#'neil loved his life'

[kevindavidday]

i was re-re-re-reading lessons in cartography by profenity (as one does) and i was hit with such an insane affection for andreil suddenly like i was 16 reading the same two people fall for each other and thinking yeah that sure is love and almost a decade later my thoughts haven't changed at all? cause ykw that™ sure is love

[hansoeii]

we go just right.

[unforgivablego]

I'd like to know also what was that? Was it scripted too? If so, then was it more like “he runs his eyes on Crowley's body with a BIG DESIRE" or was it "he stares at Crowley like his favourite food"? Or it's just Michael Sheen again?

[the-inner-musings-of-a-worm]

aaron minyard doesn’t hate neil josten because he’s annoying or because he’s his brothers boyfriend.

no, aaron minyard hates neil josten because one day, neil will be asked to kill his brother and andrew would hand him the gun without hesitation.

it starts when neil joins the team. sure, things were rough before, but this kid showing up out of nowhere and trying to fix them rubbed salt in the wound. he sees how neil interests andrew, how his brother keeps giving the liar his yeses and his deals and promises. it doesn’t sink in until baltimore, until andrew breaks his deal and chokes out kevin. watching andrew kneel in front of neil (nathaniel), a broken boy made from butchers and glass, that’s when fear starts to claw into his heart. he interrogated neil at the cabin, and the whole time there’s a whisper in his head saying “just how far will andrew go”

aaron watched andrew fight his way into being his own person after a childhood of tragedy upon tragedy. he was there when nicky adopted them, when andrew explored his agency and rebuilt himself from the ground up. and then he watched as andrew found neil and piece by damning piece built his life around him. they’d deny being codependent but there is no more andrew minyard and neil josten there is only andrewandneil.

neil makes a deal with the mafia and aaron wants to scream, shake the man and ask him where his brother fits into all this.

but he knows.

he knows that one day, neil josten won’t be a professional exy player anymore. he knows that the man will grow old and slower, and one day he won’t have a paycheck to send to the moriyamas. they’ll consider him a liability, show up at his home (the one he shares with andrew)

and when neil josten will fall, so will andrew minyard.

his brother claims he is an independent person but he is lying

aaron is terrified, because he knows there is no corner of hell that neil josten could not lead his brother to.

neil josten is andrew minyards death sentence, and aaron is the only one who can see it. he cares too much about his brother not to.

[koldefingre]

I’m obsessed w drawing them

[everyonesadoptivedad]

sketch dump from one of my favorite moments :> ✨

((done listening to this ))

[amorisastrum]

Todd Anderson with situational mutism, discuss

[feathered-serpents]

Listen. Everyone knows that I love Neil Gaiman’s work. He has his own dedicated section of my bookshelf. I’ve read almost his entire body of work including most of his short stories. Love this guy

But also I have never read a Neil Gaiman sex scene that is actually sexy. It’s either neutral or painfully awkward and I genuinely cannot tell if that’s by design. The man’s a good writer, but he’s not an erotica writer

Also he has a tendency to use the word “cleft” in regards to female anatomy (usually something like “he licked her cleft”) and I cannot figure out what part that’s supposed to be

[dailytraingirl]

my roman empire is “nothing compares to the fever dream” because literally nothing does

imagine yeah sure todd finally finds someone else who understands him after neils death and they date and maybe get married but todd knows that nothing compares to what he could have had with neil

its like at the end of titanic. jack dies and rose goes on to have a whole life where she gets married and has lots of grandchildren. but then when she dies, she returns to that ship with jack, not her husband or any of her children or grandchildren. like they only knew each other for a brief time but that time meant so much to them that they cant imagine anything else.

[ninyard]

do you think andrew and aaron talked about his testimony before the trial, like about what andrew was going to say, or did aaron find out the full extent of what happened at the same time the jury did?

hmm. good question. i don’t know! easy answer: no, not at all. i think aaron is completely clueless going into it and every word that comes out of andrew’s mouth on that stand hit him like a fucking truck. i think he holds his head in his hands because he can’t listen to it, it hurts too much, he can’t see andrew like this. andrew doesn’t want him to see him like this. so clinical. so straight forward and honest about his abuse. describing what drake did to him, for so long, and nobody knew about it? nobody had any idea what andrew was going through? yeah i think it really upsets aaron when andrew takes the stand, because he had no preparation whatsoever for what he was going to say. he’s expecting andrew to talk about that night, and then andrew is talking about being 13 or 14 and it’s just. it’s awful.

the other answers:

1. it comes up in their therapy sessions. a week or two before the trial andrew mentions that he’s probably going to get called as a witness and privately he’s already spoken to bee, but in their joint sessions aaron brings it up first. he mentions something about how he’s worried about andrew having to speak about that night on the stand, and how he doesnt know how he’ll be able to sit in that room and hear about what drake did to him for the first time there, in front of the judge, a jury. andrew tells him not to worry, to just cover his ears and not listen. but it ends up in possibly a very loose conversation, andrew telling him what he’s likely going to have to talk about, purely so aaron isn’t sideswiped on the stand.

2. maybe they talked privately about it. they’re both restless and freaking out for the week before the trial and maybe they just catch each other at the wrong/right time and they ask each other what’s going on. aaron tells him everything, blurting the things out that he can’t talk to anyone about, his fears his worries, how he can’t sleep the closer it gets. but one thing he mentions is andrew. and andrew tries to get him to be quiet about it, but aaron keeps going, and he talks about how he doesn’t know what he’s going to do, with andrew up on the stand talking about his abuse, the things he had no idea about. andrew asks him why he’s worried. and aaron looks at him but he can’t look him in the eyes and he’s just like. i don’t know how i’m going to look at you knowing the truth about what you’ve been through. and i can’t hear that for the first time in front of all those people. so maybe andrew alleviates his stress by opening up, by telling him the roundabout truth about what he’s going to have to talk about.

3. aaron’s lawyers tell him. whether andrew would be in the room or not, idk, but they’re talking through their points and they brief aaron on what andrew is likely to be asked. maybe they show aaron andrew’s statements. maybe aaron has to read in andrew own words who drake was to him, and then he has to go out and sit in that courtroom and watch his brother take the stand feeling different about him. knowing too much, but at least knowing what to expect when the prosecutor starts asking questions.

[stormyoceans]

something something neil and xiao hai comparing each other to elements that symbolize life

something something the two of them entering each other’s lives in the moment they needed it the most and helping each other move forward

something something xiao hai thinking he’s been following neil one step behind his whole life and neil thinking he’s been relying on xiao hai to keep going and how they’re actually standing side by side moving towards the future together

everyone interpreted neil's words as him realizing his feelings for xiao hai, but i feel like we're being too influenced by the preview for next episode: both moments aren't about romantic feelings, but about the way neil and xiao hai have shaped and changed each other

[grooviestguru]

thinking about how neil and andrew spend the rest of their lives with their college sweethearts and can't stop giggling

[hansoeii]

head empty, no thoughts. just turtleneck crowley

[shorlinesorrows]

qpr jean and neil. that's all i'm gonna say.

do you see my vision?

[cimacally]

Quick dead poets headcanons without context pt. 8

What type of psychical affection would make them melt?

Neil - booping his nose, for whatever reason

Todd - kissing his cheek

Charlie - deep eye contact (not rlly psychical but shh)

Cameron - touching/brushing his hair

Meeks - wrapping an arm around their shoulders whenever possible

Pitts - pinkies interlocked everywhere

Knox - quick, sweet hugs

Stick - patting his cheek

[rabbitsbackliner]

Okay WAIT

If I Had You came out in 2009 and there’s no way Andrew “emo gay icon” Minyard does not know about Adam Lambert.

So he’s been dating (or whatever they’re not calling it) Neil for like what almost two years now - he’s in the Mas, blasting the radio, and he hears “IF I HAD YOU, THAT WOULD BE THE ONLY THING I’D EVER NEED” and “boys, rollin’ in Maseratis” like does he almost crash the car?? Probably not, because he’s Andrew, BUT (and he’s not gonna mention it to anyone) I’d bet money on him fucking loving the song