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the reason why sam and dean’s unhealthy dynamic doesn’t need to be fixed is because they both (unconsciously) crave power imbalance but for completely different reasons
dean didn’t have much power when he was younger since john took his control away from him. which is why he seeks power/control via hunting, violence and his relationship with sam. dean’s repressed sadistic tendencies, his love for hunting, his enjoyment of torturing & killing souls in hell come from his repressed need to be in control
and sam, as jared said, wants to restrain his physical power. not only because he doesn’t feel comfortable in his body, being too big and intimidating on the outside but feeling smaller and craving safety on the inside. but also because of his guilt and wanting to prove to himself, and to dean, that he’s good. that dean can trust him. it makes him seek comfort in being punished, in being restrained and feeling smaller than he is, but dean is the only person who can give him what he needs because dean is also the only person sam trusts and submits to. as twisted as it may be, but dean’s control over him is the only thing that gives him a feeling of safety he’s always craved
they complement each other in this fucked up way, that’s why their dynamic cannot exist without a certain amount of power imbalance
#like i don’t think power imbalance exists purely bc dean is some awful guy and sam has been his victim since childhood yknow?#there’s so many nuances. so many reasons why they both PREFER it that way#although dean does take it to the extreme sometimes bc he’s too obsessed with the perfect version of sam aka innocent little brother#dean is also the more possessive one between the two of them but sam willingly lets him own him#bc of unconditional devotion he has towards dean but also there’s comfort in knowing he belongs to dean. not to john. not to lucifer#sam winchester#dean winchester#samdean#wincest#spn
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noticing in your vents—
is your sister okay too?
We laugh, sure, but we both know we're not ok.
#messyr#vent post#we have separate fams and both of us are the eldest. She mostly stays at mother side and I stay at my father's although dad is never home.#The rest of the members in my father side can put quips here and there to make her feel guilty and she does get guilty mostly about money#I ALSO provide them and HER financial support while also trying to pay for myself. I'm VERY exhausted.#unlike me she's not caged up here- but with a few restrictions still#while im BOUND to my family (father side) and they always target me so that's a pretty neat deal than seeing my sister suffer the same#just thinking of it makes me want to throw up HAHAH#there are times- she does things by action or words that makes me feel like- yknow. she loves me back. that's enough for me
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bbc merlin - 04x07 The Secret Sharer
sorry? what's that? oh, you're wondering what arthur said just an episode prior? well,
bbc merlin - 04x06 A Servant of Two Masters
but like. don't even worry about it.
#he also goes to immediately put his trust into the knights so yknow#although in 04x06#he had had Doubts#but he also never mentioned gwen really#so#all just good fun#merlin rewatch#bbc merlin#04x07#04x06#merlin#arthur#merthur#agravaine#s4
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arcane characters dnd classes
because im bored and hyperfixating
Vi: Monk. Pit Fighter Vi is Way of the Drunken Master. Drunken Master monks fight hand-to-hand 'mimicking the style of a drunkard'. Technically you don't have to be drunk to be a Drunken Master monk so maybe she still uses those techniques while sobered up later. I think she starts out as a Way of the Open Hand monk, which is just a monk that is Very Good at Punching. The gauntlets are a magical item.
Jinx: Artillerist Artificer. Very straightforward. Makes bombs and cannons. Can use magic (referring to her use of hextech as bombs)
Ekko: Scout Rogue/Chronurgy Wizard multiclass. Scout rogues are very mobile so I think it fits him. Later on he takes two levels in Chronurgy Wizard, which gives him chronal shift. This lets him rewind time briefly to change the outcome of an action - fits pretty well, I think. He only needs two levels wizard to mimic his rewind ability and that multiclass makes him fast.
Viktor*: Transmutation Wizard. In the DnD world, both Viktor and Jayce (and Ekko!) would be wizards because they can just study magic instead of trying to harness it via technology. At level 14 the Transmutation Wizard can use their 'Transmuter's Stone' to create a panacea - a cure to all ills (plus restore youth and raise the dead. sounds familiar). Luckily, I think Transmutation Wizard fits Arcane-Viktor as well (especially once he creates the hexcore, which could be his Transmuter's Stone).
Commune Viktor is an NPC with a three-phase boss fight. The first phase is so simple you know there are other phases. I'd probably add in a mechanic where you try to talk him down in the third phase.
(Alternatively commune Viktor as we know him does not exist because the spell Revivify exists and Jayce shouldn't have to turn to unlicensed necromancy to get Viktor back**. Speaking of...)
Jayce*: Hexblade Warlock/Paladin (Oath of the Watchers)***. Again, if left to his own devices in a DnD world, Jayce would be a wizard. I'd say Abjuration (tanky wizard with protective shields) because he wants to protect people (and he's tanky), Order of Scribes (if he's focused on learning/harnessing all magic). Divination to pun on the 'Man of Progress' thing or if you interpret his glitches in s2 as visions of another world/seeing the truth of the commune members/arcane spidey-sense, which tbh really works
However, If I wanted to create Arcane-Jayce in DnD, I would make a Hexblade Warlock/Paladin multiclass. Hexblade warlocks get magic from a weapon, so it can be flavoured as Jayce using his hammer to do/cast magic. The hammer blasts can be very easily flavoured as eldritch blasts. Paladin is added narratively after the post-apocalypse world but not needed if you just wanted to mimic abilities. I'd go for Oath of the Watchers because they literally protect the realm from extraplanar threats. I've seen some people go for Devotion. That's fair, but it's a bit too Knight in Shining Armour for me.
Mel: Divine Soul Sorcerer. Also pretty easy - sorcerers come by their magic naturally, divine soul sorcerers get their power from a connection with the divine + has the gold/light/shielding imagery/spells. Hell, she's probably an aasimar? I don't know enough league lore to tell.
However, she only got her powers later. I think before that she was an Eloquence Bard or a Mastermind Rogue. Mastermind Rogues are more insightful. Both are incredibly persuasive - the bard moreso. The bard has magic - could be reflavoured as manipulation or as her sorcerer powers poking out before she knew about it. Later you could even multiclass her with sorcerer - works better with Eloquence Bard, but it's still not the most optimal multiclass (that's Jayce's). It's not bad, though, and if you only make optimal multiclasses in dnd you're going to get bored. I'd honestly go bard, only two levels in divine soul sorcerer for sorcery points, get metamagic adept feat for metamagic, it'll be fine. Divine Soul sorcerers get wings and healing at higher levels but if she's an aasimar she already has those.
Caitlyn: Inquisitive Rogue/Battlemaster Fighter multiclass. If you want to play a gunslinger in DnD the general advice is 'battlemaster with a gun'. She probably has the sharpshooter feat (she should have the sharpshooter feat). Inquisitive rogues are intelligent and focus on investigating, unravelling secrets. Rogue/Fighter multiclasses are very good - you only need three levels in fighter (edit: but maybe go for five for extra attack.) (She should also pick up the observant and martial adept feats if she can.)
Bonuses:
Vander: Vander is a bartender NPC at the tavern all our players meet up at during the first session. He's a retired high-level monk. Way of the Open Hand, of course. Just like he taught Vi.
Mylo and Claggor: I only added this because I re-watched the first episode and Mylo was apparently the only one who could pick locks. So Mylo is a Thief Rogue and Claggor is, idk, a fighter? (funnily enough both the artificer and the monk would be good picks for resident lock-picker. Not as good as rogue, but not bad)
Silco: Honestly, Silco would be an NPC with a commoner statblock, but I give him ridiculous bonuses to insight, perception, intimidation, and deception. That said, he did fight Vander, so maybe also Mastermind Rogue? With expertise in intimidation? (Still goes badly for him, though. Do not 1v1 a monk in dnd).
Singed: NPC combo necromancy wizard/alchemist artificer, focusing on the alchemy. I'd probably stick some Spores Druid/Death domain cleric stuff in just to be fun since NPCs can be whatever you want. Honestly, in the average DnD world he could just pay someone to resurrect his daughter and we'd solve half of our problems right there. He's originally from Piltover, right? He can afford it.
Ambessa Medarda: NPC Battlemaster Fighter and she has Rictus' anti-magic item that all your players hate.
Footnotes
* Jayce and Viktor cast 'spells' with hextech that reverses gravity, creates lightning, teleports - but, in the immortal words of Ms. Aabria Iyengar, "anyone can cast fireball teleport." Those are conjuration/evocation spells but you don't have to be a conjurer or evoker. Sometimes I see people think of enchantment wizards as 'wizards who enchant magic items' so maybe we'd put Jayce and Viktor there, but actually enchantment wizards do mind control. And, like I said, commune Viktor is an NPC with a three-phase boss fight. Transmutation wizards are the only wizards who can resurrect without making undead and they do it using their transmuter's stone. Although I'd argue that Viktor's commune members are undead... but anyone can cast the Animate Dead spell. And he's an NPC at that point so his abilities are whatever the DM wants.
** UNLESS you assume the hexcore is Viktor's transmuter's stone (which is how he casts the spells panacea/raise dead that I mentioned). It got corrupted as Viktor created it and when Jayce uses it to cast Raise Dead it goes wrong. (Despite its name the Raise Dead spell is supposed to be a normal, safe resurrection spell AND it cures all nonmagical diseases.) Anyway, we're getting into fanfiction now
*** My problem with the Jayce hexadin class is that it's optimized for charisma. Jayce is very charismatic, but his main characteristic is his smarts. A somewhat popular homebrew is to make warlocks int casters so you could go with that. In that case I might multiclass him with abjuration wizard for the extra tankiness. It's still not as good as the original hexadin multiclass so as a DM i'd allow it. Or just keep paladin, ability-wise you only need it for smites and his charisma should be high anyway. Probably your DM shouldn't allow all three on an int warlock.
On the other hand hexadin Jayce's high charisma makes him well suited for the 'talking down Viktor' mechanism in his third phase bossfight, which ... tracks.
#arcane#arcane headcanon#jayce talis#viktor arcane#mel medarda#vi arcane#caitlyn kiramman#ekko arcane#jayvik#(tagging bc of the additional notes)#long post#this got rambly sorry. and i started giving build tips oops#i'm not tagging jinx because she got like 2 lines. sorry ma'am but it was really straightforward for me#anyway. posts where you can tell OP's favourite characters#'this is heimerdinger erasure' you might say. it's on purpose#inquisitive rogue with a gun... caitlyn kiramman is riz gukgak?#me.txt#anyway ranking multiclasses it's#jayce > caitlyn >> mel > ekko#because the hexadin is top tier powergamer nonsense (although it's less optimal here bc he needs 3 lvls hexblade to use the hammer)#(well. if we assume lvl 14 bc Viktor then we'd have 7 warlock/7 pally which is INCREDIBLE. esp w\ watchers aura + 4th level smites)#i love powergaming and i've played both the jayce and the caitlyn multiclass so. lmao.#also we say that the hexadin multiclass is great because it's 'SAD' and s2 jayce *is* very sad so it fits!#mel and ekko i'm not too sure about. it's got some good synergies#like metamagic for mel. Ekko can get all the defensive wizard spells AND he gets advantage + a bonus to initiative which is amazing#no obvious points of friction either. but the wizard multiclass doesn't add anything to the rogue yknow?#it's there bc we're making Ekko not bc we're making a good rogue#kinda same with Jayce's paladin multiclass but we lucked out and got a very good combo#this might be a better post for reddit but i dont like interacting with fandom on reddit. so...#it is a very reddit post though. not transformative. more analysis. meh
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help who's casey anthony
the woman who definitely for sure absolutely totally did not kill her daughter in 2008 and then, because she didn't get convicted, has just kind of existed out and about ever since and makes people occasionally remember huh. she could just have another kid whenever. crazy
anyway she's trying to get people to pay to see her talk about it now lol. i realise we shouldn't give her any attention but this is like when oj joined twitter bc whatttttt are you DOING
#for the record i do mostly agree with her not getting convicted#not because i don't think she did it they just didn't have the evidence to prove it beyond a reasonable doubt imo#the main reason it's like universally agreed upon that she did is her INSANE lies#it's kinda like scott peterson although he did get convicted#but as much as i think he also absolutely did it idk if i agree that they had enough evidence for that conviction#not that i'm heartbroken he's locked away lol it's for the best but from like a legal standpoint. ehhhhhh#casey anthony though.....#dude insane case#infamous for a reason and not just because it was the murder of a 3 year old#she just lied about EVERYTHING it's CRAZY#speaking of true crime for anyone who's been here for my numerous west memphis three rants-#they just postponed/canceled YET ANOTHER scheduled dna testing 🤡#the state of arkansas you will burnnnn#..not the state itself just yknow. the State. the people in charge#oh and the evidence apparently they keep saying the evidence burned up#(it didn't they lied)#sorry tangent#answered
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#va appeal hearing was today#not a fun time to have to try to granularly recall everything that. yknow. permanently destroyed my body and mind and life.#probably went fine? definitely cried in front of the judge but everyone was super cool about it.#also thank god my wife was there they let her give testimony as both my wife and as a doctor#(which she is)#(obviously)#but like I'm still So Sick and it's all this up and down and we're still fighting to get stabilized so I usually don't have time or energy#to like stop and look around at the quicksand I've been keeping myself afloat in this whole time#but today was very much 'hey tell me about this quicksand huh'#and it's just like a lot to deal with yknow#I'll be fine it's just A Lot#anyway shoutout to the folks who are either kind or nosy enough to read my tag rambles all the time lol#(the actual decision will still take up to 2 more years btw)#(hopefully not! but they said it could)#(although apparently a board denial isn't the end of the road anymore which is news to me)#(maybe they changed it in the 44 months since I filed for the appeal hearing lol)#(not a typo)#favorites
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Too tired to try and write something for this, but I imagine that Magnai asks Ieeha to visit him on the Steppe before the events of Ultima Thule, giving him enough time to settle matters should Ieeha accept the sun.
One person then leaves the Rising Stones after the events of the 13th, followed by two people returning, almost awkwardly hand in hand.
But that's fine with them, because they have all the time in the world henceforth to catch up on all the time they wasted being dense.
It was Guydelot who accidentally stepped on a landmine by trying to strike conversation with Magnai in Camp Broken Glass after seeing him and Ieeha bicker like an old couple. He goes into it all ''ah yes just like me and my Sanson—" only to find out that Magnai was NOT aware of what's going on, and then everything spirals from there, forcing Sadu and Cirina to step in and help Magnai unpack several expansion worth of confusion and strange longing.
(Sanson is the one who tells Guydelot for once that it'll be fine after the fact LOL)
#and thats how magnai tagged along to tural..... although That i'll have to ponder on further to figure out all details hehe#i'm so bad at going into more detailed descriptions for these things but baby steps im learning to be more open#good for magnai though to be surrounded by so many queers so he can get help unpacking his bisexuality lmao#but yeah theres a LOT for magnai and ieeha to learn even after ieeha accepts magnais request to join him by his side#and the scions most certainly are surprised to see ieeha with the little sun following him like a duckling#but they make do!!!!#ffxiv#wolship#magnai oronir#magnai oronir x warrior of light#magnaieeha#ieeha de verral#ieeha#ffxiv oc#final fantasy xiv#ff14#final fantasy 14#gpose#gposers#ffxiv wol#hyur#midlander#au ra#xaela#ffxiv screenshot#nabaath-areng#also the second last screen in particular is the one where magnai looks like a giant puppy. like when you hold ones face in your hand#and they look at you and just sigh.... yknow???#fitting tbh
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I feel like ganz/webkinz were really going somewhere with the designs of the peppermint puppy and pumpkin puppy. They still feel like they fit with the love, peace, and clover puppies, but are their own unique thing at the same time. I wish they'd continued along that route instead of choosing to make patterned puppies with busy designs and printed fabric (such as the spooky puppy, texting puppy, cupcake puppy, etc.) But that's probably a hot take lol
#I say this as I stare at and compare my clover pumpkin peace and spooky puppies#I really really want to love the spooky puppy but I couldn't place my finger on why Im not making a connection#and it has to do with the busy design I think. that and the dact that her pattern is printed on#vs the love peace and clover puppies who's patterns were made as part of the fabric#their fabric is softer and more organic looking as a result if that makes sense#also hot take but the peppermint puppy is peak webkinz puppy design#yes I am biased#but its the only puppy that has patches on it and no glitter#its unique#Pumpkin puppy is also unique with its bicoloration and simplicity#I wish there was more variety like that with the puppies#like we do have the green earth puppy and cherry soday puppy but they're a completely different plush design pattern so they don't count#They're not the “classic” webkinz puppy yknow? although I do like what ganz did with them its nice but they're not part of this discussion#but for the og pupy design they should have gone more unique. idl how but they were obviously capable of it#I feel like the newer puppies were more gimmicky with their patterns (more gimmicky than the puppies were to begin with at least)#and too specific at times#like ballet puppy? chocolate candy puppy? texting puppy? cmon now#viti shoosh#kinzblr#webkinz
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jotting down an idea before i forget it
#putting more elaborate thoughts in the notes#for one i dont want the differences to be so extreme that its absurd nobody notices theyre someone else. just that theyre off#theyre slightly less expressive. they talk more clearly#noelle describes their voice as mumbly so i think id express that by having all their dialogue in lowercase#idk why i color normal kris' speech bubbles i just like it#anyways. i think the two main differences between normal vs possessed kris would be#1) word choice + clarity and 2) movement#i see in fics a lot that kris would be a bit clumsier when possessed and i like that idea. i also like the idea theyre very stiff#thats sort of present in game although its ambigous whether or not thats bc theyre just weaker w/out the soul. which is probably it#but i like the idea that kris normally slouches a lot and walks very quietly and can accidentally sneak up on people easily w/out trying#kris has scoliosis. to me. /silly#anyways. i also think when they talk they tend to say things in the least amount of words possible and say nothing at all when allowed#wheras the soul cant do those physical gestures so it answers verbally more#which isnt. so big itd be immediately noticeable but it is off#again this is hinted in game w noelles dialogue in ch1 but yknow#anyways thats it thats kris thoughts#doodles#kris dreemurr#player#deltarune
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undersea arc. undersea arc. when. undersea arc when.
#my post#please. please. please. on my hands and knees BEGGINGGGG#maybe if gill didnt get donjon'd theydve gone#bcus it was like. that was when they were like 'its too dangerous out here we need to get ollie home Now.'#but if theyd just gone to the feywild. put on a funny show. fought the doctor. and then gone back to liquidis?#ollie wouldve gone 'just oneee more adventure pleaseee :( pleaseeeeeee :(' and chip wouldve caved and well. well. opens the map.#yeah the undersea capitol is actually pretty close to liquidis#they couldve gone. they couldve gone#I NEED THINGS TO BE NOT DIRE. I NEED THINGS TO BE SILLY AGAIN#although if they go to the undersea its automatically going to be dire anyways.#goddd i want an undersea arc i want gillion to see the REAL elders again#yknow how in ep 53 chip and gill sorta stood in the back and shouted encouragement to jay but ultimately let her handle the situation when#it came to her dad. i think confronting the elders will go much the same way#guh. god i want them to go to the undersea i luterally think about this all the fucking time#going to warn the elders about the navy and the black sea spreading and the nameless prince.#wwhat if gill could show them the room he grew up in. what if they go there and its bare empty. what if they scrubbed all evidence gill eve#existed.#alternate also evil version. what if they somehow ran into gills parents. and he doesnt recognize them but they recognize him#more because of the coral crown than anything else#guh. idk man i just desperately want them to go to the undersea
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Mentally calling Arcade a dumbass for this like I'm not the one writing him being a complete fool

#tbh im writing it along the lines that something in him KNOWS shes also his but is in denial#bc yknow. its his own face. on that kid. hence it being familiar to him#but he already regretted leaving james so for the sake of his mental wellbeing hes choosing to think that MAYBE shes someone elses#and not that he ended up making james' life worse when the reason he left james was bc he was worried about exactly that. dragging him down#although i wouldnt say having a kid made james' life worse per se. arcade thinks so but not james#i mean hes bitter abt raising her by himself but hes angrier at pierre for that bc [redacted] and not arcade since he didnt know#and it ofc made life harder. but he feels like if he never had elsie and had to commit to her he wouldve ended up dead somehow#anyways enough lore dumping in the tags#sharing more of my writing#im gonna nap now though#vinny rambles#arcade gannon#james (oc)#fallout new vegas
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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Also I've been in this fandom for like 2.5 seconds approximately and I don't respect a single one of y'all BUT cmiiw the girlypop high femme lesbian mommy etcetc whatever PSH is a fairly new development isn't it. Like my first bias was Sanini but then I realized HJ is a diversely creative fairy prince who wears half-skirts, paints his nails and talks about fashion for men AND women and I was like O YES HI HELLO THIS ONE'S MINE HI. It's fascinating that apparently there's a whole genre of fans who see Joongie as the masculine dom to Hwa's willow-waisted femme omega bottom when like... They both have "masculine" and "feminine" traits. Above all that they're cool fun guys and I like them a lot (assigning gender to personality trait is finest grade dumbassery, not to mention gender essentialism. I don't recommend doing that)
#shrimp thoughts#just 2 be clear please do NOT take me for one of those nuts who make fun of people for seeing the 'wrong' character as the top/bottom#eg 'HE a TOP??? he's the SUBBIEST BOTTOM EVER lmfao whoever said this is a cishet teenage girl and doesn't know shit!!!'#I do not do that. However I generally don't like to see characters as strictly tops/strictly bottoms based on anything other than yknow.#Their canonically stated preferences (if they exist). Like cmon it's all fiction. 仲良くしましょう。#Same for like... that fortune teller or whatever telling San he's got feminine energy. First of all it's all a scam and I'm kinda#side-eyeing KQ for repeatedly sending the teezers to fortune tellers like y'all what. But second of all if Korea is anything like Japan the#their understanding of *sigh* feminine and masculine personality traits is different. See: Tomboy the song#to a westerner the girls are not even CLOSE to tomboys but in Japan a 'boyish' girl is simply one that's confident assertive#and takes no shit. so I wouldn't be surprised if San's 'femininity' was just his warmth and gentleness. though I wouldn't count these as#'feminine' traits -- if anything I'd talk about positive masculinity ALTHOUGH the way he talks about treating his potential future#daughters/the fanservicey lines about men needing to protect women/the things we know about his upbringing make me feel like he#has some... traditional ideas of masculinity in that a man is supposed to be emotionally resilient/not show weakness when his family#needs a strong pillar to lean on/protect what's his. but he's simply like... not a toxic asshole about it. his sincerity cuteness and#fondness of being a physically affectionate kittycat also help lol#anyway. that was julian's bullshit psychoanalysis corner. thankz
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post ankle-twisting clarity
#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee#so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like#so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like#overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down#happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently#my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful#tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when#they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me#because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds#which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and#instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not#totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the#animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted#sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my#faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can#just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development#rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3#doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)
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she needs one of those harnesses that say nervous on it
#welcome home#welcome home mob au#wally darling#welcome home oc#doodle#shes shy :o(#and also TERRIFIED adgafga#cuz wally got that evil stench#yknow the whole lower demons and higher demons and hiearchy shitz#yeah lol#this is when nina introduced molly#i guess nina was like a low level in the mob and then she was like....oh wait i have a DEMON lemme use this real quick#and now she can be RESPECTED#and mollys just like :^|#although ive been thinking that nina def has venom and probably was used for more stealthy shit but now she can do the cool action missions#OK BYYEEE#nina noon#molly moss
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You said you have Parallel Canon ramblings that couldn't fit in the tags. Ramble away, fellow human.
Also, let me know if you find that post you mentioned being reminded of.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS yeah it was a more generalized thing (i saw it cropped and had to go find the image + search the exact phrasing but it's since been reblogged) the sentiment of being the 'evil' clone is up for debate i suppose. perhaps in a literal sense - yknow, antivirus that's been infected with malware; a copy and paste of code that was supposed to be 4 tweaked and repurposed into hostility. but it feels a little wrong to call them evil anyway. (there's also definitely a horror in that it's still your "friend" even while it's "evil" they jump to you they tell you they will they cry out when you kill them and you can hear it and isn't that just awful? they're all still someone that was supposed to be on your side. it's not just the voice clip it's not just a super jump indicator it's an 'ouch' ping it's a 'hey i am super jumping to you, my teammate, specifically' audio cue. this was supposed to be your friend.) and what if it still was! what if you ran with the same sort of angst as if it was genuinely 4 at first? what if eight saw that, remembered sanitized agent 3, and knocked/tore the mask off to save them and it worked? what's it like for everyone then? we know pearl is filling the role she's intended to be, so in that same sense people use that to bring 4 in you could use it to make a dawning horror sort of story. the slow realization that it's not. you could well have it still more directly attached to 4 through the palette too - i think this works well for most things and not just this specifically, like i do think it can play a pretty significant part in pcanon feeling so strongly that it is agent 4 even if it's not quite identical or doesn't remember everything or whatever - but ultimately it never really was. and so what then? for parallel and for everyone else? would it be cruel to acknowledge it? i would think it'd be a little uncomfortable for everyone involved no matter what. in contrast to never being treated like 4 in the first place, instead it is but only for a little bit. and then suddenly everyone starts getting a little... distant. uneasy. even if they never actually say anything about it there's still that nasty anxious feeling when it seems like everyone else knows something you don't and especially if you can tell it's something about you.
i also often find myself especially fascinated with what they are just in general tbh. that one i could touch on in the tags at least though. yknow, series of progressively more distorted photocopies. the first is almost pristine, just a little off from the book itself thanks to things like the weird seam copies get from the way the pages crease at the spine. and then when easy access to the book is lost and the copies start being copies of other copies it gets further and further away. burns. fading. other weird random marks. if the intro is anything to go by, they've all got their quirks. a hall of mirrors reflecting the reflection of the same person. ants that've gotten themselves confused, following each other's trail ever onward and onward into the death spiral because they don't know how to do anything but follow orders and march together. they're not quite like ants in that they're individuals, sure. with their own egos. but they're all still made from the same copy and pasted code, recopied, repasted, corrupted further by the virus hijacking them. and they all still act in harmony to do what they were supposed to do from the beginning. follow the directive, follow the pheromones, even if you've been trapped in a path you weren't supposed to take. (truthfully, i got in on the spiral of ants association just because of 'intensifying harmony' -> 'the overwhelming harmony (consuming the colony)' but since then i've ended up latching onto it more and making other connections lmao. You Are One Ant is something that's also stuck for a long time alongside the harmony connection which i've thought about drawing something for occasionally but honestly the whole pre-chorus at this point i think about a lot. the first one especially [you can't remember where you came from. you can't remember where you're going. you can't remember knowing.] but the now you remember/you have to keep it flowing also hits in its own way i think)
also like no matter how you interpret it, how much you think the main parallel can actually remember of "being 4", there's always going to be that light so bright it's blinding as soon as it gets a window into that, right? as soon as it gets to look in that mirror and see that life it doesn't have. the light none of them will ever reach.
in contrast to no matter how happy-go-lucky your 4 is this sort of thing would be crushing, it's also no matter how angsty your 4 is they still have more going for them than the parallels. they're living some sort of life and not just the hollow facsimile of one in a little anthill of a tower in a barren virtual reality. they do have friends even if they've felt neglected, right? but all the parallels really have is each other (and maybe order/smollusk) unless 8 or the others decide to reach out despite how weird that has to be for them.
it's just you and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself and yourself (etc if you figure there's more than the ten we see on the floor 20 bossfight) living in the cold white dark. mere imitations of someone who did something meaningful. who was impressive enough for you to be created in the first place.
but then also, how many of them even care? at what point is that copy so distorted from those burns and fadings that it's still identical in text but completely unrecognizable from the book it came from? and what's it like to know there's a you that doesn't care that it's not you? what's it like to be one that doesn't care when however many do? i'd think it'd be a little offputting even if it's a perfect divide and they don't fight about it or anything. but it'd definitely be isolating if it was only a few of them on either side, too.
none of them are their own person but also they are. none of them are 4 but also they all are. it doesn't matter which way any of them look at it because they can never really be either.
NOT TO MENTION what happens when there isn't anything left to defend from? what happens between the time eight is there and marina making use of the memverse the way she intended to originally? let alone when it just isn't needed anymore in general! what happens to the memverse in general then, to both the parallels and to smollusk? what do they do when they're alone in there. unattended. when they're not following their directive and acting as security. i would think they'd just be interacting amongst themselves which is definitely fine between periods of eight going in with the different palettes but how well does it hold up in those sorts of long term situations?
btw looping back to the link to 4's palette imagine that and then when the palette is completed/cleared just... having that ripped away. you know. being so sure that they're someone else only to suddenly be forced to realize they're not. not just because of the way people are treating them but because all of a sudden there's just... something that's torn out of them and put inside of someone else. having a soul only to realize it's not yours when the real owner takes it back.
anyway yeah that's mostly what i've got off the top of my head but yknow. ultimately as much as i do like the [it actually is 4 au] stuff too i think the actual situation is soooo cool and also super underutilized tbh it's kind of a shame
#splatoon#parallel canon#(<- these r both for my organizational purposes and also. although i am more inclined to be reserved about it Yknow.)#(again i think it's underutilized. perhaps some day more people will see the Vision... from both of our posts...)#long post#sorry this is like chunky and rambly as hell and probably hard to read i'm going insane about this every time i think about it#also it's 1 am.
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