#*im alive by sia plays*

[hsadh]

your girlie has accidentally either cvt their vein or bruised their artery and it altered their brain chemistry

[wavehq]

enjoy limitless possibilities here in celestire islands, alphonse elric ( full metal alchemist ), where you can start the new life you've always longed for. make sure you read the checklist, as we'll be sending the discord link through ims! enjoy your new dream, sia!

( fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood, dupes not allowed, lee taemin, demi-man, he/they. ) ——- hey, is that ( alphonse elric ) hanging around ( rose library )? i wonder what life is like for them, balancing working as a ( twenty-four ) year old ( librarian) and ( taking in and rescuing animals )? they’re notorious for being ( compassionate ) yet ( self sacrificing ), and i always seem to hear ( never be alone ) by ( shawn mendes ) playing whenever they walk past. they’re known around the islands for ( housing many cat rescues ), and they’re associated with ( i am not dead, nor am i alive, smudged reflection in the mirror, a voice that sounds so distant but has never left you. ). last we spoke, they were telling me about a vision they had… something about their biggest regret being ( not being able to save the lives that were lost. ), but it must have just been a bad dream. // — [ sia ]

[mikebibibibitches]

Dustin: I'm an idiot!

Steve: No you're not, you're a kid

Dustin: I'm a kidiot

[drvinyl]

INTERVIEW: NUUXS airs her Laundry, her latest release.

Words by Charlotte Christie  

Whether it’s Daniel Day Lewis, Don Henley or Dot Cotton; if there’s an important conversation to be had, it’ll be in the laundrette. Equally, they are places where you can sit in silence while reality is muted by spin cycles and steam. However, French born NUUXS’s new single, Laundry, tells a different story. In just under 3 minutes she captures one mother’s sacrifice, stress and thin skin. I caught up with her to chat about her new single, Shania Twain and future projects.  

For those discovering NUUXS for the first time, where does the name come from?  

NUUXS is actually my nickname which I’ve adopted through my friends and is short for my given name “Anouck”.  

Every artist has their own reasons for why they do what they do, but what is it that drives you to make music? Do you remember what first inspired you?

I remember singing to myself as a child and always making melodies in my head, writing poetry on scraps of paper, performing in front of my big sister and also with friends in school. It always was something that’s was a part of my identity but it wasn’t until I got into my late teens that I decided I wanted to be a songwriter and a singer. I started off in an indie band and also wrote books for MC’s that I went to school with. Later I sang covers in jazz clubs and sang backing vocals for a few people. Becoming my own artist was a journey and I didn’t get there straight away.  

Your latest release Laundry is brilliant. Can you tell us more about the track? How is it personal to you? Is there a particular story that inspired it?  

Thank you so much- it’s so great to hear such amazing feedback. This song is very personal to me because it touches base on my personal upbringing but also lots of other people who find themselves lost growing up, money issues, divorced parents and seeing them work insanely hard jobs for next to nothing. Life is tough but we can turn it around and it’s all about community and how we can help each other collectively. It’s so important we all understand the responsibility we all have to one another as human beings.  

Who or what is your greatest influence?

I have so many but I would have to say my life experiences of going through so many crazy things I have so much to draw from. I’m influenced by strong women, I love Lizzo, FKA Twigs, Sia, Robyn and I love Amal Clooney too.  

What do you hope people will take away from your music?  

I hope that people can relate to what im saying in my music even though sometimes we feel disconnected through our differences, we all feel the same things, we laugh and cry and we doubt, dream, we are heartbroken and we fall in love, each song has a personal experience but in the end there is always hope and I think that’s what will connect the most and give a sense of togetherness.

What band/artist would you like to cover one of your songs?  

Nice question! I’ve never been asked that before- I would love to hear “Laundry” sung by The Weeknd.  

Best piece of advice you have received?  

Shania Twain once told me to try everything and always give it your best shot.  

Future plans? Any ongoing projects? Has The pandemic affected your plans?  

Well my album is being released in March 2021 so it hasn’t really been affected however I had to work with an animator Charlie Cross to create my music videos. I’m so glad I did because I love the creativity and uniqueness of his style. I’m really looking forward to singing live again so watch this space. I also have a few more singles up my sleeve. To add to that I played one of the leads “Maya” in a new cult classic called “Clay’s Redemption” directed by Carlos Boellinger-my debut acting role along side Akie Katobe known for “Mad Men” and “Everly” with Salma Hayek. I also played alongside Magdalena Sverlander who is known for “The Crown Witness” and “Treadstone”. Lots of more exciting things coming up which I can’t share yet!

Finally… Fancy a spot of word association? Let’s use your work to inspire it. Right..here goes…

Water? Hot Tub

Laundry? Bubbles

SPF? Hot

Safe? Lock

Patient? Love

Alive? Kicking  

Snowflakes? Christmas

Red? Lipstick

Listen to Laundry now: https://slinky.to/Laundry

[arles-leysen]

tagged by: @jyiori thx sweet💖💖💖

1. Nicknames: my friends usually call me 🐢turtle(老鳖/甲鱼) cause my real name pronounce Jia Yu, which is same to trionychidae turtle. And my friends in atelier call me professor, they said our atelier is a royal art academy and we're all on the faculty of the academy lmao

2. Zodiac Sign:  Scorpio♏️/ ⬆️ Aquarius♒️

3. Height: 5'2" (158cm)

4. Hogwarts: Slytherin🐍

5. Last Thing I googled: Pet Shop of Horrors, I suddenly wanted to read this comic again last night, and i stay up reading it till 4a.m.💦

6. Favourite Musicians: Lana Dal Ray, Melanie Martinaze, Sia, Panic! At The Disco, Imagine Dragons, Fall Out Boy, OneRepublic, Bebe

7. Song Stuck in My Head: Cosi Tanto

8. Following Now: 102

9. Followers: 1393 💖💖💖

10. Do I Get Asks?: I Just finished emptying them😢 sry i had to close them, i gotta disappear for a month to prep for an important exam. I'll open it after i finish the exam, always feel free to ask me anything

11. Amount of 💤?: 4~6hours

12. Lucky Number: 3

13. What I’m Wearing: Marvel tshirt and no pants(my sleeping wear)

14. Dream Job: BJD maker, that's why i wanna choose sculpting as my major✨👀

15. Dream Trip: Northern Europe, summer, with some close friends👌

16. Favourite Food: EVERYTHING WITH CHEESE!!!

17. Instruments: I used to play the piano until forth grade, I really don't like it:( i wanna learn how to play the Erhu

18. Languages: My mother tongue is Mandarin Chinese, can speak a little bit of Chinese dialect as well, and yeah, English😂

19. Favourite Song: for now It's West Coast by Lana Dal Ray

20. Random Fact:  No matter what I plant, they die. I don't know why i can't keep them alive, black thumb I am🥀

21. Aesthetic: 

(i only own the middle and bottom middle ones, others are from the Internet)

Tag 21 people: sry im skipping this one💦💦

💖feel free to do it if you want!💖

[cloneslugs]

oh fuck u sent me multiple so demo/engie/medic/scout and also u can do the one i already sent

ty i love you

Demo

favorite thing about them

he’s super fun!!! but also really smart and caring and just an all around cool dude he’s like B) !

least favorite thing about them

this isnt about him personally lol but like official stuff(comics) lighten the fuck out of his skin and its like. dont

favorite line

i didnt even see this question when i first did this wtf but uh all his “i love you” esque lines are really excellent

brOTP

exclusing soldier lol!!! probably sniper or engie!!

OTP

soldier :’)

nOTP

besides scout & pyro & just like. looking at just the mercs no one really demo deserves love

random headcanon

he likes turtles a lot & just reptiles/amphibians in general just in a kinda neat/favorite animal type way nothing special, he gets around with engie and sniper and they all get drunk and they talk about cryptids, he has a super big heart he loves love, outside of the battlefield he’s pretty apprehensive and cautious moreso than lots of the others at least, he doesnt push himself to be it often just bc he doesnt like leaderly positions but he defo has one of the more valid voices of reason amongst all of them, he loves to help and just listen to people he’s always ready to offer you a drink and take a load off and just talk things out & he’s super chill and easy to talk to anyway, he comes off as really lazy but he can jump up and make do when he needs to

unpopular opinion

idk whats considered popular or not on here lol but like!! he’s not just stupid silly drunk man he’s actually got heart and is pretty intelligent & like probably one of the better off mercs if he wanted himself to be

song i associate with them (this is literally the worst question im so bad at this if i dont have lots n lots of searching time and also i forget all music ever)

cheap thrills - sia

favorite picture of them (sorry 4 bg edits im doing what i have on hand lol)

hes so fucking happy i love you!!!

Engie

favorite thing about them

he’s my fucking husband he makes my heart fucking soar!!! he’s a quiet little sweetheart and he’s just really smart and nice and has morals iusdahui

least favorite thing about them

fucking nothing you animals 

favorite line

all his fucking nerdy engineering lines are so fucking good ;____; he’s so smart and passionate god“i love engines! pinion shafts! flanges. mitigating shock loads. but most of all: i love winnin’!” “they won’t know what hit ‘em! though it’ll likely to be bullets. statistically speaking” theres more but im like ;___; just thinking about him ah

brOTP

medic babey!!!!!! i have a thing for shitty best friends that tire each other out (especially on one side) but love each other at the end of the day and are just ride or diepyro also but for completely different reasons :-)

OTP

spy is fucking excellent -.- dont @ me

nOTP

soldier lol (excluding pyro & scout)

random headcanon

i think all the mercs are autsitic but engie is one of my fucking fav ahhhhh, he and medic info dump for hours especially where their special interests overlap and it gets really boring if youre not one of them lol, he loves learning but he hated school so much ):, he has pretty bad anxiety but only under certain circumstance, he’s kinda jealous that spy gets to automatically be seen as a paternal figure bc of scout and he kinda wishes he could settle in like that but he also doesnt think he’d be very good at it for a very prolonged amount of time, he loves math!!!! he loves numbers a lot he associates it with lots of fun and colors and just !!!!! wow wow!!, he has really really really high empathy when it comes to machines and stuff, he loves dogs especially smaller ones, he really loves to fidget w/ tools and stuff bc he always has one on hand and theres lots you can do with some of them, he’s really lazy and has a hard time applying himself sometimes

unpopular opinion

the comics really brush him aside i need to see him more please for the love of god he’s just as interesting as anyone else also fat engie is the only valid engie & also soldier/engie is fucking forced and weird idk where it comes from except they wear hats lol & also people call engie short but if you dont make him 5′00 give or take 3 inches youre doing it wrong and i cant stand by it

song i associate with them

this is like. also a soldier song for me lol but Here I Dreamt I Was An Architect - the decemberists

favorite picture of them

ms pauling and medic!! his buddies :) also i just love the shadowboxers art

his fly costume makes me so ;___; i love you little man

also i hate to default to beard engie but this is literally the sexiest man alive

Medic

favorite thing about them

i have a thing for shitty men with halfway decent hearts but are trying(sometimes) okay like okay he’s so chaotic and bad but ;___; i love you

least favorite thing about them

this mostly applies to his Meet the vid but he comes off as really apathetic and cruel? i think in everything else he comes off as a bit nicer if not absentminded and not too socially aware which is :)

favorite line

bro when he warns heavy about that gun in the comix? gay rights U__U also the like “you can take the brain out of the criminal and put it in a pumpkin, but you cant take the criminal out of the brain in the pumpkin” or whatever shit sir i love you

brOTP

engie baby!!!! i also really like spy & sniper bc im weak for shitty support relationships i think med just works really good w/ everyone really in some way

OTP

heavy baby!!!

nOTP

all of the mercs are fine (excluding the usual lol) but like cHeavymed people are freaks die

random headcanon

he has really poor eating & sleeping habits he almost relies on everyone else to keep him alive, he’s autistic & he’s jewish but not really practicing, he pulls & tugs on things when he’s stressed, he’s actually really smart medically he just doesn’t like showing it/messing w/ people (it makes some of the smarter mercs nervous lol), when he gets bored & has nothing to play with he digs for drama he loves to start unnecessary arguments that have no value whatssoever, he’s scared of dogs, he only trusts sniper & maybe heavy to handle his birds if he were to die, heavy & archimedes are like mega comfort objects(?) for him !!, he’s kinda really bad at showing he likes/cares for people, this goes especially hard on engie ):, he has a really big sweet tooth, he cant cook, he doesnt ever censor himself and can be pretty rude, he’s an open book and has no sense of integrity, he got super attached to heavy right off the bat for seemingly no reason and it was just super awkward lol, he gets distracted really easily and drops projects too often when he gets bored/forgets, his room is a mess he doesnt know how to do chores, he’s trans and hasnt done anything to medically transition but he handles everyone on team who is 

unpopular opinion

he’s not a fucking sociopath lol like he has a heart and cares he just has a hard time differentiating right from wrong and doesnt think things out i love you

song i associate with them

this is my emo music time i keep changing this but im gonna go It Was A Swift Not A Swallow - Crywank

favorite picture of them

i cant pick between these two he’s saving his fucking boyfriends life & also the 2nd he just looks so peaceful and :)

Scout

favorite thing about them

he’s a sweet boy!!! he just wants friends and he’s stuck with a bunch of middle aged men we have to love his endurance also he’s a little baby faced menace i love you

least favorite thing about them

in the canon i ignore lol.. too straight we cant have that

favorite line

all his lines talking about how the group of them are all best friends and stuff??? i love that

brOTP

sniper !!!! also spy also everyone

OTP

no one really lol pyro is like. the only one im comfy w/

nOTP

sniper lol if we’re talking popular things & all the rest of the mercs really

random headcanon

he’s a super sweet boy who loves everyone on the team, he warmed up the fastest out of all of them and became super attached!!, he really wants a base dog, he really likes to spend time with everyone and listen to them talk like he loves sitting with engie and having him explain nerdy engineering nonsense that he’ll never get but he tries to but its just fun seeing how excited the other person is!!!, he became super close to sniper right off the bat for some reason which is weird bc scout can talk forever and sniper doesn’t know how to hold a conversation for more than 5 minutes but they like hanging out even if it gets tiring, he lives off of sugary drinks medic keeps telling him to stop, he loves to hang out w/ spy and they get on each others nerves but really enjoy it at the end of the day, he has little to no sense of boundaries, he loves to give hugs!!, he really tries to engage with everyone’s interests like i said he just loves making/seeing other people happy, he loves being part of big groups it always just feels like a big family to him

unpopular opinion

he gay :)

song i associate with them

the calculation - regina spektor

favorite picture of them

trans rights!!!

Soldier

favorite thing about them

he is a sweetheart he is my big stupid husband and we both love raccoons =.=

least favorite thing about them

the patriotism……  we arent having that

favorite line

he’s literally so fucking funny especially all his things w/ merasmus and just. everything

brOTP

excluding demo uh !!! SPY!!!! :D

OTP

demo :)

nOTP

engie x.x

random headcanon

he’s super sweet !!! he loves his friends so much, he loves to show off his raccoons to everyone :), he bonds w/ sniper over wildlife(raccoons), everyone has a lot of patience w/ him bc he struggles to communicate things a lot and kinda needs his time to get points across, he’s actually really observant and it would be really good if he just didnt jump to wild conclusions based off of it all the time, he’s really conscious of his actions and how they affect others like he’s kinda violent impulsively but hes taken note of who is and isnt okay with it or who’s okay w/ him saying what in front of them, he’s really protective of his friends!!! he knows theyre capable but he loves looking out for them, he loves to drag them off on fitness expeditions/training but he tires out before a good number of them/gets bored, he wakes up the earlies he loves the mornings, he can cook but nobody knows it, like scout he loves to indulge in what other people like but he’s more handson he loves to screw in screws for engie or hand medic tools or read out loud to spy or heavy or show sniper things he catches/turn over rocks with him, he loves medics birds but doc wont let him touch them ):, he wants to get a base dog too, he has no volume or tone control, probably the best hugger, he’s kinda shy about personal things like himself in general or being trans & liking guys he’s actually pretty decent at keeping personal things to himself not that he wouldnt share it just feels weird, 

unpopular opinion

he’s not just like shouty mean stupid man,,, he’s actually really sweet 

song i associate with them

rejoice- AJJ 

favorite picture of them

i have worse naked honey pics but this is fucking it lads gay rights

[padawanlost]

The links to your ‘legendary’ anakin playlist never work on mobile. Is it on Spotify or somewhere else?

Hey, youcan open on mobile because it’s a side page (https://padawanlost.tumblr.com/anakinskywalkerplaylist).You won’t find anywhere else, I was playing on creating a playlist on youtubefor easier access but I didn’t have the time yet :( But, if it help, copied thelist here so it should work on mobile now.

12 Stones - World So Cold

30 Seconds to Mars - Dangerous Night

30 Seconds To Mars - Hurricane 2.0

4th Point - Sick of It All

Adele - Hello

Adele - River Lea

Adele - Rolling In The Deep

Adele - Set Fire to the Rain

Adele - Skyfall

Adele - Someone Like You

Adele - When we were young

Aida - Written in the Stars

Alanis Morissette - Uninvited

Amaral - Sin ti no soy nada

Anya Marina - All the same to me

Anya Marina - Move You

Archive - The False Foundation

Arkells - Knocking At The Door

Avicii - Hey Brother

Avril Lavigne - I’m With You

Backstage Cast - Shot Me Down

Banners - Start a Riot

Bastille - Sleepsong

Bastille - The Draw

Bastille - Things We Lost in the Fire

Beth Crowle - Red

Björk - Hunter

Black Sabbath - War Pigs

Blink 182 - I Miss You

Bon Jovi- Santa Fe

brandi carlile - the story

Breaking Benjamin - Close To Heaven

Breaking Benjamin - Dear Agony

Brian Tyler - Lokasenna

Broods - Conscious

Carrie Underwood - I Just Can’t Live A Lie

Celldweller - Frozen

Celine Dion - My heart will go on

Celtic Woman - Amazing Grace

Chevelle - Red

Chihiro Onitsuka - This Silence is Mine

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Clean Bandit - Rockabye

Clean Bandit - Stronger

Christina Aguilera - Say Something

Coldplay - Atlas

Coldplay -  a rush of blood to the head

Coldplay - Clocks

Coldplay - Fix You

Coldplay - Magic

Coldplay - Paradise

Coldplay - The Scientist

Coldplay - Yellow

Damien Dawn - Silent Scream

Daniel Knox - What Have They Done to You Now

Dar William - A God Descended

Dar Williams - The Ocean

Daughter - Human

Dean Martin .Ain’t That A Kick In The Head

Death Cab For Cutie - Black Sun

Depeche Mode - Wrong

Devour The Day - Good Man

Dido - Thank You

Dizzee Rascal- Bonkers

Drea - Justified

Ed Sheeran - Perfect

Ed Sheeran - supermarket flowers

Edward Sharpe And The Magnetic Zeros - Home

Elvis Presley -  I Can’t Help Falling Love

Elvis Presley - The Wonder of You

Emily Hearn - Volcano

Evanescence - Bring Me To Life

Evanescence - my immortal

Fall Out Boy - Bishops Knife Trick

Fall Out Boy - Centuries

Fall Out Boy - Champion

Fall Out Boy - Just One Yesterday

Fall Out Boy - Heaven’s Gate

Fall Out Boy - The Mighty Fall

Fink - Keep Falling

Five Finger Death Punch - Bad Company

Five Finger Death Punch - Battle Born

Five Finger Death Punch - Coming Down

Five Finger Death Punch - Remember Everything

Five Finger Death Punch - Wrong Side Of Heaven

Fleurie - Hurts Like Hell

Fleurie - Soldier

Flobots - Journey After (War Fatigues)

Florence and the Machine - Only if For A Night

Florence and the Machine - Rabbit Heart (Rise It UP)

Florence and the Machine - Seven Devils

Flyleaf - Fire, Fire

Foxes - Devil Side

Fun - Some nights

Gabrielle Aplin - Salvation

Gang Of Youths - Achilles Come Down

Generdyn Music - Let It Burn (feat RUTH)

Glen Hansard And Marketa Irglova - Falling Slowly

Grandson - Blood // Water

Grayscale - Forever Yours

Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia

Green Day -  Wake Me Up When September Ends

Hamilton - Dear Theodosia

Halsey - Angel on Fire

Halsey - Colors

Halsey - Control

Halsey - Devil in me

Halsey - Gasoline

Halsey - Ghost

Halsey - Haunting

Halsey - Hold me down

Halsey - Young God

Heavy Young Heathens - Being Evil Has a Price

HIM - Beyond Redemption

HIM - For You

HIM - Join me in death

HIM - The Sacrament

house of heroes - out my way

Hozier - Arsonist’s Lullabye

Icon For Hire - Up In Flames

Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

Imagine Dragons - Battle Cry

Imagine Dragons - Believer

Imagine Dragons - Demons

Imagine Dragons - I Bet My Life

Imagine Dragons - Thief

InnerWish -  Needles In My Mind

Isabelle Boulay- Parle Moi

James Young - Infinity

Jaymes Young - I’ll Be Good

John Rzeznik - I’m Still Here

Johnny Cash - Hurt

jónsi - tornado

Joshua Radin - Let Our Sun Shine Down

Joshua Radin - They Bring Me to You

Juanes - Fotografia

K.Flay - Run For Your Life

Kamelot - Insomnia

Kansas - Carry On My Wayward Son

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side

kendrick lamar - DNA

Kendrick Lamar - PRIDE

Lana Del Rey -  Young and Beautiful

Lauren Aquilina - King

LemON - Napraw

Leonard Cohen - Hallelujah

Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit

Linkin Park - Burn It Down

Linkin Park - Castle of Glass

Linkin Park - Crawling

Linkin Park - Fallout

Linkin Park - Heavy

Linkin Park - In the end

Linkin Park - Iridescent

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

Linkin Park - New Divide

Linkin Park - Numb

Linkin Park - One More Light

Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong

Linkin Park - The Catalyst

Linkin Park - Until It’s Gone

Linkin Park - Valentine’s Day

Linkin Park - Waiting For The End

Linkin Park - What I’ve Done

Lord Huron - the Night we Met

Lorde - Liability

Lorde - Yellow Flicker Beat

Loreena McKennitt - Dante’s Prayer

LP - Muddy Waters

Macklemore ft. Kesha - Good Old Days

Major Lazer - Be together

Manchester Orchestra - Simple Math

Marilyn Manson - Fated, Faithful, Fatal

Marina and the Diamonds - Fear and Loathing

Maroon 5 - Payphone

Maroon 5 - She W

ill Be LovedMaroon 5 - Sugar

Metallica - Unforgiven

Michael Patrick Kelly - ID

Michael Schulte - You Let Me Walk Alone

MIIA - Dynasty

Mikky Ekko - Time

Milk & bones - Natalie

Mumford and Sons - Broken Crown

Muse - Madness

Muse - Resistance

New Order - As It Is When It Was

NF - Let You Down

NF - Paralyzed

Nickelback - How You Remind Me

Nickelback - PhotographNickelback - Savin’ Me

Nikka Costa - Push & Pull

Nina- we are the wild ones

nothing more - go to war

O.A.R. - Peace

Of monsters and men - Organs

Of monsters and men - sinking man

Oh Child - The Lion

One Ok Rock - Taking of

Paramore - Decode

Paramore - The Only Exception

Patrick Swayze - She’s Like the Wind

Peter Gabriel - Heroes

Peter Gabriel - My Body Is A Cage

Phillip Phillips - Gone, Gone, Gone

Phillip Phillips - Midnight Sun

Pink Floyd - Learning to fly

Placebo - Running up that hill

Portishead - Wandering Star

Radical Face - The Gilded Hand

Radiohead - creep

Rag'n'Bone Man - Human

REM - Losing my religion

Red - Fight Inside

Red - Shadows

ride - paralysed

ride - ox4

Rihanna ft SZA- Consideration

Rise Against - Hero Of War

Roberta Flack - The First Time Ever I Saw your Face

Rod Stewart - Blondes Have More Fun

Rod Stewart - I don’t wanna talk about it

Ruelle - Bad Dream

Ruelle - Deep End

Ruelle - I Get To Love You

Ruelle - Monsters

Ruelle - Storm

Ruelle - The Other Side

Ruelle - Walk Through the Fire

Ruelle - War of Hearts

Sam Smith - lay me down

Sam Smith - Writing’s On The Wall

Santana - Into The Night

Seal - Kiss From A RoseSerg

e Lama - Je suis malade

Shinedown - Call Me

Sia - Alive

Simple Plan - astronaut

Simple Plan - Untitled

simple plan - welcome to my life

Skillet - Monster

Sleeping at Last - Already gone

Sleeping at Last - Neptune

Slipknot - Snuff

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

Sofi Tukker - Best Friend

Starset - My Demons

Sum41 - Pieces

Svrcina - Burning Heart

Svrcina - Lover Fighter

SYML - The War

SYML - Where’s My Love

SZA - All the stars

Tame Impala - I’m a man

Tamer -  Beautiful Crime

Taylor Swift - All too Well

Taylor Swift - I know places

Taylor Swift - King Of My Heart

Taylor Swift - Red

Taylor Swift - This Love

The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

The All-American Rejects - Move Along

The Beach Boys - God Only Knows

The Civil Wars - Devil’s Backbone

The Commodores - Easy

The Cure - treasure

The Dear Hunter - writing on the wall

The Editors - Smokers Outside the Hospital Doors

The Fray - How To Save A Life

The Fray - Over My Head

The Heights - Talk to an Angel

The Jonas Brothers - Burnin’ Up

The Jonas Brothers - Hold On

The Jonas Brothers - Paranoid

The Killers - The Rising Tide

The Kongos - (War) Come With Me Now

The Lumineers.- Ho hey

The Mountain Goats - Cry for Judas

The Neighbourhood - Afraid The Neigh

bourhood - Sweater Weather

The Neighbourhood - Wire

The Oh Hellos - The Truth is a Cave’

The Wanted - Demons

The Weeknd - Die For You

The Weeknd - Pray For Me

The Who - Behind Blue Eyes

ThouShaltNot - Trial By Fire

Three Days Grace - Tell Me Why

Throw Me Off The Bridge - From The Top

Throw Me Off The Bridge - Way Out

Tom McRea - You cut her hair

Tori Amos - Crucify

Tracy Chapman - Fast Car

Train - Drops of Jupiter

Twinbed - trouble im in

Welshly Arms - Legendary

Wicked - Defying Gravity

Winters Island - Ares

Within Temptation - A demon’s fate

Within Temptation - Destroyed

Within Temptation - Hand of Sorrow

woodkid - iron

woodkid - run boy run

Yellowcard - Only One

Zendaya & Zac Efron - Rewrite the stars

[thesoundlabyes]

We have only gone and added a ton of new music to The Sound Lab Radio this week - Winner of Best Radio Air Play & Promotion Platform 2020 UK You can listen in on the website at www.thesoundlabuk.co.uk or tiny.cc/TSLlisten and via most streaming sites! Added to the main playlist this week includes: Aloe Blacc - Hold On Tight beabadoobee - Worth It David Guetta & Sia - Lets Love Justin Bieber - Holy (Feat. Chance The Rapper) Luke Combs - Lovin On You Melanie C - In & Out Of Love Rudimental - Come Over (Feat. Anne Marie & Tion Wayne) Paloma Faith - Better Than This Added to our alternate tracks list this week include: Fontaines D.C. - A Lucid Dream Lady Gaga - 911 Mariah Carey - Out Here On My Own Royal Blood - Troubles Coming Sub Focus & Wilkinson - Air I Breathe Waterparks - Lowkey As Hell Bruce Springsteen - Ghosts First Aid Kit - Come Give Me Love Kylie Minogue - Magic Maisie Peters - Maybe Dont Michael Kiwanuka - Light The Psychedelic Furs - Wrong Train Chay Snowdon - Tough Guys Die COLL - The Keys Macca Wiles - Rapstar Mayday Parade - Lighten Up Kid The Academic - Them Christopher J Upchurch - Give It Up Hands Like Houses - Dangerous Heather Layne - Still Lovin' You Jessica Lynn - Look At Me That Way Majestic - Me & U (Feat. Kelsey) Memes - So What Djerv - (We Don't) Hang No More Ghosts of Sunset - Never Goodbye Heather Fay - Finally Free Kyle Culkin - Crying Over You GAURIKA - Im Alive (Feat. Sean Kingston) Jack Rose - Better On My Own Ritt Momney - Put Your Records On Cold Water Swimmers - Breaking Hearts Dead Poet Society - .intoodeep. Grand Pax - Wavey HammerFall - Keep the Flame Burning (Live) Jafaris - Haunted A is for Arrows - Can't Stop Wendy Moten - Driving Nails In My Coffin Ben Dalby Music - Two Birds Wind Rose - Diggy Diggy Hole (Remix) Gina Brooklyn - No More Hiding And you can share all the love on our social media: Twitter: www.twitter.com/TheSoundLabYES Instagram: www.instagram.com/TheSoundLabYES Snapchat: www.snapchat.com/add/TheSoundLab Tumblr: https://thesoundlabyes.tumblr.com/ Youtube: www.youtube.com/TheSoundLabYES DONATE - http://tiny.cc/TSLdonate Share! Like! Love! #NewMusic #NewMusicMonday #TSL https://www.instagram.com/p/CFu8meMnhaZ/?igshid=jk6zizmmxp0d

[mental-health-advice]

Submission about depression

Hi there, Im going through a tough time recently with depression, its slowly killing me and the past week Ive felt suicidal. Im running out of reasons to live, with no job, no friends and a fear of everything. I dont even want to look after myself anymore cause I dont feel like Im worth it and when I try to leave the house I get irritated and recently I feel very angry all the time. I feel like Im at risk of hurting myself today, I just needed to get this out somehow.

Hello Beautiful,

I’m happy that you reached out to us. You are are trying your best. You’re alive and that’s a big accomplishment. I want you to know that you’re worth everything beautiful in this life. No matter what, you have a special unique part of this earth. Don’t give up!

No matter how much pain you’re experiencing right now, you are not alone.  Reach out to someone as soon as you can, talk to (Trusted person, Parents, Guardian,Family member). Don’t worry about what time it is right now. Just vent it out and get yourself to a safe place. Don’t let fear or worry prevent you from seeking help.

If you called for help and are still experiencing these thoughts, go to the nearest hospital. Ask someone you trust to drive you! Take a deep breath, let it out slow. Touch your heart with your hand. Listen to the music it plays. It’s for you only.

I really hope that you reach out to a psychologist,counselor, doctor. You should really contact them and explain your deepest emotions. Receiving help is the most hardest step. Once you decide to do this I believe treatment will help. There isn’t a perfect approach to receive treatment but, so many positive ideas and techniques can form.

Other ways to receive help:

Web Counseling Resources

Help Lines

Alternative to self harm

Reasons to stay

Try joining a new group ( yoga, self-defense, crafting, book club, sports). It takes time to meet a true full hearted friendship. But, keep trying and don’t give up! Its not the amount of friends but the quality. Even if its just one person that can be enough to share memories and deep thoughts.  I have no friends where I live, so I decided to search for pen-pals. I recommend doing this but, safely. Don’t give out your personal information right away, get to know the person. Ask for a selfie, ask them questions even if that takes few months or longer. Get a P.O. Box . Here in Canada there’s a thing called Flex Mail that is free for people to receive mail to  a post office of your choosing. Its secure and it gives you a unique address.  Join a local group of gardeners or support groups that are near your community.

Take a note book or open up your phone’s notes

Write down all your worries, fears, thoughts that keep you up

Write down all your inspirations, moments of joy

Goals, adventures, future jobs you would like

What kind of hobby or career most interests you? Write down why and how to achieve it Search it up at the library or online. Set goals to start.

Write about the type of friend you wish to have (qualities, personality, trust).

Now take a post it note or a paper with tape; write down affirmations.  Example “ Thank you for this new day, I’m grateful for another chance to live my life, I’m grateful to feel the air in my lungs and the beating of my heart, All of the power I need to create a life I love is inside of me”. Place these affirmations on your mirror, desk, bathroom, closet. Each day look at them.

Motivational speeches/ Music:

Fight Through It - Motivational Video

Prince Ea – How to find your purpose

Prince Ea- How to let go of pain

Christina Aguilera – Fighter

Sia - Never Give Up

Pharrell Williams – Happy

Shane Koyczan- Remember How We Forgot 

Reasons to stay alive:

Touching kittens, soft and sweet creatures who love to play all the time

The morning sun, gently waking you up from a good sleep

Eating yummy treats, tasting new food , smelling fresh baked goods

Learning new recipes that excite your taste buds

Gardening for the first time, watching your plants grow as your hard work pays off

Butterflies landing on your hands

Photographs of new adventures you will have in the future, all the places you’ve never been

Walking in the park, seeing people smile

Hearing your heartbeat, knowing how beautiful it sounds

Poetry and new upcoming books

Inspirational music, motivational speeches about life

Visiting a family member

Learning new hobbies

Crafting new things (Sewing, painting, poetry, singing, writings)

“So speak and be heard. One word after the next, express yourself and put your life into context if you find that no one is listening be loud. Make noise. Stand in poise and be open. Hope in these situations is not enough and you will need someone to lean on. In the unlikely event that you have no one, look again. Everyone is blessed with the ability to listen. The deaf will hear you with their eyes. The bling will see you with their hands. Let your heart fill.” –Shane Koyczan

I hope this helped even just a bit. Remember to keep holding on, this life is worth it, you are worth it! ! You are more than what you do. You might not believe it now, but the way your feeling will change. Don’t let anyone stand in the way of your magical light, keep shining.  Always choose love.

“I am grounded, my spirit is grounded deep in the earth. I am calm, strong, centered and peaceful. I am able to let go of fear and trust that I am eternally safe. I am worthy of all things beautiful”- Carly Marie

“My soul is not contained within the limits of my body. My body is contained within the limitless of my soul”. Jim Carrey

xxHugs – mha-Lupita

[styczniowy]

okay questions 1-70 ily babe

there's a lot of twenty one pilots in this...

1. A Song you’re ashamed of likingthat terrible valentines day song from jacksfilmstbh im ashamed of even liking jacksfilms

2. Favourite lyrics"but there's hope out the windowso that's where we'll go"

3. Favourite band/artisttwenty one pilots

4. Top 5 Favourite songs at this momentalt-j - bloodfloodfall out boy - hold me tight or don't run the jewels - downthe neighbourhood - you get me so highflatsound - sleep

5. Latest song that made you smileboyinaband - spectrum (ft cryaotic and minx)idk i just like this songand i also like dave and cry so

6. An overrated bandfifth harmony

7. An overrated songdua lipa - new rulesit's not that good.

8. Latest song that made you cryode to sleep by twenty one pilots because i accidentally played the live version and i wasn't expecting the feels

9. Artist/band that saved your life twenty one pilots

10. If you could see any band/artist live, who would it beeither twenty one pilots again or adele

11. What song/album/band/artist always brings back memories for youamerican authors - best day of my life

12. saddest song you knowtyler joseph - literally the whole npi album

13. Favourite song to sing in the showerjon bellion - all time low

14. If you played an instrument in grade school, what was iti didn't

15. What song would you like to have your first dance to at your wedding elvis presley - can't help falling in lovepreferably with tyler joseph singing it live but that's just a detail

16. 5 Songs to have sex tothe weeknd - oftenthe weeknd - earned itthe weeknd - where you belongbeyonce - crazy in love (50 shades version)frank sinatra - witchcraft(i know almost all of these are from 50 shades of grey thanksan yes, i like the weeknd a lot)

17. One band you’d have get back together/bring back from the dead@my chemical romance when's the reunion tour

18. You’re forced to listen to only one album for the rest of your life, what album is itvessel by twenty one pilots

19. A song that gets you through shittwenty one pilots - guns for hands (and also truce)these two got me through a lot of shit.

20. A song to shut everything outfall out boy - the phoenix

21. A song that’s a joke between you and your friends i don't have friends bye

22. A song to jam out to at 4amliterally any song by jinsang

23. A song that punches you in the gut every single time my chemical romance - welcome to the black paradei don't think this is a suprise

24. A song that calms you downthe deli - 5:32pm

25. A song that makes you feel alive twenty one pilots - trees

26. If you could get any lyrics tattooed, which would you choose"stay alive, for me."i'd tattoo the all over my body if i could.

27. What band/artist would you get your children addicted to at an early age ALL OF THEM, MAKE THEM SUFFER FROM FANDOMS

28. Can you play any instruments, if so, which no, but i want to play the drums ((:

29. If you could be a member of any band for one show, who would it bei'd be josh dunso i could play drums, look hot, and look at tyler's butt for an hour

30. CDs or Vinyls cds because i'm poorbut i wish i could have like 9284957 vinyls

31. 25 songs to play at your funeral HOOO BOY GET SOME POPCORN1. (i was going to list all of my favorite twenty one pilots songs but that's more than 25 so just play all and count them as one.)2. troye sivan - heaven3. alt-j - deadcrush4. alt-j - in cold blood5. my chemical romance - cancer6. dodie - i have a hole in my tooth (and my dentist is shut) (this song is so dumb i love it)7. dodie - 6/108. adele - set fire to the rain9. patrick stump - spotlight10. panic! at the disco - girls/girls/boys (a song about a threesome? why the fuck not)11. mike bliss - the disconnect (mike is a blessing to this worls and i love him)12. jesse cale - the saddest panda (because i love jesse too much)13. fall out boy - the phoenix14. fall out boy -i don't care15. fall out boy - the last of the real ones16. imagine dragons - demons17. run the jewels - down18. run the jewels - panther like a panther (only bc it makes everyone uncomfortable)19. run the jewels - early20. alessia cara - scars to your beautiful 21. thirty seconds to mars - up in the air22. thirty seconds to mars - kings and queens23. sia - breathe me24. sia - cellophane25. depeche mode - where's the revolution

32. What are some song titles that you love"nothing good comes from being gone" - flatsound"it's thursday, january 12th and this is the last time i'll talk about drowning" - flatsound"our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we wouldn't get sued" - fall out boy"i'm like a lawyer with the way i'm always trying to get you off" - fall out boy"the only difference bteween martyrdom and suicide is press coverage" - panic! at the disco"lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off" - panic! at the disco

33. If your life ended today, what song would you choose to represent itidubbz - i'm gaybecause this song is dumb and i am gay.

34. Give me a random 10 song playlist 1. fall out boy - dance, dance2. the 1975 - if i believe you3. quebonafide - bollywood4. boyinaband - christmix 35. royal blood - little monster6. pierce the veil - circles7. harry styles - kiwi8. muse - madness9. lp - tightrope10. idealism - a moment of silence

35. A heart wrenching songtyler joseph - drown

36. A band/artist you’re proud ofbry. MY BOI IS POPULAR

37. A song that has a lot of meaning to youfor the 100th timetwenty one pilots - guns for hands

38. A song that reminds you of schoolleathermouth - 5th period massacre

39. A song not sung in your native languagelil' kleine - krantenwijk(i could've chosen any song in english, but i thought that's too boring so this one's in dutch :))

40. An instrumental songflatsound - consciousness

41. A classical songuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

42. A song with no percussionsayuw - see you

43. Something you’ve heard performed livedo you want the whole twenty one pilots ers setlist or..?

44. Something you’d give ANYTHING to hear performed live5 words: twenty one pilots dual drummers

45. A song from a band/artist that’s from your town/city/state/province i don't listen to any so idk

46. A song made suddenly precious because of a special someonethe neighbourhood - wiressuddenly i like it more than i should

47. A song made suddenly painful because of someone specialeeeeh idk

48. A song that demands lip syncing and a makeshift microphonepanic! at the disco - miss jackson

49. A song from a band/artist you met/knowi have never met any artist really??

50. A song that you would rock at karaoke fall out boy - i don't carei can't sing but i'm ready to fuck your ears up

51. A song you can’t help but dance topatrick stump - run dry

52. A song that makes you want to dance on a table panic! at the disco - don't threaten me with a good timethis song is wILD

53. Your 10 song stripper playlistcan i skip this question?i can. NEXT!

54. Favourite Disney song hakuna matata!!!

55. A song that starts with the first letter of your namechristina perri - jar of hearts

56. A song from an artist still alive dillon francis - love in the middle of a firefight

57. A song from an artist who’s deadfrank sinatra - chicago

58. A song you love by an artist/band you hate justin bieber - love yourselfi despise him as a human but this song is really nice so hsjfhksjf

59. A song you love with a colour in the titletroye sivan - blue

60. A song you love with a number in the titlefall out boy - 27

61. A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget abouti don't think i really have one???

62. A song that needs to be played LOUDfrnkiero and the cellabration - .blood infections.

63. A song that makes you think about lifehonestly just most flatsound songs.

64. 15 Songs that get stuck in your head easily alt-j - breezeblocks  little mix - shout out to my exadele - rolling in the deepportugal. the man - feel it stillmajor lazer - get freetwenty one pilots - polarizeparamore - hard timespanic! at the disco - golden daysfall out boy - jet pack bluespatrick stump - spotlightfoxes - youthvesperteen - insanej balvin - tranquilacamila cabello - havanakaty perry - e.t.

65. A song that you think everyone should listen to twenty one pilots - gonerat least once.

66. A song that makes you want to fall in lovei'm already in love sooo

67. A song that makes you think about ‘him/her’troye sivan - talk me down

68. A song that you remember from your childhoodi had a shakira phase, i guess any song from she wolf shdhdhdgddb this is embarrasing bye

69. A song that reminds you of youa what

70. Okay what’s the real answer to number 1trippple nippples - lsdI HAVE NO REGRETS

[toradh]

Tagged by @rorotoz, my meme buddy

I slept for 8 hours, dozed for two more and am still exhausted as if a truck had run over me, so I guess I might as well do this for my maybe curious followers out there

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers, put in yours, and when you are done tag up to ten people and also tag the person who tagged you… And most importantly, have fun!

A - Age: next week I’ll be 29, so let’s say 29 B - Biggest fear: getting to the point where I can’t allow myself to draw or play videogames anymore because I don’t have money and/or time C - Current time: 3pm but considering the state of my brain, that probably won’t be true anymore once I’ve posted this D - Drink you last had: …I almost exclusively drink tap water E - Every day starts with: grudgingly getting up, and feeding myself and the cats breakfast F - Favorite song: I have too many! It also depends on mood. A few all time favourites are (without any specific order): The Piper Never Dies (Edguy), The Seven Angels+the Scarecrow (Avantasia), The Great Escape (Seventh Wonder), Bless the Child+Ghost Love Score (Nightwish), Im Ursprung der Schatten/Niemand, niemand anderem als dir (Samsas Traum), I’d Do Anything for Love (Meat Loaf), The Haunting+EdenEcho (Kamelot), Shatter Me (Lindsey Stirling), Rolling in the Deep (Adele), Alive (Sia), Which Witch (Florence + the Machine), Sæglopur (Sigur Rós), Defying Gravity (from Wicked) and actually quite a few more I’ll just randomly stop here My favourite songs to SING are How Far I’ll Go, Melodies of Life, and Sanctuary, although I suck at the latter. Ask me again for an excessive list of favourite bands, list of favourite songs PER BAND, and favourite songs from games and anime. Also I didn’t even go into instrumental music/soundtracks here. G - Ghosts, are they real?: why and how should they H- Hometown: Bochum. That’s the one where they play the German version of Starlight Express. You totally needed to know that. J - Jealous of: cats K - Killed someone: I’m too chicken too remove bugs and spiders from my flat while still alive, I’m sorry. Also I accidentally killed a bunch of baby mice together with the boy from next door when we were kids; we dug up the (large) compost pile in my dad’s garden and ripped the nest apart. Yes, on accident. I don’t even remember why we dug it up, we probably didn’t even think animals might live there. We tried to raise the babies with regular cow’s milk, which, of course, epically failed. Not that we’d had any better ideas at our age. We never, never dug up the compost pile EVER again, believe me. L - Last time you cried: …yesterday M - Middle name: don’t have one N - Number of siblings: 2 O - One wish: …a stable income that still allows me to indulge in regular doodling
 P - Person you last called: I never call unless my life is directly threatened Q - Questions you’re always asked: “How are you?” AS ALWAYS FOR GOD’S SAKE R - Reasons to smile: cats not terrorising me, funny memes S - Song last sang: I don’t remember what I last sang along with but I’m actually refreshing Melodies of Life with my singing teacher T - Time you woke up: 10am, but I didn’t get up then. U - Underwear color: most days, black V - Vacation destination: I have little interest in travelling these days, but I’m pretty sure some places in Canada would be nice; or Mayan ruins, or Iceland. Once in winter, once in summer. W - Worst habit: Recognising what I’m doing wrong with my life but not doing anything about it because it’s not worth the effort. X - X-rays you’ve had: Er, a few? Don’t know. I’ve also been MRT’d, now that was weird. Y - Your favorite food: chocolate, icecream, fruit, especially berries. I also adore pears, but I can hardly eat more than one without getting a tummy ache. Also pumpkin pie. Z - Zodiac sign: Libra. Is this a good moment to tell you that I’m the worst libra ever, horoscopes never fit me, and then I get angry because they don’t fit me (my ascendant is cancer, which fits a bit better but still…)


As usual, I’m too lazy to tag

[sammieboobear1100]

30 questions tag

Tagged by @sevenpabosandabunchoffans cuz shes a bitch

Rules:

Answer 30 questions

Tag 20 blogs you would like to know better

Nicknames: Sam, Sammie, Strawberry Cream Puff, Short Stack, Samboli, Sex Fairy Godmother (lmao)

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Gemini

Height: 5′ (152.4 cm)

Time as of right now: 8:17 pm

Birthday: May 28, 1997

Favorite Bands: I listen to everything so I dont really have a favorite

Favorite Solo Artists: ^^

Song stuck in my head: Never Ever by GOT7

Last Movie I Watched: The Emperors New Groove (dont judge me)

Last Show I Watched: The Defenders

When did I create my blog? Tbh ive had this blog for years i just never really used it till now

What do I post? Mainly i just respond to @sevenpabosandabunchoffans or i answer sex questions

Last thing you googled: Song lyrics (which is 99% of my google searches)

Do you have any other blog? Nope

Do you get asks? Ive gotten like 2 lol but id love to get more!

Why did you choose your url? Its another one of my nicknames i was given in middle school by a person im no longer friends with

Following: 4

Followers: 34

Favorite Colors: Blue, Black, Purple, Red

Average hours of sleep: Either 3 hours or 12 there is pretty much no in between

Lucky Number: I guess 4. I dont really have one but its a number i see fairly often

Instruments: lmao do vocal cords count???? (couldnt learn to play an instrument as i would get so frustrated that id break it)

What am I wearing? My dads duck dynasty shirt and some underwear

How many blankets do I sleep with? 1 quilt (because quilts are the best things ever fight me on it)

Dream Job: It used to be a nurse but then mental illness happened and now i have no idea what im going to do

Dream Trip: Literally anywhere outside of the US

Favorite Food: ....everything....im a fat piece of shit frfr....

Nationality: American

Favorite Song Now: Alive by Sia

My Tags:

I was informed i was excluded by @sevenpabosandabunchoffans

[loonybythelandscape]

im haunted by the distant past

Prequel to to be human is to love, even when it gets too much (im not ready to give up)

p>Phil’s not quite sure how this happened. It seems like only yesterday he was playing video games, teasing Dan for spending thousands of pounds on a shirt, pointedly looking at baby name lists when they sat pressed together on the sofa.

Now they’re here.

Dan is quickly sorting through the last of their supplies, deciding what’s worth taking and how much they can carry. His fingernails are dirty, hair greasy and filled with who knew what. A mostly healed cut under his eye stares back at Phil, seeming to laugh at him. Phil picks up a box of hello kitty bandaids, looking at Dan questioningly.

Dan snorts. “I think we have bigger things to worry about than paper cuts.”

Phil nods, still eyeing that cut. An inch higher and he would’ve had to deal with a half-blind Dan, or a horrible infection they have no medicine for, or-

They’re leaving because Workingham is dead, figuratively and literally. He’d held Dan as he cried silently into his shirt, inside Dan’s empty house. There was no note; the house seemed to have been ransacked a long time ago.

“It’s my birthday soon, you know,” Dan says conversationally, no hint of anything in his voice. Phil hates when he gets like this. He knows he has no right, knows it’s the fricking zombie apocalypse, knows he wasn’t the one who found an empty house with no-one, knows he might do the same thing if they ever reach Manchester.

“Yeah,” Phil agrees, keeping his tone light. He feels, suddenly, just how much they’re constantly dancing around each other, lying by omission or just plain lying. Yes, we’ll find food at the next stop, just not this one. Yes, it’s safe here for the night. Yes, someone is alive.

Phil starts packing everything Dan’s deemed acceptable into their bags, pausing at the small picture frame he finds buried in the bottom of Dan’s bag. It’s a photo Cornelia had taken, he’s pretty sure, when Dan was only twenty-two and Phil twenty-six. He recognizes the edges of his old house, Dan practically sitting on Phil’s lap, his mouth open mid-laugh and eyes scrunched shut. Phil’s looking at him, laughing too but more focused on Dan.

Phil shoves it back into the bag and spots a can of sugary peaches. He glances at Dan, who’s crouching next to him and putting supplies away, grumbling under his breath.

-

That night they warm the peaches over a little fire, sprinkling it with a bit of sugar they’d found in the cabinets. “Happy Birthday, Dan,” Phil says, hating the way the peaches taste like luxury now. Hating the way just this makes him full. “We’ll have cake next year.”

Dan rolls his eyes, but leans over for a soft kiss, a bit of sugar stuck to the corner of his mouth. He hums against Phil’s mouth, not much of an agreement. But Phil promises himself they will have cake, and their little house with a little garden, with a pair of little feet running around, chased by four scampering paws. They will. Because what’s the point otherwise?

Title from Sia’s Never Give Up

[saorsayay]

Tag Game

Tagged by @the-awesome-sia (thank you v much lad aayy B))))

1. Post the rules

2. Answer questions by the person that tagged you

3. Write 11 questions of your own

4. Tag 11 people

@the-awesome-sia‘s questions~

1. Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert? Perhaps an ambivert?

Oooh definitely an introvert. I like hanging out w/ friends a lot but I just need my “me-time” pls and thank you.

2. Do you like rice?

I love rice

3. Which movie had you shook for days?

Omg from what I can think of at the moment, probably “The Illusionist” (or “ L'Illusionniste”) (the animated film by Sylvain Chomet, not the other one Jessica Biel and Edward Norton lol) or “When the Wind Blows” shook me to the core.

(and now that I think about it, most of the second half of “Anthrapoid” shook me a bit too)

4.Have you played Undertale? If so, what’s your opinion of the fandom?

No I have not played Undertale (I’m not one for video games in general soz), and when it comes to the fandom, I’ve heard a lot of not-so-nice things about it but I try to just mind my own business. As long as you’re not harming others or yourself. you do you boo.

5. What’s your favourite traditional song from your country?

Ah, either “Bean Pháidín “ (this version of it here has a little animated video that goes with the song, and it kinda gives you an idea of what its about and its *cough* slightly sinister undertones *coUGH*), and I’m also rather fond of  “Óró Mo Bháidín“ :-)) (you might already recognize the melody from the Passion Pit song “Sleepyhead”) 

6. Do you believe in luck?

More often than not, yes (especially when I need it lmao)

7. Which one of the seven deadly sins do you feel closer to (Reminder: Greed, Lust, Wrath, Sloth, Envy, Gluttony and Pride)

Ugh sLOTH IM THE WORST FOR DOING F*CK ALL  AAAAH

8. Do you believe in love in first sight?

Hmmm I’d say I believe in infatuation at first sight, as I believe that (at least with my definition of “love”) in order to truly love someone, there has to be a sense of mutual trust and understanding on both sides that I think just can’t happen upon first meeting someone. Can you find someone attractive after meeting/seeing them only once? yes. Can you really love someone? I don’t think so nah

(In saying this tho, this is coming from someone who hasn’t really been in love ever, so take it with a grain of salt k? This is only my humble opinion)

9. Are you in the side of science/ technology or art/anthropology?

I am a woman of the arts. I appreciate you scientists, keep doin’ what you’re doin’, but the study of people and the things they do are where its at for me (says the introvert hA)

10. When is your birthday?

17th of August! (I’ve been 17 for a week now and I can’t wrap my head around how I’ll be a legal adult next year help)

11. Do you like yourself?

Well, as of this moment in time, I’d say I’m pretty alright with myself as a whole (this could change at any moment tho stay tuned kiddos)

Tagging: aah idk anyone on this hellsite !! But of the mutuals I do know/ know well enough to tag at least(??) would be @petitebaguette, @sugar-mountain, @interdimensional-cats, aaaand @hibernianbok :-D (its okay if yall don’t wanna answer its all g)

1. How are you? (today, in general, whatever...)

2. One thing you were obsessed with as a child?

3. One thing your obessed with right now?

4. Opinions on Zodiac signs, astrology, etc.?

5. If you could invite one person in the world, dead or alive, to dinner, who would it be?

6. Do you believe in the idea of Karma? (believing that good things happen to good people, and bad things happen to bad people.)

7. What are some of the small things that make you happy?

8. A popular thing that everyone seems to like but you can’t get into/ dislike?

9. What is your personal definition of “home”?

10. TV or films?

11. Give one piece of advice to yourself from 5 years ago.

[ohbutwebestmakepeacewithit]

im gonna blow up your inbox with anons bc i think anons are more romantic and shit buuuuut what are songs that are just so so good to you that they make you happy to be alive bc you got to listen to such a beautiful thing lmk

ahhhhh like you’re literally the cutest!!!! hm songs that make me feel happy and alive …. somebody told me - the killers young and beautiful - lana del ray ninja - banoffeechandelier - sia shake it out - florence bad blood- taylor swift

just realised these are maybe kinda depressing but beautiful music is beautiful music right and i play these on repeat whenever im super depressed or sad and they help for some reason. they’re totally not the type of music i listen to on a daily basis/most commonly though so pls don’t judge lol

also please spam my inbox! i’ll love you forever x

[hvti]

AFTG!Siblings AU

Louisa Anastasia Damia Josten (Damia Dolores Wesninski) 

Damia (english. “to tame, to subdue, to kill”) Dolores (spanish. “sorrows”)

Louisa (french. “warrior”) Anastasia (greek. “resurrection”)

the name anastasia was given to her by mary when she unofficially adopted her and took her on the run w her & neil

like how neil keeps the middle name abram in all his identities, louisa keeps anastasia in all her identities

she also keeps damia, much to mary’s chagrin

when they were younger neil used to call lousia ‘DD’ for damia dolores

now he calls her sia (which, btw, is hebrew for victory)

she calls him abe & abram in private (mostly abe)

neil was the one to come up with the name louisa when they went to millport

she’s nathan’s and lola’s daughter so she’s neil’s half sister

she’s older than him by a year or two

they look exactly the same so they often had to pretend to be twins

also she’s shorter than him (by like an inch) which he teases her about constantly

btw dolores is the full name of lola and means the same thing

she was born deaf, master at reading lips in 5 different languages (including english, obvi)

also a master at sign language but has hardly ever had a need to use it because she can communicate w neil using eye contact so,

has trouble pronouncing words because of her hearing; her voice is all hollow and choppy

neil finds comfort in it anyway

super strong & super fast; her arms are thick and muscular af

she has a curvy athletic w a tiny waist that’s super sexy btw un f

also she can most definitely bench press anyone of the the foxes

maybe not matt or kevin but,

can also run as fast as neil

she isn’t a ‘rabbit’ like neil is though

she also doesn’t have an obsession w exy like neil does either, she only plays to be closer to him

she’s a dealer btw

she’s also a freakin’ amazing dealer like woah

she tends to be quiet and aloof; louisa usually only speaks out of irritation or to defend neil when necessary

part of the reason she doesn’t bother communicating is cus it’s too bothersome to try and talk to people who either 1. don’t know asl or 2. can’t read her like neil can

she has sociopathic tendencies,,

maybe borderline psychopathic

she gets pissed easily (but it doesn’t show thanks to her usually display of blank indifference)

enjoys picking on people; she has a dark and sarcastic sense of humor

also,,, she’s v sadistic and has a temper that rivals her fathers

it’s a couple of the things she inherited from nathan besides his looks

loves toying with her enemies and prolly feels most alive when she’s in a fight and/or about to kill someone

she killed a lot of nathan’s men while on the run

usually when his people found them she’d be the first to figure it out & tell mary to take neil and run ahead & she’d catch up with them when she was done

at the beginning she cared only for neil; she’s always had a strong sense of loyalty, devotion, & maternal instincts towards neil ever since he was born

neil is the only person louisa treats with a sort of gentleness

i.e. when she touches him: her fingers are always light and soft as if she’d break if she put too much force,

she often plays with his hair, it relaxes him,

they cuddle a lot

they’ve done it ever since they were kids, it started when neil was too afraid to go to sleep at night cus of his father

when they first moved into the fox tower louisa would sneak into neil’s dorm room and cuddle w him for the first few weeks

(they also shared the couch when they were staying w wymack before school started),

she’d sometimes sing lullabies or tell random, made up stories to help calm him down when he has nightmares or panics, despite her voice

neil highkey finds her voice very soothing

when she becomes closer to the foxes she becomes just as fiercely protective of them as she is of neil (but, ofc, she’ll always hold neil to a higher standing lmao)

she also starts talking with them, not by much tho like a short sentence every now and then

but the foxes learn to read louisa as well as neil can so

they also as neil to teach them asl to surprise louisa (when they showed her she had the biggest smile on her face and so much love in her eyes all of the foxes started crying; except andrew ofc)

she’s never cared for neil’s mother, like, at all

it was mostly because mary beat neil and no one hurts neil

whenever mary would raise her hand to beat neil louisa would crush her wrists or bruise her ribs in return

nothing too major cus they needed mary to still be able to run when needed

she respected mary on some level tho because she stole money and ran to protect neil which lousia can relate too

tho lousia wouldn’t have been so cowardly. she would’ve just killed nathan

she isn’t scared of nathan, her mother or the moriyamas like neil is

she doesn’t have nightmares

she doesn’t live in constant fear for her life

she isn’t worried about making it through the year alive

she isn’t worried about becoming like her father (she basically is as this point)

she isn’t afraid of her natural appearance because it looks too much like nathan’s

she is afraid of not being strong enough to protect neil

she’s afraid of losing him; it’s the one thing she has nightmares about

she’s very skilled with knives and carries like 50 different sized ones on her person at all times

she actually has a great sense of fashion

she hated the shit mary made her and neil wear and lowkey blames mary for neil’s sad excuse for fashion

when mary dies she fixes neil’s wardrobe

she usually only wears pants & long sleeve shirts & jackets

not because she’s hiding her scars tho (which, trust me, she has a lot of scars, like 50% of her body has scars and she get more when she goes with neil to evermore)

she actually likes her scars; she’s quite proud of them, shows she’s survived a lot of shit

part of the reason she covers up is cus of neil (ofc)

when he used to he see her scars he was also reminded of how most of those were because of him, because louisa was protecting him

he always hated that he could never protect her when all she’s done is protect him

he often feels like a burden to her and her scars kinda amplify his self-hate

and louisa noticed this a long time ago so, she covers up

the other have of the reason is cus it helps to hide her disgustingly large amount of knives (like srsly she has so many)

she often forgets to put in her contacts at times or redye her hair when her roots start growing so neil has to remind her

even though louisa is way more like nathan then neil will ever be, he always feels safe with her and loves her more than anything else in the world

he’s just as protective of louisa as she is of him

tho he spent his life running so he isn’t has strong as she is and can’t protect her like she can protect him

he’ll try to nonetheless ofc cus: martyr.

and being the Sass Master that he is neil is always the first one to drag a bitch verbally when they insult louisa

neil does the talking, louisa does that fighting; brain and brawns i guess you could say???

btw louisa is a history geek like kevin is (her favorite is mythology)

remember when i mentioned louisa telling neil stories?

most of them are mythology ones

her best subject is history

surprisingly enough louisa becomes closest with nicky, renee & kevin

she’s close w all of the foxes ofc

but nicky is her Sunshine

and renee gets her the most besides andrew

but andrew is neil’s and she respects that

and for some reason her and kevin share this weird bond and they become inseparable like she is w neil

and to the utter shock of everyone louisa is also as close w aaron as she is w neil & kevin

and i know this is an unpopular opinion but i like aaron

i hate his homophobic slurs with a passion but Goddess Nora mentioned that he became that way because of the environment that he grew up in

and i feel like aaron has potential to be better (there are so many aaron hcs out there that relate to how i perceive him in this hc but im too lazy to find them and link them,,)

so! somehow, someway aaron and louisa have a bonding moment idk what yet i haven’t thought that far yet

(and this is basically an about hc not a fic hc so,,,)

i do know that it happens sometime after the drake incident possibly??? idk

and they talk, a lot mostly in asl (besides neil, andrew and herself aaron is the best at asl)

aaron confesses to her about all the shit he went through with her mom and andrew and how he hates andrew or that he hates nicky

and he tells her how he hates himself the most and that he doesnt really hate andrew or nicky and that he wants to be better

so louisa helps him, listens to him when he needs an ear, drops little pieces of advice here and there

and no one knows this is going on for like the longest time

they only find out when nicky catches aaron and louisa sitting on the couch together in their dorm room playing video games and aaron is at shouting in disbelief because how can someone whos never played a goddamn video game in her life be so fucking good!? and louisa cackling like a freakin’ cartoon villain as she continues to crush aaron in w/e game they were playing

nicky was Shook

he told everyone of course

or something like that again idk,,,

also, louisa doesn’t go pro like neil does

instead, she becomes ichirou’s right hand

when neil finishes talking to ichirou about his life, ichirou tells neil to wait outside while he talked to louisa

and ichirou asks louisa if she wants the same thing her brother wanted

and louisa was confused cus like she didn’t say or do anything during the entire time ichirou was talking with neil so why ask?

she didn’t care what she did when she got out of collage as long as she was near neil so she can protect him

but neil had andrew to protect him now so… was she really needed?

ichirou spoke to her about how she killed her father’s men (he got reports i guess, nathan’s men were kengo’s men technically)

people were sent to the last place they heard from nathan’s followers and they found their bodies bloody and mangled

louisa smirked ever so slightly, nodding her head to ichirou’s implied question (“was it you?”)

so, ichirou makes a different deal with louisa and she becomes his right hand and is held at a much, much higher status than nathan

i don’t know how i’d want their relationship to be though im caught between it being just a business thing, a way for her to protect neil from the inside as well

or have them have like a mutual respect for each other w louisa being almost as fiercely loyal to him as she is to neil (but again, neil will always be #1)

i also kinda want her and ichirou to get together at some point

most likely when louisa graduates from college

p.s. when her and neil get kidnapped by nathan and lola louisa puts up a hell of a fight

like she hurts lola bad

and nathan too

but they drugged her so she was pretty weak and couldn’t kill them like she wanted

it was the most scared she’s ever been cus lola was hurting neil while nathan was hurting her and she knew lola was only toying with neil for fun but god what is lola killed him?

she’s never felt more useless in her life

is was also the first time she’s ever felt so scared

p.s.s. louisa does change her name officially to louisa anastasia damia josten w neil

i think that’s it for now? maybe i’ll write lil drabbles or smth in the future?? i’ve never been good at writing but i do wanna see louisa come to life,,, the struggle is real

i might post more of louisa on here or my writing blog @principi and my main blog is @cimelio

also if you want come talk to me about hcs!!! i love sharing ideas n junk lmao