheal ^_^

[hotchs-big-hands]

au where mostly everything is the same except arranged marriages are normalized and you can pretend like haley and jack dont exist if you want also aaron is lowkey a perv but nothing here is noncon. this was longer than i meant it to be and i still wanna write more im just too lazy to type it out rn 🤪

okayokaySO um idk why yall are getting married uuh hotch wants a wife because he misses coming home to a partner and you just couldnt be assed to find a man so yall get married i guess. youre a lot more hesitant of the whole thing than he is because he is actively seeking out partnership and youre just going along with it because you dont believe in true love or some shit. so during the initial courting/engagement period aaron is trying sooo hard to show you hell be a good husband to you but you're resisting believing him bc many men make promises and fail to deliver on them when the time comes so youre takin it with a big grain of salt.

but once you guys marry and leave for youre honeymoon youre ungodly anxious bc you havent been like alone alone with him before and now youre gonna be spending 2 weeks in another country with him. your mom insisted on packing your clothes for you because "you never know how to dress for the occasion" (like wow what the fuck mom) so when you guys finally get to your resort at like 2 am the only thing you want is sleep but when you open your suitcase all your sleep clothes are fucking lingerie and lacy slips and tiny nighties and you curse your mother into oblivion. so youre like 🧍🏻‍♀️accepting defeat and choosing the least slutty thing in your suitcase to wear and when aaron sees you wearing a thin lace trimmed silk little slip dress that stops barely below your ass he is like 👀‼️ looking very disrespectfully. and when you scamper into bed red in the face he is already plotting how to get that slip off you and on the floor. and slides in bed next to you grinning as he shuts off the lamp.

hes carefully reaching across the bed and gently grabbing your arm, pulling you closer to him and when you whine in protest he hushes you and says "cmon honey youre my wife now. at least one cuddle for consummation?" and you grumble because like yeah fine i can get down with a cuddle. so you scoot your back up against his chest and let him wrap his arms around you, one hand pressed right up underneath your breasts and the other spread wide over your lower belly. and you lay like that for a few minutes until aaron slowly rubs your belly and breathes softly in your ear before hes pressing up tighter against you, not so subtly rubbing his hardening cock right through the gap between your ass cheeks. and he lets his hand rub down lower until he's grabbing the hem of your slip and tugging it upwards. without warning hes shoving his hand into your (very tiny) thong and rubbing at your clit.

and when you gasp and your hands shoots to grab his wrist hes shushing you gently in the ear and whispering "no honey dont worry. not gonna hurt ya. just wanna feel you pretty girl. thats what you are you know? youre my pretty girl. my pretty girl. my wife. mine to hold, mine to touch, mine to fuck, mine to love. be good and lay there like a good girl and take it yeah? promise youll feel good." and then hes slipping two fingers into your needy heat. and pumping them in and out of you slowly, curving his fingers to press right up into that one delicious spot. and when you gasp and try to squirm away his other arm latches around you pulling back flush against his form so he can keep grinding harshly into you.

it doesnt take long at all for you to come on his fingers, your orgasm seemingly taking you by surprise because you gasp so loudly and grip so tightly at his arm around you. and before you can finish coming down hes got his boxer briefs pushed down, your hips pulled back and his the thick heavy head of his cock prodding at your entrance. your head still fuzzy you stutter at him to let you catch your breath at least but he just attaches his mouth to a pulse point on your throat and pushes in, bullying his cock into your tight little hole with short but firm thrusts. he isnt even bottomed out and youve already started whimpering for more like a cockdrunk slut.

OHMYGODDDDDD THIS IS SO 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 YAWL GOTTA DO A SERIES ON THIS I SWEAR THIS IS SO HOT GURLIE HHHHHH

[veeveex3]

bit of a random thought, yeah, but I had to say it or else I would EXPLODE:

why the FUCK does idia ride his broomstick like

THIS

like, wouldn't that take a lot of arm strength??? he's basically doing a pull up- lemme repeat that again: IDIA, the fucking, HIKIKOMORI OTAKU who spends all his days playing VIDEOGAMES and making ROBOTS finds the best way to RIDE a BROOMSTICK, which you can SIT ON, is to JUMP UP and use his probably NON EXISTENT ARM STRENGTH to prevent himself from FALLING ON HIS SKINNY ASS (while ALSO focusing on moving the broomstick UP with MAGIC)

like, maybe I'm over thinking it, maybe being an engineer-mechanic-inventor-whatever-he-technically-is does require some arm strength, but still

even jack, one of the most muscular characters in the game, doesn't do this like-

so either a. he is essentially doing a pull up and idia, somehow, has some muscles (it's not impossible but unless him picking up heavy metal caused his arms to tone up a bit or he has some really good genes, I don't see him working out lolol) or b. since the broomstick uses magic, it takes less physical effort to hold it up with your hands than to ride it (which, huh???)

that, or, funny option c. it requires a lot of strength to do what's basically and aerial pull up, strength that idia barely has, and the only reason he rides his broomstick like this is to look cooler than he actually is (given his ego, I wouldn't put it past him if this was true)

OMFG I JUST HAD ANOTHER THOUGHT

unless robotics aren't allowed during flight class (which they probably aren't)

WHY DOESNT HE USE A ROBOT TO HOLD HIS LITTLE STICKY THING DURING ALCHEMY IS HE THAT LAZY OR THAT WEAK I CANT TELL WTF-

and there's more that I can talk about when it comes to idia just, not making sense (and no I'm not just talking about his hair) but my brain hurts from all of this so imma stop lol

[sunieepo]

one of my biggest pet peeves with the bloodborne fanbase (from reading fics, mostly) is that everyone assumes that gender roles in yharnam were the same as gender roles in irl victorian england

...but this is textually not true. yes bloodborne is heavily inspired by victorian england but it's definitely not exactly the same. for starters, obviously, yharnamites worship eldritch gods which isn't at all in line with the cultural values informed by following christianity (i dont think i need to elaborate on what i mean by this)

the most obvious low hanging fruit example is vicar amelia, who is laurence's successor and current head of the healing church... and a woman, something that would never be allowed in victorian england era christianity (and honestly isnt even allowed today in many denominations)

the other which is slightly more obscure but even more valuable is that yharnamites are, in-canon, heavily inspired by the culture of the pthumerians. whether yharnam was literally built in the name of pthumerian queen yharnam or if it was simply named after her later is unclear, but the yharnamites evidently hold pthumerian society in high regard. and the pthumerians were almost certainly a matriarchy (female rulers, and only women were embalmed in coffins). i think of pthumerian to yharnam the way one might think of what rome was to the european countries later influenced by it.

other little things are:

the existence of gratia: an old hunter who was a woman renowned for her physical prowess. not very "womanly", yet clearly exalted by the church; item description refers to her as heroic

clothing details: most clothing items have very little differences between male and female hunters. most notable that does off the top of my head is that the church set for women has stiletto heels, which i think falls in line with my belief that most women of the church were blood saints. nevertheless, you do fight a pair of female church hunters in the dlc who seem to have no issue kicking your ass in said heels. this could be said to be due to game dev laziness, but importantly there are sets that Do have gender differences (like the cainhurst set...)

cainhurst: cainhurst is commonly pointed out by fans as the "odd one out" for its matriarchal vibes, so people assume yharnam must not have been. i agree, but that still doesnt mean yharnam had the same gender roles as the ones we have irl. in fact if anything, theres a distinct lack of emphasis placed on gender in cainhurst item descriptions or even alfred's hateful ramblings; although we assign misogynist intent to him, pointedly what he (and item descriptions) take most issue with isnt the #feminism, but rather cainhurst's obsession with nostalgia and bombast.

this isnt to say that yharnam had No gender roles. it did. just Different ones. (and im not saying it was a matriarchy either btw.) the existence of blood saints indicates that women likely were relegated to religious roles in yharnam. women who could not become blood saints probably became hunters of the church. characters like yurie also show that amelia wasnt an isolated case; women also comprised some amount of choir members as well, indicating that they likely regularly held high positions within the church hierarchy. additionally, lady maria being one of the byrgenwerth scholars indicates that women were allowed as students alongside their male peers, even if they may have been less common. all of these things are markedly different from how victorian gender dynamics were.

its just a bummer because i actually think the gender dynamics of bloodborne are super unique and interesting and are way more nuanced than a simple "women and men swap roles" type thing. but then all these fans who claim to be bloodborne loreheads just supplant irl victorian england gender roles into yharnam and call it a day when that is like... at best lazy/uninspired and at worst directly contrary to canon.

i rly mean no hate ofc (ive even enjoyed reading fics that include such things, even if i disagree with them heavily) and im happy to discuss these thoughts further, i just want to draw attention to smth about the bloodborne lore that i think is sadly overlooked because, when it comes to bloodborne and its feminine themes, ppl get much more caught up on the more overt pregnancy symbolism (which is understandable, but doesnt exist in isolation of the above). i have a lot more to say on this topic but this post is already getting long enough so ill just stop there lol

[relicariums]

Just sounded like you didnt understand the point of that so i thought id explain, but its apparent youve got some sort of superiority complex about the whole thing. People who purport it to mean "not doing dishes" dont understand that the original context is about labor contributing to a functioning society. You cant be lazy at a job that doesnt need to be done, essentially, because the demand is a fabrication. Im sure youve seen people extrapolate that to mean a lot more. And of course i have dishes i havent gotten to, i live in an unhealthy society with an unhappy mind.

"Original context" pal the concept of laziness is as old as humanity . If in your head someone needs to be mentally ill and with a shit job to not want to do something that's mental acrobatics you gotta come down from the clouds. You want an example of the word "laziness" deserving to meaningfully exist ? I have one in the next street over in the form of an uncle who can't be fucked to wash a plate or clean the house and gives my grandma shit whenever she dares suggest he does anything when he's home except sit on his ass . Is he mentally ill? No he's just an entitled sack of shit who knows he can get away with it. He's lazy

[forestryfae]

but yeah. basically ive been sleeping during the day a lot and it sucks. works not going as good as i wish it did. balancing work and homelife isnt easy, and homelife is lacking.

i have an important letter i need to send, gotta call teh dentist, im supposed to be taking meds for rosascea but im not allowed to keep the meds in my room and noone is helping me remember the medication (which is stupid as fuck cus when im late to work once or twice theyre IMMEDIATELY on my ass asking if i need someone to come wake me up. hello??) i also have to call whoever gave me my drivers license for practicing or else i might have to take the whole course again.

i also have to go home for 3 weeks and im not looking forward to that. and i need to go spend christmas with mom which like. free food ig. family will need christmas presents but like im broke and i just dont see why. they fucking suck. why am i wasting money on people who care so little about me that they treat me like absolute dogshit. no basic respect or common decendy, talking down to me and treating me like shit all the time, literally anything that can be criticized will be critizied, no respect for boundaries and throwing fucking temper tantrums if i get mad that they trampled over them, just doing whatever the fuck they want and expecting me to be okay with it. nothing is ever good enough but if you dont try youre a lazy brat with no willpower. mental illness exists but its never the root of the problem, its always you. also everyone around them are mindreaders and if you didnt predict what they wanted youre an asshole and you lack common sense.

and i have to spend the next three weeks dealing with this shit with no chance of escape cus they can just show up with no warning at my house. she doesnt care if i was asleep or busy, that just gives her an excuse to be bitchy about it. the world revolves around noone and dont think youre something special except for if youre her. fucking bitch.

but yeah ill be spending 3 weeks mostly trying not to go insane. i need to clean the kitchen, bathroom, hallway and bedroom. i need to go through all the stuff in the kitchen so i dont have a million things i never even touch in there, plus i gotta actually cook every day and i have to go shopping atleats once a week, which wont be easy. the bedroom is a emss so i really want to clear out as much of it as possible, especially w the writing desk i have. its enormous and swallows up the whole room, and i have just a bunch of stuff and garbage lying around that i dont know what to do with.

then theres the bathroom, which is easy enough, but the cats been pissing on some of my clothes on the floor in there since noone in my family understands the concept of closing doors and not letting the cats play in insulation. like the doors dont. magically open by themselves. they were left open. theres also a fuckton of laundry and cleaning off the dryingracks since moms been fucking with those again, and she absolutely has been messing up my sorting. i went through my clothes and decided on what i want to keep and what not and now i 100% guaranteed have to go through that stuff again.

and like. i also have to look at what i have and what i dont have. cus i got some plastic boxes that i was gonna put stuff i wnated to keep in and i never got around to it so i have to just hope i can find it in me to bother going through verything in the house and packing what i actually want i really want to ask the people at the thriftshop i work at if they want like 4 or 5 boxes, if not more when im done, of just garbage. but at the same time, i KNOW theyll clean everything before selling it but i dont want to touch any of it and i dont want it anywhere near me. im so tired of cleaning and bad vibes. im so tired of stuff just not working out.

also. have been considering moving my bedroom to the livingroom. like it just seems easier but at the same time i dont want people in there or people going through my shit when im not at home. idk. its more like a bandaid in an attempt to deal with a broken leg that isnt healing cus its not in acast or getting medical attention.

[whitechocolatemochaasblog]

if i may---how does malorie feel about the diaboys? what's their relationship like?

(im going to make only sakamakis and this might be a bit short because im planning on making a story for each of them and also, im very lazy😭)

Shu

- their relationship kinda doesnt exists??

-like they knew each other because they see each other in school and mainly because Malorie is coming to sakamaki's house once in a while but thats pretty much all.

- shu thinks she is "annoyingly optimistic"

- but also whenever their paths cross at school or the sakamaki's house, he cant help but look at her in awe because she is so pretty. but will rather die than admit that.

-Malorie also finds his hair very pretty and wants to touch it but she knows damn well that shu is going to make fun of her for it.

- also they are not even friends so they dont really talk much and also because he finds her quite "troublesome"

Reiji

- ohh now this man can not understand if he hates or loves her company.

- when reiji first saw Malorie, he tought she was a "lady who needs improvements on her attitude"

- but one time he offered her a cup of tea that he made while she was waiting for kanato

- and she really loved the tea

- and when she started complimenting about how the tea was great, this man's ego went up like mount everest.

- and he realized that she is not that bad after all because they have a lot in common like; reading, having coffe addiction(yes thats my headcanon that he is a caffeine addict), and much more.

-so every now and then they kinda talk with each other while drinking tea/coffe whenever she cames to their home.

Laito

-they are besties who flirt with each other

- everyone propably thinks they are dating atp

-they hang out a lot, going shopping together, doing their skincare routine together even going on dates together..

-and laito actually sees her as a good friend. To him, she is someone that he can feel even a little bit like himself. İts like she is his therapist at this point😭

-they are kind of like the perfect person for each other but they are just friends.

Ayato

- oh he hates her.

- he thinks she is a mean bitch

- and the reason he hates her because she rejected him lmfaoo💀

- he saw her at school once and fell head over heels for her.

- he started to watch her from afar and admired how cute and kindhearted she is to everyone.

- and one day when he finally had to guts to go ask her out, he went to her closet while she was getting her books for the next class and he said exactly this; " ore sama demands you to date him"

-let me tell you the way she laughed

- literally everyone in school came to see to find out what the fuck is that noise

"Dude i dont even know you how can i date you?"

"well you should because ore sama demands you to"

"are you talking about yourself in third person?? And what the fuck is ore sama is it like oreo or sum shit?"

- the way he felt so ashamed and embarresed

Kanato

- omg they are lovers atp and Malorie adores him.

- when kanato first saw her he tought wow this can be a perfect doll.

- but no his stupid ass fell in love instead💀

- he doesnt know why but whenever he sees her, that butterfly feeling is always there and he finds himself wanting to be closer to her and this feeling annoys him so damn much.

- he is lying on his bed, and suddenly starts thinking about Malorie. He is doing his makeup and all of a sudden he wishes Malorie was there so they can do their cute little silly makeup together. He is having a nightmare and for literally no reason, he just wants Malorie to be There and hug him.

- he wants her gone but he literally cant do it. Because even the tought of her being death makes him sick.

- he cant stand the idea of it and its SO weird to him since he didnt felt anything like this before.

- their relationship is like sun x moon. Tropes in books/movies

- also Malorie is such a good influence to Kanato that even his brothers can see that

Subaru

-like shu, Malorie's relationship with Subaru kinda doesnt exists.

- i mean he sees her at school and whenever she comes to the mansion but thats pretty much all.

- but one time tough Subaru broke a vase accidently out of anger and Malorie saw that.

- so when she came the next day, she bought a vase for him

- he really appreciated that and is thankful to her since then

- he thinks she is a pretty kind and delicate soul that doesnt belong in this cruel world just because she gave him a fricking vase💀

[lgbtqiadnf]

The years end! (A DTQK ff)

Hello!! Im back! This is a DTQK dabble for the NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGGG!! I CANNOT BELIVE IT :DD HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD NEW YEAR FILLED W/ AMAZING THINGS!!!!!:D NOW WE MUST BEGIN! (only like 1000 bc im too lazy) 

11:21PM 

This was the first ever time Dream Team was all together to celebrate the coming of a new year! This was going to be the “most Insane new years ever,” quote by GeorgeNotFound. 

“George, to say this was the worst idea ever, is an understatement,” Quackity said, as George put up lights around the house, “What?” George stood on an unbalanced stool, 

“what if Dreams tall ass gets choked out because you put the lights too low?” Quackity created a fake scenario, “Thats on Dream, its not my fault I put them low! You’re not helping me so,” George rolled his eyes, 

“this was your idea! I dont need to help you,” Quackity argued back, “Why are you here then?” George got off the stool, “I don’t wanna hang out with Dream and cook, that would be horrible to not only have to be with him but cook to? Ew no,” Quackity joked, “How about Karl or Sapnap,” “They already are partners,” “Partners?” George giggled, titling his head as if Quackity said he was something odd, 

“Yeah, partners... so you’re the only one left,” Quackity grossly admitted, “Ok, go get me more lights, I’m almost done!” “Where else do we need to do?” “Your room! We’re almost done Dreams,” Dreams room was massive, so it took a couple extra minutes for George to put all the lights up, “Isn’t this your room too?” Quackity joked, “No...” George blushed, glaring at Quackity.

11:33PM

“NO! You’re the biggest idiot!” Karl lightly pushed Sapnap out the way, “You’re doing it wrong!” Sapnap and Karl bickered back and forth,

Sapnap and Karl were decorating cookies, Sapnap was trying to write to draw a “New years” hat but Karl said it looked more like a birthday hat rather than whatever Sapnap said a ‘new years’ hat was, 

“Karl, those types of hats exist!” Sapnap defended, “I know they exist! but your cookie makes it look like you’re going to celebrate a 3 year olds birthday!” Karl rolled his eyes, “Its fine Karl! Shut up- I’ve done it,” Sapnap put the cookie to aside, 

“Thats horrible,” Karl muttered, loud enough for sapnap to hear but quiet enough for Dream not to hear,  who was a couple feet away making cookies, “I’m going to leave, I’ll go to fucking- I’ll go hang out with Quackity,” Sapnap rolled his eye, “no, no, no- fine, it looks good,” Karl smiled, kissing Sapnap on the cheek,

 “Stop-” Sapnap blushed, cleaning the spot where Karl kissed him, making Karl giggled, grabbing another cookie,

“Can you pass me- uhm... Orange,” Karl asked, “Here,” Sapnap looked at what Karl type of cookie he had, it was a heart shaped one, which already had purple on it, “Pfft-” Sapnap let out,

Karl put orange on the other side of the heart, making one half of cookie purple with an orange, “S” for sapnap and the other, orange, with a purple “K” for Karl. Karl smiled at the cookie, “Its the karlnap cookie!” Karl showed the cookie to Sapnap, making him laugh, 

11:39PM

“Are you done with the lights?” Dream smiled, as George and Quackity joined him in the kitchen, 

George sighed, “Yeah,” looking in the fridge, “Whats wrong?” Dream turned around hugging George, “I’m tired,” George groaned, “Last night when we stayed up you were fine?” Quackity added, “Yeah, but I had a nap yesterday, I’ve been up ALL day,” George closed the fridge, turning around to look at Dreams new batch of cookies, “these smell nice,” George smiled, 

“GEORGE!” Quackity yelled from upstairs, “YOU MISSED MY ROOM! COME UP!” George rolled his eyes, “I’ll be up...” George groaned, “Why doesnt he do it? Make him do it! Stay with me,” Dream lightly grabbed George’s sweater, “Uhm...” George blushed, “I’ll ask him,” George pulled out his phone message Quackity, 

“Thanks, I was lonely,” Dream smiled, “uhm...Now- well, I’m here!” George smiled, blushing, “Do you want to make a cookie?” Dream picked up an Among Us cookie, knowing George would love the cookie, “I made this one for you!” Dream gave George the cookie, “thank you! Can you give red?” George points at the food colouring, 

Dream gave his blue instead of red, “This blue?” George stared at Dream but all dream did was laugh, “Blue looks better,” Dream smiled, “Sureee,” George didn't necessarily care that it wasnt red but it was better. 

11:46 PM

Quackity was left alone with patches and Tiger who seemed to be getting along now, “Where is George?” Quackity asked the cat duo, but they payed no mind to him and is question, 

Quackity pulled out his phone to message George just to see a notification from George saying, “can u put the lights up on ur own!! Im busy rn :]” 

Quackity almost screamed, “Fuck...” Quackity rolled his eyes, looking at the box of lights, “Nah, no... fuck that,” 

Instead Quackity joined the cat duo on the floor, and messed around with the two. 

11:52PM

Everyone was now in the living room, talking about what they were looking forward to the New Years, “I’m excited... to be in the US for new years!” George could quite think of something, 

“My turn! I’m looking forward to beat George in subs,” Sapnap joked, “Thats what I’m looking forward to too!” Quackity cooed, “ok- stop... Lets go do fireworks its ‘56″ George got up, getting firework “56?!” Sapnap shoot up heading for the door, 

11:56PM

Sapnap placed a firework done and George grabbed the lighter from Dream and lit up the firework, running away from firework and running into Dream and hugging him. 

The firework shot up and exploded in millions with a red colour, than another one this time blue, and another which is green, making Dream and George scoff lightly, 

“Wait, that was Dream Team colours!” Karl smiled, patting Sapnap on the chest excitedly, “Oh my god!” 

Sapnap then sat down this small one and George lit it, instead of it going in a million pieces it went shot up a bunch of flares, Quackity ran up behind George, shaking him, “OH MY GOD! QUACKITY!” George yelled getting Quackity off George, “You bitch!” George rolled his eyes, “GUYS! Its 11:59!” Dream interrupted, 

11:59PM

“5-4-3-2-1!” The 5 said in unison, yelling, “YEAH!” “WOOO!” “YES!” The five smiled, hugging, 

“Happy new years guys!” Karl smiled, hugging both Sapnap and Quackity at the same time, “Happy new year!” Dream put his arm around George, 

The five smiled, finally together for the new years, it was a perfect night to spend with all together. 

THE END!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVE YOU LOTS <33 STAY SAFE C: 

[mynameispluto]

Its like 2:30 in the morning and im tired and need to get up in a couple hours, but i really want to ramble about this idea about accessibility in art that i talked about with my therapist

For the longest time ive struggled with constant feelings of art block, burn out, and just overall no interest in my passions, and it got to a point where i just felt like i had to accept it, even tho there was still this desire to create underneath all the exhaustion

It wasnt until a few days ago, where i was like "im really bored, lets make one of those really really simple animation/edit memes cuz why not" and then i actually made it, which was super surprising cuz i never finish anything, and i was like,, so happy that i made something

Animation has always been a passion of mine, like SUPER MEGA BIG TIME passion, specifically with frame by frame stuff, but everytime i go to try to animate anything, no matter how short or simple it is, i can never finish it which leaves me feeling, well, terrible all around

I would fall into thoughts like "look at these people on youtube making beautiful animations, i should be able to do that" "I know how to animate, but why doesnt anything come out?" ect, and it would leave me feeling constantly like, worried about how people perceived me as an artist

But then i made this silly little animation meme, and suddenly something clicked

I can't make (XYZ) cuz its just not accessible to me right now

Which felt weirdly nice to come to that realization? i can make stuff, its just that the things im trying to force myself to make arent the things i should be making, they dont fit my needs, and im making them more to please other people than myself

Like, i would LOVE to be able to pump out disney quality 2d animations, with full colors and everything, but thats just not realistic for me, but that doesnt mean i cant make anything

Or like, i hate doing line art so much, so i just decided to stop doing it?? Ya know???

I feel like as artists we really become slaves to these imaginary rules that dont actually exist, that one way or another we internalized along the way, whether intentionally or not, especially in the age of the internet where any one person can just say whatever and it almost instantly becoming the popular opinion

Those rules dont exist, there are no rules in art, do whatever

If making a character bob its head to 30 seconds of music is what you can comfortably do, and it makes you happy, then do it

If drawing a 3/4s angle of the same character over and over again is what you can do, do it

If trying to be consistent is a pain in the ass for you, then fuck consistency!!

MAKING YOUR ART ACCESSIBLE TO YOU IS NOT YOU BEING LAZY

Art doesnt have to exist to be impressive

[teeto-peteto]

…Out of curiosity, what’s your least favourite skin line?

ah i see... blood, i like that.

Ok so i hate Riot and i like destroying like a kaiju with rabies so, i consider a skinline something that has at least 2 sets, cause saying Zenith Games would be repetitive and we all know that was a literal crime. So if i had to say one, Project.

Okay, the first release of Project was good, i dont really remember if i saw the release when i started playing, but the initial skins were good. The colors were well put on, the whole mecha but prothesic but futuristic stuff was well glued together, the designs were neat! They were simpler, but well put together. The only itch i have is that they made women have like, at least the half down of her face uncovered while the men champions get all their face covered. But yeah, Riot making gendered accentuations in skins, we have been knew, it keeps happening.

Master Yi and Ashe were cool when they came out eventually, again i think they are neat (gendered nonetheless) and Yi had cool interactions, Ashe had that toggle where she uncovers/covers with her hood when surrounded by enemies or being alone, wich is cool for a legendary skin from back in the day.

Vayne, Vi and Jhin were also good, Jhin is iconic, i think Vayne has a good skin, Vi went kinda on the irrelevant hole but its a neat skin nonetheless. See this is exactly what happends in all of the skinlines riot has exploited. They make good shit until they realize they can milk fans EVEN MORE and then start to get lazy.

I dont understand the downgrade with the next skin set. It was hideous, they made Pyke so dirty with a literal scam skin that recycles the default animations a lot of the time but still costs 15 dollars, and the whole story was very mushy imo. The gender remark on the skins started to get frustrating. Cause of course Irelia is pink cause shes a woman and she's also showing her face, Fiora was pink. Katarina is also pink. Jinx is purple thank god but thats probably because she was released alongside Irelia because in another case they would have made her PINK cause she's a GIRL. On the other hand Akali is there and everyone has ONE colour just not to mess up with the palette but they give her BLUE hair and RED weapons. Honey just pick a damn fucking colour you cant have both.

Since then everything has been crashing down, honestly i cant remember when did Katarina and Ekko appear but they were before Pyke and his gang release and i dont think they are bad skins entirely i just think its obvious that Kata is pink. At least they also show Ekko's half face.

There's this weird ass change (i didnt read the lore nor i care but...) were they were like robots at first and there was also human characters and now they're just HUMAN CHARACTERS or human characters stuck in ANIMAL MECHA SUITS im loosing a braincell typing this. Project Mordekaiser? They said it was the best skin in the whole game. Im not anyone to interfere on their opinion and i think their opinion is great but here's my angry opinion: Bullshit, fan inflated, male character oogabooga, if they did same with a female character everyone would be zzz. Project Renekton is eh? Project Warwick is also an eh? No clue why they started with a lets make the animal characters in project and put guys inside like. They dont know about the springlocks wink wink. I often forget Sejuani exists in this universe but yeah she has a robot pig. Or is it a guy in four inside a pig suit? Tell me cause i didnt get the memo quite well. Senna is purple cause making her pink was going to be obvious and anyway doesnt fit her aesthetic but its also a forgettable skin, at leasy you can pair it with Lucian, her face being shown of course cause yeah Riot being creative. Project Sylas is HIDEOUS i've never seen such a terrible concept of a skin he's just himself in his canon outfit but with changed colours and they keep trying to sell it to me for 10 dollars. Project Varus is literally the same as Akali but less painful, honey just pick a colour you cant be blue and yellow. Icky.

In conclusion: Girls in mecha futuristic suits show their faces cause they are too pretty to be covered even when there are laser blasters and stuff falling from the ceiling. Sylas is shirtless and thats his entire personality in the skinline. They made Pyke dirty (honestly this is my most painful statement, im drying my tears with my Project: Pyke and his 7 chromas). There are guys inside animal suits but Bristle is there so i just raise my eyebrow in confusion. Mordekaiser being the best thing to ever happen to humanity after the discovery of fire according to the fans. Etc

Anyway, set in on fire.

[iwannabeastarstarrockmann]

i dont fucking know if my thoughts are my own or if ive just been so emotionally and verbally abused each day that im starting to internalize someone elses idea of me. idk what to think lately. im so fucking depressed and anxious and sad like every single day, it hurtsso much, and it fucking sucks that there are people in my life who just view me as a sad sack of shit with no aspirations or value. i never get more than a day to get better from anything before someone in my life is pressuring me to get off my ass and do something productive. dont you know tht there is something seriously wrong with me. idk why i cant do things, i just cant. i wan to be so productive and social, i just cant bring myself to do it right now. i feel so trapped and overwhelmed. do you realize how exhausting it is to wake up everyday with a mind attacking itself, with a body that aches, with a hope that this will be your last day of suffering, with no sense of what it is you need in order for the suffering to stop. i want to scream but i have no energy to. i want to die one minute and then hope to save my own life the next, contradicting every word or thought with an action that is not my own. theres days where my health anxiety is practically non existant and then something will happen, it could be something so nonsensical and somehow ill get triggered or worried and there i go absolutely obsessed with some strange pain or weird tension, or god forbid i actually get infected with something. thats all i could focus on 24/7 until i find some way to make it better, but the worry from the thing that im feeling and wondering about my health, this shit brain decides its so stressful and scary that i should just starve myself, cause if i were skinny, these prooblems wouldnt feel so big, or maybe id be able to go to the doctor if im 2 sizes smaller. that doesnt make any sense. i know it doesnt so why do i do what i do. and then theres the cutting that i feel i have to do or else i wont learn from my mistakes but if i cut myself whenever i impulsively feel like it, then that makes my immune system too weak to fight off whatever i think i have this week so im trying to recover from that as its only making everything more complicated, but its all i can think about, especially in this self loathing state im in now. im such an idiot, im just a sick fuck who cant stop thinking to herself that maybe im faking all this and im actually okay. i think its all my fault for being this way, i dont remember what started all these unhealthy coping mechanisms but it has to have started with a thought right? i feel so ashamed for being this way, it was stupid of me to ever adopt such habits restriction makes me more confident but the constant exercise makes me too weak to go anywhere to show that confidence, and great! now i actually am sick, and my immune system is shit, and my emotional state and self hatred is making it worse, and im too overwhelmed to see anyone in my life who thinks they love me, because i dont want them to see me like this. they wouldnt believe me if i tried to explain that im struggling and need help. ive tried. they dont listen. they dont realize whats important. i know i put em through hell, im selfish, im self centered and dramatic and lazy and gross and undeserving of any love they think they have for me. i dont trust it. dont tell me you love me, you barely know me, the real me, the one i keep locked behind a closed door each night, to contemplate what im going to do about this shit life ive curated for myself. im so tired, im so fucking tired all of the time. i dont know how to keep going. i dont know how to do anything for that matter. im not even going to revise this shit post, im too tired, i just need to announce somewhere, somehow, that im so fucking lost that i dont even know if my thoughts are my own, or what it means to be a person. everyday with this bullshit, now im getting into existential dread territory, im just so sick of my own shit! im sick of myself. why cant i function like everyone else???

i want it to be over, i wish my problems could just be solved without any external help. i just want to wake up tomorrow and for everything to just be okay. i want to feel okay again. i dont need anything fancy, please let me wake up tomorrow with hope of brighter days. its so hard to see the beauty in my life when im being suffocated and pinned down by something invisible. i dont have the capacity to love or care for anyone or anything, and no one can see that i just need a break?? how can you not see me? no one can see, ill show them and they still wont see! they refuse, simply because, they cannot see inside my head and dont care enough to want to. they think they do. i tried to tell them time and time again but i think its just that when i am feeling okay, they dont like the choices i make. when im okay, i make sure i make the most of that time by prioritizing my own happiness over everyone elses, and that really pisses people off! to the point where they want to tear me down and take that light away from me. i didnt ask to be here, now, with all this pressure on my shoulders to be more than what i am. im simply existing. i can feel it. tomorrows gonna be so shit. i can always sense the storm before it comes, i wish i could prevent it, or ease my pain in some way. these substances are nice in the moment but eventually the buzz will wear off and ill just be me again, with nothing to offer. i dont have anything to offer. life is too hard, i gave up so long ago and didnt even realize that is what was happening at the time. i just go through it day by day without fully processing that ill have to wake up the next day. i wish my life was a dream i could wake up from. my brain isnt working right. i dont recognize myself. i hate how alone we all are. every sensation, thought, visual, sound, and taste. you are completely isolated from everyone around you.

[theid0loftimeandspace]

The job market is so stupid got offered a job in 'my field of study' and I'd only be making .50cents more than I make now without tips. Transit to this other job is also hell and legitimately dangerous in the winter (countryside, and the only route there gets shut down every winter and experiences multitudes of accidents bc people are fucking dumb drivers). Maybe it beats grilling sandwiches and dealing with shit customers, but when it comes to making money I'm going to hate my life regardless of what I'm doing; so as long as someone else dictates 80% of my daily schedule and therefore life. I'd rather do anything in which I can make the most money in the least amount of time with low responsibilities. My free time is far more valuable to me than putting fancier words on my resume. Oh man 2 weeks paid vacation tho right? gl getting that time approved. Shove it up your ass. Gas is too much to justify the transit in comparison to what I'd be making. There's no pride in a job title unless you're working for yourself. 'Opportunities for growth' in a job is a myth. Give it 5 years and this 'opportunity' will be nullified to any future employer due to time and inevitable advancement in any given field. I know I'm stupid as fuck and lazy and me not taking this job could actually be a bad decision but I just DON'T care anymore. Still can't move out on the wage. Still can't finance a car. Can't build a meaningful and independent life on this wage. I'll have even less time free time. BUT OH MAN A 'perceived' OPPORTUNITY AT SOME INDETERMINED POINT IN THE FUTURE THAT DOESNT EXIST AND PAID 2 WEEKS TIME OFF OMG!!!! You may ask why I applied in the first place. The truth is idk, but I still put hope in the possibility they would pay a good wage. It's worth trying I guess because you never know but underpaying seems to be a chronic issue in this field. The economy is also destroyed at this point so it's hardly their fault fast food pays more than they do. There's no initiative is taking jobs that require a specialized skillset because if it can't afford you a decent life but the fast food job can, then what is REALISITC at that point? Can't blame ppl for being in despondency. This is the shit that makes me go "why bother" and rot on my phone all day.

[please-n-thankful]

i had a drawing of arnold and helga as benders in arnold birthday post but i can’t stop getting the idea of helga,,,.. being the avatar out of my head so here’s my Helga Avatar AU also known as, hey arnold avatar the last airbender au i don’t know The year is current year, and bending is slowly becoming a dying art as more and more non-benders are born. People are slowly moving on from bending as a whole, forgetting it’s importance in their history and society (or something along those lines.) The idea of an avatar is a distant memory, or was, until yadahdahdah helga is the avatar and i guess teams up with arnold, gerald, and phoebe to “”save/restore bending”” or something like that i don’t have good ideas okay it’s a dumb idea and i’m sorry arnold for pulling the spotlight away from you to helga but i had to  i made an attempt