#*loss and love and forgiveness

[haleyincarnate]

Forgive yourself.

[ptimepoet]

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.

[nexadarling]

Watching tristamp: oh vash has mommy issues

Watching trigun 98: oh vash has MOMMY ISSUES

Reading Trimax: Actually Vash went through an extremely traumatising event at a young age and had to face the realities of humans. Rem was there, as the twins' mother figure, to represent the good. Reconciling humanity's differences is what made him how he is, and he projects that onto Rem. In this essay I will-

[dustykneed]

elizabeth schuyler was a sister and a daughter. elizabeth hamilton is all that, and a revolutionary's wife, and then the wife of the secretary of the treasury, scorned.

she burns letters, and she commits his penmanship to memory. he only began to loop the H in his name after the end of the war. he used to write like a hurricane was at his heels, in his youth. every poem etched with a shard of his soul, bleeding light like cathedral glass.

she loves him, still. she doesn't think she could ever stop. but she lets him think she has, and eliza is many things, but now, above all else, she is a mother.

so she burns every letter he has written her-- burns months and years and decades-- and she rereads her life in reverse, in the light of her candle flame. she erases his past, every bit of it with love, for her children, for him.

years of her life crumble into ash beside his.

[carmelasoprano]

No matter how many detours you take, or how much you try to run, the road always leads back home.

[ibuprofenjuliet]

“The death of her first son left Rhaenyra filled with grief and pain, her second left her with hatred and vengeance, and her third, the youngest of his Velaryon brothers, brought silent tears from her now empty eyes”

[missszena]

Your point about Bunny is interesting where it doesn't excuse anything she's done (hard to ignore her flawed parenting and the similarities to cultural appropriation and engaging in closed practices), there's still a layer of depth to her deal.

Oh yeah Bunny still isn't a good person whatsoever

Even BEFORE Cherie drowned she would give one child preferential treatment over the other which is a terrible thing to do

She's a character who you can sympathize/empathize with her loss and how that may have made her worse, but shes still absolutely in the wrong on all fronts for how she treated Trey and how she'd go on to treat Hazel and Lacey

She didnt "deserve" to lose her baby, that's an absolutely horrific thing for a parent to go through, and while it may have influenced her to escalate her behavior that's also not a excuse for her to go on and do the awful things she'd end up doing to try and bring Cherie back to life, including disregarding how Cherie herself felt being trapped and unable to move on for decades inside that tree

Her depth is incredibly interesting :>

[kidokear]

Random crack thought, but, and bear with me here, TFA Megatron (before Earth, ideally) somehow end up interacting with the Decepticons of another continuity, and he sees that they're doing better than his Decepticons (as in, hadn't lost yet) despite the Autobots of this world being bigger and more adapt at combat with some war frames of their own. And he's trying to figure out the differences (at least ones that he can control) and see what he can do to improve his odds.

He noticed that the chain in command is practically the same, that is with one exception. A third in command (I honestly don't know who's TFA Megatron's third or if he even has one, at least at the moment, so let's say he didn't have a third since their loss, OK?) Soundwave.

Now, he never known a Soundwave, both in Decepticons and Autobots ranks. So he's curious about this new mech who not only a chief officer, but also seem to be trusted implicitly by the other Megatron with both his back and the tasks he assigned to him (TFA Megatron has loyal subjects, Like Lugnut and Shockwave who would do anything in their power to serve him, but they tend to go overboard with their attempt to appease him and to show up each other. Soundwave doesn't seem to have such issues. If anything, he's quiet).

Another thing that caught his attention that the other Megatron is familiar with him, and doesn't have that detachment that TFA Megatron keep even with his more loyal solders. He favors him but not in a 'keep this up and I will keep reminding everyone of how well you're doing', but it a genuine acknowledgment of his competent and a job well done that is accepted quietly and without commotion or gloating.

Anyway that is all to say; TFA Megatron sees a Soundwave and decides "I need one of those." XD

[aceoflights]

Lucas Johnson

Saw an other post and wanted to write down my own thoughts and feelings. I haven't read tgr yet, because I'm waiting for the physical book to come out, so I'm only working on information from tsc.

I've seen some people say they hate Lucas. And I suppose I get it. I get why Jean would hate him for sure.

But as someone who loves complex characters and relationships, I really can't hate him. Because everything he does is very understandable (I wanna use the German word nachvollziehbar. Which means something like understandable, but feels less weighted. It feels less like you're justifying someone's actions) imo.

Like, put yourself in his shoes. His brother, who he was pretty close to, goes of to college. On a sports scholarship. Of a sport they both play and love. Very exciting. Lucas probably can't wait for him to come back and tell him all about it. But he doesn't. Grayson doesn't come back. For years. Lucas has essentially lost his brother. He doesn't even know what's going on. Probably thinks Grayson abandoned him. Doesn't care about him anymore (sort of correct).

I have a brother (although younger). We're not very close. Never really have been. But I love him so dearly. If my brother went of to college and just didn't come back, I would be heartbroken. I would honestly probably try to go there and get him. Because what the fuck?

Then he is back. His cult collapsed and he's finally home. Lucas thinks he finally has his brother back. But he won't even acknowledge him. The only thing he ever has a reaction to is Jean. So of course when he says he wants to talk to Jean, Lucas says okay. Lucas thinks this might be the only way he could possibly get his brother back. Maybe him having a talk with Jean could be a first step for something. Or Lucas' foot in the door to be able to talk to his brother.

Of course he should've at least told Jean in advance. Probably shouldn't have even agreed to it in the first place, if he paid attention to how Jean acts every time Grayson is mentioned. But despite the fact that he feels like he doesn't really know him anymore, Lucas still feels like his brother is in there. Like he could get him back. And the Grayson he knows would never harm someone in that way. Would never attack someone like that. Would keep his promise of "I only want to talk to him". He doesn't want to believe that his brother could ever do things like that. And obviously when it happens he tries to intervene. He obviously didn't want this to happen. He thought this could be a way to get his brother back. Obviously it was selfish, because he knew that Grayson hated Jean. And he knew Jean implied some not great things. But he's heard bad rumours about Jean for months, and that's his brother. His priority is to get his brother back. Now that he probably feels closer to the possibility of that than he has in years. Now that Grayson is at least physically there.

And then of course it goes horribly wrong. In a way Jean and we, the readers, immediately saw coming. But Lucas couldn't have. I think even in his worst case scenario, he wouldn't have guessed it would happen like that. Because Lucas knows essentially nothing about what went on in the Nest. he has no idea what kind of violence was common place. And he would never think that his brother could be part of that.

I understand why people are mad at him, but I just can't be (and I don't want to be. Because my heart just absolutely breaks for him. This boy who lost his brother in so many ways. First physically, then emotionally, and then the image he had of him. It is all completely shattered. And now Lucas is going to loose him in the most finite of ways. I don't even know yet, if he will be able to talk to him before he dies (as i said, haven't read tgr yet).

[luckystarinsky]

And you do not need my forgiveness, nor I yours; it is all the same whether you forgive or not, all the rest of my life you will remain like a wound in my soul, and I in yours - and that is proper.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[shallowseeker]

SQUINT

loving the goddess symbols tho

Lion on the left one. Durga?

There's also what looks like a sheaf of grain on the right one. Which could be Lakshmi...

I could see that while Amara isn't a direct translation of Durga, she resonates with the Durga archetype quite a lot.... And shown with Lakshmi on the right it's just such a balanced temple, isn't it?

IT'S SO PRETTY I LOVE YOUR ROOM AMARA

Amara (which means "immortal" or "eternal" in Sanskrit, right???) being symbolized with a balanced imagery involving:

The Taj Mahal (a human monument, a mausoleum, death/grief/mourning, so maybe... HUMAN beauty with a gray shadow of sorrow/loss, maybe... it's very visibly less colorful than other things in there...)

Durga (protection, lion, ferocity)

Lakshmi (prosperity, nourishment, harvest)

The blooming red behind Chuck. Even THAT is Amara.

It's ALL Amara.

It's got a oneness WITHOUT Chuck. Dark and light. Color and gray.

Amara is wanting to co-exist as a wholeness all on her very own. WHILE understanding that she is part of a big world and connected to it and her familial roots...

It's interesting to me that her symbolic oneness is depicted as "foreign" too.

Seeing the Taj Mahal here tho, I can't help but think of this too, Jack's wisdom:

JACK: The stuff I'd miss -- it wouldn't be things like Tahiti. Or the Taj Mahal. I'd miss more time with you. I'm getting that life isn't all these big, amazing moments. It's time together that matters. Like this.

And in her rush to experience the world, when faced with Jack, Amara has such a SWEET REACTION, realizing she's been doing a lot of self-growth alone.

She can't find yet the balance in the spending-time-with people part of it, it seems. (And that's okay. We all need growth and alone time. It's just... idk. Very sweet to me that she has this big OH-NO-HAVE-I-MISSED-OUR-TIME-TOGETHER???? moment here.)

Amara had just grand motifs, and Jack's remained pretty humble overall, despite everything.

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EDIT:

Can't forget this symbol rearing its head again in Unity with

Very Lakshmi again... ("She is often depicted seated or standing on a lotus flower, and she may hold a lotus in one or two of her hands.")

This is fun too because if Amara is embodying Lakshmi's "mode" of existing, then Chuck is embodying another storm god's archetypal mode of arrogance (Indra)... hmmm.

[brainworms-all-night-long]

I actually teared up when thinking abt the horshoe crab once, like fym this organism has been existing since the Ordovician which was around 450mil years ago, they managed to survive the most decimating extinctions that man knows off, ice ages and tropical climates, Apex predators that come and gone, their lineage has been alive for so long they completed a full rotation around the Milky way Galaxy TWICE, and if you have the means you could GO and SEE IT and HOLD IT TODAY because it is still scuttling about the shores of our planet as it did for time so long it is near incomprehensible.

Through all that, they barely changed, their fossils look like they're imprints from yesterday, there's a trace fossil of a poor crab suffocating in an anoxic lagoon that is around 150mil years old and there's a full HD colored video from 2022 of a horshoe crab helping another flip from it's back for absolutely no reward or personal benefit other than helping a fellow out

[greenforestflowers]

I cannot image how difficult Brok’s death must have been for Sindri - losing his family, and knowing he inadvertently denied his brother an afterlife.

But making it worse, the missing soul piece also means that they will never see each other again. Sindri retrieved his brother from the Light because he couldn’t bear to part from him. Ironically - tragically - that decision has now separated both eternally. They could have reunited in the Light one day, if only he’d been able to resist and wait. Now, since Brok’s soul will never find its way there, they’ll be apart forever.

Sindri’s distress and rage is not just over Brok’s death in of itself, not just his guilt at accidentally costing him a life in the Light, but also an utterly unimaginable pain because he will certainly, unalterably, never see his brother again. hopefully he finds comfort in Brok forgiving him

[patchwork-crow-writes]

98 - Divinity And Forgiveness

I did not know if I could do it, the first time you abandoned me.

I don't think you meant to leave me behind, not when I think about the ways you cared for me - never letting me leave your sight, keeping me always close to hand. I still remember the way you used to idly rub my horns when you were lost in thought, and how tightly you clung to my slender frame as you slept.

That's what made it so hard, you know. It might have been easier if you'd been careless or dismissive, but to have known such tenderness and lost it once seemed too cruel a fate to endure.

And yet, when you stepped out from the light and we met face-to-face, it was as if all those lonely years had never transpired. You stood before me as a vision of divinity, and the question was not how could I forgive your trespasses, but how could I not forgive them. And oh, the moment your arms took hold of me again, I knew that all was exactly as it should be once more.

Sometimes I wonder if you might do it again - perhaps you'll lose sight of me going around a dark corner, or your hand will slip from mine as you run blindly forward to the next great thing on your horizon. I know it won't be from malice, but I don't know if that loneliness will be any easier to withstand for having known it once before.

But one thing I do know, is that I will always find it in myself to forgive you. Perhaps that makes me a fool, and yet in my mind there can be no other answer. After all, to keep finding you, to fall in love with you over and again... surely I am blessed to know such wonders.

Let me wait here for you, then, until the next time we meet. I'll be the same as I ever was, waiting patiently for your divinely-ordained return.

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The Dark Menagerie No. 98

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