#(Knowledge..........Just like in the sims 2!)
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cat-mermaid · 2 days ago
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*Deltarune Dess theory*
When I was a baby I used to be obsessed with the game Creatures 2. I played that game nonstop for 3 years and learned all about downloading mods and custom made Norns (one of the creature species you could raise in the world) and installing them directly into my game
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So a big thing about this game was that you could literally “save” a creature, as in export it to a floppy disk (this was a 90s game after all) and when you did this the creature would vanish from the world and into the save. Of course once you had it there, you could make as many copys of it as you wanted, upload the data online for others to download for their own games and so on
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But the main reason I did it as a kid? To save my favorite Norns from death, from old age or some other fatal thing. Creatures 2 was a lot like the sims, your creature was born, aged and died eventually. There were also all the things in the game world that could hurt it, usually in the form of drowning or eating a poison plant... but mostly the fucking drowning
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So I would just have a bunch of loose floppies on a shelf by the family pc, all holding my most favorite Norns at the moment when they were in their primes, frozen in time for when I wanted them. The other fun thing was that you could have multiple Albias (the name of the planet the game takes place on) aka more then one game world, and drop in or take out Norns and drop them into whatever version of the world you had. I think I had 4 Albias going on at the same time, each with their own Norns familys doing their own things. You could put as many copys of one Norn into as many Albias as you wanted
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So with all that information I’ve given you, LETS TALK ABOUT DELTARUNE NOW!!!! Creep a peep at these, the hidden dialog in the code for chaps 3 and 4:
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so as soon as I read this-
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-my stupid never shutting up theory brain went nuts. So what if.
What if
What if characters in a video game knew there was this prophecy, and that at some point in the future, 3 random people would have to set forth and save the world. And everyone knew about it and everyone knew that part of it involved the heroes of the prophecy having sacrifice one or all of themselves to stop the world from ending. Then one day it begins, the prophecy commences, just as was written. And to a select few of these video game character’s horror, their precious child is one of the fated heros. Marked for death in order to save everyone
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But what if there was a way to cheat fate? What if somehow, someway, these game characters had a sliver of knowledge that they shouldn’t? What if the prophecy could be duped? What if that poor doomed, precious child could be hidden away? Hidden away from the reality of the world itself? Her existence closed up in a place removed from the main part of the game? A place like
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A save file?
And once that was done, the next part would be to trick fate completely
. With a new girl
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Find a girl, an unwanted, unloved miserable child who will unmourned by anyone if she goes missing. Arrange it so that she ends up in the town that the prophecy is supposed to take place in. Then? Send in the Judas goat
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Groom her for the hero's role, walk her down the path laid out by the prophecy. And then you pull the ol switcharoo on fate-
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and once the prophecy is fulfilled and the world is saved? Load your precious child back into the world and live happily ever after
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wat could possibly go wrong?
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abbysimsfun · 9 hours ago
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Sims In Bloom: Generation 2 Pt. 202 (Looking For Answers in Ravenwood)
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When Conrad arrived in Ravenwood, he stopped first at a tavern Layne Coffin was known to frequent. The owners were a pair of strange gentlemen who eyed the outsider and his badge with suspicion., insisting they hadn't seen or heard anything to explain the concert musician's disappearance.
Odd as the men were, Conrad had experience. He trusted they were telling the truth and decided against raising the issue of their expired liquor license, in case he might need their cooperation in the future.
This was Ravenwood, after all, where most everything had expired in some way or another.
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Leaving the tavern, he wandered the square at Crow's Crossing where Layne was last seen. He was exhausted. Still stunned by the news of Ximena's murder behind bars and lagging after a long flight, he and Heather hadn't slept. Instead, they'd watched the kids' rooms until sunrise. Ximena's death might comfort most, but Ash could see ghosts and they had no way to know if - or when - her ghost might come back.
Conrad needed to focus. Lavender made him promise to find Layne Coffin before he left for the investigation, and the chief was right - he couldn't disappoint her any more than he could his boss.
But for a sunny weekday just after lunch, the square was decidedly empty. No one milled about as they might elsewhere.
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This place really is for the dead, he thought to himself, frowning as he took a seat at the edge of a stone fountain. Glancing toward an empty playground, he spotted a few ghostly orbs floating in circles. Squinting in the sunlight, Conrad could make out small, grinning faces in their translucent forms.
With no living sims around, this was as good a lead as any he might find in Ravenwood. He stood, walking slow to keep from scaring them off.
But these spirits were playful and friendly, as the playground where he found them might suggest. One of the trio, with a faded handlebar mustache above his mouth and a yellow bowtie beneath it, bounded up to him eagerly.
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"Hello! I'm Freddy, what's your name?"
"Captain Conrad Gordon. It's nice to meet you, Freddy."
Freddy gasped and somersaulted in the air. "A detective?! Ravenwood hasn't had a detective since-"
"Freddy, be quiet!" One of the other ghosts hissed as it circled the scene from a distance.
"Since when?" Conrad pressed.
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Freddy laughed. "Since they died! Everybody dies in Ravenwood. Is that why you've come here? To die?"
Conrad's eyes narrowed. "I'd rather not, if I can help it. I was hoping you three might have some knowledge about the disappearance of the concert violinist, Layne Coffin."
"Who's that?" Freddy wondered.
"Sounds like he's laying in a coffin," said another. "Did you check there?"
Conrad scowled. "You three should be in a comedy sketch."
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Freddy nodded. "We were! We weren't stars of the vaudeville stage, but we opened for the stars sometimes."
"Of course you did. So you can't help me with any clues about Layne Coffin's disappearance?"
"Did he fall down the well? We can tell you about Edith's well, but we don't know anything about your missing violinist."
Exasperated, Conrad left the square. His frustrating day looked like it might push back the start of his family's trip to Sulani, until his phone beeped with an incoming text message.
I convinced her to talk to you. Here's the address.
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Conrad greeted his old friend, Felix, at the home of Olive Specter in Crow's Crossing. The Black Widow invited him in, giving him a quick tour of the home before sitting down to give the detective her statement.
"I was born here in Ravenwood. My ancestors were ancient mystics from the area, and I grew up with my sister, Willow. She and I were thick as thieves until she married a fool named Creon and gave birth to my niece. Creon got himself and Willow killed and I raised Ophelia myself. She was my constant through four marriages that ended under unfortunate circumstances. I looked at her like a daughter; my son loved her as a sister. And she betrayed all of us, including Layne."
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"You think Ophelia had something to do with his disappearance?"
"I've believed it in my soul ever since they both disappeared."
"How did each of your previous husbands die, Miss Specter?"
"My first love was Earl DeMise. My Earlie was an electrician, but he tripped himself up with faulty wiring on a job site three days before our wedding. Ophelia was set to be the flower girl, and she was devastated. That's when I first suspected she might hate me, if I'm honest. My second love, Hugh, was a lecherous man. I grew to hate him, but the fire was caused by his own addiction to candlelit dinners."
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"You understand why it sounds suspicious, don't you, Miss Specter?"
"I do. Rigger always told me the same thing. Rigger Mortis was Ravenwood's last detective and my next husband. His death left us all devastated, but he was an old man. Nothing suspicious about it. Ichabod was my husband when our son Nyon was born. We loved each other until the day we died, and Ophelia resented me for finding so many soulmates. She never believed a person could have more than one, which is why she thought she could lay claim to my dear Layne."
"You and Mr. Coffin never argued about your niece?"
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"Once or twice, but nothing serious."
"And you have no idea where your niece might have gone?"
"She would never tell me. She had a good relationship with my son, but she didn't even tell him where she was going."
"Where's your son now?"
"He's on a school trip, Captain Gordon."
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"Was he a fan of your fiance, Miss Specter?"
Olive froze. "What are you implying, Captain?"
"Nyon's a good kid," Felix insisted. "San Myshuno PD haven't named him as a suspect."
"It's my job to ask questions," Conrad insisted with a smile. "I don't mean to imply anything, Miss Specter."
She frowned. "I think I've answered enough questions, Captain Gordon. Send him away, Mr. Psyded. I know he's a friend of yours, but I can't give him what he wants. I don't know where my fiance is."
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Felix smiled warmly. "You have enough to write up a report, Captain Gordon. Thanks for meeting us here."
"You can go, too, Mr. Psyded. Unless charges are laid, I have nothing else to offer either of you on this."
Conrad eyed her suspiciously as Olive walked them to the front door. "If I have more questions once we track down your niece, will you take my call?"
"I'm offended, Captain Gordon. After inviting you into my home and answering your questions with honesty, you still doubt me?"
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Conrad feigned a look of sincere concern. He didn't trust her yet, but he didn't want to let on too heavily and scare her off. People with money were always a flight risk. "I'm invested in finding the truth, Miss Specter. If you can help me get to the bottom of Mr. Coffin's disappearance, I'll be in touch."
Olive dismissed them with a polite smile, the heavy wood and steel doors closing behind them with a thud. To his disappointment, Conrad left without clues to Layne's disappearance, but he did come away with plenty of suspicion.
They stepped into the square and glanced at the brass ram statue towering overhead. "When do you need to head back?" Felix wondered. "Did you have time to stop by to see Lilith and meet Jaz?"
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Conrad set his suspicions aside with a smile. He was anxious to solve the case and refocus on Rafa and his family, but he'd come all this way. "I'd love to, Felix." ->
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sysig · 19 days ago
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Sims 2 has played Clinical Trial, it all went by the exact same beats
#Clinical Trial#Angel Martinez#Lee Smith#The Sims 2#WPVG#WPTS2#Okay so it wasn't Exact-exact but some of that was due to a global mod I have since removed#I had the No Instant Love mod installed because even for how cartoony TS2 is - and I love it for that! - Sims do fall in love Hella fast#Problem being that my version of the mod is glitched :P It does slow the rate of one Sim's relationship - as intended!#The other? Refuses to see them as anything more than a friend - ever#Oops aroace mod lol#Would be ideal if I could Control which Sims that effect was applied to! Alas - you'll never guess - it hit Lee#So Angel fell in love with him and he was stuck at ''Just Friends'' - even when I put his relationship to max with them#Like - Angel's LTR and STR were both lower than Lee's of them and /they/ were the only one in love of the two! Mod borken#So I removed it and the cartooniness is back lol - it did give me the opportunity to screengrab Lee falling in love all at once haha#Also have I mentioned that one Sims 2 piece of homie's and how it's wrong lol#The Sims 2's Family Aspiration is the one that pops engagement and marriage as green Wants most reliably#But the Romance Aspiration - which in equal parts will pop those as red Fears - was the asset shown#Fake fan points and laughs#Lol#Obvi I made Lee a Family Sim! Actually a Knowledge Sim with a Family secondary - specifically pointed at Angel haha#And I think I made Angel a Popularity Sim with a Family secondary? I never know whether to make Pleasure or Popularity Sims haha#It felt a little cruelly ironic to make Angel want friends and not have any ♄ I am nice to the characters I like haha#They're fully moved in and living with Lee it's always Week 8 Sunday around these parts it's fine#It was fun trying to translate Lee's house into a 3D space haha - the creepy hallway???? I changed its orientation#There's no longer a door directly to the master bathroom you have to go through the bedroom#Did include the murder basement tho :) Not as a basement tho sadly :( Sims 2 is bad with basements#Even using The Trick I couldn't get it to work with the garage as part of the main building so I was just like Fine#First story murder ''basement'' lol - and the stalker closet isn't behind a bookshelf But it is locked to Lee only#So it's fine! It's all Close Enough :) It's all for funsies â™Ș
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episims · 1 year ago
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Credit to Cia for picking Paloma's clothes!
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✹ Paloma Storm
Aspiration: Fortune / Knowledge
Hobby: Science
Orientation: Lesbian
Traits: Absent-minded, heavy sleeper, ambitious, no sense of humor, loves the outdoors
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And look who tried to sneak away quietly! No chance. Happy birthday for you too, Troy!
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mrgiggler · 4 months ago
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i could say i have sims 2 brainworms again but its not worms . Its more like sims 2 brain hemisphere
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itwasmagic · 1 year ago
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does anyone recommend any games on steam for a beginner? i dont know what i like so im open to any genre of suggestions
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ninoochat · 2 months ago
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speaking of nostalgia I started watching clayfield bacc by marasims again and man. Hearing the sims 2 music in the background punched me in the face with the softest whipped cream pie 😭
And then I reinstalled the UC and am currently trying to absorb 20 years of modding practice by osmosis in a random tuesday afternoon love that for me
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maukuja · 7 months ago
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can't believe I'm playing dmmd in the year 2024.......
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sims2-electricboogaloo · 9 months ago
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all Gamestar Sims 2 CDs for download!
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Its finally done! ive finally finished and uploaded the stuff thats on these CDs! and you can get everything for yourself just like that :D
March 2005
July 2005
January 2006
March 2006
July 2006
March 2007
June 2007
All links lead to simfileshare, CEP is required for a lot of the items, and using clean installer on all builds and sims included is recommended!
these are all gamestar sims 2 cds that exist TO MY KNOWLEDGE, if you know of any more than these please let me know! finding information on these is not easy!
Have fun! :D
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makis-eyebrows · 1 month ago
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Request: 💕
Paddock Nap Queen
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The saying "The apple doesn't fall from the tree" has never been so clear every time Lando had his daughter at the paddock.
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If there was one thing everyone in the Formula 1 paddock knew about Y/n Norris, it was this:
She had two modes:
A full-on, sugar-fueled tornado of giggles and squeaky Crocs.
Fast asleep, dead to the world, in the strangest places imaginable.
It was an uncanny talent passed down from her father — Lando Norris — who had once been caught napping in a tire blanket during a rain delay. The drivers never let him live it down. Now, his daughter had taken the title of "Grid’s Best Sleeper" and turned it into an Olympic sport.
It was a typical race weekend — sunny skies, fans screaming, engines revving — and Y/n was zipping around the McLaren hospitality like she owned the place.
“Y/n, slow down before you crash into someone’s knee!” Lando called, only mildly concerned as he watched her zoom past with a cookie in one hand and a mini helmet in the other.
“Can’t catch me, Daddy!” she yelled gleefully before darting behind the coffee station.
Lando chuckled, sipping his drink. “She gets it from my mum. Swear.”
Oscar Piastri, walking by, raised an eyebrow. “Mate, she gets it from you. That kid has your energy — and your lack of an off-switch.”
“Please,” Lando snorted, “I have an off-switch.”
“Yeah. And it kicks in when you sit still for more than three minutes.”
They both laughed.
Twenty minutes later, chaos ensued.
Y/n had somehow made her way to the Mercedes motorhome, where George Russell found her sitting cross-legged in a chair, asking his engineer questions about the buttons on the steering wheel.
“She was very curious,” George said to Lando later, “and alarmingly knowledgeable about DRS.”
Then, when Carlos Sainz tried to lift her off the ground to return her to McLaren, she announced she was “on a scientific mission” and couldn’t leave.
Eventually, Charles Leclerc found her trying to get Leo, his dachshund, to talk to her like a human.
And then
 silence.
Which, for Y/n, was unusual.
Too quiet.
“Where is she?” Lando asked suddenly, looking up from his tablet.
Oscar looked around. “She was literally here five seconds ago.”
A paddock-wide Y/n Huntℱ began — which, by now, was just part of race weekend tradition.
Max Verstappen checked under tables. Alex Albon opened a cupboard in the Williams hospitality. Jack Doohan searched behind one of the team trucks. Even Sebastian Vettel, visiting that weekend, chuckled and joined the search.
Until finally, Isack Hadjar found her.
In the Red Bull simulator room.
Asleep.
On the fake car.
Her small body was curled up neatly in the seat of the sim, one hand still loosely gripping the steering wheel like a tiny future world champion. Her mouth was slightly open, drool starting to threaten the upholstery. Her mini McLaren cap had slipped over her eyes.
Isack took a photo.
Then another.
Then texted Lando: Isack đŸ„–: “Found her. She’s napping in Max’s sim. 😂” Lando 🧡: “Classic. Be there in 2.”
When Lando arrived, he stepped into the room and paused.
His little girl — his firecracker, his chaos monster — completely knocked out in the Red Bull simulator like it was her crib.
He bent down, brushing a loose strand of hair from her forehead. “You wore yourself out, didn’t you, baby?”
She stirred, mumbled something about cookies and “being the fastest,” then went right back to sleep.
Oscar peeked over his shoulder and whispered, “She’s going to run the grid one day.”
Lando smiled, eyes soft. “She already does.”
They didn’t wake her — no one dared.
Instead, Max, despite his initial horror, let her nap undisturbed.
“For the record,” Max told Lando, “this is the only time I’ll allow a McLaren person in my sim.”
“Appreciate it, mate,” Lando chuckled. “She’ll repay you with crumbs and glitter stickers, probably.”
Later that day, the sim was dubbed “Y/n’s Throne” by the grid group chat.
George posted a photo of her sleeping with the caption: “Queen of Chaos, Princess of Power Naps 👑”
Lando simply added a sticker on the photo: #LikeFatherLikeDaughter
And from that day on, a small plaque was taped inside the Red Bull simulator:
“In honour of Y/n Norris, age 5 — fastest giggle in the paddock, deepest sleeper in the world.”
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Done!!
I had to add some rookie appreciation in here somehow and still make it seem normal. Onto my last request.
That's Gang Gang out!!!!
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jinxxsims · 3 months ago
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I received a request from @fluffyfluse for some conversions from ATS' Sims 4 daycare sets and this is what I was able to come up with.
The play house, the castle, the play town, the barn, and the rocket ship are cloned from a 4t2 dollhouse by TheRaven, which in turn was cloned from a play garage by Leefish @ MTS. It builds charisma as it is played with. There were no broken meshes for the Sims 4 sets, so when these are broken, they'll still appear whole.
The toy abacus is cloned from a similar abacus made for Sims 2 by Maylin @ MTS. It will build logic as it is played with.
The bells toy is cloned from a music toy also by ATS, and will build creativity as it is played with.
The screw toy and the blocks puzzle are cloned from a toy by Rebecah @ MTS and will build mechanical knowledge as played with.
(I think. I really didn't take good notes when working through these.)
The Playdough, the Playdough pot, the fingerpainting kit, and the slate chalkboard are all just deco. The small armchair wasn't requested, but I thought it was cute, so here we are. It is functional and is cloned from a toddler chair by Solfal @ TSR. Fair warning, the toddlers get on it sideways, like a potty (which is what I think it was initially cloned from), so there's obvious clipping when sitting/standing, but once on the chair, all is well.
All recolors are included, as are the texture images so you can pick and choose what you want to keep. Remember to discard the images before putting them in your downloads. Everything can be found in game in General > Kids.
Download 4t2 Daycare Requests
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fireflowersims · 20 days ago
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Sims 2 "kiosks" aka: Someone stole my code and I am not happy
Okay, I'm gonna be honest about this because it's seriously bothering me. I hesitated to say something about this for a long time because I do not want to platform that code thief. I'm also not a fan of drama, I know how stressful that is for all parties and I normally try to stay out of it. Unfortunately, this theft just keeps coming back and seriously upsetting me so I have to say something about this.
My code has been stolen. To be exact: the vendor code from Sun&Moon. To be specific: a very specific version of the Laundry mod.
And by stealing, I mean passing off someone else's work as their own and encouraging others to utilize said stolen code.
Who did it? @sissysims
Sissysims stole the vendor code, made it into a "template" and even made a tutorial telling people how to use said template to make a "kiosk". After the publication, a number of people created "kiosks" using this stolen code. Notably: @simulationprincess and @grilledcheese-aspiration. I do not blame them from thinking it is a neat concept. Because it is. That's why we built those vendors.
It is seriously upsetting though to see our work going fully uncredited and sissy-sims receiving all the credit and praise. I have tried leaving a comment under her youtube video, but she must have hidden or blocked it, as it does not show up at all. She has also disabled private messages on her Tumblr. Basically, there is no way I can get in contact with her directly. So unfortunately, I feel like this is the only way to get my message out: in public.
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But how can I verify that this is stolen code?
Good question. I have recorded a little video with my proof. One-take, no editing. Should she choose to try to scrub her evidence, it will remain up.
youtube
So why am I this upset about it?
I am upset because of a variety of reasons:
Somebody is passing off my work as their own. Not only disrespecting me, mind you, but also the others who contributed to the vendor, most notably: the amazing people who translated that vendor. Yes, it is because of translations that I know that she directly stole our work. She not only stole my code, she had the nerve to steal my own words as well! I can literally see the Dutch translation that I wrote myself in there and if that isn't pissing and shitting on my head, I don't know what is
Sissysims does not know what she is doing object-creation wise. The Sun&Moon vendor code is among the easiest Sun&Moon code there is. It is simple and elegant. She decided to make it a mess requiring multiple files for some guobforsaken reason. Possibly to make it seem like it isn't straight up stolen code, who knows. Just speculating. Regardless, someone who knows what they're doing wouldn't have done what she did to that poor vendor.
Sissysims does not have the basic knowledge of how BHAVs work. The vendor code she stole uses custom globals, (something that we always clearly indicate). Naturally, she does not seem aware of this. Anyone using her "template" (read: what did she do to my darling vendor 😭) risks getting bugs because sissy-sims is incompetent and doesn't know what she's doing
Sissysims is encouraging other people to use stolen code that she herself does not understand
This is an explicit violation of the Sun&Moon policy. And also probably why she didn't bother even mentioning us. Other "edits" she has done are credited. She chose of her own free will not to bother crediting.
If she has done it to us, who is to say she won't do it to someone else in the future?
She has a fucking merch store and clearly has aspirations to earn money from her Sims videos, monetarily profiting from - among other things - the stolen code.
So what now?
If you want to create a "kiosk", please don't use that mutilated template. Just reach out to me and I can teach you how to make a vendor. It's easier and technically set up much better than sissy's poor excuse of a "template". And if it turns out the vendor doesn't do exactly what you would like it to do, then I can help you figure out how you can code something that does tick all the boxes.
If you already made one, I kindly, humbly, request you add credit. It is quite upsetting to see my work going uncredited. Or better yet: reach out as well. The offer to teach you the vendor code to make something better is also open to you. I enjoy teaching people new things if they only ask politely and are willing to learn.
If there is enough interest, I can even release an official vendor template with instructions. Simple to work with, the only requirement being proper crediting. Let me know if you'd be interested in this.
If you're sissysims:
Reconsider your choices and most importantly:
✹May you step on a LEGO brick✹
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anachrosims · 2 years ago
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[TS4CC] DARK ACADEMIA: PART 2!
HELLO again! I am proud, SO proud to present Part 2 of my Dark Academia series! (Part 1 is available already.)
I have ONE more Dark Academia set on the way, but for now, please come enjoy a set full of dozens if not hundreds of swatches of matching furniture and luxurious decor. This set also pairs extremely well with some of my other sets like Dark Academia Part 1, Country Manor, 18th Century Campaign, my Historical Recolors series, and Gorgeous Georgians.
Pick and choose your item(s) or just download the whole set in a zip.
Enjoy!~
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->GET IT HERE @ PATREON! EARLY ACCESS, AVAILABLE AUTOMATICALLY ON SEPTEMBER 27th 2023!&lt;-
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@maxismatchccworld / @emilyccfinds / @mmfinds / @ts4history
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[ITEM LIST, NOTES & POLYCOUNTS UNDER THE CUT!]
NOTES: 
All are BGC unless otherwise noted.
Items where polycount is not listed are just genuine recolors.
All items have their texture maps, shadows, and LODs.
Surface items have SLOTS!
All items have been tested IN GAME.
TOU: 
Standard, usual TOU applies-- No Simsd*m, no Simsf*nds, do NOT put this behind paywalls. Feel free to include these items in build folders as long as they are not paywalled. Feel free to use textures/meshes as bases, provided you give credit & link back to my simblr and/or Patreon page.
WHAT YOU GET:
Dark Revival Wallpapers
Evening Hours Wallpapers
Storied Halls Polished Oak Walls
Historically Preserved Plaster Walls
Grand Old Flagstone Floors
Just Scraping By Wood Floors
Book Club Chair (Requires Cottage Living)
Hushed Tones Elegant Bench (1126 polys/1460 verts)
Hushed Tones Elegant Stool (1058 polys/1420 verts)
Grandfather Lamp (Requires University)
Anchor Replica (2406 polys/2401 verts)
Baron Von Butte Bust (736 polys/691 verts)
Chess Mate! (328 polys/521 verts)
Immodest Desktop Pedestal (56 polys/112 verts)
Magnificent Magnifier (370 polys/454 verts)
Model of the Astral Locale (508 polys/530 verts)
Mysterious Ancient Sculpture (958 polys/560 verts)
Skull Specimen (148 polys/157 verts)
Walk Don't Runner Rugs (3x1, 4x1, 5x5)
Forbidden File Cabinet of Mystery (770 polys/912 verts)
Hallowed Hall Halved Desk (878 polys/1232 verts)
Modicum of Modesty Dresser (710 polys/792 verts)
Bonefish (278 polys/282 verts)
Dark Botannical Prints
Observer Shadowbox (94 polys/96 verts)
Scenes & Sims Paintings (V1) (390 polys/416 verts)
Scroll of Knowledge (Vertical) (420 polys/582 verts)
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salemsimsrender · 4 months ago
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Sims 4 Render Lighting Tutorial
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"Environmental Lighting" won my most recent poll, so let's get right into it!
A few notes before we begin:
I render exclusively in cycles!
This tutorial assumes some basic knowledge of blender
Though this tutorial covers the basics, HDRIs can be used in conjunction with any scene/your built scenes
I decided to focus on environmental and other lighting in this tutorial, since they all kind of go hand in hand.
For this tutorial, I'll be using my recent Cupid Sim. Here's a render of her with no additional lighting:
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1. Base lighting
In any full body, single sim render (like lookbooks, for example), I really like to use a glowing base. It grounds the sim a bit and casts some interesting lighting on them.
To do this, I add a circle under their feet by pressing shift+A and selecting circle.
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An empty circle will appear, but we need it to be a solid disk, so go into Edit mode (by pressing tab while the circle is selected) then hitting F on the keyboard to fill it.
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After that, you can go into the Materials tab and add in color and glow.
Mine is adjusted like this:
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And gives this rendered result:
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2. HDRIs
HDRIs (High Dynamic Range images) are extremely useful when it comes to environmental lighting, I always use them now to add better/more dynamic lighting to my renders.
HDRIs are 3D/panoramic, which makes them extremely useful.
You can find/download HDRIs online in a few diff places: PolyHaven, AmbientCO, and Blender Market.
There are also several available for FREE using BlenderKit (my preferred method).
So how do you use an HDRI?
We can add HDRIs to our render by navigating to the world tab and changing the color to "environment texture".
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I chose this vaporware HDRI from BlenderKit, & here it is with no adjustments, but it's looking a little rough so let's adjust it.
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By adding vector nodes, we can adjust how the HDRI behaves. Here I mostly use the Z rotation and the background strength:
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Here's the same render with the Z-rotation set to 50, 150, 200, & 250.
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You can put in any value for the Z-rotation, this is just an example of how the HDRI turns. This is maybe not the best example of the rotation, but putting her in a forest just didn't feel right lmfaooo, hopefully you can see how the light changes on her depending on the rotation.
You can also adjust the strength of the HDRI. Here's the HDRI (rotated to 150) set at .5 and 1.5 strength:
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For this tutorial, my favorite lighting is the HDRI set to 150, and the strength set to .5, like this (this is a rendered image):
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3. Transparent HDRIs + Point Lights
But I'm not fully happy with the lighting. I don't love how the HDRI is a bit blurry, so I'm going to set it to be transparent.
To do this, go to the Render Tab, scroll down to the Film option, and check Transparent:
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The lighting effect from the HDRI will stay the same, but the background will be transparent.
From here, you can add a background (when I do this, I like adding a plane, & moving/shading it until I'm happy (kinda like this):
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NOTE that you have to put the plane far enough behind your sim so it doesn't affect the HDRI lighting too much.
SECOND NOTE You can use this same method to use HDRIs in conjunction with scenes. They can provide the perfect backdrop!
This is still really dark, so I'm going to add three point lights: -Two on either side of her head/shoulders that will be smaller (in radius) and brighter -One in front of her to add actual light (so details aren't lost)
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Here's how I set up my lights.
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The pink light settings are for the two point lights on the sides The white light setting is for the light in front of her
For a basic render, this is almost good enough for me, but I really like the glowing effect I get in my renders.
To achieve this, we have to go to the compositing tab:
4. Compositing
Full disclosure, my compositing tab is set to glow by default (that's how much I love it), so all of the renders in this tutorial have it turned on.
I use the glare node and set it to fog glow.
Here's my preferred setting:
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I prefer the fog glow effect, but bloom, ghost, streaks and star are also options.
Here's a guide to the glare node!
Tbh, I never use any of the other settings, so I'll leave this tutorial here for today.
Here's the final result (with no additional editing):
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If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to send an ask, message or join my discord (no minors pls) for help! <3
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s0lifuge · 2 months ago
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bicultural hermione. hermione who doesn’t let her knowledge of muggle culture and science and art stagnate. hermione who makes muggle friends all her life, and doesn’t spend every conversation wishing they were magic too. hermione who understands history in both the muggle and wizarding worlds, well enough to see the lessons each can learn from the other. hermione who can see, as biculturals do, how everything socially imposed within a culture can be different - how the world could be different if only more people saw it like her. hermione who breaks the statue of secrecy in private protest. hermione who never forgets who she was before she got her first ever owl. hermione who pays for harry’s cellular plan just so she can text him memes. she’s the only number in his contacts & it takes him 3 days to remember to check it but he does. hermione who gets really into The Sims 2. bicultural hermione. bicultural hermione!!!
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ja3yun · 4 months ago
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The Sun that Always Burns | S.JY
chapter 2: it falls apart
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sim jaeyun x fem!reader warnings: smut (mdni), protected sex, oral (f.rec), fingering, petnames (baby, princess), slight exhibitionism, the end of this chapter hurts (sorry), angst/fluff, not really proofread, anything else please lmk! w.c: 17.4k synopsis: high school is ending, jaeyun has your future all planned out, but when life throws you a curveball and you make a rash decision to protect you and jaeyun...it falls apart a/n: hi! chapter 2 is here <33 a massive thank you for all the lovely comments and feedback with chapter one, it means so much to me. this chapter is a little sore if you love ynjake but it i also preparing you for much worse so!! enjoy!
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As the end of high school loomed over you like sleep paralysis, you found yourself in a nightmarish swamp of college brochures, scrolling through endless websites in search of something - literally anything - that might ignite a spark of interest. That was the big problem, though. You weren’t passionate about anything that could translate into a career. Your teen brain only sought after one end goal and that was Jaeyun. He was all you could think about; the only future you’re certain of.
Jaeyun, on the other hand, has always known what he wants. Apollo College in Busan. It has been his dream for as long as he can remember. He spoke about it even way back when you two were mearley best friends. He was born to study mathematical physics, his mind a labyrinth of theories and equations you could barely wrap your head around - which isn’t saying much, you barely know your times tables. 
But, yet, you listen to him go on about it over and over again because you loved nothing more than the way his eyes lit up whenever he spoke about quantum mechanics, the way his enthusiasm turned the most mundane concepts into something alive. Even though physics itself bored you to tears, listening to him talk about it made it feel like poetry. 
Sometimes, you even make him read out the study material to you just so you actually consume some knowledge. His accent mixed with his drive to help you actually did positively impact your grades even if only slightly.
You, however, had nothing of passion like that. No grand ambitions, no clear direction. And Jaeyun, despite being your greatest love, was not exactly a viable career option. As much as you’d love to be his full-time trophy wife, reality wasn’t so forgiving. 
“What about Apollo, though?” Jaeyun asked, his eyes glued to his phone as he scrolls through yet another website on your bedroom floor. “They offer some ND-level courses. You could do one of those.”
You scoff, tossing a balled-up piece of paper at him from your bed. “Baby, be serious. I am not applying to a college for geniuses.”
Jaeyun catches the paper with ease, smirking as he sets his phone aside, full undivided attention on you. He gets up slowly, moving to sit next to you on your flower-patterned bedding. “You could totally pull it off. Imagine it - my girl, a woman in STEM.” He gives you a slow once-over, his smirk deepening. “It’s kinda hot, actually. Very hot.”
Rolling your eyes, you snatch his glasses off his face and slide them onto your own. Peering at him over the rims, you let your voice dip into something sultry. “Oh? Like this?”
Something dark flickers in his gaze. His tongue darts out to wet his lips, and you don’t miss the way his jaw tenses, nostrils flaring slightly in arousal. He’s never outright admitted it, but you know he has a thing for you in glasses. You’re not above teasing him about it either. Times when you want him to focus on you rather than his work, you’ll put on a pair of his specs, biting your lip and cradle his lap between your thighs. It’s a sure win tactic.
Now, if only you put as much effort into school and your future as you did seducing your boyfriend into bed.- you could make it to Harvard with top honors.
“My girl looks good all the time,” he murmurs, shifting closer, “but you in STEM? That’s marriage material, baby. I’ll wife you up right now.”
Heat creeps up your neck, his eyes eating you whole as he tries to trap you between him and the bed, ready to fuck a ‘yes’ out of you and get your acceptance to apply for a University you know you don’t stand a chance in. 
So instead of giving in, you finally gain your bones back, prying your eyes away from his love-drunk gaze. You place a finger against his forehead and push him back before he can close the distance. 
“Jaeyun, this is serious.” 
Jaeyun groans dramatically, flopping onto his back and staring blankly at the ceiling, his cock sighing at your rejection. “I am serious. You need a college and - okay, if not Apollo - Busan has loads. One of them has to have something you like. Something you can apply for so we can be close.”
You bite your lip, fingers drumming against the laptop keyboard. “What if I don’t find anything? What if I get stuck here, living with my parents forever, only seeing you once a month or something?”
That gets his attention. 
He sits up straighter, his expression sobering in an instant. “Y/N, if you can’t find something here, I’ll look somewhere else. My grades are good enough to get in anywhere.” It’s a subtle brag but you know he’s right. 
But that doesn’t mean he can just give up his dream school that he has spent countless nights dreaming and studying to get in to. You refuse to watch him throw it all away for you. It’s a ridiculous notion, one you can’t sit and watch him contemplate for more than a second.
“No,” you say immediately, shaking your head. “I am not letting you give up your dream school because I’m too thick to get into a single college.”
“But you’re my dream, Y/N. I’ll follow you anywhere you want to go. I’d give up anything for you, you know that.” His serious expression makes you a little uncomfortable. “I’ll get an apprenticeship or just a job if there isn’t a course for me.”
There is something about hearing him say he’ll throw his aspirations out the window for you that hurts your heart and you don't know why. It’s romantic, most girls would kill for a boy so understanding. But that’s not how you see it.
“Jaeyun don’t say that,” discarding your laptop and shuffling towards him, hoping the closer you are, the further deep your words will reach him, convince him. “I didn’t watch you need an IV drip from studying so hard just for you to not go.”
Something unreadable flickers across his face before he exhales, dropping his gaze. “I might not even get in, y’know.”
Immediately, your hands come up to cradle his face. “Baby, you’re a shoe-in. You’re the smartest person I know.” 
You always wondered why your boyfriend has such a hard time believing in his own abilities. He knows he’s smart, and he knows that colleges are falling at his feet to get his brains and athleticism on their roster. But something about when Jaeyun truly wants something, like this college, like you, he just lacks the self belief that he is even good enough for it. 
You run your thumbs over his cheekbones, watching as he leans into your touch. “I just wish you could see yourself the way I do. You’re born to do amazing things, and one of them is attend Apollo.” 
His lips curl into a small, sad smile, his fingers wrapping gently around your wrists. “You always say stuff like that.”
“Because it’s true,” you whisper. 
He holds your gaze for a long moment studying you, like he’s signing a final document in his mind. A declaration of some sorts. He looks a little nervous, haunted by the prospect of something that he won’t say. 
“Baby?” You nudge him. “What’s wrong?”
Jaeyun hesitates before speaking, kissing your palms slowly before letting go. “I mean it, Y/N. I’ll go anywhere you go. I don’t care where. I just - I can’t do long-distance. I know what happens in long-distance relationships.” His fingers curl into the blanket beneath him, hurting at even the prospect of this reality. “At first, we’ll talk all the time. Then life gets in the way, and suddenly we’re only FaceTiming once a week. Then it’s just texting because that’s easier, and before we know it, we barely talk at all. And then you’ll meet someone else - someone less clingy, more attractive, someone who can actually be there. And we’ll break up.”
His voice is thick as he barely manages to push out the final words. 
Your heart aches to see him like this, so doubtful. “Jaeyun,” you murmur, waiting until he meets your eyes. His are glossy, filled with a fear he doesn’t want to voice but can’t hide. “I’m not going anywhere. I will find a school in Busan. I will be right beside you for as long as you’ll have me. And we will never break up. Okay?”
Deep down you feel his concerns too. Of course you do. Long distance isn’t for the faint hearted; there’s more chance to misinterpret words and texts, less chance to keep the bonded knot sturdy between you. And with him saying all this, talking about how long distance wouldn’t work for you both, it make you start to really question the what ifs. 
But right now you have to convince Jaeyun that everything will be fine, all while trying to convince yourself in the process. Doubts that weren’t on your mind now are, but you push them down as far as you can - stamping on them like you’re trying to fit one more piece of trash in the can.
Jaeyun searches your face for any sign of hesitation, but he finds none. Slowly, he nods.
A breath of relief escapes you, and you lean in, pressing a faint kiss to his lips. “I love you, you idiot. Nothing will break us apart, okay?”
Jaeyun chuckles against your mouth, kissing you again, lingering this time. “I love you too.”
When you pull away, you shoot him a teasing grin. “Now come on, use that big sexy brain of yours to help me get into college.”
Jaeyun’s laughter fills the room, and just like that, the weight in his chest lightens. You spend the rest of the night filling out applications, finding comfort in the promise that, no matter what, you will find a way to stay together.
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Rejection. Rejection. Rejection.
You open the next email, already bracing yourself. Another rejection - your seventh, to be exact. 
With a sigh, you lock your phone and rub at your temples. Time is slipping through your fingers. It has been two months since you sat in your bedroom, applying to a million and one colleges, and now, with just six weeks left, your options are very quickly dwindling. 
He’s moving to Busan. You’re supposed to be moving with him. But if nowhere accepts you
then what?
Your mind drifts back to the moment Jaeyun’s future was set in stone, the day he got his acceptance letter from Apollo.
There’s a frantic knock at the door, so insistent it makes your dad yank it open with a scowl. "Who the fuc—Oh, Jake. What’s the big rush?" he grumbles, irritation fading as he takes in Jaeyun’s breathless excitement.
"Is Y/N here? I need to see her," Jaeyun pants, his eyes already darting past your dad, ready to bolt up the stairs.
Your dad barely has time to nod before Jaeyun is kicking off his shoes and taking the steps two at a time.
"I think Jaeyun got into college," your dad remarks to your mum, who peeks around the corner, watching the whirlwind with a mixture of amusement and wonder.
In your room, you’re hunched over your desk, drowning in revision, completely unaware of the storm about to hit you. Your hair is a mess in a sloppy bun, your baggy sweatpants are the same ones you slept in, and Jaeyun’s old football jersey - the one he gave you after his first high school championship win - hangs loosely from your frame. You look like a typical stressed teenager.
When he reaches your doorway, he stops, his chest heaving, eyes drinking you in like he’s seeing you for the first time. "Beautiful
" he murmurs under his breath.
You look up, blinking at him in confusion. "Jaeyun? What are you doing here? I thought I was meeting you later."
He strides over, thrusting an envelope towards you, his hands trembling slightly with anticipation, mouth too dry to speak. You take it cautiously, eyes flicking to his face before unfolding the letter.
"Dear Mr. Sim," you read aloud, heart pounding. "We have received an overwhelming number of applications for the Mathematical Physics BSc Honours programme. However, we are delighted to offer you a place-"
Your breath catches. The words blur as they register in your mind.
"Jaeyun," you whisper. "You got in?"
He nods, disbelief still written across his face despite the confirmation in black and white. A squeal erupts from your throat before you can stop it, and in the next moment, you launch yourself at him. He catches you with ease, arms locking tightly around your waist as he spins you slightly, laughter bubbling from his lips.
Joy and pride flood the room, washing away the quiet rejection that has lived here for too long. At least once, this space gets to witness a letter that doesn’t end in an apology.
"This is amazing, baby. I’m so proud of you!" The words spill from you, breathless but nonetheless filled with exhilaration. You pull back just enough to cup his face, your thumbs brushing over the warmth of his cheeks. "You fucking did it."
His grin is blinding, eyes crinkled with elation. In this moment, Jaeyun is the picture of someone whose dreams are finally within reach. And God, you love him. You’re proud of him. But deep down, in a place you don’t dare voice, you envy him.
That memory snaps like a rubber band in your mind as you force yourself back to reality. You mutter a quiet, ‘fuck’ stuffing your phone into your pocket before heading to class, the weight of failure dragging behind you. 
Nowhere wants you. Not Busan, not Yangsan-Si, not even Gimhae.
You picked courses regarding subjects you enjoy in school, or rather, got decent enough grades in to hopefully scrape a pity acceptance. But it wasn’t enough. You aren’t enough.
Only two options remain.
One is a short twenty-minute commute from Jaeyun’s future campus. The other? Four hours away, tucked on the outskirts of Pyeongchang. You never mentioned that one to him. You didn’t really think you needed to. It was your ‘just in case’ choice - the one you assumed you’d never have to consider.
Now, it remains as possibly one of your only options.
Your feet feel heavier as you step into class, suddenly feeling the weight of having to tell your boyfriend that one of the only colleges you have left as a viable future is in fact going to induce his worst fear - long distance.
Jaeyun’s face lights up the second he spots you cross the threshold, waving you over with that easy, boyish grin of his. His chair is turned away from his desk as he chats with Jay and Heeseung, completely at ease.
"Baby, come here!" he calls out to you, unbothered by the eyes that shift toward him with his echoing accent. Jaeyun has never been quiet about his affection for you. The class, especially the girls, hate it, but he doesn’t care - could not give a single fuck.
You smile fondly at his gesture, letting the warmth of his presence chase away your spiraling thoughts as best as they can. He has a way of taking everything dark and making them disappear. 
As you move to sit beside Jay, Jaeyun tugs you onto his lap instead, his arms looping around your waist effortlessly, snuggling you into him like a puzzle piece. Jaeyun presses a kiss to the back of your shoulder in response, his smile smug, utterly unashamed. 
"You guys are disgusting." Jay, Jaeyun’s friend, groans, pretending to vomit.
"It’s a good thing you two are going to college together," Heeseung teases, leaning back in his chair as he pats Jaeyun’s arm. "I think my man here might actually die if he’s away from you for more than three minutes."
That sinking feeling starts to rise again, quick and overwhelming.
"Yeah, he wouldn’t last a day long distance," Jay adds, nudging Jaeyun’s knee.
The words dig under your skin, settling like lead in your stomach.
There is one more chance.
Feigning nonchalance, you slip from Jaeyun’s grasp, prying his hands from your waist. "As much as I love being the source of your collective disgust," you joke lightly, "I need to pee before class starts."
Jaeyun pouts slightly, his hand hovering at yours in a weak attempt to hold you captive, but lets you go, pressing a quick kiss to your lips before you escape. “Don’t take too long, baby.”
Plastering on a fake smile, you nudge your nose with his as a promise before walking out briskly, weaving through the throngs of students in the hallway until you reach the bathroom. The second you’re alone, you exhale sharply, pressing your hands against the sink, gripping tight at the edges as you try to find some balance in this chaotic mess. 
The doubt creeps in again, insidious and unwelcome.
It’s not that you don’t believe long distance can work. It’s that you know it won’t work for him. He said it himself, he can’t do it. He can’t imagine you not by his side, to hold you every morning, to kiss and cuddle you when he’s stressed or just needing to feel you. He is willing to give up everything to be with you.
A familiar ping echoes through the empty bathroom. Your fingers scramble to unlock your phone, heart hammering as you read the notification.
Mail: Offer Update – Kyungsung University.
Your pulse thunders. This is it. Your last chance. Last chance to make this right and start your life with him in Busan.
With a deep breath and shaky heart, you open the email.
Rejection.
Your breath catches. The world tilts.
There are no more chances.
Shit.
You stare at your reflection in the mirror. The girl looking back at you is unrecognisable - eyes red, lips trembling, the weight of disappointment heavy in her gaze. A choked sob escapes your throat before you can stop it.
You’re going to lose him.
Jaeyun’s voice echoes in your mind. I’ll follow you anywhere you want to go. I’d give up anything for you.
He meant it. He would give it all up. But the thought of letting him do that? Of being the reason he threw away his dreams? That’s a burden too heavy to bear.
Another ping comes from your phone and you squeeze your eyes shut to get rid of the tears that blur your vision. 
Mail: Offer Update: Avanti College
Dear Miss L/N,
We have received your application. After much consideration, we would be delighted to offer you a place at Avanti College for the study of Film and Media. As you may be aware, our school terms begin earlier than others. We will send you by post appropriate packages for you to start in July. For now, we have attached a link to our module selection system. Please choose your classes as soon as possible, as spaces are filling quickly.
We look forward to welcoming you next month.
Yours sincerely,Mr Suh Kyung MinHead of Recruitment. 
You read it once. Then again. Then a third time.
Your vision sharpens, the crushing weight in your chest momentarily lifting. You got in.
Somewhere wants you.
A sharp, disbelieving laugh escapes your lips as you clutch the phone tighter. Against all odds, someone out there believes you're good enough. You have a future. The rejection after rejection, the sinking dread, the hopelessness - it’s all gone in an instant, replaced by the undeniable proof staring back at you.
But then that spark of joy fades as the rain of your situation comes pouring down. It’s four hours away from Busan. Four hours away from the love of your life. It would oddly be easier to accept that you just weren’t meant to go to college at all, but to know that your future is here in this email makes you wonder if it’s a sign.
A sign that Jaeyun is meant to flourish without you, or vice verca. 
So what do you do?
Tell Jaeyun the truth - that you didn’t get into any of the colleges near him. That the only offer you received is one that will take you miles away. But you already know what he’ll do. He’ll throw everything away for you without hesitation. He’ll give up his dream university, his future, everything, just to stay by your side.
Or.
Don’t tell him. Accept the offer, pack your bags, and disappear. Leave behind your friends, your family - everyone who might cave and tell Jaeyun where you’ve gone. If you vanish without a word, he’ll have no choice but to continue on the path he worked so hard for.
The second option feels right - a little drastic. But right. There is no way you are going to be the one to leave Jaeyun’s future desolate, you couldn’t offer him a future better than the one he had already set out for himself. 
So you just won’t tell him. Disappear forever and delude yourself that he’ll move on easily.
Does his happiness and future mean more to you than your own? Absolutely. And for him to propel the way you know he can, you need to let him follow his path, even if that means sacrificing your own joy.
Looking back in the mirror, your reflection is hollow. Distant. The girl staring back at you is already grieving something she hasn’t even lost yet. 
Now, you have another choice; make this the best few weeks with Jaeyun, or slowly break away to make the situation easier on you both. Deep down you knew even if you tried to distance yourself, he would find a way to see you. He would move heaven and earth to get into your heart and eventually rip the truth from the chest you’re keeping locked away in there.
So, you can only do one thing - give your undivided attention to him just as you have all these years. Give him all the love you have, enough to fill the rest of his years with.
You have roughly five weeks. Five weeks before you’re away to live a completely new life. You’ll have to remind yourself why you’re doing this, why you’re hurting yourself by leaving your only love. 
But it’s for him. All of it. 
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Two weeks have passed and two weeks remain until you leave for Pyeongchang, and you’ve mastered the art of concealing your hurt. Jaeyun keeps asking if you’ve heard back from colleges, his curiosity growing sharper each time, but you just shrug and steer the conversation elsewhere. He’s getting suspicious, his gaze lingering a little too long when you deflect, but you reassure him with the same excuse - there’s still time. Most of your applications were for clearance spots, and they tend to respond last minute. 
He buys it. For now.
With exams over and school finally behind you, the only logical way for your entire year to celebrate is a party - a big one; one that could rival any American movie you’ve seen. Now that all of you can legally drink, there’s no limit to how much alcohol will be passed around - tequila, Sourz, Sambuca, Jager, all of the above is being checked in. And because the chances of seeing any of these people again are practically nonexistent, you want to let loose. 
No, you need to. 
For weeks, worry and dread have gnawed at you, and tonight, you crave the kind of recklessness that will drown it all out. You want to get fucked up in the most unpolitest way possible. That does run the risk of blurting out your secret to Jaeyun, however, you plan to pass the blabbermouth stage of drunk and go right to blottered.
Ryujin and Yeji are on their way to pick you and Jaeyun up from his house. Yeji, having lost a brutal game of rock, paper, scissors, is stuck as the designated driver and won’t shut up about how unfair it is. Meanwhile, Jaeyun is already dressed, effortlessly stunning in a blue double-denim outfit layered over a white graphic tee. Silver chains glint against his chest, hanging from his black D&G belt, and the rings you’ve felt on your throat more times than you can count adorn his fingers. A pearl necklace - Heeseung’s gift - rests against his collarbones, catching the light as he scrolls through his phone. His hair, styled the way he likes it, is perfectly parted, his forehead on display.
Jaeyun is the most gorgeous boy you have ever seen, and somehow, you find something new to admire about him every single day.
Stepping out of the bathroom, you catch sight of his reflection and pause, noticing the subtle change in his frame. You see him every day but something about the way his clothes are sitting on him places your view on him differently. He’s broader, taller, more
handsome. Some of his teenage features lost from the long nights of studying and passing time.
“Have you been going to the gym?” you ask, adjusting your earrings, your tone casual but your curiosity piqued.
He shrugs with his eyes still glued to his screen as he scrolls mindlessly. “Dunno. Must be all the extra lifting at work. Shit’s heavy, y’know?”
Don’t you know it. You work in a shitty convenience store too, and you know how heavy boxes can be. But you aren’t exactly walking around like Beth Pheonix.
Jaeyun still sits there, attention averted to some weird TikTok video that only he could get on his fyp. You huff, watching him intently, waiting - willing - him to notice the effort you put into your appearance. The white two-piece you bought for tonight leaves little to the imagination, hugging you in all the right places. You feel powerful, sexy. But he doesn’t even glance up.
Dragging your tongue over your teeth, you step behind him, your hands gliding over his shoulders, fingers pressing gently into his muscles. “You have gotten bigger,” you purr, letting your touch linger.
Jaeyun hums in response, still distracted, and that simply won’t do. If he won’t pay attention on his own, you’ll make him.
With slow, calculated movements, you step around to his front, one knee pressing onto the chair as you straddle his lap. His body tenses as you come closer into proximity, but his eyes remain trained on his phone. Not for long. You settle your weight against him, tilting your head as you wait for him to look at you.
And then he does.
His mouth parts slightly, eyes dragging over your moisturised body, darkening with each passing second. The phone is forgotten, locked and tossed aside without a second thought.
“Fuck, baby.”
You smirk vitoriously, lips curving as you bite down on the corner of your lip. “Do I look good?” Your fingers skim up his chest, curling around his neck as you shift your hips, pressing against him just enough to tease.
Jaeyun’s hands find your waist instinctively, gripping you tight. His voice is lower, rougher when he speaks. “Shit, Princess, you look ethereal.” His fingers flex against your exposed skin to make sure you’re really there. “Do we have to go? I don’t want anyone else seeing you like this.”
A laugh bubbles up in your chest but is cut off as he leans in, pressing his lips to yours in a lingering kiss. His thumbs brush over the fabric of your outfit, possessive, debating whether to peel it off or let you wear it just so he can show you off. He’ll be the envy of everyone in that house, he knows that for sure.
“Yes,” you breathe against his lips, pulling back just enough to see the frustration flicker across his face. “I wanna get drunk and dance.” You slide off his lap, tugging at his hand. “And you get to tell everyone that this” - you gesture to yourself, “is all yours.”
Jaeyun rolls his eyes, but the smirk playing at his lips betrays him. “Baby, don’t tempt me. I’ll go into that party and put on a show so they know who you belong to.”
A quiet moan slips past your lips when his hands beging to kneed your ass, fingers pulsing enough to bruise. His brow quirks at your reaction to his words. “Oh? Do you like that idea?” His grip tightens. “Should I just bend you over in the middle of the party and fu-”
Your hand flies over his mouth, cutting him off as you dissolve into laughter. “Shut up. You know what I mean.”
Jaeyun just grins, shrugging as he pulls your hand from his lips, pressing a soft kiss to your palm before intertwining your fingers with his. “We should head downstairs and say goodbye to my parents.”
He turns to leave, but you yank him back, stealing another kiss. It’s deep, slow, filled with a desperation you can’t name. You love having him here, so accessible, so tangible. 
Jaeyun groans against your lips, tasting the familiar cherry lip oil that has lingered on his tongue for three years. His fingers tighten around your waist, pulling you flush against him, as if he can’t get enough.
And honestly, he doesn’t think he ever will.
“Jaeyun,” you murmur against his lips, but he only deepens the kiss, his tongue sweeping into your mouth so he can steal the words straight from your breath. His grip tightens around your waist, and you feel the way he presses closer, as if sheer proximity could fuse you together. “Baby, we need to go,” you try again, but your voice is weak, betraying how much you don’t really want to stop either.
“No,” he whines, lifting you effortlessly, his hands firm under your thighs as your legs instinctively wrap around his waist. “If we don’t go then I won’t start swinging at guys for looking at you too long.” His voice is a low rasp between kisses, playful yet dark with promise. You throw your head back in laughter, his words of possessivness making you giddy, loved.
But Jaeyun sees an opportunity in your exposed throat. Quickly, his lips latch onto the delicate skin just above your freckle, the one spot he knows makes you quiver with need. The first kiss is featherlight, but then he sucks, a slow, deliberate pull that makes warmth pool low in your stomach. His teeth scrape against you before he soothes the bite with his tongue.
A gasp escapes your lips before you can stop it. “Jaeyun,” you warn, but your voice is breathy, and he knows it’s not real resistance.
He hums in satisfaction, his mouth not relenting, lavishing the same spot with nips and licks until heat prickles under your skin. When he finally pulls away, he inspects his work, and a smirk curls his lips.
“There.” He presses one final, chaste kiss to the fresh mark before looking at you with innocent eyes, as if he hadn’t just branded you in the middle of his bedroom. “Now everyone will know you’re mine.”
You scramble to the mirror, fingers brushing over the forming hickey - deep red and already threatening to turn purple. You sigh, caught between amusement and mild exasperation. “What are you? Thirteen?”
A low chuckle rumbles from behind you. “Just possessive,” he says so simply to his actions claiming to you like a territorial wolf. Then his voice drops into something quieter, something laced with an emotion that knots your stomach. Vulnerability. “Can’t have another Sunghoon situation, now can I?”
The mention of that birthday night makes your chest tighten. You never bring it up. You try to forget it ever happened. A stupid drunken mess that makes your stomach curdle if you give it more than a second thought. But Jaeyun never truly let it go.
His gaze softens as he looks at you though the mirror, resting his chin on your shoulder. “I can’t lose you. Not for anything.”
His words turn over like acid in your belly. You think about what’s coming in two weeks. About the choice you’ve already made. About how he’ll wake up one day, reach for you, and find nothing but an empty space.
You have to tell him.
But you can’t.
So you do the only thing you can - you plaster on a fake-ass smile, slip your arms around his neck, press a lingering kiss to his nose, and lie through your teeth “That won’t happen, babe.” 
A car honk from outside saves you from lingering too long in the moment, from staring too deep into his eyes and spilling your darkest secret. 
You hear Ryujin’s voice faintly through the window, impatient as ever and Jaeyun takes your hand, fingers lacing through yours like it’s second nature. Together, you rush downstairs, slipping into the night, into the reckless distraction of the party that awaits.
—
By the time you arrive, the place is already alive. Music pulses around the walls, bass vibrating under your feet. Crowds spill onto the lawn, half-drunk students laughing too loud, some already absolutely out of their face, others tucked away into dark corners with frisky hands wandering. The dim lights and shifting strobes give the illusion of being in some underground club rather than a house party.
A bit extreme but who are you to complain? You get a night of free alcohol and a few hours to forget everything plaguing your mind.
“Whose house is this?” you ask absently, eyes flicking over unfamiliar faces. 
“Kobayashi Daigo,” Yeji answers, turning toward you with an amused shake of her head. “He was in your class for, like, two years. You don’t remember?”
You blink. The name rings the faintest bell, but you have no memory of ever speaking to him. Which, honestly, isn’t surprising. You were never the type to branch out much beyond your friends. Beyond Jaeyun.
A warm breath ghosts against your ear as Jaeyun leans in. “Come on, baby. Let’s get you a drink.”
His voice is low, teasing. When his tone drops an octave like this, it makes you want to pounce on him instantly. But he doesn’t give you time to respond let alone star in your very own party-porno - his hands find your hips, guiding you through the sea of bodies toward the kitchen. His grip is tight, making sure you don’t slip away.
Ironic.
And maybe it’s reckless, maybe it’s selfish to let him believe you’ll be here forever - but for now, you let yourself melt into his touch, let yourself pretend you’re not counting down the days until you disappear.
The kitchen is warm, hazy with the scent of alcohol and something faintly sweet. Amongst the scattered bottles and half-empty cups, your eyes land on a familiar pink liquid - the unmistakable blush of Tequila Rose. Your favourite drink in the entire world. Like fate, it sits on the counter waiting just for you. But just as your fingers curl around the neck of the bottle, another hand - larger, stronger - grips it, stopping you in place.
“Princess, you want a double?” Jaeyun’s voice is smooth, teasing as he tilts the bottle in his hand, already pouring his own. His eyes flick to yours, awaiting confirmation to the answer he already knows. 
You hum, pretending to consider it, before flashing him a knowing smile. “Double.”
Jaeyun grins, pouring the shot to the very brim of the tall glass. The pale pink liquid swirls under the kitchen lights as you lift it to your lips, never once breaking eye contact.
“Cheers,” you say softly.
“Cheers, baby girl.” He knocks his own shot back with ease, slamming the glass onto the worktop with a satisfied exhale ripping from his chest. You watch, mesmerised, as his Adam’s apple bobs with each swallow, the tendons in his neck flexing ever so slightly. His tongue darts out to catch the last lingering drop at the corner of his mouth, and suddenly, the room feels too warm, your own shot burning its way down with more intensity than you expected. It’s not usually this nippy - the milky shot normally a breeze.
“You’re so hot,” you say before you can think twice, the words tumbling from your lips unfiltered.
Jaeyun’s chest rumbles with laughter, his hand already reaching for the bottle again. “I will say the exact same thing about you.” He pours two more shots. “To us, to Busan, to forever.”
The words settle deep in your chest, too heavy for a moment meant to be light. You force a smile and clink your glass against his, swallowing the second shot. The burn is sharper now, the aftertaste bitter in a way it wasn’t before.
You’ll need at least fifteen more to forget that the man in front of you is the one you’re leaving.
—
Three hours later, and the world tilts just slightly.
You aren’t wasted - not yet - but you’re perched on that fragile edge where every movement feels like floating and every sound is cushioned by the pleasant buzz in your veins. The air is heavy with laughter, with the clinking of glasses and the bass of some pop song shaking the walls. Bodies move around you, some swaying, some stumbling, all drowning in the euphoria of the night.
Jaeyun presses in close, his warmth wrapping around you as he leans down, his lips brushing against your ear. “Baby, dance with me.”
A shiver snakes down your body as he licks along the shell of your ear before guiding you toward the makeshift dance floor - formerly a living room, now an unholy mess of spilled drinks and swaying bodies. The bass thrums beneath your feet, some pop song pulsing through the speakers, though you hardly register it. Not when Jaeyun presses himself against you, his body molding to yours like second nature.
You move together effortlessly, your hips rolling against him, back arching so that your arse is flush against his front. A moan nearly escapes when you feel him harden beneath you, the heat of it seeping through his jeans. One of your hands reaches back, fingers tangling in his hair as you let yourself get lost in the feeling.
But then something shifts.
Jaeyun’s body goes rigid, his hold on you tightening - not in desire, but in something else entirely.
Curious, you glance up at him, only to find his gaze locked elsewhere, sharp and unrelenting. Following his line of sight, your stomach twists.
Sunghoon.
He’s across the room, leaning against the wall with a drink in hand, his dark eyes fixed on you. He’s not being obvious, but it’s clear enough for Jaeyun to notice, and that’s all it takes.
An uncomfy tension crackles in the air
It’s been over a year since that night - since Sunghoon made it clear he wanted you, since Jaeyun made it clear he wasn’t going to lose you. And while Sunghoon has been nothing but respectful since then, keeping his distance, Jaeyun never truly let it go. He never stopped seeing him as a threat. And now, even after all this time, Sunghoon’s gaze lingers too long, his expression unreadable.
Jaeyun’s tipsy instincts take over as his hand slides lower on your sides, the tips of his fingers fiddling with the hem of your skirt.
“Jaeyun,” you warn, voice barely audible over the music. You know where this is going.
He doesn’t answer. Instead, his fingers slip up the material covering the one place Sunghoon wants. That makes his blood boil. He bypasses your underwear with ease. The first brush of his fingertips against your clit has your breath catching in your throat.
“Jaeyun, there are too many people. Let’s just go some-” Your words die as he presses down, a slow, torturous circle. He doesn’t want to go somewhere private, he wants the dark haired boy across the room to see the way you crumble under your boyfriend’s touch.
Your body betrays you, melting against him as heat blooms low in your belly. The music fades into nothing, the chatter of the party a distant hum. It’s just his touch, his breath against your skin, the steady drag of his fingers as they dip lower to your entrance.
“I’m serious, Yunnie,” you manage to whisper, though it’s weak, barely a plea. “There are bedroom’s upstairs-”
He cuts you off again with a sharp press of his thumb, and your words dissolve into a soft, choked whimper. He knew exactly how to get you to see his way, and drunk you is a little less anxious about getting caught because this would not be happening if you weren’t six shots and three double vodka cranberries down.
Jaeyun smirks against your skin, his lips brushing over the mark he left on your neck earlier, tracing it lazily with his tongue. That fire you felt before leaving suddenly rises back to the hickey as it begs to be nipped and soothed. 
And he is giving it to you. His tongue over exaggeratedly flicks over the mark as he rolls his eyes back, thumb rubbing a bit more roughly on your clit. He isn’t touching you for your pleasure alone. He’s making a point. A very, very public one.
His eyes stay locked on Sunghoon’s bewildered ones. 
You don’t know that this isn’t the first time Jaeyun has asserted his dominance over the tall, slim boy. He usually does it subtly; a hot kiss, playing with your hair, or even pulling you into his side as you roam the hallways. Some instances were simply because he wanted too, others were because Sunghoon’s beady eyes were trailing on your figure.
But now he’s stamping the statement into Sunghoon’s mind forever. You are his and no one elses. 
Your knees nearly buckle when he pushes two fingers inside you, curling just right, hitting that spot that has you gripping onto his arms for support, nails digging into his veins as you gasp.
He chuckles lowly, his mouth grazing your ear. “You want me to stop, baby?” His tone is mocking, knowing full well you can’t answer, and even if you did, your answer would definitely not be yes. Not when his fingers are moving faster, his thumb rubbing you raw.
You toss your head back against his shoulder, mouth falling open in a silent moan. Jaeyun buries his face in your neck, whispering sweet nothings into your heated skin. You barely process anything beyond the rush of pleasure building, the coil tightening, your body completely at his mercy.
“Good girl,” he breathes, voice thick with satisfaction.
You shouldn’t be doing this. Not here. Not with the entire party swirling around you, bodies just inches away. But no one notices. No one but Sunghoon, whose jaw is tight, eyes dark with a cocktail mix of envy, disgust, and defeat.
And Jaeyun sees it, eliciting a smirk smothered with satisfaction.
“Cum for me, princess,” he murmurs, fingers relentless as he works you over the edge. “Show them it’s me that makes you feel this good.”
His wrist flicks as he sets a steady rhythm that will have you leaking over his digits in a matter of seconds. The tip of his fingers massage your sweet spot, coaxing every atom in your body to let go, to give him everything. 
And just like that. the coil snaps.
Your orgasm crashes over you, and it takes everything in you not to moan like a desperate little thing in the middle of the party and alert everyone to you and your boyfriend’s exhibitionism. Your nails dig into Jaeyun’s arms harsh enough to leave dents as you ride out your high, body trembling against him as you clamp his hand with your thighs.
Across the room, Sunghoon coughs awkwardly, shifting uncomfortably before turning away, jaw tight, expression unreadable. 
Jaeyun, victorious, only chuckles behind your ear, pulling his fingers from you before turning you to face him.
“Good?” he asks, voice still tinged with amusement.
You let out a breathless laugh, still lightheaded from the intensity of it all. “Fantastic.”
His grin widens, something almost predatory glinting in his gaze. The without warning, he brings his hand up and slips his fingers into your mouth. You gasp, but your lips close around them instinctively. He watches you, utterly transfixed, as you lap your tongue over his digits, tasting yourself, cheeks flushed and eyes hazy.
“So beautiful,” he murmurs, thumb brushing over your swollen lips as he pulls his fingers free.
Your heart pounds as you stare into his eyes, love and guilt journey through your heart - both long staying passengers.
The night is still young, the drinks still flowing, and the music still loud. 
This party was exactly what you needed.
________
Two days. That’s all the time you have left before you leave everything behind. The weight of it sits heavy in your chest, pressing down with every breath, an ache that refuses to leave you alone. It has all went in too quickly, this past month filled with so many memories that you will never ever forget.
It makes you wonder if you made the right choice by not breaking up with Jaeyun once you found out you wouldn’t be going to Busan. 
You try to push your thoughts aside as you doddle about the convenience store for your last shift. It’s a shitty job but you’d be lying if you said you didn’t love it in some strange, sentimental way. The regulars, your boss, the co-workers you spent mindless hours with. Even the tedious restocking and the beep of the register have become part of a routine you weren’t quite ready to let go of.
You won’t miss the bright blue uniform, though.
The memory of when you first got the job sneaks up on you, unbidden. You can still hear Jaeyun’s excitement, see the way his eyes lit up as if you’d just been appointed CEO of a million pound company. “My beautiful, hardworking girl. I can’t even begin to describe the pride in my heart,” he had gushed, lifting you up effortlessly, spinning you around in his arms before preppering kisses all over your face. That grin of his, so wide and earnest, the sheer adoration in his gaze - it still floods your senses now, making your stomach turn in happiness and grievance. He had even suggested celebratory sex, because of course he would. Any excuse to have you bouncing on his cock.
The thought is cut short when a pair of familiar arms snake around your waist, strong and certain, pulling you back against a firm chest. You don’t need to turn around to know it’s him. The warmth of his body, the way he fits against you so perfectly - it’s a feeling you know too well.
“Hey, Y/N,” Jaeyun murmurs, his lips brushing against your neck as he places featherlight kisses along the skin. His scent washes over you - citrus with a woody undertone, grounding and intoxicating. You sink into him for just a second before forcing yourself to stand firm. You can’t get lost in him now. Not with just over 48-hours left.
“Miss me?” he teases, his breath warm against your ear.
You sigh, but there’s no real exasperation in it, a playful annoyance almost. “Jaeyun, I’m working.”
Turning in his arms, you meet his gaze, and instantly, regret coils tight in your chest. He looks at you with so much love, so much trust, so much unguarded sincerity that it makes everything you’ve been doing - everything you’ve been hiding - feel like a slow, cruel betrayal.
He doesn’t deserve any of this.
Jaeyun smiles obliviously as he presses a lingering kiss to your lips, then another, and another. Each one is soft and sweet, savouring the simple moment, like he never wants to stop. You can feel his grin against your mouth, the way he breathes you in.
“You get off soon,” he murmurs. “Just bail early.”
His lips trail down your jaw, pressing against the sensitive skin just below your ear. It’s so easy to give in, to let yourself melt into him and forget that you’re meant to be working.
“Baby,” you whine, pouting as you try to focus on stacking the cans on the shelf. “Let me finish.”
Jaeyun’s grip on your waist tightens slightly, his lips brushing against your ear. “I can make you finish if you want.”
His voice is low, teasing, sinful. His teeth nip at your earlobe, and you swear you can feel the smirk forming on his lips. Your breath hitches, and Jaeyun chuckles, because he knows. He knows exactly what he does to you. He can hear your heart pounding, can feel the way your body tenses ever so slightly in response to his touch. And in his mind, that’s proof enough that you were made for him.
You shake your head, trying - and failing - to suppress a smile. “I will attend to your every need when my shift is over, but for the next twenty minutes, these cans of butter beans have my full attention.”
He groans dramatically. “Oh
butter beans. I love it when you talk dirty.” He snaps his teeth together, biting the air mischievously. 
You swat at his chest playfully, laughter spilling from your lips before you can stop it. You’ll miss this. God, you’ll miss this. Maybe you should just tell him. Maybe you should change your plans. You could find a job in Busan, surely. Stay here, with him. 
The thought lingers for a moment, dangerous and tempting, but you push it away, tucking it deep into the back of your mind. If you do that, you’ll be reliant on him, causing unnecessary stress and endangering his future. 
Instead, you reach up, wrapping your arms around Jaeyun’s neck, holding him close. “Sim Jaeyun, you are the most infuriating person I have ever met,” you say, shaking your head fondly.
Sunlight filters through the store windows, casting a soft glow on his face. His golden skin practically gleams in the light, his dark eyes glinting with mischief as he beams down at you.
“You love me, though,” he says confidently.
You swallow, your chest tightening. “So much.” 
Too much.
Jaeyun grins like a lovesick puppy, dropping a quick kiss to your lips. “Good. Then hurry up and get this shift out of the way so I can have you all to myself.”
With that, he pecks you one last time before pulling away, leaving the store in a hurry. His movements are eager, excited. He has plans.
And you? You have no idea what’s coming.
___
Jaeyun taps his fingers anxiously against the steering wheel as he dials Heeseung’s number. The call connects after two rings.
“Yes, Jake, for the millionth time, everything is set up,” Heeseung sighs, exasperated but amused at his best friends constant calls for reassurance. “I followed your strict, to-the-point plan exactly as instructed.”
Jaeyun exhales, running a hand through his hair, a bit of relief swirling in his chest despite the nerves still sitting in his stomach. “Thanks, mate. I owe you one. And the r-”
“In the glove compartment. I told you, everything is sorted.”
Jaeyun checks quickly, flipping the compartment open. There it is - a small, neatly wrapped white box, tied with a pink satin ribbon, the edges dusted in silver glitter. He stares at it for a long moment, fear creeping in despite himself.
“She’s gonna love it,” Heeseung reassures him. “You know she loves anything if it has to do with you.”
Jaeyun’s throat tightens slightly, but he smiles. If there was one person who believes in this relationship almost as much as he does, it’s Heeseung. He has been here through everything - every late-night phone call where Jaeyun rambled about how perfect you were, every moment of insecurity, every little update about your favourite songs or perfumes. Jaeyun is obsessed, and Heeseung has certainly suffered the consequences of it.
“Jake, stop overthinking it,” Heeseung laughs. “You guys are meant to be. If this doesn’t work out, then I don’t believe in love.” His best friend isn’t lying either, he has never seen a couple so destined to be with one another, not even his parents who are sickeningly in love.
High school sweethearts come together and fall apart as they grow into new people, the pieces that used to meld with one another growing and shrinking too much to fit together anymore. But you and Jaeyun? Anyone can see - especially Heeseung - that your relationship is not a puzzle but the tree the cardboard is made from, each just developing branches to fill out your love rather than break it. In the winter nights when the leaves fall and darkness looms, you grow ringlets in the trunk of your love, never snapping under the wind.
That’s exactly how Heeseung sees you both. Destined. Molded. Forever.
Jaeyun chuckles, shaking his head. He doesn’t even entertain the possibility of not being with you. Of course, you’re meant to be. That’s not a question. It’s a fact.
A glimpse of you walking out of the store catches his attention. “Shit, she’s coming. Thanks again, mate.”
He shoves the box into the side pocket of the car door just as you open the passenger side, sliding in. You’ve changed into a simple pair of jeans and a t-shirt, but to Jaeyun, you might as well be wearing a Vivienne Westwood dress with the way you look like the most beautiful person on earth.
“Hey,” he greets softly, his voice airy.
“I wish you would’ve told me we were doing something. I would’ve brought nicer clothes to change into,” you pout, suddenly feeling stifled in the simple mum jeans despite their comfort.
Jaeyun scoffs playfully, his eyes flicking toward you as he starts the car. “You say that like Aphrodite herself doesn’t worship the ground you walk on, even in jeans.”
Your stomach flips. He always had a way with words, a gift for making you feel like the most breathtaking thing to ever grace the earth - and to him you are. Beautiful and gorgeous were never enough for him - those words are too ordinary, too overused. Jaeyun needs something grander, something worthy of you. Even when words fail him, he still tries, determined to make you feel as exquisite as he saw you.
Still, you can only roll your eyes, cheeks warm in a rose blush as you buckle your seatbelt. He busies himself with the music, fingers expertly flicking through cassette tapes in the centre console. His car - an ancient black 1998 Honda Civic he bought for pennies from a distant uncle - came equipped with a cassette player instead of an aux, something Jaeyun delighted in. 
It gave him the perfect excuse to make mixtapes, just like in those early 2000s films. He even made one for your Christmas road trip, packed with songs that reminded him of you. Most of them were love songs, but one track - Hotel Room Service by Pitbull to be exact — had snuck in by accident, and he’d never figured out how to remove it. It became your song after that, something that made you both dissolve into laughter whenever it played yet still held sentimental value.
“I think I’ve created the best mixtape of all time,” Jaeyun boasts, wagging a cassette between his fingers before sliding it in. “You’re gonna love it.”
The first song hums through the speakers, the familiar melody of Love is All Around by Wetter filling the car.
Your heart clenches with joy. “My favourite song.”
Jaeyun’s lips curl into a triumphant smile as his hand finds yours, bringing it to his mouth for a soft kiss. “It’s slowly becoming my favourite, too.” His eyes linger on you, and the warmth in them nearly undoes you. “You know, they’re playing a show in Busan this autumn. If you want, I’ll grab us tickets since we’ll be up there anyway.”
Your breath catches. The sickness rising from your stomach, a tight, suffocating thing that robs the colour from your face. He’s already planning for the future, your supposed future where you live happily ever after. 
Tell him. Just tell him.
“Jaeyun, I-”
“I’ll get them next payday,” he cuts in easily, like it’s already decided. “They’ve had tickets available for ages, so I don’t think they’ll sell out in the next couple of weeks.” He squeezes your hand, focused on the road, thumb tracing soft circles into your skin.
You swallow the lump in your throat, force a smile, and thank him. Then, you turn to the window, staring out as the world blurs past. You mentally curse yourself, hating yourself for giving him another nugget of hope. All these tiny threads of future that he’s weaving into your lives are about to be cut loose, and that will only make it harder for him.
Jaeyun isn’t dumb though, he notices the shift in you - the way you clam up, the way your fingers twitch slightly in his grasp - but he doesn’t say anything. Not yet. He knows you well enough to wait. 
The drive takes exactly thirty-two minutes, and for thirty-one of them, Jaeyun holds your hand, squeezing it intermittently. The other minute, he spends drinking water to ease the dryness in his throat, a nervous habit when he’s overthinking. He’s been rehearsing everything in his head, making sure every detail is perfect. You deserve perfection.
When the car finally rolls to a stop, he turns to you, smiling. “We’re here, princess.”
Lost in your mind, you unbuckle your seatbelt, not registering exactly where you are. As he steps out of the car, he swiftly rushes around and opens your door for you. One hand gestures grandly toward the grassy hill before you, the other extended to help you out.
“Right this way.”
You side-eye him as you step out, wary of the incline. “Making me walk after a six-hour shift should be illegal, you know that?”
Jaeyun beams, like he was waiting for you to say that, always predicting your next move. Although, there seems to be one he is oblivious too. “Ah, see, I knew you’d complain about that.” He turns his back to you, kneeling slightly. “That’s why I’m going to carry you.”
Your eyes widen. “You cannot be serious.”
He twists his head to look at you, scandalised. “Does my girlfriend not have faith in her very strong, very capable boyfriend?” He raises a brow, scoffing when he sees the doubt written all over your face. “Trust me. Get on and have some faith in your man, please.”
A genuine laugh escapes you as you see him puff out his chest. He’s impossible sometimes, but still, you oblige, climbing onto his back and wrapping your arms around his shoulders as his hands secure your thighs. He hoists you up with surprising ease, and you gape at him. “Have you been working out, be honest this time?”
Jaeyun grins, flexing one arm dramatically as he starts walking. “Babygirl, I’ve been packing these guns since birth. John Cena is jealous.”
You rest your chin on his shoulder, giggling. “Oh yeah? That so?”
“Mmhm. He looks up reference pictures of me when he’s trying to achieve his goals. A bit of motivation for him.” He presses a quick kiss to your cheek as you giggle at his ridiculous notion. “Now, hold on tight. We’re heading to the top.”
“To the top!” you echo, laughing, as he takes the first step up the hill.
Surprisingly, Jaeyun reaches the top without stopping once, and although his breathing is heavier, his grip on you is unwavering. When he finally sets you down, his arms tense, veins pronounced from the strain of holding you up. They stand out boldly beneath his skin, and you can’t help but stare. God, they’re perfect.
It’s the one thing you’ve never been able to get over about your boyfriend. Those forearms have haunted one too many wet dreams of yours - and he knows it. 
At school, he’d make a habit of rolling up his sleeves when you shared a class, his smirk barely concealed as he caught you ogling him. He took pride in it, in the way you practically drooled. Before coming over to yours one night, he’d even spent time flexing, clenching and unclenching his fists to make sure his veins were as defined as possible. His efforts had paid off - the night had ended with you riding his fingers, nails digging into his forearms, desperate to feel them beneath your touch.
“Baby?” Jaeyun’s voice pulls you back to the present. He’s bent forward slightly, head tilted as he waves a hand in front of your face, his grin lopsided. “You in there?”
Blinking, you shake off the haze of memory. “Hmm?”
“I said - ta-da!” 
He hops on the balls of his feet, throwing his arms out as if presenting the grand finale of a magic trick, sort of like the Will Smith meme but less ridgid, more comical despite his obvious nerves.
Your gaze follows the sweep of his hands, and suddenly, your breath catches in your throat, pulse thumping as you get overwhelmed with the sight.
A pair of trees stands before you, their trunks wrapped - no, tangled - in strings of fairy lights, their golden glow casting a soft halo over the picnic laid out beneath them. A bouquet of flowers sits in the centre, spare petals scattered across the blanket like fallen stars. Two woven baskets accompany the arrangement, lids slightly ajar, revealing glimpses of the feast inside. A trail of rose petals leads up to the setup, their deep red hues stark against the grass.
For a moment, you can’t speak. How can you when you’re facing one of the most romantic settings you have ever witnessed.
Jaeyun shifts his weight, rubbing the back of his neck, his usual confidence wavering at your silence. “I know it’s cheesy and clichĂ©,” he says with an axnious chuckle, “but I remember you reading about this in one of your books and saying you loved the idea of a midnight picnic.” He exhales through his nose, sheepish. “I know it’s not midnight, but-”
You don’t let him finish. Instead, your lips press against his, cutting off his rambling explanation, hoping that even a slither of your gratitude can be passed through the movement of your lips. Jaeyun exhales into the kiss, tension melting from his shoulders as his hands settle on your side. His relief is palpable. You like it. That’s all that matters.
When you finally pull away, he’s grinning, fingers lacing through yours. “Come on,” he murmurs, guiding you forward.
The rose petals crunch softly beneath your feet, but you barely notice. Your eyes remain fixed on him - on the way his dark hair falls slightly over his forehead, shorter than when you first met; on the way his side-parted bangs frame his face, accentuating the sharp angles of his jaw. He’s grown into himself over the years, but he’s still your Jaeyun. Still the boy who whispers puppy love nothings in your ear any chance he gets. Still the boy who looks at you like you hung the stars in the sky.
He’s yours.
At least for now.
“I got you all your favourites,” Jaeyun continues, oblivious to the turmoil brewing in your chest. “Kimchi pancakes, tteokbokki, some chicken and spinach samosas-”
His voice fades into the background. Your heart is so full - but a filled heart means there is more to break. And yours is just about being demolished.
“I love you, Jaeyun.” The words escape before you can stop them, raw and unfiltered. It’s the only thing you can say at the moment, scared that if you attempt another word you’ll blubber.
Jaeyun has heard you say it a thousand times before, but something about this time feels different. The weight behind it is heavier, more deliberate. So beautifully raw but
sad.
His body stills for half a second before his hands slide to your hips, grounding you in place. His gaze flickers over your face, searching, but he doesn’t question it. Instead, he lets out a soft breath, voice steady.
“I love you too, Y/N. So fucking much.”
His heart swells, so big he thinks it might rupture.
It’s incredible how two people can have a heart so full yet while his structure is solid, determined, yours is being chipped away at with each passing second of the ticking clock. This will end soon, and you can’t tell who will have a harder time building back the pieces. 
The kiss he gives you next has tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. It’s slow but filled with a confession of its own. He kisses you like he’s memorising the way you taste, like he’s trying to etch this moment into his bones. It’s amatory yet pure, a love so deep it defies any logical explanation. It’s not something that can be theorised or dissected.
It’s yours. It’s his.
And in two days, you’re giving it up.
Jaeyun pulls you down onto the blanket, settling beside you as he begins unpacking the baskets. The scent of the food fills the air, and your stomach rumbles in response. Everything looks perfect.
Jaeyun watches the way your eyes light up at the sight of the spread, and he makes a mental note to thank Jay when he sees him next. “Here, take a bite, baby girl.” He lifts a piece of tteokbokki with his chopsticks, holding it out for you.
You oblige, opening wide and letting the flavours burst on your tongue. 
And that’s when you know he didn’t make this.
Jaeyun can barely cook a frozen lasagne without setting off the fire alarm, let alone pull off a meal like this.
Suddenly, laughter bubbles up from your chest, causing Jaeyun to cock his head in wonder. “What’s so funny?”
You wave a hand dismissively, memories flashing through your mind - It had been your 100-day anniversary, and he’d wanted to cook for you. It ended with Jaeyun, flailing a green and yellow dish towel under the fire alarm, a burnt pizza in the oven, and his dad standing nearby, arms crossed, delivering a very long-winded lecture on the importance of life skills. 
“It’s nothing,” you say, grinning. “I’m just happy.”
Jaeyun beams at that, your happiness of the upmost importance to him.
The rest of the evening unfolds in golden hues and easy laughter. The fairy lights flicker softly, casting a glow over everything, making the moment feel almost unreal. You pretend, just for a little while, that nothing is wrong. That there’s no expiration date on this love.
But while you’re pushing down your anxiety, Jaeyun’s is flared with each moment ticking by. He has been waiting for this moment for a long time.
As the last remnants of food disappear, his heartbeat grows louder, pounding against his ribs. He grips the edge of the blanket, trying to steady himself.
“Um, Y/N?” His voice is hesitant, uncertain. You immediately set down your plate, your full attention on him as you begin to notice the tiny shake in his hands.
“Yeah?”
Sweat beads along his forehead. He swallows thickly, his fingers flexing against the fabric beneath him.
Your stomach knots instantly at his apprehensive stature. Does he know? Is he about to tell you that he’s known your plan all along? That he’s doing all of this to convince you to stay? Is he giving up everything for you?
Or
is it simply too warm this evening?
“Hoo, okay, so-” Jaeyun exhales sharply, shifting his entire body to face you. His hands tremble as they clasp yours; they’re smaller, delicate in comparison, yet still manage to steady him in a way nothing else can. “I love you so much,” he begins, then falters, sucking in a breath. “And, uh, okay, um-”
He had rehearsed this moment a hundred times. Sat on Heeseung’s bedroom floor, the elder pretending to be you - going as far as threatening to put on a wig and eyeliner for authenticity and immersion.Heeseung takes his roles very seriously.
“I need to get into character!” Heeseung had proclaimed dramatically, sending Jaeyun into a fit of laughter, the boys barely making it through one runthrough.
Now, though, standing before you, his mind is blank. The words he’d carefully strung together dissolve the second he looks at you - obviously this was much easier with Heeseung and a bad lipstick job. 
No you are much more intimidating. The golden hour sun kisses your skin, turning you ethereal, unreal. He has no choice but to take another deep breath, shaking off the nerves, or attempting to at least..
“I love you,” he tries again, steadier this time. “I have ever since that first day at school.” His gaze drops to the sun necklace resting between you collarbones - the one he bought you for your birthday - before flicking back to your eyes. “You took the breath from my lungs, and honestly? Every time I look at you, I still forget how to breathe.”
A wry smile tugs at his lips as he continues.
“I don’t know if soulmates are real, or twin flames, or matches made in heaven
but, baby, you’re all of them to me, I know it. I curse the stars every night because people admire them for being beautiful, when you are the brightest thing in the universe. You’re my sun, my moon, all my stars.”
He inhales shakily, as if steadying himself, his hands running so cold that he feels pins and needles starting to tingle the tips of his fingers.
“You deserve all the admiration they get. And if I can spend the rest of my life looking at you, studying you, loving you like some devoted astronomer -  then I’ll know I’ve lived my life well.”
A beat. Two hearts, thundering against ribcages. The love between you, palpable, enough to heal nations - enough to ruin you.
Jaeyun reaches into his pocket, retrieving a small box. His fingers shake violently as he hands it to you. “I want you to know,” he murmurs, voice nearly cracking with emotion, “I’m so serious about us, Y/N.”
The weight of the box settles into your palm, and suddenly it feels like the entire world is sitting there, waiting to be opened. His words mixed with the unexpected gift saw at your heart, guilt overwhelming your bloodstream.
“Open it,” he huffs, exhaling like he’s spent months holding his breath.
You peel away the soft pink ribbon, lifting the lid to reveal two delicate silver rings rest side by side. Small, simple bands with a single heart at the centre - nothing extravagant, yet everything that matters. Beside them, two identical silver keys.
Jaeyun shifts, scooting closer, his fingers brushing against yours as he lifts one of the rings.
“Before you freak out—I’m not proposing,” he chuckles weakly, though his laugh barely makes it past his lips. His thumb smooths over the band as he stares at it, his mind lost somewhere between the past and the future.
“This is my promise to you,” he continues, voice quieter now. “That from now until forever, I am yours.”
He lifts your left hand, taking your pinky between his fingers before slowly, deliberately, sliding the ring on. “A pinky ring,” he murmurs gently, “until I can get you a real wedding ring.”
The tears welling in your eyes spill over, laughter bubbling from your lips despite yourself. You recognise the lyrics embedded in his words, his love language tucked between the sentiment. The ring fits perfectly. Of course, it does.
You don’t even have to ask to know - he saved up for these. Every penny from his part-time job, every late-night shift worked with you in mind. They are not designer rings. They are not diamond-encrusted. But they are everything. Because they are his. Because they are yours. And his devotion to you is priceless.
Jaeyun hesitates for a moment before picking up one of the keys, rolling it between his fingers. “This,” he says, his voice a tiny bit more confident now that you’re wearing the ring, “is the key to our flat in Busan.”
Your breath stutters.
“I know we should be living in dorms,” he continues, his eyes flickering between the key and your face, gauging your reaction. “But I struck a really good deal with the landlady—she’s sweet, she likes me. And I just-”  His voice dips as the truth sits on the edge of his tongue, being pushed forward by raw emotion. “I don’t think I could go a day in this life without seeing you. And if we live together, I won’t have to.”
He places the key in your open palm, his own curling over yours, holding it there with promise.
The tears streaking down your cheeks, once born of joy, are suddenly unbearable with sorrow.
He doesn’t know you’re leaving.
You have told yourself it’s for the best. That leaving now, cutting ties cleanly, would hurt less than watching him drift away piece by piece. That letting him go would save you both.
But staring at the key, at the boy in front of you
your resolve crumbles and your heart splinters.
Jaeyun shifts, sensing your hesitation. Panic flickers in his eyes. “Baby, if this is too fast, we can-”
You don’t let him finish.
Your lips crash against his, swallowing whatever reassurance he was about to offer. You don’t know what to do. You feel remorseful and devastated but his hopeful smile and readily beating heart are calling out to you to just melt into the moment. Even if it’s selfish, even if it’s cruel to lead him on like this, your heart yearns for him.
His breath stutters, but he melts into you instantly, fingers threading through your hair, each strand wrapping around his fingers like an anchoring rope. Your hands slide over his shoulders, gripping, grounding. His skin is warm beneath your fingertips, familiar and safe.
Jaeyun doesn’t need words. This - your touch, your kiss, your hands clutching him like he’s the only thing keeping you tethered to this world - this is enough to know you feel the same way he does.
But while his heart and mind are at ease, his body needs more.
Jaeyun scoops you up in one swift motion, carrying you down the hill and to his car, leaving the evidence of your love behind in the branches. He wonder if Heeseung’s help extends to a clean-up job.
“I need to make love to you so bad,” he grumbles, his voice thick with longing as his lips smooch at yours messily. “But not in this car.”
____ 
The drive to his house is a blur of desperate touches, your fingers trailing over his wrist, his palm resting on your thigh. He speeds recklessly, tunnel-visioned, the pinky ring on your hand glinting in the dim light.
You are his. He is yours.
By the time he parks, Jaeyun is already reaching for you, his hands making way to your hips as he all but pushes you up the stairs. The second the bedroom door shuts behind you, he’s pressing you against it, his lips urgent, messy, needing.
“Princess,” he groans when your hand presses against his growing arousal. “You’re dangerous.”
You laugh - genuinely, fully. The last real laugh you’ll have for a long time.
Jaeyun doesn’t notice. He’s too focused on yanking his T-shirt over his head, the fabric slipping off in a single, fluid motion. His bare chest is in front of you now, the fading hickeys from last week still scattered over his skin.
He doesn’t waste another second.
Bending slightly, he grips your thighs, lifting you with ease. His lips find your jaw, your cheeks, your temple - whispering against your skin in a voice filled with reverence. “So beautiful. All mine.” 
Your heart aches. You wish you could tell him. But instead, you let him love you for one of the last times.
Jaeyun groans against your skin, his breath warm as he presses you onto the bed, his chest never leaving yours. His hands explore your body with deliberate intent, fingertips mapping out every inch of your exposed skin as though memorising it. A soft hum vibrates through him, an unspoken appreciation of the heat radiating from your body.
“I know, Princess,” he murmurs, his lips ghosting along your jaw, his voice thick with amusement. “But you’re gonna be a good girl and wait for me, yeah?” The smirk laced in his words only makes you ache more. 
You whimper, desperation evident in the way your body arches toward him, and he chuckles, his voice husky with satisfaction. With deft hands, he unbuttons your jeans, dragging both them and your underwear down in one fluid motion, leaving you bare beneath him.
His dark eyes devour the sight of you, hunger etched all over his features as his fingers trace feather-light patterns over your skin. “All mine,” he whispers, the words more reverent than possessive, a quiet declaration of something deeper than lust. His lips follow the path of his fingertips, pressing slow, lingering kisses up your inner thigh, his pace torturously unhurried. He thinks he has all the time in the world.
You’re drenched, your body trembling with need. He exhales sharply with an undercurrent of amusement peaking through. His fingers ghost over your slick folds, spreading them open for a better look. “So wet, baby. I don’t even think you need me to prep you.” The teasing lilt in his voice makes you whimper, and the featherlight press of his lips against your clit sends a jolt through your body.
“No, Yunie, please.” The nickname slips from your lips in your desperation, your voice breathless, utterly undone. You love his cock and the need to get fucked is actually unbearable, but honestly, you love how he plays with you. His laughter is warm against your skin, the vibration making your toes curl. He’s so close but so out of reach that it’s almost painful.
His hand tightens on your thigh, spreading you wider for him as he trails deliberate kisses across your core. The heat of his tongue dragging over you makes your breath stutter, and your hands fly to his hair, fingers weaving through the soft strands, tugging, pulling him closer. He groans at the sensation, the sound sending a fresh pulse of arousal through you.
“Tell me what you need, Y/N,” he coaxes, his voice low, husky, vibrating against you as his tongue continues its agonisingly slow exploration, like a tourist with weeks left of their holiday.
“F-fingers,” you gasp, shame abandoned in favour of pure desire. “I want your fingers.”
He hums in mock contemplation, dragging the pads of his fingers along your entrance. “These fingers?” The playful edge to his voice is maddening but before you can protest, he pushes two fingers inside you, slow but insistent. Your mouth falls open, head tilting back as pleasure washes over you. He watches you intently, his gaze dark and fixed on the way your body reacts to him.
Watching you wriggle and writhe gets him hard, his cock swelling with lust and pride. You’re so responsive to his touches that it’s addicting, it makes him want to just play with your pretty pussy forever. And honestly? If his cock wasn’t so greedy, he would.
As his fingers curl, finding that perfect spot, a shudder wracks through you. You grip his sheets as you arch, simultaneously trying to escape while seeking more. Your body erupts with excitement as it feels Jaeyun’s lips back on your cunt, making out with it gently, working in tandem with his fingers to coax an orgasm from you.
“You taste amazing, baby,” he compliments sincerely, lapping you up like a thirsty pup. “So fucking sweet.”
You’ve never believed him when he says that, but the way he groans into your pussy and slurps at you like you’re the last remnants of a Capri Sun, you’re inclined to believe him. You boyfriend worships you, adores everything about you and that includes your pretty slick.
Jaeyun’s biggest fear is drowning but if he was to be sucked under into an ocean of your essence, he will happily let his lungs fill with liquid. 
Groaning, Jaeyun huffs into your pussy, his fingers curling as if he’s calling you forward - or rather, you orgasm. The tip of his fingers scrape along the soft part of your walls and you squeal out, trying to run away, the sensation too much to handle.
“Shhh, baby,” he soothes, kissing softly to your clit, a tender gesture compared to the grip one of his hands has on you to keep you in place. “Was it too much?”
He peers up at you through his lashes and sees you nodding desperately, chest heaving and eyes rolling in a daze. He has you exactly where he wants you; on the brink. He just needs to push your buttons once more to get you soaking his features with your juices.
Picking up his pace, he laughs into your folds as he jackhammers it home and you thighs instantly clamp him into place. He’s in heaven. This is what being a saint gets people - not an eternity in paradise but the opportunity to suffocate between their lover’s legs.
“Gonna cum for me already, Princess? So soon?” His muffled voice drips with satisfaction, but he doesn’t relent. He adds another finger, stretching you in the most delicious way, his tongue flicking against your clit in perfect synchronisation with his thrusts.
Your walls tighten, your body teetering on the precipice. “Let go, angel,” he murmurs, his voice thick with lust. That’s all it takes - his fingers thrusting, his tongue teasing, the sheer dominance in his voice. Your orgasm crashes over you, a broken cry of his name spilling from your lips as pleasure floods through you.
He doesn’t stop until your body begins to tremble with overstimulation, his movements slowing, easing you through the aftershocks. You’re lost in the labyrinth of euphoria and you need him to help you out, to guide you back to reality as he gently pulls out his fingers. His mouth still showers your core with gentle kisses, though. 
He’s not so cruel to rip everything away from you just yet.
After a few moments of panting and gasping for oxygen, you push yourself up on your elbows, eyes locking onto him. His lips glisten with you, his expression dark and unreadable, pride evident in the way he studies you. The image sears itself into your memory, something to cling to when he’s not by your side.
“You’re so fucking hot when you cum like that,” he murmurs, kissing his way up your body, each press of his lips softer than the last. “Like I’m the only one who can do that to you.”
You let out a breathy laugh, fingers threading through his hair, pushing the damp strands from his face. “Jaeyun, you are the only one I’ve ever had sex with so yes, you are the only one who can do that to me.”
He chuckles, his forehead pressing to your stomach, but his next words make your heart clench. “And I’ll always be the only one. You’re mine forever, Y/N.”
The heaviness of his words sits uncomfortably on your chest. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t know what’s coming.
Before he can notice the shift in your expression, you push it down, forcing a sultry smirk. “Then fuck me. Show me exactly what you can do.”
His pupils darken and expand, melting into unrestrained desire. He reaches for the drawer, retrieving an ultra-thin condom, slipping it on with impatient ease. He won’t lie, he’s desperate to be engulfed by you, so in a flash, the head of his cock drags along your folds before pressing against your entrance, teasing. A sharp gasp escapes your lips at the sensation, need pooling low in your stomach.
“Say please, and I’ll think about it,” he taunts you, his voice smug, but you know he’s just as needy -  if not more.
“Please,” you whisper, “Please fuck me, Jaeyun.” The plea is barely past your lips before he captures them in a searing kiss, pushing into you with a deep, slow stroke, his hips rolling beautifully flush against you.
A ragged breath leaves him as he bottoms out, your walls squeezing around him in a way that makes his jaw slacken and eyes scrunch shut. His pace is slow at first, allowing you to adjust to him for at least a few minutes before restraint gives way to need. His thrusts grow more urgent, more demanding, and his left hand finds yours, fingers intertwining, a silent tether that brings you even closer together.
His lips brush against your pinky, a soft kiss against the silver ring he gave you, a promise to always be yours embedded in the gesture. And before you know it, it’s all too much and you begin to cry feel the tears before you realise you’re crying. 
All your emotions come out at once due to his sweet actions because suddenly it’s too hard to bottle everything up. The love, the fear, the disappointment, the guilt, the anguish. It’s all flooding from your eyes as your heart bursts with ache.
Jaeyun notices how your chest begins to vibrate, and not in the gasping for air because he’s fucking you so good kind of way. No. It’s shaking through sobs and he immediately pauses his ministrations.
“Hey,” he kisses your tears, his voice laced with concern. “Princess, are you okay? Did I hurt you?”
You shake your head, swallowing the lump in your throat as you try and rid yourself of the abundance of emotion. “No, baby,” your voice wobbles, raw and filled with everything you can’t say. “I just love you so much, that’s all.”
Jaeyun has his doubts for a second, your eyes glinting in sadness - it’s so fast he almost doesn’t catch it. But concern is washed away as you lean up to kiss him, soft and gentle. The love in your lips conveying enough to put his mind at ease. 
Drawing back and brushing the tears from your cheeks, Jaeyun smiles down at you. “You had me worried, sweetheart.” He presses a soft kiss to your forehead. “I love you too. Till my last dying breath, okay?”
Your heart twists painfully, but his slow thrusts pull you back to the moment, grounding you in the way he moves, in the way he makes you feel.
And right now, that’s all that matters.
He groans against your ear, his pace growing rougher, more desperate now that he knows your okay. The heat between you is overwhelming, bodies moving in sync, chasing that inevitable bliss. His hand slips between you, fingers finding your swollen clit, rubbing tight, pressuered circles.
“You’re gonna cum for me again, aren’t you?” His voice is thick, strained with pleasure. “I can feel it. Let me have it, baby.”
The pressure builds, overwhelming, the pleasure winding so tightly it feels like you might snap apart. His name falls from your lips like a prayer, his thrusts driving deeper, hitting all the right places. And then it happens again - the coil within you shatters, pleasure crashing over you in waves, your entire body trembling beneath him.
He groans loudly as he nuzzles into the crook of your neck, your release pulling him over the edge with you. His thrusts turning erratic as his control frays and he follows you into bliss. His body stills, buried deep inside you, his breath coming in ragged pants against you, spilling into the condom.
For a moment, neither of you move, caught in the haze of each other. Then, with a shaky laugh, he presses a lingering kiss to your lips. “Perfect,” he murmurs, still breathless. “You’re perfect.”
You curl into him, letting the warmth of his body envelop you, not one of you bothering to part just yet - enjoying the intimacy of just being connected to one another like this.
If only you could stay like this forever.
________
The morning sun spills through Jaeyun’s window, casting a dawning glow over the room. Your boyfriend’s body is draped over yours, the warmth of his bare skin pressed against you like a safety you know you can no longer allow yourself to have. His breath is slow and steady, the rise and fall of his chest soothing as he sleeps peacefully, a contrast to how you are feeling right now. 
The silver ring on his pinky glints in the sunlight, catching your eye like a cruel reminder of what you are about to do. Why the fuck didn’t you tell him last night?
You now have one more day with him - one more chance to hold onto this love - but after last night, you know you can’t risk another second in his presence.
Every inch of you screams that this is a mistake. If you love him this much, surely you can make long distance work. But it’s just not that simple. You’ve already made your choice, and now you have to live with it. 
Jaeyun will be fine. Busan is full of beautiful girls - girls who are interesting, spectacular, and everything he will need in a partner. He won’t need you anymore. He will find someone else, someone who won’t run. 
Deep down, you know this will hurt him, but he’s strong. He’ll get over it.
Swallowing the lump in your throat, you slip out from under his arm as gently as possible, heart clenching in panic when he stirs - luckily for you doesn’t wake up. You keep your movements careful, as if the universe might give you more time if you just move slowly enough. Every glance at him - his tousled hair, his puffy lips that you love to kiss so much parted slightly in sleep - makes it harder to breathe. 
You are so stupid for this. Leaving him because you are terrified of losing him later on. It’s ridiculous and you’re being selfish.
I can’t do long distance. His voice echoes in your brain, pushing down your apprehensions regarding your next decision.
Your fingers tremble as you slide the ring off your pinky. Despite only having it for a few hours, it feels wrong that it’s gone. You hesitate, just for a second, before placing it on his dresser. The thought of leaving a note crosses your mind, but as Jaeyun shifts in his sleep, you realise there’s no time. You need to go before you lose your last bit of resolve.
Placing a gentle kiss on his forehead, you hold back tears. He looks so innocent and unaware
you can’t imagine what he’ll be like once he wakes up. You can’t be here for that. 
So you get dressed quickly, shuffling down his stairs and out the front door. You’re met with the sharp bite of the morning air. The sun is dulling and the wind carries an unforgiving chill that cuts through you. You already know it’s going to pour later. As if the universe is mourning your decision before you can.
Your phone vibrates in your pocket. You pull it out, hands still shaking, scared that he’s noticed already. But surprisingly, it’s from Avanti.
Dear Y/N L/N,
Mail: From: Avanti College
RE: Housing Enquiry.
I am responding to your inquiry regarding accommodation. The room is available as of today, however, there is no concierge available to give you your keys as there has been a slight altercation in housing arrangements. Your assigned roommate has been made aware of your occupancy and will let you in once you arrive. Your key should be ready for you next week. Sorry about the miscommunication as I know you are eager to get settled.
Kind Regards,Cho Min WooHead of Accommodation and Living.
You let out a breath you hadn’t realised you were holding. It’s done. You have somewhere to go. No turning back now. 
You start running. You need to grab your bag, book the bus, and go before your heart betrays you. No hesitation. No overthinking. Just leave.
Thankfully, you had packed days ago, anticipating that you might need to flee at a moment’s notice, feelings overwhelming causing you to overthink and overpack. But you can’t just disappear. If you vanish without a trace, your parents will panic, call the cops or do something drastic. But if you tell them where you’re going, they will for sure tell Jaeyun your whereabouts. The last thing you need is him chasing after you, sacrificing everything to run to you.
Once you’re home, you grab a notepad and scribble a rushed message to your parents. You don’t explain, don’t justify. Just the bare minimum: you need a fresh start in a new city. You need space, everything too overwhelming. It’s not much, but it’s enough for them to know you’ll be safe.
You sign your name with a shaking hand, placing hugs and kisses as if that will ease the blow.
This is it. No more seeing your room. No more home-cooked meals. No more Jaeyun.
You’ve fucked up so badly, but you have to see this through. You made your bed, now it’s time to lie in it.
___
The bus jam packed. You were lucky to get one of the last two seats on the coach bound for Pyeongchang. The hum of conversation surrounds you but you don’t earwig on any of it. Your hands won’t stop shaking as you stare at your phone, scrolling through the endless missed calls and messages.
Incoming Call: my love <3
You watch it ring until it stops. Then you scroll through the notifications.
Missed Call (67) my love <3Missed Call (34) dadMissed Call (23) mum
Your chest tightens as you finally open Jaeyun’s messages.
The messages go on and on, each one more desperate than the last. Your vision blurs with tears as you scroll down. The latest ones, sent only minutes ago, send a shiver down your spine.
07:30am princess, where are you?
07:30am are you coming back to bed? xx
07:49am Y/N, i’m getting worried.
07:52am pick up your phone, baby. please talk to me.
07:52am if i pushed you too far yesterday, i’m sorry

08:16am why are your parents saying you’ve left?
08:16am baby, don’t do this.
08:17 m what does your letter mean? ‘I need a fresh start from everyone and everything’??
08:17am you aren’t leaving, right? you’re not leaving me, are you?
08:23am please, please, please.
10:32 am i ill search every part of this country until i find you.10:32 am you can’t expect me to just forget about you. 
10:35 am: will you please answer your fucking phone!10:47 am Y/N
i can’t make you answer me, or love me, but please just know i love you and i’m sorry for whatever i did. i’m leaving for Busan in two weeks so you should come home then. you won’t hear from me again but don’t leave your parents like this, baby. they can’t lose you.10:48 am I can’t lose you either to be honest but if it’s what you want
I’ll go.
Another message appears just as the tears spill over onto your cheeks.
10:51 am i love you so fucking much, Y/N. i won’t ever stop. my heart is yours, always. until the sun stops burning.
A sob rips from your throat, loud and raw. The sound fills the bus, drawing the attention of every passenger. You slap a hand over your mouth, bowing in silent apology as the embarrassment burns hot in your chest. Then, without another thought, you block his number.
You will get a new phone when you reach Pyeongchang. A fresh start. No more attachments. No more looking back.
But as the bus pulls away from the station, leaving your past behind, you press your forehead against the window and let the tears fall.
Jaeyun will be fine.
Eventually, he will be fine.
You just have to keep telling yourself that.
_______
Jaeyun’s heart has not stopped breaking since you’ve left, the pieces crumbling in a silence so loud it nearly suffocates him. He believed, with every fibre of his being, that the future you painted together was real - that your love is something solid, something unbreakable. To learn that you have already planned a life without him, that you are gone without a word, tears through him like a blade. 
It fucking hurts - not just in his chest, but deep, right down to his bones. He can’t find the strength to confront it, can’t make sense of what’s happening. 
Had he misunderstood? Had he pushed you into a life you didn’t want? Had his love, his promises, meant nothing to you? He can’t reconcile the girl he has spent so many nights dreaming of a future with, the girl who smiled at him through late-night talks about forever, with the one who has left him behind without a trace.
When he pulls into the driveway of his home after spending hours searching for you, he sees Heeseung’s car is there, an unwelcome reminder that the world has unfortunately keeps moving while his has shattered. He doesn’t have the energy to face his friend, not now, not when every thought in his head is tangled up in confusion and heartbreak. 
He loves Heeseung, of course he does, but right now, he needs to be alone. He needs to think and process, try and make sense of the wreckage of the morning. But he trudges up the stairs regardless, ignoring his parents’ concerned questions, ‘Where have you been?’, ‘Are you okay?’. He doesn’t know anything other than the fact that he has a hole in his chest.
Pushing his bedroom door open, Heeseung’s voice meets him with a bitter cheerfulness - clear he hasn’t noticed the way Jaeyun’s eyes are still swollen from the tears. “Jake, my man! How did it go? You went radio silent last night, so I’m assuming that means things went well,” Heeseung wiggles his brows as he waits for the fairytale update from his best friend.
But that’s the last thing he’ll receive today. The fairytale quickly turned into a Brothers Grimm nightmare.
Jaeyun’s gaze is fixed on the floor, his head hung low to hide the evidence of his heartache - not that it does much good. His throat is tight, his words caught behind a wall of emotion he can’t seem to break through. This makes Heeseung perk to attention, finally seeing the distress.
“Jake?” Heeseung’s voice softens, concern lining it now. “You okay?”
Jaeyun can’t answer, his eyes fixated on the silver ring. The one that belongs to you. The one meant to seal your futures together. It sits on his bedside table taunting and bitter. A new wave of sadness floods him and he tilts his head back in an attempt to stifle the tears, but they come anyway, hot and relentless. 
The sight of it is too much and Jaeyun’s remaining composure cracks. The sobs are impossible to control now, and Heeseung, without hesitation, pulls him into a tight embrace, squeezing him tightly. He holds him as if he could absorb some of the hurt, but nothing will ease this ache.
“She
left,” Jaeyun manages to choke out, the words hardly forming in his mouth before the tears take over.
Heeseung freezes, a stunned silence hanging between them. His hands grip Jaeyun’s shoulders, pulling him back to look at him with disbelief. “What do you mean, she left?”
Jaeyun’s voice breaks, his chest heaving with each ragged, uncontrollable sobs. “She left everything. Me, us...her family
she left it all behind.”
The words seem to cut deeper than the pain itself. Heeseung’s face twists in confusion, his jaw tightening. This is not like you. You wouldn’t go anywhere without Jaeyun let alone leave him without even so much as a goodbye. She’s been kidnapped is Heeseung’s first thought but thats ludicrous. This isn’t a Liam Neeson film.
“Let me call her,” he offers, reaching for his phone, though he knows it’s futile.
“No use,” Jaeyun replies, his voice hollow, devoid of any emotion other than pure agony. “She won’t answer. It’s gone straight to voicemail. Not even her mum can reach her.”
With shaky hands, Jaeyun pulls the note you wrote for your parents from his jeans pocket, handing it to Heeseung in silence. As his friend reads it, Jaeyun turns towards the ring on the table, staring at it as though it were a foreign object. His fingers tremble as he picks it up, turning it over and over in his hands. Every promise he made to you - each word, each moment spent dreaming of a shared future - feels like a cruel joke now. 
The ring should have been reassurance. Hadn’t it been? 
Why would you fucking leave?
Heeseung’s voice breaks through his thoughts, sharp and angry. “What the fuck?” The elder is pacing now, holding the letter like it’s something foul. “What the fuck is she thinking?”
His quetsion is met with a shrug from the heartbroken boy.
“So she didn’t accept the ring and decided to just fuck off?”
Jaeyun shakes his head, the tears flowing freely now, blurring his vision. “She accepted it. Last night was perfect. It was this morning that she left.” He meets Heeseung’s gaze, a tear slipping down his cheek. “What did I do wrong, Hee?”
Nothing. Heeseung knows he did absolutely nothing wrong. He can see the pain in Jaeyun’s eyes, he can feel the weight of his friend’s heartache pressing in on him. It’s suffocating and clinging to every fibre of the room.
With a frustrated sigh, Heeseung pulls Jaeyun into another hug, holding him tighter this time, trying to ground him. Jaeyun has always been the one with the softer heart, and right now, that heart is breaking in a way that even Heeseung can’t fix.
“You didn’t do anything wrong, Jake. I don’t get what’s going on in her head, but you didn’t mess up. She’s just-”
But Jaeyun pushes back, his voice low and protective as he cuts his best friend off from saying something he’ll regret. “Don’t. Don’t talk about her like that. You don’t know her. She wouldn’t do this without a reason.”
“And what? She couldn’t tell you what the reason was and instead pussied out and left?” Heeseung is seeing red. “She should have told you she was leaving last night before she got your hopes up and accepted that ring, no? That’s fucked up.” 
Jaeyun knows somewhere in his heart that Heeseung is right, but his love for you is still as strong as ever and his instincts kick in to defend you. He pushes Heeseung away, his voice dangerously quiet. “Fuck you. You don’t get to speak about her like that. I might not understand it now, but I don’t doubt in my mind she did it for a reason she thought was valid. She wouldn’t have told me last night to protect my feelings.” 
Heeseung’s eyes flare with frustration, and for a moment, it seems like he might say something else. But instead, he scoffs, his words bitter. “Yeah? Well, how does it feel now? Do your feelings feel protected?” Silence. The whole house is still as he scoffs and sticks his tongue in his cheek, landing the final blow. “Think about that and tell me she did this out of love for you.” 
Jaeyun stands in stunned silence as Heeseung storms out of the room, slamming the door behind him. Jaeyun’s fists clench at his sides. How can Heeseung speak like that, when he doesn’t know the real reason behind your departure? Jaeyun is furious, but there’s something else - something even more painful. He’s envious of Heeseung’s anger. He wishes he could just let it all out like that, wishes he could scream and rage, but instead, he just lets the pain sit, lets it fester. He needs a few more days of this hurt, of this confusion, before he can face what’s coming.
And what’s coming
is a life without you in it.
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